#and frankly i'm going to keep talking about it

[lemonsoured]

Ngl every time I see posts on here complaining about how much more accepted transmascs supposedly are in queer spaces, I'm reminded how the former leader of one of the local petplay groups in my area was super fucking weird about us specifically.

I think people just. Forget?? That many cis gay men have extreme hangups about the genitalia of trans men just. Existing near them. It's just like cis lesbian TERFs. It goes beyond a genital preference. Bro wore his disgust for "females" in his fucking bio

Down to even "supporting" trans people as long as they were AMAB in his mind. (I have doubts on if his NB friends would appreciate being called "male...")

This is not some extremely rare thing. People just don't talk about it! Gay trans men/mascs, especially those of us who don't pass, aren't welcome in a lot of places! Some people are just Not Normal about us. The idea of trans men raping cis men through deception or "turning them straight" is Not some fringe idea.

It took me like 2 minutes to find this screenshot on KF, reposted by someone who was very happy to see this attitude. There are tons of posts just like this. Christ, you don't even have to go to KF, just check any of the gay male subreddits.

And if, unlike me, you live in an area where there's only one gay bar or one kink group, then you might have nowhere to go. Transmasc people are known to be isolated from community, and it's important to point out that this sort of attitude keeps them from finding safe places to exist and be themselves.

Frankly, it's even kept me personally from feeling like I can freely *exist* in queer male spaces, much less entertain the idea of engaging romantically/sexually. So... jesus christ guys, just try to get some perspective.

Trans people of all kinds have more in common with each other than you think. We need to be able to support each other. Support EVERYONE. Because we're all dealing with this shit.

[klysanderelias]

I've been a little preoccupied playtesting the module I wrote for @anim-ttrpgs' Eureka, so I haven't written much about those experiences yet, but I wanted to rectify that by gushing once again about how much fun I'm having.

I know I say it all the time, but it's been such a joy getting involved with the ANIM Book Club, and with the Patreon server. I've been able to get involved for the first time as a player in Eureka, and I'm SUPER excited for that game to have its first session, but the games I've been running for the playtest have been just incredible.

I can't stress enough how wonderful all these players are, and I think really it comes down to the fact that every single person I've talked to is so engaged with the system, and what it means. No one talks about optimal builds, or about party composition - instead, I get to see hours of conversation from people gushing over how much they like the Gorgon monstrous trait, and how excited they are to get to play one soon. People constantly chat about their favorite characters they've played, and about their favorite moments, and it's never like 'oh and then I rolled to hit and got a BAJILLION DAMAGE' - it's funny moments, tragic moments, characterful moments. No one talks about how good it was to kill x monster with a critical, they talk about gunfights that end up with investigators staggering away leaking blood. I was talking with one of my friends about her character getting into a 1v1 with a monster and winning - and winning wasn't killing the monster, it was living. The investigator got a huge triumph in that scene because he picked up a hammer and went 'you're not getting past me' and NO ONE DIED. Yeah, someone got mauled a little, but they drove the monster off - and that's a huge win.

And that rules. I was so fuckin' hyped for her when I heard about that, because I know how difficult that is. Eureka combat is fast and brutal, and this is why - because just like in real life, facing down a guy with a gun is scary as hell. I know, I've done it in real life.

And that attitude is why I've been having such a great time - because not only does the game system encourage and produce those moments, but because players take them fucking seriously. I've been over the moon about the playtest of my module I've been running, because my players are engaged and sincere.

Do you know how badly I have been missing fuckin' sincerity in my games.

And y'know, I genuinely don't think that every game needs to be deep, sometimes you roll up a character and you have a good time not being too serious - that's how the Greed game I've been in has been going, and that's been a blast!

But there's a difference between not being too serious, and not taking it seriously, and I've been stuck with people in the second camp for too long. And I'm getting the chance now to be in games with people who take this seriously - people who have, I don't know, learned the rules, and who don't spend half the session watching TV in the background or dicking around on their phone.

And like, I have to say, the ethos of Eureka really helps make that a reality - specifically I want to call out the Third Person Perspective idea that Eureka really sticks to. I think there's a valuable conversation to have about First vs. Third person perspective, and when to deploy it, but I've never felt for a second that players were even slightly less invested in their characters because they talked about them at a remove. And quite frankly, I'm getting to be more and more of a proponent for 3PP play because I keep seeing how useful it is.

