#Would explain a few things though
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Tried this and got sent a test for autism.
the most fun a girl can have is finding parallels, noticing patterns, making connections, contemplating
#i did pass#had no idea what it was for initially#then had no idea why people were being sympathetic#like... i thought it was just a personality type test?#Would explain a few things though#like I cannot control my expressions for the life of me#smiling? it feels like a chore#I feel like an alien sometimes#but I'm happy and idc
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lil reminder that prentice was beacon of the golden towers before he was arrested. both he and wylie probably thought that they'd see each other in the towers when he was a level seven. and wylie probably thought he'd see tiergan around the base levels as a mentor too, since he was still teaching there before he resigned in protest of prentice's arrest. and prentice and leto were probably work buddies alongside being in a rebellion together, since leto was beacon of the silver tower presumably before and after prentice's arrest.
just. y'know. bits of prentice's life before, and how that must've impacted his loved ones all the more long-term.
#prentice endal#wylie endal#magnate leto#or as he was back then#master leto#tiergan alenefar#iiiiiii always have to take a second to not call him tiergan endal. honestly i think he would appreciate that though#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#kotlc thoughts#lucas starts using a queue for once#i hope prentice and tiergan met up in various foxfire staff locations on occasion to catch up#and help each other w/ their work. like maybe prentice has a prodigy he's trying to explain something to and needs help wording it#and tiergan - ever the teacher - helps him out. maybe tiergan's having a hard time opening up in black swan meetings and prentice helps him#out right back. y'know. little things#maybe leto/forkle is just constantly observing their dynamic and they have no idea how he knows so much about their lives lol#i also hope there's a point where prentice tells wylie that tiergan's got a good heart even when he's distant. and that he cares so much an#wants the best for everyone. and that he can always go to him. it would probably eat both of them alive for at least a few years#i also hope that wylie's line in book eight about how tiergan was always adamant about talking things out was something that tiergan learne#from prentice. who knows how differently their lives would've gone if they'd kept just a few less secrets?#tiertice cognates haunts me regularly bro
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rot rot rot rot ... this particular kind infests the grounds of my iterator oc one step ahead / osa, and inevitably him as well. time for me to ramble yayy yayy
meant to post this earlier i just was fussing over names. i have concluded that the colloquial name for all these together is inflorescence longlegs because that means that i still get to use the acronym ILL and thats cool i thinks. proto-rot is creeping longlegs, then in order of size smallest to largest is sprout longlegs, flowering longlegs, and wilting longlegs. they're a sort of mutated vine, one which was pretty common on osa's grounds, but he got just a Little screwed over by astronomically low odds. vine turned into rot naturally as certain background environmental conditions on his grounds make that something that happens from time to time (in more than just vines - any organism). the atypical and astronomically low odds part comes from the fact that it did not resolve itself, because when this occurs on his grounds it's usually such a small sample produced that quickly dies or is otherwise destroyed. in this case, by the time it becomes noticeable to him, it's already grown too quickly to be easily fixed.
because of it occurring naturally, a lot of properties and behaviors are retained from what it was originally. this is mostly because it's scarier that way and i made osa for me to project my nightmares onto👍
for visual - osa's grounds are mostly a tight thicket of bushes and shrubs that are adapted to a higher latitude environment. the thicket provided a fair amount of shelter for the ILLs until the infestation had a sizeable population. a common behavior seen in all ILL specimens, proto or not, is that they try to climb up other plants as they infest them, something retained from being a vine. additionally, when they have infested a significant amount of one shrub, they will start trying to spread to find another by growing on the ground in arches (top right) which is another thing based off of certain vines. they're green because they also can still photosynthesize, though because of high energy needs this is only sustainable for smaller specimens and really only means they can survive longer in a starving state. also, they're very thorny, which makes mobile cysts move slower, and they typically prefer not to move much anyways aside from the wilting longlegs. because they originate from a plant, they're all weaker physically, i think a sprout longlegs you could probably spear to death very easily in one cycle if you had enough spears to expend, and none of them are explosive resistant. fighting any of them with explosives in a particularly large thicket of rot though (or a wilting long legs) is something i would not advise though ;3c.
