#and of course dazai still cheats this changes nothing

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tiny cuddling skk for the soul

Dazai's clingy/tactile nature set free, and Chuuya who's still learning how to accept and reciprocate

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arthur’s sequel - side story 1

No translation notes, other than this is in Arthur’s POV. I’m gonna try and do all his side stories :3 enjoy and be sure to read chapter 2!

Women and mysteries are both like exciting puzzles to solve. That’s my philosophy. But… Perhaps it’s a good thing to let you solve the mystery once in awhile.

Arthur: I’m hitting the town. MC, if you get lonely you can stay in my room.

MC: Hey, I’m not a child. I’m going out myself. See you later, Arthur.

Arthur: So cruel!

Just imagining MC waiting in my room, longing for me makes me happy. I’ll hide my secret plans and kiss her forehead. She waved rather cutely and saw me off as I headed to the city.

I got out of the carriage and stretched, stiff from sitting so long. I’ve been frequenting town for errands a lot lately, but I’ve kept it totally private.

(Well, I told Caroline I’d be picking it up today.)

Nothing wrong with finding a new restaurant or a nice view for a special date. As I was thinking about MC and feeling quite excited, another carriage stopped nearby.

(Hm? It’s still daytime but that carriage’s curtains are closed. The passengers aren’t getting off easily either. Is a high-ranking nobleman on board…? Perhaps it’s my nature as a mystery author, but I can’t get this out of my head.)

I picked myself up and began walking around town. For over ten minutes, I felt a gaze piercing my back and shadows coming and going out of the corner of my eye, and my sense of suspicion arose.

(...I’m being followed, aren’t I? But this person doesn’t seem to be a professional who hides himself. So…)

To not get the other person’s attention, I pretended to be window shopping in the store nearby.

Just as I thought. I could see my pursuer in the reflection in the glass.

…Aha. It’s MC, Isaac, and Dazai. I see. They must’ve been in the carriage from before so I wouldn’t see them, and are following me from a distance.

(From what I can tell, MC thinks Isaac was coerced by Dazai into getting involved. My concern is why are they following me? If Dazai’s involved, it could be a silly prank. But… I spun my head and reflected, and came to one possibility.)

Are they suspecting me of cheating? I’ve been hiding something from MC, and I’ve been around the red light district. Maybe someone saw me and alerted her.

…I think my silence had the opposite effect. I need to be sneaky about this, but I don’t want to worry MC.

I thought I should go up to them right then and explain, but…

No, MC took action on her own and didn’t question me. Perhaps it’s better to let her follow me and reach her own conclusions than convince her verbally. Through the glass, she was staring at me. MC will surely see the truth with her own eyes. Hmm… I wonder if I can pick up on her tricks as my assistant.

I pretended to be a rabbit unaware of the surrounding wolves. First stop was the jewelry shop, with MC and the others hot on my trail. I picked up the small box I’d ordered and stowed it away in the inner pocket of my jacket. At an angle MC and the others couldn’t see, of course.

(Today’s critical mission is complete!)

Caroline: Arthur, are you sure that wrapping is okay? You can add flowers and ribbons, you know. It just seems a bit plain.

Valerie: She’s right. If you want to give a gift like that, the presentation should be top notch! You’re going on a date, aren’t you? If you don’t mind, I can make MC’s dress and your suit!

Caroline at the jewelry store and Valerie at the boutique. They give such good advice. But we can’t talk now, MC is going to hear it. “That” is the only thing she can’t find out about today.

Arthur: Alright, I’ll mull it over. But I have some business to attend to today, so I’ll talk to you next time. And all this is a secret from MC, okay?

Then, I found MC and the others in the back alley and went around behind. Then Theo joined the three of them, and…

Theodorus: Well I’m not sure. Arthur is an author who’s always in heat. Humans can’t change their nature that quickly. Guess I’ll just have to force him to drink herbal tea until he vomits.

Arthur: Hey now, Theo. Don’t say things to upset MC.

MC and Isaac: Arthur??!!

I took advantage of Theo’s bad words to reveal I’d known they were following me. “Leave the rest to them,” said Dazai and Theo with a smirk. Isaac left, annoyed by Dazai.

Arthur: Dazai, Isaac, and even Theo. They really don’t trust me, do they?

MC: Arthur, I…

I sealed her lips with my finger. I bet she’ll say something like “It’s not that I didn’t trust you,” right? And then you’re going to apologize after that.

Arthur: No more on that. Now what conclusions have you drawn following me? Let me hear your reasoning, great detective.

Things like where I’ve been, what I’ve been doing… I can explain away all rumors of cheating. Look straight at me and explain your reasoning.

With the true explanation in my pocket, I looked MC right in the eyes, as if handing her an invitation to a challenge.

All I have is love in my heart for MC, and I know she’ll recognize it.

