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Her Imperial Highness, Princess Anna of Tartosa

Generation: 2 Gender: Female Date of Birth: September 2nd, 1315 Status: Alive Current Age: 1 Day Old Current Life Stage: Infant Country of Origin: Tartosa Class: Royalty Traits: Cautious

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lil teaser for my upcoming art series + life update (long post ahead)

so i havent been on here real-time much lately (most of my posts are queued) bc ive been adjusting to my OCD medication (ᵕ—ᴗ—) it really makes me drowsy and i'm already a sleepy girl so i keep getting knocked out lmao and yes, after 27 years, i finally got the guts to go to a psychiatrist lol. the reason why i did is bc i had a medical check-up and even though it was normal and the highs and lows were not worrisome, my mind js went haywire. but this isn't the first time, i was always like this. ive mentioned a bunch of times i studied biology and our school required yearly medical check-up and yearly i would lose my mind over it. i'd downplay it to overthinking. fast forward to now, i can't function without any music, movie, or podcast playing in the background. i always need something to overlay my thoughts that are always centered in anxiety. when i leave our house i would suddenly question whether i locked the doors and gate, turned off the stove, or pulled out the plugs. if my cat was home alone, i'd contact my mom to check the cctv what he was doing cause i was worried he was poisoned or sumn.

when i first shared this to my mom, i got the typical 'you just need to pray more'. so i waited for her and my siblings to be out of the city to visit a psychiatrist. lo and behold, i got diagnosed with OCD and got prescribed anti-anxiety and antidepressants. i walked out of there and stuff started to make sense. why i crash out when my routine's not followed, why i have the innate need to do things specifically and refuse to do stuff in a different way. and while i'm happy that the meds worked and finally my mind could shut up for once, i still worried abt hiding this from my mom.

eventually i did tell her and at first she was like 'it's all in your head, you js have to know how to deal with it' and i was like you know it's not, you know i was like this in college i would freak out waiting for results. btw my mom is a psychology degree holder so this is frustrating to me until she said she studied psych to understand the mind. she was like me too and ig she found refuge in praying. but i told her my mind is not normal anymore, i cant keep thinking abt our house burning bc i forgot to turn off the gas or getting ransacked bc i forgot to lock the door. then she said she was like this too bc her dad/my grandfather would also think he had a terminal illness from js a headache. would have a faith healer come and put leaves on him or something and had my mom carry some type of amulet for protection when she was in school. rn, my grandfather is also taking antidepressants, im not sure what for so i js told her mental illness is hereditary. that i think it's better that i got diagnosed early on rather than later bc i might god forbid become psychotic. i told her im not going to be dependent on the medication and that i will eat healthier and exercise until the dosage is smaller.

after that, she accepted it and offered to pay for my medication ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ ) which is great bc the healthcare in this country is expensive as fuck.

i think i js wanted to share this bc everything is going super slow with me and the medication is toning down my emotions which is like one chamber of the heart of drawing. i will still continue to draw and take commissions ofc, it's my spine, it was my free clonazepam and fluoxetine lol, js a tad slower. hopefully i'll get well soon and also, i hope those who are afraid to seek mental help, you have my support (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡

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Together (Space Mark X GN Reader)

Chapter 4

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5

Summary- When you wake up again you are quickly thrown back into being the captain. You also have to deal with the fact you are on bed rest for the next couple of days. You also have to deal with the fact that Burt now knows about whatever is going on between you and Mark.

TWs- mentions of stitches, still in medbay (Hospital), CC being kinda an asshole. 1044 words

update- So only a couple days until I met my long-distance s/o for the first time after a year and a half! I'm so excited. Though I won't be writing when they are up here I have some stuff queued up for this week/ weekend. I don't know if I'll have the next chapter done this weekend! I'm going on vacation a week after my s/o leaves, but I'll probably write there lol. Just updates lol.

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The next time you woke up in the med bay, it wasn't as nice as the first time You heard the voices of CC and Gunther arguing over something and the buzz of the medics working. You let out a small groan, and the arguing stopped as they went to look at you. 

You opened your eyes and winced a bit. Once your eyes adjusted to the light you looked around and saw your crew leads. The first person you saw was Mark who sat on the edge of your bed, holding your hand. Then your eyes trailed over to where Gunther leaned on the bedside table, CC right across from him. At the foot of your bed was Burt being Burt. 

“You feeling okay captain?” Mark asked softly, gripping your hand. 

“Yeah, I feel a lot better. Though I do still have my headache, Though I think I have it because I woke up to arguing” You answered giving a look to Gunther and CC.

