#an ode to imsol

[krautundkimchi]

For all the hate / displeasure past Im Sol gets, I feel like an ode is due:

You are the core from which your 30 year old self draws her strength. She wouldn't be what she is if you wouldn't have persisted.

People might judge you for rejecting a sweet and good looking neighbour but you knew, you had to first fight your demons.

You drew strength not just from a stranger's kind words but also from your awesome family. A struggling mother, a brother who had to grow up too soon, a grandmother who would do anything for you but was fighting her own battles with Alzheimer's and a best friend who is the greenest of green flags cause she sacrificed her personal space and time to accompany you everywhere, bringing a much needed lightness to your dreary world. All of this is implied but so many refuse to see it.

All through this you persisted.

Your first time travelling through time was to repay a lifelong debt. You encountered your cheesy self, cringing at times, but all you asked your first love was for kindness. You didn't interfere. You let yourself be cause you knew the importance of those experiences and what they meant to you.

Fate kept on throwing curve balls but you not only protected your idol and those around you, but you also protected your 19 year old self cause only you know fully her strength and her capacity to overcome the darkest moments.