#are u sensing a pattern with my new concepts LOL

[nuks]

oc whose father tried to crucify her AYOOO?? like he managed to nail one of her hands to a cross before he was stopped,,,,,

[jihyoruri]

no I understand that anon I had to reread

“what?” asks before following chaewon’s eyes that are looking at a breathless yunjin and a yn walking away from her, obviously in a completely different place from where the band was meaning they went off alone with each other.

it’s the breathless part makes it seem like they made out but ANYWAY🤩this new y/n with tattoos… sensing a pattern.. also the band concept is so cool wtf like YASSS KARD -1 🤓(JOKE.)

-🎏

I’m sorry but that still doesn’t make sense to me LOL my whole point is the full blown paragraph before the part that u just put. they had a full blown convo and then yn left… we alr saw what happened and why yunjin is breathless no implications to making out😭

[jo3ydr3w]

System ask game by @/thehuman-ish

📻

🍄 - how did you get your system name?

Someone we used to know suggested Ink Blot.

👾 - funniest out of context system quote?

Literally SO many.

Post by Marcas of some of the funniest ones.

"U beter take yer cake 'n' leave!" - Jojo, when no one had any cake is probably one of the best, 'cause she's four years old, so she just says shit that makes ZERO sense.

🎉 - favorite system holiday?

Birthdays are probably one of them, but another is October 18th, our 1953 poker night anniversary.

🌙 - do you have subsystems?

One. Anti's Bitches.

☕ - what is switching like for you?

It's usually our eyes going unfocused then going into refocus to trigger a switch, unless we just woke up 'cause then we're still half asleep, which makes it a lot easier 'cause our brain isn't awake yet.

💫 - are there any hobbies you all have?

Doll collecting and writing!

💾 - what's your headcount?

No one literally knows. We have a lot of alters we don't know about or barely have heard, but haven't seen, or know are up there by shit laying around, but no one's seen them. My guess is 100 something.

👻 - do your alters/headmates have different voices or speech patterns?

Yeah, we all do. I got a mix of a southern accent and a New York accent. I don't know how it happened either, hun.

🎨 - does anyone in your system like art?

Yeah! We LOVE source art especially!

🥀 - how easily does the system split?

Very, but to be fair I think it's mainly discovering alters that were there for a long time that we didn't know were there.

🦖 - is your system fictive-heavy? factive-heavy? neutral?

Fictive heavy. Only 6? alters that aren't fictives.

🎵 - what songs remind you of your alters/headmates?

So many...A lot of us have playlists on YouTube lol

❓ - how much amnesia do you experience?

So much. We can't remember anything. So when we want to do something we can NOT switch or else we'll forget.

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time?

We watch a lot of video essays on nostalgic stuff, tv channels, toylines, tv shows, etc.

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

It's VERY complex. We'll have to upload our innerworld map at some point. Shit is insanely connected and vast.

🍐 - are there any non-human alters/headmates?

Only humans really are our factives.

🪫 - what do you all do to recharge?

Lay in bed and cry to Olivia Rodrigo.

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?

See above answer.

🔦 - how did you discover your system?

Joey heard Jojo outside of age regression a few years ago and went "WHAT"

🌟 - do any alters help out with school/work?

Whoever is fronting at the time.

🌊 - who are your frequent fronters?

Don't have any atm, but last year when BL was a thing, Ethan and Jack were pretty frequent, they got front stuck a lot 'cause of it, I don't think they know that, though. They also tend to front with Mark, ofc, when we're sick.

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?

Constantly, we spend most of our allowance each month, if not all of it, on stuff for our alters.

☘️ - what are your introjects/fictives usually sourced from?

.....Markiplier's anthology series. We started watching before Dark was even a concept, so it's been a pretty big comfort in our childhood, so over 50, probably 70 or maybe more, of us are sourced from it.

[dudewithastick]

sneaky peek at my current wip (also the first wip i had in months) and some thots on it. i need to rant (complain) so bear with me

so far its going pretty good, it doesn’t look bad and thats cool bcs i defs wouldve given up if it did look bad at this point.

obviously this is some kind of realism style and its okay, its not the best, idc. what sucks is that i dont even want this style but its the only one i can do. like i wanna do cartoons and other artsy stuff with clear lines or just sketching. stuff i see online, but i CANNOT do it, no matter how hard i try. i will always do some realistic shadowing and then its over bcs the composition isnt right for me anymore. and i hate it bcs not only would my life be so much easier if i wouldnt fall into this kind of ‘realistic’ style, which is straight up a pain, id be so much more productive as well. but i’m some weird perfectionist dumbass (blame it on my virgo rising or whatever) so shading and tiny details it is.

speaking of details, i love that i accidentally built this wip on my sketch file, which was not nearly a good enough format and now the quality SUCKS ASS but thats nothing new to me so i’m just gonna accept that every detail i draw is like 5 pixels only and you can barely see them.

another thing i suck at is color theory. and when i started this project (yesterday) i was set on doing only b&w. literally 3 seconds in i used colors and i regretted it immediately bcs it looked good which meant i had to continue bcs we dont do half assed shit… so now i committed to color and i don’t understand color theory. like i can see it working but it doesn’t make sense and all i do is experiment bcs i see no sense or pattern (now i question my tiktok diagnosis of autism, neurodivergence and adhd)

at this point i have also given up at originality. im just copying my references picture, which is fine bcs i will never be able to draw a whole ass person, and i would defs not be satisfied if i wouldn’t add details. so now im stuck at drawing a whole military outfit and my reference picture is also only 9 pixels so i cant even make out what im drawing. i’m just guessing at this point.

okay for now the last part of my complaining… @blnk338 why did u choose such a unique mask for reaper? the way i struggled with the concept and its still not perfect but i dont wanna get hung up on it so i’m moving all over the place and going back to the mask every other minute… pretty sure the mask design alone took me 2 hours to put together so it made sense to my brain and then another 3 to design to my liking lmao

anyway this is a snippet of my current take on reaper from rwys, which so far is only the body but there will probs be eyes at some point, if i dont give up. first time in months, almost years of drawing something, so i guess big thanks to blink for giving me the motivation and a character to work on for fun. hopefully i can give an update on progress soon lol

[blueiight]