Gunther looked away and rubbed the back of his neck. CC turned bright red and quickly said, 

“I am so sorry captain, I just needed to get through Gunther's thick head that we can't-” she stopped when you raised your other hand. 

“It’s fine, just try not to yell at each other in Med bay. You could disturb the other patients.”

you said and they nodded. You then looked at Mark, 

“How's everyone else? I saw quite a few people injured before I went out,” you asked, He smiled. Well, that was a good sign.

“Nothing too serious, the worst case was a few broken bones and CC’s hypothermia, but as you can see she's feeling fine.” You nodded with a small smile, 

“Good, I'm glad you're okay CC.” You said and she quickly replied with a thank you.

“What's the state of the ship?” you asked. You trusted your crew leads, but things could happen. 

“Everything is working and everything is on schedule, Glad you're okay Captain ” Burt answered, and you gave a smile to him. 

“Well, I’m glad you guys didn't burn down the ship while I was out. Good job guys, I'm very proud of all of you.” You complimented them. 

“Of course cap’n, you get some rest and we'll take care of everything else,” Gunther stated with an unlit cigar in his mouth (They wouldn't let him light it in medical). 

The head doctor walked up to your little group. She cleared her voice, getting everyone's attention. 

“Well good news is that you don't have a concussion, Bad news is that we had to give you stitches for your head wound. “She said, closing the notebook. 

“It’d be best if you rest and stay here for a few days so we can keep an eye on those stitches. If it would be more comfortable we could move you to your quarters.” She explained. You nodded your head, 

“If possible I’d like to be moved to my quarters. Thank you, doctor.” You answered as she nodded and moved on. You let out a small sigh. 

“So it looks like I’ll be bed-bound for a bit. I’ll still be able to do remote work, but for anything else, I’ll have you report to Mark. He has the same security clearance as me.” You explained. You saw Mark beamed with the pride of you trusting him so much. CC had a confused and surprised look on her face. 

“Captain, you can’t be serious. “ She said. You raised an eyebrow replying, 

“I am dead serious Celcionna, Mark is my right hand and I trust him with my life. I expect you all to treat him the same way you treat me.” 

You had a stern look on your face, hand gripping mark’s as a surprised (but happy) expression fell on his face. CC's eyes widened and she looked away. You only used her full name when you were pissed and she knew this. She lowered her head and mumbled, 

“Yes, captain.”  You nodded and looked over at Mark as the others started to leave the room. Burt winked at you both and closed the privacy curtains on his way out. 

You looked at Mark with a confused look, He had a sheepish smile and said, 

“Burt found me cuddled up next to you in the bed. I was able to get him to promise not to tell anyone, but only after he gave me a 30-minute monologue about love.” He ended with a small laugh, which you joined. 

You both came to a stop as you met eyes. He moved closer, placing a hand on your cheek. 

“I’m glad your okay captain.” He softly stated, rubbing your cheeks. You smiled and leaned into him. 

“Thanks for coming to my rescue handsome,” you replied, a bright blush covering his face. He grinned, 

“Always for you captain.” he softly stated. You took his hand from his face and held it in yours. You rubbed your thumb over his knuckles. You shyly looked away before saying, 

“You know I wouldn't have minded if Burt had told a few people.” Mark let out a soft laugh, 

“ I don’t think Burt could only tell a few people, but.” He hesitated, “ I don’t think I would have minded much, either,” he said. He beamed at you before finishing, 

“Though I’d much prefer it if people found out from us.”You turned back to look at him, 

“Me too, Mark,” you said before the doctor came back in. Mark stood up from the bed. The doctor and Mark helped you into a wheelchair and moved you to your quarters. 

You smiled as you were finally back “Home”. They had moved your normal bed somewhere else and had put the medical bed. The doctor rambled off about things you shouldn't do and what you could do as Mark lifted you into the bed and helped you adjust. You nodded and thanked the doctor and she left. 

Now it was just you and Mark alone. You looked up at him as he once again sat down next to you. 

“I think it’s about time we talked about us.” You softly said, grabbing Mark’s hand and letting him know you meant no ill intentions. He smiled, 

“Yeah, us.”

