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Tendi is a bit of an unreliable narrator in regards to orions
this is not hate of tendi or of lower decks, which I love heart and soul. Just a more realistic take on what we have been told.
But I do think it is important to keep in mind her descriptions of orion society are of someone *extremely priviledged* in the social hierarchy and that orion society is very unequal.
She is the rich international student at a university -- she is right to dispel a lot of myths about orion society perpetuated by the more hegemonic power in the sector. But also realize her perspective is heavily influenced by her position as one of the richest families in the planet. Like its good that her grandmother was a scientist on a science ship, and good on them recognizing orion scientific achievements. But was that a position available to the common orion, or like, something wealthy people were able to access in orion society? It is amazing that she is putting aside her privileged position to join starfleet, but is that a possibility for her only because she is wealthy? Like can the guy whose job is to carry divans all day make the same decision? Is she less likely to downplay aspects of society like hormonal coercion, or the slave trade as part of their piracy operations because the wealth of her family allows them to opt out of those aspects of society? Is she to some degree ignorant of societal inequality b/c of her wealth? She sees a lot of orion society as embarrassing and worthy of critique which is laudable of her. But I do think she might have a bit of a myoptic view, too. If you've never read this medium article on the international school class, it is enlightening: https://medium.com/@rachel.engel/an-open-letter-to-the-international-school-community-our-role-in-the-black-lives-matter-movement-c92ba725d93c (on the transnational capitalist class)
#i dont know#maybe i have a case of taking things too seriously#this is not hate on tendi or the amount of lore lower decks has given us#but it does bring up questions#and i like exploring those questions#im a kid like tendi it was easy for me to go abroad to study#and follow my dreams#it wasn't that i wasn't smart#but money helps#and it is easy to forget how much money helps#and say things like “We aren't that rich”#lower decks#star trek lower decks#dvana tendi#d'vana tendi#tendi#orion#orions
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u know what would be a cool genshin fic idea? isekai/transmigrated reader, but instead of appearing within the general timeline, you come into the genshin world 500 years prior to the start of the storyline in khaenri'ah.
honestly it could be either a little before the cataclysm, giving enough time to delve into some relationship building + explore some world building with characters like dainsleif, traveller's sibling (which would probably be lumine bc i actually do like her as abyss sibling & aether as traveller), and npcs like halfdan (still crying over him to this day ;w;) and possibly the khaenri'ahn royal guards (assuming you either join them or have a good enough relationship with them), OR it could be you appear during the crisis, completely and utterly lost as to why you were brought amidst the chaos and bloodshed as you watch everything you barely knew about this nation crumble before your very eyes.
either route will still result in reader's existential crises and constant "why am i here? just to suffer?" monologues because really, who would be fine after going through that after coming from /our/ world? and not to mention you've had to endure the next 500 years wandering with no real set path because you don't know this world— this era of teyvat or of genshin. you're merely stuck, unable to die, and forced to live a life of uncertainty with no clear direction for you to go to.
despite it all, you've at least been able to see dain during this course. while your meetings pass far too quickly for your lonesome, and his solemn demeanour is something you're yet to be accustomed to after having been with him before the fall of khaenri'ah (assuming it's the route where you appear before the cataclysm), you're glad to see a familiar face every now and then. after the messy departure with the lumine who left for the abyss order, you've come to appreciate his quiet presence more and more each time.
and then you decide it might be time to settle. you soon realise it's difficult to do so when your lifespan has become far more than that of a human's — of a mortal's — and so you find yourself becoming used to staying in one place for a few years before setting off for the next. rinse and repeat. over and over. it's come to a point where you've witnessed the nations undergo various changes each time you visit. you know change is inevitable, and yet your heart stings each time you witness it; a testament to how the world is ever-changing, yet you're stuck in place as a bystander.
