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Gonta, you said it isn't right for Iroha to talk badly about herself. However, you haven't met her Despair to Future Arcs variant. She's one of the worst variants of Iroha imaginable, as she's a "womanchild", meaning she never grew up mentally past her childhood because Divine Luck protected her actions from consequences. In comparison, Voidship Iroha is a lot nicer than her DTFA variant, and ASOOT is even nicer than Voidship Iroha, which is why ASOOT Iroha managed to land Makoto as a boyfriend.
Exactly, you don't know DTFA Iroha, she is THE worst!
She never takes ANY responsiblity for herself, she is mentally a 13 year old and never grew past that, she thinks she's entitled to anyone as a boyfriend, even they already have one, shoves Yaoi pictures into anyone's faces like she's Amagaya...
And the crowning jewel of why she's the worst...she alongside that version of Nikei, plans to trap Utsuro and treat him like some animal when he's brought back from the dead! ESPECIALLY as that was the same treatment SHE was subjected to.
Given how DTFA is gonna do some...stuff with canon events, I don't know what her fate there will be, but I hope she loses her Divine Luck and dies in a ditch.
T-that all sounds bad...but is it too harsh?
Hmmmm...nope, as I think its a completely acceptable reaction to DTFA Iroha.
Not to mention she's the one who's mainly to blame why everyone assumes I'm gonna be some bratty womanchild when it comes to romance.
It does seem to be a big problem around here, some abnormal variants can lead to larger blame for the majority of us.
We Killing Harmony characters are a bad example since due to the...nature of our game, our backstories and personalities can go wildly different. For example I am a maid, but I'm not the Shadow Prime Minister of Japan, but I know some Kirumis are. At most I worked in government but never actually held power.
Forest family real for Gonta!
But not for other Gontas...
Everyone is saying ASOOT Voids and Yuki are so nice...but they forgetting they are all pre-Tragedy, where everyone IS nicer and kinder since a apocalypse which has hardened the hearts of many hasn't occurred yet.
#voidship adventures#asoot valentine's day review promotion#sketch#danganronpa#dr#danganronpa v3 killing harmony#v3#kirumi tojo#gonta gokuhara#kirunta#super danganronpa another 2#sdra2#iroha nijiue#generalising is bad#and it seems to be a problem here#especially when you have the v3 cast#who can be so different in terms of what's going on with them#due to the nature of the twist with them#makes it so i can do fun stuff with them
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"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.
but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)
mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…
the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.
every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.
first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.
which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.
the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.
walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?
well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.
you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?
it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.
when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.
and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.
kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.
yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.
#dungeon meshi spoilers#mithrun#dungeon meshi#this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme#half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is#someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality#his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though#he says he tried to see the worst in them.#hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on#wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore.#but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once#snakes#long post#severe problems#meshy
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Are Silver and Espio good parents? I'm sure Epsio has experience raising Charmy as he might know some basics.
They are fantastic parents! Sure, they're not perfect, they stumble and mess up sometimes, but their dedication is undeniable. And even then, they cover eachother's weak spots very, very well.
Espio is 100% the more capable parent, exactly because of what you mentioned with Charmy. He also just has a cooler head, which helps. Silver tries very very hard, but it just doesn't come as naturally to him. He still makes it work, though <3
#sth#sth fanart#silver the hedgehog#espio the chameleon#espilver#sonic fankid#sonic au#pitayaverse#psi the chameleog#alloy the hedgeleon#<- shes teeny tiny here but ah well she gets a tag for the hell of it#silver specifically has a problem with getting frustrated sometimes but he moreso just gets frustrated with himself#like if alloy is overwhelming him with her energy he'll get frustrated that he can't seem to control the situation. does that make sense
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FORGETTABLE-AU (page 82-85)
THAT LAZYBONES!!
