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what if #6 for the spotify ask game?
hi em! number 6 is quite fun in my opinion :3
so because of one very specific submas animatic, I could not get Ingo Pokemon Arceus/Pokemon B/W out of my head. so I don't think you go here but I could not stop myself <3 I hope you enjoy anyway! (1063 words)
Ingo stretches his legs as he sits in the grass. Akari is perched on her heels beside him, staring off into the distance, squinting against the sun. Ingo runs his hand through the fescue sticking up beside him—he’s tired, warm from sitting in the sun, fighting sleep with every ounce of his body. He hadn’t been getting a lot of that lately, dealing with the Sneasel kits. From her place beside him, Akari hums, her eyebrows furrowing.
“Anything?” Ingo asks. Akari hums again, sounding frustrated.
“Nothing yet,” she says. “We’ll know it as soon as we see it.”
“And what exactly is it?” Ingo asks, more out of curiosity than anything else.
`“It,” Akari emphasizes, trying a sigh to keep the budding disappointment out of her voice. “Is a time dilation. It looks like someone took a huge dome and smacked it over a big piece of the landscape.”
Ingo hums, mouth twisting to the side as his eyes flick tiredly over the landscape. Like… like…
There’s a shimmer, meters off in the distance. Like a mirage, dancing over a wide patch of grass, disrupting a group of sleeping caterpie. Ingo watches them worm away.
“Like that?” he asks. Akari blinks, confused, her eyes following his gesture out into the field. There’s a brief pause, where the air seems to still around them, not by nature of the wind stopping, but as if time itself had begun to bend. Akari takes in a sharp, short breath.
“Yes,” she gasps. Then she grabs Ingo’s wrist, and tugs.
It takes a moment, far longer than Akari yanking him forward, for Ingo to get his feet properly under him. He stumbles down the hill, towed by the child in front of him. This sudden burst of energy seems to travel through them like a rogue static shock, bouncing up his held arm and through his chest, giving him enough startle forward, matching Akari’s pace before she can latch onto him again.
He balances himself as they reach the bottom of the hill, straightening his hat and coat as they wade through the ankle-deep grass. Ingo’s frown only deepens in concern as they continue toward the mirage of light in front of them, still a distance off despite the gap Akari is trying to rapidly close. He feels the air catch in his lungs as he tries his best to keep up.
“What is a time dilation, Akari?”
She throws her voice back at him, trying to catch her breath.
“It’s like—time changes in this one area, and pokemon like you’ve never seen flock to it. Like they were pulled out of some other place. Just like—”
Just like us.
Ingo stumbles, hand clasping Akari’s shoulder as he rightens.
“Right,” he murmurs.
Up close, the distortion of the ground around the purple-white swirls of air seems to come in and out of focus. He can’t see past the field’s reflective surface, but the air feels heavy, like liquid, like water, when he tries to press his hand through. Next to him, Akari takes his hand.
“I thought, maybe…” she starts, looking at him. Ingo swallows. “But maybe it’s a stupid idea.”
“You think it might jog my memory, right?”
Akari blinks, stammering:
“Or, maybe, like, maybe, at least, maybe fill in some gaps! Not… not necessarily fix anything. Just maybe make something… clearer. Like stilling the water, y’know?”
Ingo sighs, smiling ever so. It’s honestly not a bad idea.
As he presses through the glassy surface, Akari at his hip, it gives to a churning sensation through his stomach and a lightheadedness in his head. He stumbles as they righten on solid, hazy ground.
The air around them feels much thicker than it is. Akari was right—the field ahead of them is full of pokemon from outside of Hisui—shapes Ingo barely recognizes, and some that aren’t familiar at all. The ground is littered in shards of pottery, or glass, all smooth and colorful as they crouch behind a sizeable rock outcrop. Ingo feels… mostly himself, as of current, but there’s something on the edge of his mind that tugs, that he can’t quite place. He frowns against it, and Akari gives his shoulder a nudge.
“Anything?” she asks. He hums quietly.
“I don’t know.”
She hums back.
