#and just 'didnt know how to end it' and lied when she asked if everything's alright

[gibbearish]

btw similar to the whole "if you try adderall at a party and it calms you down, get an adhd test" thing, if at some point in your life you try microdosing shrooms with a friend and end up feeling like a functional person for the first time in your life, get tested for depression. like yeah hallucinogens come with elation so youre probably gonna have some "this is the best ive ever felt in my life" vibes regardless, but like. if that in and of itself feels like finally breathing in for the first time in years, thats for sure a sign that something is up with your ability to process serotonin most of the time. feeling better than ever before should be a nice bonus, not a crushing weight off your chest

[widevibratobitch]

moments like this when im really glad im a sad little cynic who always considers the worst possible outcome and never lets herself truly get comfortable and trust the good things in her life to stay there and builds her life around trying to soften the blows of the eventual disappointments just waiting around the corner lol never leaving my edgy teenager era peace and love

[itzpookiepooh]

I didnt know you did requestss, I love your writing so much! if it's not too much trouble, I'd love to see you write the guys' reaction to an mc who's just comically clueless? doesn't catch hints, and flirting goes over the head. even when they've already stablished a relationship, they still doesn't see it coming when the guys want a kiss or more and it always makes mc freeze for a sec like "ooh" and it's just funny. the lis have to very direct, its like mc is on loading screen 99% of the time lmao sorry if its complicated or too specific

Oh, Me!

Thank you so much! I got you don’t worry!

Caleb loves you he swears he does but you were just so clueless. Any advance he try you would not understand at all. He tried to kiss you you’d coincidentally move out of the way. If he tried to flirt you would laugh it off as if he was cracking a joke. Today he was planning on asking you out and everything had to be perfect…for his sake.

He set out a perfect dinner and wondered how to come about everything. You were ready to eat, you had been hungry all day especially since Caleb insisted that you don’t fill up on anything. You tapped your finger on the table waiting for the food to get here. Caleb was nervous practically sweating bullets.

“Hey pipsqueak…” He trails off placing a hand on the table. You turn to him fluttering your lashes with big clueless eyes.

“What’s up?” You ask, he gulps before answering, “I like you. I mean really like you.” His voice shaky with nerves.

“Well I’d hope so we grew up together.” You laugh and tap his hand playfully. He sighs, there you go again.

“No like I really like you like I want to be with you.” He explains both elbows now on the table as he does so. You blink at him still not getting it. Are you not together right now?

A dramatic sigh leaves Caleb as he leans back dramatically in his seat. He throws himself forward and grabs your hands.

“I want you to be my girlfriend.” He says bluntly. You chuckle before answering, “Oh I get it. You’re practicing!” She taps the said of her head and makes a duh motion with her mouth.

Caleb wanted to pull his hair out. You were so…special. So clueless and yet so smart at the same time. He could only blame himself for this because he asked you last week but the way he asked made it seem like he was practicing on you. He grabbed your cheeks making you look at him.

“I like you, love you. I want you to be my girlfriend. I’m real life right now.” He emphasizes making your eyes go wide as if you just figured out a worldwide mystery.

“Oh! Yes of course.” You answered making him sigh in relief. Finally!

Zayne is use to you being mildly confused. It was what ultimately drew him to you other than your caring nature. Him telling you he wanted to be with you was one thing but now he had to go through the process again. He sighed at the thought but it was worth it in the end.

So on a walk, hand in hand, he took a deep breath. This was it. You were enjoying the scenery around you as the quiet evening sky fell over you. The sunset painting the sky beautifully. He admired you as he holds your hand tighter.

“I want to tell you something.” His usual low tone flows through your ears. You look up at him with hopeful eyes.

“I want to take a step toward our future.” He tells you as you glance at him occasionally.

“Like getting a dog! I’ve always wanted a dog!” You excitedly bounce holding his hand to your chest. He blinks before shaking his head at how you threw him off.

“No I want us to be closer.” He tells you as you continue to walk. You think to yourself before snapping.

“Like getting a smaller bed!” You chuckle as if you were the brightest crayon in the box. He sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose.

“I want us to move in together.” He tells you bluntly. You squeal in excitement, “Like roommates!”

“Why would we be roommates?” He pauses to question you. Why wouldn’t you be roommates? That’s literally what two people moving in are like!

“Because we live together….” You both just stare at each other.

“I’m your boyfriend.” He states the obvious. You nod firmly. “Exactly like roommates version.” You agree.

“Oh my gosh.” He pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs.

Rafayel was on the verge of pulling his hair out. He had been flirting with you all day and you were just not catching on. If he could pull his eyeballs out he would. He called you cute and you said thank you and complimented him back. Fine, whatever. He wrapped his arm around you during the movie and you scooted over thinking you were in his way. He kissed the icing off your face and you told him he could’ve just used a napkin so he wouldn’t get dirty. He couldn’t win.

“How clueless are you?” He asks you on the cusp of irritation. You tilt your head confused on why he asked.

“I’m not.” You tell him. He huffs narrowing his eyes at you.

“I’ve been flirting with you all day and you haven’t noticed me ONCE!” He complains slamming his hands on the bed.

“Really? When?” You ask him as he names off every instance today. “That was you flirting?” He felt a pang in his chest.

“Are you playing with me or something?” He deadpans but you were so very serious.

“Nope sorry.” You tell him as he pouts. He gets up and kisses you putting you in a daze.

“I’ve wanted a kiss this whole time.” He pouts holding your cheeks.

You blink slowly at him before nodding, “Noted.”

Sylus is such a sweetheart. A patient, loving, sweetheart. You were so clueless to his advances and it was kind of funny to him he won’t lie. He flirts with you and you take it literally. It made him and the twins laugh so hard to the point of tears.

You walked by him as he was reading and he decided to test you. He knew how you’d react and that was the fun in it. You were going out for the afternoon and were fixing your jeans.

“Do you have any room in your jeans for me, sweetie?” He smirks at you putting down his book. You raise an eyebrow at him. Of course you didn’t these were already tight as is.

“No? Why would you want to wear these with me in them?” You replied genuinely confused what his problem was.

The twins were wheezing from the doorway. You were always like this. They didn’t know if you were joking at first but now they know you’re dead serious. You look at them with your hands on your hips, concerned. What was so funny?

“What?” You didn’t appreciate being laughed at. You wanted to get the joke.

“Sweetie I’m flirting.” Sylus tells you through his laughter. A lightbulb goes off as your mouth makes an ‘O’.

“Oh…sorry.” You sheepishly replied. Sylus didn’t mind he thought you were hilarious.

You and Xavier are the same amount of aloof and everyone knows it. Xavier was subtly trying to flirt and you were not getting it. He thought he was pretty smooth though even if you didn’t get it. You were dressed up nice already for your date. Xavier couldn’t take his eyes off of you, he wanted to ravish you.

“You look beautiful.” He complimented you making you get shy. You wave him off, “Thanks.” His eyes grow dark as he thought of what to say next.

“It would look even better on the bedroom floor.” He smirks at you making you freeze and stare at him.

“What?” You raise your eyebrow. He smiles softly at you as if he didn’t say anything.

“I said it would look even better on the bedroom floor.” He repeated making you stare at him blankly.

“I don’t get it. Why would I do that? That’s making a mess.” You tell him crossing your arms. He chuckles before walking up to you and whispering in your ear.

“Oh! Xavier don’t be nasty!” You smack his arm making him fall out laughing. You were flustered the rest of the night because he kept flirting with you.

This took a minute but aye I hope I got it right 😅

[hsangel64]

the weight of sacrifice

pairings: ellie williams x fem miller!reader and dad!joel miller x daughter!reader

synopsis: it all happened so fast you had to do something even if it meant putting your life at risk

warnings: TW: BIG BIG BIG use of gore like i went into detail about some things, angst lots of angst, cussing, use of y/n

a/n: for some context ellie and reader are already together, joel and reader were at the hospital together, joel is readers dad!! i have been doing a bit of fluff so i wanted to do an angst one! i have had this on my mind for awhile now so i hope you guys like this! requests are open!

you didn’t know how you ended up in this situation, you weren’t thinking straight but all you could think about was to save your dad. everyone in the room was unknown to you. you knew this was a bad idea you knew something wasn’t right, you tried to reason with your dad and he didn’t listen. your dad, you and tommy were just on patrol, the horde being too strong and saving the girl who was about to kill him. it wasn’t hard to put two and two together to realize these people had to have been apart of the firefly’s and were coming after your dad for killing everyone in that hospital. for not saving the world, for taking that away from everyone. whatever the reason was you had to stop her.

“wait he didn’t do anything!!!” the woman turned to look at you waiting for you to continue.

“he didn’t do anything, i promise it was all me. take me not him!” you yelled out and everyone’s faces were turned to you.

“y/n no!” he yelled wondering what the hell you were doing. you could tell the girl was taking in everything you said.

“pick her up.” pulling you up they pulled your dad away and hit you across the face, falling to the floor in front of her. you felt the room start to spin knowing you were going to die here.

the day you and joel took ellie from the firefly’s

driving back to jackson after what went down felt wrong. you didnt want ellie to die so you killed everyone in sight, you didnt want it to end this way but ellie meant more to you guys than anyone.

“are you okay?”your dad broke the silence between you two.

“oh uh yeah im fine.” there was a slight pause before he spoke again.

“we need to lie to her.” your head snapped towards him baffled at him wanting to lie to her.

“what…why can’t we tell her the truth.”

“because we can’t okay?” raising his voice as he talked so you stopped talking and silently agreed. all you could hear was the hum of the car moving not wanting to say anything more. you knew why he told you to lie, it made you feel dirty knowing what you both did. they had a chance to a cure and you took that away from the world. you knew ellie would’ve never talked to you again if she knew, so you stayed quiet. you never told her and when she asked you said you didn’t remember anything. that they knocked you out and you woke up in the car on the way to jackson.

the day ellie and joel came back from salt lake city after their talk.

the day they came back was the worst day you’ve ever had, you were and ellie basically lived together so you were in her home when she came back. waiting the full week felt like forever, you didn’t know where she went and you had so many questions. hearing the door open you whipped around to see ellie dropping her backpack by the door, running over you touched her face to see what was wrong.

“baby i was so worried where were you?”

“did you know joel lied?”

“lied about what els?” she pushed you away and walked past you taking her jacket off.

“lied about the cure, the hospital everything that day.” oh shit.

“what? n-no no of course not.”

“don’t lie to me again please, did you lie or not.” you knew she had found out, you knew there was no way around this.

“ellie…”

“i can’t fucking believe you!” ellie raised her voice and threw her jacket to the ground making you jump.

“look ellie i had no choice-“

“no choice? you’re my fucking girlfriend.” she finally made eye contact with you and you saw tears forming in her eyes. you walked over to her and before you could even touch her she pushed you away nearly making you fall to the ground.

“els please let me explain-“ your voice cracked feeling the giant lump in your throat. she was pacing now.

“explain what that you lied our whole relationship? that we could’ve saved the world and you took that from me?!”

“els-“

“no shut the fuck up, i don’t want to hear it. there’s nothing to explain. i should’ve died in that hospital y/n! my life would’ve fucking mattered and you both took that from me.” the tears were in full affect now, feeling your chest tighten as you let out a sob.

“you matter to me ellie, you matter to joel, to everyone.” you put your hands on her face again wiping the fallen tears.

“the whole world would’ve been saved you guys fucked that up and now we’re stuck here in this world.” she stopped for a second looking away. “the other day i went and helped the kids with a drill, you know what that drill was meant for?” she walked closer to you. “the drill is for when we have raiders or a horde of infected. i could’ve saved those kids from this world that were living in. that was my fucking purpose.” you flinched away slightly hearing her raise her voice slightly.

“els, you are my purpose. who knows if that cure even was able to work, what if we ran the risk of you dying and not even being able to save the world. do you realize how devastated i would’ve been, if it was all for fucking nothing?”

“but we don’t fucking know that, what if it did work. i would’ve saved the world.”

“i would’ve lost you either way ellie, you matter so much to me and we were both so selfish and im sorry we did it but if we had the chance to do it again im sure we both would do it all over again. a million times over again.” you were pouring your heart out to her, you couldn’t lose her even if things weren’t going to be the same you weren’t going to lose her.

