#agapé

[poesia]

[lajos65]

Agapé Vasárnap

[davidjordanphoenix]

I am a survivor and I always will be. I will live through this and whatever comes next.

Pride in queerness.

Pride in neurodivergence.

Pride in disability.

Pride in my character.

Pride in my choices.

Pride in my love for humanity no matter what I endure.

We all stand together.

[kitty-i-swear-to-gosh]

Asked my followers to give Roaco random headcanons

[s4sh44444]

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AGAPÉ

My first Yuri!! on ice fanart (featuring bbg of course)

I was quite excited with how it turned out, esp the lighting and the mesh texture

[ssmarian]

i've always felt alone

always felt in the dark

hidden away from the tides that pull everyone else

together.

but the world is so full

of light, and sound, and care,

and i've just found one of its desolate corners

without.

everyone i've met

is just as lonely as i

so i pull, i beg, i beckon, like a beacon in the night

hungry

and they find me, grateful,

kneeling, desperate for this

connection for which we've both been starved and

then

i snap, i lunge, i tear, i beg, you won't leave, you won't, i won't let you, please, stay,

and he says it back,

snap, lunge, tear, beg, deny, decry, demand, desire, deride, derivative. destructive. deleterious.

only one of us would leave alive

we knew this from the beginning,

trailing the memories of lovers behind me like

jewelry,

accoutrements of lives before,

dreams of agapé that drain me

the ones that never got away, and he stays there too, saying

"i saw your light

i came

no matter how it ended,

it started."

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Light, commissioned by @serenefig

[fredomotophoto]

Ribeauvillé

Canon EOS R

24-105mm F4 DG OS HSM | Art

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(FR)

Ribeauvillé est une commune française située dans le département du Haut-Rhin, en région Grand Est. Elle fait partie de la collectivité européenne d’Alsace et est située à environ 17 km de Colmar. Avec une population de 4 682 habitants (au 1er janvier 2021), Ribeauvillé est considérée comme une petite ville.

Histoire et patrimoine

Ribeauvillé a une histoire riche et variée, remontant au IXe siècle avec la présence d’un domaine agricole nommé Ratbaldsvilare. Au Moyen Âge, le village est mentionné comme un centre de production de vins et de bières. Les bâtiments historiques du village, notamment les maisons à colombages, datent du XVIe au XVIIIe siècle.

Tourisme et activités Ribeauvillé est un village touristique important, proposant de nombreuses activités et attractions :

Visites de caves et de domaines viticoles, tels que le domaine Louis Sipp et le domaine Agapé, pour découvrir les vins d’Alsace. Promenades à pied ou à vélo dans le village et ses environs, pour admirer les maisons à colombages et les vignobles. Châteaux de Ribeauvillé : deux des trois châteaux, Saint Ulrich et Girsberg, sont accessibles et proposent des visites guidées. Marché de Noël : chaque année, le village accueille un marché de Noël unique, avec animations, dégustations de vins et de produits locaux. Espace Balnéo : un centre de bien-être proposant des bassins intérieurs, un sauna et un hammam. Accès et hébergement Ribeauvillé est accessible par la route, à environ 17 km de Colmar. Il existe des parkings en bordure du centre-ville, payants pour les plus proches mais gratuits pour les plus éloignés. L’Office du tourisme est situé au 1, Grand-Rue.

Pour votre hébergement, vous trouverez des hôtels, des gîtes et des chambres d’hôtes dans le village ou dans les environs. Vous pouvez également réserver un séjour à la fois au centre de bien-être Espace Balnéo et au casino Barrière Ribeauvillé.

Culinaire Ribeauvillé est connu pour ses spécialités gastronomiques alsaciennes, notamment le kougelhopf, le pfifferdaj et les vins d’Alsace. Vous pouvez déguster ces spécialités dans les restaurants du village ou les caves viticoles.

(EN)

Ribeauvillé is a French commune located in the Haut-Rhin department, in the Grand Est region. It is part of the European collectivity of Alsace and is located approximately 17 km from Colmar. With a population of 4,682 inhabitants (as of January 1, 2021), Ribeauvillé is considered a small town.

History and heritage Ribeauvillé has a rich and varied history, dating back to the 9th century with the presence of an agricultural estate named Ratbaldsvilare. In the Middle Ages, the village is mentioned as a center of wine and beer production. The historic buildings of the village, including half-timbered houses, date from the 16th to the 18th century.

