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chan hating himself is my roman empire
#how can someone so strong and capable and talented and gorgeous hate himself so much#like my god he’s so devastating#everything about him is laced with tragedy#the whole idea of loving him from afar (or any idol at all) and watching them say things like that about themself#and just not being able to. do. anything?#it’s so frustrating that the only way this works is that he has to put in the effort and realize his own worth but we don’t know if he does#or even will#because you can’t force someone to love them self or fix themself right#you can only love them through it and hope it’s enough#but it’s just sooo frustrating i’m#head in my hands he’s so devastating#i wish he was different#:((#he’s so beautiful and so precious i’m so ill#i wanna give him the world#and the way he always stands in the back and observes the group as if he’s detached from this whole reality#as if he’s somewhere else completely#the way he once said that if it weren’t for the members and skz he wouldn’t even be alive#like he got a second chance at life#like he was saved all because of them#the heartbreaking way he said ‘you don’t care about me’ to minho like he really believed that#oh i wish someone would just grab his face and drill it into his head that he’s loved and he’s important and he matters !!!#he’s so me i’m so him#maybe that’s why i find him so tragic#it’s a loop#waiting to find the thing that saves me#or maybe it’s just the small things around me that i’ve been taking for granted#꒰ soon you'll get better. ꒱
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I see a lot of people upset about William Kaplan being dead and no one mourning him cus Billy stole his body and I just don't see it that way. The kid in Wanda Vision is Billy Maximoff, The teenager at the Bar Mitzvah is William Kaplan, the Teen that got taken to the hospital after the wreck is neither and both Billy Maximoff and William Kaplan. That Teen went home with the abilities of Billy Maximoff, to the home of William Kaplan, with memories of neither and lived there for three years. He cares about Rebecca and Jeff, he lied to the to protect them from pain, they are his parents. He wants to find Tommy, he has magical powers, he wants to know who he is. All of these things are true. I wouldn't say William Kaplan is dead he just doesn't remember, like Agatha wasn't dead when he was Agnes, she just didn't remember.
#its fully possible the witches road will give Teen both his memories back cus thats the thing he's missing. making him not William Kaplan#and not Billy Maximoff but Billy Kaplan a mix of the two.#agatha all along#agatha harkness#billy kaplan#william kaplan#billy maximoff#and to all the people pissed that he isn't finding Wanda. womp womp this is about his brother and if you looked you would have seen that.#rumor has it Tommy will be in Vision Quest right? Tommy has to be set up somewhere! he doesn't have magic. and why would they bring back#THE SCARLETT WITCH in a marvel tv show? that's a huge moment they want that sucker for a movie.#marvel#jeff kaplan#rebecca kaplan#also for people up set e6 was billy focused.... yeah mcu projects have set ups for other projects.#even Moon Knight set up Wearwolf by knight. then She Hulk and spiderman had a set up for Daredevil. wandavision set up for Agatha All Along#and the Marvels. Mrs Marvel had a set up for The Marvels. thats kinda how the mcu works its a conected story#teen agatha all along#in the show it shows he doesn't actually remember tommy if he didn't he wouldn't have had to find Ralph. he was surprised wanda had twins#named billy and tommy and that one could read mind while the other was a speedster. all he knows about tommy is that he can feel him#and hes missing.#he probably doesn't know what tommy looks like or sounds like or acts all he know is he can feel him MIA and wants him back.#.........#im back. i also see people stiching that one scene with for lack of better term Teen looking in the mirror going I am William Kaplan and#taking it as Billy adjusting to the body hes in now. one even calling him the monster inhabiting Williams body. and i dont think that it.#he doesn't remember being Billy Maximoff OR William Kaplan. again calling him Teen. Teen is looking in the mirror at a body and face that is#completely alien to him because it is! he has amnesia. he's looking in a mirror with no idea who is looking at him not because hes Billy but#because its no one at that moment hes nothing. he has no idea who he is at all. all he know is thats his body his name is William and his#parents and worried and he know that cus he can read minds. thats it nothing else
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twitter's down so i can't even rage about this but i find it so funny that auston and willy get off scot-free when talking about ~wanting to be a leaf~ despite fucking the team over with the way they did deals. they just got the benefit of the doubt with a new gm who wanted their deals done quick. auston only signs short term deals to maximize the amount of money he's leaching from the org over time but that can somehow be spun as a good/smart thing by fans even in a year where he's on a sub 40 goal pace (LOL). willy got everything he wanted, they bent over backwards for him AND gave him above market value and what? we applaud that and say bc he said 'i love being a leaf' even though he's doing less than he was last year too... like we just pretend they didn't use negotiating to maximize their own gain, but also they got to sign these deals at an even less volatile time, lol.
