#astarlightmonbebe

[booksandwords]

Even getting comfortable enough to surrender his body, to engage in an act of intimacy that now felt ugly in his memory no matter which way he turned it, because he could not think about it and then think about the fact that the man pressing his lips across inches of skin was a lie. Had always been a lie. Maybe.

nothing left in my lungs for you by AStarlightMonbebe/ @astarlightmonbebe

One of the tags used is the inherent angst of betrayal. Set between eps 7 and 8 it does contain spoilers for the revelation that happens around that point and relies on that information for the story to work.

[tryingtimi]

Books of 2024 (in no particular order)

Hi, hello dears! Since I’m out here trying to bring back things, I’ll give a shot to this one too from last year. The “rules” were to list 9 books you’ve read and loved this year, and boy I’ve got recs to gush about. (somehow I could read 40+ books which is just insane)

No pressure tagging: @bloodlessheiratnight, @the-void-writes, @barbex, @indigowriting, @aalinaaaaaa, @approximately20blorbos, @wildswrites, @dyrewrites, @odysseywritings, @jadefyre, @goldfinchwrites, @sodaliteskull, @astarlightmonbebe, @tc-doherty, @forthesanityofstorytellers and anyone who’d like to join!

So Let Them Burn by Kamilah Cole. ya fantasy, Jamaican-inspired, dragon riders, M/F and F/F focus

God I wanted to yap about this one for so long. This book literally got me back to reading, so naturally it became an instant fav and a life-changing book. And, honestly, gave me hope for some YA since I’m not the audience for those usually. The setting is as breathtaking as fresh within the genre, and the story is a very exciting one with all the dragon riding, the academy and the gods that would loan their power. Not to mention the characters which I surprisingly grown to love very much. (And man the romance part made me kick my feet and squel in excitement at some point). So yeah, give it a try please all. Like, now.

Why We Swim by Bonnie Tsui. non-fic, great audiobook, title says all

The read that rekindled my love for swimming and being in the water. A very interesting little book about incredible lives that were saved by or moved by swimming and the waters, while it also shows light on some beneficial aspects that not everyone might know. It’s a half memoir/biography too, but that part wasn’t as impactful I’d say. However the rest did make a strong impression on me so I’d recommend this to everyone who wants to know whats the swimming and water crazed people’s deal.

Jade City by Fonda Lee epic&urban fantasy, east-asian martial art movies and the godfather vibes, grimdark

And here we come with the big guns. I didn’t know this story is gonna be the second all time fav fantasy series on my list, nor that Fonda’s gonna become the tradpub female writer idol for me, but life’s just that unpredictable. Seriously, this book has me by the throat and I don’t want the grip to soften. All that you can imagine from the bleak, smoke filled gangster life to the flying-jumping double kicks of Michelle Yeoh, it’s in it. The story also very heavily leans onto the political intrigue, and lore aspect so keep that in mind. Oh and the best ever erotica (for my taste personally) is sprinkled around there casually too, so there’s that.

Penance by Eliza Clark litfic, fake-true crime, thriller

I was never a true crime girlie, but I was a litfic one. This book is kind of a satire about how true crime impacts people, especially teenage girls, and what's up with the obsession over it. It also explores where reality and fiction blurrs, and how that can impact lives. A brutal read, in my opinion, and I ate it up in two days smh. Also, I'm going to be real honest with y'all here; I was very confused at the beginning because I never read a fake investigated interview/essay before, so I completely believed it to be true (even tho I found it in the fiction genre). So yes, Eliza Clark is brilliant in that sense, will definitely check out her other books, and will never forget the true tragedy she based the crime in the book. Oh and when she brought up tumblr and tumblrinas in the book... ugh.

Cultish by Amanda Montell. non-fic, great audiobook, title says it all

2024 was the year of litfic and non-fic on my end, or at least I tried and am still trying to get back to them. This one was a very interesting book about cults and how cult leaders use language as a tool to create their communities. Or, well, not just them but everyone. I love learning about how and why we use language as we do, and I also love learning about anything cult related even tho they make my skin crawl. This book luckily did justice on both ends.

Daisy Jones & The Six by Taylor Jenkins Reid. litfic, fake-rockumentary, fleetwood mac/stevie nicks-inspired

Continuing my march on the "reading the books my favourite series and movies are based upon" journey. Daisy Jones is something that was great in book, but excellent on tv. The whole fiasco and the documentary part works better on screen I think, especially after they literally wrote, produced, sang and perfomed songs. Like what the hell. Still listening to the songs cuz some of them are peak 70s. However, the book and the series has the same vibe, so that's why I could enjoy both. (not to mention it inspired me too) What I would really highlight tho, it’s Simon’s story in the series because my god I love her so much. Sometimes even wish it would have been about her than Daisy, lol.