[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]
#So sorry it took me almost 2 weeks to post these#I was busy irl but ALSO I had too much fun doing extra art and forgot to work on these for like 3 days lmao#NOW THIS TIME I DO HAVE SOME THING TO SAY#YAY RIVERPERSON! SO MANY PEOPLE GUESSED CORRECTLY!#It wasn't that hard#We know Papyrus knows the river person#are they friends? idk BUT I PERSONALLY THINK THEY ARE#I just LOVEEE looking at the dialogue and making connections#I referenced one of the lines from the river person here...sometimes they'll ask you if you know any game you can play with a dog...#They said they were “asking for a friend...”#And I couldn't help but think about Papyrus' problem with the annoying dog LMAO#+ Papyrus seems very excited to know if the river person is there when you call him nearby that area#Okay so... now ...some comic thing that I made up but also didn't...#“FLOWEY DOESN'T KNOW WHO THE RIVER PERSON IS?”#okay so...#I feel like#It's not very common for them to be there...#When talking with Undyne around that area it's kind of *unclear* if she knows about the river person being there....#She tells you about the river connecting different areas and that you should “jump in”#She then clarifies that's the only thing they got for public transport#AND LIKE? It's unclear if she's telling you to jump in the boat (OR IF SHE KNOWS THERE'S SOMEONE WITH A BOAT) or is she's literally telling#you to jump in the river?????#Anyways...so...that's that#HEHE Flowey and Papyrus finally arrived at the house! WOHOO#Sans is too lazy to bring his old stuff to the surface! (or does he still think he'll end up back in the underground eventually?)#undertale#undertale comic#forgettable-au-comic#papyrus#flowey
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at my best, I'm a sacrificial lamb at my best, I am something you could handle
#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#art#//#spoilers#image lyrics: pressed - alvvays#top left refers to anyas trouble sleeping and inability to share what shes going through with anyone. also quilt stitching. curious#nobody can hear you scream in space and all you can do when your planes going down is try to breathe#daisuke my beloved youre surrounded by people who kept letting you down. then back up as a saintlike character in death. you must be dizzy#but wait. newspaper clippings in the background theyre totalllly talking about you dude. look theres streamers and foam and everything#on heavily overexposed film all you can make out are the darkest parts . or it could become a beautiful nuanced grey. isnt that great curly#i modelled his eye here in the shape of the first photo of a black hole. why wont anyone but jimmy look him in the eyes?#hi swanseas palpable guilt. i guess if you stop biting the hook he'll get bored and finally end this game of cat and mouse#the whole piece is haunted by jimmy btw . notice how the yellow arrows zero in on the Real Problems to him#this next part i wrote after watching a video on the board game in mouthwashing because i spent a lot of time choosing editions#daisuke: toys r us edition with his piece already in the home row so winning by just 1#(the lowered expectations towards him + the safety net his family provides... which would not actually matter much after the crash...)#swansea: the royal edition#standard used on the tulpar + theres a move where you can form a blockade with 2 pieces and nothing can move forward or break it#even your other pieces (they changed this to be more lenient on everyone else after the crash i mean in the newer editions)#anya: homemade fabric board with influences from diane allison-stroud. the one i used is called the reader#(an artist who recreates boards from the 18-1900s and designs new pieces many of which are decided to memories from her childhood#she often pays homage to her mother/grandmothers textile arts)#i swear i had inspo for curly too but i cant seem to find the one with rounded edges encroaching on the middle like i drew#little distinguishing his part from the board itself (jimmy) but of course those two are Very different and itd be wrong to mix them up#how could i forget jimmys fear of -itys and stubborn menu options of leave and do nothing. finally all the stars become the tulpar logo :)
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Get the wormies!!!! Now!!!! Get them!!!!!
