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lucabyte · 1 month ago

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even dogs pass the mirror test

#hello again everyone. how's it going #isat loop #in stars and time #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat #lucabyteart #isat spoilers #so. had this idea Before getting my hands on the artbook and being validated. literally have a voice note from 4:30am on the 8th where #i frantically noted down this just horrid horrid horrid caption because i'd been musing on the sasasap Dress line all day i suppose #just kind of rotating in my brain the way any kind of first time trying on new clothes for them would be .#just absolutely mental breakdown material and not one i think would be recovered from quickly. they hate being in their own skin #like. a lot? like a lot. the collateral of any kind of transfemme read was barely in my mind until it ended up relevant again while i was #actively working on this. because christ that's a bad combo. 2x different forms of body dysphoria in one. maybe even 3x somehow #plus any scenario where they get clothes is... likely gifted. something they react viciously negatively to in game and i doubt #would improve thereafter. just a veritable katamari of disgust and self-loathing #like i was mostly just thinking abt how a lot of our collective depictions of loop being alienated from their body are rather abstract #in a body horror way mostly. on account of loop being more of a metaphor than a person half the time. so i think i wanted to depict #something closer to just. a human level of body dysphoria. no focus on the whole duplicate thing just... raw disgust for the self #but with the addition of recent discussion and playing ball more with the she/her loop and transfem loop angle...#scenario of leaning into femininity to try throw off suspicion on who they are PLUS realising they might want that PLUS the party #trying to use this to bond with them PLUS body dysphoria PLUS new!gender dysphoria PLUS the usual revulsion for wanting and desire #like. that is a catastrophic combination . not coming out of that one without it getting worse for a few weeks thereafter #that's a real lash out at everyone around them and then recede in shame type breakdown. which im sure looks interesting from #the party's pov because jesus christ that touched a nerve something awful (<- they only have half the context AT BEST)#. so . there's your free scenario to ponder on if you'd want to. seeing as ive done a picture without a shitload of words on it for once #ALSO don't get smart with me in the tags about the mirror test being an absolutely ass test in most regards re: self-awareness #or that things like minnows pass it. i'm a fellow pedant dont worry. it's just that minnow doesn't really have the same ring as dog yknow?#this is supposed to be like an absolutely excruciatingly self loathing thought spoken aloud of a caption. it's pithy and cruel on purpose #and more than a little inspired by (reblogged yesterday) liminal space's 'there is no other dog. it's just you'

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raykat · 8 months ago

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ἱππόκαμπος and the star-shaped echinoderm

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skrunksthatwunk · 2 months ago

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GOATED SECOND HAND GAMES STORE FIND TODAY

!!!!!! VERY SILLY also vol 13 appears to be from the original '93 run while vol 6 is a 2021 rerelease. despite this the jackets (they have jackets??????) match which is nice. only real difference is the page yellowing, which is epic to me actually

ALSO ive seen these initial kuwabara's alive reveal panels before BUT IVE NEVER SEEN THE HORRIBLE FACE YUSUKE MAKES AFTERWARDS WAGAHAJGDHHFH

ugh i love togashi's funny face skills he's such an icon I LOVE HIS ART GAAAAAAH

also oohh you use ore AND it's in katakana what a cool badass guy you are ooohh gjdhhsjs

^^ he's being so rude here it's so funny to me. and the audacity of saying the taboo word TWICE is so good like what a shithead