one thing you're grateful for, however, are the bonds you've established amid your back-and-forth over the centuries. from archons like zhongli and venti to long-life beings such as neuvillette and the adepti to regular mortals who have showed you kindness as if one of their own... you've grown to cherish those memories, often reminiscing them when the nights get too long and surroundings too quiet. it was difficult at first, and still is, but you've become used to the inevitable change and the passing of those you once knew.
and after 500 years, you find yourself face-to-face with one you haven't seen since before you appeared in this world; the protagonist of this world, and the one you eventually join in hopes of finally finding a means to an end, aether.
little side notes/extras:
from /our/ world, you would probably know the storyline from up to around current (5.0) or maybe a little after the fontaine aq conclusion. it gives a lot to work with, but you definitely won't remember a lot of the lore after so long other than some main events, especially since most of your knowledge is pretty irrelevant for the next 500 years,,,
i think it would be cool if you had an inteyvat on your person as a little homage of khaenri'ah, which may or may not invoke some opinions from certain characters (*cough* aether immediately being reminded of lumine and having an existential crisis *cough*)
post-cataclysm you would go through a, uhm, long phase of helplessness, wondering why you were even brought to this world so far back if you couldn't even make any contributions. it does eventually morph into a resolution to do what you can to help those you come across if it's within your capabilities, but the nightmares and helplessness come back every now and then as a reminder for what you can't do :D yippee :D
honestly i'm on the fence whether you would have a vision or some other type of abilities (think on the similar lines of aether/lumine's and dain's), but i think having some type of purification mechanic would be a must in your arsenal !! would definitely lead to some moments between you and characters like dain or zhongli who suffer from the erosion as you give them a slight reprieve from what rages within and corrodes them
a little self indulgent, but i'd like to think your first /proper/ meeting with zhongli happens during a lantern rite festival, wherein you're admiring the lanterns in the sky after making a wish of your own and he comes up from behind with "they're beautiful, wouldn't you say so?" and !!
also as for love interests, as much as i would love for human/mortal characters, a part of me feels like this story would be better suited for the immortal/long-life characters as love interests?? idk i feel like considering that 500 years is, well, a long time, the bonds you would have with them compared to characters like, say, alhaitham or diluc would be way too different ?? though i would definitely still add them as love interest bc i am a sucker for so many of the human characters ;w; it would also add to the angst and hurt/comfort ahahha...
anyway thank you for reading this massive brain dump of a fic bc i absolutely would put this as a long term project, and if u made it this far then i would like to say that dain solos—
#sophie talks : concepts <3#dont mind me i am just in HEAVY brainrot over this genshin x reader concept bc OURGH??? THE POSSIBILITIES??? THE LORE??? THE RELATIONSHIPS?#also exploring dynamics with the immortals/those with longer lifespans like zhongli; the adepti; neuvillette; the archons in general; DAIN#and lumine; and maybe fatui... hehe.... AND AETHER TOO#omg imagine pierro trying to convince u to join him in the fatui after having finally tracked u down after the cataclysm bc of ur frequent#changes from nation to nation only for u to turn him down saying u dont wish for further damnation. he leaves u alone and u think he wont#pester u anymore until u see him years later again and again and again; him with the same question and u with the same answer#BUT ALSO KHAENRI'AH WORLD BUILDING/EXPLORATION BUT ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE WRITING A MEDIEVAL ROYAL AU RAAHHH#sir royal guard captain!dain interactions... the royal guards... adopted royal!lumine interactions bc ur just like her from another world#and tells u stories of her and aether & u grow closer and u travel with them before dain joins u both before the inevitable break up and#OMG WAIT MADAME PING DYNAMIC WHEN U BECOME FRIENDS WITH THE ADEPTI AND SHE JUST OFFERS U TEA AND A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON BC SHE KNOWS U SO WE#AND OHHHRHJFHJHGJF#cries. this fic would be a lot of emotional hurt/comfort and self acceptance for new life and reader will need a big fat long hug#anyway i will write this. one day. hopefully.