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hi rachel, i love ur work. i was wondering if u could pls write an angst to fluff scenario for ada dazai w a fem s/o. it’s always been a huge fear of mine to get cheated on because my parents never had the best relationship. i was wondering if u could write something about the reader talking w dazai about it and him initially thinking she doesn’t doesn’t trust him because of his past, but it actually being due to hers? sweet ending? tysm and i hope u have a good week !! much love

Dazai Osamu

➥ slight angst to fluff

➥ dazai x reader

➥ word count: 1.7k

➥ a/n: i’m sorry this took a long while, hopefully you’re still here, & i’m sorry to hear about that! my parents don’t have the best relationship either so i hope you’re doing okay 🤍

Your masks & mine

Insecurity kills all that is beautiful.

In this moment, you’ve never felt it to be more true. In this moment, as you look at the man you love, getting googly-eyes from the bartender. In this moment, you feel the fear, the anger, the upset, all creeping up on you. In this moment, even as the man you love has no one in his eyes but you.

It isn’t fair. This isn’t fair to him.

You try to talk yourself into concentrating on the conversation at hand. It’s something about Kunikida forcing Dazai to do things he didn’t feel like again. But even as you try your best, his voice sounds muffled at best. You continue to sip on your wine, your own thoughts eating you up.

Random memories flash across your mind.

That time when Dazai first brought you into the office and introduced you as his girlfriend. The look of shock on everyone’s faces you did not miss. They recovered quickly, but it still worried you.

That time when you were helping him with some paperwork, when he left to go to the restroom and only you and Atsushi were there. The weretiger had asked how you were doing, being with someone as suicidal as he. That wasn’t your concern though, because you already knew how Dazai felt about life and death. No. What concerned you was when Atsushi had so casually remarked on how astonishing it was that Dazai would even find a girlfriend, given his womanising nature.

A bandaged hand waves in front of your face.

Dazai asks if you’re alright, and what other answer is there than “I’m fine”? So you say it anyway, even if it’s an obvious lie.

And there it is again — Dazai believing you. Going back to the previous conversation. Not even so much as an “are you sure?” You know what he’s like — Kunikida and the others have always given his mind praise, even if his work attitude seems to be a total miss. They always mention how he’s able to see through people and their lies, how he’s always one step ahead of everyone else.

Then why? Why, if he truly was able to see through you — and you’re sure he can — why does he leave you be? Does he not care? Did he already know somehow and doesn’t bother to say a thing?

Images of your parents flash in your mind. The fake smiles, the happy charades, the “joyous” moments you thought you would all be able to recreate. You remember your mother smiling through the nights your father didn’t come back. You remember how tirelessly she worked for you, to support you. You remember her coming back after work, all despondent, but putting on an act the moment you came out of your room. But you knew, of course, that she was putting on a mask.

A mask — just like your father did.

When he came back smelling like women’s perfume, and your mother didn’t even question him. When he rarely came back at all sometimes, and she greeted him all the same. When he got angry and told her she didn’t even look like a woman to him anymore. But the moment you came out? There they were again — the masks. Your parents would hug each other and assure you everything was alright, giving each other pecks on the cheeks.

And just like your mother, you ignored the problem. Because you were afraid. Afraid of what might happen if it’s confronted.

But everyone breaks. And so did your family.

The masks never helped — they were but a hindrance. The masks they wore made them unhappy for years, unhappy ever since you were a kid. Those masks, those cursed masks, delayed their happiness.

A mask — just like Dazai always wears.

That thick comedic mask of his. Is there anything else he hides? He’s much more intelligent than you are; even if there is, you certainly wouldn’t be able to tell.

No, no, you convince yourself. He’s not anything like your father, he’s not wishy-washy, especially not when it comes to relationships. If he doesn’t like you, he won’t even bother. You’d be able to tell. So why? Why is the fear still here?

“Hey, what’s wrong?” Dazai’s voice snaps you out of your reverie. A worried expression is plastered on his face, and only then do you realise you’ve started tearing up. Your mind tries to think up excuses to mask your insecurities — and then you realise it’s you. You’re the one with a mask on this entire time. You’re the one who’s afraid to voice out your feelings. You’re the one not being fair by not being truthful with the man you love.

And you find this laughable. If you truly love him, why are you so afraid?

In a moment of panic, you run out the bar doors, never looking back. Not even when you hear his footsteps hurriedly chase after you, not even when you start to get drenched in the downpour, not even when you hear him yell out for you. You just know you hate yourself in this moment, and that you definitely don’t deserve someone like him. He’s always tried his best to be open with you about everything — his thoughts, his attempts. But you? You hide behind your walls, and then you even try to blame him for not attempting to break them down, when in reality, he’s just trying to give you space in case you feel uncomfortable. You know that. Why do you shield yourself so?

Dazai isn’t the despicable one here, so is it you?

You shut people away, then blame them for not coming close. You yell at the voices in your head to stop, but you’re the one making them. You blame yourself for everything, yet you still do nothing to change it. You —

An embrace from behind steals all the strength from your knees and you buckle to the ground, your wails — and your thoughts — being drowned out by the sound of the cars driving past. You choke out an apology to Dazai for being like this, and your heart aches when you realise he’s not even mad. The tone in his voice is just that of concern; his embrace nothing but warm and comforting. And as you force yourself to turn back and look into his hazelnut eyes, all you see is love.