For example - I played an Android character in a starfinder game for two and a half years. In that time, my character was basically never gendered correctly. They did not have a gender, and presented androgynously, so they used they/them pronouns. And because I, as a cis man, sound like a cis man, basically every time anyone talked about them they used he/him. And partially that's my fault, for not putting my foot down more, but also I DID do that on occasion to remind other players that my character was agender and used they/them, and by the next session they were getting misgendered again.

And y'know? Basically every game I've been involved with of Eureka has never had an issue with pronouns, even when characters are plural, trans, or genderqueer - because we're constantly using them. This character uses it/she? Well lemme tell you, I am thinking about that every time I address that character, because I'm not saying 'you'. And the player is constantly reinforcing that, because they're not saying 'I'. Like, it was so fucking annoying to play a genderqueer character in a game and have basically everyone ignore that, and I'm not going to say that 3PP can fix bad faith actors who are not interested in learning or using neopronouns or whatnot, but they won't have a fucking excuse to hide behind.

And I've talked before about how Eureka is a queer game, but I think this really adds to my feelings about it, if only because it creates a better framework for telling stories with queer characters. And because, y'know, it takes it seriously. It's not a joke, and it's not an afterthought, and it's not afraid of committing to it.

I'm looking forward to sharing more of my experiences once the playtests end, but it's been a real joy. Cannot stress enough how fond I am of the players, and the Narrators, that I've been able to spend time with. It is not an exaggeration to say that while I've been unemployed and bored out of my mind waiting to hear back from jobs, this community has kept me sane and given me the chance to direct my energies in a meaningful and constructive way.

I really do think anyone who loves ttrpgs should look at Eureka, and get involved with the Book Club, and y'know maybe spend a little money keeping that studio afloat.

[laughhardrunfastbekindsblog]

To take this same idea and compare it to another Star Wars property (I've mentioned this comparison before, but I'm taking this opportunity to spell it out):

Kanan's death versus Tech's.

Kanan: dies at the end of the episode, his sacrifice is THE focal point. The entire next episode (25 minutes) is spent following his family as they process their grief in different ways. Kanan's influence as a friend, confidante, mentor, father figure, and more is touched on in every episode through the rest of the season. His influence and legacy is given almost complete credit for Ezra's success and sacrifice to save Lothal.

Tech: dies in act 1 of an episode, his death is glossed over, he is granted a few name drops the next season so at least the show's creators can say they didn't actually forget about him, we as the audience get to stare at his goggles a few times but the ONLY member of the family who actually interacts with them at all is Omega (and his goggles are given the same focus as Lula), and the only time he is mentioned in the finale is when Crosshair wants to storm Tantiss by himself.

The thing is - there COULD have been a point for "well, look, life doesn't always slow down after a death, this is another look at reality" to explain the season 2 finale barely giving any moment to process Tech's death. And hey, Tech's death apparently is what made Hunter finally decide to stop being a soldier... and that development is given emphasis for all of 5 seconds. Which is why I was waiting for early season 3 to give us some closure. But then there are 5 months of Omega frequently visiting Crosshair, with no mention of Tech (when one of the main questions after 3.03 first aired was "wait, does Crosshair even know what happened to Tech?" you know a "convenient time lapse" wasn't a good idea). There are 5 months of Hunter and Wrecker searching for Omega, yet nothing showing us how the news gets broken to the other important people in Tech's life. There's some time spent in relative peace on Pabu as the team waits for Echo to return and then wait for Phee's intel on m-count and then wait for Fennec to live up to her end of the deal. Life DID slow down enough for them to discuss Tech, set up a memorial together, ANYTHING - and they didn't. Except to say that decryption would be hard and hey here are some of Tech's notes.

Now, after a rewatch, I'm headcanoning that the reason why the death is handled this way is because Crosshair can't deal with it and therefore is trying to ignore it, until the finale when the grief and guilt builds to the point that Crosshair wants to embark on a suicide mission. But this is a headcanon, because even after THAT gut punch of a line, there is absolutely no closure. If poor Crosshair felt guilty about Tech in the finale, for all we know he still never actually got over it.

It's us desperate audience members who keep saying "Well, it was Tech's sacrifice that made the happy ending on Pabu possible." THE SHOW AND THE MAIN CHARACTERS NEVER, EVER SAY IT. They don't even give a passing mention to Tech during the end scene on Pabu. The epilogue shows us Omega yet again interacting with Tech's goggles, but not any of Tech's brothers doing so.