Other opera anon again, okay I totally agree that Lestat is the worst but I don't think he prioritizes his place in society in any way and certainly not above Louis?? I don't think he even likes society, he just uses it as a distraction when he's bored. The opera society ladies based on the timeline referenced happens around 1930 either when Louis was full on ignoring him (and very very minimally to his credit Lestat does try to get him out of the house when he suggest they go see Louis Armstrong) or he had already been kicked out of the house after the dv. Other than that, their forays into society are things they enjoy together and that 1x02 opera scene is not the first time Louis played the valet part (he says they always did that when they went to the fancy opera house). Lestat wants to ditch town and go somewhere else when Claudia left, he really doesn't care about silly human/food rituals.

yeah thats what i was alluding to with the whole “is lestat even fr with his investment in elite white life or is he playing w his food”. lestat is better at compartmentalizing & seeing human beings as prey than louis lol. he has a whole hundred years of prior traumatic experience in the vampire game & has faced the consequences of what compassion/investment into human life (particularly the human experience in the 1700s-1800s in europe) will do to u. new orleans i think is so cute to him/ a fixation of his in both show& books not only bc of the fact that he met louis in this city, but also the cultural similarities to his old french ways. yet as a mortal he hated being noble. he wanted to have fun with nicki& be an artist, but his life was taken from him by force. art to lestat represents the intangible soul shared between meat and vampire. the conflict between the god that has forsaken him many time v. the human sound of voice, the human pen that creates lyrics, the human construction of instrument, the human composer, and how the soul itself even is a very abrahamic concept & definition of consciousness/sentience.. lestat in music shares something he genuinely cares about with louis that present!louis sees. i wonder how they do lestat’s backstory considering he was like 37-38 when he got turned vs. being in his early 20s in books. good ideas for s3 lol. feel like lestat & louis both being turned as older men in their 30s in show vs. young 20 somethings mean a lot for how their marriage life is & who they are as individuals. when ur in ur 30s, its rly the time u truly develop a tangible sense of self beyond the madness of ur late teens-young adulthood. thought patterns, traumatic or constructive, become far more definitive... most people got married in their 20s back then, but lestat& louis are both older & in the show have more strongly defined senses of selves as older men. sorry for going offtopic but i think my opera anons should shake hands.

[friesian]

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii I am blanking on names rn cause I just woke up, but I want to come ask about the new salad blorbo! U know the one, we talked in game about em!

Where'd they start in life? Any specific trajectory planned that they veered off of? What's their favourite way to relax? What's they're least favorite kind of person? Are they someone who gets a good first impression from Marwyd or a bad one? Do they like relaxing or hate it? How big is your brain to keep coming up with characters I need to know more about?

@mystery-salad (I hope your cat is inside and safe 💜)

omg. thank you for remembering about him. i could certainly use a pick-me-up after what just happened. so i really appreciate it... something to keep my distracted is really nice. he is inside and safe!

his name is quinntyn! he's my ranger. so. i'll let the deets slip about the concept because i DID get him to 80 last night. (now i just gotta get him untamed...)

(temp outfit for now. maybe.... i wish i had more sylvari cultural armor lol... the good ones are expensive!!!)

so he starts out pretty as per the in-game story. however, the big thing is for him-- is that essentially he's from another timeline. in that timeline, he's the commander. he's INCREDIBLY idyllic when it comes to the role. he's calculated, logistic, dignified, and has everything down to numbers. he used to be a warden but essentially dropped it to be the commander.

think of him as marwyd's near polar opposite.

HOWEVER.

essentially, in his timeline??? he failed. miserably. as a last ditch effort they sent him through the fractals of the mists to try to find a way to get help for their timeline, sorta stealing the whole idea from the aetherblades.

it's far too late now. his timeline is NOTHING anymore essentially. it got overtaken. he's now stranded in marwyd's timeline with no home to go back to.

now he HAS to help this timeline or else it'll happen again, but he can't command because that's not his place. it's marwyd's place.

here's the kicker; he's EVERYTHING marwyd thinks he should be, and has nearly everything marwyd ever wanted. so he HATES him so so so so much for it. equally, quintynn thinks marwyd is INCREDIBLY incompetent and should step down from the role and let it be handed to him.

so there's this sense of 'quinntyn is perfect but if he's so perfect, how the hell did he fail???' and on the otherside it's; 'marwyd is so damn incompetent, how the hell did he manage to get this far? farther than me???'

THERE'S A BASIC GIST! now as for your questions, i think i vaguely answered the first, but if not feel free to ask about it more;

Any specific trajectory planned that they veered off of?

i think the place that he REALLY took a turn is that most of the time, quintynn comes off as incredibly emotionally distant. i think in his timeline he did this to about everyone. there was no sense of bond, and i don't think he even really bonded with aurene to the extent marwyd did. i also think he's honestly more of a coward than marwyd, and left fights to other people that numbers deemed were more likely to succeed than him, but yaknow how it is with the commander and odds.

What's their favourite way to relax?

i think he honestly likes paperwork. he likes sitting at a desk and making sure all the numbers line up, that there isn't a single margin of error. equations and statistics practically call to him, and because they're so patterned and precise with how they're done, it's a sense of comfort.

What's they're least favorite kind of person?

MARWYD. whatever the FUCK is going on with marwyd. he wings everything. he charges in head first without even giving it a second though. there isn't any rhyme or reason to his actions. loud. boisterous. mismanaged. ABSOLUTELY dysfunctional but continues to make it work by smashing a square peg through a round hole REPEATEDLY. he doesn't get him. he doesn't get how this place is even still WORKING BUT IT IS??? WHY????

Are they someone who gets a good first impression from Marwyd or a bad one?

BAD. if everything else i said wasn't apparently LOL. this dude is SMOKING WEED ON THE JOB. he's got some RANDOM CHARR WOMAN as his ONLY SECURITY. everyone there treats him like some sort of guy they just KNOW when he's something far different. what the FUCK is this guy. i hate him!!!!

Do they like relaxing or hate it?

they adore it since it gives them time to organize, collect his thoughts, and maybe take a stroll to enjoy nature. he's still really close with all of his roots, especially the tree and the grove in general, so the more opportunities to feel close to nature, the better! it's something that's practically ritualistic at this point, and if not given the time to have a walk or stroll in the forest he tends to get even more rigid than he already is.

How big is your brain to keep coming up with characters I need to know more about?

I DONT KNOW!!!! this is just a guy i use combining my fav tropes of 'man out of time' and 'guy who the protagonist sees as perfect but in reality has Really Fucked Up'!!! i think they're KINDA cliche but im a sucker for these. i REALLY REALLY AM.

thank u for remembering him... i was wondering when i would have ample opportunity to talk about him but didnt know when to wedge it in. i guess this is a start!!!