“Let me take you back, okay?” Dazai tells you, his brown hair sticking to his face in this rain, his smile nothing but genuine as he looks down and waits for you to answer. In that moment, you know he’d do anything for you. Even if it is something this trivial, like squatting in this pouring rain and listening to you rant — he’d do it.

And as you nod, his smile gets a little wider and he presses his lips on your forehead.

“My precious belladonna.”

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You realise then, that your biggest insecurity is that Dazai would view you how you viewed yourself.

Your parents didn’t have the greatest relationship, and you blame yourself for it. And god knows why. But it makes you feel like you ruin relationships, that it’s because of you that they put on those masks in the first place. If you weren’t there, maybe they could’ve been happier sooner. But who can tell? Because what’s happened happened. And you still blame yourself.

But your fears prove redundant, because Dazai doesn’t feel the least bit repulsed that you are feeling insecure over the smallest (in your own words) things.

You spill the beans as soon as you’re both changed out into more comfortable, dry clothes. The heavy downpour caused a power outage, but neither of you cared. In the spill of the moonlight, Dazai holds you in his arms as he listens to you, in a way to shield you from how concerned he looks as he does. He did guess it has to do with your family, but never did he consider that you blame yourself this much.

He regrets not pursuing the matter, not asking you about it. He had assumed you needed time alone to get over it, that maybe it’s something personal you wanted to handle yourself. And so he tries his best to really listen to you tonight.

Dazai doesn’t understand, no matter how hard he tries. He doesn’t understand how it feels like to miss a happy family. His life has been enshrouded in darkness since he can remember. At least, until he joined the agency, where the light started peeking into his abyss. And it got even stronger the moment he met you.

There is one thing he understands, though.

When you say you ruin everything you touch. Every relationship, you ruin it. Even if you don’t mean to. And you lose people because you just aren’t enough. It reminds Dazai of someone who was once dear to him, but he shrugs the feeling away. Now, in this moment, he needs to be there for you, to be strong for you. And he smiles thinking of the reason — because he loves you.

This mask, the one he wears this time, the strong front he puts on — this one's for you.

“My lovely belladonna,” he whispers in your ear once you’re finished. You look up at him once more, and it’s like there’s even more love in his brown orbs. “I promise you, I will never do anything like that to you. I will always be honest with you, because I can’t imagine being with anyone else.”

It’s true, because you’re different from other people. Not that Dazai is going to pour his feelings out and explain it to you, because it doesn’t come naturally to him, but a fire is burning within him; a strong desire to make sure you know you’re loved, and that he’d always try to make you happy.

Your masks have finally come off, and Dazai can see the relief in your eyes as they do. He presses his forehead against yours, and gazes at you, praying that you can feel his sincerity in his words.

“I’m sure your parents never blamed you for anything, and that you’re actually the light of their life, the one regret they never had, because I feel the same,” he assures you, his voice low and steady. “I love you, and I will put everything I have into never letting you down, for the rest of my life.”

“The rest of your life?”

You can hardly believe it. Dazai hardly makes promises about anything, let alone anything to do with the future. And yet here he is, putting his all into making sure you wouldn’t feel like this anymore.

“The rest of my life.”

And he does.

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[ERS] Please Don’t Expose My Heart ～ Isaac

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While busy with his research, Isaac who suddenly became able to read his girlfriend’s mind was trying to give her a perfect date all according to the voice he heard from her heart. But a certain trouble arises…��? 

An earnest confession connects their hearts―

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Event Prologue | Route Preview

[This is an unofficial work based on fan-translation. Copyright belongs to Cybird.]

Warning: Spoilers Underneath.

Route Summary:

Common Route

On a day during autumn, MC brought some food to Isaac’s room as during the past few days, Isaac have been so concentrated on his study.

MC: (Recently we hardly had time to spend with each other, with just the two of us, and I’m kinda… starting to feel lonely…)

Suddenly, while MC was thinking to herself, Isaac looked up and asked if MC was talking to him. MC thought how Isaac really didn’t hear her when she brought him the food so she told him to eat properly and take care of himself too. MC is still dejected, but she decides to endure it until Isaac finishes with his work and is about to leave the room when Isaac calls out to her. 

Isaac: ——Wait a sec!

MC: Hmm? What’s the matter?

Isaac: Ah. Uh…. What’s your plans for tomorrow?

MC: Tomorrow? Nothing special but…

Isaac: Then.. will you go out with me?

MC: Eh—–

MC: Of course, sure! But Isaac, don’t you still have work to do?

Isaac told her it’s fine since a change of pace is also necessary when working, to which MC internally cheers up at the thought of a date and starts looking forward to it. Isaac is shocked again, but smiles and gives MC a quick kiss. 

—–

After MC went back to her room, Isaac was having a big brain moment alone.

Isaac: ——! Just now… it couldn’t be

Isaac: (Did I just hear her mind’s voice…..?)

Having realized this, he decides that he needs to test this out and see if he can read the thoughts of everyone in the mansion, or if it’s just with MC. He storms out into the hallway, making the two people walking down the hallway jump with how loud his door slams when he opens it. 

Arthur: Uwaa.. What’s wrong Newt? Did you come to a dead end in your study you decided to slam the door?