#anyway im so happy twirling my hair etc #ive never seen any non-translated manga at one of these stores before and like $5?? very worth it to me #it would probably be interesting even without it being yyh but like it's not even a question if it's yyh #activated my I Need To Have It instinct #funnily enough they didn't have one of those yyh blurays they always always have (it's only ever the three kings arc one)#i think it'll be good for practice and also it means i can escape the awful awful viz media yyh translation #i will never forgive them for jeeps...#i also got a copy of t.ekken 6 bc ive been meaning to get into t.ekken and also fighting games in general #and ppl seem to really like this one. im actually gonna start on it after this #and also c.sm vol 2. yayy #also ignore the stain on my bed it's literally india ink bc i thought i tooootally wouldn't get any on my sheets bc im so skilled #and you can see how that went #also i love that any time we get yyh related stuff from that store at least one of the cashiers comments on it #beloved show/manga all the world round :)#OH i also finally found a copy of y.akuza 2. didn't end up going for it but im still keeping an eye out for the first couplea games #just bc im enough of a nerd about them that i Need to compare them to their kiwami versions someday #update i looked at the pricing stickers and noticed they have a date on them. presumably from when they were sold to the store #and it was only like a week ago!! i swooped in truly

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identityquest · 8 months ago

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do y'all wanna play trick or treat but instead of random photos i show you a wip from my sketch folder

#strato.txt #it could be something im actively working on it could be something from 4 years ago who knows!! well u will know bc ill include timestamps #and if u ask niceys ill even look for a wip of a specific oc or fandom character #says the guy who is in one fandom 😵‍💫 anyways yea i have dtl and pkmn wips stored away i can find them if u ask #also sorry ive been awol i aint been having a good one

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s0fter-sin · 29 days ago

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the real question is am i going to spend over $300 on bath products

#its not coming out all at once which is the only thing in my favour rn #im doing paypals pay in four for the lush order then but idk if you can have more than one pay in four loan active at once #my birthday was a few weeks ago so my mum agreed to go halves in a lush order #but then i got annoyed at how little variety lush offers these days outside their like 5 scent families #then i looked at the indie place i also get products from and they have so many fruit and berry scents which is what i want from lush #their cherry scents are always amazing and i want to try a few bath bombs even though ive always been disappointed in them #im getting dragged in by the scent descriptions #… fuck it #what else have i got to live for #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt

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grace4867 · 6 months ago

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Guys would you think I'm cringe if you knew that Im actively giggling blushing twirling my hair and kicking my feet

#i told them that they r pretty and they turned around at hit me with the your the prettiest girl in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#aoaiudheheksoaidudhrjejskskwodiehehwjjaoeorueusuajskwkriirehhwuwiriei #im gonna die over winter break i cant do this!!!#and the way they look at me!!!#bro!!#and and they do this cute little wiggle when im holding them and start to kiss them cuz theyre so happy!!!!#ougghghuggg #it hasnt even been 24 hours since i saw them last im so cooked but i don't even care bc they are so so so so so so lovely #like ive felt like shit off and on all week and they were so caring and attentive ough #i wish i could have kissed them goodbye but i think my dad would have actively died on the spot lol #she speaks!

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gamethecry · 5 months ago

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hey... its freakbob... made nate and matt in the sims... :)

#▇ 🌟┊🎮 ❝ just an adoring fan ❞ 🎮┊🌟 ▇ (ooc tag)#▇ 🌟┊🎮 ❝ isucc ❞ 🎮┊🌟 ▇ (isaac murmurs)#haaaaaaaai life is... not so grand in terms of generally where i live (fuck you florida) and... work... so very sorry for slow/ no activity #i just have not had the energy to even BEGIN to think to write. so ive just been putting my creativity towards strictly the sims...#i hope to have motivation to come back soon. but in the mean time!! have these bad boys!!#they looked a lot more similar before i put a skin overlay on them but im a cc fein and cant go without them :3c

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lucky-clover-gazette · 5 months ago

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sometimes you make muffins with a recipe that makes a few too many "healthy" substitutions to sound feasible for Actually Making Muffins and sure enough they are not muffin consistency and will not leave the pan HOWEVER the tops of them peel off like cookies with this insane perfect consistency and it's like cool okay well now i have to make another muffin recipe i trust for the week but also i guess i have a cookie or cake recipe now