The Poppy War by R. F. Kuang. (ya) historical fantasy, very heavy war stuff, chinese mythology

It's not ya, okay? There are elements that match that, but overall, it's just not. What the book (and the whole series) actually is tho, is a raw portrayal and an essay about the horrors of the Second Sino-Japanese War, and what went down there, coated with a touch fantastical world and some magical/mythical elements. Loved the first book to pieces. This one might be the closest to ya, with all the academy time, the hint of enemies to whatevers, but only up until the half of the book. After that it blurrs and morphs. Still, the whole series is the most educational fantasy I've ever read, and will always keep the first book as a favourite. It's something everyone should read at least once, I think. But never ask me about the last installment.

The Red Palace by June Hur. ya historical fantasy, mystery, romance

Imagine a book that literally reads like a korean period drama. I mean, literally. Funny enough, I needed a second try to get to this book, but after that, oh man it checked all the boxes. It's easy to read, a fun little murder mystery in the palace, and a great experience if you're a kdrama junkie like me. I still think about this book from time to time, and will read all the other works from the author for sure. (fun fact: the royal family stuff are usually historically accurate because that's June Hur's whole sthick, which i love that for her)

We Will Devour The Night by Camilla Andrew. gaslamp fantasy, court intrigue, light vs dark, some impeccable erotica

We all know and love Cammie. And trust to bring an amazing next installement to the The Essence of the Equinox. I loved the book to pieces, because it contained everything I'd crave in a continuation. An interesting and gorgeous expanded world, escalating political intrigue and a ton of great character interactions. While, of course we still got to spend time with our best girl Laila, and best dick Darius.

[killerandhealerqueen]

Honestly, this is more of a "thank you" than a follow forever to all of my mutuals and new friends who have absolutely made my 2023

Thank you all for enjoying my posts, my rants, my liveblogs, my fics, my headcanons...honestly, my everything. Y'all really made my 2023 because let me tell you, this year was rough. But yeah. I love y'all

@mishathewtf @hyperbolicgrinch @ahhhnorealnamesallowed @kpopfantasywriter @evil-moonlight @kpopfantasywriter @wifehwa @itsdeanwinchester @unknowwn701 @bestbuds55 @whumpy-gems

@zennialemo @sebyth @storge @cloudyyoungjaes @kavitawinchester @humanlighthouse @fourth-quartet @wack-overflow @nineninepetals @marulo @mahansblog @hils79 @jockvillagersonly @scoups4lyfe

@psychic-waffles @jaecomments @astarlightmonbebe @anonymwlw @missfangirll @brazilian-whalien52 @green-eyed-lover @gabrielokun @zzzhoonie @clawbehavior @writerwithoutsound @velistrae @bluebelle88 @backtomanyang @ranishereforphae @dangermousie

Here's to 2024 and let's hope it all treats us better than 2023

[thefeastandthefast]

tagged by @rocknghorss <3 thanks friend- it's fun having these little snapshots in time.

Last song: BOILED PEANUTS - Doechii

Favorite color: Nooo, I genuinely hate this question...

Last book: exhibition catalog for The Shape of Power: Stories of Race and American Sculpture

Last movie: Anora by Sean Baker! Loved it.

Last tv show: In Between 半熟男女. I dropped this at episode 7 even though I appreciate the existence of a cdrama that fully commits to exploring the lies and entanglements of self-absorbed, emotionally stunted young people who've never once effectively communicated their needs in their life. I love mess and there was some stylish cinnamontography but this drama desperately needed levity. Even my girl Zhou Yutong couldn't save it from the weight of its own self-importance.

Xin Yunlai really is pretty great though and I will definitely be checking him out in The Glory 贵女 when that airs, despite my indifference to Chen Duling. (Justice for Mofang!)

Sweet/savory/spicy: leaning towards savory in my advancing middle age

Last thing I searched online: "does broiling disinfect bread"

My parents sent me homemade shaobing (made with duck fat, pork floss, and scallions!!) but I came home super late to find the box on my porch gnawed through on one corner. Some critter had gotten their snout and paws into one of the bags and munched on three of my precious shaobing! FURY.

Worry not- I quickly gave up the idea of attempting to disinfect the remaining unmunched breads. Avian flu is still out there wilding and the concept of public health doesn't exist here anymore.