“i can’t do this shit anymore i need time. a break from…this.”

“a break?” your heart shattered.

“yes a break, i need time i can’t be with you right now.” you shook your head, you knew there was no way to sway her decision. so you nodded and grabbed your duffle bag and packed you clothes that you had in her room. she was sat on the edge of her bed with her head in her hands.

“i love you so much ellie i hope you know that.” you said as you walked out of the small garage.

the festival day

after your fight you had kept to yourself, talked to no one, nothing made you happy. your dad tried, he offered movie nights consisting of your favorite movies that you’d watch together, during the summer would offer to take you down to the lake for a lake day like old times, he would get you your favorite foods and even traded some of his precious coffee beans for you. you felt into a deep depression and obviously with it being the apocalypse there weren’t many resources, he had you start to go to the town therapist, gail, she was nice and helped but you just felt numb. ellie felt like everything to you and now she wasn’t. you had seen she had gotten close to dina and it made you feel like shit you had to watch from afar as they got closer and closer.

after the argument word went around quick and everyone knew ellie williams had dumped you, the rumors were endless and made your life hell, just hearing whispers from others and looks when you were out, not that it was often. your dad wanted you to get out more, this was a great opportunity, the festival. you knew she would be there, you wanted to see her but you knew dina would be there too. you really did not want to go to this thing but your dad had insisted it was going to be good for you. having been up in your room all day every day, missing patrols, not eating, just everything, he wanted you to get out even if you would see ellie. it had been a bit since you two had broken up, you have tried your best to talk to her, reason with her, bringing her flowers, trying to talk during patrols but nothing. she really wanted nothing to do with you and you couldn’t blame her one bit. you lied through your teeth for years to her and you shouldn’t have listened to your dad, you should’ve just told her the truth. you had wondered if she thought about you, wondered if she worried about you at all. or if she didn’t care at all and was healing from this all together.

ellie would be lying if she didn’t think about you, i mean besides riley, you were her first everything. she had barely seen you for the past few months, some weeks she even worried that you had died and she just didn’t know. you had gotten skinny and you looked tired, she noticed it when she did see you. ellie was worried about you, she still loved you a lot, she still cared for you and wished things were different but that feeling of betrayed got to her and she knew she wouldn’t be able to go back to you and that hurt her.

dina helped filling the void, she had a small crush on her but nothing like what she had with you. ellie knew this was shitty for using dina but you weren’t an option. her and dina haven’t actually done anything but she has been flirty since her and jesse broke up. she had pulled ellie to this festival, she really didn’t want to go.

you had threw on some unwashed jeans and a hoodie putting on deodorant to not smell like total shit. staring at the mirror in you room looking at your tired eyes and giant eye bags, groaning you walked downstairs to see your dad waiting by the door putting his jacket on.

“dad do i really have to go.”

“yes yes you do, all you do is sleep and stay in that room of yours, you need to get out and get some fresh air with everyone else.” he walked over to you and put his hands on your shoulders.

“please try and have some fun tonight, and don’t drink too much for my sake.” you rolled your eyes at him as you both walked out the door. you felt like a vampire, feeling blinded from the moonlight and the bright lights of the town. you felt drained, feeling like if you saw ellie you would burst into an ugly heaving sob. slightly resenting your dad for making you come, you both walked into the party and you were already dreading being here.

everyone was looking at you, you could already hear the whispers about your appearance. walking straight to the bar abandoning your dad to get a drink in you to at least bare the night. when you walked up you saw her talking to jesse, you made eye contact with her and stopped in your tracks, biting your lip to stop you from crying. walking the rest of the way up to the bar you asked for something strong. trying to keep your distance away from her your attention got caught by dina dancing around the dance floor with some guy. your eyes stayed on her as the song ended she made her way over to ellie saying a few words that you couldn’t make out and took ellie towards the dance floor. your face dropped keeping your eyes on them as dina pulled her close to her starting to sway side by side, all the air escaped your throat only being able to keep your eyes on them, ellie looked so happy with her. it gutted you, made you dizzy and want to vomit.

you had to look away but you couldn’t, you physically couldn’t. they got closer to each other now laying their heads on each others shoulders, you and ellie at made eye contact not even realizing the tears that had fallen down your face. she looked like she had a small frown on her face looking at you, she got pulled away slightly and her focus was back on dina. dina kissed her, she kissed ellie and you didnt even know how to react. holding your breath trying to restrain a sob. you could only hear your own breathing and heartbeat, almost felt like you were dying. getting pulled out of it hearing sean yell out a slur to both of them. it all seemed to happen so fast, your dad was up there within a minute defending ellie.

“what is wrong with you?” you picked up the argument and made your way closer to listen.

“he had no right-“

“and you did?”

“i don’t need your fucking help joel.” you ran your way through the crowd, pulling your dad away slightly.

“don’t you fucking talk to him like that.”

“this doesn’t involve you.” you stood closer to her almost face to face.

“it involved me when you yelled at my dad.”

“get out of my face.” she said so only you could hear.

“don’t fucking get on him for defending you.” she pushed you away and ran out of the building, you fell into joel slightly and scoffed at ellie’s actions. you didn’t realize what you were doing but you followed after ellie out of the building catching her halfway to her house.

“ellie!” she kept walking so you picked up your speed.

“ellie lets talk please!”

“what could we possibly talk about?”

“i- i don’t know, lets just stop for a second and talk please.”

“what do you want? to embarrass me again? tell me to leave joel alone when he had no reason to defend me?”

“he was fucking helping you ellie believe it or not he cares about you.”

“i didn’t need help thats the problem!” she started to walk back away not staying to hear what you had to say.

“it doesn’t matter ellie you can’t hate us forever.” stopping in her tracks she scoffed and started walking again causing you to follow behind and grabbing her shoulder. she whipped around and she slapped you. it surprised you, grabbing your face from the stinging pain that caused you. ellie’s expression dropped going to grab onto you, you pulled back. tears forming in your eyes yet again, feeling embarrassed for even trying to talk to her. ellie instantly regretted it and went to hold you causing you to flinch away.

“hey wait i-im sorry i really didnt mean to do that.”

“no don’t fucking touch me.” you shook your head moving around her to go run into your house.

“y/n! wait please im sorry!” you felt her behind you as you walked into the house, slamming the door in her face and running up to your room. you fell into your bed sobbing into your pillow the rest of the night.

ellie knew she fucked up, she fucked up bad. she wanted to go in there and console you, hold you and apologize profusely. ellie didn’t know what happened it just happened so fast. she ran back home, feeling the sobs come out of her chest.

4 hours before

you had patrol with your dad and tommy, you guys had been out really early due to the huge hoard of infected that had been seen close to jackson. you initially weren’t supposed to be here but you begged your dad to go this morning wanting to take your mind off things. it was terrible to think but maybe even get lost and never seen again. you knew ellie and dina had patrol together today, it made your stomach churn and your face grimaced at the thought of them getting to hang out today, especially after the events of the night before. you had been so tired from clearing out the places by jackson, it was cold and you were sick of it. meanwhile ellie and dina had just gotten their horses to head out.

“where are joel and tommy?” ellie asked jesse.

“they went out early with y/n to clear up some areas been out for awhile, so im gonna switch out with them so we can take their place and they can take a break.” she nodded, hearing your name knowing you were out there made her feel uneasy especially knowing she wasn’t there with you. she wanted to try and talk to you before she headed out but ended up sleeping in due to her crying herself to sleep.

they all went on their way, ellie just following behind dina since she didn’t know the trail they were taking. she sighed, ‘here we go’

2 hours before

ellie and dina had been cozying it up in a library due to the storm, whilst you had been caught up in a hoard. you guys had been running for what felt like hours, helping some girl out in the process. you felt weary about newer people, but you had no time to think about that right now. you had blood all over you, feeling the sweat pour down your head as you fought for your life. tommy had pushed the cart to get you guys out of there and back to the lodge where your horses were. feeling like you could breath, even if it was just for a second your dad had asked if you were doing okay you nodded feeling like you couldn’t speak. you felt a ringing in your ear as you saw the banging on door from the infected. your heart beating out of your chest not knowing what was to come. your dad pulled you and your hearing faded back into the loud bangs and screaming of the infected.

ellie and dina were laying on top of each other just having smoked and then had sex. laying with each other on the couch in the basement of the library. they were telling each other the stories on their scars when they heard running footsteps and jesse yelling for them. they rushed up off the couch to get some clothes on.

“are you kidding me?” jesse scoffs and turns around to let them change.

“you’re supposed to be on patrol.”

“there’s a blizzard outside.”

“is that weed?” jesse questioned as he took in the surroundings.

“why are you here?”

“people are counting on you, you get that? what we do matters!”

“then why aren’t you at the fucking lookout?”

“because tommy, joel and y/n didnt show up!” ellie shot her head up, and she got up swiftly.

“what do you mean?”

“we’ve been waiting for an hour, i was looking for their horses until i saw light.” ellie felt speechless, what if you guys were in trouble. dina turned to her.

“maybe they just went back to town.”

“without being replaced? no way.” ellie walked over to her bag grabbing it swiftly making her way to shimmer. you better be alive.

just minutes before

you guys had made it to the house finally feeling some sense of relief. the girl was with a bunch of other people, this didn’t feel right like you’re trapped now. you felt weird, you knew something was up and you wanted to leave.

“dad, i think we should leave.” you said in a hushed tone not wanting to give your suspicions away.

“what we jus’ got here.”

“this doesn’t feel right, i don’t trust them we should leave.”

“babygirl, its fine we will be alright.” he scoffed and tied up his horse walking away from you. you tried to trust him and relaxed your shoulders walking into the other room with everyone. you made sure you had your gun on you in case anything happens. you had drowned out their conversation until tommy elbowed you.

“that’s y/n, joel’s daughter.”

“y’all act like you heard of us or somethin’…” you saw the girl pull out a shot gun you weren’t able to react quick enough when the two people next to you grabbed you and knocked you over. your head slammed against the floor making you groan in pain.

“get off me!” you yelled seeing your dad with his leg basically shot out, you knew it you knew something was off.

now you’re here squirming as much as you can to get set free to try and help your dad, you didn’t know what else to do. you were panicking tommy was on the floor passed out and your dad had a blown out leg, how were you supposed to fight these guys. you were fucked. you had no other choice but to save your dad, you knew you wouldn’t come out of this alive.

ellie was frantically riding through the storm yelling for you guys hoping and praying you guys were safe, especially you. she found a house so she made her way over to try and find a way inside.

“please be okay.” her voice was shaky she felt tense and her stomach was in knots. making her way down and finding an opening in the house, she ran in and heard yelling. shit. she ran towards the noise finding a staircase and a door at the end leading towards whatever was down there. she could hear joel yelling your name. running down the staircase she opened the door slowly to find joel sitting being held down by two guys and you on the floor all bloodied and beaten. she gasped and ran in with her gun in hand, but she got tackled and pushed down.

“you’re gonna fucking die!” she yelled groaning at the scene she saw. she looked at joel seeing tears in his eyes, he looked defeated mumbling your name. he lost a lot of blood too much blood. she turned her attention back to you, seeing you stare at her, she didn’t want to look at you. you didn’t look the same her heart churned and she felt nauseous knowing you would die at the hands of some girl.

“baby get up! y/n fucking get up!” she wanted you to miraculously get up, she wanted this to be a bad dream. she swore she could see you mouth ‘i love you’ to her.

“please stop!”

“babygirl you gotta get up! please…” joel pleads, he feels his body start to slow down due to the loss of blood, he’s hoping he’s dying. he can’t bare to lose another daughter.

“please don’t do this!” she pleads and pleads hoping for that second that someone might come in and save them, save you.

“baby please get up!��� her pleads going unheard, getting more desperate as they came out. the whole world seems to stop, her ears ringing not hearing anything else but her own sobs. she saw the golf club rise up and come right back down.