“Okay—keep chasing that feeling,” she says, straightening. She peers around the side of the rock, eyeing the field ahead of her. Ingo blinks, startled all at once by Akari’s sudden movement.
“Wait—”
Before he can grab onto Akari’s sleeve, she bolts from beside him, and, at the same time, Ingo feels a sudden, violent wave of nausea pass over him. The world swims hazy grey, like the stone behind him, except the stone is gone, and the floor is solid under his back instead, and the floor is floor, not soft field grass. And light is bright, but not sun-bright, and certainly not the purpled fuzz of daylight through the dilation. Fluorescent bright. He tries to stand, but his strength escapes him, pain finding purchase at the base of his skull. There’s a voice calling out to him, far from his reach, far from the lungs that try unsuccessfully to breathe air and call back out. He tries anyway, even as the memory of a place he should know blurs at the edges.
Maybe he’s not lying down on the floor. Maybe he’s moving. Maybe he’s rocking, synced in time with the motion of the floor under him. Maybe he’s upright, sitting, standing, but the world around him looks like it’s through foggy glass. Like a dream he can’t quite hold onto properly, like an event misremembered. He tries to grab at the semblance of anything, of the memory he’s being forced to recollect, and it tastes so familiar. But it’s so far away.
He can’t remember any of the faces he’s trying to see, even this close. Even the one he’s supposed to remember. The one he knows is like his own.
Ingo forces his legs under him, even as the world bends. The edges of memory become the concrete sensations of rock and grass and the sound of Akari’s delight. And the violent spin of Ingo’s head as he stands upright.
The mirage flickers around him and through him as he stumbles backward out of the dome. As his feet hit the solid, familiar earth of the field behind them, Ingo collapses.
(send me a number between 1-100 and I'll try to write you a fic!)
#warden ingo#pokemon ingo#pokemon akari#trainer akari#pokemon arceus#pokemon arceus fic#pokemon fic#pokemon legends arceus#fics#text#asks#em-mermaid#i crumple to the ground so pathetically#i REALLY care about them. ingo and akari#they could be such good friends to meeeee#man... being grabbed from another universe having no idea what's going on... that could be them to me#playing fast and loose with the ideas of the rift KJHSDKFJH#i had this idea for a long time so i finally put it into words#there will probably be a longer fic for this! eventually. it's on my list HEHE#along with everything else LMAO#anyway em i know you don't go here but HERE U GO!! LMAOO#spotify wrapped asks 2024
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ty to @icedmatchawoatmilk13 for sending this to me! i may have gone a bit overboard but this was so much fun to fill out/think about BAHAHA💖 ill still never get over how perfect the song sarah smiles is for them...the lyrics AND the fact that its an alliteration...im gonna do an animatic about seb and clora to that song one day i swear 😩 ((blank template by oakwolves!))
#like fr....'i was fine just a guy living on my own/waiting for the sky to fall/till you called and changed it all doll' LIKE!!!!!#makes me think of seb just waiting/dreading for anne to die but then clora comes along and changes everything/saves anne AND him#ok sorry my squeeing and yapping about how perfect this song is for them is done#choccyart#clora clemons#the hardest part of this chart for me to fill out was the starting arguments one honestly...but i think theyre pretty even LOL#clora is the ROOT of their arguments usually and then seb just reacts to her bullshit......so its a 50/50 LMAO. cause and effect#also sebs pda WOULD be at 100% if not for clora LMAO#and sorry for making seb h*terosexual😔 honestly i cant see either of them with anyone else hes just clorasexual tbh#also if i could have given seb an autumn birthday I WOULD HAVE but i needed his bday to be early on in my fic...for reasons...#looking at aquarius personalities tho i DO think it unintentionally suits seb a lot#i wouldnt have made cloras bday in april either if i could have chosen freely i would have done either summer or december#but then again i just recently learned that the birth flower for april is DAISIES!! so its perfect🥰#youd think i would know this since my bday is also in april LMFAO i like how i only care/do this research when its about my ocs and not me#BAHAHAH priorities!!!