mitch's agent is known for taking his clients to free agency to get the most. this year, they're positioned that way and treliving isn't in some rush to get it done or it'd be closer by now. if they were offering or willing to go above market value like they did with guys before or if mitch only wanted short term, it'd be closer to being done. but with the cap projections, things are more complicated. it was always going to be more complicated. your second to first best player having an mvp year wanting TERM and what he's worth makes it hard when no one else of his caliber did it before and set a tone.
i don't think this says anything about what the leafs or what mitch want. ultimately both sides want him to be a leaf, and both sides have said that at various points (no, mitch can't just say that now the closer they get to negotiations. it literally compromises their strategy lol). but the leafs set themselves up for this by allowing their superstar player to sign short term deals (lowering the aav internal ceiling for the team) and signing another elite guy to a slight overpayment of the time and bending to his every whim in terms of nmc too. like they have to reap what they sow here with this dragging out, but leaf fans are absolute idiots trying to say any of our stars have been team-friendly deals, lol.
the leafs themselves are here for money and comfort, not some nebulous love of the fanbase, and it's so funny to watch people be delusional about that. they might like it in toronto and call it home now and that might be fun for everyone's little mental narratives, but they're in it for the money and this place will also give them more money than almost anywhere else and they all know that with the way the org's run right now, so lol. acting like any of them are more virtuous than mitch is idiotic just bc you don't personally like that his negotiations involve the concept of other teams. newsflash, so did everyone elses, you just didn't have to hear about it bc the team was in a different place and no one gets the absolute batshit treatment from the media that mitch does. the only person who maybe holds the reverence abt that place and crest and history is the very one you want to push out so badly.
#toronto maple leafs#mitch through his entire career: i want to be a leaf and always have :)#mitch his contract year: i love this team and i want to be with this team and im focused on hockey rn and cant talk contract#fans: well HE makes me doubt if he wants to be here so throw him to the wolves#like go die if u cant read between the lines with this#leaves u with a sour taste the concept of ur star player accepting an offer somewhere else? thats business and how it works flkdjskfl#toronto fans are the most absurd#theyy alllll want to be here and know the organization want them here and they all have the leverage lol. the leafs as theyre run rn#are completely bought into the core 4 idea and will stay that way tbh and its more commendable to me personally than what other#teams do to win/not win the cup
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toby fox and co youve done it again
#ingi post!#40+ hrs in deltarune and I JUST finished one complete run (ch1-4 no mercy + snowgrave) and have already started another (ch1-4 pacifist)#seeing the consequences of ch2 snowgrave play out in ch4 literally had my jaw drop at the viscerality of it#also just like. with ch1-2 deltarune i felt it was already on the same quality level as undertale but ch3-4 rlly surpassed my expectations#by like *a lot* a lot#3D!!! was not expecting 3D stuff at all!!#and we have still 3 more chapters to go?? holy shit#ch3-4 rlly just set it in for me that deltarune as a game is going to be a much larger and more ambitious game than undertale#anw this run was literally the first time i beat jevil ever (woo!)