“noooo!!” all life comes back to her, hearing the crush of the club hitting you, making her feel queasy at the noise. the ringing noise was back as sobs rack her body as she sees all life leave your eyes. all her memories of you come crashing within a moment, before she could even think or do anything she was knocked out.

as she woke back up dina was in front of her telling her sorry, ellie hoped she would’ve woken up and she was in bed with you. there you had been lifeless on the ground, she could barely see your face covered by the blood. she wanted to look away but she couldn’t, seeing your lifeless body just laying there. she so badly wanted you to magically wake up and be okay. her eyes fell on joel who had just barely woken up checking his surroundings and his eyes falling on you. her body ached from laying there her head pounding, she tried to get up as quick as possible her body dragging against the floor to get to you. the path felt so far away but you were so close. moving the hair from your face she grimaced at the hair sticking from the dried up blood. her breath hitched as she pulled the hair away seeing what was left of your face, your eye covered and the other closed. she didn’t know where it came from but she started screaming, her throat hurting from the pure force of her screams. she picked herself up and pulled you into her lap, tears invading her eyes and her screams louder by the second.

joel soon after screaming with her, the emotions hitting him like the plague. wishing this wasn’t real that he had lost another daughter. his youngest, his pride and joy that he couldn’t protect, just like sarah. jesse was helping tommy up as he stumbled back seeing the scene in front of him, his own voice getting caught up in a gasp.

“no please wake up!! fuck! help me please someone! she has to wake up please please…” ellie sounded desperate her voice slowly becoming more and more pleading for someone, something to come help. joel had tried his best to crawl to ellie, holding her as close as possible. more people from patrols came down gasping at the image in front of them, helping joel up and pulling ellie away. she thrashed around in dina’s arms wanting to go back to you.

“please please! i need to hold her! she’s going to wake up please!!.” she pleaded and slowly stopped and all she let out were whimpers and whispers of pleads. she knew you weren’t coming back, she knew she didn’t have another chance to apologize, she didn’t have another chance with you. ellie forgot about why she was even mad at you, why she had stopped talking to you, all she wanted was you back and you weren’t coming back. she regretted everything, she wished she could’ve said i love you or kissed you one last time.

the ride back and anything after that was a blur, ellie felt dead she felt like her heart stopped and she was just in purgatory. when she got back to jackson she didn’t even want to go home, knowing you weren’t going to be there. ellie wanted to be left alone but she didn’t at the same time, she didn’t know what she wanted really. she stayed with joel not wanting to leave his side knowing how he must feel right now. they had taken him to the infirmary to get his leg treated, ellie had gotten treated and waited just outside after. sitting on the steps not moving staring at the snow that was coating the ground.

“hey kiddo…” joel came back out with a patched up leg. ellie whipped around to see him staring at her holding his arms out. she jumped up and crashed into him, the tears coming back like a wave. they stayed like that for a little bit soaking in the warmth of each others bodies until ellie pulled back.

“m’sorry i got your shirt wet.” she sniffled and wiped her face.

“is’okay kiddo…they uh they’re gonna have a small lighting for her and were gonna bury her, i think you should be there to say goodbye.” she nodded and that was a response enough for joel. he pulled her back into a hug the smell of him reminded her of you, it brought her comfort. when she held you, you didn’t smell the same you only smelt of blood and she hated it. ellie couldn’t stop smelling it and seeing you laying there.

she stayed with joel, picking out an outfit for you to wear, getting you ready to be buried and helping him walk over to the cemetery with her. they hadn’t shared much words between each other but being each others company right now helped them both. standing next to each other at the lighting, ellie had barely listened to what maria was saying and all the speeches. her thoughts were all jumbled, thinking about how you had looked. they had let it be open casket, which ellie thought was a shitty way of saying goodbye to loved ones. tommy had went first seeing your cleaned off face being able to recognize you but your face was still not intact, it made his gut drop and he swallowed loudly. tears coming to his eyes as he sees how cold and pale you look. he kisses your forehead and walks to the side to let ellie go next.

she didn’t want to look she didn’t want to believe that you were in your casket at the age of 19. it wasn’t supposed to be like this, you weren’t supposed to be in there. she slowly made her way over and peaked in the casket seeing you cleaned from the blood, you face wasn’t the same. she let out a loud sob and felt her knees buckle underneath her, joel held onto her as she sobbed looking at your lifeless body.

“im so sorry baby…please come back please. i need you here i can’t live life without you here.” she sobbed with her body over the casket, she grabbed your hand and she didn’t feel the warmth of your skin, it felt cold. ellie pulled herself up and tried to warm you up, kissing your hand and blowing into it thinking it might help. she wanted you to feel warmth before you were buried into the cold icy ground.

“i love you so much, please wake up.” ellie sounded desperate, joel was crying seeing you in there and seeing ellie hunch over your body. he was thankful that he was able to say goodbye to you but kids shouldn’t die before their parents. he felt like he failed again as a parent it should’ve been him in there and not you, he knew he should’ve done something. he kissed your forehead and said goodbye to you, they all walked off and they lowered you in the ground. ellie felt like she couldn’t breathe, her heart was pounding out of her chest and she had cried to the point of a headache. she started to feel the soreness from getting beat up, she needed to lie down.

the ceremony ended and everyone dispersed back to their homes, saying sorry for your loss as they passed ellie and joel. ellie didn’t say anything, she just stared at the ground. they all left and it was just ellie, joel, tommy and maria.

“let me know when you want to leave, i’ve got your back don’t worry.” tommy whispered to joel as they hugged. ellie knew what they were going to do, they were trying to leave to find those people and leave you behind. she wasn’t going to let that happen. tommy left with maria and left them alone together.

“were you just going to leave without me and think that would be okay?” her voice sounded hoarse, her throat in pain from screaming.

“i don’t want you going kiddo, we don’t know what were up against.”

“exactly why i should go, you have a blown out leg joel.”

“ill make it work, i don’t want you goin’.”

“im going i don’t care, she means a lot to me too. i love her too i have the right to go and help.” joel knows she’s right, he has a blown out leg for crying out loud, he can barely walk. he sighs and nods.

“you’re right you’re right…ill come get you, were leaving later tonight.” they both walked back to their respected homes. ellie ran into her little garage and grabbed her backpack to pack what she needed. ellie felt anger now, she felt the rage build up in her to find who did this and kill them she felt thirsty for blood and needed to get revenge. it was all for you, she knows if it was her or joel you would’ve been long gone by now she wanted needed an outlet to let her anger out and it was getting revenge. she was going to find and she was going to kill every last one of them.

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a/n: i kind of gave up at the end up i’ve had this in my drafts for months and wanted to get back to writing!

[nishiriksss]

the first concert ch. 2

summary: riki was your childhood bestfriend up until you were 13, but you ended up moving to the US. you lost contact with him and never thought you would see him again, until you saw an edit on your fyp of a guy that looked suspiciously like him. you end up at every single enhypen concert, as close to the front as possible, trying to reach him. you comment on every post, every live, hoping he still remembers you.

genre: childhood bsfs to lovers, angst, fluff, slowburn

word count: 1.5k

warnings: none

taglist: @rairaiblog @vixialuvs

not proof-read masterlist

your mom had heard you talk about riki for 4 years straight, so when you showed her that he was in a boy group, and had an upcoming concert she bought tickets immediately.

the next concert was in saitama, your mom bought the closest tickets to the front she could, for all three shows. you got your outfits ready, and had been listening to every enhypen song on loop, over night you had become their biggest fan.

riki was sulking, presumably, you still lived in the US and he hadnt seen any sign of you. now that he was leaving for the net show, he felt as if he lost his chance. 'i had a feeling she would be there, though.' he whined 'do you think she moved?' he would ask and all his members would just look at him in disbelief. they all tried to let him down slowly. 'i know you miss her but, its been 4 years.' jungwon whispered just loud enough for him to hear. riki knew you probably forgot all about him long ago, and he would try to talk to other girls, but there was always that lingering feeling that you would show up again. he knew if you did he would drop everything, anything just to be with you. so he stayed alone, it was advised not to date anyway, cause of his fans, but the main reason was you. he couldnt think of another girl romantically. you never knew it but riki had been in love with you since you were little, he always had a crush on you. he was planning to confess but you moved away. even after all these years you were still always on his mind, it drove him, and his members crazy.

it felt like years before the day of the concert, when in reality, it had only been a few weeks. you felt like you had been waiting forever, and the day was tomorrow. even if riki didnt see you, you would see him, for the first time in 4 years. you were bursting at the seams with excitement the whole car ride, you were blasting enhypens music and singing along, you had only been listening to them, just to hear rikis voice again. enhypens discography had replaced your normal riki-themed playlist. you arrived in saitama, it all felt like a dream, but somewhere deep down, you knew riki wouldnt see you. the show was almost sold out when your mom bought the tikets, who even knows if he remembers you. that night you lied awake for hours, unable to sleep, thinking of what might happen the next day.

you woke up super early to get to the concert on time, so you could spend as long as you like getting ready, just in case he did see you. when you got to the concert you were squirming in your seat, you couldnt sit still, he was there, and so were you. he was just out of reach. when they finally made their way to the stage you saw him, you couldnt look at anything else. 'mom, thats him' you squealed, pointing at riki. she smiled at how happy you were, 'well, hes not gonna see you if you just sit and talk to me.' she laughed as you got up, leaning over the railing. the seats werent very close to the stage, luckily, tomorrows show had more seats available, your mom had got a vip ticket and you were gonna be right there with him.

as riki sang his lines, as he danced, he couldnt help but scan the crowd for your face. he looked everywhere, until his eyes landed on you, he gasped, when enhypen went backstage to get ready for the next song he was jumping around 'its her!!!' cheered 'i know its her!' he twirled around. 'riki..' heeseung gulped, not wanting to burst rikis bubble 'what are the chances thats actually her?' riki stopped jumping and stood there, motionless for a solid minute. 'im sorr-' heeseung started before getting interrupted by riki 'no, youre right.' he sat down, 'its probably not her. she doesnt even live in saitama.' he looked at the floor as a single tear fell from his eye. just as his members were about to comfort him, their manager called out 'youre on in 30 seconds!! everyone get up to the stage!' and with that they had to run to get there in time. when they got back on stage riki looked at who he thought was you.

'mom! mom! hes looking over here! do you think he recognizes me?' you jumped as you waved at riki 'RIKI!! ITS YN' you yell over and over, hoping he would hear you. of course, he didnt. jake saw him looking and slapped him on the arm 'dude its not her.' he stated after he pulled his mic away from his mouth. 'i know.' he mummbled, and continued with the show.

after the show you tried to get to riki, of course, it didnt work. you went back to the hotel sad, but still hopeful for tomorrow. you knew you wouldnt be able sleep. 'mom, what if he never sees me?' you ask, worry clear in your voice. 'he will, i promise.' she replied as she went to go take a shower. you sat on your bed, all your stuff still in your bags. you didnt have the energy to unpack, especially since you were only gonna be in saitama for two more days. you decided you would take a shower tomorrow, before the show, to clear your mind before you went. you lied down on your bed and wondered if your plan would ever work. you wondered what you would do if he didnt see you within the next two shows. you knew you would follow him all around the world just to see him one more time, but your mom wouldnt. just as you were about to sleep, you got a notification on your phone.

-nishimura riki started a live video

you almost screamed. 'mom! hes live!' you yell before getting on the live. you sent so many comments that you got timed out.

RIKI ITS YN

DO YOU REMEMBER ME?

PLEASE TEXT ME!

'guys.' riki smiled 'its her.' he clicked on your profile, and typed a dm.

yn, is this really you?

the message didnt go through though, your account got banned because of spamming. he looked at the screen 'account banned' he threw his head back in frustration. 'im telling you heeseung.' he paused and bit his lip to hold back the tears. 'it was her, i was so close.' his comments exploded.

what happened

who???

does he have a gf??

by the time you made a new account, he had ended the live.