The thing that absolutely slays me, though? The show's creators obviously know how to write a meaningful and short scene honoring a deceased character, as they give us a moment of Crosshair honoring Mayday. So the fact that they never gave Tech a "Mayday moment," even at the end of the finale, just FLOORS me.

I absolutely ADORE Bad Batch. It is a phenomenal show. Which is why I will never get over the fact that Tech's death was handled so poorly, when literally all they needed to do was include a "Mayday moment" for Tech (more moments than just one would have been preferable, but I'd accept even one!)

I guess what I'm saying is: if Star Wars is going to kill off another main character, PLEASE, Lucasfilm, for goodness' sake, take notes from Rebels or even X-Men 97!!!

So, here's what X-Men 97 did that TBB did not, for its main character death. Obviously, huge X-Men 97 and TBB spoilers.

The death happens at a pivotal moment story wise, but is NOT immediately abandoned for other plot.

Remy (Gambit) dies towards the end of an episode which is in and of itself a real jaw-dropper, much like Plan 99. Out of nowhere a safe haven for mutants is being glassed, and Remy sacrifices himself to put a stop to it, because he's a little crazy but also well aware of what he's capable of and knows it might be their only chance to save SOME of these people who are his fellow mutants. The episode ends with his lover, Rogue--who's finally decided she agrees with Remy on things and is going to choose him and the X-Men over an alternative--holding his lifeless body in her arms.

Tech, on the other hand, dies 1/3 into an episode and vanishes from sight. Our POV character here, Omega, is injured and doesn't witness most of the ensuing escape, so when she wakes up, she demands they go back for him, crying, and we see Wrecker cry and Hunter explain he didn't make it.

...and then the episode keeps going. They're betrayed. A villain tosses Tech's broken goggles at Hunter and threatens them. Omega is captured, the remaining members of the Batch barely escape. For almost twenty minutes of runtime AFTER Tech dies, the story keeps going and has NOTHING to do with him dying (save the dig about the goggles). His death gets maybe, at most, 2 entire minutes of focus between Omega and Wrecker's reactions, Hunter's when Hemlock gives him the goggles, and Echo looking at the empty pilot's chair. That's it; for the bulk of the episode Tech's death has next to ZERO involvement in the story. It's not the climax. it's just A Thing Which Happened, and that massively devalues it from a narrative viewpoint. No one stops for more than a single breath to react to it, thus we as the audience don't.

(If anyone is winding up with 'that's because they can't due to the everything', this is why it's NOT GOOD WRITING. If you want the death to matter to your viewers/audience then you need to MAKE the time for it in your story, somehow. This isn't real life, you DO in fact control the horizontal and the vertical when making your plot.)

In X-Men 97, the death is the immediate focus of the next episode and a character's entire arc of the ensuing episodes. In TBB, it's a footnote.

In the following X-Men 97 episode, Remy has a funeral which Rogue doesn't attend, not because she doesn't care but because she's off raging against the machines, trying to find those responsible and kill them. There's a gorgeous eulogy for Remy, some thinking back on who he was and what he meant to them, a friend angry at Rogue for not being with them. It's so good. We cut to Rogue, absolutely furious with grief and looking to take it out on, well, everyone. She winds up putting herself into a coma as a result.

Literally nothing like this happens for Tech. Nothing close. There's a several month timeskip in S3 eps 1-3 which negates any immediate mourning or revelations to people who wouldn't know (Crosshair, Phee, Shep and Lyana), and we see NONE of Wrecker, Hunter, OR Echo's processing. Just what we saw in Plan 99, which again, is almost nothing. For a main character who as of S2 had the third most screen time of any character.

In X-Men 97, Remy keeps coming up as someone to remind them of what they're fighting for, what he would want for them. Tech is a skillset and a pair of goggles.

Remy is the first thing on Rogue's mind when she wakes up from her coma. She's instantly grieving him all over again, and mentions him numerous times throughout the remaining episodes as someone who wouldn't want this for them, or would have hoped for that. He's a guide for her even though he's gone. The rest of the characters reflect on him off and on--not his skills or abilities, but who he was, his nature. Remy's death completely changes Rogue's behaviors, almost 180 degrees, as well.