[thisdreamplace]

I had a nasty fight with my former bff. This was long ago. She did the whole 'boycotting me' thing at school and afterwards had a mutual friend pass her msg to me, saying "tell her [me] to get it into her skull that she's not the center of the world, who does she think she is? Stop acting like a #" Im simplifying the words, her actual words were nastier

I got thinking today abt this fight, and her comment abt me that is still way too fresh in my mind even tho I hadn't recalled it in 2-3 yrs!, and I actually decided to use the law to revise my friendship to feel better as what happened after the fight was shameful on my part. But before I knew it, I started rmmbring my relationship with her. How I became a total victim. Got so stuck on her validation, begged her to be friends with me (after I got the degrading msg. 🤕 silly me w/o a backbone lol) and stayed her 'bestie' for way too long. Only after it's all over im noticing smth messed up abt out 'feiendship'. It wasnf that normal I think. She would get so pissed if I did anything that went against her thoughts/beliefs/way (which is why she called me a selfish # that major fight). It was so subtle the way she showed her disapproval. To her, if I did anything not aligned with her, or even makih decisions on my own which didn't involve her, it was wrong. And had consequences like her beinf distant for days etc, or getting angry if I didn't mind read her bla bla, I just had to keep her at the top 24/7 and she expected everyone else to do the same... which I thought was normal... It wasnt. And what would be even more crazy is she never realized how that meant she always wanted the attention. That she always wanted it her way! It just makes me feel... Sad.... When I look back. How couldn't I have notived it before? I used to be strong headed, opinionated before I became 'besties' with her.. That all has changed. I wonder why -_-

It may be dumb on my part but with the weak mind and insecurity I had then, I took that fight/her reaction to the heart and internalisef this stupidiy (DENY MYSELF if the other alternative was denying HER. I didn't think it was wrong. For the oldme, it really wasn't wrong smh). Aaah I'm so sorry old me :(

This fight started bcoz she asked me for smth and I refused, instead of relenting like I always would, and I see now that her reaction (to me not being an obedient # to her ig?🤢) was basically her setting rules. It was wrong of me to refuse, yes, but why did she react that way? Why did this pattern continue? That everyone was selfish if they didn't think of her ;_; like how do u deal with this? And the icing is when I too started to defend her and make excuses for her all the time. And ik I'm making her out to be so strong, don't worry... I accept the strong only rule when the weak submit. And I was weak as hell, so its understandable this whole thing. I think 😅

Idk. I seen your posts abt eyipo with other anons so i hope u can tell me figure out what this was. Its clear to me she was projecting smth about me, and mb throughout our whole friendship she was projecting me. And I would think it was her hurting me, that she was right and I was wrong or maybe I did smth wrong. Mb I thought I deserved being punished that way?!

Today I suddenly had an aha moment and I realised... this is how a victim thinks. I didn't know I was a victim when I was living that stoey aka thought I was powerless. When in fact I really wasn't?! Haha still accepting I 555% created ALL that. The law can knock you out haha

Enough old story I just want to ask, what du u think the msg she sent to me was? Did I really deserve such a reaction (did I mention she included other girls in the boycot? 🤢) just for standing up for myself? What about the whole 'fight' aka showcase of power? And the entire yrs of being friends why did I never realize I was only hurting myself so much by putting her before me? And also, with the everyone pushed out thing, how did it fit in? Like why the hell did I give her too much power in validating me by giving in after the fight in the first place?, and while I did have some fun times (saying this so anyone else who reads this doesn't think it was pure torture lol. We had some common interests tyat no one else in the class shared when we first became 'friends'), deep down I was so unhappy so why didn't this reflect on her? I mean why didn't she ever sense just how much she'd hurt me, why didn't she see how much I put on the back burner coz of her?! Was it as she saw it as her right? I'm just so confused

This is still a bitter pill to swallow tbh but I have to face this in order to move on. This person and my life with her has left me wit many scars and I got to understand how I did this so I never attract such a person in my life again. Its not even abt bejnf a victim. As I said, these victimy things were subtle and I only noted them when it was too late and I was a shell, like she getting super pissed and disapproving if I had a differing opinion and me blowijg it out of proportion and tailoring my views or not expressing them so as to not feel the disapproval...thanks boycott conditioning ig? 😭 Aaaah even talking agaunst her rn is making me uncomfortable. Which makes me think I still am scared of her subconsciously even tho she's no longer in my life. Like, what in me made me choose her? I haven't healed, obviously by this ask as u can tell, but idk what is it in my self concept that had this whole thing in my past even happen

My friend, I also want to say I think you're a beautiful soul 🥺. And im sorry for the long ask lol. And I pray you'll always have all your desires. And plz, was it hard for u at first when u learned about u creating everything? The good, the bad, and the repulsive (like this story)? How did u get over old stories? Ty ty ty 😭

To begin with you're being really harsh on yourself. Like, I know it's hard, but it's never that serious. And trust me, this is something I have to remind myself of regularly. Because there have definitely been moments in life where I look back on myself in that moment, and I feel like I was pathetic and would slap myself if I could. But the truth is, there's just no need for any of that. We always did the best we could. We always did, period. We couldn't have done anything differently and this will continue to be true our entire lives. Looking back on the past with such overwhelming feelings, is really not needed. I get looking back to learn from it, but practice coming from a place of love and acceptance instead. It will help you grow, rather than get stuck back in this cycle of self-hate and confusion. Plus, you actually never need to analyze the past to grow but that's beyond the point right now.

To me, by reading your ask, the message she sent to you was clear. You feel you deserve less in life, you feel you're not good enough, you feel like a victim to life and others, you feel like you're not empowered or the operant power of your reality. It's not about her being wrong and you being right, and I get this is one of the hardest pills to swallow. Everyone is you pushed out. Therefore, there's simply no such thing as who is right and who is wrong anymore. It was only ever you.

When it comes to everyone is you pushed out, you have to understand this person isn't this way because that's who they are. They were that way because that's who you were. Inside of you, you brought their character to life. Therefore, the same way you are not stuck to such an undesirable self concept, neither is that person. It's not that you chose her and attracted her in. You were just dealing with yourself. That's what I hope you walk away from this response understanding. Because by thinking she was outside of you, you're missing the mark. And this is such an important concept to understand when it comes to the law of assumption, because it's really at the forefront of everything. People play such a huge role in our lives, whether it's relationships, jobs, opportunities, etc etc. So understanding how everyone is you pushed out actually works is extremely important.