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[Last updated: 18/5/2024]

Requests ...things with ✓ next to them are written and queued up to be posted~

Yonghoon + notes & i hoped i’d meet someone like you for a long time

Joonggil + his gaze touched me before his hands touched me

Florist San

Hoshi + blind date

LSH + bf material

Jaeyoon + sharing drama & your heart is beating so fast [✓]

DK + rainy day & being held [✓]

Soft LSH smut

Jealous hard dom Jun smut

Woozi comfort

Onewe when their s/o wears revealing clothing [1/5]

Yandere!SF9 when their s/o escapes and comes back [5.5/9]

SVT and silent treatment

WIPS... ...the things that I'm currently actively working on and will finish soon... hopefully...

various requests

...the things that are half-finished but I need to be in a certain headspace to continue writing them and it's taking a while...

Angry smut w/ Yonghoon (Onewe)

Non-sexual shibari w/ Inseong (SF9)

Performance unit (SVT) part of my Onewe songs-based scenarios

Academic rivals mini-series w/ Wonwoo & Jeonghan (SVT) • 3 chapters - all of them half-finished because I'm a mess :') and I also like to complicate my life so there'll be sub-plots and outside-of-canon chapters and why tf do I do this to myself?

Cat hybrid Jun (SVT) • it's angsty and sad and I hate making Jun suffer but I love making my characters suffer

...the things that are half-written but I need to find my way back to them...

Overthinking leading to a relationship angst w/ Jaeyoon (SF9)

Android Giuk (Onewe) who discovers that he has feelings

Mermaid Harin (Onewe)

...the things that have some substantial part of them written but I really need to think things through...

Snake hybrid Minghao (SVT) • this was meant to be a lil' drabble or maybe a short oneshot as a treat for myself... it's gonna have chapters... I'm not good with chapters...

Mermaid Jeonghan (SVT) • I just need to figure things out but c'mon... the world obviously needs more mermaid Hannie...

...the things I'm ignoring on purpose because I feel like once I sit down with the intent of writing them I won't stop until they're finished and idk why I just don't do that but ahahaha I'm a mess...

Fallen angel Changkyun (MonstaX) who only recently fell and wants to preserve his falling feathers so he asks taxidermist!reader for help

Exs (exes?) Wonwoo (SVT) and reader who decide to stay friends and meet up and talk and is that love between them a memory or is it real?

Kitsune/Gumiho Yonghoon (Onewe) and reader who used to visit him often when they were a child and visiting their grandparents, walking to his abandoned shrine but now they're adult and their free time is severely limited

(as a side note - ^ all of those are part of a collection I wanna do but these are the ones I have the most concrete image of in my mind)

Part 2 to Crescent Moons (aka my Gumiho Lee Soohyuk fic) where they talk about love and food - and isn't bite also a touch? What's really the difference between wanting to fuck and love someone and to devour them?

A threesome w/ JunHao (SVT) and blindfolded reader because everything happens in a darkness and it's all about trust

...the things I'll write once if it's the last thing I do because I really want to write them...

Yandere!SF9 when their s/o gets lost in public

Finish "the little things" blurbs for all the groups I write for [4 to go]

Dealing with the differences between his loving family and your own dysfunctional one w/ Hwiyoung (SF9)

A very specific deity/multiverse hopper/some non-human being thing with Jeonghan that so far I only have the vibes of

Insatiable needy Jun (SVT) smut where he just can't stop overstimulating himself and as a result you as well

A mafia AU that literally only exists because I'm so fckn weak for JunHao (SVT) and building trust in someone who's like a trapped and scared animal because I have issues

This idea

This idea too

And oh yeah, this one too

...speaking of which, other ideas I'm thinking about writing and that were posted on my blog can be find on this tag here

...the things that will take a while to see the light of day because I'm horrible with chapters and writing series and so I don't wanna post them until I've written them in their entirety but that'll take for-fucking-ever...

Evermorrow - anyone remembers this? because I do and I love it, and I love the characters I've turned them into, and I have the first few chapters written, and then what I lovingly call chapter 50, which, hopefully, won't actually be chapter 50 but it's gonna be later in the story because the reader needs to be pretty close with Jun for things to make sense and Hao and Woozi and DK will finally show up, and then around what I call chapter 60 there's Vernon - and him and the reader will meet Hoshi and Mingyu... and I got this thing mostly all thought out but writing is hard and takes time and I wanna write other things as well but I love this so much :((

...this doesn't actually have a name but it's save in my docs as XenoDroid... - a gift from myself to myself, very niche and nobody will care about it but it's almost 20k words now and it was supposed to be just one smutty one-off but it has chapters and a lil' bit of plot and there's no smut yet even though I have that scene literally burned inside my mind and Yonghoon (Onewe) is a xenomorph alien-human hybrid who can think and speak but is also very animalistic and Kihyun (MonstaX) is an android who's besties with the reader but also befriends Yonghoon behind their back and hhhnnnngggg :(((