#substitutions are a delicate art #bc sometimes you will get insanely good and repeatable recipes that include necessary nutrients and minimize the less supportive ones #which means i don’t even miss the tons of sugar or butter bc the substitutions taste equal or better #OR it ends up being something that is not at all comparable to the same food made with the typical ingredients #in which case those are proven to be necessary and i enjoy them even more #ive been cooking for myself for like three years now and i’m glad it’s still an adventure even tho i’m not actively losing weight anymore #i could honestly stand to maybe lose 10-20 more lbs but idk i never want to actively lose weight unless it’s explicitly an act of self love #and i look and feel pretty good as i am and i don’t want active weight loss to turn into something that i resent or dread

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mail-me-a-snail · 1 year ago

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silvervance on the brain again someone absolutely should've stopped me from listening to sleep token before bed

#its. god #its that they'll find each other in every universe. not that theyll happen upon each other #its that theyll actively look for the other #they are not one without the other and theyre an eternal romeo and juliet #because theyd sooner die than live alone #and that's the tragedy of it all. vance wanted to escape night city before the relic #he wanted to leave and never look back #get ahead of arasaka before they can finally catch him #but johnny comes along and he thinks oh. oh you are the part of me ive been missing #because johnny IS night city #he is everything vance did not understand about his own birthplace #because vance was a foreign entity. a virus trailing through sprawling data fortresses. a ghost even before he died #and johnny knows how that feels #and just. there is no place for them in nc #not even with kerry #and maybe that's okay. maybe they are each others #AURGRHRHH #silvervance #im ok. im so ok #my post

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entropys · 8 months ago

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she’s training me on how to reply 🙂‍↕️

#she says the most out of pocket things like what do i even say to that #but >< its so nice to have someone asking if i ate 🥺🥺#our personalities are so different but we’re So in sync yk… its crazy #also lol i haven’t been that active here lately so i don’t think ive mentioned her before but >< i have a new close friend now..#she introduced me to her friends too (im not that close to them tho) but its really fun to have a multinational group of friends 10/10 #its crazy how all my friends have different nationalities and the only kuwaiti friend i made turned out to be my cousin 😭#thats what happens when the country is too small and my family is too big #its so crazy we’re literally cousins and ive never met her before uni 😭#and yk saying im kuwaiti on here Feels like im doxxing myself bc ?? we probably all know each other 💀#thats a little scary if you know me please look away

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aropride · 2 years ago

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thought i hated this one girl just cuz her vibes are off but i just remembered something like actually awful she said the other day so nvm my hatred is justified actually

#text #she has AWFUL vibes . high school mean girl from the mid 2000s core #ive triedddd to like her i really have but i remembered like the first time i met her #she literally straight up admitted to only posting abt activism on instagram for clout and bc it makes her look like a good person #and that she really doesnt give a fuck #SHE SAID THAT OUT LOUD WITH HER MOUTHHH fuck that shit 😭Oh my god post over why is .what the fucknsince when does r know #the new cafe worker . and should i be scared .#i saw the new person. who ive been calling bailey in my head even tho thats like. straight up not their name. waiting around in the lobby #which is connectred to the cafe right. and then i see r come in from the cafe. looking at their phone in a way that makes me think theyssaw #me first and were ignoring me. and then they walked out together. what is going on r has NEVER been in this building #ive never seen them in here. what. oh i dont like that at all #(i dont know their name btw. thecafe person. they just look like a bailey to me im not like. deadnaming them LMAO)

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arolesbianism · 9 months ago

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Doodle I did of my girl Juliet earlier