'heeseung, that was her.' he whispered as he shook his head. 'her comments literally said 'riki, this is yn.' he sighed and leaned onto heeseung. 'well, she knows you exist, right?' heeseung asked 'well, duh. she was on the live.' the moment those words left his mouth something clicked in his brain. 'shes looking for me too.' he smiled so hard his face started to hurt. 'yn is looking for me.' he repeated. over and over. 'dude, you face is gonna get stuck like that.' jay joked as he walked in, overhearing riki talking about you. 'shes looking for me jay!' he almost yelled as he stood up and started punching the couch. 'do you think it was really her at the concert?' riki asked, now hugging a pillow spinning around. 'you know, if shes looking for you, its not impossible.' jay stated, earning an agreeing nod from heeseung. 'but why wouldnt she go to a US show?' heeseung asked, which made riki stop in his tracks. 'your right.' he sat down again, getting discouraged. 'but even if it wasnt her, shes still looking for me, thats what matters. right?' his voice dropped on the last word, as he tried to think of the positive. but you were just out of reach, and that was the problem. what if he could never find you again, what if you never knew how much he missed you too. him now having the confirmation that you were trying to find him, just like he had been trying to find you filled him with joy. the fact that his close attempt at talking to you failed, he knew he would find you eventually. he couldnt give up, not yet.

as you tried to sleep, unaware of the fact riki was still trying to find your new account, you wished your account didnt get banned. 'what if he saw my comments?' you thought to yourself, hoping he did, or maybe hoping he didnt. embarrassment wasnt something you were expecting, but the feeling hit you like a brick. 'what if he saw them and thought how much of a loser i am, still looking for him after 4 years.' you wondered, now feeling the tears stain your cheeks once again. and once again, you wished he was there to comfort you.

[wanderingwinds333]

What You Keep Hidden. Part 2

Pairing: Eris x Reader, Azriel x Reader.

Authors Note: I was a bit undecided on who I wanted y/n to end up with but I think I’m leaning towards Eris. let me know your thoughts!

Azriel couldn’t let it go. Not this time.

He flew down to the city and sent his shadows out to find you. Only to come up short.

He trekked to your cottage that lies on the outskirts of Velaris. You moved from the House of Wind shortly after Cassian and Nestas mating ceremony.

Once he stepped through your gates he was hit by a strong surge of magic that stopped him dead in his tracks. Wards. You warded your home against him and possibly the rest of his family, but why?

Azriel was no match for your magic on a normal day but his shadows have never had a problem breaking past wards. So he sent them through. He ordered them to tell him what they see.

“Mess. Mess everywhere Master. Remnants of Drugs. Myrthroot and another drug from the autumn court.”

The shadows bring the paraphernalia to him. He couldn’t believe it even though he was looking right at it. You were using drugs? How far had you fallen?

His shadows told him the drugs were from the Autumn court but how did you get them? His shadows didn’t even know the name of them or what they do.

Eris. He must speak to Eris.

He shadow walked directly to the Autumn Palaces doors. Eris had removed the wards from the inner circle in show of good faith and trust.

Eris appeared in seconds having felt Azriels magic cross autumns boundaries.

“Shadowsinger, what brings you here unannounced?” Eris asks a bit wearily.

“What can you tell me about this?” Azriel speaks and all but shoves the drugs in the new high lords hands.

“ Ahh Widows root. A popular drug that my father moved across Prythian. I have been trying to expel it from Autumn and put those away that were caught dealing it. How did you get it?” Eris questioned.

“That’s none of your concern. What does it do?”

Azriel had made a mistake though handing over the contraband.

Eris inhaled deeply and his eyes widened.

“Widows root is a numbing drug. Pain reliever of sorts but not for physical ailments. It shuts off an average faes emotions completely. Turns their mind off basically. But pray tell why y/n’s scent is all over this?” Eris’ eyes darkened in something close to rage.

“As I said before, that’s none of your concern.”

Azriel turned around to leave but flames incircled him.

“I do apologize for the fire but everything with her concerns me Shadowsinger.” Eris spoke unnaturally calm.

Azriel turned back to Eris with furrowed brows.

“How so?”

“She just does. Now I’ll ask again. Why is her scent all over these drugs?” Eris asked.

Azriel sighed. He knew Eris could be trusted now but this was still a family matter and he simply wasn’t family. But if he was going to get out of here with ease he might as well just tell him.

“My shadows found it in her home.”

“Has she been acting differently?” Eris’ tone switched to one of concern.

“Yes but she hasn’t exactly been the same since the war.”

The war was hard for everyone but for you it was life altering. Your family always knew what you were, half high fae and half witch. But the mother didnt stop there with you. Your magic had no bounds or limits. The mother had cursed you with the power of necromancy. You had swore to yourself that you’d never use it. You thought it was unnatural and wrong. But that day you saw your family losing. You knew what the future would be or lack there of if you didn’t intervene.

So when you did step out onto that battlefield you let hundreds of years of repressed magic flow out of you.

A simple incantation had a whole legion of Hybern soldiers drop to their knees and stop breathing. A moment later they were back up but with completely white eyes and under your control.

They fought at your whim. They fought until all their limbs had been cut off and could no longer stand. Only then did you remove your control of their body, when they were no longer of use to you.

You ravaged the field. Your family having a front row seat to your horror show.

They saw how your once golden hair turned ashen. How your normally kind blue eyes turned black with red veins running down your face. You looked like hel incarnate.

Your appearance eventually went back to normal. All except your hair. They did not know what that meant for you.

You were one of the main reasons the war turned in their favor but at what cost?

“Take me to her.” Eris demands breaking Azriels train of thoughts.

Azriel is now confused for a second time with the display of concern Eris is showing for you.

“Even if I wanted to ..I can’t. I don’t know where she is right now. None of us do. She disappears like this sometimes and it’s like she never existed. She never leaves a trail or anything.” Azriel sighs.

“Then I’ll find her myself since you all are incapable of finding one of your own.”

Before Azriel could argue Eris winnowed away.

Leaving Azriel more confused and with more questions than he originally came here with.

Back at the River House.

Azriel had just finished showing Rhysand and Feyre his memories from the encounter with Eris.

“How interesting. It seems his fondness for y/n never went away.” Rhysand speaks mostly to himself.

“What do you mean?” Azriel questions.

Rhysand knew it wasn’t his place to tell because of how much you loathed your necromancy powers but he went on to explain.

“Y/n’s parents were from a high ranking family in Hewn City. My father considered her parents close friends. They were ambushed on a mission my father assigned them to and were killed. Y/n then became my father’s ward. So she grew up around high lords meetings just like I did. She and Eris are only a few years apart in age.”

“Okay so what does that have to do with anything?” Feyre asks.

“Eris and y/n grew up together basically and for the longest time ignored each others presence. But around their early teenage years Eris had done something to upset Beron during a High Lords meeting he was hosting.” Rhysand sighed at the memory.

“In a display of dominance Beron had snapped the neck of Eris’ favorite smoke hound. There wasn’t many things Eris cared about and Beron knew that. So he took the one thing he raised from a pup. Eris did not cry. He did not yell. He simply picked the hound up and left the room. Y/N followed him out. I followed too but stayed in the shadows to watch them.” Rhysand continued.

“She healed the hounds neck and then brought it back to life with her powers. She explained to Eris this could only be done once because anything she brought back for a second time simply wasn’t the same after. He asked her if she could take the hound so it would be safe and y/n immediately agreed. And he hugged her. For the rest of their childhood they were inseparable but only if Beron wasn’t around. As they grew older and into the roles of their own court they grew apart. They never spoke a negative word about one another though. She cared for him and I believe that’s why she would always leave the room when one of us would talk badly about Eris.”

“What happened to the hound? I’ve never seen her with it?” Azriel questioned.

“Oh don’t remind me. That thing lives in the lower levels of the library. Y/n found out Bryaxis loves dogs and she thought he could use the company.” Rhysand speaks with distain.

His brother and mate could only stare at him with bewildered expressions. He just shrugged his shoulders.

“You forgot to mention the part of y/n and I’s history where she held a dagger to Mors throat for lying about my actions the day she claimed I left her for dead in the woods. That one’s my favorite.” Eris spoke from door frame he was leaning on. When the other three remained silent he carried on.

“I found her by the way. Passed out in the forest about a kilometer from her cottage. She had covered her scent somehow so no one could find her.”

“How did you find her then?” Azriel interrogated.

“I have my ways.” Eris smirked.

“Is she alright” Feyre asked concerned.

Eris’s facial expressions turned grim.

“No. She’s been using Widows Root heavily. I fear her withdrawal will be too much for her to handle. Her mind will need to be held. I wish to be with her when it happens if that’s okay.” Eris turns to look at Feyre and Rhysand directly.

Rhysand nods his head. “Of course but only if you can tell me why you are so concerned with her well being after all these years?”

A genuine smile breaks out on the autumn males face. A truly eerie sight for Feyre, Azriel and Rhysand after dealing with his cruel mask for so long.

“You don’t forget the first kindness that was ever shown to you Rhysand. That kind of thing sticks with you. I made a bargain with her that day you know? I told her I’d look after her always and never hurt her. In return she promised the same for me.” His smile dropped before he continued.

This confused Rhysand because he doesn’t remember there being a bargain.

“Clearly I didn’t look after her well enough. I knew when I took over my court I should have brought her with me. But she refused when I offered and I didn’t want to force her.” Eris spoke, frustration clear in his tone.

The whole display of emotions made Azriel very uncomfortable. He can’t lie and say he never thought of you as more than a friend because he did. You were beautiful and kind. But you weren’t someone that ever needed him. As bad as it sounds he was drawn to females who needed his help in some way. He wanted to feel useful. But with you, you always had it all together and never asked anyone for help. On the contrary you were normally the one besides himself that went out of your way to help others on the daily.

He knew what he felt was jealousy. Jealous over another damn Vanserra brother. The thought leaves him quickly as he checks himself. Before anything you were his friend. His feelings in this don’t matter.

“Azriel can you go fetch Madja. I’d like her to be with us incase anything happens.” Azriel nods his head and leaves. Feyre takes her exit as well to go check on Nyx.

The High Lord of Night holds a calculating stare at the High Lord of Autumn.

Eris can see the exact moment he figures it out.

“How long?” Rhysand asks.

“How long what?” Eris smirks with that arrogant way he has about him. Hoping he is wrong and Rhysand hasn’t actually figured out anything.

“How long have you and y/n been keeping your mating bond a secret?”

[jennasslut33]

Cairo Sweet x Masc!Fem!Reader

Cairo, Winnie, and R/Reader are classmates. R is in love with Cairo but she doesn’t reciprocate her feelings, not yet at least, and Cairo uses R to make someone else jealous. R has enough of this and decides to forget about Cairo. R and Winnie are besties.

Maybe a smut scene? At the end?

Top!Reader x Bottom!Cairo

If it doesn't fit, it doesn't!

It can and in multiple ways. I vote for the happy ending, but if you feel like you want more angsty ending, I understand! Plus, if you don't want to write about this, it's perfectly fine too!

Thank you, Hope you are doing well!

My pretty girl.

Warnings: smut, 18+, angst a bit?, fingering, praise, pussy eating, Masc!Fem!Reader x Cairo Sweet, top!r, bottom!Cairo.

MNDI!!

it was a normal day for you. You were currently sitting in cairos bedroom of her parents mansion that they left her while they were away. Cairo was studying - as per usual, smoking a cigarette - while you and Winnie were sitting on cairos queen sized bed.

You, you however were in love with cairo. Did she know that? Absolutely fucking not. Because you didn’t know how she felt about you. You didnt wanna take any chances, and ruin the friendship you and cairo have.

While you were lost in thought, staring at a wall, you felt a hand on your thigh, and someone shaking you back to reality and out of your thoughts. When you looked up, you saw cairo and Winnie staring at you, Winnie’s hand on your thigh.

“Are you good? We’ve been callin’ your name for like.. the past two minutes.” Winnie said, looking at you. You blinked a few times, you saw how cairo was looking at you; one of her perfect eyebrows raised in confusion and question, her perfect maroon lips wrapping around the filter of the cigarette— ugh, god, focus!

“hm? o-oh uhm.. yeah! y-yeah, im fine. I just uh.. spaced out for a second. Sorry.” You said, trying act like you weren’t imagining the best way to ask out cairo without ruining your friendship with her.

Winnie raised an eyebrow at you. “what were you thinking about that you couldn’t hear us screaming in your ear for a good two minutes?” she chuckled. You looked at cairo, and then back at Winnie.

“o-oh uhm.. just uhm.. t-tests.. that we have for school.. just wondering if im gonna pass or not..” you lied, because there was no way in fucking hell. That you were gonna admit that you were thinking about how to ask out Cairo, WHILE she was in the room.

“You’re a smart girl, Y/N. I’m sure you did fine, you always get straight A’s, don’t you?” Cairo said, before taking a drag of her cigarette. “Well, sometimes not everything is gonna stay perfect.. I mean, I don’t know Jack shit about the world war. I tried to get as much information as I could, but I really couldn’t. I had such a busy schedule that I didn’t have enough time to study!” You exclaimed quickly, clearly in a bit of a panic. Because, well.. that also did happen.