Tourism and activities Ribeauvillé is an important tourist village, offering many activities and attractions:

Visits to wine cellars and wine estates, such as the Louis Sipp estate and the Agapé estate, to discover the wines of Alsace. Walks or bike rides in the village and its surroundings, to admire the half-timbered houses and vineyards. Ribeauvillé Castles: two of the three castles, Saint Ulrich and Girsberg, are accessible and offer guided tours. Christmas Market: every year, the village hosts a unique Christmas market, with entertainment, wine tastings and local products. Espace Balnéo: a wellness center offering indoor pools, a sauna and a hammam. Access and accommodation Ribeauvillé is accessible by road, approximately 17 km from Colmar. There are car parks on the edge of the city center, paying for the closest but free for the furthest. The Tourist Office is located at 1, Grand-Rue.

For your accommodation, you will find hotels, gîtes and guest houses in the village or in the surrounding area. You can also book a stay at both the Espace Balnéo wellness center and the Barrière Ribeauvillé casino.

Culinary Ribeauvillé is known for its Alsatian gastronomic specialties, including kougelhopf, pfifferdaj and Alsace wines. You can taste these specialties in the village restaurants or wine cellars.

[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

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1. Can anyone find me wangxian fic in which lan zhan captures nie huisang and nie huisang ask Wei wuxian helps to save his brother from Meng Yao in nightless city @wangxianpet

FOUND? The Way It Wasn’t by KouriArashi (T, 72k, WangXian, XiYao, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fix-It, (eventually haha), Slow Build, Family Feels, Moral Ambiguity, Eventual Happy Ending)

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2. I need help looking for a fic please.

All I can remember about it is that they were smuggling Wen Ning and possibly Wen Qing across a border somewhere and they put a fake mustache on Wen Ning. People kept complimenting it, even the bad Wens they came across, and some possibly even grew their own Wen Ning-staches after. WWX might've been dressed as a woman? I can't remember for sure.

Thank you!

NOT FOUND! Propagate Understanding by draechaeli (E, 175k, wangxian, not everyone dies, pregnancy kink, consensual non-con, adoption but they’re all birthed by wwx, mo xuanyu lives, temporary character death)

FOUND! Bloom where you are planted 🔒 by luckymoonly (M, 44k wangxian, MM/WQ, Canon Divergence, Fix It, courting, Mpreg, Sunshot Campaign, Fluff, Happy Ending, getting together early, Romance, WWX giving birth in the middle of the war? Most likely than you think!, Yúnmèng Siblings Feels, Smut, Drama, Blood and Violence, Minor Character Death, There Is Only One Bed, No Fall of Lotus Pier, Crossdressing, Shotgun Wedding, Mention of miscarriage (not WWX), wangxian Have a Breeding Kink, Giving Birth, Soft granduncle LQR)

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3. I just remembered a fic that would fit in the ghost comp but I forgot it's name 😔 it was a fic about wx haunting a house together and I think taking care of a yuan as they do? I may be thinking of two fics because I think there was one where they were ghosts in the bm and raised yuan too but in this one they died in a fire i believe and the house was alive? Again may be combining fics 😅 thank you!

Yes I think that was the bm fic I was thinking of! But I can't remember much of the house fic besides I think wen ning and wen qing lived in the house with yuan? And I think either xichen or Jiang Cheng appear at one point?

Those are definitely 2 different fics. I remember reading the Burial Mounds one, where they're both ghosts and they raise A-Yuan together, and there was no house fire. Couldn't find it myself, but hopefully that'll help someone else find one or both of these...

FOUND! Gently Haunted by LusBeatha (T, 19k, WangXian, Character Death, Sentient Burial Mounds, Autistic LWJ, Shutdowns, Canon Divergence, Ghosts, Child LSZ, Oblivious WWX, Getting Together, Ghost Marriage, ghost parenting, Grief/Mourning, but only for ghosts that are still present, Golden Core Reveal, Soup, Happy Ending) Wouldn't the one where they are both ghost raising A-Yuan in the Burial mounds be "Gently Haunted" by LusBeatha?

