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[percywinchester27]

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I had a lot of fun writing this chapter... a full fluff chapter after so fucking long Gawwddd! I was getting tired of the angst ;)

The new Mrs. Winchester

[anaxblogs]

Staedler!

Staedler: What is your favorite study snack & why?

I usually go for popcorn! I just... love popcorn and it’s really easy to snack on, I feel. Especially because I know I won’t feel like crap after eating a bunch of it hahah 😚

[percywinchester27]

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Love you more, Cutie! <3

[percywinchester27]

Oh My Lord... The New Mrs.Winchester? I love it. The twists, the allusions to some of my favorite myths, the pictures that are created due to the beautiful writing? I need more, and humbly asking to be a part of the taglist

Oh, Ellie, thank you so much for saying that <3 If that isn't the loveliest of compliments <3

Also, weren't we all Greek Myth girlies at some point? I know I still am ;)

I'll be sure to include you when I post the new chapter tomorrow, but lately the tags have been so unpredictable, you can also follow my other blog @percywinchester27-writes and turn the notifications on as I only reblog new writing there :)

The new Mrs. Winchester

[percywinchester27]

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[percywinchester27]

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[percywinchester27]

Hi Ana, it’s great to see you!

I started re-reading A Lot Like Us recently, and I got sucked in just as quickly as I did the first time reading it. I love reading the comments there as well, and compliments you get from people here.

Isn’t it amazing how many people all around the world you touched with your stories, and what an impact it had on them? You’re making the world a better place in your own special way 💕

I saw your previous response where you’re talking about how you struggle with writing these days and I just wanted to reach out and say that it’s ok, people change and grow, please don’t put yourself under pressure. It’s not healthy and you will start seeing it as something you have to do and not something you want to do. Give it time. Only write when you feel like it, don’t push yourself. That’s just a bit of unsolicited advice from someone who went through something similar.

But the main purpose of this message is to remind you what a huge impact you’ve had and what a difference you’ve made.

(trauma dump coming up, tw for pregnancy loss)

In 2018 I was in Brussels with my boyfriend of seven years for my birthday weekend. I was five weeks pregnant, absolutely over the moon.

There’s a beautiful small town called Bruges near Brussels, and we went there on birthday. We took a boat tour, it was November so it was already dark, and I remember looking up at the starry sky above us, and I saw a shooting star. I remember thinking that I should make a wish, I remember saying that I don’t need anything else, I have an amazing boyfriend and a baby on the way, I remember thinking that I have never been this happy.

And boy, the universe took it as a challenge.

The next day, as we were at the airport waiting for a plane back to Ireland, I started bleeding. Then there were two weeks of being stuck in bed, trying to save the pregnancy, but I lost her. I can’t even tell you when, she was so tiny that I didn’t notice. One scan she was there, heart beating and all, and next scan there was nothing.

And then, “the love of my life” just walked out on me. Ghosted me after seven years. Literally dropped me off at my house after the hospital appointment and drove off. And I thought he’s grieving so so I got out of my bed, barely able to stand, let alone walk, still bleeding, and I got on the bus to go make sure he’s ok. And he was more than ok. He was on dating apps, his profile saying that he is “looking for a princess to look after.”

I was devastated, had a nervous breakdown, ended up on some strong meds just to stop from shaking, just so I can get up from the bed and go to the toilet. I kept having these visions of me dying, where I felt everything as if it was real, I had nightmares about a baby crying alone in the dark, I was royally effed up. Diagnosed with PTSD. I couldn’t be alone with my own thoughts, I’d spend hours just walking around the mall or town, or I’d go to the cinema to see three movies in one day, just to avoid being by myself. I was a mess.

Well, and then, one day, I started reading A Lot Like Us. When I started reading it, I didn’t know where it’s going to go. When it became clear to me that there’s going to be a pregnancy loss there, I stopped reading. I couldn’t face it. But then I did. I don’t even know what pushed me to do it. I think that I was just so invested that I had to know what happens next. So I took a deep breath and started reading again.