“hey, hey! Calm down, girl. So what if you get something lower than an A? It don’t matter, all that matters is that you try your hardest, doll face” Winnie reassures. You sigh. You lay back on Cairos bed, and put your hands over your eyes. “God, im so fucking tired..” you say under your breath “then sleep.” Cairo said randomly. You sat up and looked at her.

“In your bed? Seriously?” You said with a raised eyebrow and a questioning tone of voice.. maybe a hint of sarcasm. “Yes, my bed. You’re already laying in it, and the floor is uncomfortable. Just sleep, Y/N” she said, clearly not in the mood for anyone’s bullshit.

“ugh, fine. You’re so bossy.” You said, laying back down and Winnie- well.. she was already knocked out cold on the couch next to the window.

About an hour goes by, and you feel someone’s arms wrapped around you from behind.. you were a masc.. “I don’t think this is how it works.. but uhm.. alright..” you think to yourself. “it feels.. so nice.. so right..” You were just sleeping, and when you turned your head, your face went a bit red. Cairo?? why was she cuddling you?

“go back to sleep..” she said, mumbled into your neck. “why’re you cuddling me?” You asked quietly, not wanting to wake up Winnie. “because, you’re warm.” She said as if it was the most normal thing in the world. You rolled your eyes and you went back to sleep, exhaustion taking over your body.

. . .

The next morning, you wake up and have a shower, do what you need to and get ready. Winnie and cairo were already up. You all walked to the school, following cairo because she knows where she’s going, since she does this every damn day.

When you, Winnie and cairo all got to school, all three of you were standing in the packed hallway, it was filled with students. 7:48 in the morning, “how the fuck do these kids have so much energy at this time of the morning..” you think to yourself.

Cairo saw the girl she liked, being touchy and flirty with another guy, and all of a sudden, you feel someone wrap your arms around their waist. You looked down and saw cairo.

“What’re you doing?” You asked, your eyebrow raised in confusion. You didn’t know that cairo liked someone else. “Nothing, just hold me, please? im cold.” She said, looking up at you. You smiled and held you tight against you.

Winnie wiggled her eyebrows at you, a small smirk on her face and you rolled your eyes and mouthed “shut up” to Winnie, making her giggle.

. . .

Ever since that day, it’s been about almost two months. You think that cairo likes you back, because she’s been touchy, flirty, calling you pet names and letting you sleep in her bed a lot more often.

Today was the day, you were gonna ask her out. you walked into school, and after the first two periods it was break, and you went to go find Cairo. Your heart slamming against your rib cage, you feel like you’re on one of those carnival rides, where they go up really high and then drop, and it makes your stomach feel like your insides were all the way up to your head.

You walked around for a while, and when you walked behind the school, you froze. Your eyes were wide, your heart broke into a million pieces. Cairo was making out with that girl she likes. Tears well up in your eyes. You feel so.. used, betrayed, hurt, angry, just a whole mix of emotions.

You ran off, and you went to go find Winnie. Once you did, you told her everything, and you couldn’t stop crying. You were just some toy for cairo to use, to make that girl jealous. Almost as if cairo never even wanted you in the first place. 

the next few weeks, you became more distant, you didn’t go near cairo, you and Winnie stayed together. Whenever cairo would try to talk to you, you’d push past her and walk off, and go find Winnie.

. . .

Late one night, you got a text.

Cairo <3 (9:32 PM)

“Y/N, please talk to me. Why won’t you talk to me anymore?”

“You don’t even look at me anymore..”

you stared at those texts for a good five minutes. maybe even ten. you then replied back, your thumbs gliding across the screen as you texted back.

“You toyed with me, fucked with my feelings, and you used me to make another girl jealous?? What the fuck is wrong with you, cairo.”

your text was read immediately by Cairo, the three dots popping up on your screen that showed she was typing. while you waited, you scrolled through your social media until you saw her text pop up.

Cairo <3 (9:35 PM)

“im sorry, Y/N. But I really liked her, and she made me jealous, so I wanted to make her jealous..”

“please, I’ll make it up to you. I don’t want her anymore, I want you.”

“I miss you, Y/N.”

“Please, let me make it up to you”

you stared at the texts. You didn’t know if she was trying to get you back for her to use you again, or if she really wanted you to come back to her.

“Whatever. I’ll be over in 20 minutes.”

you got ready, and then got an Uber to Cairos mansion.

23 minutes later..

You finally arrived at her mansion and you walked inside. You walked up the large grand staircase and went to her room. You saw her laying on her bed, and when she saw you, she immediately stood up and went to run to you. You backed up.

“Y/N.. please I—“

“Shut up.” You said coldly, cutting her off. She looked taken aback, but she shut her mouth.

“Do you still want me, Cairo?” you asked, walking towards her slowly.

“y-yes..” she said quietly. she looked up at you, and you grabbed her chin between your thumb and index finger.

“She’s gone now, yes?” you asked, wanting nothing but the truth out of her pretty little mouth. all she did was nod.

“Do you want to be mine, cairo? Do you want me to make you mine?” you asked, your left hand now gripping her waist while your right hand was still holding her chin.

“yes.. please..” she said in a whisper.

“get on the bed.” “Now.” You demanded, which she obeyed immediately without question. You got on the bed as well, and you sat in front of her legs.

“Spread you legs for me.” you said, looking at her through your lashes. She did as she was told, spreading her legs wide. You straddled her hips, and leaned down, capturing her lips in a fierce, passionate kiss. your tongues sliding together, lips moving against each other in rhythm.

You kissed along her jaw, down her neck, and all over her tits, kissing any part of that sweet, smooth, soft, squishy flesh of hers that was visible. You kissed down her stomach, nipping at her skin every now and then, and that’s when you made it to between her thighs. You looked at her.

“Lift up.” You said, your fingers hovering above the waistband of her shorts, she obeyed, lifting her hips as you swiftly pulled her shorts and panties down, taking them off. You positioned yourself between her thighs, and pressed kisses, and gentle nips on her inner thighs. Her pussy was already dripping for you.

“Y-Y/N.. please..” she whined. You smirked, and you looked at her. “Please what? Use your words, Cairo.” You said as you continued to kiss and nip at her inner thighs, getting closer and closer to her dripping core.

“please.. I need you.. i-i want to be yours, Y/N.. please..” she begged. God, it was like music to your ears. “Good girl.” You praised, and your tongue then darted out, flicking over her clit as she gasped and moaned, those sweet, sweet sounds you had always longed to hear.

You continued to suck on the sensitive bundle of nerves, until you slammed two fingers inside of her aching cunt, making her gasp in surprise and pleasure. You didn’t move them just yet. You wanted to hear her beg.

“w-why.. mmh.. w-why aren’t you moving..?” she said through heavy breaths. You pulled away from her clit, your fingers still inside of her. “beg for it.” “You want me to finger this pussy, then beg for it, Cairo.” You demanded. Her eyes widened slightly. “w-what..? w-why do I have to—“ you cut her off “do you want to cum or not?” you questioned, looking at her. she nodded, and whined softly as she could still feel your long, slender fingers inside of her, but not moving. “please.. Y-Y/N..” she begged. “Please what? use your words.” You said teasingly. “please.. please, Y/N, i-i.. I want you to fuck me..” she said through soft whines and heavy breaths.

“There you go. Good girl.” you praised, before taking your fingers out and then slamming them back into her. Your fingers pumping in and out of her aching wet pussy as she gripped the bedsheets so tight her knuckles turned white. She moaned, whimpered, begging you to slow down because she couldn’t take it, but you didn’t oblige. Your goal was to make sure that she wasn’t gonna see that other bitch again, that she was utterly, and completely yours.

“mmh.. I-I wanna—“ she said through moans, her own moan cutting her off mid sentence. “you wanna what? talk, doll face.” you said, still fingering her at a brutal, and senseless pace. “c-cum! w-wanna cum, please!” She begging through loud moans. You could tell she was close, her velvet coloured walls clenching tightly around your fingers as you then curled them upwards, hitting the sweet, soft, spongy spot inside of her, making her gasp.

“Cum for me, cairo.” “I wanna hear you scream.” you said, not slowing your pace. As you kept going, and hit that sweet spot inside of her, her back arched off of the bed slightly, eyes rolled to the back of her head, as she screamed with pure pleasure. Her orgasm crashing over her like a tidal wave.

you helped her ride out her high, finally slowing down your movements, and pulled your fingers out of her. Your fingers now coated in her sweet juices. you put your fingers in your mouth, tasting her. “Mmh.. you taste so good.” you then pulled your fingers out of your mouth. you kissed Cairos forehead, and caressed her cheek.

“You did so well for me, baby.” You praised, looking at her as you smiled softly. You cleaned cairo up, and cuddled with her in bed, spooning her from behind, your arms wrapped around her waist, your face buried into the back of her neck.

All of a sudden, Winnie walked in, jaw dropped. “What. The fuck. Did I just listen to.” She said, looking at you and cairo. “What the actual fuck, are you doing here? You heard everything?” You said, slight disbelief in your tone. “Yes, I heard everything. Goddamn, who knew you were such a dom, Y/N.” She smirked, looking at you. You rolled your eyes and looked at her. But she spoke before you could.

“Sooo..? What’s the deal? Are you two finally together now?” She asked, a hint of hope, amusement, and a tinge of excitement in her voice as she bit her lip, awaiting an answer. “Yeah, we are. She’s mine now.” You said, looking back at cairo who was now fast asleep.

“My pretty girl.”

you whispered, pressing a soft kiss to Cairos neck, before closing your eyes and falling asleep.

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I hope this is good enough for you btw😭💕

I am still currently working on Keep Quiet pt.2 tho, so stick around pookies💋💋

[paintbrushnebula]

Just now realized that we're gonna get to see what Gwen intentionally *trying* to flirt looks like

bc like the few times when she said really sentimental things to Miles in ATSV weren't her intending to be romantic. Like the part where she said "What I always think: You're Amazing" was the most affectionate thing she's said to Miles so far, but that was her being unusually candid out of the heavy emotion she was feeling at that moment, not genuine flirting (at least not to her).

But if she's gonna be trying to make up with Miles and maybe doing some mmhmmhmm rizzing...

And I just think that will be Very Funny to watch.

Because you see the thing with Gwen is that she's not used to being open and vulnerable, so she isn't used to just saying how she feels about someone. I think that's why her love language is physical touch.

This is probably totally me projecting, but I always interpreted that physical touch is Gwen's default way of showing affection because expressing affection with words is much more difficult for her to do. It's like her way of expressing love where words fail her. It's kinda all she thinks she's capable of giving.

(Anyone who knows me knows I'm rather touchy too. With my siblings, parents, family, etc. It's always kisses, hugs, gentle arm squeezes, all that. So I relate to this aspect of Gwen's character a lot)

But obviously, physical affection isn't enough anymore. It's cute and highly appreciated, but it won't reveal everything that lies in the heart, or explain what she believes. It's pretty clear by the end of atsv that Miles will need some words from her. Some good words.

Now what's funny to me about Gwen's rizzing potential is that we've seen what it looks like when Gwen is trying to impress someone without knowing how good her chances are. She tried to make a good impression with Miles' parents, but got really awkward and cringed at herself after every attempt at banter or friendly conversation. This was different from how she interacts with the people at the Spider Society because superheroing is her element. It's something she knows she's good at, so there's no self doubt. But Gwen's a fish out of water in domestic situations. I mean, think about the scene where Gwen invites Miles for a swing around New York. The scene that follows very clearly resembles a date, despite the fact that it's not what Gwen meant when she called him out of his window. I think that Gwen had thought about how this could've looked like she was asking him out, then proceeding to shut down any thoughts like that, denying herself that they were on a date, despite that that might've been where her mind had been. Sidebar, I headcanon that during that scene, Miles did allow himself to pretend they were on a date. But anyway, this moment still has Gwen in her element because she's calling him out to swing around the city as spider-woman. It's certainly not the same as asking to casually hang out in civilian clothes to grab a bite or whatever, which would've been much more domestic, which would've been much more difficult for Gwen to attempt at. Gwen knows what the odds are when she's Spider-Woman, but she doesn't know the odds when she's Gwen Stacy.

