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heavy-lobster · 2 months ago

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It's crazy how much confidence I gain the instant I put on a hoodie

#last week i was like if anyone on this campus looks at me wrong i will SHATTER into a MILLION PIECES!!#and today im like normal and functional #unfortunately i am also very hot #was hoping it would be a little cooler up north but i was TRICKED. its HOTTER #anyways if my favorite instructor isnt here today it is so over for me #lobster.txt

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the-worms-in-your-bones · 1 month ago

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Me: yeah I’m super burnt out, definitely in part because of my internship last summer which was super hard on my both physically and mentally and I really just need a bit of time to take a break and recover

My mom: of course I support you and think you should do what’s best, but also this summer you need to get a job, take summer classes, and find a therapist

#im not entirely sure she even realizes exactly what she’s saying but like the burnout will only get worse if I do what she wants me to do #this summer and I don’t think she actually understands what burnout entails in the first place #I’m also just afraid I am not built for this #like my internship was two days a week #I only worked Tuesday and Wednesday which by the normal standards of what a person works is not a lot #but I ended up being almost completely unable to function on Thursdays and more often than not if I had to do something on Friday I’d have #a meltdown #which is not great for many reasons #especially because that internship was in the field I’ve wanted to work in for as long as I can remember #and as much as I liked it I don’t think I’m actually capable of working a full time job #which makes it really hard to get any where in the fields I want to go into #anyway that’s my oversharing on the internet for today #j rambles

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c-infinity-83 · 5 months ago

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took our adhd meds AND chugged a coffee I'm normal. I'm functional and normal

#pk;m Fids🔬#waiting for it all to hit we're.#ANYWAYS!#'are you okay' i am oerfectly normal and functional and not at all disgusted with myself why do you ask?#we're goin to our grandparents' later today im not lookin forward to it. too loud. too fuckin loud.#im like bouncing between hyperactive Joy and Happiness and DISGUST WITH MYSELF eugh #i know exactly why. but that's #ANYWAYS!!#we're a mess today. Bill's in His own lil world rn and Flo's trying to keep Stan from panicking any more than he already is #n Stan's dissociating. Mischief n Inf are here but they're busy keeping that ASSHOLE away from us #n I just. MMMMMHMHMHMHHM. [REDACTED] [REDACTED] like it's SO HELL #LITERALLY ONE OF THE FEW THINGS THAT'S CONSTANTLY ON MY MINDDDDDDDD AUGH.#anyways. smiles. gonna be fine. it's fine!

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seilon · 9 days ago

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top surgery…………tomorrow…………

#what the fuckkkkkk #I’ve heard people say ‘practice sleeping on your back for like three weeks prior to surgery!!!’ and as much as I understand that #on the OTHER hand. should I not be savoring every moment of side and stomach sleep I have left #that being at this point probably a grand total of like. 12 hours.#I wish I got a few more things done before im unable to carry shit for like a month but. ah well #like I wanted to get my tv mounted properly so I can use it from my bed. but yeah that didn’t happen #I’m still anxious about the travel part but less because I think it’s too close for comfort time-wise and more because I’m worried my friend #will think it’s too close and she’ll back out last moment and I’ll have to go with my mom instead #that would be a pretty shitty thing to do at this point but idk you never know #the way I have things set up I SHOULD have between 2hrs 15min - 2hrs 50min to get there with the latter being way more likely #it’s a 1.5hr drive NOT including traffic. considering going into SF always has some amount of traffic and there’s construction around sac rn #I am taking into consideration the traffic. but I would be kind of appalled if a whole extra hour got tacked on because of traffic #I’m leaving town during the morning rush But usually people are going INTO sac for the rush not the other way around. and by the time I’m at #the bay bridge it should be past the sf morning rush or at least at the tail end of it #can you tell I’ve been overthinking this like crazy. I mean. you can’t blame me considering if I somehow can’t make it on time I risk losing #my appointment that took me over a Year to get and I’d have to reschedule probably months later #worst case scenario of course but yeah.#anyway. anyway I need to stop thinking about this it’s pointless right now #ghsgahhh how does it still not feel totally real??? I mean I guess cause nothing currently is different in my life?? like I’m just. going to #work like normal. same routine tonight as usual. etc. it’s like it’s all gonna kick in at once as soon as Friday morning hits #maybe it doesn’t feel real partly because if it did I’d be even more anxious and unable to function #fuckkkkk I don’t know dude this is so weird this isn’t how I expected to feel at all #it could be worse of course I’m not really complaining so much as expressing my confusion over it #I’m gonna have so much fucking trouble sleeping before all this fuckkjjjkk #kibumblabs #also I was told id probably get some calls this week from the hospital but I haven’t gotten anything at all so that’s #idk a little nervewracking but it just as well could be a good thing ie; I got all my forms and tests and shit done early so now all I have #to do is Wait basically #guess we’ll see if they call or message me later today