FOUND? The Ghostly Adventures of Wen Yuan by Llamamomo (Not Rated, 13k, WangXian, Ghost WWX, Ghost LWJ, Established Relationship, Married Couple, Supernatural Elements, Modern AU, Murder Mystery, Haunted Houses)

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4. For the fic finder, there's a fic I'm pretty sure I first found somewhere on this or the recs blog but I can't for the life of me find again. It deals with WWX accepting a deal where he'll be a prisoner of the Nie clan if the Wen remnants are promised safety. NHS is happy to have his friend around, but it's major depression hours for WWX

I remember him neglecting himself to the point of not brushing his hair for weeks

Thank you 💕

FOUND? Always walked a very thin line by tucuxi (T, 22k, NHS & WWX, JYL & WWX, WangXian)

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5. Hello! I hope you all have been having a great day. I have been plagued by this fic that I just can't remember the title! 😭

It was a post-canon fic where WWX just kept "bothering" LXC in his seclusion and sorta made him help in his research. There was also a scene where WWX got injured and LXC was there to help.

I really appreciate your help and thank you 🥺❤️

Agapé (home is in your arms) by estel_willow (G, 14k, WangXian, fraternal bonding, Mutual Pining, Post-Canon, Wwx is oblivious, lxc is patient, sizhui remains the best son, Wwx uses his words, Or tries to at least, Wwx is an unreliable narrator, Light Angst, well semi-lite angst, canon-typical self dislike from our favourite chaotic disaster bi)

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6. Hey! I was hoping you could help me find a fic. WWX has some "ghost brides" while they're living in burial mounds. There's some description of these ghosts picking and pulling at his clothes, skin, etc.

Hey! I'm #6 on the latest fic finder. I'm afraid that's not the fic I was looking for. It doesn't have f/f wangxian or any gender bending. The fic I'm looking for doesn't have any smut either

Not FOUND your grave, a garden; a barrow, your bed by twinagonies (E, 31k, Female WangXian, Canon Divergence, YLLZ WWX, Ruke 63, Gender or Sex Swap, Genderbending, BDSM, Power Play, Undernegotiated Kink, Restraints, Bondage, Impact Play, Cunnilingus, Vaginal Fingering, Bottom LWJ/Top WWX, Top LWJ/Bottom WWX, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Porn With Plot, Golden Core Reveal, Wēn Remnants Live, Mental Health Issues, Plants, WWX's Ghost Girls, Sex Magic, Dual Cultivation, POV LWJ, Switching) a wild guess but this one has the ghost brides doing a lot of touching with wwx. it is a genderbent f/f wangxian so it might not be right

FOUND? 🔒💖 love, in fire and blood by cicer (E, 360k, wangxian, immortal WWX, slow burn, pining, arranged marriages)

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7. I am looking for a specific untamed fiction. It is modern day. Wei wuxian is an omega. Supposed to rule all the clans. Gets injured when the Jiang fall. Lan zhan finds him and helps heal him in the back mountains. Later meet when the clans start fighting to mate wuxian. Lan zhan is selected as his guardian. Ruohan tries to force a mating but gets killed by wuxian.

Recesses basically function as assassins.

Qinghe tend to function as military.

Huasang and Lan zhan have similar scents. @manalover

FOUND? Under Red Skies by AngelSpirit (E, 169k, wangxian, graphic depicitons of violence, Soulmates, Fantasy, Wolves, Wolf Pack, Wolf Shifters, Alpha LWJ, Asena WWX, Wolf hierarchy, Everybody-wants-WWX, Multiple Time Skips, Canon Setting, Modern Cultivation, Fluff and Angst, Smut, Mating Bond, Werewolf, Scenting, Marking, Biting, primal, Royalty, Slow Burn, BAMF LWJ, BAMF WWX)

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8. Hi! I've been trying to find an a/b/o fic (Lz is an alpha and Wy an omega). What I remember of the plot is that people thought Wy was always hooking up around. Lz had a one night stand with him to try getting over his own feelings for Wy. When Wy went days later to confess to him, Lz said something about Wy hooking up around, and Wy left crying because Lz also believed the rumors about him. Wx, who was Lwj's roommate, said something about fucking Wy, so Lz punched him and went to apologize to Wy.

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9. for the next fic finder: i only know that it was post-cql and wangxian were writing each other letters until wwx broke his leg very badly on a night hunt? i don't remember much else, im sorry!