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does disneytrap like jazz? he looks like someone who likes jazz 🎶🎷
I think as long as it's showtimey-enough, he'd like it. He'd just want music you would dance/sing/perform to, even if he's only listening to it. He's a theatre kid.
#disney fnaf talks#<- new tag? i like to organize. but this is *mainly* bc i get questions about these specific versions of the characters#and i kind of want a way to categorize when i talk about them *specifically* and not just normal fnaf#bc i like keeping the “disney fnaf” tag only for art so its an easy way to see those versions of the characters#so i kinda wanna use the “-talks” tag just for writing about characters. exploring them further. or answering questions on them?#probably? so i may find some old asks that i answered before that i think could fit this tag too#answered ask#anon ask#text#talking in tags#q
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You know I want to know more about B-127 like what kind of work did he do before (and kept apparently failing at so badly he got dropped down to a level so low most don't even know it exists)
Like B out here knowing exactly who the Elite Guard are and their names when Orion and D16 didn't even know them.
And while we know Transformers have wildly long lifespans the fact he's had many jobs and still been down there for like a very long time,
"Somewhere between a longtime and forever"
I saw one person make an interesting comment on the implication of him actually being Older then Orion
I mean the stuff with the Primes and Sentinel happened looong time ago which raises the question as to when did Sentinel Prime -assuming since I find it highly suspicious it'd be there by accident toss that S.O.S message down there in the first place for B to find and how'd it end up in Steve's head?
#so many questions on the time line of things#honestly tho the idea of B being technically older then them but just extremely socially stunted leading to a more child/immature demeanor#to those around him I kinda like it#forget a sequel#I just want a movie or even a short or something getting to explore B before met Orion and D16#transformers one#tf b127#b 127#transformers bumblebee
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every day i think of xmen evolution wanda and everyday i wonder if- while she does have the fake happy memories with magneto- how does she actually FEEL about him when he's brought up or she thinks about him
is there just this underlying anger/rage but she cant ever place why so she ignores it ....... does she just feel numb ....
#snap chats#an idea ive wanted to try exploring for Ever but i cant be serious for more than two seconds vjLAKJLKJ#mastermind could only put illusions in her head not change how she feels no.... shrug...#like yk what i mean ... you cant control or explain feelings they just exist. you can THEORIZE why theyre existin but they just come to be#so i wonder if internally her brain knows somethings wrong but because its a feeling it cant be justified to her#she was p upset about him dying against apocalypse so ... shrug ... but is it because she loves/cares for him#or because she has those underlying questions that now she cant get the answer to... prob not but im forced to wonder#if she has all these great memories with him why does she never see him ... etc etc..#sometimes i think when pietro told her the memories were fake on the subway thats why she got mad#like it was confirming something in her she didnt want to already admit or something along those lines#idk. im still forever miffed by the potential lost with magneto and his kids#just one extra season .. an extra ep to explore them more idk .... just feels like there coulda been more done..#oh wanda my dear wanda i wanted so much more for you in evo..
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I am greatly enjoying all the discussion about Solution 9 and the positives and negatives that I've been seeing.
However! I went for a walk around the other day as Arkose! Who is my S9 oc with mild levin sickness (manifesting similar to peripheral neuropathy), and who often uses modified arm crutches for balance/stability.
And I suddenly noticed that this place is an ACCESSIBILITY NIGHTMARE. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY FUCKING STAIRS WITH NO RAMPS. WHY ARE THERE RANDOM BUMPS AND ELEVATION CHANGES IN THE ROAD.
Literally when I have time I'm gonna make a series of screenshots with Arkose posing next to all the FUCKING STAIRS doing very sarcastic /showleft, /showright, and/or "magic the gathering butt crack guy prayer hands pose."