#keese draws #lobotomy corporation #oc art #not super happy with this but I do enjoy looking at her so I can lower my standards for her #at least I feel like I have a better idea of her general shapes now #I spent hours and hours today on the lob corp grind and I think Im Finally ready to actually move forward with they story #Ive also been thinking abt my nuggets during their lor eras and thats been fun #in particular its been fun to think abt my ogs because half of them are experiencing their crash from finally being free from lob corp hell #and the other half are like frolicking in fields and making friendship bracelets and have made peace with their past and upcoming futures #and that half is the half that are all just godawful people who do not deserve that peace and happiness while the people they actively #traumatized are just left to deal with it #this is mostly abt juliet and loki they both suck I love them sm <3 #juliet is the one thats caused more active harm tho since shes that type of boss that will obsess over those she thinks have ~potential~#and once youve caught her attention you are guaranteed to have a horrible time as she will get what she wants out of you no matter what #she doesn't even work on abnormalities anymore just just breaths down ppls necks and fights when need be #loki is very similar in that regard he puts a lot of pressure on his team to provide the results he wants #hes less likely to like. directly psychologically torture those who are under him. but he still isnt a good boss.#hes also more openly rude and disrespectful towards those around him because while neither respect anyone but eachother #loki much more frequently openly states that fact to ppls faces because he feels like everyone around him is wasting his time #now loki actually does legitimately like a few other ppl he works with which is smth that cant rly be said for juliet #but hes also the one whos always on team 'lets murder the newbies for science' so y'know #ding is like his least favorite person here and its like 30% because he specifically accepted her into the info department because he #planned on getting her killed to finish off some research on a tool abno that was being worked on #but she survived the process so now she just like actually works here and he despises her despite the fact that shes rly good at her job #juliet doesn't usually send ger guys to die on purpose but if they do die she doesn't care #she simply feels that if they die early they were weak links anyways #she will still be 'nice' to newbies and to all of her coworkers for that matter but she still has quite the bad reputation regardless #some newbies do fall for her polite act but anyone whos been here for more than like a few days knows that she doesn't give a shit abt them #theyre both doing fine in lor theyre just like we may have lost everything but at least we have eachother :) (mason wants to strangle them)

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orcelito · 11 months ago

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Honestly sooooooo fucked up that I thought my overwhelming daily fatigue and debilitating body pain was a product of the awful working conditions I was under for years and years... and yet, despite being out of work for half a year now, I'm still so fatigued and in pain all the time??? Like come on man that's not fair

Oh well maybe I have liver disease and they'll treat it and then I am magically so much more energized like I was as a kid. We can only hope !!!!

#speculation nation #negative/#um. not hoping i have liver disease but the blood tests blatantly state that it's not working entirely right.#not like major enough to be an immediate health emergency. or else my doctor probably wouldve called me #rather than referring me to radiology.#im just hoping that it's something easy to treat. it really would be so nice for my problems to be fixed like that.#and im mentioning it in conjunction with the fatigue just bc it can cause fatigue. ya kno.#probably is a good thing i caught it this early whatever it is.#like maybe it's Not fibromyalgia. but the fact that i pursued diagnosis for fibromyalgia spurred the blood tests #which alerted my doctor to the abnormal liver enyzmes.#if i hadnt pursued diagnosis who knows how much longer this wouldve gone on like this...#so! im still not happy to be doing a Fucking ultrasound for my liver. but. if it means catching whatever this is early #then like. it'll be worth it. doubly so if it does end up fixing my fatigue problems.#or even just some of them. i dont even need to be at 100% of what others can do #i just wanna be able to do half an hour of chores without feeling like im going to collapse 😭😭😭😭#it's really very troublesome. my life would be so much easier if i had the energy to do more than one thing per day.#(and if i do more than one thing i end up nearly bedridden the rest of the day. like today lol.)#im just trying to look on the bright sides so i dont start freaking out again about my liver not working right.#ultimately. even if i dont feel amazing. i dont feel all that different from how ive lived the past decade of my life.#or at least the most recent years. i kind of feel like my chronic pain has gotten worse. maybe fatigue too.#though i do know ive been dealing with both for however long. idk. might be recency bias. who knows.#ANYWAYS. im not actively dying. so i'll live to my appointments. and then i will hope it's smooth sailing from there.#(oh god i hope i wont need surgery. i dont want surgery. please im trying to graduate college i do not want surgery)#(god why is my luck always so bad)

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nobodieshero-main · 1 year ago