So instead of putting all this blame on her or even putting the blame on yourself, all these memories really do is give you a glimpse into who you were at the time. It shows you the beliefs you held about yourself. It shows you what your self concept was. That's all it's doing. So in that way, there's actually no one to blame at all. I know it feels good to put blame, even when it's on yourself, but the truth is there's no room for blame when you learn about the law. You simply take responsibility and become empowered by the power you have held this entire time. And you practice making it work in your favor.

If you want to see how something was apart of your self concept, all you have to do is pay attention to what you are thinking/feeling. Shame, not being good enough, etc etc is all just stories you once held onto. Now you don't have to hold onto those stories anymore. Now that you know the power you hold, you get to make a new decision for yourself. Rather than ruminating of the painful past, allow it to be and know how that's not your story anymore.

Was it difficult for me to accept how I created everything? Yes and no. It's been a journey. While I could accept it logically, emotionally it was still very painful. Many times I wanted to cry and lash out when I felt alone and felt upset that no one was there for me. Although, I knew deep down it appeared that way because of my own concept of self. So yeah, it's been a journey. And it's honestly not always delightful. But this is the journey we have to take for the rest of our lives, so we might as well get used to practicing and applying these concepts. Instead of continuing to hold ourselves in such painful lights. I got through old stories, and I continue to get through old stories, by feeling all the pain that came up. By allowing myself to cry and feel however I felt like during those times. And in the back of my mind I knew I was getting stronger in my power. I knew how I would keep persisting once the pain subsided. And little by little, old stories fade more and more. That persistence to continue choosing better for yourself, is truly more powerful than it may seem in a difficult moment. Have trust in how it's all working out for you regardless.

Hopefully this is helpful! Thank you for your kind words. 💖

[rogeahtaylah-blog]

soft asks. 🌻✨

we were tagged by @eightiesfreddie & @coolcat-brian (wow, thank you so much, lovelies! 💞)

rules: answer the soft q’s and tag five of your most recent followers and three of your biggest fans, fave blog/users

1. whats’s the smell of your shampoo?

coconut —flor

hmmm i'm not sure... it smells kind of citric-ish, like it has lime and/or grapefruit in it. —caro

2. what’s your aesthetic?

90s patterned shirts and high buns, gold jewelry, fresh bed sheets, glitter on your cheekbones, christmas lights, travelling at night by car —flor

moonbeam shining through the window, tarot cards, crystals, cats, denim jackets with patches and pins, talking about the universe at 3am, fairy lights, dancing around while blasting your fave songs, flavored vodka drinks, obliviously talking to yourself, watching your fave comedy show when you feel sad, finding comfort in the silence of the night. —caro

3.  what’s your favourite part of the day?

midnight, when everyone is asleep and it feels as if the night could last forever —flor

probably dusk, right when you can see the belt of venus. —caro

4. what do you like most about the beach?

i haven't been to the beach in a couple of years now, but i miss the ocean and how it can make you feel insignificant but at ease at the same time —flor

i’ve never been to the beach, sadly, but i regularly dream about the sound of the waves crashing in the shore. —caro

5. what do you worry about constantly?

oh boy,,, what people would think of every little thing i do —flor

my future. i’m constantly worried about whether i’m gonna make it to where i wanna be or not, and if i’m taking the right steps to get there. —caro

6. what is a song you’ve cried to before?

i listened to The Miracle the other day and i got quite emotional,, —flor

oof, i've cried to so many songs... but these are the ones that always make me cry (in no particular order): "vinceró", luciano pavarotti / "slipping through my fingers", from mamma mia! / "up & up", by coldplay. —caro

7. what are some relaxing tips for your followers?

put some loud music on, take a long ass shower, wear your pajamas and binge watch your favorite comedy series to distract yourself from all the negativity and stress of the day.🌻 —flor

it depends on what's your concept of relaxation, but i like to stay away from social media for a while; take a long shower, put on some comfy clothes, eat a snack, lie down for a bit and then you can either just enjoy the silence or play some chill beats. —caro

8. what are some things that make you tear up?

mr. john deacon-

k, not quite, but honestly i don't consider myself as someone who cries that much?? though, what surely have me in tears is seeing my loved ones having a tough time. —flor

there are so many things. this is weird, but i always cry watching a video of two guys playing the saxophone in a nyc subway. like............ isn't it so cool that two strangers connect in that way through music??? it just feels so special, my eyes are getting watery as i write this. and also, there's this tribute video to roger that shows you loads of roger clips and i! don't! know! why! i got so emotional about it????? and i just tear up every time i watch it. —caro

9. what is your favourite from each of the five senses?

sight: doggos and disco deacy

smell: pine, jasmine and men's cologne...

touch: p e t  t i n g  d o g s

taste: let's say white wine¿?lol

hearing: the sound of cicadas in a summer night

—flor

sight: the moon and the stars!

smell: might be cliché but petrichor, coffee beans & lavender

touch: my cat’s fur uwu

taste: honey candy

hearing: rustling leaves or wind in the trees

—caro

10. what is one alternate reality you’d want to be in?

being a queen groupie in the 70s sounds particularly promising..... —flor

one which i’m rog’s main slut a reality where all the people i love are still alive and i don't have to deal with my same ol' issues everyday. —caro

11. what are some troubles you face on a daily basis?

anxiety and massive procrastination due to a lack of routine. —flor

my insecurities, probably. you know, trying not to listen to them is a daily challenge. —caro

12. what is one scene of a book that’s made you really sad?

in general, no other book had me bathed in tears as "abzurdah" by cielo latini. 💔 —flor

can't think of any. well, actually "mi planta de naranja lima" by josé mauro de vasconcelos made me really sad, but since i read it when i was in elementary school, i can't remember one particular scene. it's overall sad tho, maybe that's why i don't wanna read it again. —caro

13. say something to all your followers

i wish you have the loveliest start of the year; please take care and thank you all for following us! 💫 —flor

ayyye thank u so much for pressing that lil 'follow' button, my love! for whatever reason you decided to do so, i hope you're having a really good day, and if you're not, hope it gets better anytime soon (it will). we don't know anyone yet cuz we're pretty new, but you're very welcome to slide into our inbox to talk about whatever! other than that, i just send y’all some love. 💞 —caro

we tag: @rena-renata @iubitul-baiatului @mxrcury-love @roga-senpai @hoe4rog @sarjas-22 @buckys-hair @priincess-snow-white @vladikin @sevenseasofrog @rmeddrowse

idk why tumblr won’t let me tag some of y’all but yeah..... it’s okay if u don’t wanna do it btw!