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat isabeau#2hat spoilers#twohat spoilers#isaloopfrin#or should I say... loopfrinisa.....#to me it's isaloopfrin. their proper cuddling order. loop is very warm in my heart#anyways. Isabeau is not touching anyone here#even if it seems like it. And his desing isn't correct either#memory problems maybe#something something you don't see him as a person but a character in a play something something#also why his face is hidden#actually I also wanted to draw star form loop. but I couldn't for the life of me figure out how to do a sideview of them. so human Loop!!!#actually I want to say a lot more but. um. i yapped quite a lot already.#also the quality of my camera is shit. and I don't know how to take pictures. so sorry for that#anyways thats it
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its kinda funny that the chaotix are like the only characters who mention having to pay rent or buy food or whatever and theyll take any job that pays because theyre desperate for money but none of the other characters are struggling in this department at all even though most of them dont seem to have jobs. its like the concept of needing money to live exists for no one in the sonic universe EXCEPT for vector espio and charmy
#sonic actively chooses to not have a house or a job or anything and hes fine ?#like he never seems to have any problems that are a direct result of this lifestyle. hes just chilling doing whatever he wants#tails has MULTIPLE houses/labs and doesnt seem to struggle to pay for them or anything. assuming he even has to pay for them at all#but vector is out here struggling to pay rent even though hes one of the only characters who we know actually has a job#do they just not demand money from tails because he helps save the world so often and is also 8 years old#do they just only target adults with this sort of thing. and thats why vector needs money so bad while no one else does .#and espio and charmy despite being minors have to bear the curse as well because they live with him
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joyful morn
#kcd2#hansry#hans capon#henry of skalitz#kingdom come deliverance#i have this problem where i can't stop drawing them#this happened specifically because i lost myself looking at how beautiful the light was in hans' room in rattay#the perspective of the window is off and i am aware. for framing reasons you will have to deal with it#but i hope the vibes are there nonetheless#i seem to have a thing for henry giving hans a quick kiss before they get to dress up and go about their day#that's what's happening here as well#grips table. if nobody delivers domestic love and affection with these two i take the job. i'll take all the jobs#i also should do more drawings with the black bars like the cinematics shots in the game. it looks good#or better it makes any other sketch i make look better. inspires for better lighting too#also don't look at me i seem to always have hans' fingers gravitate towards henry's scar. it's fine i'm normal#my art
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i unsubbed from Watcher today but the people acting like steven lim is the devil and is singularly to blame for Watcher shifting to paywalled streaming are weirdos.
#is he out of touch and seem like he sympathizes way too much with the super rich and powerful? sure. but he's not The Only One To Blame.#you don't have to like steven but saying shit like “we're only here for shane and ryan anyway” is. pretty shitty?#like shayne and ryan had to have agreed to that. if they didn't they could have left.#your parasocial relationship with 2 'goofy ghost boys' is blinding you from seeing they are part of the problem here...#watcher
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just because you think dennis was secretly gay the whole time doesn't mean he didn't coerce, intimidate, assault, and abuse all those women for real 💕
#i just think it's INTERESTING how some people only seem to have a problem with this kind of behavior when it's mac doing it to dennis#sorry am irritated today#lol#i know for most of you i'm preaching to the choir here#machinesounds
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did you guys ever wish you were a pokémon as a kid or i dunno. imagine what pokémon you'd be if you were one. i think i'd be an eevee or a rockruff if i was a pokémon B)
[ woah you guys really like this post hi :0 anyways for those of you who aren’t this is a pokemon rp blog so uh. Maybe cool it on the breach pls. Very appreciated though glad u guys liked this one ]
#i know i've seen people on here turn into pokemon or be part pokemon#seems kinda cool B)#yknow just. turning into a pokémon and running away and not having to deal with all your problems#that seems nice..#real pokemon#rotomblr#pokeblogging#damien posts
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I do find the uptick in folks who got upset that some of us felt like there wasn't enough follow-through on narrative consequences suddenly turning around wanting the Hells to be hunted by Vasselheim very funny, because I'm just like... so what I'm hearing is that you want your faves to be on the run from religious leaders because the choices they made had such massive ramifications and so aggressively spurned that religion it demanded exile if not outright execution, because it makes for a more interesting story with more interesting characters.
I understand the canary in the role mine now: you're jealous of me. You want what the Essek stans have.
#this is largely a joke to be clear but I do find it funny#and fundamentally the issue is that like. essek is not on the run for heresy he's on the run for treason lmao#like I know we continue to say it but overall heresy is not an execution-level crime on an institutional level in Exandria#like in small cults yeah but like. not on the level of large scale political power#exile is one thing but they're not FROM vasselheim so that's really just 'and fucking stay out' but it's not... really exile#it's just like. well you kind of suck and we don't want you here which like. coffee shops do and are within their rights to do#but then the concept of boundaries seems to be a problem in such circles anyway so yanno#anyway lol#essek stans truly never lose so 😌#he's done terrible things he was justified he can never go home he found a new home that spans the world over#he regrets everything he's done he wouldn't change a thing about what has gotten him to where he is now#absolutely insane level of clarity and conviction even amidst the doubt#cr discourse#canary in the role mine
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You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still actively seeking out and using AI.