#for the sake of my sanity I am going to assume they have hover wheelchairs but like COME ONNNN#there's an elevator I found. which to get to it. you have to go DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS#tbh part of why I made Arkose was wanting to explore how s9 interacts with a large population of people with disabilities#and kind of find ways to expand that world building in more interesting ways than we've seen so far in game#well I clearly found one of those ways and it's judging the extremely questionable urban planning choices lmao#ffxiv#dawntrail spoilers
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#finally free....i can remove dragon age tags aughhhh#i can see shit now aaaugh#also...#datv spoilers#SPOOOILERS#tone shift in act3 baby? where were you all this time?#no cringe dialogues?#wish the whole game was like this#i mean...you kinda could see the old biowares original story....#the vision baaabyyyyy it was there#hell you could even see those bigass bioware layoffs mm mm mmm#giving us the ultimate tiktok experience#overall.....fun game#combat was great ..visuals 10/10#dialogues? ASS..... main story ones were kinda okay....#companions? better than me;andromeda#but but but but what about your pookie solas? soph?#oooh they broke him#they broke maaaaaaa booooooy#idk like...the whole 'we must change solas mind' was giving dora the explorer....swiper no swiping#also ign? with their 9/10 .....get the fuck out of here#it was 8 at best...#oh...but the important question....am i still simping for solas? yep... sorry
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I've come to realize that I very much lack an "identity" when it comes to my interests, so when I am asked about them irl it becomes awkward. Everyone around me is a gamer to some extent and everyone is nerding on some pop culture something-or-other, but I cannot group myself into any of these things clearly.
And no, I refuse to open up about my artwork or vocal synth nonsense. I would rather keep that strongly barred from anyone off the net unless I trust them enough.
So partly it's my fault since I want to come off as unassuming as possible, but I can't help it when I worry about being scrutinized for every little thing I do or enjoy. But who hasn't felt that way, right?
In short, I know who I am but what are you going to do with that information? I don't know and it kinda scares me.
#I mean I'm kinda like this online too#I prefer to “like what I like” but that isn't as much of a big deal#because I don't necessarily need to make an impression online#but in forming relations in person it helps to find those common threads#or maybe I'm just enjoying all the “wrong” things that aren't the majority so I'm at a loss#in that case oh well I guess#I'm thinking about this aloud because I got asked about what games I'm currently playing at work#because I don't... play games regularly#and there are some things in between those genres that were asked that I do play but it's not Every game in there#and everything I'm exploring currently are older things#so I don't think people care#I don't wanna play these new games. not now. I'm sorry.#the last thing I want is to be known that I draw and I'm asked those same pain-staking questions again and again and again#so I'll remain boring to everyone around me-- and honestly it's for your own good#mew and the hot dogs
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Tehe. 19 and 23 for the ask game miaou☆
INSANE how you managed to find the two questions that would be not fun for me to answer because there is no catharsis to be had LMFAO Why do you torment me so 😭
19) something you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...
I had to think really hard about this for a sec because generally, there isn't much that I'm ashamed of liking. If I like something, I like something and there's generally a great deal of thought put into it! But really, there's only one answer I can give and it's Epic the Musical.
Listen to me, I love (the first half) of Epic. It is unironically very well done and as a concept as well as musically it is a very competent draft. But it is very much still a draft and there are many narrative, chronological, character and thematic flaws that need to be dealt with before it can truly be a good musical. It has a wonderful foundation but if it's going to be anything other than a wonderful foundation, serious edits need to be done.
I'm not actually gonna say anything about the fandom - I was never a big fan of Odysseus as a greek figure and I continue to not be a big fan of Odysseus as a greek figure (my favourite Achean war criminals from the Iliad are Diomedes and Menelaus tysm) so I'm definitely not someone greatly impacted by the Epicification of the Odyssey but!! ☝🏾 Epic erased Apollo so hard from the Odyssey that he literally only has twenty secs of soundtime and that is an insult I will never forgive it for.
I still bump the Thunder Saga though, that shit goes crazy.
23) a ship you've unwillingly come around to
Apollomes. Or, well Apollo/Hermes.
Don't get me wrong, I still don't ship it - and on a bad day, I can still be very bitter if I come across stuff for it in the wild - but in general, I've gone from loathing it to being fairly ambivalent towards it, which is a massive improvement for me.