#second time for me to beat snowgrave spamton neo (literally was asking myself how i beat this guy the first time from a couple of yrs ago#while i fought him again)#and i died to ch3 secret boss' final attack a lot before realizing i was doing the whole fight wrong lol#fav boss fight that i did in the entire run was actually prob ch4 secret boss (in the newest dark world)#(havent done the other one since i fought the darkners in ch3)#loved the vibes of that entire fight#also the jumpscare (dread) of having hard undertale bullet patterns show up in ch3-4 😃 (loved the iteration in the undyne fight mechanics)#and the jumpscare (positive) that is sans deltarune#loved the bits where he showed up 😁 esp at the end of ch4 (i like that they put that whole scene at the end after *gestures at 2nd half#of ch4*)#not looking forward to a megalovania 2 (or similar no mercy fight from another character) if thats in the cards at all tho#anw quickfire thoughts#loved the new lightner dark world designs! unique but still evokes the vibe of their undertale counterparts#what the HELL is the song coming from across the lake??#its raining somewhere else!!! might be the first undertale melody to properly show up in deltarune iirc#i bet the fandom is having fun with battle throuple (happy pride month) shenanigans and whatever happened with spamton and 📺 lol#dess is def in that creepy shelter now (for how long tho? smthn mightve happened to her that makes her no longer recogniseable [to others#and/or herself])#the fact that 📺 is PRE-RENDERED 3D GRAPHICS?? (i love saying “PRE-RENDERED 3D GRAPHICS??” everytime i see their sprite)#does asgore know about the dark worlds?? he seems like someone that could know about it (conspiracy board+being former chief of police#means he prob know the facts about dess' dissapearance)
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#really just want to see agni (and grace) being cool 😳 if that's not obvious enough#忠 on hatz's back means loyal#the sky is filled with shinsu loops (inspired by water dragon heavy storm technique but less destructive in exchange for wider range)#also if you haven't connected the dots yet. grace and jinsung are having a spar somewhere. and Agni is keeping it inside a massive barrier#he set up the barrier with shinsu devices ofc. not purely Agni's power. we can see him doing some typing there since he controls it#Also I forget if i have it written on future chapter or discarded it on this update script. but just in case i don't. here's an explanation#the barrier was meant to keep the chaos inside to stay inside. but because the shinsu on lower floors aren't as concentrated as upper floor#and shinsu inside the barrier was condensed with Grace's power. If the barrier was completely blocked off it'd be easy to suffocate inside#so they need the outside shinsu to be able to cross inside or Agni wouldn't be able to stay inside. Thus I imagine it like a one way valve#it's easy to cross from the outside but hard to get out without deactivating the barrier. and that was why Hatz was trapped#Laure on the prev chpt must've noticed that the flow of shinsu got siphoned somewhere and thus the 'something is wrong' feeling#but no one else notice bc it'd prob feel like a passing breeze. considering with how big a floor is#tower of god#tog#two sides of the same coin comic#my comic#my art#khun#koon#khun a.a#khun aguero agnis#hatz#rak wraithraiser#rak
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What are you even supposed to do after you finish reading something that cannot be beat. I felt like that after finishing Golden Kamuy, but now I'm really fucking feeling it after just finishing Usogui. That was the most insane incredible experience I've ever had reading a manga. I kneel.