while slls are parallel to blls, flls to dlls, etc, there's a few distinctions worth making. sprout longlegs and flowering longlegs are very small, with sprout longlegs being probably roughly a bit larger than the size of a squidcada and flowering longlegs being the size of blls or a small dll. wilting longlegs are dll/tll sized. flowering longlegs don't break down into sprout longlegs when starving either (though a wilting longlegs may break down into a group of flowering longlegs), and they occur differently. sprout longlegs are commonly found outside of or on the edge of rot thickets and are common in clusters, as they are all cysts that were broken off the main patches by rain, and very few became mobile through normal means. sprout longlegs are though, like blls, completely senseless, and they don't pose a significant threat - i like to imagine they do have a tendency to fall when they start moving as they have the least amount of thorns though, so the majority of their threat comes from falling from above. flowering longlegs occur via normal means, just cysts that became mobile. they have the ability to hear, and in particularly heavy thickets of creeping longlegs they can also have what is effectively telepathy. think orange lizard. wilting longlegs are similar to flowering longlegs here, they're just much much larger cysts that became mobile, in some instances they may even be cysts that have completely consumed a shrub or bush and then became mobile, hence their size.
wilting longlegs.. :3. they can hear, and regardless of where they are, they're large enough to exhibit telepathy towards each other. wilting longlegs are the most aggressive as their ability to photosynthesize is entirely unsustainable for them - a sprout longlegs will last fine consuming things minimally, a flowering longlegs can last though will eventually start starving, wilting longlegs MUST consume however. their size and energy need is too costly and they're practically always on the edge of a starving state. an additional ability is that their toxicity is extremely concentrated - all ILLs produce toxins, as the vine they originate from did. in most instances, it only becomes a significant threat when consuming them. sprout longlegs are a similar effect to the ingame mushroom effects, flowering longlegs would be similar to the effects hunter experiences when rotting. wilting longlegs, due to their size, produce it the most, and it becomes dangerous to creatures that are grabbed by them. because they are covered in it, even if the creature breaks free, they will experience effects of the toxin shortly after. it's not life-threatening, but it would cause temporary immobility, like spitter spider spit does, alongside the psychoactive effects. wilting longlegs are escapable, but they present a greater hazard than a tll does.
said effects also apply to iterators. which osa learns pretty hard. because he can't ever find a fix to the issue, and his group members become too scared to put effort into helping him, he ends up having to deal with it alone. and the infestation reaches him initially through his intake system, but he can flush it out to prevent it from taking hold. it still damages his systems when it does get in, in very small amounts, and the damages accumulate until there's nothing he can do about it getting in. as more and more rot grows and damages him, he also becomes poisoned by it, and suffers from that as well. and the entire time he's terrified of it, even before it starts reaching him, that combined with the negligence of his group members is why he's a vicious jerk. not evil but he isn't in his right mind from the pressure of how terrifying his situation is from his perspective + inevitably becoming sick too. he was pretty unremarkable before, especially considering he's the oldest one in his group - i'd say senior but i'm still not sure if that's a fanon thing or not? i dont wanna accidentally take someone else's ideas by referring to him as that lol
but. i figured i'd make this as a reference and then also as an excuse to ramble about my nightmares goober🙌yay. it didnt make sense to not have significant depth to the nightmare-inspired parts so i fixed it :3
nvm just remembered the thing i forgot to put. also while their starving colors are not shown here, they shift into a more autumnal/stressed set of colors and become significantly lighter and more desaturated as well. wilting longlegs are the ones you'd find with these colors most often and they're already somewhat adjacent to it. just cuz i think it's cool
#if this needs any cws let me know please btw i'll tag them /gen#i cant think of any in particular i would need to put?? but still just in case#i think if i got more detailed explaining things about OSA i might've needed one tho lol. hes a Little dark pinch#rainworld#rainworld oc#rainworld fanart#rain world#rain world art#rain world oc#rainworld iterator oc#rw rot#most likely missed a few details about these tbh. this is at least 90% of it i think though#oc rambling
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Why does my brain think the maximum amount of time you should spend learning and polishing something is like a week?