FOUND? Between The Lines by Witch_Nova221 (M, 153k, WangXian, Epistolary, Eventual Romance, Fluff and Angst, Letters, Falling In Love, Love Confessions, Love Letters, Long-Distance Relationship, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Loss, Canon-Typical Violence, Post-Canon, Idiots in Love)

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10. Hi! For the next itmf, I have been looking for a fanfic in my bookmark and my history I couldn't find it 😅

I think it's (abo) I don't remember quite good I think Jiang Cheng ran away for lotus pier with wei ying to the woods later on lan zhan and lan xichen will find them and take them back to lotus pier, madam yu wants to beat wei ying and wei ying take the blame and Jiang Cheng wants to stop madam yu because lan zhan was there to and lan zhan is wei ying mate, and I think lan zhan will step in front of wei ying, and later on Jiang fengmian slap Jiang Cheng(I think it chapter 9 or something 😅) @rayan12sworld

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11. Hi! I remember reading a modern au fic on AO3 where Lan Wangji, while preparing for an arranged/political marriage, finds out he was actually married to Wei Wuxian and needs to divorce lest he commit bigamy. Lan Wangji does not remember getting married at all! Less clear on the following details: Wei Wuxian was either missing or dead, and Lan Wangji travels to the courthouse where it happened for more info. He finds on the back of a photo of the occasion that Wei Wuxian had written it was the happiest day of his life.

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12. Hi. Firstly I wanna say I absolutely adore this blog and thank you for providing us WangXian fans with amazing fanfiction.

I've been dying to find this one fanfic but I have no idea where it is now and after constant serching I decided to give it ago.

From what I remember: Lan Wangji is taken prisoner and kept in a prison next to Wei WuXian who is some sort of creature (a Phionex to be exact) and Lan Wangji watched helplessly as he is tortured everyday to provide for the Wen Sect using his tears, Phionex cry, etc.

I also remember Wei WuXian helps him escape the prison and Lan Zhan goes back for him but (I think) Wei WuXian already burnt Nightless City and saved the civilians and the Wens but is unconscious.

Please, I hope you have better luck in finding this fic, I've been dying to reread it.

Thank you in advance!!!

FOUND? a thousand hills, no birds in flight | 千山鳥飛絕 by defractum (nyargles) (E, 26k, WangXian, Mythology, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon adjacent setting, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort)

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13. Hi! I’m looking for a Pregji fic. It’s post-canon and I think wangxian had some sort of post-sex misunderstanding that led wwx to leave. Lwj finds out after that he’s pregnant. I remember the juniors going out and searching for wwx, trying to bring him back. (I checked the Pregji compilation, but it wasn’t there and it’s not under the pregnant Lan zhan tag on AO3) thank you!

FOUND? A Joy That’s Hard to Find by airinshaw (E, 26k, wangxian, Post-Canon, Getting Together, Mpreg, Misunderstandings, Minor Angst, Anal Sex, Fluff and Smut, Kissing) After their first and only night together Wei Wuxian disappears. As Lan Wangji tries to find him again, he gradually realises that Wei Wuxian left him with an unintended gift.

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14. Mood for story where wei wuxian disappears into some faraway land with cliffs. Then appears as some powerful sect with the wen survivors and song lan xiao xing chen. Apparently he rides a dragon to battle.

FOUND? 💖 Echo, Murmur, Dream, Here by bluerainmist (M, 51k, wangxian, canon divergence, WWX survives, sect leader WWX, yiling wei sect au, slow burn, angst w/ happy ending, getting together, pining, love confessions, reunions, mind all the tags)

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15. Hi 😊 huge fan of your blog, I've found so many gems here so thank you and keep up the good work.

I read a fic last year and it's driving me insane because I cannot find it please help....I such at summaries but I can recall that LWG stepped in front of a sword that was met for Yanli , they thought he died because his brother had him away . WWX gives him self up to the lan sect for punishment @b-rabbitsposts

FOUND? If I Could Go Back in Time by Runningbarefoot (M, 122k, WangXian, NieLan, Canon Divergence, Role Reversal, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Pining, Angst with a Happy Ending, Grief/Mourning, Loss, YLLZ WWX, Eventual Happy Ending, The Twin Jade Brotherhood, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Healing, Canon-Typical Violence, Character Study, Twin Prides of Yúnmèng Dynamics, Slow Burn)

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16. hi there! for the finder; theres this one v specific scene i can remember but nothing else. it was definitely canon divergence — they were trying to save yzy and jfm (after the massacre of lotus pier), and they were still alive. they brought them to wq, who did heal them, but jfm was worse for wear while yzy... out for revenge i think? i cant remember all else but if anyone has an idea that'd be great thank you! @revellingfate

NOT FOUND! could be "A Price To Pay" by wangxianist, which was sadly deleted

FOUND! I’m aching and I know you are too by edenwolfie (M, 236k, WangXian, XuanLi, Canon Divergence, Fluff, POV Alternating, POV Outsider, Family Feels, Humor, Romance, Engagement, Fix-It, Drunken Shenanigans, Hurt/Comfort, Qíshān Wēn Indoctrination, Canon-Typical Violence, Fall of Lotus Pier, Sunshot Campaign, First Time, Possessive Behavior, Panic Attacks, Everybody Lives, Established Relationship)