Dazai: How lively Isaac-kun. …..Oh? Your face is just like that of a fresh apple. Did something happen?

Despite staring at their face and trying hard to concentrate on the voice in their heart, Isaac couldn’t hear anything. He decided to try asking the duo if they were thinking anything just now in which what he got as their reply all had to do with how they’ve been thinking of how MC looks so cute and such.

Isaac: Wha—–!

Dazai: Ahaha. Just kidding.

Isaac: (Does this mean… I can’t read these people’s minds?)

Arthur: Anyway, why did you asked that all of a sudden?

Isaac: That is………

And thus Isaac returned to his room with the chaos duo and gave them a rundown of what happened with MC. Dazai asked him how he suddenly obtained such power. Isaac said he himself isn’t sure but he deduced that it was probably from earlier when he stumbled across a certain old book with strange writings in Leonardo’s messy room when he went to borrow some textbooks. Leonardo said apparently if one touches the book and wishes, their wish will be granted and told Isaac to try it out.

Arthur: ……Then Newt, you “wanted to peek into MC’s mind” that was what you wished for? Uwaaa… how lewd—

Isaac: No—–! Not that!!!!

Isaac: It’s just that… we hardly get to spend time together recently so I… was just wondering what she’s thinking of around now…

Isaac wanted to find a way to return to his normal state as soon as possible but Arthur interjected that doing that so soon is such a waste. After all, wasn’t it this power that gave him the chance to go out of MC? Why not have fun with it a bit first? Isaac still felt wrong to glance into MC’s mind without her permission but Dazai agreed with Arthur and told Isaac to make use of the power since…

Dazai: But Isaac-kun, isn’t your girlfriend lonely? Keep it that way and the skirt-chasing-Arthur might steal her away.

Arthur: Hey. could you stop it with the Arthur-have-no-chastity talk? I’m not gonna lay my hands on the girlfriend of someone I know.

Isaac: (Well certainly…. if it wasn’t for this power MC would end up having to continue enduring her loneliness without me noticing at all.)

If he can make MC smile like when he made the date promise with her then… this power might not be that bad after all.

Isaac: ……If this still continues even when tomorrow comes, then I’ll consider it. …making use of this power that is.

Arthur and Dazai cheered for Isaac and told him they’ll be visiting his room tomorrow’s night too as to hear about how it all turned out in which Isaac responded that they don’t have to come.

—–

Next morning, Isaac was waiting for MC at the entrance and they went out once she’s ready. Holding MC’s hand, Isaac took her to a cafe that she was interested in since a while earlier. MC commented how she always thought to herself about how she wanted to come to this cafe but never mentioned it before so wondered how Isaac knew. Isaac told her he’s “uhh… interested in it too….”

During the whole time Isaac’s face was bright red as he’s aware of all these thoughts MC are having for him. That was when a young man at a nearby table was telling his girlfriend to open her mouth and he fed her the dessert, after which the couple smiled happily. Seeing the scene unfolds before her eyes, MC wanted to have Isaac do the same with her but looking back at Isaac who turned very quiet, she doubt that is going to happen and continue to cut the pancake with the knife in her hand.

MC: I’m going to eat it now before it cools ‘kay?

Isaac: …….—Hey.

MC looked up from the pancake.

Isaac: I’ll feed you once.

MC: —-Eh?

Isaac picked up a piece of pancake with his fork and MC asked if it’s really okay for her to eat it this way. Isaac told her it is and since she was the one who said she wanted to eat it don’t become embarrassed about it—

MC: Eh? I… said it……?

Isaac: It’s nothing. Here, a-hh

After the cafe date, Isaac and MC went around the city together and whenever MC thought of something or was interested in something, Isaac would always suggest or give it to her right away. As the sunset, MC began recapping the event of the whole day as she waited for Isaac. MC thought how today during the whole day, Isaac appeared as if he was able to completely read everything on her mind. 

But at that moment, MC overheard the conversation of the girls passing by about how their lover has been acting strange to suddenly escort them around and buy them presents but turned out it was to hide the fact that he was cheating on her. The girl warned her friend to be careful and MC thinking back to how Isaac acted today noticed a resemblance in their action especially the escorting and buying presents. While MC try to reaffirm herself that Isaac won’t cheat on her, she felt a tap on her shoulder and turned around to see Isaac.

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That night MC was going to deliver dinner to Isaac in his room but overheard the conversation inside from the door.

Arthur: So? How was the date today?

Isaac: Yeah…… I think she was happier than she ever was before

Dazai: Oh? An accomplishment~

MC: (These voices… Arthur and Dazai?)

MC: (They’re… talking about the date today, aren’t they?)

Isaac: I was trying so hard to not let MC catch onto my restlessness. It was quite tiring I’d say.

Isaac: …..I really can’t after all. At this rate, everything is going to go awry.

MC: (Eh….? What are they talking about? “Find out”? “Go awry”…….?)

MC recalled the conversation about the cheating boyfriend she overheard earlier. She tried to tell herself Isaac won’t cheat on her, but the fact that Isaac is hiding something from her is an undeniable truth.

MC: (Since when did Isaac began thinking that things between us is going awry?)