#i'm sure this explains a lot but it would be nice if i could sit down at things for a few months patiently and keep chipping away at them#like the arrangements i did over the pandemic were actually decent because i just sort of poked at them for half a year#(and by 'sort of poked' i mean spent like an hour every day playing around with them)#sorry this was prompted by me finding a recording of me singing torna a casa and at the start i said#'i've been practicing this such a long time. i've been singing it every day for the last week.' like GIRL WHAT#i do this with SO MANY THINGS though#i want to develop artistic patience. not to see things through bc i can do that but just to be normal about them while they take shape#give it time!!!!! it needs to sit in the oven you know that!!!!!!#the last three years have certainly helped though i will say that#perce rambles
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this looks like a long time but initially it said 1 MONTH 15 days
#i think i will just have to grab cutscene footage from online... im not waiting for that sh... lmao#this has me admitting that i'm not a gamer and left that identity behind some time ago... which is kind of sad but ok#thoughh when witcher 4 drops... 😈#oh my god i typed witcher 34 instead of witcher 4. i think that already exists on the internet LOL#i'm actually not as excited for w4 as i am for the remaster of the first game#i also don't have any saves and i need footage of like some late-quest stuff (just for a mention of lore inconsistencies LOL)#like what do i do go beat tw3 AGAIN just to get a clip of ciri facing the white frost#...................... well........#ok ngl actually a shot of emhyr in the beginning of the game would be better to explain 'lore inconsistencies'#because that's probably more aggravating to me than the 'we changed the white frost so you can fight it' thing#that thing is understandable. that's like basic video game logic. antagonists can be fought...#and though i don't like that messaging that forces of nature can be fought...#i understand this is a AAA game with outcomes that need to be written as endings. it's not an experiential VN#emhyr in tw3 though has just annoyed me and has actually annoyed me ever since i found out his character from the books#after all that you're gonna take him and pretend he just wanted to be a better dad and have a good heir on the throne...#well ok he did want a good heir on the throne. to be fair. just. not ciri but her child ... ahem#tw3 just dropped that pregnancy plot like a hot potato 😭 because it's so uncomfortable#without vilgefortz to decapitate in the end and the lodge actively plotting around i admit it loses its meaning#also to be fair tw3 does not have that throughline about reproduction and destiny that the books do#like the begetting of progeny is a huge huge huge theme in the books and so ciri's storyline is just one of a few ways it comes up#without geralt and yennefer specifically being angsty at the start about children it doesn't really work as a plot for ciri later on#the elbow-high diaries
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I don't hate my job or anything, but man, being a float educator is so fucking thankless
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big fan of headcanoning that kid doumeki killed the class chicken because nobody else wanted to and he was already being picked on for being Inexplicably Weird and Smelling Like Death so his classmates probably thought it would work as a bullying tactic. he handled it like a champ and it makes sense that he would but it's still kind of sad
#big fan of like. taking a random one off comedy line in holic and making it a whole thing#biiiiig big big big fan of doumeki and himawari being Weird Kids that due to various factors appear 'normal' in high school#like himawari mostly masked her problems and became sort of superficially a chill everygirl who is friends w everyone and besties w noone#and meki faced a Lot Of Shit and then managed to shrug it off and his attitude and looks in hs meant he got mega popular#not that he cares or anything#also a big fan of those two either being in middle school or elementary together#i think at a point where meki hasnt become a 100% idgafer but hima already seems 'normal' theres a lot of potential#i also just generally like the idea of them being long term oomfs#like they both kinda saw each other before they solidified fully as the people they would become its so juicyyy#watanuki as the person who seems out of place at a glance but is very obviously among likeminded people oh its so lovely isnt it#i just . ghghhh this friendship trio means so much to meee theyre so cool theyre so neat#i like filling in the gaps in clamps official lore with fun stuff. fun thought exercise#like for example clamp being like 'yeah doumeki went through some Shit due to being sick+gender stuff and it shaped him as a person'#so much to consider...so much to supplement...