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larkwinged · 1 month ago

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if u guys couldnt tell im dovewingmaxxing today

#my brain chose today to be a good day to form more lore #im not complaining but like dude let me FUNCTION LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING TODAY 💔💔💔#I HAVE THINGS TO DO 🫩#⤷ yapping

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kittykatinabag · 3 months ago

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The good news: my blood draw today didn't make me dizzy or make me pass out once I got home like the one I did back in early 2022 did.

The bad news: I feel obligated to go to work tomorrow since I'm feeling about the same amount of tiredness as I usually do.

We'll see if it all hits like a truck when I wake up and don't have energy from food in my body.

#at least i took it fairly easy at work today since some maintenance guys were installing an automatic opening door on my main workspace #was a fair bit of hiding out in the stockroom so my asshole boss didnt question me when i wasnt doing anything #hopefully this blood test will lead to something new #i stg if it just comes up as 'low vitamin d' and 'borderline low vitamin b12' like my last one im gonna crash out #or demand a hormone test because its been like 7 years of these cycles of fatigue and not one doctor will get me a hormone test #i havent been pushing for it because its easier to get a blood test and the ssris are getting me to a noticable higher level of functioning #its still not at a level that an average person operates at though #at least my own personal observation of the average of all the people i know well enough to have a sense of their normal day to day #but i dont have a ton of disabled beyond adhd and mental health issues friends #only know a few with chronic pain and other long term problems but not well enough to know their daily routines #now that ive crested the hill that is 30 years old im looking more back at my 20s as a whole and starting to reflect and realize things #like the absolute decline of my ableness from out of highschool 18 year old me to present day me is kind of stunning #at least for a person who didnt have any big debilitating events during that time #other things too but im too tired at the moment to dive deeper right now #late night ramblings

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technicalknockout · 1 year ago

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which The character are you thinking of

take a guess (it's tko. it's literally always tko and im so unwell about that)

#why is this specific character from this specific show always rotating in my head like a gosh darn background tab #im fine i swear. im so normal. im so extremely normal #(looking at the thousands of tko screenshots in my gallery wondering why ok ko doesn't have any more frames with him in it)#if he were a real existing person i would probably be arrested by now for internet stalking or smth #im so nervous about starting isat too because i have like three? background tabs of Tiny Guys I Can't Get Out Of My Head and #and if siffrin ends up being the fourth which is very much a possibility considering how i already love them so much #then i will simply stop functioning. im scared #conclusion: tko.#the silly. the spikey little creature. so shaped. æuhgh. help #incoherent ramblings #extra incoherent today

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orcelito · 6 months ago

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Sometimes I get the urge to be like "Well, they can't live forever" when it comes to shitty situations with shitty people. But then I remember that A: shitty person dying might not be the result that someone wants, and B: it actually can take quite a while for people to die, in many cases

Idk I'm just so used to death being right around the corner that I'm like "Well maybe he'll die soon and that'll fix it" but he probably won't die that soon and it also might not fix it. Or be wanted.

Idk it's such a specific mentality that I have now. People can die with such short notice that you Never Know! The solution to all your problems may be short at hand. You never know.

#speculation nation #honestly i think the Year Of Death knocked a bit of a screw loose in me.#zero trust in anyone's longetivity. Any person around me could die with no warning at all. death comes in many forms.#including me! i could also die like that!#so people will ask things like 'do you think youll live until youre 70' and im like. i dont know!#i'll try to! but i could die next week. or today. or tomorrow. or in 50 years. it's all a giant game of gacha.#or perhaps russian roulette. but with a biiiiiiig barrel.#every day god cocks it back and pulls the trigger and Click! not my day to die today!#someday he'll pull that trigger and my metaphorical brains will blow. and yknow what i'll be dead so it wont even matter.#quite fortuitous that i already wasnt scared of death before getting such severe mortality awareness.#im gonna try to live as long as i can bc there are lots of things i still want to do. but when it's my time?#i'll be dead anyways. wont be able to care then.#theres a very specific kind of feeling that comes from dealing with sudden losses so consistently.#of receiving a call from someone who doesnt normally call you out of the blue and going 'oh boy someone else is dead now huh'#of answering it. having that hunch confirmed. and you just gotta go 'Okay. thanks for telling me.'#anyways i think theres something wrong with me but at least im still functioning fine. so it could be worse!#negative/#kinda lol. did get a bit into vent territory here.

