#and so does the asm/assistant store manager/annoying boss

[deeisace]

No one has like recently, but it does do my head in whenever someone's like "you've been at the same job forever now, why don't you change it, why don't you become a supervisor"

Firstly like I know I'm safe here, nobody's transphobic or nothing (the manager sometimes calls me they, but that's just cs he's like,, old, lmao, and he's started giving me funny little cheer-up shoulder bumps whenever a very misgendering customer leaves lmao, he's sound), I could not guarantee that going into a brand new job with strangers

Also like you clearly don't understand how much becoming a supervisor would wreck my life completely like,, I have an agreement with the manager that I don't do more than 30 hours on the regular (like, if there's something happened and I have to do 34 one week, the second week I will definitely be doing 25 instead to make up for it) for a reason, it's because I would have so little left if I did - I already still now fall asleep on the bus home sometimes, but I remember doing 40 hour weeks and sleeping through my breaks, not eating because I'm too tired to stand at the microwave for 5 minutes and don't have the brainpower to use a fork anyway, sleeping in my work uniform and only showering on my days off, cs I truly truly did not have the energy to live, y'know?

There is nothing you could pay me, nothing that would convince me to go back to that. There is no benefit good enough that I'd agree to that again. And to on top of that, be the one in charge for the day, the one making decisions and having to cash up end of day? No.

I might not make a lot of money, but I can get by, and at least - even if I'm still very tired, and have bed days-off to recover from the week sometimes - I can still think, and sit in my living room, and not cry walking home cs I'm so unbelievably bone-tired with it.

I don't care if "that's what you're supposed to do" is "progress in the company". I don't want to. For so so many reasons. But I am allowed to like my little life how it is, thank you.

Alright I'm shutting up now. Some of this might not be worded nicely, sorry, I am. Tired.