Gwen not knowing the odds of something working out is what actively keeps her down throughout ATSV before she returns home. She acted with pessimism, and if the chances weren't high, she didnt want to commit herself to trying something that might not work out in the end--a similar outlook I had and still kinda do have, albeit toward my creative endeavors, not romantic relationships (I don't really have experience in that arena tbh)

But now after ATSV she's throwing caution to the wind with Miles, she's gonna face the music and use words this time. And some of those words, might be romantic! Gwen is gonna have a lot to say to Miles, there's so much she'll want to express to him--has been wanting to express to him for 2 years now! A lot of gushy mushy sweet stuff perhaps! Perhaps some rizzy words, yknow? And knowing Gwen, they're probably gonna have a hard time coming out the way she'd like! And it'll probably be very funny!

for us anyway

Ahh, the mythic struggle beauty of being an introvert.

[dark-lord-of-awesomeness]

I know it probably won’t likely happen but funny scenario I thought of for RaCat au

Caryn and Shermie (and Filbrick but he’s optional maybe they left him at the airport because man got lost) or just the Pines come over to Ford’s house.

And they’re greeted with Ford, and Ford’s Co-Parenting Partner Fiddleford and Fiddleford’s Wife who is Emma-May who is also Stan’s raccoon wife, and Stan who’s Emma-May’s cat husband and somehow Tate’s stepfather when he’s a cat, and

Shifty who’s Ford’s kid, Tate’s brother, Stan’s nephew/son-kid thing, Emma-May’s grub son, Fiddleford’s grub son

I can just imagine the confusion on the other Pines faces as they try wrap their heads around how who’s related to who, and everything.

Someone at some point brings out a murder board/cork board to make sense of it all.

Alas, you're correct in that its very unlikly to happen, due to everyone in the situation agreeing 100% without discussion they are not going to explain their messed up family life to anyone outside it if at all possible. If the Pines get a headsup about incoming family visit, the McGuckets clear out for the duration and it goes very similarly to how it did in Cat Stan shorts.

Of course, if there's no notification about the visit its a different, more hilarious story of surprise Ma and Shermie Pines (with or without Fil) busting in, and everyone scrambling to create a story on why all these people live/ hang out in the house. Which would be fine if somewhat suspicious, except because its a surprise there was no time to come up with a cohesive story, so everyone's telling different and conflicting lies with 0 ideas of what everyone else is saying.

So Ford goes : Oh Stanley lives with me now, and so does my friend Fiddleford after he was met with some financial troubles with his family. They're working on moving out now that they're more stable, but its slow going :) (Normal, believable even. Ask no more questions and it can remain so)

Fiddleford goes: Oh my wife disappeared and Ford offered to put me and my son-sons! up while the search was going on. Now she's back and we're working on moving out. Where was she? uhhh- lost. Got lost in the woods and was surviving all on her lonesome before Stanley found her and drove her back home. Very kind of your son (Still normal, but the lack of ready answer on where Emma-May was draws suspicion along with Fiddleford calling Stan 'kind')

Emma-May goes: my husband moved in with your son due to not being able to support himself after i was kidnapped by the government. They wanted to steal my research, but thankfully i broke out and stumbled upon Stanley here. He drove me up here to disappear after the government chased us down, where i found my husband and your other son. (Started normal, ended weird. Kidnapped? by the government? Why did he come straight here and not go to your family's house first? No thought to find your husband first?)

Which are all very good and mesh well together (as long as you don't look too closely). But then Stan (who was missing, very noticeably losing his car in the process and therefore could not drive Emma-May anywhere, and there is no extra Stan vehicle to be found) goes

I kidnapped by the government for illegal experiments. Emma-May was the scientist responsible, but i charmed her with my roguish ways and we escaped. I didnt want to get anyone else involved, but Emma-May's husband is some kind of robot genius and she said he could help me disappear forever. It took ages of walking and relying on the kindess of strangers to drive us to California, but when we got to their house he was gone! Turns out he and Ford knew each other, and Fiddleford took the opportunity of his wife being missing to throw himself into Fords strong beefy nerd arms and start a whole new life together. We tracked them down here to their love nest, where Emma-May saw them canoodling and, heartbroken, threw herself into my, far more beefy and impressive arms. We're married now, but they're also trying to get it to work for the sake of their son. I guess you could say Fiddleford's my husband in law? Anywho, Ford got a kid with Fiddleford at somepoint, so thats where that other kid came from. Why's he look so much like ford? Uhh. Clone. Yup! you didnt hear this from me though.

Which is insane, except it also ties in the awkwardness of the other stories if this is some version of the truth that everyone else wants to hide. No one explains the racoon/cat thing. No one thinks to ask each other what the others said until after the visits over, and if at any point Ford was interrogated for details his story would devolve into some mess similar to Stan's, cementing that as the actual truth in the Pines minds. except for the fiddleford x ford romance Stan threw in for shits and giggles, but of course he wouldn't admit to get familiar with a married man.

[ben-pincus]

my love is a life taker (ben pincus x darius bowman)

(pre chaos theory season 1)

tags : ben in denial of being a boy kisser, nightmares, trauma from isla nublar, mention of being eaten alive by pteranodons, fluff, a pinch of angst??? maybe ?????, idk i love benrius sobs, theyre so cute

the time was 3:06AM. ben was awoken by his usual nightmares of pteranodons in a cold sweat, disorientated and convinced those winged creatures were coming for him. again.

his breaths were heavy, eyes wide as he sat upright in his bed, the college dorms quiet. he felt light, weak, like he was falling from the monorail again.

he clutched at his chest, willing himself to calm down. his dreams, or nightmares for a better word always end with him dying, either from hitting the ground too hard, or being painfully torn apart by the pteranodons, and the only thoughts going through his head then are;

i wont be able to see darius again.

he doesnt know why darius is the first person to come to mind when he thinks about dying. everytime he thinks about darius, he gets nervous, and giddy.

but hes not gay. or, at least he thinks so. hes been with girls before but.. darius is different. more special.

ben sighs, running his hands down his face as he inhales shakily. he picks up his phone, checking through his messages, unaware that darius was also doing the same.

darius, distracted from late night work from the dpw, texts ben,

"you up?"

bens heart almost explodes out of his chest. but there it is, that feeling again. like his heart is going to explode.

ben texts back in an instant, his fingers fumbling over the screen,

"yeah"

darius takes a minute to respond,

"nightmares again?"

ben mentally curses himself. the fact that darius knew how often his nightmares were made him feel embarrassed.

"yeah, and just thinking about stuff"

that stuff being you, ben thought. but what was he meant to say? hey! you're my best friend and i think im gay for you! hope this doesnt make things awkward!

of course its gonna make things awkward, he tells himself. hes cool with gay people, hell, he even helped yaz and sammy. but why is it so hard to accept that he might like guys too?

he almost forgets hes texting darius. almost.

"what stuff?"

darius responds. ben lowers his phone, resisting the urge to just smash it into pieces, but he also wants to tell darius whats going on.

so he lies.

"college :/"

he doesnt give a shit about college right now. hes been so preoccupied with trying to figure himself out.

he even went to sammy.

they met up for a 'coffee', but ben just wanted to get her advice.

"ben? what's eatin' ya? you're never this quiet.." sammy notices, her eyebrows furrow as she slightly leans over the small table.

ben sighs, running his hand through his hair, "i... its about darius." he says quietly.

"what? he not pickin' up again? because i swear to god i told him!-"

"no! no.. its.. god.." he groans, leaning back in the chair and covering his face with his hands.

"ben.." sammy drags out, wanting to know whats going on. ben suddenly leans forward, looking down at the coffee cup in his hands before looking up at sammy,

"how.. how did you know you were lesbian?" he whispers.

a flash of confusion appears on sammys face, before her eyes widen, the pieces fitting together.

"you.. like darius..?" she asks quietly, to which ben nods.

"i- i know you can like both guys and girls but i.. why cant i accept it as easily as you did?" he whispers, the frustration evident in his voice.

sammy puts her hand over bens,

"i didnt accept it right away." she admits quietly, "nearly no one does."

ben looks at her, his eyes slightly widened.

"you didnt?" he whispers, to which sammy shakes her head.

"it took a while.." she shrugs, "but.. y'know. i got there! and i got the best girlfriend in the world!" she smiles.

ben wants to smile, but he cant.

"sammy, i- i dont know if darius swings that way. what if i tell him and it ruins everything?" he whispers, all these thoughts swirling in his head.

"you wont know unless ya tell him." she says, squeezing bens hand reassuringly.

"how?" ben asks, his voice strained.

"just tell him." sammy nods, "you dont gotta know what ya are right away... jus' know what you're feelin'."

he doesnt know the amount of times hes typed out a paragraph to darius, and then deleted it out of fear of being shunned.

bens fingers hover over the call button. he doesnt wanna do it over text, its too.. sleazy..

bens finger accidentally presses the call button, and before he can cancel it, darius picks up.

"hey, ben. you okay? you dont usually call." darius' voice rings out from the phone.

"yeah- yeah, i'm uh, fine-" ben mentally slaps himself for sounding like he just ran a marathon and back.

"you dont sound it." darius hums.

"i gotta tell you something, d." the words slip out of bens mouth before he can even catch the letters from falling out.

theres a beat before darius responds,

"...what is it?" darius says quietly.

ben doesnt know how to respond, so he rambles. says whatever his heart is telling him.

"d. i love you. and not in like, a-a friend way. i wanna hold your hand, and kiss you, and be seen with you as your boyfriend. i wanna hold you and sleep next to you and take you out on dates and treat you how you deserve to be treated-" he stops himself with a shaky breath.

darius is quiet. too quiet.

fuck. ben thinks.

"really?" darius muses, ben cant read his tone.

"yeah.. really." ben swallows nervously.

ben really is hoping darius swings that way right now, to save him from the embarrassment.

"well.. uh.. yeah, yeah.. so do i." darius says quietly, tripping over his words. bens heart almost stops.

"what?" he asks.

darius laughs, "i feel the same, ben."

"well, uh.. thats um.. great." ben says, unsure on how to react now.

he can hear darius moving around,

"can i drop by tomorrow? figure things out between us?" darius asks.

bens voice catches in his throat, "yes-" he clears his throat,

"yeah. you can. you- you need directions?" ben asks.

"already know where you are. and uh... sammy told me already." darius chuckles,

"sam- oh my god.." bens face burns up, and he hears darius laughing again.

and by god, is it the most beautiful sound ben has ever heard.

[buggyjuggie]

Hi Hi! I recently found your blog and really liked your work.

I was wondering if I could request some HCs about a masc reader who stays up late and wakes up super early (ex. Staying up till 12am but waking up at 3) but somehow is usually very energetic and hyper?

The character(s) are up to you, if thats okay? I read through the rules and everything and I think this is okay, but feel free to ignore if I messed up anything! 🫶

──★ ˙ ̟Mk1 characters x Masc reader who wakes up early and goes to bed late

「 ✦ Johnny Cage ✦ 」

* Come on you know he definitely does the same thing.

* Doesn’t understand how your so energetic. If he wants to be anywhere near your energy level he NEEDS a crap ton of coffee.

* Easiest way he gets the both of you to sleep is by having a movie marathon or having a gym date and exhausting yourself’s.

* He always ends up going to bed/passing out first so you end up following him, even if Johnny can’t talk you still enjoy cuddling and being next to him.

* You end up picking him up from shoots and sets after long days, because your the only person he trusts that would still be awake at these hours.

* After a long day that was supposed to be about the both of you hanging out he ended up eating sugary snacks to stay awake and had the biggest sugar crash ever.

「 ✦ Liu Kang ✦ 」

* When he learned of your habit was really worried for you, despite the fact that he has spent eons alone Liu Kang still remembers when ordinary people should go to sleep.

* Always tries to somehow convince with his words of wisdom for you to go to sleep earlier (it almost never works but its worth a try)

* I think that a god like him doesn’t need sleep but one of the ways he gets you to sleep earlier is by cuddles. He’ll hug and use his natural body heat to lull you to sleep.

* Both of you are opposites of each other but manage to make it work he takes time to do exciting and adrenaline pumping activities and you enjoy spending time with him drinking tea, meditating and talking about anything that you can.