My biggest bugbear will continue to be that both Apollo and Hermes just straight up have more interesting romantic options to dig into and also their dynamic as brothers and friends is intimate and beautiful just the way it is but I also acknowledge that sometimes people just want to have fun and think they're cute together so it's really not that serious.
I do wish Apollo would be characterised a little more maturely in their dynamic though - to me the theoretical fun of Apollo and Hermes is Hermes coaxing Apollo to do some stupid shit and then Apollo getting them out of trouble when the stupid shit inevitably ends poorly LMFAO
Also there is no where NEAR enough content of the two of them having flirting competitions where they menace and proposition nymphs together just for the fun of it. If they ARE together, they're swingers like the gods intended.
#ginger answers asks#konu you picked those questions with intent I just know it#apollomes actually has a lot of potential but it's held back by people being horrifically caught up on monogamy as the moral standard#I just feel like people never want to really explore what it means for such young-presenting gods to 'date' as it were#people want cute tropey stuff which is fine but you can have cute tropey stuff and still have it be relevant to the characters#at least gimme content of them wrestling and racing together like goddamm
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Go play pretend on your own (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Dexter Favin#Coraline#The Beldam#The other side of this coin <3 Call him out but this time make it unfriendly hehe#I talked last time about the daring rescue!! I do love the daring rescue in Coraline AUs ah same thing with the Camp Camp Coraline AU haha#Burst in through the door! Those poor hinges!#It is a bit funny imagining him crawling through the tunnel in a hurry and kicking the doors open all winded haha <3#It's all very serious of course Max needs help! Stuck behind the mirror from disobeying perhaps?#I was pretty hard on him last time that he'd just Immediately give up his soul for cheap tricks but like - would he?#Yes he's reckless and foolish but he's also stubborn and prideful and hates being told what to do so there's that lol#Which does he want more! The high or his freedom to refuse? I could see it going either way#And for Dex's sake I would hope he'd refuse! As if he hasn't suffered enough eye trauma (eventually)#Ough the thought of him starting to say yes and getting one button eye in and then rescinding his yes ouch#Doomed to have one eye no matter where he goes ah 💔#Anyway - Dex!!! Watch I'll make another one with the ideas mentioned here and then talk about more ideas in those tags pft#Since agreeing with him didn't work how about shaming? ''Go away you're no better''#She really is going hard on him like ''What's your angle? You get him back and then what? Will that actually fix anything?''#Very much pulling from Dexter's meetings with Max at the Institute there hhhhhh as if I needed more feelings about it#Eco_Mono did such a beautiful job playing Dex - so much to consider hehe - but there was one question that I can't stop thinking about#''Why would you want him back?'' and Dexter didn't really have much of an answer - he was barely more than a concept at the time!#Having had the opportunity to see his character grow into himself has given me Such brainworms about that question ♥♪♫#Very want to explore it <3#In the meanwhile it's fun to pit these two against each other haha what an odd matchup ♪#I've only barely drawn the Beldam before now that I think of it! And I think only in her final metal-spidery form never in her mid form here#She's fun :D And so tall! Dexter finally feeling small for a change haha#Her having to fight adult selfishness would be quite interesting I think - something tinged with but not quite the same as loyalty#She can relate to the possessiveness at least hehe I'm sure he'd appreciate the comparison
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Someone stop me from adding yet another fucker to Chatterbird Corporations or so help me god. Come on I thought we had AliveWorld for this kind of fuckery.