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17. Hi, I'm hoping that you could help me find a fic. It was after wwx death, lwj keep on dreaming a life where wwx didn't die. Then he found out that the incense burner is the source of his dream. To avoid the pain of losing wwx, lwj start to sleep more and it started to affect his health. Lqr and lxc notice this and try to interfere since lwj condition keep getting worse as he choose to stay asleep. They tried to warn and stop lwj but he ignored them and keep using the incense burner. Later lqr and lxc found out that lwj is dead. Sorry if I'm ranting but that's all I can recall. I can't remember the name and wish to read it again. I would really appreciate it if you could help me find it. Thank you in advance! @mayuchi96

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18. Hi lovely Mods! (＾▽＾) I hope you can help me find these fics I've been looking for!

A) WWX builds (is that the word?) a new core, that isn't a golden core, and I think it's something about yin vs. yang cultivation?

B) WWX grow op with XXC, and I think WWX get a title in the same style as XXC and SL?

C) I just remember a scene where LWJ gives WWX a knife (dagger?) made of like the same material a Bichen, and say something about it protecting him when LWJ can't?

hope you have a great day!

18A)

Not FOUND Did I Not Explain Why the Sunset Turns Red? by 3988Akasha (E, 110k, wangxian, time travel, canon divergence, Canonical Character Death, Soulmates, Demonic Cultivation, Original Female Character(s), Emotional Constipation, Minor Character Death, Hand Jobs, Sexual Content, Bathing/Washing, Idiots in Love, Poetry, Mild Gore, Anal Sex, Angst, Rimming, Blow Jobs)

FOUND? 🧡 Never Again by Hauntcats (T, 67k, WangXian, WWX & WQ & WN, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Golden Core Transfer Fix-It, Angst, Not JC Friendly, BAMF WWX)

FOUND? 🧡 a stone to break your soul, a song to save it by rikke ( M, 180k, WangXian, Arranged marriage, Canon Divergence, Hurt/comfort, Light angst, Canon typical violence)

18B)

Not FOUND I Will Call You By Name by DisasterMages (T, 73k, SongXiao, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Family Feels) I'm not sure about the title for WWX but he grew up with XXC and SZC

18C)

FOUND! 💖 Looking at You Always, All Ways by Keysmashed T, 29k, wangxian, time travel fix-it, fluff, nostalgia, mild angst w/ happy ending)

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19. A) I have been searching for a specific fic for a while but I cannot find it anywhere. It's an ABO Au with Alphaji and Omegaxian, LWJ is older (35ish) and WWX younger (18ish) and they're being set up on an arranged marraige. WWX is originally hesitant but falls for LWJ and it turns out LWJ travelled from a universe where WWX died and found this one where he lives. There's a scene where LWJ gets jelous of LJY and one where WWX dolls up to look silly but YZY lets him bc he looks cute. Thank you!

B) I remember very little about this fanfic except that LWJ travels back in time to his child body but keeps his power so everyone thinks he's a reincarnated ancestor (or smth)so let him do anything, this includes him destroying the wall of rules. I think WWX also has returned and the story follows both of them. It's the destruciton of the wall that sticks most in mind. Any info would be amazing! Thank you!! @yilingweiclan

19A)

FOUND? 4018 by sweetlolixo (E, 28k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, ABO, Older LWJ, Immortal LWJ, Pregnant WWX, Alpha LWJ, Omega WWX, Age Difference, Boypussy, Vaginal Fingering, Dry Humping, Knotting, Blow Jobs, Dirty Talking LWJ, Angst with a Happy Ending, Size Difference, Feminization)

19B)

FOUND? A Life Without Regrets by naqaashi (M, 74k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel Fix-It, Humor, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Crack Treated Seriously, musical cultivation, Slow Burn, Pining, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Murder Husbands, PTSD, BAMF WWX, Demonic Cultivation, POV WWX, Cultivation Sect Politics, Worldbuilding, No Yīn Iron, Genius WWX, Inventor WWX, Artist WWX, Musician WWX, Night Hunts, Fate & Destiny, Bad Parent JFM, Bad Parent YZY, Golden Core, Cultivation Theory, Sentient Burial Mounds, Father-Son Relationship, Dysfunctional Family, Grief/Mourning, Parent-Child Relationship, Angry WWX, Pining WWX, WWX is Not Okay, No Golden Core Transfer, BAMF LWJ, Pining LWJ, POV LWJ, Angry LWJ, One-Braincell Wangxian, Love Confessions, Idiots in Love, WIP)

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20. Oh woops, missed the collection window.