[angstyteeninthegayscene]

Punk Goes Pop-Klance au

I’ve got a lot happening in the next few weeks, so I’ll try to get pt 9 up in the next day or so, so y’all have something in case I don’t have time to write. Enjoy!

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Pt 8

The rest of the day was spent playing video games and eating junk food, allowing Shiro to let loose and Keith to feel a bit of normalcy after his stressful weekend. It neared 9 when Shiro called it quits, so he could grade a few papers before bed. Keith powered down the X-box and retreated to his room to go to bed early, so he could maybe get a decent amount of sleep.

PJ-clad and ready for bed, Keith crawled under the covers and unlocked his phone to pull up a podcast to listen to. He remembered Hunk telling him about the new video from his “internet rival” and switched from his podcast app to Youtube to check it out quickly. He looked through the comments of his Rihanna video and sure enough there it was.

BlueTailor69: I warned you, Brogaynes <www.youtube.com/fakelink>

He snorted and clicked. The page redirected to the video and Keith shook his head when he saw the title, smiling at its ridiculousness, Bring Me To Life Evanescence Remix- also known as Brogaynes is a terrible person and I hate him.

The song opened with an instrumental bit, heavy with anticipation, the beat gradually growing through the first verse. After the first line of the chorus, it dropped hard into a stretch of classic dubstep. The song repeated that pattern, slow build with samples of the original song and heavy drop, one more time before ending on a synthetic trill.

If Keith didn’t have a predisposed hatred of all things dubstep, he would have liked the song. He clicked into the description expecting another snide comment like last time, but it was empty. He scrolled through the comments and saw nothing there either. He thought that was a bit odd and out of character, but dismissed it because they’d never interacted, so there was no reason for him to know anything about this person’s character or be concerned.

He switched back to his podcast app, pulling one up, and closed his eyes. Before he knew it, the hosts said their outro an hour later and Keith was still very awake. He groaned and rolled over to grab his phone. He debated playing another one, but he didn’t feel anywhere near falling asleep, so he opened Twitter with the hope that some mindless scrolling would do the trick.

The racing in his mind gradually slowed as he went through his feed. He passed a list of recommended users, quickly scrolling back up for a double take. No way, he thought, his mind fully alert again, and clicked on the user profile. Sure enough, there it was. BlueTailor69 had a twitter and it was exactly what could be expected. The profile picture was a black background with Fuck You, Brogaynes in white Comic Sans and the description read, I exist solely to spite Brogaynes. Besides, he started it.

Keith couldn’t fight the disbelieving laugh that bubbled up as he scrolled through his tweets.  They were pretty much all replies to Keith’s tweets, consisting mostly of various snips and jabs at the songs he covered. He looked again at the most recent tweet, linking to his Evanescence cover, his brows furrowing as he read the caption. Had a shitty weekend so cut me some slack. I can still hate you in any headspace though @BrogaynesMusic ;) That must have been why there was no sarcastic commentary on the video.

Before thinking it through, Keith hit the message button and typed out a quick You ok? Once it sent, he realized that that was probably a bad idea. This guy was likely some troll who just enjoyed fucking with people because he had nothing better to do with his life and wasn’t worth Keith’s time to be worried about. Before he could fully second-guess his decision, his phone pinged.

BlueTailor69: ???

Keith stared at the message bubble, just as confused as to why he was messaging this guy as he was.

BrogaynesMusic: You said you had a shitty weekend. Just asking if you were ok

You stalking me now brogaynes? Was ruining Beyoncé not enough for you?

No, you popped up in recommended and I was just trying to be nice. Sorry for caring. Keith huffed indignantly as he typed the message and sent it.

Dude im kidding lol

… oh

Sarcasm doesn’t translate well over messaging lol knew I should have used an emoji To answer your question, not really? I found out some stuff that upset me and then I was a dick about it Still need to apologize for that

I had a bad weekend too if that makes you feel better

You want me to revel in your sadness to cure mine?

No? just trying to sympathize

ik I was kidding again I really gotta use emojis with u dude

leave me alone

you messaged me broski

…fair sorry I shouldn’t have bugged you

Nah youre good man cant sleep anyway

same

we can talk to each other til we fall asleep, how romantic!! Rivals to lovers! They can make a movie about us! I totally ship it

why are you like this

I didn’t get enough attention as a child im sleep depraved and lucid I hate myself and veil my insecurities with humor take your pick

-_-

:D

(－‸ლ)

Oooooooo fancy how u do that??

skill, you scrub

rude

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That’s it ive decided your emoji game is too fly for me not to be in love w/ you

k?

I just declared my love and all you have to say is k? K?

k?

you bastard to think I ever loved you

are you always this dramatic

I was an attention-starved middle child. I learned fast

Makes sense going to school for acting then? wait, you’re not some creepy 56 year old who preys on people on the internet right??

Lol im a sophomore in college, music production major actually and I bet you really insulted some lonely 56 year old who scours the internet for companionship to fill his empty soul

Just checking

wbu? You’re not some 56 year old who lures people in with his deceptively youthful voice are you?

Nope, college sophomore too

See! That can’t be a coincidence, we were meant to be together!

Youre weird

Thx I try what are you in for?

Performing arts

Imma take a stab and say singing?

Yep

Nice you could go far with that

I thought you hated my music

Subject matter, not quality you have a really good voice

Thx

Youre supposed to say, you too

Fishing much?

I have a fragile ego and no concept of self worth, I need constant validation

Relatable I hate dupstep, but you’re not terrible

That was painful for you to say wasn’t it

A little, not gonna lie

Well Ill take it anyway :) u tired yet

Keith stifled a yawn as he got the last message.

Yeah a little

Im that boring huh

Shut up, you asked

ik lol feel free to sign off if youre ready to sleep

nah im goodigeudjlflllllllll

you feel asleep in your phone didn’t u lol good night dude

[vivitalks]

Even More Tag Games

thank you @actually-samirah​ for tagging me in all of these <3

1. Are you named after someone? yup my great grandpa ralph

2. When was the last time you cried? yesterday after i hugged one of the cast members after our last performance of Gypsy :(

3. Do you like your handwriting? it’s okay, it’s definitely unique

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? none of them ugh

5. Do you have kids? not for the LIFE of me

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? maybe?? probably not tho

7. Do you use sarcasm? obviously

8. Do you still have your tonsils? yep

9. Would you bungee jump? probably not unless my dad dared me to idk why i feel like if he dared me i’d do it

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal? uhhh oatmeal squares??