#this is especially true w himawari where she gets less specific focus it makes me wanna deep dive and make a bunch of headcanons#same for kohane actually but its a bit trickier cause we dont see much of her as an adult and when we do i dont reread that very oftennnnnm#for obvious reasonsss#even though it wasnt even like. romantic it fucks me up a bit#anyway i like the idea that adult hane is kinda like. himari penguindrum#like when himari is introspective and stuff#that kind of hard to explain depth#i also like the idea that kohane could turn out a few different ways depending on the au context cause shes still forming as a person#most of the time we see her#in catverse shes kinda different and manifests a slightly different kinda personality as a teenager bcs i think itd be interesting#idk im just waffling now
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this hrt thing is so fucking sick everyone should try this
#<- thought I keep having & then reminding myself that most people are in fact cisgender.#it's crazy though I was obviously prepared & well informed about the various physical changes & even mood changes#but there's this huge#insubstantial thing#just this Feeling.#nothing has even changed much for me yet & there's been this. shift#I just feel. better. more confident more social more willing to try things#just better about being in my body and in the world.#which is so much bigger than any of the physical changes & encompasses all of them#I can't even explain it without feeling so. woo woo but it's been so marked. in the last few months.#I didn't know it would be like that. I'm really. really glad I did this.#it's alive!
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god, rereading that scene after doing a bit of a beviin deep dive is making me want to write a oneshot where beviin is actually there for one of boba's panic attacks... why must inspiration always strike right before bedtime? ;_;
#honestly‚ i'm kind of starting to headcanon that beviin HAS seen one of his panic attacks before#it would explain a few things about their interactions in the series#for example‚ how beviin knows how to recognize boba's ''oh god‚ get me out of here'' look when he's about to lose it#or how when boba starts to get anxious about mirta and grade's safety on the bloodfin mission‚ he immediately wishes beviin were there#though i imagine boba wanted to throw himself back into the sarlacc the first time beviin witnessed one of his panic attacks :`D#like‚ beviin is pretty much the one living person whose opinion boba cares about#and to have him see him in such a moment of helplessness and vulnerability... boba would hate it so much lmao#but beviin‚ being beviin‚ would know exactly how to deal with it and what to say#i think that would go a long way to contextualizing why boba trusts him so much by the time we see them in LotF#not just with strategic matters but very clearly with emotional and personal matters as well#fett feels#goran beviin
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.....I swear eventually Ilz is going to mention Emps by name to someone who has no reason to know who that is and it's just going to descend into who's on first at top speed.
#'The Emperor--' 'Wait...who's Emperor.' 'No that's the mind flayer's name.' 'In the box with the githyanki prince that can't be safe?' 'yes'#'Sure. But why though?' '...I'll explain later.' (pre balduran revel even just....look. The illithid we have in a box with a#githyanki prince (no this is not safe for anyone.) who is thankfully very restrained because he would let us transform and then kill us#is using them to protect us.....is a thing to explain to someone who's getting the many many last few months updates.#and this is the 'So I had two years before knowing you have four sisters not two. Yet somehow there is someone else in two months?' talk.#......it is important Helios have the full context for how he was able to dodge the normal long fight past his many rebuilding walls)
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After all the time I've spent going on about how I'm not interested in irl romantic relationships anymore and am fully dedicated to my fictional partners for life, you'd think the pipeline of coming to terms with being fictoromantic to aromantic spectrum would've happened sooner for me
#After already going through the self discovery of if I am trans or queer you'd think I'd be quicker about-#-if I'm having to google if I am This Thing than that probably already says enough.#Though I feel like this takes a massive weight off of me cause then i can just explain to irl people that im-#-aromantic and have that ordeal be done with. And then depending on who they are elaborate that I still think-#-fictional characters are rad. Because I fear how people will react to the term “fictoromantic”.#I dont know. I like forgot fictoromantic was on the aro spectrum cause I was always like “I am! VERY much-#-feeling romantic feelings!!!!!“. Even though it is the flip for irl things.#You'd think it would've maybe hit me sooner considering. The few ficto flags I have seen have the aro colors in them.#Or how in the selfshipping community I have seen a lot of people attracted to fictional characters that are outside of-#-identities that they would be attracted to in real life.#okay look I am making myself post this post because as of late I have done farrr too much of typing out entire-#-posts and then talking myself out of posting them and just saving them as drafts.#The blog is for blogging Kane hit the blog button. Post the thingy. Eat the shark gummies.#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping
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living alone is all fun and games til you have a medical emergency and there's no one there to help you to the hospital
#eliot posts#im fine now it's just last week's Incident fucked me up a lil#a couple online friends offered to call me an uber#and i maybe could have woken my neighbors up (though i would have felt awful abt that)#but while i was figuring out how to get to the hospital and if i'd be able to like#verbally communicate to whoever was driving where to take me#and explain to the doctors what was wrong with me#and fill out the entrance paperwork#and find my wallet/insurance card and my housekeys before i left#...i had gone unconscious before i could make the decision to find someone to take me#luckily i was mostly fine after i woke up#i knew it wasn't an ''i'm gonna die if i don't go to the hospital'' type medical emergency so i didn't call an ambulance#bc i was not abt to bankrupt myself unless i was Literally Dying#but yeah. eugh. 0/10 do not recommend.#at the VERY LEAST i'm gonna need to have good friends that live very close in the future#i don't want this kind of thing happening to me again#i am gonna be roommates with a very good friend in a few months after i move to the city#and then i'm probably gonna be roommates with a different very good friend in a couple years when i leave the state#both mostly out of financial necessity for us all#but also i thiiink i want to go back to living alone eventually?#unless living with friends goes so great that it changes my mind#it's just like. for the most part i've loved living alone#not just in a ''yay i'm no longer living with my abusers!'' way but like. in general.#i can do whatever the fuck i want in my apartment without having to talk to anyone#chores get done when i want. food gets cooked and eaten when i want. i can take a 2 hour bath no problem. i don't have to close doors.#i can walk around late at night without having to worry about waking anyone up.#when my social battery is drained i know that no one will try to talk to me. when im overstimulated i don't have to tell anyone to be quiet#it's like. the thing with me is every social interaction has a timer where i start thinking#''GOD i cannot fucking wait to go be alone in my nice empty apartment again''#that timer is much longer for some people and situations than others but it is always There even when i'm having a great time
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ok u know that fake 80s horror movie meme that people did on tiktok well aside from the blatant goncharov plagiarism i feel like the idea isnt inherently bad but trying to convince people the movie is real while giving it an obscure and therefore easily googleable name like zapotha is unwise. like goncharov was always openly fake but the video said they want to convince people zepotha is real. too easy to fact check imo.
#if you want to convince ppl this is a real movie you gotta name it like. using the few things that 80s horror titles are allowed to use..#its gotta be some kind of combination of#'night of the (xyz)'. the name of a broad category of monster (demon werewolf etc). smth like freak/creep. massacre.#and/or some event that high schoolers would participate in. prom. graduation. camp. slumber party. etc. bonus pts if its a franchise.#like omg have you seen my favorite underrated 80s horror? Vampire Camp III: Night of the Were-Creeps? from 1987?#omg its soooo good you have to check it out. linnea quigley's best role. don't @ me you know im right.#avpost#you gotta give it a really tropey name so people cant like look it up and find nothing.#at the very least if you name it 'night of the ' people will find a ton of other horror movies and assume it's blocking out the right movie#anyway you dont have to watch the rest of the vampire camp series to understand the 3rd movie bc they explain the lore#in a campfire scene at the beginning. so youll be caught up. plus the second one was really weird and hasnt aged well#the first one is kind of a low budget 1981 gem but the bad dialogue and acting is really hard to get past. pretty good gore effects though.#check it out if you like that sort of thing but the series takes off at the 3rd movie. when they make it more horror comedy.#i think its getting a remake soon. directed by a woman!