Once again.
You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still using generative AI, no matter the reason.
(Bold/italicized text: You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still using generative AI, no matter the reason.)
Even if you’re just using it to make fun of it or show how bad it is.
Even if it’s only for your personal use, and you don’t plan on sharing it with anyone.
Even if you’re “just” roleplaying on Character AI.
If you are willing to justify your usage of a system created and profiting off of stealing from artists and writers, a symstem that is destroying the Earth, then you were never as “against that system” as you think you were. Being anti-AI isn’t something that exists only in name. You can’t claim to be against AI if you are willing and able to use it as soon as it benefits you. You can’t say you’re for writers’ and artists’ rights if you’re using the very thing that is causing them harm. You can’t claim to care about climate change and saving the Earth if you are participating in the system that is destroying it.
There is no middle ground here.
There is no “Oh, but I-“.
If you have the knowledge of what generative AI is doing, of how it is hurting people, and you choose to use it anyway, you aren’t against it. You aren’t fighting against that system, you’re upholding it.
You can say how much you hate AI and how horrible you think it is, if you choose to use it anyway, then your actions and your words are not lining up, and the former reveals so much more than the latter.
Stop pretending like AI is something you can condemn only in name, while using it to your heart’s content in your free time. All it does it tells writers and artists that you don’t really care about us, and that any actions you claim to be taking to protect us are performative at best and lies or even outright malicious at worst.
You are—and I mean this in the kindest way possible, even with the fury that generative AI invokes in me—a complete and utter hypocrite. AI is not your friend. It is a tool, and it is a tool that steals from writers and artists in order to function. It is a tool that is using levels of energy and emitting amounts of polution in order to be maintained that are actively damaging the Earth. No matter how much you try to justify using it to yourself, that doesn’t change.
Stop hiding under the guise of being anti-AI while continuing to use it yourself.
#im not sure how many people on here are doing this#but there are a few people i know irl who have pretty much verbatim said to me how much they hate ai#and yet in the same breath justified their use of ai—particularly character ai—to me#so i figure its still worth it to point out anyway#hypocrisy is not cool folks!#it doesn’t make you look good it just makes you look like an asshole#i feel like this problem (of being anti ai and yet justifying its use) is the most prevalent in the use of character ai#because unfortunately i don’t think as many people are aware of how it steals from writers as people are of how ai art steals from artists#or if they are it seems as though the people ive seen talking about it simply do not care#if this made you angry maybe you should examine why you feel entitled to using something that steals from writers and artists#if you feel inclined to use ai#literally just do it yourself!#it doesnt have to be perfect or the best thing ever made#but the fact that you made it yourself makes it automatically infinity times better than any garbage ai could come up with#anti ai#fuck ai#fuck ai art#fuck ai writing#anti character ai#fuck character ai
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All these posts I see with the nerve to say, "We'll be alright, we'll be okay, we'll continue to fight, we'll continue to hope," have made me more weary than the plain truth.
It's over. That's it, it's over. Our country has been taken from us.
The genocide will be invigorated, and any hope of U.S. pressure bringing it to an end is gone. I'm so sorry.
Everyone with a uterus will lose any semblance of human rights they once enjoyed. You can say goodbye to being considered a human being, you can say goodbye to any consensus whatsoever that your very life ever mattered.
Every queer and transgender person will face outright persecution and lose the right to so much as exist as themselves, alongside which even cishet people will lose all right to self-expression.
Immigrants will lose whatever fragile hold they had allowing them to pursue life and happiness in this country and will be forced away from their families, jobs, and loved ones if not worse.
Police abuse against people of color and any political dissenters will be invigorated and their immunity from justice will expand.
The prices will continue to rise and the wages will drop or remain stagnant at best.
Disabled Americans, including any American with any pre-existing condition, will lose all access to healthcare as medical costs will skyrocket and our meager insurance will be stripped of us. We will be left in the street to die.