#its got me feeling like a victorian asylum patient.#fuck oh my god. please has anyone else read it please can yuo hear me...#its 7 am. i need to sperg somewhere. somehow.#i never make posts like this.. thats how much i need to glaze this series.#firstly. the yaoi is world class.#anything else would be secondary to that but everything else is executed flawlessly as well.#it gets so fucking silly. like the naked guy doing a polygraph on a plant so he could win at the game battleship.#but its also an emotional rollercoaster.#the foreshadowing that's sprinkled in everywhere ooohh my god....... the tension and build up and stakes... its peak......#when ive read some super popular normie manga like jjk or dunmeshi or csm ive felt literally nothing#they may as well have been dozens of volumes of tv static#but sooo many people love them and talk about them.#nothing wrong with liking normie stuff btw. thats just my subjective opinion on those series#i put usogui on my To Read list after watching some video essay that ive completely forgotten about ages ago.. and thats it#ive never seen anyone else talk about it.#if i can make just One tumblypoo read this series then i will be happy
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my gay son
#aka filet crochet that took me 9 months to complete#this is not new he has been in the closet for about four years. hes auite heavy as well so ive not worn him very often.#anyway to me he's not really a scarf he's just a big old rectangle to me#and the blocking on this is actually sooo bad bc as u may be able to tell that thing is gigantic and i ran out of black thread and the stor#where i bought it way on summer break so i bought black thread somewhere else and i thought it was the same yarn weight but it was ever so#slightly thicker so the last ~10 rows are really wavy. thats issue no 1 the second problem with the hugeness was that i just had nowhere i#could block it on so i mcgyvered a solution which was a wool blanket tucked over my sheets and i blocked it on there and i wore my#bathing suit to sit on it to block bc it didnt work any other way. and then come night time of course it was still wet (even tho i pointed#blowdryer at it for so long that the blowdryer switched off by itself due some child safety mechanism) and i had to take it off my bed so i#could sleep on it. so yes the blocking is a bit wonky#crochet#mine
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(reads my own fic) woah. I'm so good at my job
#im so ngl though. i entirely forgot i wrote that one#like when i posted it i thought it was kinda mid and i think i like. banished it from my awareness#and just set it loose into the currents#apparently people really like it!!! im glad yall enjoy it!!!#ik anyone not following me wont see this but uhhhh#did you know that only on like my 20th new file did i realize hadvar is. following the convoy#at the beginning#somehow i never connected like. him parking his horse where it glitches into your face as him being with you#like i just figured he rode in from somewhere else in the fort#need yall to know that i had an entire fucking draft going for that thing where hadvar begs for reassignment#desperately#when he reads over the prisoner list and gets threatened with insubordination--over an enemy no less#and like he was up all night sobbing his little heart out about how he was killing his beat friend#and i was ALMOST DONE WHEN I REALIZED HE HADNT BEEN COMING FROM THE FORT#HE WAS BEHIND US#WHICH MEANT. RAGH (throws writing tools off desk)#unless i actually posted that one too and just completely forgot#but i think it was the og draft for the hadlof intro angst post#<- guy with memory issues#wish i had writing ideas more often tbh but i gotta sit on something for like. months#cant make a simple post to save my life unless its abt celann and even then its only simple bc i cannot coherently elaborate
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im so tired but im anxious to fall asleep because i know i'll probably wake up alone tomorrow and ive been really anxious about being left alone the past 2 months. and by that i mean it keeps sending me into panic attacks that involve me feeling off balance/faint and like im dying. and i realllyyyyyy don't wanna wake up to that tomorrow after i had just started feeling like i was getting better again
#its going to be the first time ive been left completely alone in a WHILE#my brother has typically been at home with me#but he's off somewhere with a friend for the weekend#and tomorrow my dad has work and my mom's going to the hospital to sit with my grandmother#cause no one else will do it and they dont trust the nurses#so im going to be alone#and even if i start panicking and freaking out. neither of them are going to come home jsut for me
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Not to mention leosagi is straight up boring anyway lol
#anti leosagi#anti usagi yuichi#rise Leo#rottmnt Leo#errr rise fandom maybe make an oc instead of inserting a character that doesn’t even exist in that universe?#maybe stop making a non canon character more prominent than April and Mikey#maybe stop making a character that’s NOT in rise the one to help and heal Leo completely erasing any depth he has#maybe stop putting this fuckass bunny over Leo’s actual canon family to quench y’all’s thirst for bl when you can read bl somewhere else#Rise isn’t romantic and that’s what’s so endearing about it#making one of the main characters a lovesick puppy who isn’t himself without his lover ruins any type of characterization Leo has#more often than not I’m happy Rise didn’t continue because I would hate to see a disgusting ill thought out romance subplot be added#rise is so good because of the lack of romance between characters that’s why Aprils characterization and dynamic is phenomenal w the boys!!#romance is not everything and it’s FRUSTRATING y’all were given a loving family on silver platter and discard it for bs#incredibly frustrating#sins posting#sins rottmnt
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I think if Forever had kept going longer there would have eventually been an episode where Henry got buried alive.