Tech is mentioned for what he could do, not what he liked or didn't like, how he felt about things, save for once: when Phee reveals he told her all about Crosshair. This is the only time someone talks about him like people talk about Remy in X-Men 97, and it happens twelve episodes after he died.

No one's actual narrative course changes trajectory in the case of Tech's death either. No one is shown making different decisions based on his loss (just the lack of his skills), no one is bringing him up as a rallying call for themselves, nothing. He is excised from the show in terms of his emotional, character impact. The loss is of someone who can decrypt things or knows stuff, not of a beloved sibling.

Remy's presence remains throughout the rest of X-Men 97, despite him dying in episode 5 of 10. Tech vanishes and becomes an occasional reason they have to do something the hard way and a background prop.

If you want to know how to actually write a main character death and have it MATTER and make it good story telling, watch X-Men 97.

[merlins-strawberriesandroses]

The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.

[tyrantchimera]

Something I've noticed about being in a small, 'dead' fandom... when you're a content creator, it's like the whole remaining fandom *reacts* when you do anything. I'm in a small but dedicated group of authors for a small fandom. If one of us posts after a dry spell, the rest of us perk up. The fans react. Other creators (like myself) are inspired to make their own stuff.

For a small while, we aren't just small-time creators. It's like we're the franchise itself! Everyone knows when we post stuff. Our content is THE content.

Wow. What a feeling.

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

As someone who watched last night’s episode, you had the right idea to stop.

Why’s it so bad

Because Tim Minear is a power-drunk hack.

[bunnyboy-juice]

its crazy how getting freaky with my relationship to food did Infinitely more to help me recover from my ED than Literally anything else

[youvebeenlivingfictional]

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[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Pokémon said bisexual rights 🫵✨✨✨

[eyes1nthewoods]

this is an achievement, surely

[squid--inc]

....

[oozeandgoo-art]

Now that I'm most certainly not going to be posting as often as I was - school's getting really damn rigorous - I'm going to try to get my email ring thing set up.

For a long time I've wanted to do something like this similar to a patreon - toss me a couple bucks and I email you a bunch of drawings, in proper quality and with a number of variants and formats and with layers you can take on and put off, or shaped to be different kind of backgrounds, or something - but I've also been wanting to do the same for free for the last few months.

All this is preliminary stuff, for the record - I'm probably not going to make any significant moves on this front for a while. I just want to keep everyone in the loop.

[supercantaloupe]

apparently i'm already halfway done my musicology degree??

[homocidalpotat]

Please do not send me asks for donations

Here's why (for if you find that statement hard to understand):

I have NO money to give you.

I don't have a big enough audience for my asks to get noticed.

I am a minor, and most of my followers/mutuals are too.

It makes me feel extremely guilty.

Seeing pictures of injuries or hospitals etc are triggering and/or upsetting for me. These pictures often have blood, gore, extreme medical situations, hospital environments, etc. I'm not saying I don't feel sympathy for them, I'm saying I do not want to see that.

They are always worded in a way that makes me feel like I am a murderer if I don't donate.

I said I don't want them, and my boundaries should be respected. They make me feel uncomfortable, and sometimes triggered or upset.

I can't tell what is a bot/scam and what isn't.

I get a lot of spam from this.

Please, just respect the fact that I have said this.

If you want this in your pinned post, please don't credit me. You can copy the words or take a screenshot with my username cropped out. You can reblog this but please don't go on about how awful your experiences have been. I get it, but also if you spiral two much you might end up accidentally saying something bad. This post has led to a lot of hate anons and harassment, so I would rather not have too much attention. Thanks...

I am pro Palestine and want to do everything I can to help but I'm not financially or mentally well enough to do much. I'm not in support of these people dying. Also, this post isn't just about Palestine. It's about ALL asks for donations. I'm not doing favouritism or racism. I just can't deal with it. Don't harass me for expressing boundaries. This post applies to people of all nationalities and backgrounds. Every situation- war, poverty, injury, anything. I'm not discriminating. I'm not being a zionist or a racist or an ableist. It's a boundary.

Yes, this post might seem controversial. But I did literally make this for my own personal experience and didn't expect it to get more than 12 notes or so. Don't add opposing views because quite frankly, it's none of your business. It's not my problem and I didn't mean for this post to get so many notes. Don't use the number of notes as an excuse to fight me. I just want a peaceful Tumblr experience. Also, if you are reblogging this, don't trauma dump. I keep notifications on for this post so that I can block people harassing me before shit escalates, so I can see every reblog. You can screenshot and repost if you want to talk about your problems, but honestly its no better seeing people saying "I'm bankrupt and I just got kicked out by my family. I also have a history of abuse and those images are so triggering that I want to die". That doesn't help me. Make your own post to say that. Please.