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things just came together even better i love when this happens

#that dragon cult ive talked about before is also a rebellion against prince sasha actually #so yes they believe (hope) that dragons will one day return but they also love and respect and admire them for what they were #and they haaaattteeee the solari's for what they did #and they've been trying to dethrone him for years - especially when they heard about his search #and so they know about him and he knows about them so he pinned them as the bad guys so no one would trust them #or listen to them and ALSO so he'd have someone to hide behind while he did all his evil shit #and he even had his own soldiers and shit dressed up and pretending to be them and stuff #so it looks like it was the rebellion that attacked arlet and did all this other stuff #and then the volcano scene in library keeper is like. the rebellion and then atlas and co are there for the same reason but also not #the rebellion wants to PROTECT korahi bc they worship dragons and the idea that there's one left is like. insane.#but atlas and stuff are there to kill her bc 1 keika has this bone deep instinctual knowledge that it needs to be done (and also kiko asked #2 they think bringing her back will lead to the destruction of the continent and blah blah bah #basically neither side is explaining themselves and both basically went “ENEMY” and yeah #and then...cecily and ahria join the rebellion - not as dragon worshippers but as sasha haters #this is the first time the rebellion have actively tried to dethrone a solari bc now they have someone else they can put up there #(the cousin i also mentioned once i think. she's neat.)#ANYWAY YEAH things are becoming more clear and solid woo love that #plot stuff

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donttouchtheneednoggle · 2 years ago

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realising ur trans is so stupid bc before yes it felt like life was just always gonna suck no matter what I did and I was doomed to low-mid grade misery with occasional high grade sprinkled in forever and all I could do was not dwell on it as much as possible but now I know what's probably causing it and that there's a way forward I actually have to do something about it and I don't know where to starttt

#dont mind me venting #its fuckin weird bc ive known since college but i haven't??#like i was all its fine if everyone irl still calls me she and a girl and daughter and most organisations i interact with still deadname me #spoiler alert it was not fine #but i just shoved it all down so far and was like wow i have no body dysphoria #even though i quite clearly did #and haha im glad i don't need to engage with anything medical #and now im pretty surei di and im scared #the last three months have been a revelation lemme tell u 😅#and through all of it im working with feelings that disappear if i look straight at them #bc im so used to supressing them im having to actively work to feel them #but i just know i cant ignore them i can't carry on as i am its downright irresponsible when there's a chance i could be happy #and it would just cone back up even if i shoved it back down #im just #im tired man and its overwhelming #anywayyy dont mind me its all good really 👍👍#i told my mum thats something right #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #vent tw #ignore me #imma get up and go for a walk that'll help #i worry im acting like being nonbinary without dysphoria isn't being trans #it absolutely IS #it's just not who i was or am and so it feels like i wasn't properly out to myself #and am only now properly realising i am trans?#like before it was just another hollow identity ig #but it was still just as trans and it is for anyone else too #p sure im still nonbinary just over masc side #but at not that masculine lmao

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thepandalion · 2 months ago

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nothing like having such a consistent theme that even your professor comments on it

#my email pfp is a panda. my uni pc background is a panda #(tbh the only non-panda things I have are my pc case and water bottle. its actively my Thing people Know Me for)#and anyways I email the test to the prof bc its not the big final exam its all chill so I just email him my file #(bc I have computer as an accommodation on account of “cant hold a pen too long”)#so anyways he gets the email from my panda pfp email account. Im closing all programs on my computer bc dont need them anymore #and he looks up from getting the email to see my panda pc background and goes “so you like pandas then”#yeah. I do. it's literally my brand and everything #Im the wings and pandas guy. its my Thing its so firmly me my family gives me birthday gifts with panda imagery #Ive been the wings kid since I was 4 and the pandas guy since I was. 15? 16? upwards of a decade either way #like at Least 2020 if not Earlier is when I figured the pandalion thing out and tbh the pandas has been going since even before that

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