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tell ren to turn his location on👉👈
I saw one of the posts of how ren does get jealous of pets being loved over him and alll that so now I have the thought of the one meme of ‘ah yes, me, my partner and their [enter normal pet size] foot [pet]’

I don’t have anything else, it did pop into my head though and I thought I’d share with the class.
⌞♥⌝ ItsNotVivy on Twitter actually made that exact meme with Ren a looong time ago!!
#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#thegoofyest#In Viv we trust 😌 They were one of the very first people to take an interest in 14DWY!! /gen#Dare I say..... One of the founding fathers lmaooooo#Also!! Viv (along with a few other twitter artists) were one of the main reasons why I started this Tumblr in da first place! ^^#14DWY didn't have much of a following until they started makin memes and art on Twitter#Then all of a sudden I had all these people wanting to know more about the game; and da next thing I knew; I had over 50 asks overnight lol#So I owe a lot of 14DWY's success to ItsNotVivy; hmimprvmntbsmnt; dreosuger; Diachuu; glade_o; Meowastrophe; noullyart; etc.#And it's also the reason why I wanna show my appreciation towards them all by giving them Easter Eggs in the game#I also kind feel like it's the very least I can do to show my appreciation ghjsgjh ;v; Same with da 14DWY staff on Discord#It's the only place where I ask for help regarding managing the 14DWY socials (everywhere else is just me); and they go through hell n back#—to keep the server a fun and lively place for everyone#I owe so much to them as well; which is why some of da mods already have their own lil Easter Eggs in the game#I also like to think they're canon employees at the Corland Bay library gsdjgjg Except Jesse; that mf would set everything on fire /silly#Also not me getting mushy in the tags????????? What is happening to me.... Where is my mysterious and aloof persona...... /j#I'll shuddup now before I start crying (/pos) over the founding fathers on Tumblr as well lmao
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My journey with Dead Poets Society is actually hilarious given how much it has taken up my life now, so here’s a timeline:
I first tried to watch it back in like 2021/2022 because I heard about the Mr. Anderson theory for DPS and TPOBAW. I mainly wanted to watch it because I thought I’d see young Paul Rudd, but then stopped 5 minutes in when I looked up the cast and found out I had been deceived.
I finally watched it for the first time back in March 2023, but I didn’t think much of it. I gave it 5 stars of course and liked it, but it really did not take up any part of my mind whatsoever and I went on with my life.
I decided to make my little brother (the homophobic one) watch it in January 2024 and since it was a rewatch for me, I had the retrospective this time to see all of the queer coding along with whatever was going on between Neil and Todd.
Exactly 10 days after that rewatch, I posted my first chapter of Let Me Wallow in Your Afterglow which was like 10k words alone (crazy because that means I probably wrote all of that in 5 days or less; the brainrot set in quickly)
After that, I then rewatched the movie 3 different times throughout the year as I set out to complete my 126k word fic and cure the hyperfixation (finally completed the fic in September)
It did not work; I am now writing an Anderperry fic which was supposed to be a oneshot but is already past 25k words (there are still two more chapters for me to finish and upload, so more like 45k words)
#please send help#did anyone else have this experience? I feel like I’m an outlier lmao#once I started reading the fanfic everything started to fall into place#anyway I’m kind of happy that this happened because if I wrote fanfic for DPS back then it would have been way worse#so maybe it was fate all along#anderperry#dead poets society#dead poets fandom#anderperry fanfic
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If she talks about "Women have a far deeper connection with the spiritual realm" and the "Divine Feminine", run.