I am taking this post off private after slightly modifying it. Any conflicting arguments based on this post will result in my blocking and reporting of you. If you do not understand my point of view, make sure you fully read the post before saying this. I made this post for my blog. If you have any questions or don't understand this post, send me an ask that is composed, calm and polite, and I can talk it through with you.

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[churipu]

YOU SLEEPING ON A COUCH AFTER AN ARGUMENT 𓆝 ⋆｡𖦹°‧

featuring. gojo satoru, geto suguru, toji fushiguro x reader

note. i hv so many ideas right now apart from what i'm actually supposed to be focusing on, so...pls excuse me.

GOJO SATORU. arguments with gojo are a pain in the ass, he's petty and everything will be a mess. he's so stubborn that it actually baffles you sometimes — and he calls you rock head?

being a sorcerer is never an easy job. gojo wakes up every day, not knowing whether he'd die in a mission or get to live another day. so when you brought up your concerns about it to him, the male didn't take it lightly. things have been tight for him, and you're walking on eggshells for the past few days.

the slightest thing angered him, like how his sleeve got stuck on the door handle, or the way he curses out loudly when he stubs his toe on the coffee table. it puts him in a shitty mood, so when that happens, and you try to talk to him about his job.

gojo gets very pissy about it.

frankly, you understood where his anger comes from. and it was part of your fault to bother him the moment he came back from work exhausted, it was bound to happen so you weren't really blaming him at all from the projecting of his anger to you the night before — he didn't say hurtful things, gojo knew better than that. all he did was tell you to leave him alone and get out of his sight for the night.

and you did. sleeping alone on the couch, all sprawled out, an arm dangling on the edge; while a string of drool dribbled down the corner of your lips.

you seemed to not mind having to sleep on the couch (under your own want). but your boyfriend did, the moment he knew your bed time strikes — he came out of the room and eyed your sleeping form. guilt washing over him when all you did was care about his being and how dangerous the jujutsu world is.

gojo approaches you and gently carried you in his arms, an arm right under your bottom and his other arm around your waist. hoisting you up like a baby as your cheek leaned onto his shoulder, letting the drool blotch his shirt. he doesn't care at all.

the male tucks you in the bed, pulling the covers over you before slipping next to you, chest pressed to your back and an arm resting on your hip. gojo will never let you sleep a whole night on the couch, he will bring you to sleep with him and apologize the very next day for being such an ass.

he also, tried to make it up to you by cooking a classic english breakfast. which ended up in chaos — and you both decided to order take out instead.

GETO SUGURU. geto is usually calm and collected; he doesn't really get angry at anything. even if he does, he mostly keeps it to himself unless it really bothers him. but since humans have certain capacities to their own emotion — geto is not spared from being angry, no matter how calm he is.

after the death of amanai, you could feel him change. your geto. it was traumatizing for him, and you understood. always being there for him, never leaving him alone. the dark circles under his eyes were apparent, and it looked like he hasn't had a good night sleep for what seemed like . . . weeks, or months, if that's even possible.

geto appreciated your company, really. but sometimes, he also wanted to be left alone to dwell on his feelings. he didn't want to end up saying hurtful things to you because he was so angry at himself. but he did, and god was it horrible.

he was already feeling like shit before the argument— which if you see, wasn't really an argument at all. it was one-sided, geto was telling you off and you didn't say anything back. because you knew he didn't mean it. he almost desperately begged for you to leave him alone because your presence was "annoying" him and he couldn't stand it.

although geto said it in a heap of moment. he didn't mean it, and before he could say anything else, you tell him that you were going to be sleeping on the couch, so if he needed anything he was free to come to you.

geto didn't stop you. he was busy hating on himself for telling you that — and believe me when i say that he, right there, almost cried out of frustration.

he tossed and turned on his bed. where you were usually on too, beside him, holding his hand whilst he sleep. your hushed voice lulling him into a peaceful slumber; but you weren't there today, all because he told you to leave him alone. geto sat up, his eyelids heavy, but no matter how long he shut is, they always open back up.

with slow and heavy steps, he approaches you on the couch. and geto had always knew that you were a light sleeper, so his footsteps awoken you. seeing your eyes flutter open, geto slid on the couch, laying himself on top of you — head on your chest, arms clutching onto your shirt like he's desperate for your presence, and his legs intertwining with yours.

getos' hushed apologies were heard as he leaned into your warmth, and you told him that you were never angry. brushing his hair, massaging his scalp using your fingertips before lulling him to sleep, and geto did. almost immediately. and so did you.

he could never sleep without you. whether it being on the bed, the couch, or anywhere else — as long has you were with him, he will find the ability to drift off.