* Anytime he sees you being hyperactive it always puts a smile on his face, just is stuck in trance watching you and being happy that he gets to have this.

「 ✦ Li mei ✦ 」

* HOW?? JUST HOW??? she always asks herself.

* Being Sun Do’s first constable requires a strict schedule, despite the fact that she likes doing her job waking up early is not one of them.

* When she wakes up early Li mei tends to be grumpy and down she absolutely can’t understand how you getting so little sleep are in a good and cheery mood.

* She makes paper lanterns that help both of you fall asleep, they smell like lavender.

* If Li mei’s having a hard day she appreciates your energetic personality, it puts her in a good mood and help’s to keep her spirits high when struggling with Outworld’s conflicts.

* Let’s you take care of her spirit lion since both of you are very energetic and it has grown attached to you.

「 ✦ Mileena ✦ 」

* Thinks that you just have a hard time sleeping.

* Because of the way her base outfit is designed i think Mileena owns a lot of fuzzy and warm sweaters. She gives then to you as a hope that it’ll help you sleep better.

* Tries to do literally everything to get you to go bed earlier royal massages, big fancy beds with fluffy pillows, essential oils and whatnots.

* Is surprised that after all that your still full of energy, starts to think that it might be magic or a spell.

* You offered to do some of the more tedious jobs or her’s so that she can enjoy her time as empress, Milleena didnt like the idea of making you do her work but you still insisted by saying that if you let her, both of you will have more time to spend together and she caved.

* You sleep a lot in Mileenas room because she has a lot of flowers that help her fall asleep more calmly and keep her tarkat affliction from coming out. The flowers help you because they remind you of Mileena the happy memories and moments spent with her make for the most adorable dreams and even date ideas.

「 ✦ Havik ✦ 」

* An agent of chaos hell bent of causing mischief any where possible and a little to no sleep human who somehow is extremely energised to a concerning extent. I think thats a math made in heaven.

* Like Liu kang i don’t really think Havik needs to sleep yes he does get tired but doesn’t have adherent need for it.

* Thought at first that you were also from chaosrealm due to your high energy and hyperactivity.

* Noticed your how your sleeping was inconsistent but because he has never dated a human before he doesn’t do much about it, think’s that this is just how humans are.

* Still offers to let you rest or even rest with him if he sees that your starting to get tired or are gonna crash.

* Both of you are the most chaotic couple in world and he loves it.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

Once again I’m so sorry this took so long to get out. I really really enjoyed writing this one especially because i got to write for any character i wanted so that helped me thing outside the box. I didn’t really have any specific way of integrating masculine terms or action i just mainly tried not to baby the reader.

Hope you enjoyed reading :3

[violetjedisylveon]

Can we know more about the dude that obsess over Wukong?

I get everything about him being a Wukong fling and now he just want to eat Wukong and other staff

Got me wondering HOW he become a fling with Wukong. Like what is he before he become Siren Hunter?

Also since he the ONLY person that about to make lbd uncomfordable do he ever like threat lbd or something? I mean he is pro in hunting siren do he know lbd is siren but more intrested in Wukong. Like make lbd the shushi if she didnt give him Wukong.

He started as a silly bit character that got more complicated from people's suggestions, so I didn't have any lore prepared or made for him, it's mostly come from what people suggest, it's a bit of a collaborative process, so I'll spout off some ideas and see what you all think!

And he got a name! @ainnur suggested Ling Li as his name so that's his name.

I'm thinking Li started as part of a siren hunter family, but one who wasn't too into it, sirens were hard to come by in his youth and he saw his family's singleminded focus on their one trade that was drying up as foolish stubborn people holding onto the past.

He sought to study a different field of work that would be able to provide for his family when the people paying them to hunt sirens got sick of them coming back empty handed. His family is very sea based and wouldn't want to move so he went into marine biology, specifically for marine mammals.

He started working at an aquarium in his 20s, and the aquarium had an area that was closer to the ocean for rehabbing animals meant for release, but something was sneaking in and stealing some of creatures, Li was put in charge of whoever was doing it, the aquarium assumed it was someone stealing the rare fish to sell.

Li discovered a siren sneaking into the pen and eating the fish, Li had been under the assumption that sirens were either extinct or they wised up and were staying away from land dwellers.

The siren attacked him, knocking him into the water and attempting to drown him, but he didn't go through with it, he stopped and returned him to the surface, threatening that if he ever told anyone about him he'd kill him, before swimming away.

Kinda like the story of Yuki Onna, but with a siren.

Li is confused about why the siren didn't kill him, his family always said they were ruthless man-eaters who never spared anyone, but one spared him so what's up.

This is where the obsession started.

He starts staking out the area he saw the siren, hoping to see him again and ask what was up.

He lures the siren back to him with some of the fish he was eating, and used the fish to get the siren to talk to him. Li asked the siren why he spared him, sirens don't spare anyone, Wukong was very offended at the siren slander Li grew up with and swiftly corrected him about sirens, and says he thought he was cute so he didn't kill him.

From there a whirlwind relationship started, Wukong was kinda using him to blow off steam from the stress of his position as the leader of his pod, destined to defeat the bone demon, and the trauma of both his moms being killed, he's dealing with a lot and Li is an uncomplicated, easy thing to pay some attention to for some time, just a bit of fun in his stressful life.

Li got in too deep to the relationship, he thought it was more than what it was, and when he started to get too serious about it for Wukong, he just left.

It was only a few years, pretty easy for Wukong to forget about, but not for Li.

He wanted to find Wukong again, so he went back to the family business of hunting sirens all to find him again. This is where the obsession got worse.

I explained here that he caught Wukong a couple decades after their relationship ended, and started demanding answers and getting too physical with him, Wukong didn't recognize him, he bit his hand off, and Li got a new robotic hand to continue hunting sirens with searching for Wukong.

He got obsessed with Wukong further, and sirens in general, and began more actively hunting them, he changed how his family hunted sirens to be better at it with the things he learned about them from Wukong.

He became the top hunter you went to if you wanted to get your hands on any siren meat or body parts, whether for fancy meals or for magic purposes.

A lot of the sirens he catches aren't ones from Wukong's pod, they know about him but they don't know him personally.

He's just really creepy and unsettling about Wukong, which is what creeped LBD out, he couldn't really hurt her if he tried, so he didn't try to threaten her. She's not actually scared of him.

Plus she's got a whole cult behind her who would absolutely murder him for hurting her, he's crazy not stupid.

He did know she was a siren, but he didn't give a shit about her he just wanted Wukong.

So that's what I've got for him, I'm open to more suggestions or ideas on him!

[writingsofwesteros]

Imagine King Maegor

At the end of everything he DIDNT die. Waging his war with the faith…. And winning.

But while he’s waging his war, he’s separated. Ends up asking for shelter from a peasant woman. A young lady. Newly married. But her husband away. Most likely arranged. She doesn’t know who he is and shows him kindness. But when he gets back to his troops and dragon, raining hellfire on his enemies, then she realizes soon.

But King Maegor decides to have his way with her. So while things burn, he rips her clothes and pins her, shoving his cock into her aggressively. She whimpers and begs but that just encourages him. Any woman is dwarfed by his size, and the poor lady is fucked dizzy as he forces his cock in and out of her again and again mercilessly. Clutching her hips and emptying himself into her abused cunt. His gift to himself for the victory.

But he keeps her after. Just to entertain himself during the conflict. A spoil of war. Keeps her close. But whenever the king demands access to that little hole, she’s powerless to stop him. For days at a time if he succeeds, she’s unsteady on her feet and leaking seed. And if there’s losses…. her cunt is almost too sore to close her legs, and her arse has been spanked so raw she can hardly sit comfortably.

But after he returns to his keep, it’s too late. And her womb has already begun to swell. Maegor decides then, why not keep her? He’s certainly grown fond. And why waste a perfectly good cunt and useful womb? A pleasing body along with it.

The poor former peasant is now swollen with this large and imposing king’s possible heir. And it’s no surprise how heavy her belly becomes. It becomes hard for her to walk long distances and she does have no choice but to follow Maegor. Surrendering to him late at night. As her pregnancy hasn’t slowed his desire. He has her on all fours on the bed. Whimpering as his thrusts make her milk heavy breasts shake. Supporting her very full and stretched belly.

She doesn’t know how she manages. The restless movements of the child as her time gets closer. The sheer size to which her womb grows. Maegor’s endless attentions. Maegor decides he wants to be present for the birth. And watches her intently. It’s completely humiliating. First he tricks her, kidnaps her, forces himself on her again and again, now he’s filled her with a massive child and wants to watch her struggle to bring them here.

But despite it all, she’s sturdy. And Maegor does see her succeed in birthing him a child. A living, healthy child. The poor lady is in over her head. She’s not a noble lady. No rich family. So now she lies there exhausted. The king’s child nursing from her. Knowing he won’t be letting her leave any time after this

And her womb won’t stay empty for long

THE HOTTEST! Poor thing has no choice to bend to his whims, especially now he has more control and power. As if it was a thought she could escape him before.

Maegor watches his pretty thing fall asleep before his bright eyes move towards the babe. A self satisfied smirk coming across his face. "Prepare for a wedding." His advisers could only nod; they knew their King would have their tongues if they spoke their true thoughts.

His larger hand slowly strokes her hair before his thumb brushes against his son's cheek and his eyes flicker open

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: Miraculous World: London, At the Edge of Time

(Spoilers for those that havent seen it. and yes this will be my sort of Live reaction, with my thoughts at the end)

-Okay so Nooroo be sad and trying to appeal to this person's morality.

-Okay so I was wrong about them being Adrien, but they are... Blond Lila?

-Okay, so She was actually BOTH akumatized Villains. Not gonna lie, That is so expected I assumed one of them would be adrien. Damn

-Intro be dope though

-So they are playing some weird variant of chess.

-If I was kid Alix, Id be salty, I would never. win since the other versions of me KNOW all my moves.

-OH DAMN GRANNY BUNNYX! 70, damn she looks good for 70

-Oh they be fading, and they arent even phased. Because they know what will happen. Wow... kind of takes the drama out of this

-Oh cool, recap

-They dont even bother saying he was originally called monarch.

-Alix is so valid for that comment about them kissing

-"Gabriel makes his wish, history is still on course." Yep they are playing the Miguel O' Hara is right canon event bit unironically.

-Portals start vanishing. But the drama is gone because YOU KNOW Alix will fix it

-Oh there is a depressed Bugnoire. Confirmed that merge miraculous can still use powerups.

-She goes to London. Damn this is depressing, and sterile

-Bugnoire casual destroys the cell to free Kagami made me chuckle

-Marinette reflecting on what happened. talking with Gabriel

-"Adrien cannot find out."

TO THE SURPISE OF F***ING NOBODY!

-Kagami calling her out but then saying she will oblige her

-Oh they actually talking about Tomoe.

-Kagami wants to try and talk to her mom, which Marinette honors because... at least she isnt being a hypocrite here.

-Okay I know I am a bit nasty, but I do appreciate the time the scene is taking. its really building up the tension to this.

-Gorilla out of nowhere just like "Let me unlock it first." that made me chuckle

-I feel VERY CONFLICTED. Because on one hand, LOVE THE ANGST. Absolutely just perfection. Really milk that drama. But f*** do I HATE how this came about.

-Oh the Lie is actually pretty convincing. Oh look at how absolutely distraught Adrien is. Boy is f***ing wrecked.

-OH DAMN ADRIEN OUTBURST

-That Adrigami comforting.

-I want to love this absolutely heartshattering scene. Its beautiful, its angsty.

-Okay, you know what. I will hold my reservations until I actually finish.

-You can just see the absolute distraught face of Marinette. SHE HATES THIS. SHE ABSOLUTELY HATES WHAT SHE IS DOING. OH THAT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ANGSTY THING. Its slowly warming me up a bit, the finale was missing this.

-Oh damn, Nathalie knows Marinette is Ladybug. WELP, just another person that knows thats not Adrien.

-Oh damn, Ladybug monologue, while she destroys everything related to Hawkmoth, monarch, and his scheme. In a way, becoming his greatest accomplice.

-The press conference is full of a lies. Wow its starting to feel just like real life.