#it's like ough it'd be so funny. but ChCorp is not funny. ChCorp is my emotional hell.#ChCorp is a self-contained long-form exploration of the human condition that was originally supposed to have TWO (2) repeating characters#and the rest would always appear for one act. But Dienes was an ok addition that made sense for the themes. i don't even know#why the hell he's there but he's been there since i was 14 so who cares.#Alexis was a random addition but she is actually a nice other side of the coin to Chatterbird and someone who is fully human#despite being robotic and on like 20 medications. she's the character who's there so I can make it clear that I'm NOT#saying that body mods and medication and prosthetics make you less human but that I'm instead saying that Chatterbird is a bigot.#and a victim. but also a bigot. Mockingbird was a shitpost but now he's there forever and hey it fucks hard#because he explores nature vs nurture. he's the 'Can Chatterbird change? What makes a person? What is an individual? Is it ingrained in our#DNA or is 'us' something that is created and if so can it be changed? How much? By what?' to Chatterbird's living ship of Theseus#she's humanity vs inhumanity and personhood vs tool and Mockingbird is nature vs nurture and individual vs collective guilt#she asks 'Am I human?' and he asks 'Who am I?'#Grey was added out of spite but funnily enough him and King actually make a great thematic square with Chatterbird and Mockingbird#because there's nobody who's Chatterbird's parallel as far as the question of humanity is considered.#since Alexis isn't really about that at all.#anyway my point is there are enough recurring characters we don't need more reoccurring characters.#AliveWorld was literally built in such a way that i could throw in an endless amount of characters forever for my own enjoyment#but the thing is it's a fantasy comedy turned dramedy. the guy whose concept is solidifying in my head does NOT fit into a fantasy setting#i have nowhere else to throw him because my only 3 surviving writing projects are AliveWorld; Chatterbird Corporations; and BDEF#and technically speaking Liliana's AUs but those are fanfictions.#oh yeah I forgot about Terror on Belgica. which is Schrödinger's fanfiction i guess. but regardless he can't be there either that's a horror#story
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Thinking bout the time someone yelled at me because they didn't understand butches.
#feeling some kind of way about telling queer stories lately#and what makes something “queer enough”#which. in my opinion is that any story I tell is queer enough because I am a queer person telling stories about queer characters#but there are always going to be people who call that into question if boys arent kissing boys and girls arent kissing girls#in easy uncomplicated ways#looking glasses is meant to be messy#everyone is at turning points in their lives. they're young adults whose identities and relatio ships aren't fully formed yet#but those complications (in my opinion) are what make the story queer#what are dess's pronouns? she/her but only because she hasnt had a chance to think about anything else#when an overbearing mother got her daughter back after they were missing for years#she might have a hard time adjusting to her child maybe not being her “daughter”#which is queerer: two women getting together or breaking up?#i dont think it matters#but I find these in between spaces interesting to explore#and it's my story that I'm doing for free#so even if dess looks too much like a man#i dont owe it to anybody to conform my story to someone else's expectations#(long ramble that probably isnt very coherent)#(i've just been thinking about some of this stuff lately. and this is the funniest response I've ever gotten to the comic)#(like yeah. she is a girl. good job!)#(i dont often get hate on the comic (which I'm glad for) so whenever I do I find the types of hate really fascinating)#(and dont worry. I got this months ago. I've just been thinking about it again recently and laughing)#nickel for my thoughts
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You! Are! History!
I drew some of Pit's fabulous adorable poses from his battle cry in Chapter 5. I love him so much.
There were more, by the way, but I got tired after inking and coloring two. Have all five sketches under the cut:
#Kid Icarus#Uprising#Kid Icarus Uprising#Pit KIU#my art#Drawing Pit and exploring his swishy swishy princess clothes was such a blast#I think as a fandom we need to talk more about how attractive he is. Like. Guys.#Can you please tell me I'm not the only one attracted to Pit#Like look at him in that sketch on the bottom left? Yes I'm simping over my own drawing don't look at me like that it's normal#Also guys line weight??? Why did nobody tell me making a heavier outline of your character makes the drawing look 10x more professional???#I feel like I've unlocked a cheat code to life. Now I can feel like my art is ready to post even if it's not fully shaded#Which is great 'cause we all know I take an eternity to post any art ever#Anyway don't click on this. Don't zoom in. Don't question why the quality changes halfway across the piece#Just admire the bird wings or something like I actually pulled up a reference for those you should be proud
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gotta say i tried watching the iwtv series but the tone just seems off somehow. there are good things about it sure, and i do love sam reid (?) as lestat, but the tone issue is similar to why i think vampire diaries is so off-putting for me. like, it focuses on sex and blood so strongly in a way, and sort of misses the elements that made the books so interesting to me. i wish i could explain this vibe better, lol.