MC: (Did Isaac…. actually not have fun today….?)

Afraid to knock on the door, she decided to go back the way she came down the corridor. She passed the meal to Sebastian and told him to give it to Isaac in her stead as she went to do some cleaning. Lost in her thoughts, she accidentally knocked over the boxes on the shelf and it came crashing down on her. MC managed her block away the boxes and was unharmed from it ….but her clothes was caught between the floor and the boxes which are much too heavy for her to move.

MC: Someone… anyone… please help me…

But was back in their own room and no one could hear her from where she was.

MC: (What should I do…. No one is coming)

MC: (Someone…. Isaac——!)

Right at that moment, the door opened and footsteps can be heard.

Isaac: ——MC!

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Sweet End:

Coming into touch with your genuine thoughts, the temperature of his heart also changes….

“For me, no matter when, I want to feel your heart.”

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Isaac: ——MC! Wait for me, I’ll help you right away!

Isaac: You’re not injured right? Are you hurting anywhere?

MC: No… I’m fine.

Isaac: Good… But you, what were you doing?!

After telling him that she was trying to clean and accidentally hit the boxes so it fell, Isaac told her it’s good that she is safe this time but she really should take care of herself and be careful.

Isaac: MC, if anything happens to you I….

MC: (Isaac really was truly worried about me….)

Isaac hugged MC tight in his arms and MC felt that the usual Isaac have returned.

MC: (He really… wasn’t trying to cheat on me.)

Recalling the day once more, MC reaffirm to herself, once again, that Isaac isn’t cheating. Since Isaac can still read her mind, he picks up on her thoughts, and is shocked that MC would think such a thing. He apologizes, saying that it was his fault she felt such unease, and the truth was that he wanted to try something new to make her happy. MC confirmed that she thought he was acting unlike himself the entire day, and that was what caused her to get worried. 

Isaac gripped MC’s hand tight.

Isaac: Hey, MC… from now on I might not notice your feelings, and there might be a day when my efforts are misdirected... 

Isaac: When that happens, tell me how you feel. Even if you’re angry I’ll bear with it and won’t mind.

Isaac: No matter when, I… want to touch your heart.

—–

Next morning… Isaac is glad he can't hear MC thoughts anymore. But turns out even though he can’t hear her thoughts, their thoughts seemed to merge, as both of them called out to the other and asked to spend tomorrow together again. 

Isaac was the one who spoke up first and MC told him she was thinking the same thing just now.

Isaac: I look forward to your sandwiches.

MC: Eh------... How did you know I'm going to make sandwiches?

Isaac told her it's because he knows her and no one else other than her spend time with him in such a way.

MC thought to herself how she know as well, that although Isaac is shy, he tries hard to communicate his feelings.

And thus… the the two looked forward to their tomorrow's promise.

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Premium End

The words that overflow from his lips are those affection for you, hidden deep within his heart….

“If I keep hearing you make such sounds, I want to thoroughly claim you for myself...”

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Isaac immediately helps MC out, and after he confirms that she wasn’t injured, he pulls her into a tight hug. MC realizes then that he was truly worried for her, and now that he’s acting more like himself again, unlike during their date, her doubts over him cheating on her vanished. However, she’s still confused as to how he found her, and she asks how he knew she was in trouble even though there was no way he could have possibly heard her calling for help. Isaac slowly lets her go and looks her in the eye.

Isaac: …It’s because it wasn’t your actual voice that I heard, but rather your thoughts.

Isaac: I'm truly sorry, but… For quite some time now, I’ve been able to listen to your heart.

MC’s confused, and they head back to his room so Isaac could elaborate on what’s been going on. There, he explains that whenever MC’s nearby, he’s able to hear what she’s thinking. MC is skeptical at first, but she sees Isaac being completely serious about it and decides to trust him. She then asks when it had started, and he tells her it was around the time he asked her out on a date.

Looking back, MC realizes that she had been thinking about how much she missed spending time with Isaac, and Isaac guiltily admits to her that it weren’t for the ability to read her mind, he wouldn’t have noticed she was lonely.

Isaac: What people want, or what people want to do, I’m hardly the kind of person who can notice those things, don’t you agree?

Isaac: That’s why with this ability, I hoped I would be able to take care of you better.

Isaac: But as I thought, looking into other people’s hearts is in bad taste. I was wrong.

As Isaac apologizes, MC begins to feel warm and fuzzy inside, seeing how much he cared for her. Isaac asks her if she’s mad at him for intruding on her thoughts, and she tells him that although she should be mad, she wasn’t because Isaac had decided to be honest with her and explain everything. She then pulls him into a hug, thinking to herself that even though Isaac could be clumsy in how he expresses his feelings, she really loves him.

Isaac replies out loud that he loves her too, but admits that being able to hear her thoughts isn’t good for his heart, and he swears that he’ll never cheat on her. MC gets flustered and apologizes as well for assuming something ridiculous, but then Isaac apologizes again for making her worry, and they start laughing together after the ridiculous back and forth. In her mind, MC admits that being with Isaac wasn’t always smooth sailing, but she knew that together, they could get through anything.