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no because i SUCK at tying shoes it’s my weakness it takes me like a full minute. during shows i kept asking mason to tie my jazz shoes bc he did it quickly and i suck

12. Do you think you’re a strong person? yeah?

13. What is your favorite ice cream? cookie dough probably

14. What is the first thing you notice about people? shit idk their sense of humor? that’s weird nvm

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? i like most of myself quite well thank u. i’d be happy to have less curly hair tho

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? black jeans and no shoes but i am wearing mismatched socks

17. What are you listening to right now? BABE AWW @actually-samirah​ you’re too nice also im singing words fail under my breath lol

18. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? the blue-green in-between color

19. Favorite smell? new books bc theyre nice but they dont make me hungry. also flowers

20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my friend’s mom bc i left my poster in her car (unless u count some carpet cleaning salesperson)

21. Favorite sport to watch? baseball by far

22. Hair color? brown

23. Eye color? ??? hazel

24. Do you wear contacts? nope i have great vision

25. Favorite food to eat? uhh sushi? pizza? fruit? cookies?

26. Scary movies or comedy? COMEDY i hate scary movies

27. Last movie you watched? uhh it was Pitch Perfect im pretty sur-- NO SORRY it was Kinky Boots

28. What color of shirt are you wearing? it’s camouflage pattern so a bunch of greens

29. Summer or winter? summer if i have to pick because there’s no school and my birthday happen

30. Hugs or kisses? probably hugs even though im highly not opposed to kissing (yet?? i wouldnt know)

31. What book are you currently reading? weirdly, im not reading any book 

32. Who do you miss right now? the whole Gypsy cast im in a post-show funk

33. What is on your mouse pad? no mouse pad, we put the mouse on the table like men

34. What is the last TV program you watched? shit i dont know, One Day at a Time? Riverdale? both are wonderful

35. What is the best sound? marina i hate the laughter of children. anyway i like when rain is pounding on the roof

36. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? Beatles

37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? i have no concept of distance. france? brazil?

38. Do you have a special talent? i suck. KIDDING um? special?? i dont know, im really weirdly good at memorizing lines and lyrics?

39. Where were you born? Jerusalem, Israel

as always i will tag @phans-secret-blog and also @primaryaftermath. grace you HAVE to do this one im FORCING you to

[2expressnotimpress]

I know it noh good fi mind other people business and try hampa they progress but i can't be the only one weh have a problem with white gyal Rebecca Stirm the sell kroil baskets lol like I very proud of she fi the do her own shit yes girl do ya thing but she really have to the sell people culture fi 50us ah just the ask sorry for the rant but I just come off her page and mi want your opinion cause make i know if I the be a salty bitch or if I have a right like make I know if I the make sense

Like I get where you’re coming from but at the same time when you try to apply these Western concepts to the way things work in our little Belize.. it gets messy. And I’m not super down for the appropriation police as were active on tumblr in particular last and this year. So while I may hate Pastor Stirm with every ounce of my being, Rebecca is a Belizean. She was born in Belize. She sources her materials from Belizean artisans and there may be some moral issues with her making those bags, I’d prefer someone with actual Belizean heritage do it than Lauren Conrad (see “The Little Market”). It definitely is work discussing though! And I think it may be worth discussing with Rebecca so she’s aware of the misgivings Belizeans are having with her work. There should absolutely be a discount for Belizeans. The 50 USD price tag is because she wants to be views as a legitimate brand internationally, and she cuh charge the white pple as much as she want but I totally understand where u d come from because it just look bad. Belize is a melting pot and the culture technically belongs to all of us (unless she’s pretending to be ketchi and i neva know) because her bags don’t feature any racially specific patterns. I dunno. I’m sick of dealing with the constant call of cultural appropriation living in the US (its always for petty useless things) and I think it may have taken away some of my rage about it. I was once the one when it came to calling out cult. appropriation but honestly.. i don’t know. White girls messaging me for wearing Caribbean items because tumblr taught them to kind of took it out of me. Anyways, let me know what you think of my new blog post!

[courage-a-word-of-justice]

Girls’ Last Tour 8 - 9 | Houseki no Kuni 8 - 9 | Netjuu no Susume 8 - 9 | Mahoutsukai no Yome 8 - 9 | Juuni Taisen 9 - 10

Girls’ Last Tour 8

Why do I get the feeling the girls will lose the camera soon?

I noticed the names on the drawers before the girls did. I just never mentioned it.

That snow transition to Chi was…weird…

I think at least a small part of the problem with this show is that it’s drab. Another part is that your appreciation of the show depends on how you view it as relaxing or mind-numbing when you watch it week-to-week. Yet another aspect is that it rides upon, also, your appreciation of the philosophical content that you’re allowed to wade in as part of the show.

“Pumped up” doesn’t seem to be the right word, subbers. I don’t know why (maybe context?), but I don’t feel pumped up when I see the moon. The moon, to me, would be motivating if I were in their situation, but it sure wouldn’t pump me up…

“Magic power”? Judging from the mouthflaps, the word was mahou which just translates to “magic”, and would’ve done decently here too.

Please don’t ship the lolis…

Please don’t make the lolis drunk, either…

Underage drinking! Censor it, censor it! (half-joking tone)

Huh? There’s a small after-credits segment. Keep watching…

Uhh…*thinks about a compulsive habit involving hair eating* Yeah, no thanks.

Girls’ Last Tour 9

If humans are the only living things left, what about the fi-yeah, spoke too soon.

Why did a robot want to protect a fish anyway?

Yuu has discovered the human capacity to float after kicking.

Chi’s favourite conversant is a box. A grey box. Amazing… (sarcasm dripping)

Chi has discovered the thing from One Piece known as Super Drowning Skills.

As they said in Finding Nemo, “fish are friends, not food”! Hahaha.

These robots look like something out of a Shaun Tan book, yeeps. (Didn’t see the construct-o-bot too clearly the first time he appeared.)

It’s like a mother talking to a daughter, only this time it’s in robot-speak. All 1s and 0s…

I did not come here to watch robots explode. But these robots exploding…cool! Like an action movie!

What was that last part with the robot communication circles and patterns for? I guess it made more sense with the volume on, huh…

Houseki no Kuni 8

Why do I get the ominous feeling the biting “ice floe” was Aculeatus or someone like that (and not Ventricosus, the king)?