#esoteric#divine feminine#txt#man let me tell you something#all of these ideas are just repackaged sexism. that's all LMAO#it's not that women can't engage in the physical world they just simply refuse to lmao#besides a lot of them tend to be really insufferable human beings#they are right along with the astrology girls. just full of shit#and condescending as hell man#there are women who take the spiritual realm very seriously and i'm not including those#they are fine and tend to be cool. these chicks i'm talking about are something else tho#“the divine feminine” my ass#like can we stop attaching everything that is emotional and all of that to women always? it's setting women back ironically lmao#like hundreds of years back#please let's be more complex and multifaceted
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just read a fanfic where atem confirms to seto he is literally forklift certified
#it was actually a bulldozer along with everything else that has a motor and can move#but that everything includes forklifts!#forklift certified#yugioh#seto kaiba#yugi mutou#(not technically but idgaf lmao)#yu gi ho#yu gi oh#yami yugi#ygo atem#yugioh atem#pharaoh atem#atem#yugi moto#prideshipping#yugioh kaiba#kaiba#kaiba seto#yugi muto#yugioh dm#ygo#ygo dm
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I was thinking about this scene in the first episode
And of course it's meant to foreshadow everything that happens with Rosé, right? He's just joking here, of course, and in fact he backtracks right away after saying it
I think it's so funny that just a few days after he has this conversation with Ama, Jack meets his potential rich girlfriend and doesn't bother to even look at her twice.
But anyway, yes of course this foreshadows what happens later with Boss forcing him to marry Rosé, but at the same time, if you think about it.
The same day he meets Rosé, Jack also meets Joke - so, he also meets a potential rich boyfriend.
And yes, i know, when they meet again five years later and get together, Joke isn't actually rich anymore, but!! That's not the point! The point is that Joke is still a rich boy who helped Jack!! And, also, now that Joke is on good terms again with his family, we can assume they'll also help him financially, so!!
Anyway, yes. Jack got to have his rich boyfriend (soon to be husband!) in the end, and I'm very happy for him
#jack and joker#jack and joker: u steal my heart#jack & joker#jack & joker: u steal my heart!#my posts#i cant organize my thoughts about this properly#so have this silly post instead lmao#but it's about how joke and rose are somehow two sides of the same coin#but the only thing rose could give jack is money#and joke who is also of a rich family cant give jack money#but can give him everything else#and still helps him achieving his dream and better his life#idk but srsly i feel like this convo here isn't only meant to foreshadow the whole thing with rose#but also the fact that there was another possibility all along#i mean i dont think its a coincidence that right after this jack meets both joke and rose#if he had paid attention to rose he could have gotten together with her and solve all his problems like that#but there was joke#another rich boy who was also a complete mess#and stole jack's heart#jack had the chance to choose right then#and he chose joke#even though rose would have been the safest option#then it happens again five years later#and hes forced to choose rose and its horrible for both he and joke#but in the end. he still chooses joke#once again even though marrying rose would solve so many of his problems#jack still chooses joke over and over again
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Hello you seem to be the medici guy. May I ask for recommendations, books, ect, on how to get more into learning about them without it feeling utterly overwhelming? There’s so much and I have no idea where to start
you might have me confused with someone else, I'm a Sforza Family Enthusiast and Medici Hater
uhhhhhhh that said, I'd recommend picking one of the Big Two (Cosimo, Lorenzo), narrow it down by whatever subject interests you most (arts, banking, politics) and go forwards or backwards from there, probably
additionally, Mary Hollingsworth's The Medici as a general overview to the whole family, and The Medici Women (N. Tomas)
#I first started learning about the Medici family in a class I took in highschool on Dante#and then jumped forward to Machiavelli and everything else along the way has been against my will lmao#I finally finished a biography on Lorenzo I started ages ago for information on Galeazzo Sforza#anyway for Lorenzo: Magnifico (Unger) and for Cosimo I'm currently reading Kent's book on him#ask tag
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karlsruhe (h)