Anyways I've been trying to find this fic for a few weeks now, so no rush.

I'm trying to find a specific fic that is NOT decay by antebunny, because I was reading that one and got reminded of the fic I'm trying to find!! But it has a similar plot hook: the Lans broker a ceasefire with the Yiling Patriarch, under the condition that they purify WWX of resentful energey & WWX agrees, even though he assumes it will kill him. Unlike "decay", i think in this fic the purification ritual was held *not* at Cloud Recesses -- maybe in Koi Tower?? Anyways LWJ is also the one to perform the purification, halfway through he realizes what the ritual is doing to WWX and improvises a change in the music to save his life, while still making it seem like the proper ritual was completed. @businesstiramisu

FOUND! A Moment's Warning by Neery (G, 8k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Misunderstandings, Golden Core Reveal, JL Gets His Bracelet)

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[onesidedradiostatic]

that giraffe scene in the madagascar movie thats like “nature! it’s all over me! get it off!” -> alastor and Love (the breakdown over almost dying for sentiment and altruistic/agapé love, plus the alloromantic/allosexual gaze he receives from others cough vox cough)

LMAOOO this is so real, get found family'd idiot (go ahead and keep rejecting vox though please)

[power-chords]

8 & 19?

Chipping away at some more of those music asks…

What do you think is the best song to play during sexy times?

The idea of listening to music during sex lost its appeal after college (to say nothing of terms like “sexy times,” lol) so I have no answer to this question. I can certainly give you a long list of songs I consider sexy in and of themselves, but I would save the soundtrack for either before or after.

What do you think is the greatest love song of all time?

Controversial answer because it’s very much love in the agapé sense, but “All You Need Is Love,” which in its concept and distribution — 400 million viewers! — is so expansive as to approach a religious mantra. Love with that kind of spiritual dimension has always been more interesting to me than strictly erotic or romantic love, anyway.

[listerbirdloml]

don’t get agapé it will ruin your relationship

[davidjordanphoenix]

Do Not Fucking Drop Me.

[nebulousfishgills]

I recently extended Emily's transformation scene in Diplopia since when I originally wrote it I hadn't read Breaking Dawn or Life and Death to understand how transformation works in this universe (which I have since done) and figured I'd just post it here as well for funsies since I'm actually quite proud of it.

(Tagging @practically-an-x-man since I think you'll be interested)

Emily felt a sharp pain in her neck as she felt Caius' teeth sink into her skin. She seethed, feeling her blood trickle down the length of her neck. Caius let go, pulling back to show his lips stained with her blood. Emily only had a second to process it before she felt a clear burning sensation in her neck. At the moment, it wasn't as bad as she remembered getting struck by lightning had been, but it still hurt.

It got worse the more it spread, slowly and agonizingly, but Emily didn't dare scream in pain if she could help it. She sucked in rapid breaths through her teeth while letting out the occasional gutteral groan from the back of her throat. Once her body started rapidly twitching, the edges of her vision started to black out. Emily's lip quivered as Caius held her close, almost protective.

"It hurts..." She groaned, the only thing she would allow herself to say. The burning pain only grew worse, Emily shrieked through gritted teeth. Caius soothingly shushed her, dragging his fingers through her hair.

"I know, agapé. It's okay. Just let it happen." Caius said to her. He laid Emily back on the bed as she started seizing up. By now the pain was blinding, but Emily still refused to scream. She refused to show weakness, not even here.

The burn only continued to spread, reaching her arms and chest before long. Fire was a source of comfort for her, but now it felt like she was being roasted alive, tossed into a bonfire carelessly. The imaginary flames licked at her, melting her from the inside out. Was her hair even still attached? If her whole body was on fire, surely her hair was being singed off in the process.

Not my hair. I can't lose it again. Henry loves my hair.

Finally a loud, gutteral scream tore itself from her throat once the burn had reached her toes, her heart beating hard and fast as if to fight against the war within her body. Beating, bravely beating to resist the burn. Her last line of defense. But it ached, if not from the fight but from the hurt she'd felt before. Yearning for Caius to make the pain stop, for Henry to hold her, assure her that it would be okay. Keep fighting. It hurts, but you can't give up. You're strong, you'll endure this. You'll be okay.