I love how grumpy Antarc is when they’re like, “Tha failure is all mine” and they’re just holding their hand like it’s no problem. The hand really is no problem, especially in contrast to Phos, come to think of it.

It’s hard to convince someone when you literally have no hands to do it with…

“I raise my hands in defeat.” – Phos in on my level of puns. I was going to make a hand pun and then they come up with this, which is much better than what I could think up on the fly.

Notice Phos is the only colour in this winter world…

I knew gold was soft and platinum too, but…what does that have to do with-oh wait. Never mind.

It’s like something out of a horror film…it’s sheer genius.

Oh dear. It seems I’ve fallen for a sensei-only yandere. What a problem…

Hey, doesn’t this look familiar? Like a kagune, for instance?

U---uwahhhhhhhh…My boy Antarc was taken and now he’ll be Lunarian weapons…Plus with those cracks, Phos looks sadder than usual…

Huh? ED change? “Liquescimus”?...Oh, I see.

This next ep preview…is weird. Especially because you see Kongou-sensei smash his head into a wall…

Houseki no Kuni 9

When they said spring was a time for change, I’m betting they didn’t mean this…(what happened to Phos)

Interestingly, the gold looks like a rapier. Or some other old-timey sword. Then it becomes a spider lily, which is a symbol of death.

Phos’s eyes look like Antarc’s used to…plus they’ve gained a personality like theirs too.

Crying? A defect? No, no…

A bit of a mess? No, Phos, you’re more than a mess.

Phos is still wearing the old uniform, huh. Mourning clothes.

Ah, so that’s where Phos mentions it’s gold and platinum. No wonder Karandi knew…

So it’s not “with great power comes great responsibility?” Or is it just the subbers having fun?

Cinnabar seems to be a lot like Bakugo. Just without the extreme “I’ll beat you up!” stuff.

Phos’s jerk face, LOL. Haven’t seent that in a while…

Netjuu no Susume 8

I’m really unsatisfied with the fact I’ll have to say goodbye to this show in 2 episodes…It’s been my favourite for this entire season, and when the competition is strong, that means this show – with all its fluff and misunderstandings – has done itself more than enough to deserve a spot on my favourites list.

This is Netjuu no Matome (Summary of an MMO Junkie). Honestly, my translation works a lot better than CR’s this time don’tcha think?

Hayabusa (Falcon) Moving Company. Makes sense if Amazon is its RL counterpart…

…then it turns out they wrote Hayabusa backwards on the moving van (Sabuyaha). LOL wut.

The ep title seems to be “[I] took a step forward”.

Harth? Well, spoilers. You just ruined my life…sort of.

I half-expected Yuki’s hat to blow off, but hey, this is an MMO. Hats don’t blow off unless you want them to.

Notice Sakurai uses keigo.You use keigo with people you don’t really know, by the by.

Dammit! Sakurai’s hot but Harth is better! Argh, such a simple artstyle. I shouldn’t be worked up over hot guys when there’s such a simple artstyle…

The eyecatches are so good. Why would you get rid of them in this episode, of all episodes???

T-They could’ve been lying to each other, like in And You Thought There Is Never a Girl Online? ??? Gah, but this show is so sweet, I’ll forgive it.

As soon as Sakurai’s battery died, I swear I just heard The Entertainer in my head. As if it’s all some big dream I’m bearing witness to. But of course, it’s fiction. It’s basically a shared dream for the lot of us who know about it. A sweet shared dream we can access anytime.

Every time I look at that credit list and see Maeno as Harumi…yeah…not gonna think about it. But it seems double-Sakurai even got Harth as a role. Wowee, Sakurai!

Netjuu no Susume 9

One episode and one OVA to go before these guys are gone…

“I Call That Feeling Marble” – Why “marble”?

Sono Kimochi Ma-buru…so they weren’t quite lying when they said “marble”, eh? Sono Kimochi would translate to “that feeling”. However, ma-buru could be “marvel”, so it could be “I Call That Feeling [a] Marvel” (which makes a lot more sense).

I swore Morimori-chan would’ve asked to be partners! The fact that she didn’t was so disappointing…

There were some ducks drifting along in the foreground of one shot.

What happened to Harumi, come to think about it?

Is there an equivalent to TGIF in Japanese???

*Morimori-chan jumps out of chair* That’s me whenever I get a text, hahaha.

The show shows its Comico roots – that park background looks like it came out of a visual novel, which is a sort of trademark of Comico series like ReLIFE and it. Nanbaka, on the other hand…if you’ve seen it before, you’ll be aware of what that show’s visual quirk is.

So the woman’s name isn’t Sendai, but Yashiro? Okay then.

I want a Fujimoto-centric thing now. Please, someone? Do it for me?

I feel like Sakurai and Tenya Iida would be good brothers in an AU. They act in similar ways to each other.

Mahoutsukai no Yome 8

The shot to the head (Cartaphilus received) was so brief, I actually found it funny.

“This girl [Chise] has strange taste.” – Indeed, she does. But that’s why we follow her.

“But you don’t hate it, do you?”

Joseph…?

Mahoutsukai no Yome 9

(looks at shop sign when Chise sits down) Someone can’t spell “biscuits”…

How did Ruth learn the familiar binding spell anyway? Does Elias have a familiar, too? Or does he not have one since he’s part fairy?

It’s really hard to see what Elias’s monster form no. 3 (or is that no. 2?) looks like.

The humour in this show is somewhat unwarranted. It doesn’t always work, either. (I like a majorly consistent show best. Incongruous mood whiplashes don’t always work, after all.)

Is it Silver or Silky? I still don’t understand…

These roses must mean something in flower language…

Apparently there used to be an old trend of lesbian vampires. It’s a pretty old-fashioned trope, so it feels quite at home here. Update: Scratch that, a Leanan Sidhe is apparently more of a succubus, which was the exact vibe I was getting from her. Lesbian succubi? That’s a new concept.

That dragon!!!

Juuni Taisen 9

I think I’ve seen some spoilers saying Rabbit dies. I already knew everyone bar one *eyes Rat* will die anyway, but the game is in seeing how they die.

Were CGI models the best for this moment? Probably not, but there was some good movement from Usagi there.

Did you notice the shining light when Ox repositioned his sword (after he jumped)?