-Nathalie comforting Adrien, such a soft scene. Meanwhile Tomoe and Kagami are cold to eachother

-Marinette is at the train station

-That adrinette hug.... yea, thats the good stuff

-Im happy the kwami are safe.

-There is a lot of not talking in these moments. letting the music set the tone.

-And day becomes night, Marinette sleeps with Plagg and tikki by her side. Now she asks if what she did was right

-Is there a kwami of truth? Because if there is, I wonder what animal it is

-WAIT, She lied to Alya too? THAT I didnt see coming.

-And right there, we see when the special ACTUALLY Starts

-Okay the vest is funny

-The burrow has a slowed down time aspect, makes sense because of the whole time travel thing.

-So they have to take Marinette's Miraculous from when she renounced it. For a split second, I thought she was talking about the Kwami choice, but it was actually Origins. Which makes more sense

-So thats why Tikki becomes so sure of Marinette.

-She changed colors? Why thoough?! Granted I do prefer it to the original costume, but not as much as the lucky charm form.

-"There is no such thing as ghost." GHOST FORCE WOULD LIKE A WORD MARINETTe

-Basically she can phase through things like Kitty pride. And be invisible. So like a Ghost.

-Ladybug verses the Ghost akuma

-She cant touch them

-Calender. it means you have to go to a different time

-This special really likes hammering in that Ladybug's lie is wrong, yet at the same time NO ONE is offering her an alternative. So it feels like the special isnt really committing to the "Marinette is right" or "Marinette is wrong."

-"Sorry, you cant take the butterfly miraculous cause Canon Event." Yea this is getting repetitive

-So Time Stalker was there. Saw Ladybug was Marinette

-Yea, not gonna lie. All the clips showing the finale only remind me how much I HATE it.

-Gabriel f***s off to leave his son an orphan but gets to be with his wife. Thus getitng his wish forever and now Ladybug has to basically let it happen because F*** her in particular

-NATHALIE WITH A CROSSBOW!

-Nathalie telling the small crying teen who was willing to sacrifice HERSELF, that she didnt have to go that far. People often forget Marinette is a TEENAGER going through s***. Nathalie should have stopped Gabriel earlier

-That aside, all this special reinforced is that Gabriel is an idiot. He really could have won so much easier

-And thats how Time stalker found out

-Marinette figured out they were the same person, clever writing

-Super ghost and Super Spy dumb names

-I love Barkk. She is like "Dont be so sure"

-Man this special really retreads a lot of old ground a lot

-Miraculous Bug Noire

-So Bugnoire saying until they get the butterfly miraculous back. She cant tell him the truth.... Yea no. Thats dumb. I still find this very dumb.

-But the whole mini portal thing was funny to me. Why not just make a portal under them to pull them in.

-There we go.

-SHE HAS MORE OF THEM? Okay thats pretty clever

-"He or She?" if it wasnt present bunnyx Id assume she knew.

-The explanation on why Nathalie cant tell Adrien is also bulls**t.

-A wiseman once said, the "Truth hurts but once, but a Lie will ache forever" Marinette is basically setting up for worse

-I will say, the Choreography in these encounters is pretty cool.

-Okay the plan was clever

-Ladybug is apparently REALLY good at forging signatures. Are we sure Marinette isnt a future villainess?

-The Ladybug monologue with that funky beat was fun

-HEHEHE Lila Temper tantrum

-Poor Nooroo

-Well the plan worked.

-Bunnyx not being sad about having to stay as Bunnyx.

-Wait, so how come they can go ride dinosaurs if they cant mess with time?

-So bunnyx says "Hey its cool to lie as long as you own up to it eventually." Thats a fucking terrible lesson for kids to learn. I hope everyone reading this knows that

-Wait... is Chronobug dead?

-Nope, she is still alive

-Plagg is confused. But Tikki knows. Okay thats cute

-Marinette fixing the miraculous and upgrading them. Thats neat

-Marinette's logic for spreading it out makes sense at least. And the new hawkmoth doesnt know the heroes identities. Tomoe might though

-Okay, Plagg is cute.

-Ah yes, the Ladynoir

-There is that Hug. Thats that good stuff

-Chat noir's guilt and Ladybug's Guilt

-And then Lila's monologue at the end

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Now... How do I feel about this special?

I am torn.

On one hand, it did show that Marinette is feeling the effects of the secrets she is keeping. She is clearly feeling guilty about it. And the special does a LOT to justify what she is doing and never outright gives her a pass for it. I also LOVED that sweet succulent ANGST. Good stuff.

on the Other hand, some of the explanations are not good (like Adrien not finding out until after the butterfly is found? It makes no sense), and it hand waves a LOT of things. Not to mention, it does basically have Marinette, Kagami and Nathalie in this secret Cabal of secrets. Tomoe is basically not held accountable. And the whole Canon event thing and time travel basically means there is never any real danger. So it really takes the wind out of this.

But BUT, This special does at least imply that this secret will be the cause of tension, now the question is IF the show will actually deliver on this angst.

I dont hate this special as it does illuminate a LOT of what was missing from the Season 5 finale... that being said, I still hate the season 5 finale.

so its 6/10.

[mechs-headcanons]

HELLO I COME WITH SCHOOL/EDUCATION HEAFCANONS. And also some learning disability/mental illness headcanons

Jonny: started school when he was younger, and got the VERY basics down, like basic reading, writing and math,but due to him having (undiagnosed) dyslexia he had a lot of trouble with writing and reading, and was eventually pulled out of school early anyway bc his dad didnt think it was teaching him actually important skills

Marius: intermittently on school growing up,had to help out a lot at home and with hunting since his parent was chronically ill and couldn't do it anymore. Did manage to get into college and had a lot of promise, probably was in mechanical or biomechanical engineering, but wound up dropping out a couple weeks before starting their PhD courses bc his parent died and he turned all his focus to helping fight in the war. I think he may have had an eating disorder (at least disordered eating patterns) growing up bc of the scarcity of food. And anger issues that he repressed (theres something else going on in his brain but I haven't decided what yet. He is full of unresolved and undiagnosed issues that would make his life So much easier to know abt. currently leaning towards ocd)

Brian: before getting blasted off into space the first time, he went to a very prestigious school/college and was actively pursuing two PhDs, one in medicine and one in some sort of scientific field. He skipped two grades at some point, and I think he came off as a little arrogant so I don't think people liked him very much, but he kept his head down and did all his work so I don't think the teachers cared much. Then he disappesred like a month begore his graduation, anf on the planet with the priest he didnt continue svhool amd just immediately got to doctoring. Autism and depression haver I think. As well as struggling with dissociation and derealization, wich got worse after being mechanized.

Raphaella: Actually has a PhD and was researching cures for fatal sicknesses that hadn't been studied as much at the college she graduated from, before going off the deep end and trying to figure out how to bring people back to life. Insomnia haver.

Nastya: had the Best schooling in her castle, but was homeschooled and isolated from her peers, and compared to her brothers education it was clear that they got to learn and do A Lot more than her. Had to teach herself a lot of things because even though she was the last of her siblings left still at home, her parents never spent much time with her and often kind of brushed her off. Another autistic girlie with the added sprinkle of depression.

Ashes: went to school for maybe a year or two before getting tossed between institutions and orphan houses, Mickey and the sevens taught them everything they needed to know like math and reading, mostly so the could do things like cheat and all that. Not the most thorough education, but it was something

Ivy: never really went to schools, but practically Lived in the massive libraries of her home planet, and the librarians taught her all sorts of things, anything they could when she asked. She had am insatiable curiosity that nothing could ever satisfy. Shes great at reading, but math (pre-mechanization, and even a bit after) was always a bit of a weak spot for her. I saw someone once mention they headcanoned her as dyspraxic and thats so real that its joined my arsenal of headcanons. I also think she has carpal tunnel and (canon) she has memory issues. I think shes got low empathy too. Audhd Queen

Toy Soldier: the widow didn't exactly teach it to read and write, but it did learn through observation when she read to it her husbands favorite books or wrote down grocery lists for it to go out and buy. Most of what the widow taught it was ettiquette and information on how gentlemanly soldiers should act, everything else it had to learn on its own because she expected it to already know these things. Can't do math beyond basic addition and subtraction (and like, the Very basics, adding and subtracting from anything higher than thirty it has no idea wjat to do) because of this. I would also like to raise dyspraxic ts. And I think its got some sort of anxiety disorder that it doesnt believe it has, because it would have to be a person to have one of those

Gunpowder Tim: theres just. Something going on in xyr brain that I can't even fathom. Fae have so many undiagnosed issues and refuses to address any of them except the PTSD. Was in school and finished high school, but was drafted when they were eighteen/nineteen and couldn't go to college. ADHD and seasonal affective disorder/seasonal depression haver. Dyscalculic too I think. I don't think he ever did the Best in school, but they did Try a little bit. She had other things going on. Totally unrelated but she absolutely has a fear of needles

Aurora: I don't think she ever really went to school? I think everything she learned was from her first moon mom, carmilla, and the mechs. Obviously the cyberians never really Taught her anything. Just forced her through a body horror novel. So she knows a decent bit abt science and reading and what the mechs are all interested in, but not much else

I think they've all got a variety of mental illnesses and things going on but I need to like. Actually iron out some of my ideas for them

-✨ who has too much time on their hands and is thinking abt the blorbos

all of this is so yes,,,, dyspraxic ts,,.

[year2000electronics]

I was thinking about this for a little bit but what would happen if Reverse Mabel (especially post-weirdmageddon) meets Anti-Mabel.

Seeing some call Reverse Mabel "evil" I feel this would be a very intresting interaction, Reverse Mabel may see her as someone she could of easily become.

ahh, the "anti" dimension. i ruminated on the concept a LOT back when lost legends first released! i think theres an amateurish fic i wrote somewhere in my files of anti-mabel getting basically-adopted by a one of us au ford BUT I CANT FIND IT.

excuse the opportunity im taking to rant about the idea of anti mabel as a whole lol, but... [continued under cut!]

her dimension is a little confusing to think about sometimes, because the story she comes from, don't dimension it, i think a lot of us can widely agree was almost too much of a "pivot" in a direction we didnt really need to go? it's focusing on addressing mabel's "selfishness", especially in the wake of that flood of mabel hate that started picking up steam, but i feel like the version of mabel that exists in don't dimension it is just... not very true or accurate to the actual character. it feels like a very extended "sorry we had mabel make a rash decision in the heat of the moment that the characters forgave her for because they understand and love her. we will now proceed to have a dimension of all mabels where theyre portrayed as so self-absorbed that theyre all stuck on that dimension with no hope of returning home." excuse my dramatic wording but i swear to god that's what it feels like! and that's what it READS like!

mabel got "caught up in her own mabelness"? she gets distracted with crafts and cats like a SQUIRREL?? the idea of her neglecting those around her being put directly next to her going "i caused an entire apocalypse just to get one more day of summer?" SHE WAS GOING TO LOSE TOUCH WITH HER BROTHER. SHE WAS GETTING LIED TO AND TRICKED BY A GUY WHO HAS LITERALLY BEEN TRYING TO START THE APOCALYPSE FOR BILLIONS OF YEARS NOW. its really ridiculous and it doesnt play well at ALL. this kind of thing really shows to me how trying to please bad-faith critics will literally only make the end product worse.

"but what does that have to do with anti mabel though?" well, anti-mabel's "evil" kinda gets affected by the moral of this story, don't you think? if they arent getting mabel right, then what is this ultimate "anti-mabel" really going to be? not really a reflection of any mabel i know. that's for sure.

but that aside, looking at everything that we know about anti-mabel, her dimension is kinda... played off as a joke? she feels a lot more like a joke character to me more than anything at this point lol

not that i really needed that much development from a one-off antagonist from a silly gravity falls comic but like. how is anti-mabel literally SUPERVILLAIN-TIER EVIL? what? where is she getting the resources for this?? and then you have the rest of her family who are all just like, chill? and its like WHAT IS EVEN GOING ON ANYMORE.

anyways. back to trying to answer the question i was literally asked. i think post-weirdmageddon mabel would see anti-mabel in a different light, thats for sure. anti-mabel's family is nothing like her! maybe she's just lonely. rev mabel knows you can't just get away with doing evil stuff, at least she's learning that, but i think some part of her would sympathize with her deep down