It wasn’t easy. It hit me like a ton of bricks. That part after Y/N is thrown into the pool and Sam is with her in bed, and she lets herself face the grief for the first time, that was very similar to what happened to me. Except I didn’t have Sam Winchester to cling to, but that’s ok, my pillow did just fine.

I went through it along with Y/N, and it was the story that YOU wrote that allowed me to finally start to heal.

And I still read it about twice a year, I grieve and I cry with Y/N. And I heal with her, she graciously shares the love and support she’s getting from everyone around her with me, and this wouldn’t be possible without you sitting down one day, deciding to write a story that was forming in your head.

You absolutely changed my life for the better, Ana. You didn’t know you are doing it, but it happened, and I will forever be grateful to you for it, forever grateful for whatever force it was that pushed me to AO3 that day. Maybe it was the universe trying to apologise for doing me dirty on my birthday in 2018. I don’t know. But I do know one thing, I wouldn’t be here today if you didn’t post the story.

My hero ❤️

It's been a good thirty minutes since I read your message and I have been bawling my eyes out, Annie! You're a friend now... I think of you as one, and always with a smile on my face. I'm livid that some asshole treated you that way and that the universe had the audacity to be so unkind to you! Close your eyes and imagine me giving you the biggest hug... the kind that smothers you a little and you have to say a muffled, "I can't breathe" but you're still grinning in my embrace.

Trust me, Karma comes for everyone... and my people invented that word, so I know what I am talking about. 'A lot like Us' might have helped you, but that fight? That was still all you because you are a brave person with the spirit of a fighter.

I might not have experienced exactly what you did, but if there is anything that writing ALLU taught me, it's that compassion trumps empathy, and you my friend are deeply adored in my heart. I wish you all the healing and love, in a way that is truly worthy of you!

As far as forcing myself to write goes, well, it's not a pressure that others are putting on me. But I know that when all else fails, writing is the only thing that keeps me sane. I need to write now as a means to remain rational. So, don't worry, I'll be just fine. Even if it isn't effortless anymore, I need to put in this work to get back in my groove. Also, your advice is ALWAYS solicited!

ALLU was life-changing for me and I grow fearful that I will never be able to produce a better piece of work. But if that was my highest high, I am elated that it helped you in any way <3

I love you, my Darling! You are a freaking rockstar <3

[percywinchester27]

Rapid fire! Three favourite things right now! Also hieeee

Okay okay!

The drink I just finished

Alex Claremont-Diaz and Henry George Edward James Hanover-Stuart-Fox and whatever those two have going

The fact that it's Sunday tomorrow!

Hieeeeee, Nonnie <3

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Thank you, Paula!

You are a fucking rockstar for sending the extra love. I fucking love you, okay?

Extra love back!

[percywinchester27]

💚💚(what can I say about it, I just love it so, so much... And guess what? Yep, I cried🤣)💚💚

You cried???? OMG! There wasn't even anything sad in it XD

Have you turned into a bigger softie?

The new Mrs Winchester

[percywinchester27]

💚💚(good morning beautiful, have a wonderful day😘)💚💚

[percywinchester27]

Oh my gosh hi friend!😘 I have missed you so much!

Hi, lovely 😍 missed you, too! How have you been?

[percywinchester27]

You come back after 3 forevers away and the first thing you reblog is a cursed pineapple on pizza post?!?!?! 😜🤣 Glad to see you back, though!

I mean is there any better way to be back than the cursed pineapple on pizza post?

Missed you so much, babe 😘

[percywinchester27]

can i please be tagged for the new mrs winchester! love the story so far!

Sure, love! I am gonna re-do the taglist soon and I'll add you to it :)

Thank you for the lovely compliment <3

The new Mrs. Winchester

[percywinchester27]

💚💚(good morning beautiful, today six years ago I sent you two green hearts for the first time, happy anniversary! Lots of love!)💚💚

Wow! 6 years feels like such a long time when you put it in words. But it really feels like I have known you since forever. I can't imagine my life without you now. Let alone tumblr. Love you so much, Darling ❤❤

[percywinchester27]

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