#sv darmstadt#football#pitchside tag#from yday ⚜️ not on here much rn cos of personal reasons hope everyone’s doing well just posting pitchside stuff and fucking off again x#GREAT game. floodlights friday at home is always a banger and my sister tagged along with me this game#i love my sister and football more than anything else in the world so great combo#got there as the ground opened and we walked around a bit had some curly chips and she had a bratwurst#sitting in the nord this game which had pretty good atmosphere compared to nord most days (me and thangachi were being very loud tbf)#read the monthly programme + the ultras’ programme before the game started#game itself was brilliant. defensively solid midfield was picking everything up attack was on one. should’ve been 2-0 up at the half#did get a bit nervy cos i was scared of 1-1 but ksc only had abt two good chances really#and then 2-0 and 3-0 came very fast :)#all my beautiful boys scored. isac lidberg FUSSBALLGOTT kilian corredor the CHILL FRENCHMAN and mey papela MY SON (first goal!!!)#frase was everywhere tho he’s really had a great few games. energy is there and he’s not afraid to get stuck in#me and thangachi might have lost our voices. was amazing and the boys danced with the süd at the end 🥺#she said it was karma for the group of teenage karlsruhe fans on the train there who were being quite annoying LMAO#i will take it!#also there was a svd against sexism thing that was also selling rly cool shirts i didn’t get one but it was nice to see#we were also early enough to see the team bus arriving. thangachi made accidental eye contact with isac who she said ‘did not smile#and looked like he was in the zone.’ i made accidental eye contact w luca marseiler (who i have met before) and he smiled + waved#life rly is calmer when ur not online looking at angry football takes 24/7. i’m having fun supporting spurs/lilien despite the horrors 🫶🏾#thangachi = little sister in tamil btw. my kutty chellam#rahul.txt
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you know how Roy and Keeley slept together in International Break and then everyone seemed to think that meant they were automatically back together until the next episode confirmed they actually weren't? well. what if they did officially get back together then? What if Jamie, who canonically came home from playing for England (at Wembley for the first time since his dad came into the locker room) and experienced a prolonged depressive episode nobody noticed until right before the Man City match (the first time he'd be playing at the Etihad since he left and the first time he'd possibly be seeing his father since...), also had to hear the news that the two people he's been in love with forever got back together again in his absence. and everyone else is thrilled about it. what if....
#im not counting this as a spoiler because frankly it's all going in the story summary lmao.#the summary is literally 'Roy&Keeley get back together in International Break and Jamie has to deal with that along with Everything Else.'#anyway. the implications.#royjamiekeeley#ted lasso#my writing#ship post
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ah yes…..time for another pdbc post….why make proper character introductions or lore explanations when I can make rushed doodles explaining the questionably-canon lore of Crackhead Yoshi
anyway in the most recent lore development that will play absolutely no role in anything, bellona had a yoshi plush she used to store drugs in. not to take but to just. have on hand in case they were needed yknow? she named him crackhead yoshi and is ashamed of his existence but also refuses to let anyone take him away from her
fun fact! one of the few times her brother visited her as a kid he found crackhead yoshi and that Probably contributed to the whole being-pretty-distant-from-the-rest-of-the-family thing
#love how my mutuals all have the most beautiful and in depth oc lore and worldbuilding meanwhile I have crackhead yoshi#‘huh I wonder why PDBC never gets even one like from outside of my mutual circle!’ I Think I May Know Why#I love crackhead yoshi lmao it’s a shame he’s never gonna do anything in the actual plot#fun fact! the evil origin story of CH yoshi is a few weeks ago when I remembered that yoshis woolly world on the 3ds exists—#—and you can make your own custom yoshis. so Of Course I made my ocs and I named the one for bellona crackhead yoshi#but it got censored to just ********* yoshi and I was so peeved I made him an actual character#you cannot silence crackhead yoshi. you simply can not#tw drug mention#pdbc#anyway shoutout to her brother whose only role is to not be around and have a grandkid who is Somewhat relevant to everything else#and by relevant. heh. let’s just say. she is a major part of the ‘let’s kill pumpkin daddy ☺️☺️’ movement#FORGOT TO MENTION that is by no means the only time she casually forgets that disabled people exist#she’s not doing it on purpose but she just can not for the life of her remember#she has said something along the lines of ‘look at that’ or ‘can you see that’ to a blind guy Multiple times#‘hey can you read this’ ‘I can’t read anything’ ‘oh shit yeah sorry that was insensitive’ ‘nah it’s fine’ ‘yeah so—WOAH ARE YOU SEEING THIS’
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whats the craziest conspiracy that yall dont believe but if it turned out to be true you wouldn't b exactly shocked
#mine is the human meat in fast food one lmao. i dont believe it but with how fucked up everything is if it was true itd b like. fuck it.#why not along w everything else