After their laughter died down, Isaac places a hand on MC’s cheek and asks her why her heart was so excited and giddy during their date, and she tells him she couldn’t help it since she loves him so much. Isaac then gently touches her lip with his thumb, saying that she shouldn’t say such cute things so easily, before asking if he could kiss her. MC thinks to herself that there was no need for him to ask, and hearing her thoughts, Isaac presses his lips against hers.

Their kisses deepen, and as MC starts to get hot and bothered, she begins thinking of how good Isaac makes her feel and of how much she loves him. Isaac then pulls away, telling her that if she kept saying things like that, he wouldn’t be able to keep himself from taking both her heart and her body.

Isaac: Hey… Let me touch you more. Let me show you my own feelings as well.

Note: This is where the paid Epilogue starts.

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Epilogue Preview

Heart and body both laid bare, unfathomable depths of love overflow—... 

(...If he keeps looking at me like that, I’ll get embarrassed.)

Isaac: ...Have you always been thinking such a thing? It’s okay. You’re always beautiful, even when we do things like this. 

While looking at me with nothing but affection, his hand attacks me at my weakest spots. 

MC: Ah... w— wait... 

Isaac: Your heart is telling me to give you more. See, it feel good, doesn’t it...? 

Isaac: I can’t stand it anymore. Your voice... let me hear even more of it. 

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Event Info Post | Jean Route | Shakespeare Route

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Roleplay Rules

Okay, so here’s my Rp rules.

Basic Rules:

-SEMI SELECTIVE AND MUTUALS ONLY.  I’m really not that selective, however. Just please, if you want to Rp with me, follow me and I’ll check you out!! I’m mutuals only for my sake. If someone follows me first, they can only interact with my muse(s) if I follow them back (a little harsh, sorry..!!). However, if I follow someone first and they aren’t mutuals only, then this rule isn’t that important so don’t worry too much. THIS IS A SIDE BLOG. FOLLOW BACKS COME FROM TAINTED-FLCWER.

-OCS, AUS, AND ALL OTHER CHARACTERS WELCOME. I don’t care who your muse is. I’m all for OCs, crossovers, AUs, anything!! Just know that if I’m unaware of the fandom, you’ll have to bear with my ignorant ass lol

-NO ONE-LINERS. These just make me feel like you don’t care about the thread. I’m okay if it’s on occasion, but not every single time. Small paragraphs are 100% okay with me, and I will on occasion write small responses when I don’t have much room for a reblog. Thank you. And another thing that goes with that is to try to keep it interesting. I’ll put in the same amount of effort you put in. And if you put practically nothing in, I can’t promise that I won’t just end it only a few responses in. And of course, in a crack thread, one-liners are perfectly fine lol.

-NO GODMODDING. I cannot express this enough. It’s my biggest pet peeve. Just don’t, or I’ll end the Rp immediately.

-PLEASE USE CORRECT GRAMMAR. I’m a bit of a grammar freak, so seriously. At least try. However, If English isn’t your first language, I COMPLETELY understand. ^w^

-MULTIVERSE, MULTISHIP. If you know anything about the Tumblr rp community, it’s that a lot of people are multiship and multiverse. I am no exception. My boys would never cheat on someone—unless we talk about it beforehand cuz, aNGST??—and every thread is a different au for them. Simple enough. X3

 -REBLOGGING ASKS AND TRIMMING THREADS. To be honest? I’m pretty chill when it comes to this stuff, so I won’t be picky. However, many of my mutuals may indeed be strict, so if you can’t trim the thread or respond to an ask in another post, I’ll gladly do it for you so my other mutuals don’t get annoyed. 

Romance Rules:

 -NO SMUT. Sorry, but it grosses me out. I’m a biromantic asexual, the kind that just doesn’t like sex. I’m okay with saying it happened, but I don’t want to be around when it does. I’m just fine with heavy make out scenes, but please, fade to black after the clothes start to come off.

 -I LOVE TO WRITE ROMANCE THREADS. Just a little warning… I typically lose interest if there isn’t a romance. I’m a very hopeless romantic…. ^^; Just know that  my muse usually generates from fluff/feels/angst/whatever lol. I’d love a romance once our muses become acquainted. And of course, NO pedofilia, NO incest, NO rape, or ANYTHING nasty like that. That is horrible and disgusting, and I refuse to take part of it. I will not stand for it happening in any of my threads. This also means that I won’t do a romance ship with any Kyoukas, but I’d love a brother-sister relationship with them. However, I am extremely selective when it comes to Dazushi. I ship it with one person, and it will most likely stay that way.

 -THERE MUST BE CHEMISTRY. Okay, I really hate being so selective of my “mostly romance” rule, but I’m serious. There must be SOME chemistry. Now, I am completely okay with over time changing my characters slightly to fit the other person, for character changes are awesome. However, I’m not going to just entirely reconstruct my character. That also means you shouldn’t be too stubborn with your muses, if you want a ship. For instance, if you want to ship Osamu with one of your characters, you must know he is an evil man and just as untrusting. It will take time to get him to trust your muse, and he will hardly make it easy. And Atsushi is so oblivious to love that you may have to make it a bit obvious for my boi lol. 