#the way i imagine it going down: he gets buried (idk why). jo and co search desperately for him#they find the spot where he's buried and are unsure if they're on time. when they open up the coffin he's not there#cuz they were too late and he already died and came back in the river (but they don't know that)#they start panicking cuz if he's not there then he's buried somewhere else and there's no way they'd find him on time#but then he shows up completely fine and of course has a tone of explaining to do#of course this really only works if he didn't tell Jo the truth at the end of the first season#forever abc#Henry Morgan
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another thing that's Awesome about potential of Gris and Riyo as fuck buddies (with Gris fighting for his damn life in his head, trying to convince himself that he wouldn't prefer to marry Riyo)
is Enjin
hilarious to have level headed, rational good boy, morally Lawful Good Gris - falling and getting involved with your hard-to-control protege who is a genuine menace.
Imaagine how dramatic Enjin would be and how guilty Gris would feel. It is no less than earth shattering
YOU DID WHAT WITH WHO???? WHEN DID SHE- WAIT. WHY DID YOU-. oh my god..BUT YOU- BUT I THOUGHT- BUT SHE- she broke you down didnt she? My God ill have to talk to her. I CANT BELIEVE IM GONNA HAVE TO TALK TO HER ABOUT *THAT*???? How was i supposed to set a rule like that i would never think....AND YOU!!! YOU OF ALL PEOPLE!! YOU!! HOW COULD IT HAPPEN-
And so on all the while Gris sita there with his head in his hands because he has Nothing. He tries to interject and stops himself because What. How can there be an excuse. He feels terrible, even more so when Enjin's wrath is turned to Riyo - even if Gris knows, of course he knows that he could simply Not play along with her - but she was really the one who pushed through his reluctance.. the initiative was all hers. But of course he would never shift the blame or play victim.
Enjin in the meantime is losing his mind because on one hand - Riyo would never Ever ever do anything she wouldn't want herself, so he has to worries there. And Gris is like his best friend probably maybe but certainly is a guy he trusts more than himself, best person he knows straight up. But on the other hand What the Fuck you guys were not supposed to sleep together you know how DiFFICULT it can make everything?????? uuuuuugghhhhhhhh
Funnier still is that he cant order Riyo to stop. He could ask Gris and he would actually listen - but Enjin doesn't want to. He'd feel gross about it like: I'm not their fucking dad i cant tell them what to do, they are both rational people who are responsible for themselves..BUT IT HAS SO MUCH POTENTIAL TO TURN TROUBLESOME.
And honestly Enjin cant feel too angry about it all because he cares about Riyo and cares that she found something enjoyable for herself And he cares about Gris and knows Gris is incapable of hurting her...and its also nice that he got laid even if every time Enjin made fun of him RIYO WAS NOT THE PERSON HE HAD IN MIND
Riyo would once again laugh in his face but then turn completely serious like
"If you really want me to stop. I will" 😐
And Enjin is like uuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh (his longest groan ever) whatever...
Riyo: Yaaayy lmao i got Enjin's blessing!!!! 😁😁😁
Enjin: i did NOT bless this i still disapprove
Riyo jumps up and kisses him on the cheek and runs away giggling and Enjin is like piss off 😩
#griyo#enjin is like im glad its you but also i kinda still want to kill you for this#gris: im really very sorry#riyo is somewhere else having fun not bothered about a thing and will later laugh in enjins face when confronted#- a reaction he fully expected and got frustrated with in advance back when he was chastising gris#because he knew it would fall on completely deaf ears with riyo#talk tag
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what are your favorite episodes of mad men?
oh ho, so you're out here asking the REAL questions!!