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littleplantfreak · 9 months ago

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i didnt post anything for the first day of selfshiptober even tho i wrote it...maybe ill do days 1-3 tomorrow tho?

#OH I SHOULD REBLOG THE POST AGAIN HOLD ON #ALSO! im not just doing my selfship with ume i think im doing things for platonic ships too cause i wrote a pumpkin spice thing with sakura #and em said it was cute #those she is biased....#such is life when you love someone but its okay because i love her too #if someone hadnt gotten to her already i wouldve locked her down #mari says #im sooooo hyper rn cause i havent taken my stomach medicine and it usually makes me so tired i cant function ro write properly #but i didnt take it today and im like "wow!!!? i love living?!#so my options are not being able to eat but being normal and eating a bunch but being a zombie #i live tho

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cutieacefuck · 2 years ago

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I'm "mature for my age" in that my body functions like that of a 65 year old man instead of 24

#rambles #chronic illness #chronic pain #PLS CAN I HAVE NORMAL FUNCTIONS IM SO TIRED #do you know what it's like to suffer from heart burn and GI issues at the tender age of 5?#literally nothing I ate today is a trigger and yet #here we are #thats not even covering my bone things like can I get a refund on this body pls

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tulipfemme · 2 years ago

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#going to bed after this i promiseeeee but like #my doctor today rly told me to try to ‘wean off the mobility aids’ as if my cane n wheelchair r not the only reasons im able to function #like bro im barely getting by WITH these and u want me to stop ? why might that be (normal non ableist answers only) 🎤#i literally hate doctors soooo much . me being able to exist and use my legs is a GOOD thing not some tragedy or bad habit ‼️ fuck offffffff #okay anyway ranting done for the night bye <3 😴

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zeawesomebirdie · 2 years ago

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For all my complaining that I'm bored of reading fic and ready to get back to normal, I am still having the time of my life doing nothing but reading fic

#tried writing today #and i just. cant do it #i was having cognitive function issues *before* catching covid #this is just....#not pleasant lmao #but hey #free vacation eh?#im being *very* normal about themb rn #see the reason i go for long fics and not short things is entirely that i can fixate and have several hours worth of engagement #short fics make it harder to engage myself like that #its the ADHD #so here we are

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the-soupgoblin · 2 months ago

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Boss makes a dollar I make a dime thats why I think about my blorbos on company time

#speaking of which. I get my Narrator enamel pin today #my beautiful husband who looks like abug #I love him #I am going to put him on my work lanyard so I can think about him when Im sad #these are the thoughts of a normal functional person with no underlying issues

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steampoweredskeleton · 6 months ago

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#delete later #i cant fucking talk correctly today. all my words are stilted and i keep getting stuck on sounds and csnt get tones to work right and #cant remember the words im meaning to say and its so frustrating and embarrassing. my manager is trying to be real chill and patient but i #can feel her like “what wre you tryinh to say” and i feel real bad about it. i also canNOT make correct eye contact right now. it just is #not happening. i usualky swing between minimal when im speaking and intense when im listening.#right now if im speaking im normally staring at the ceiling bc thsts what my head does when i get stuck. and if others are speaking #im doing thw fuckin turned head away but eyes still on the person. i dont understand why. but im frustrated by it #i voice called w friend on saturday and by the end could barely get a sentence out before getting stuck. its so frustrating. im aware that #my functioning is suffering right now. i know that. eating is still a nightmare and so is self care. im constantly trying to not dehydrate #but talking is such wn unfair thing to be fucking with.#also the fact its only affecting ny ability to verbalise is infuriating. i know what needs ro be shared. i can write it down. i just can't #fucking say it properly. oh well. whining wont change it.#maybe ill walk down to the seafront this evening and watch the waves. that always makes things better

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faggling · 6 months ago

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my body and brain want to sleep so bad but I can't close my eyes without experiencing the horrors

#its almost 11am #i dont remember when i finally got functional yesterday so idk how long ive been awake #i was really hoping i could have a normal one today but i suppose this was foolish #again. one of my top five nyes was in the psych ward #which is ridiculous but you know... its not like i had a chance of having a good time until about four years ago #im so pissed that a lot of my more fucked up abuse happened around major holidays #it just makes trying to celebrate with people i do love so much harder

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wornkindness · 6 months ago

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im slowly poking at drafts but i didn't get as much ic writing done today as i wanted to. but hopefully in the next couple of days i can get my queue back up and running

#&. i just really like sharks okay : ooc #took me till forever just to be functional today #im hoping to start feeling more like my normal self here soon so

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