100-person…that reminds me of the SekaTsuyo “Hundred Throws” thing, but please don’t talk to me about SekaTsuyo…

Of course Kanae’s backstory has drinking in it. Her tagline has to do with “drunken rage”…(half-sarcastic)

Hey, this episode is titled after Rabbit. Isin’s genre-breaking strikes again. Also the scribbles on the faces is a nice touch, but not as good as the marionettes from Rampo Kitan.

I swear they’re relying on CGI models for the Ox and Tiger in this episode...

I’d like to headcanon Eiji is good at soccer. Not as the Ox, but just as himself.

Well, “CGI models” was definitely true right there when the Tatsumi bros attacked.

Those ice effects got put to good use, at least.

If you sit a bit of a distance from the screen, you can see they really are CGI models, the Ox and the Tiger. Graphinica’s really pulling out the stops – after all, didn’t they just say “don’t do what you’re unused to doing”?

Juuni Taisen 10

*as some insigificant sniper falls to his death* Yeah, let’s ignore the bad quality of that…

Dangit, Ushii hasn’t been given a birth year! No, why Isin??? Why??? (But does Kanae use Chrome on her iPad?)

Slicing the bridge is a bit much, y’know, Ushii - even for my suspension of belief.

Who knew a stab to the heart could be more touching than any other death in this show? Maybe it’s a stab…to my feels. (You’re all groaning now, aren’t you?)

So…no explanation for home boy Usagi, then?

I think two of the kanji from “To Treat A Man Beef From His Own Cow” (the title, not the episode) are from Gobouken (the name of Ushii’s sword, and the name also means “bayonet”), which is interesting.

[thisdreamplace]

i was wondering if i could just rant nothing bad, just a bit of what i’m experiencing.

for a while before learning about law of assumption when spiritual tiktok & the law of attraction side was popular i feel like i took on so many limiting beliefs there. but not just there, in so many ways. i just deleted tiktok. i had enough, i feel like lately the media strains me so far from my inner self & i have been feeling so disconnected. i’m not blaming the media, but sometimes i feel like we all know consuming too much politics & how bad the world is can be so harmful to our minds. anyways, there’s a struggle with limiting beliefs around relationships with guys. i’m glad that we are in a place where everyone is learning & educating about misogyny, but i won’t lie constantly seeing the trope that no good guys or relationships with guys exist had gotten me so down. relationships isn’t a value for me & it’s something i want to take my divine time with. i do want to wait a while before i get into anything, but learning about love within myself i feel included me stepping into what romantic & sexual relationships looks like to me. only now have i realized i have struggled so much with that concept cuz i took on so many beliefs. & for some it’s valid, that’s how they feel, but for me lately i’ve been so down. but really it’s not just in that one area, all around i am dealing with how the media affected me & i really got myself in a shit hole i won’t lie. i love that i have learned about self concept & loassumption as it has made me realize tremendously my power, but also how much i have been not really well. i feel like we all may be feeling like we are at this lining of learning who we are & leaving who we once were which can feel so difficult. i feel like too getting into this stuff has shown me maybe why i suffered so much in the past. i won’t lie i kinda feel like the whole self concept thing is around the same concept of healing & knowing your worthy & deserving which is something i am just now getting into. i’ve just began this journey & i’m still so young at 17 but realizing everything inside of me feels so much more real now. i have been stuck in this place of comfort with hurting & self sabotage where it feels difficult to break away from the old. now i realize how getting to my true peace within my state of mind has become so important. my ups & downs have been so tiring but through the downs i realize what i want my ups to look like. i have dealt with many mental health issues in the past, & i still see the patterns, in fact even now i’m working on fully healing ocd, i am going through a form of it at this moment & it’s so draining when you feel like your thoughts & mind are against you. i think lately my days have been so many tears, lol i have cried so much from releasing & confronting. i won’t lie i feel like even on this journey, i’m learning to love the bit of bricks as i feel like it has helped me to deeply realize my power within myself & to learn to seek myself instead of others.. i apologize that this has gotten long, i just felt maybe others were going through the same phase of life lol. i feel like this road is something i am so grateful for. i know a bit back i seen a post on what you thought about the term ‘meant to be’, i honestly feel like i have explored the depths of this lately, & at this point in my life i’ve noticed the timings of things, just who i was at points was meant to be. learning about this journey was meant to be. some days i have felt i wish i was another person, when the rain comes down & i just feel so down, like when your thoughts are so clouded & sometimes you feel that there is no way out in your mind. but i realize those days aren’t as scary as they seem. i think our mentality through this is so important, especially when we are put in fields of beliefs that have grown dead to us or keep us further from our truths & living as our best self. so when i feel those down days i’ve learned to gently comfort myself that, this is just this moment. but it’s not tomorrow. that i can feel safe enough to release the old story, and step into the new. i hope this made sense lol [1]

continued: [2] i definitely feel im still learning, but i hope this made sense to you & maybe even u can relate a bit when it comes to starting out. i feel like this whole manifestation thing is like a luxury but it’s also a really sweet, sentimental thing when it comes to self. it’s like a warm hug from our higher selves/god selfs that suffering shouldn’t be the beauty of our life. we are already the beauty & love within our lives & that uncovers each time we decide to say i won’t settle for this reality, or each time we have a down day it doesn’t stop us. like there’s always that little hope knowing that we deserve the world❤️✨

Of course y'all can always feel free to come here and rant!

I really appreciate everything you said. I really love your spirit, because it's important to be that way on this journey. Even when it feels like you have so much stacked against you, that small amount of knowing you're going to persist through it is huge. I think one thing I'd like to point out to you, is that is doesn't have to be so difficult in a way. Like, you don't have to think about all your limiting beliefs and think you have to tear them down. There's an easier way, that I wish I had focused on more in the beginning. If you would spend more time connecting to your true self, God, then you would see how these limiting beliefs are actually nothing to fight. When they pop up you would know, "you know what? This isn't even true." Same when it comes to the anxiety you are facing. I know how that's like as well, and it's a matter of knowing your Godself is on your side and you are safe, even if your mind seems so against you.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." - Isaiah 55:8-9

I keep quoting this lately, but I think it's so comforting for those difficult moments. Just read it in relation to your Godself and know that, despite those intrusive thoughts that may come up, you're okay. Things are still working out for you and those undesirable thoughts mean nothing. They cannot stop you. Your Godself is on your side. The more we connect to who we really are, the more all those heavy beliefs/thoughts we held onto begin to dissolve.

I also don't use media heavily and the media I do use, it is very curated to my liking. I really don't see the point in engaging in activities that bring me down, when I simply don't have to. So good for you for taking a step back from it all.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences! 💖