that being said, i would be interested in your opinion on the show if you ever watch it! often when i happen to know the piece of media you're talking about you voice things about it that i haven't been able to put into words myself but strongly agree with, haha.
I'll try watching it today since the books are still fresh in my mind and see what I think! Curious to know instead of just judge mostly based on clips and gifs...
#at least i'll try watching it if i can find it to stream on my tv#and agreed i havent really liked any vampire media much before except the VC books actually#vampires are just easily cringe to me especially when theyre like supposed to be hot or legitimately scary and i dont agree haha#i think a lot of what interested me in the VC books was like the philosophical/moral questions that come up for them#and how much their inner lives are explored in depth. the differences between their experiences as vampires and humans#what they lose/sacrifice vs what they gain when they are turned and how they view those changes either as a blessing or a curse#and how the worldbuilding is done in terms of their origins and all the rules they have to follow and whatnot#ask#anon#p#vmpcs
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being transmasc + pre t + visibly neurodivergent is such a great fuckin combo because everyone that so much as looks at you thinks that you're far younger than you actually are and treats you as such and even when you're talking to people who *know* how old you are you can tell. you can fucking tell they're doing the same thing even if they don't realise they're doing it
#like worst psrt is i camt even blame them#i dont know how to act like an 'adult'#my interests skew on the younger side and im fucking awful at talking to people#i have no experience with more adult topics because im not living a life where i *can* exoerience those things#and i dress like a 12 year old boy#but christ man. itd be fucking nice tk#itd be nice to not constantly feel like im being looked down on#to be able to talk about more mature topics without the feeling of being condescended to or told that 'ill get it one day'#*especially* when it comes to topics relating to my identity and sexuality. ive been out for 6 fucking years. ive spent every goddamn day#questioning and exploring and reinforcing and understanding it. i already fucking get it.#itd be fucking nice to hold a conversation with one fucking person and feel like we're peers#god. i dont know#if anyone i know irl os seeing this. first off im sorry but also yall are good dw#odds are im probably just making this up anyway#i mean like half of it is liteally jist my fault. i could learn how to talk to people and get more mature interests and learn how to act#like a real person#but thats probably not gonna happen !! ever !! so I should just stop caring about it#im always going to be the youngest and the least mature and the one everyone looks down on because i dont know anything (and im so fucking#ass at conversations I cant communicste the things i do know properly). who the fuck cares#we vibe#me.txt
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𝗪𝗛𝗘𝗡 𝗢𝗡𝗘 𝗙𝗜𝗧𝗦 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘 . . .
a brief explanation of the origins of hiccup's real name (håkan) and how he came to accept it. it is believed that in old norse customs, the use of bynames was common; they could be praising or condescending, sometimes even used without one's given name, rewriting them. the collection of many bynames and honorary titles could indicate glory, fame and endless spirit.
ㅤhe was born a moon cycle too early, already too anxious to live. a wee thing, like his mother said: small, fragile, almost the size of a cat. he fought against his own little lungs, deafening all around the crib with his cries. his father was proud, for he squeezed his finger, and it hurt. he thought him a warrior, in a hurry to leave footsteps into the world. when stoick held him, he raised him to soak in dawning moonlight. as if smiling down on their family, thor sent thunder cutting through the skies... or was it a dragon roaring in the distance? the chronicles won't say for certain. blinded by promises only he could hear or perhaps projecting much of his own greens in his son's eyes, his father wanted to name him quickly, before the sun reached its peak. so soon, ausa vatni bathed his forehead, welcoming him in the arms of the chieftain, claiming him heir and part of the tribe. people sang the name chosen by the great and vast: håkan; storytellers etched his runes so the gods would not forget his calling: ᛡᛆᚴᛆᚿ.