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woooo my niece took 5 of my 13 lego sets, one of which was one of the three larger ones, so that's one huge box out of the way and i'm just glad she wanted them because like they ARE twenty years old and they look fine ofc but sometimes kids aren't gonna want stuff that isn't new and shiny ya know, but she did seem to want everything which would've been fine with me but i knew there was no way they would take all that with them, and at least i still have stuff of my own to sell, plus should get at least a cut of my brother's stuff for doing the inventory and putting together that stuff that wasn't already done
#i mentioned the hp sets and how they had been pretty much left together and he was like '....i had harry potter sets?'#which once he saw them he did think they were familiar which was some of my feeling with mine#like oh YEAH i do remember these i just didn't remember having so many#i mean between 13 sets it's really like 3 categories so i would've played with like the whole ice palace and its related sets#i do just wonder how it'll be at the store like everything is pretty much in fine shape#and probably there are people who want older stuff that's rarer and whatever now#BUT then there might be more of a demand for newer stuff at a better price or whatever idk#anyway 6 sets left in the upstairs and then the bionicles and statue of liberty are still in the attic#i'm still not convinced there couldn't be another box somewhere bc idk how to explain the few sets#that are missing so much that i can't actually do them bc even if we had gotten rid of some why would we not include the huge base or w/e#anyway we'll see! but i'm getting closer! and i did a little one this morning#that seemed to be complete it didn't list some of the pieces as extras but based on the instructions i figure they have to be#so i don't really need them like i'll include them if i find them and they're not needed for something else but yeah#anyway i can go back to fic though these first two at least are short so i may be going back to another one tomorrow#can't wait to have my room back though fr like#it is not the only thing making it feel messy because i have newer jewelry and clothes and stuff that i just have to organize and put away#but man the jewelry situation is just. it's not even having so many pieces it's like big earrings that take up a lot of space or whatever#so i just have not wanted to deal with it but it's kinda out of hand#but i can really think about that after this particular project is done#and do puzzles again oh my god i have 3 puzzles waiting for me at least#plus my mom always has a bunch to be done since everyone knows to buy her puzzles lol but that has also gotten out of hand#i wouldn't mind getting rid of a couple of mine though just bc it is like okay you do it but then you just have it and it takes up space#would be cool to have pretty ones framed tho
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Bitches be fighting (it’s the head children 😘☺️)
#just pav things#We love it when they start yelling at each other 😌#Though there’s only really a select few that yell in this sort of accusatory way and point fingers and I’m thinking of Idyllia!#I did another take on the end of arc 2. Or maybe it’s a continuation of the existing developments#I don’t think she would take very kindly to the two boys having their mini-argument right in front of her (who would?)#And she would ESPECIALLY not take kindly to Dism calling Inigo a. y’know. murderer ✨🌈#I think she has some inner empathy towards Inigo even if she doesn’t say it yet (they both know they share similar feelings towards Archie)#They both feel like they failed Archie and wear that on their shoulders (albeit in complementary ways)#Of course this is Arc 2 and they’re still offput by each other. it’s uncomfortable to look at someone else and see yourself.#So she would slap Dism for his callousness :))) and then berate them both for their self-absorbed nature#Very in line with how she yells at Archie in Arc 3 for much the same thing :3#She perceives it as cowardice in both situations ✨ Dism being unable to admit he made a mistake and Archie unable to get over himself#and finally reunite with his brother instead of stringing things along#She gets angry because she dislikes that quality in herself :3#Anyways it’s fun to see how the head children react when they’re upset ❤️#Dism loses all tact and will say anything that comes to his mind. Very snide in his wording.#He loses his inhibitions and lets his shadow side come out to say what he ‘really’ thinks about others#Inigo who delicately holds himself together 24/7 struggles under duress and becomes irrational and hysterical#Jumps to conclusions WAY too quickly#Archie who hates himself more than anything is able to bear pain without lashing out#He directs his pain inward. He was never one for fighting.#Cynthia becomes very quiet and teary and unsure of herself. A stark contrast to her normal demeanour ✨#And as for Archie’s kids. Theon becomes very aggressive and physical (violence is the answer >:3)#Luna would just burst into tears if you made her upset :(#And Ewan takes half of Dism’s approach and half of Theon’s#Which honestly explains why he gets into so many scrapes. 0 conflict resolution skills ✨✨✨✨
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