It sounded like something he could have said many times in their past. The lab, the fall into the void... or maybe the voice she was imagining came from Caius right next to her, encouraging her to hold on. Suddenly she couldn't tell which was which. Reality seemed to blend with imagination, time seemed to slow and speed up all at once. Her eyes were open, then closed, then opened again, but it was dark either way. She thought she saw red, but it could also have been her mind imagining the flames that danced around her body. Consumed her.

How long had passed? Minutes? Seconds? Maybe even hours? She couldn't tell. Emily felt her body moving here and there, although she couldn't tell if someone was moving her or if she was spasming alone.

Maybe death wouldn't be so bad. Wasn't death supposed to be cold and dark? She craved the cold, whatever to soothe the burn.

I thought becoming a vampire was supposed to be an escape from my pain and fear, my way to finally feel peace. If this is peace, I don't want it. Just let me go home, please, I just wanna wake up and be home. Am I awake or asleep? Maybe I'm dying. It feels like I'm dying. Death sounds nice right about now. It's cold, probably peaceful. That's what Henry wanted for me, right? Peace? A nice, comfortable absence sounds wonderful.

Emily had no way of telling how much time had passed or was passing. Minutes felt like years, days felt like seconds. She heard voices through the burn, the fog, although they could have belonged to people or just risen up from her imagination.

Isn't she beautiful? She'll only get better. I didn't think it was possible for her to look even more beautiful. She's everything we'd hoped she'd be... I just wish you were here to see it.

You're so beautiful... We're going to change the world, just the two of us...

She's almost done, I think.

A perfect specimen. No doubt her strength will have grown... Alas, we have to leave her for now. I need you for something.

A specimen? She thought. No, I'm not a specimen. I'm a person. I stopped being a specimen ages ago.

Could you have used a more revolting descriptor? And no, you can surely handle it yourself. I don't want to leave her.

I need you for it, but if she wakes, you can come back.

Fine. I'll be right back, my love. You're being so brave... so strong... I love you.

Maybe it was seconds later, maybe an hour, but the burn, that horrible burn started to fade. She could feel her toes, her fingers. It was like she'd dipped them into an ice bath. Sweet relief that spread to her hands and feet. Slowly... although her heart, her poor brave heart only got hotter, beat faster. The very fires of hell descended upon her chest, only getting worse the more time passed.

Emily could feel her face cooling off, slight stretches of her skin as it almost reformed around her features. A tingle ran up and down her right half, dancing across where her scars should be. Things were shifting, or perhaps finishing their changes. Her heart beat faster and faster, growing hotter and hotter.

Feeling returned to her arms and legs. Her limbs and digits twitched experimentally, the movement felt refreshing. And smooth. Her torso cooled off, only left with her heart, beating faster than should be possible, hotter than all the other heat had been. Emily couldn't even scream, she just gasped for air that wouldn't come. She lurched, groaning before falling back.

Finally, finally, the burn faded. She would have thought death finally had claimed her had her awareness told her otherwise. Then, after a hard fought battle, her heart gave three final strong beats, Thor's last steps after defeating Jörmungandr. It's earned a nice rest.

Her heart and body finally stilled, allowing herself to sit in a perfect, burn free bliss.

[kitty-i-swear-to-gosh]

Hi!!! Hope you're having a lovely day/night :>

Might I request a rant on Captain Mordicondor and/or anything else you wanna share about your story and ocs? :3

(No pressure!!!)

Dude I just saw this yesterday lmao my bad. Had to whip up a few references for this but YEAH LETS GO

Mordicondor Agapé is the fearless captain of the starship Arora. He’s your classic space pirate cowboy guy—quick with a quip and quicker with a laser revolver—and like all space cowboys, he’s got a tragic backstory!! ✨✨✨

Buckle up for this.

(It’s long. I’ve put away too much thought into him and he’s not even the MC.)

In younger years Mordicondor served as an admiral in the Galactic Federation of Intelligent Worlds (“The Federation”, for brevity), along with his wife Donnatoria, and his best friend Drocithar.

(This is Drocithar. He’s a Fire Giranicon. He’s cool.)

Mordi and his fleet were stationed by a contested colony planet embroiled in a war between the Federation and an Enemy Faction. However, the planet’s surface was scattered with small civilian settlements caught in the crossfire, and Donnatoria and her squad were often sent into these settlements to provide relief.