ㅤwhile some would call it arrogance, love was what made stoick not name his child ulf, bjørn, toke, arne, njal or any derivation from animals or fables. the name was a promise: his son was exalted by his father, the leader of the pack, and his mother, the queen, chosen by the very heavens, born to lead and rule, destined for greatness in all his might, a warrior in the making, strongest of them all. first of his name, his son was the mark of a better tomorrow to come, according to his father's speeches. a worthy heir for his legacy and tribe! no father could be more proud, more excited for grey days to come. his name, noble and princely, served to warn all others of his to-be imposing and towering presence. all expected him to be like stoick.
ㅤneedless, thus it is to say that, as his child grew, he did not seem to fit in the pledged shoes. he got sick often and was scrawny, body petit like a branch, trembling against harsh winds. clumsy he was on his feet, far too enamoured with stupid fables and childish wonders. he always let his prey escape and did poorly in sports. barely had a competitive spirit. he could not hold much of his drinking, either. sailors called him a bad luck charm, and gatherers avoided his son. he did not seem to have an ounce of charisma: he stuttered in shiness, fumbling on his words. his byname was soon fixed to be hixti inn (hiccup man, hiccup). so fitting it was that even his father adopted it. hence, ᛡᛆᚴᛆᚿ was replaced by ᛡᛁᚴᛍᛐᛁ ᛁᚿᚿ in young royal stories. hiccup embraced it, for he was hiccup, and not håkan. at least as a mere hiccup he did not feel so pressured. or that is what he believed, at least. sometimes, though, fate is a funny trickster thing.
ㅤ[ ... ]ㅤwhen the dragons were tamed and brought home, he showed himself bigger than hiccup or håkan, for he was both, neither and more. he stopped flinching or hesitating when someone called him by his given exalted name, and he smiled whenever his father would ruffle his hair in pride then. his chest was bigger now, heart more daring and outwards. thanks to his works and ambition, he collected other bynames so legends to prose: smiðr (ᛍᛘᛁᚦᛦ, great smith, metal maker), draig kyn (ᛑᚱᛆᛁᚵ ᚴᚤᚿ, dragon-kinned, of fire and scales) and hersir (ᛡᛂᚱᛍᛁƦ, chieftain and loved guardian). even the elders gave him honourary titles: first rider, cloud chaser, pride of berk, berk's shield, blade cutter, heart and soul of dragon. though ghosts of feeling unworthy still burdened his nightmares and shoulders, he carried himself tall like his father taught him: he needed to try and be that great, that brave and that selfless. for his father was proud at the table of the kings, smiling down on him, and he watched as every step of his son now left bold footsteps behind. for he was first of his name and unlike all before him.
håkan, hiccup, hersir, smiðr, draig kyn. he wears them all on his coat.
#ㅤ〞ᛡᚤᛂᛁᛐᛆㅤ\ㅤ𝖥𝖱𝖮𝖬 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖥𝖮𝖱𝖦𝖤 ㅤ⨳ㅤnotes.#hi!!#pwease perceive this very sexy study on names and stuff#i'm so proud of hic's real name and i think this kind of thing is rly cool to explore! especially given his role and position#also i rewatched httyd 1 + 2 recently and when stoick says '''youre not longer my son''' really hit me. i like to imagine that maybe he was#like. wanting to take back that promise of a name? thinking it really wasn't worth it? questioning what he saw on his own son#and then. as if to smite down his doubt. hiccup/håkan proves himself to be so much more than whatever stoick could've ever have thought!#and hiccup now accepts his given name as well as his byname!#idk it's sweet to me DAASMJKG#so yeah! i'll use those (as well as all the others listed) interchangeably during threads/plots/etc. thanks!#history is so cool!
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