#and also my thoughts

[yexuans]

cn spoiler for yexuan's recolour whisper (空谷见幽兰)

This shit is soo painful like actually.

Yexuan from the future timeline left a message for mc by adhering the message to yexuan from the current timeline which he managed to decipher eventually

"我与你离散，真实的原因是因为我没有足够的能量，去承受爱与牺牲。

至少在你还爱我的时候，我内心无法回报足够的热情。"

Basically he separated from mc as he thought that he did not have the strength to withstand love and sacrifice. When mc loved him, he could not return the feelings as passionate as her.

But still he loved her, even when they had separated ways.

"想到你的时候，我在心底会产生一丝细微的战栗。

我忍不住猜想，如果我们从未离散，又会有怎样的未来？

感慨这些，我自己都觉得可笑。

作为拥有和改造了时光之轮，亲手推动帝国崩裂之人，竟会回忆漫长生命中一段几乎可以忽略不计的日常。"

He talked about how his heart trembled at the thought of her, he even wondered what would've happened if they've never left each other. He found himself laughable that he was expressing regrets. He never thought that he who had defeated the empire, would still be recalling memories of simpler times. (so cool he managed to defeat the empire here... so proud of him but like it must've cost him so much...)

"当我在时空的间隙中，看到那个尚在帝国麾下身为“未来窥探者”的自己。

一时只想到：“他还在你身边。”

我心里有些恍然，甚至觉得… “哦，他还有没失去。”

Here, he talked about how he managed to catch a glimpse of himself from the past (the part in summer story where he was doing missions for the empire) He thought: "He's still by your side." He felt confused, he even thought "Oh, he has not experienced loss" (btw the way he said this was 😭😭😭😭)

"我将消失于命运无数支流之中。

现在，让我用最温柔的语气与你道别，虽然现在的我已经不太有“温柔”的概念了。

再见了。

我只能给你一句很俗气的祝福。

请你一定要幸福。"

This part ruined me... he talked about how he's going to disappear.

He said: "Now, let me bid you farewell in the most gentle manner, although right now the "gentle" concept probably doesn't exist within me anymore. (Emphasising on this line cuz im gna talk about it again)

Goodbye.

I have a blessing for you.

Please, be happy."

In the second part of the whisper, it's happier as yexuan and mc are enjoying their holidays. Which then he brought up about the message that was left for mc from him in the future.

He actually thought about keeping this from mc. But then when he thought about there are a lot of ways of passing on a message to the past to change the future. There are even more direct, ruthless ways to contact mc. But yexuan from the future chose to use the most gentlest way to change the past. And this whole thing, to him, would be the most cruelest thing as he would cease to exist.

(I CANTTTTTTTTT IM SICK and he thought that he wasn't gentle anymore but he did this for mc fml)

Btw in the first part of the whisper, future yexuan mentioned that if the current yexuan somehow managed to decipher this message and decided to share with mc, that means he had found enough conviction and that yexuan and mc will not separate... (like omg... 🥲)

Yexuan then ended off with this line: "You have to know that, no matter the past or future or where I'm located at, I'll always love you."

The impact of that line just hits harder after all that.... 😭 the part where he ceases to exist seriously killed me like yea it gotta happen if not That future will happen again but can u imagine how he felt... when he saw the past yexuan and mc together... when he made up the decision to do this... He really loves her...

[stealingpotatoes]

happy neil banging out the tunes day to everyone who celebrates

[ahotknife]

the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

[kensatou]

good thing from jp twitter this week is queen of old man yaoi michiru sonoo discovering the term old man yaoi

update: somehow it got impossibly more wholesome

quick translation: おかえり: welcome home あ 終わった 終わった: ahhh, it's over! it's done! コーヒー? お茶?: coffee? tea? コ~ヒ~ ありがと: coffee, thank you~ ネクタイレア★★ ネクタイ取るレア★★★★: seeing him with a tie on, rarity level ★★, seeing him take a tie off, rarity level ★★★★ にあうな~: it suits him~

also please do follow: AraigumaSha: sensei's twitter account marureviere: maru, who does such valuable work highlighting bl manga for an international audience

[cafeyote]

me and gang at the haunted house

[icewindandboringhorror]

(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)

[hinamie]

newest issue of first years fashion just dropped

[noodles-and-tea]

Our hextech dream….

[paintedcrows]

Whenever Bill sees KingOfNJ's fics through Stan's eyes he just thinks they have the same taste in fanfiction (disgusting. unthinkable) continued

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

the picture of dorian gray (1890) - oscar wilde

"fuck my yaoi life"

[bluebellhairpin]

Crying bc the events of Pacific's Rim are literally happening right now. January 8 was the day Mako and Raleigh fought those kaijus in the Hong Kong double event. January 12 is the triple event where they close the breach. In two days we cancel the apocalypse.

[complete-clownery]

Okay guys

INPRNT!!

[stealingpotatoes]

with how much time my cat spends in his litter box (and how loud that time is), i can only assume he has the greatest litter zen garden in the lands

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[sopuu]

possessive x obsessive

[pyrus-salicifolia]

“Normal” test results are not the relief people think they are. When you wake up in pain and continue to be in pain for hours every day and your tests come back normal you don’t stop being in pain.