TOJI FUSHIGURO. is an ass. let's face it — he wouldn't give a fuck if you decided to sleep on the couch after an argument, at least for the first couple of hours. toji is a blunt man, and he's a sole believer that nobody could bear sleeping on the couch when there's a bed in the house.

but you were there to prove him wrong.

after an argument going south, he finds you grabbing your pillow and then seeking shelter on the couch. and he clicked his tongue in annoyance, knowing you'd come crawling back on the mattress after a few hours — because who'd choose the couch over the bed?

you. apparently.

he slept without a single care, thinking of words to say when you finally decided to come back on the bed. but when he woke up at three am, his arm searching to find your body, but realizing all he was catching was air — he finally realized that you weren't coming back onto the bed.

and it annoyed him. he was angry that you weren't there. and at three am? he was already wide awake, walking out of the room angrily. but his gaze softened when he saw you asleep, the constant flashing light from the television panning on your body; toji walks over, snatches the remote and turns the device off.

letting out a soft sigh, toji squats down, flicking your forehead. and the action was enough to make you grimace lightly in your sleep — although not enough to wake you up completely. the male chuckled and prepped an arm under the hollow under your knees, and an arm across your shoulder.

with ease he brought you into your shared room and he laid you down on the bed, covering your body with the blanket before he slips into his own portion of the bed. scooting closer to you as you instinctively nuzzled into his chest, seeking for comfort.

toji wouldn't admit that he was the one who brought you into the bed and would end up saying how you came crawling back at three am. you always find out the truth though, and toji tells you to forget about whatever he did because he won't be doing it again (he will).

© CHURIPU 2024 , DO NOT COPY OR REPOST ANYWHERE

[deathofacupid]

ft. satoru gojo | heart eyes. ༉‧₊˚.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ jujutsu kaisen ۶ৎ gender-neutral!reader. cute drabble. lovesick, down soo bad!satoru.

ᯓ ᡣ𐭩 satoru's not a bad boyfriend, he swears! just... a bad listener.

satoru wasn't actually hearing you. not in the way you probably meant him to, anyway. it wasn't a conscious choice; the guy genuinely wanted to.

he wanted to latch onto every single word, commit it to some perfect mental vault, and then whip it out weeks later just to prove he'd been paying attention. he wanted to be that boyfriend.

but the second your voice started, it was like his brain just… melted. a soft, contented sigh would escape him, and he'd be practically gone – cartoon heart eyes and all. he'd just get utterly lost in the smooth, almost musical quality of your voice, how it just sounded so… sweet.

and then your eyes would light up, all bright and animated, your hands moving gently as you spoke, like the words alone weren't enough to convey everything you were feeling.

it was angelic, he swore. ethereal. you were just so damn pretty. the curve of your eyelashes, the way the light caught your hair. and your lips… they looked so full, so soft. all he could think about was pressing his own against them.

"…and he literally didn't even seem to care! i mean, i— 'toru?" you stopped mid-sentence, your gaze finally landing squarely on him. you even poked his cheek, tilting your head with that curious little expression he adored. he snapped back to attention, sitting up straighter than a pin.

"yeah, yeah," satoru blurted out, nodding way too enthusiastically. "totally listening. keep going." he doesn't want you to stop talking, he doesn't want to ever tear his eyes away from you.

"oh, okay," you said, watching him with a careful look. "you sure? i'm not boring you or anything?"

"no! not even a little!" the very idea of it was insane to him. how could a voice like yours ever even think about being boring?

"alright, well, anyway," you continued, just after a beat of silence. he places his hand on top of yours, which is already on the table. softly tracing shapes, his cerulean blues are back on you. (they never left.)

and just like that, it was in one ear and straight out the other. frankly, that dopey, lovesick expression never quite left his face.