So don't fucking tell me to "hold onto hope" and don't you dare fucking tell me "we will be okay." Who is we? It isn't me, or any of my friends or loved ones. There is not a single person I know that doesn't fall into at least one of the above-mentioned categories. Not one person in this country am I acquainted with who has neither a functioning uterus, nor ANY medical condition whatsoever, nor is an immigrant or from an immigrant family, nor is a person of color, nor is a member of the LGBTQ+ community. Think about it. Do you?
So, in God's name, who the fuck is "gonna be okay"? Anyone lucky enough to survive? Anyone who lucks out and manages to avoid a dangerous pregnancy (which will be soo easy once we lose access to birth control, I'm sure), or manages to stay under the ICE's radar, or manages not to be pulled over by a pig who needs to take out his rage over his wife surviving her last beating, or manages to not get sick or injured ever again? That's somehow not as comforting as people think it is.
And as for the genocide, I'm so sorry. I'm so, so, so sorry that my country has once again failed the people of Palestine. I hope all the people who abstained from voting because Kamala wasn't pro-Palestinian enough feel really good about themselves when they watch countless more children being slaughtered as Israel is bolstered in its capacity to accelerate the genocide beyond any level we've seen thusfar. I'm so, so sorry to my brothers and sisters in Palestine. I'm so sorry that we failed you.
This isn't to say we should stop fighting. But the time for hope and handholding and singing kumbaya is over. Compassion and love have failed, today has proved that. Violence is our only option left.
#election 2024#us politics#kamala harris#free palestine#god save us all#feminism#human rights#lgbtq+#immigration#disability#I can't even go to class as obviously upset as I am because my Spanish classmate's entire home is underwater#my problems seem small by comparison but nobody here cares or realizes what has happened#just “OhH I hOpE tHiS dOeSn'T aFfEcT tHe EuRoPeAn EcOnOmY tOo MuCh”#i can't do this anymore
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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!
yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)
it's so common in fandoms!
I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.
I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔
I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!
#that's autism for you#I'm sadly really picky and easily grossed out by things#I'm not even trying to be judgemental#I wish I was such a person that is just chill with everything but I have more icks than likes#so my fandom experience is like 80% discomfort and trying to avoid things without shutting out the majority of content in the first place#from what I heard I seem to have this problem particularly in this fandom bc the series is horror.#and I ship a toxic ship.#but I neither enjoy horror nor this trope. so what the fuck am I doing here#how did I get here. I'm lost guys#but yeah; it naturally attracts more people that are into quite dark or hardcore things#and I'm just sitting here with my soft dick in my hand wondering where it all went wrong#i don't belong here#I can't relate to 99% of people#honestly? I just... like Flug....... I just adore the autistic scientist#and I wanna SMOOCH him but I can't identify too well with myself or thus my sona#so how the fuck am I gonna smooch and love on this man#I need SOME second character for this!!#well Black Hat is pretty cool and easier to draw than the rest; I like his design...#so here we are.#I'm not really in it with my heart. I don't understand the essence of this ship. I'm a fandom blep#that's why a lot of content is probably disturbing and upsetting as hell to me.#but that's just my theroy..... a Joshi™ theory#sorry for rant I am bored and tired😔#enjoy#villainous#villanos#dr flug#kenning flugslys#my art#ask reply
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i also think the fact that weekes wasnt out when masked empire came out also plays a lot into how the tumblr side of fandom perceives the romance which. leaves sort of a bad taste in my mouth..
#i mean hindsight is 20/20 but more than anything i just think its weird to STILL be putting briala/celene in the#''wlw written by cis men'' box when like we all KNOW that isnt true#i mean it also wasnt great back then (love simon esque queer purity politics that i just fundamentally dislike)#but like. i can forgive people for just not knowing vs deliberately ignoring right LOL#like divorcing all your knowledge/preconceived biases right. if weekes wrote tme TODAY#would the reaction still be the same#you know#and i mean im not saying being nonbinary absolves you of critique regarding wlw right LOL but like#again removing your personal mind from the issue at hand for a second#you have to acknowledge that cishet men get a LOT more scrutiny for how they write wlw than nb people and even just cis gay men#so to me it just seems like people were seeing problems that werent actually there because they were over scrutinizing a book they thought#was written by a cishet man#and knowingly or not i think that does still color how the general public here views it to this day
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