Current obsession: sadly, nothing

Looking forward to: finishing construction work on my studio space, upcoming birthday weekend trip to see the Recasting the Past exhibition at the Met, conference travel in September, season 2 of Flourished Peony (I heard April?), PRISONER OF BEAUTY (is there news, Marie???)

low-pressure tagging @gravitasmalfunction @elderflowergin @therukurals @numerodix @drivingsideways @fishylife @xiakeponz @astarlightmonbebe @everyfarthing and like, the lovely people who've somehow decided to start following me recently. What's up, y'all? *chinhands*

[blizzardfluffykpop]

Tagged by: @proudahgase-exol

🍓last song: Again? Again! - Xdinary Heroes

🍓favorite color(s): Light Pink, Dark Green, Aqua Blue

🍓last book: The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

🍓last movie: Smokey & The Bandit (I saw a jerry reed edit and well- had to watch this for the 77th time)

🍓last game: landing party (an alien strategy game on the independent)

🍓last show: Doctor Who

🍓Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet (real answer: sour)

🍓relationships status: delusional (single) (as Bunny said 🤭🙂‍↕️)

🍓last internet search: what's 2cm in inches? (it's 3/4 of inch btw)

Tagging: @astarlightmonbebe @kebbinorbit @tolkpopfan @winterchimez

[fuckyeahskzfics]

Color Me, So I Won't Lose Myself

Title: Color Me, So I Won't Lose Myself Author: AStarlightMonbebe Pairing: Changbin/Felix Length: Oneshot Rating: T Genre: Angst Warnings: Implied/Referenced Suicide, Major character death

Summary: Hi, Mom, I’m sorry.

Life was about death. You lived until you died, you fought until you couldn’t, and eventually you laid flat on your back and watched the endless universe above you, knowing you couldn’t win against a force as endless as that.

And then Seo Changbin met Lee Felix.

[tryingtimi]

Music Meme

Thank you for the tag, @tc-doherty! ❤️ You have done me a favour so now I can shamelessly share my songs for Liahn. If I understand it well, there should be a list of songs that best describe a character, so here we go.

Minor Feelings by Rina Sawayama

Own Worst Enemy by YONAKA

Angry Too by Lola Blanc

Heavy is The Crown by Linkin Park

The Tradition by Halsey

LUNCH by Billie Eilish

Daechwita by Agust D

Free by Tommee Profitt, SVRCINA

The Spine (feat. Ashley Barrett) by Darren Korb, Ashley Barrett

Don’t Go Insase by DPR IAN

Tagging: @the-void-writes, @bloodlessheirbyjacques, @wildswrites, @indigowriting, @aalinaaaaaa, @forthesanityofstorytellers, @thegoddesswater, @astarlightmonbebe and anyone who would like to join! <3

[killerandhealerqueen]

current vibes tag

Favorite color: emerald green/peacock blue

Last song I listened to: run back to you by lay, lauv

Last film I watched: Rebel Moon: parts 1 & 2

Currency reading: I haven't read anything for a while (i need to get back to reading my series that I bought I just haven't found time), mainly fanfiction

Currently craving: A nap

Currently watching: Nothing really, nothing's catching my attention, which is sad

Coffee or tea: Tea

tagged by @astarlightmonbebe

tagging (no pressure) @hyperbolicgrinch @theotherwhybietoldmeso @clawbehavior @eyesof-kkomi @ahhhnorealnamesallowed and anyone else who wants to play

[blizzardfluffykpop]

Thank you @everykebbie for tagging me!!

Favorite color: Light pink and dark green- but blue holds a special place in my heart nowadays

Last song I listened to: I'm Your Boy - The Boyz (I'm obsessed with chanhee's part- it's on repeat tbh)

Last film I watched: The Smurfs: The Lost Village (My friend put it on before I started helping her move yesterday~).

Currency reading: Nothing rn but I do have a rec to pick up soon~ which'll be The Midnight Library by Matt Haig~

Currently craving: A hot fudge sundae absolutely loaded with sprinkles and nuts... *for the past three days I should prolly go get one*

Currently watching: The Midnight Special (a 70s music show) if that counts- I'm on episode 40 rn- Chuck Berry is the host- and one of the guests is Fleetwood Mac- (Altho Jim Croce's and John Denver's episodes were elite tbh but this one is fun too)

Coffee or tea: Coffee in the morning, tea in the afternoon- no need to choose they're both good.