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if one more person tries to talk to me about college, i swear on everything i love, i will explode
#“so what colleges are you thinking of applyi-” SHUT THE FUCK UP#DAMN#like dude#i get so stressed about college and im signed up for way too much shit that im not even interested in because it looks good on college apps#*cough cough* debate.... *cough cough*#like at this point it's like my life isn't even about finding the stuff that i enjoy and the community i want to surround myself with#it's all college college college#everything is about fucking college#and yk maybe if college was a little less “eternal debt unless you get a crazy good scholarship that's only given to 6.0 valedictorians”#and a little more like the AUs then maybe i'd actually want to go to college lmao#but at this rate#it's not even something i want to do#i'm just setting my life up for it because like what the fuck else am i supposed to do??#skilled trade seems nice but i dunno#like ugh#any time i consider a program or anything that demands my time the one thing at the forefront of my mind is#whether it looks good on a resume or college application#and lowkey#i do it so often that i didn't even realize i did it until i was chatting with this one guy at the bus stop and he was talking abt this one#rlly good internship offer#and i said smth along the lines of “i'm sure that looks really good on college applications” for like the third time that conversation#and he responded saying smth along the lines of how#college applications shouldn't be the main reason u choose to put ur time into something#and internally i was just kinda like “oh yeah...”#i have so much to say about this fucking fuckass topic but this is already turning into too much of a vent#my posts#cw vent
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#interview with the vampire#i just found and watched a video on youtube that is a lestat hate and rant about his fans and it was so SO cathartic#i dont even agree with everything said and was naturally at first skeptic of a youtuber's opinion#but finally FINALLY there is a louder voice of someone who can see things about this show from another point of view#even if it's a pov that's more strict than the one i use to analyze media myself#i thought i was going crazy when seeing the fan opinions surrounding this show. mostly out there but sometimes here too#like yeah with how popular loustat is i knew there would be plenty of bias for the angle that flatters it#but the things ive seen lestat & loustat fans say.... the longing for eye bleach was real#but finally someone is there to underline that hey. that very present very intentional racial and power dynamics are in fact very real.#do in fact influence the characters accordingly. and does not come out of thin air or just 'the circumstances'#it's valid to explore the other side of the coin in louis' character of course. but it doesnt mean that it's not there#mind you. all of that shit louis described? is while insisting he was not 'an abused person'#and its so satisfying to see how someone can pass all the bullshit and have the serenity of heart to recognize that#regardless of everything else. there is a reason why louis felt like lestat was a predator and he was being preyed on#that is because he largely was. lestat *was* a vampire on the hunt. an emotional vampire to boost along with the more literal sense#he might disagree to be doing that on a conscious level and he might have clear reasons to have the instincts he does. he still did that#thank you for also calling bullshit on the reunion scene dialogue and parts of the trial in how it was trying to frame certain things#its the main reason why s2 didnt fully work for me. like jesus christ.#that man literally was part of a ploy to murder their daughter. BE SERIOUS. and im supposed to be mad about armand's involvement??#i also felt so seen when he talked about how dickmatized penis delirious to the point of frustration louis is#there is so much to be grateful for. in highlighting the weight of lestat's involvement vs armand's#in talking about louis' family's side of things. expressing how people for some reason love to call armand a mastermind lying manipulator#when the first culprit of that is the blonde bitch??#honestly the irritation i feel towards many of the fans of this show and the major opinions was such#that i was feeling bad just be seeing iwtv content around and i dont wanna feel like that. i like the show so much.#this was soul clearing in a way. even if. again. i dont fully agree with everything#love how its so clear how so many people try to invoke the books when trying to dissuade him from thinking ill of lestat#because thats exactly my experience too LMAO. talk about a weak limpdick argument#and people who try to invoke unreliable narrator are not much better#and the whole story is made up from the writer's head and nothing matters! see i can do this too
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dear Abram,
i hope there have been Gentle Moments between the Horrors. dont forget to take it easy, but Take It.