god this is hard. i just tried to go through the list of episodes and before i'd even finished scrolling through s2, i'd already jotted down 6 "favorite" episodes. it's just!! SUCH a good show, and the episodes really span the gamut of what tv can actually BE. like, there are episodes that come to mind for just how absolutely buckwild FUN they are (3.13 is basically a heist episode! don tricking roger into getting wasted and throwing up oysters in 1.07 makes me laugh EVERY time! watching everyone in the office get high and pull an all-weekender to win chevy in 6.08 is a blast!) but then there's the poignant episodes. the one's that fucking break me. the culmination of s1 resulting in don's nostalgia pitch in 1.13. the exploration of don and peggy's bond in the perfect 4.07. the end of lane's arc in 5.12 and all of the grief that follows. the moon landing and the way these people have all shaped each other being laid bare in 7.07. the end of it all in 7.14!! peggy's voice any time she chastised don: "that's not true."
that doesn't even get into, like, every time we got to see the office throw a big party and all the characters got to interact with each other. THE MOWER!! betty and don going to rome, their last perfect weekend together before reality crashed down on them. father gill trying and failing to "save" peggy through catholic guilt. megan trying to love a man who only loves the beginning of things (faye!!). joan fighting tooth and nail for every ounce of respect she built for herself. SALLY! EVERY MOMENT WITH SALLY! the tragedy of sal romano, his crush on ken cosgrove. MICHAEL GINSBERG and his friendship with peggy and stan!! anna draper who knew don's secret and loved him anyway. the entirety of peggy and pete's relationship, simmering in the background but forever informing their interactions.
i'm sorry i could keep going. i really do fucking love this show more than words can capture. i have to stop myself or else i'd just ramble forever.
#ask#wh0rebehavi0rmain#mad men#i can't even think of a thing the show did that i didn't appreciate#even if i didn't like it completely!#like anytime don went out to california i wasn't totally into it#but i UNDERSTOOD it#why he would see so much hope in the idea of rebirth and starting afresh#thinking if he could just go somewhere else and be someone new he could fix all his problems#but of course don knows that's not the case#anywhere he goes he takes himself with him#god i love this show#i'm sorry!!#i don't even know if any of this made sense
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I have a question about Cassiel, can the changes in time also come to affect his memory of cassiel when he gets to the future or he always remembers absolutely all the changes he has made in each timeline?
Yes, it definitely does affect his memory! He even mentions in the game that he doesn't exactly remember where he even came from or what year he grew up in because of how much time traveling he's done.
He actually keeps a spare notebook and he writes down all his experiences in different time lines, people he has met and other stuff. Sometimes just his own name and age on the first pages just in case of the slim chances he forgets.
If you're asking if like, his memory is erased every time he time travels then no, he remembers it all but he still remembers what he can and writes it all down.
#If someone notices where he's based off of then come give me a big old kiss#He keeps a lot of pictures as well when he can and keeps those tucked in the notebook as well#yandere vn#yandere visual novel#yandere#male yandere#visual novel#yandere male#1859vn#1859 Cassiel#If I'm being completely honest he probably has multiple notebooks that he keeps somewhere safe#He really doesn't want to lose them or have anyone else find them
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Extremely bored and hungry and grumpy bc I don't know where the fuck I'm going at 9 for my last 2 hours
#staffing is a joke so usually they set it up where the 2 folks with this one kid habe to go into other flats at 9#bc he gets 2 nursing guild staff overnight and theres usually someone somewhere else finishing at that time#(COMPLETELY ignoring that for months management were very pissy at us for leaving early if the guild said we could#bc they 'arent here to replace us' nice tl see that held up. anyway)#naturally there has been no communication on wether or not thats happening#f1 already has 2 extra staff bc management seem to have ignored one kid being with his family over easter#and im not sure about f3#but i sure am considering just fucking leaving at 9 bc lbr theres no management in the building to find out#hnnggg#person im on with was talking earlier ablut how shes handed in her notice and has a new job too and no longer gives a solitary shit#i need to get outta here man#OH yeah and im working thr next 3 days. and hoping to go see charlie on my one day off but idek yet#say it with me folks! im FUCKING TIRED.
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