 -PLEASE RESPECT MY MUSES’ SEXUALITIES. This isn’t as much of a problem on this blog as it is on my main Rp blog, but it still counts. Atsushi is panromantic and demisexual, and Dazai is a disaster bi. 

Rules and things about me:

 -I HAVE LOTS OF WRITING EXPERIENCE. I’ve been writing since I was maybe even seven years old, played games where I pretended to be a character irl since I was five, and have been actually roleplaying for approximately 6 years now. It’s kind of my passion, you know? 

 -WARNING, I WRITE GORE. I tend to go into detail about pain, suffering, death, and just very demented topics. That and I write heavy make out scenes (when the clothes start to come off is where I draw my line and fade to black). That’s just a warning. If you have a problem with that, you may not want to follow me… Plus, this is a Dazai rp blog, so the topic of suicide is heavy. Don’t follow me if you can’t take it.

 -IM NOT USED TO TAGGING THINGS. Gore, murder, and other dark and triggering things will most likely be tagged, but suicide and swearing will not. I swear far too much for me to remember to tag it, and you’re looking at an Osamu Dazai blog. His whole character was based off of suicide, as stated before. Also, I don’t post NSFW images or threads on this blog or any, so don’t worry about that, but I will tag asks and memes that are nsfw. I tag things like this (using death as an example): tw: death

  -RESPONDING TIME. I gotta warn you, I’m usually freakishly fast with my responses. If it’s been over 24 hours since I responded to a thread, I NO DOUBT lost the response lol. Just hit me up with a friendly pm! However, just because I respond quickly DOES NOT AT ALL mean you have to!! Take your time, I completely understand. ^w^

 -I’M ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.Honestly, I want to help! If something’s wrong and you want to tell me about it, I’m all ears. I hate being upset or depressed myself, so I like to try to make others feel better. It helps with my own sadness.

That’s all for right now..! Happy roleplaying~!!

like this post if you have read it and agree to it, please.

If you don’t agree to these rules and don’t want to follow me back, if I have already followed you, please just HARD block me. It’ll help keep my dash cleaner, as well as make sure in my forgetfulness I won’t follow you again. Don’t worry, I won’t be upset lol. Thank you so much for reading my rules!! 🖤🖤

[ikizais]

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 15 people

tagged by @tetsuro and @dazai-is-an-angel, thank you!!! ♡ *^^*

tagging: @haru-kaas, @tmakisamajiki, @h-ide, @aizawashoutta, @vanizai, @dominantecode, @kereudio, @silence-song, @cchibikko, @sapphire-miko, @shiorin-s, @erenyegar, @ayakouda, @1tobio, @usagiyamah and whoever wants to do this!! (only if you want to, ofc! feel free to ignore it, if you don’t feel like it / you already did it!) ♡♡♡

LAST

1. drink - tea

2. 📱 call -  my mum

3. text - my reactions to a wtf is this video a friend sent me lmao

4. song you listened to - “Horns ” by Bryce Fox

5. time you 😢 - last week during a movie lmao

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - no

7. 😘 someone and regretted it - nope

8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - yes...

10. been depressed - .......

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - i don’t like alcohol, and i’m not really interested in getting drunk to the point of throwing up

FAVORITE COLORS

12. purple

13. dark blue

14. dark red

15. pastel pink

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - yes!!

17. fallen out of 💛 - nope

18. 😂 until you 😢 - yes!

19. found out someone was talking about you - thankfully no

20. met someone who changed you - not really? but i met someone who made me a little happier

21. found out who your friends are - yes

22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - nope

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your fb friends list do you know irl - almost everyone! i rarely add people i don’t know irl on FB

24. do you have any pets - yes! i have a little poodle <3

25. do you want to change your middle name - i don’t have one lmao

26. what did you do for your last 🎂 - actually i stayed at home studying (i had an english exam on one of the following days)... but then i went to a japanese restaurant for dinner with some friends ♡

27. what time did you wake up today - 8.00 am

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - reading!

29. what is something you can’t wait for - BSD S3!!

30. what are you listening to right now - nothing atm

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - nope

32. something that gets on your nerves - hearing someone chewing loudly around me >.> i seriously get killer instincts

33. most visited website - tumblr, lately!

34. hair color - dark brown

35. long hair or short hair - long hair!

36. do you have a crush on someone - nope

37. what do you like about yourself - physically, my hair and my eyes...

38. want any piercings - yes! i’d like to get one someday, but i still need to decide where

39. blood type - B

40. nicknames - everyone just calls me vitto!

41. relationship status - single!

42. zodiac - sagittarius

43. pronouns - she/her

44. favorite 📺 show - bungou stray dogs? i rarely watch tv shows/series ^^’

45. tattoos - i’d like to get one someday

46. right handed or left - right

47. ever had surgery - nope

48. piercings - well, i have my ears pierced

49. sports - i’m not a sports person... however i tried a lot of different sports in the past! now i’m planning to start a pole dance course with a friend, but i’ll probably wait after uni classes and exams are over ^^’

50. vacation - my dream destination is Japan! right now i’d like to wander around Europe tho

51. trainers - white/pink/purple saucony! very comfortable

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - nothing

53. drinking - tea

54. i’m about to watch - nothing atm

55. waiting for - BSD S3 TRAILER!!!