how has the Horrors been going, by the way? last posting i recall you were halfway to acquiring a Vehicle? how goes The Hunt?
with much love,
Milo
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thank you milo ;;;
there have been some gentle moments!! despite everything, there have been a few good moments this month :) including cat cuddles. i have gotten so much cat cuddles and boy did i need it.
the Horrors. man. i have now MOSTLY acquired my car! unfortunately there was a mix-up while at the bank which means i have to go back again tomorrow, and to the dealer as well, BUT the dealer was very VERY nice and he let me ""borrow"" the car i'm buying since he knew i was actively without a car right now. so the car is parked outside!! i get to drive it!! i have it now!! i just have to finish up with all the financing stuff :') and also with dealing with my sad little VW rip
the rest of the Horrors........ well. i've mostly only talked about my car here bc it's the only one that i can have any like actual control over and it's the only one where it's like "ok this is an issue and this is how it gets solved and all of these things are achievable" so i've been making myself put most of my focus on it since it IS the only issue this month that i CAN solve. the rest is stuff that. sigh. 2 of my family members died this month, one of which was my last living grandparent. and it sucks!! and my mom is currently halfway across the country having to deal with all of the paperwork and logistics of that more-or-less alone.
i know my job has bereavement leave, and i have been deeply considering figuring out how to use it so that i can go see my mom and give her some support. but i can't afford time without pay so i need to figure out if it's paid or not. OUGH.
but SOME good! like my new car being so fucking funny to me. it has push to start. it has android auto. it is so fancy. also it has roll-up windows. and little knobs for the side mirrors. i die. the contrast. her name is also Tails in honor of my favorite Sonic character. and she will be getting flower magnets.
and TSC coming out!! and rewatching Bungo Stray Dogs!!
and Blue! Blue is good too :)
#sorry for the rambling just. HHHHH.#it's hard to actually think or talk about especially with my family#cus we're all kind of going through it because of The Everything and they just aren't well known for#actually listening to me or comforting me so :')#but yay bird!!!#and also yay for blue!!#my mom is thankfully not ENTIRELY alone she does have more family out there#but#we aren't super close with most of our family so i'm grateful she has my cousins and their families out there with her#but also her sisters are... expected to be Issues. although again my cousins have apparently already offered to be body guards for her lmao#still though. it's different than having me and my siblings and my dad with her cus we're all still in GA#my dad having stayed behind so he could help us deal with the everything here#and play middle man so we could be updated on what was going on without putting it on our mom along with everything else#and just. yeah. april sucks. we hate april now. i'm so glad my birthday is only ALMOST in april but it ISNT thank FUCK.#fuck april!! worst month ever!!!!!!!#old man blue#askers#cozy-fish-crow#shh ac#okay i'm done ranting now ;;;; gonna see what sweets i might still have to consume
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yayyyy my professor requested i book a meeting with her asap because she has questions regarding my choice of subject matter for my finals project wheeeeeee
#im gonna fucking die#lmao last week i was like 'boy howdy things sure are going great for me'#'i wonder when everything will get fucked'#'lmao just kidding thats a fallacy'#AND NOW#not only is the job offer i got NOT RESPONDING TO ME#im (probably) gonna have to defend my choice of subject matter to my professor#my biggest fear is that shes going to say something along the lines of#'this isnt sufficient for a subject matter you need to pick something else'#because 1: I have bought a lot of material for this project#2: I NEED to do something I enjoy for my finals else itll never get done#3: I really do think its a suitable subject for this project#i fear that the subject matter might be considered too 'uncultured' to be considered valid#and not to go all 14 year old otaku mode#but there is no such thing as 'low grade art'#the art style has its own limitations and rules#and im gonna need to adhere to them for this project#this isnt even a case of me staying in my comfort zone#i am bad at anime style art#its not my usual thing#this is a challenge for me#anyways i better not get all freaked out yet#i dont even know what she wants to talk to me about
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