The Federation gets word that the Enemy is planning an attack on the colony’s capital city, where most of the planet’s resources and key leadership are located. At the same time, intel comes in that a remote civilian settlement is under siege by enemy forces— the one Donnatoria is stationed at. She sends a desperate message for help: they won’t hold out much longer without reinforcements.

Mordicondor asks his commander to redirect their unit to rescue the settlement, but they prioritize the capital instead, and basically leave the little village to its doom.

Obviously this doesn’t sit too well with Mordicondor, but he’s ordered to stand down and threatened with court-martial if he disobeys. He messages Donnatoria and begs her to pull out before it’s too late, but she refuses to leave innocent people even if they’re doomed, she wants to go down fighting.

So obviously Mordi’s like “Then I’m coming with you” and grabs Droc and they hatch an epic plan to rescue the settlement with a few other teammates. They steal a dropship and launch the mission, but they arrive too late. The settlement has been destroyed.

Mordicondor finds Donnatoria among the casualties and barely even has time to mourn before they’re swarmed by enemies. Chaos ensues, they’re getting massacred, then a stray laser bullet hits an oil reserve while Mordicondor is standing literally right next to it oh crap—KRABOOM EXPLOSION💥💥💥

Drocithar, being a Fire Giranicon, isn’t burned by the blast, but the sound deafens him. Despite his own injuries, he drags Mordi out of the burning wreck to safety. He cauterizes his friend’s wounds himself and keeps Mordi alive until help arrives. (Ouch) Mordicondor ends up losing a pretty significant chunk of his lungs, and Drocithar loses his hearing.

The duo are soon rescued and treated, but they get court-martialed for stealing military property and disobeying direct orders.

Word of the destroyed settlement and Mordicondor’s rogue mission begins to spread, threatening the Federation’s reputation. Publicly, the Federation spins some bull, framing Mordicondor’s actions as an example of reckless behavior that jeopardized the war effort. Privately, they want to silence him before he can expose their abandonment of civilian lives.

And at this point Mordicondor has been thrown back into civilian life after being a soldier since he was like 14, he’s stuck full of tubes sounding like a thirty-year-old hotel air conditioner, and he’s reasonably pissed at them so he does the only thing a rational Pyrek can do— buy an old freighter ship and go join the small rebellion faction gathering at the outer rim. Yeehaw.

So for the past like 20 years these two idiots have been causing problems and leaking classified information to anyone with cash. They gain a reputation as vigilantes, fighting for the people the Federation abandoned, and wreaking absolute havoc for those who ally themselves with oppressors.

They never did it on purpose, but they pick up quite a few members for their crew over the years—anyone in need of a home can find one on the Starship Arora because Captain Mordicondor is a sappy old man and can’t turn anybody away.

The first addition to their crew was a small, dirty, oddly-colored Simiak boy named Roaco. He’d stowed away on the freighter while they were loading up supplies, and Drocithar found him hiding in the vents two rotations later. The Captain soon discovers the child has been cursed with a Withering Touch that destroys any living thing he touches with his hands. The curse is slowly killing him as well, creeping up his arms and melting away his flesh. Despite the danger, Mordicondor takes him in and tries to find a cure. Roaco becomes like a son to Mordi, who officially adopted him two years later.

After that it was Beelos Barthanos, a mentally disturbed Belphie who somehow clipped out of warpspace and crashed his ship into the Arora. He woke up without a single memory of his past and started raving about hearing voices. Something about the “Child of Chaos,” and how “The Red-Blood will be our doom.” Weirdo. He was pretty handy with the engine though, so The Captain let him stay.

Then came Nyranu Buluro, a Naga girl who trained as a medic under the Federation until her family ran out of money. She originally joined the rebellion as an undercover agent so she could get close to Mordicondor and turn him in for the bounty, but she switched sides after the Arora saved her life.

Most recently, a young Goldra named Griffinart Eltidar joined their ranks after Mordi saw poachers shoot him out of the sky for his pretty wings. The Captain soon found Griffinart to be a skilled fighter, and convinced him to join the rebellion. But while Griffinart’s quiet nature allows him to sneak up on opponents, it also hides a mountain of secrets.

Now, when a Human explorer finds her way onto his ship, Mordicondor must keep her safe from the Federation’s forces that hunt her. 

ANNND THATS BASICALLY THE WHOLE THING sorry for the long ass post I just have a lot on my mind about this. I’ve had these OCs for years and have had a lot of time to make up lore.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading my ramble! Love you sm 💕

[wolfram-afternoons]

found a scarf made out of some agapé type of love. in thrift stores thrives the soul.