56. want - to sleep

57. get married - not really interested rn

58. career - manga/books translator

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - hugs ♡

60. 👄 or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - taller (it’s pretty easy to be taller than me tho lmao)

62. older or younger - older or same age!

63. nice arms or stomach - neither lmao

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - a bit of both?

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - i usually try a sip of everything, but i generally don’t like them

68. lost glasses - luckily no. i’m very careful those rare times i take them off, and i never had accidents that made me lose them.

69. turned someone down - yes, more than once ;;

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s ❤️ - unfortunately yes, more than once (see #69)

72. had your 💔 - yeah

73. been arrested - no

74. 😢 when someone died - several times (who doesn’t when it’s someone you care about tho?)

75. fallen for a friend - yes!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - sometimes, on good days

77. miracles - yes, or better... coincidences

78. 💛 at first sight - yup

79. 🎅 - no

80. 😘 on a first date - it depends?

81. angels - maybe?

other

82. best friend’s name - Matteo

83. eye color - dark brown

84. favorite movie - i fell in love with “memoirs of a geisha” recently (i know the controversies about the book and the story behind it well tho...)

85. favorite actor - probably Tom Hiddleston

[leio13]

The Secret Garden

A Soukoku Fic

WARNINGS PURPOSEFULLY EXCLUDED! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! (I promise nothing sexual or too graphic)

Summary: Dazai and Chuuya meet for a third time. This time, Chuuya has a surprise prepared.

Marigolds

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“Dazai-sama,” Chuuya bounded out of the shade and towards Dazai. “Can we play that game again?”

“...uh, yeah, sure!” Dazai had not been expecting such enthusiasm from the redhead. A smile slipped onto his face. He liked this unexpected change. “Yeah, definitely!” He stared at Chuuya, still trying to take in all of the boy’s surprising energy. Chuuya’s hair shimmered like copper under the sun’s rays. “But we should apply the sunscreen first.”

“Yeah…” Chuuya sighed, reluctantly stepping back under the tree’s cover. He took the sunscreen from Dazai’s hand and started to apply it. He rubbed it in furiously and was done in minutes. “Alright! I’ll hide first! ...if that’s okay.”

“Sure!” Dazai closed his eyes. Where would Chuuya hide? He wasn’t nearly as familiar with the garden as Dazai was. Dazai would find him easily, so why was Chuuya so eager? Whatever the reason, it brought a grin to Dazai’s face. He had hopes for something good (even if those hopes didn’t make sense). Soon, thirty seconds were over, and Dazai had to give Chuuya some credit for being silent as he snuck around. He had no idea where to look.

First, Dazai decided to check the bushes. He searched each one thoroughly, starting with  the marigolds whose sunshine colors reminded him of Chuuya. He searched them a second time more thoroughly, but he couldn’t find Chuuya. That bright red hair, what Dazai assumed to be a giveaway, was nowhere to be seen. Next, he checked his bedroom. Peeking through the open window, he wondered if Chuuya decided to hide inside. That was cheating in Dazai’s opinion, and he was almost grateful he didn’t spot the redhead indoors. Of course, he was also a little miffed that he hadn’t found Chuuya yet. Where could he have gone?

There was only one place left that Chuuya could have been, but Dazai was doubtful. Still, it was worth trying, so Dazai reached for the nearest branch of the large tree. He climbed up hastily as he didn’t want to spend time climbing the tree for nothing even if the greater height might help him spot Chuuya amongst the flowers. When he made it to his usual stopping point, he surveyed the garden for small redheads. No such luck. He climbed higher and higher still until he spotted what could have been a dangling foot up above in the distance. “No way…” He whispered.

More eager than before, Dazai scurried up the tree. Sure enough, Chuuya was perched on one of the branches, clinging to the trunk for dear life. “Chuuya~!” Dazai sang.

Chuuya shrieked, almost falling off his branch, causing Dazai to snicker. “D-Don’t do that!”

“Sorry, sorry!” Dazai put a hand to his mouth to stifle his laughter. “I didn’t expect you to be here though.” Dazai examined Chuuya for a response. He noticed a red tinge in the other’s cheeks and eyes. Chuuya’s face glistened in the sunlight like a freshly mopped floor. “Have you been… crying?”

Chuuya’s cheeks brightened further following Dazai’s question. He stared out into the distance. “It’s so… beautiful…”

Dazai turned to meet the sight that had snatched Chuuya’s breath away. From up on their perches, he could see miles beyond the large manor, places he had never been, places he was longing to see. He could only imagine how Chuuya felt. Unlike Chuuya, Dazai would have a chance to see the world. He was promised that. Chuuya was promised nothing. One day, Dazai would be one of those little ants bustling in the streets. One day, Dazai would stroll through the doors of each of those little shops. One day, Dazai would leave those stores with his arms full of trivial things. One day, Dazai would dine on a small snack in one of the cafes. Chuuya would never do those things. It was no wonder he was crying.