Tagging: @hugnyeons @annameww @astarlightmonbebe

[cumberbatchedandproud]

@seamayweed #seonhwi #otp: your sword still feels affectionate #just made myself cry nbd #<- now you've made me cry too #love the dearest friend & enemy concept of this so so so much #and that parallel right at the start #with hwi saying they are no longer friends and they are enemies now #vs. him saving seonho and saying he is his dearest friend #is already like a punch to the gut!!!! #also that overlay of the two times they stabbed each other??? @bienmoreau #literally no one is doing it like them.#by doing it I mean having just the worst time trying to maintain a childhood friendship into early adulthood 😔 #the my dearest friend my enemy and the Confucius saying abt having once loves someone it is delusional to hate them! #and AND THE FREAKING SCARED OF LOOKING BACK LINE!!! and seon-ho saying his country was always just behind him!!!! and FUUUKKK #also this reminded me of the lyric in Hamilton when he dies #my first friend my enemy // Maybe the last face I ever see #good gods! i hadnt seen seas 2nd set of tags!! literally end me! holy heck. sea coming in clutch as freakin ALWAYS in the tags game! #not much left of seon ho. i WEEP 😭😭😭😭😭 #making a set with his lines but the other way around??? I am inconsolable!!!! 😭😭😭 #(please do this. please sea please! i need it!!) #the fact that they love each other with the same intensity despite it all. through it all. because of it all. and!!! and #that they do find each other again at the end!! they are together again at the end the way the should have always been!!! #thinking abt the JC web and the quote there abt hating someone as much as you loved them and just. fuk if these two didnt Love each other! #more than sense or reason! more than themselves most of the time! certainly more than they ever hated each other and isnt that just it #they find each other again in their love because throughout everything its always been their love for each other that kept them coming back #kept them keeping each other alive and fighting to survive even if it means fight each other at times #there was never any possibility of truly separating them. two sides of the same coin and only able to be what they each are because of the #other being always right there at their back and their shadow self their other half and the only one they truly belong with #we really ARE all crying in the club tonight @astarlightmonbebe #'i dream of living a life where neither of us fears looking behind' #with 'my country was one step behind me this whole time' #if only i had known that sooner ;-; cries a river of tears #changed so much became other and still came back to each other. after everything

cashmere-caveman #what if a television show was so insane… 

tamino - my dearest friend and enemy // hozier - as it was

[orionhong]

🤠 ?

hmm i associate you with mai from atla, not for much of a reason, mainly because of that mai edit you made? by the way i love that edit so much

— mutuals send me 🤠 and i’ll tell you what character i associate you with!

[ourravenboys]

11. 25. 29?

11. Opinions on Kavinsky?

this is prob an unpopular opinion but i really didn’t like him....ngl i think he was the reason the dream thieves is one of my least favourite in the series whoops (i do think he got a terrible ending tho :/ )

25. Who is your favourite minor character?

(i mean idk if declans minor bc hes my fav character but other than him) i’ve always really liked orla and helen !!!! i wanna know more abt them tho they barely showed up in the books 

29. Do you have fancasts for any characters?

hahaa actually ive been meaning to post my age accurate trc fan cast for ages!!! thanks for reminding me ill do it today lol 

(trc ask meme!)

[blizzardfluffykpop]

Tagging: @hugnyeons @astarlightmonbebe @everykebbie @jojossweater

New tag game (because I'm feeling a bit better today 😎):

I got this

Tagging all my moots and followers. To name a few: @mastreworld @asherloki @dangertoozmanykids101 @magic-coffee @rhysaka @aahanna @redfoxwritesstuff @coffee-and-cogs @abby118 @alwida10 @sigridlaufeyson @alexakeyloveloki @supervillainarchaeologist @thelibraryofsylphide @kind-of-crazy-butthatsokay @perpetualwhimsy @decemberpdf @nildespirandum

[seungmin-wrecked]

46 and 41?

46. What are you paranoid about?

I used to be really paranoid about the dark. It was to the point where I would refuse to go outside once the sun went down out of fear and paranoia over what else could be out there. It's developed to only sounds when it hits nighttime. So, not as bad, but I am the embodiment of 👀 when I hear something at night. I'm not even paranoid about like robbers or smth, it's zombies I'm worried are going to come after me.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

I think, within reason, everyone does deserve a second chance. Another chance to prove themselves. People develop over time, and I know for sure that things I would get upset about now are different than things I have gotten upset about in the past. Time is able to mend mindsets and help us grow. Second chances can also take time to give, and I believe that's okay.

Thank you for sending me an ask!!! ❤️💕💖

[tryingtimi]

To Read in 2025

Thank you for the tag @goldfinchwrites! Always love seeing what everyone wanna get their hands on.

Bunch of litfic, magical realism, auto-buy epic fantasy and non-fic in the future. Very excited for the next year.

No pressure tagging: @bloodlessheirbyjacques, @the-void-writes, @barbex, @wildswrites, @tc-doherty, @erensattacktitancock, @astarlightmonbebe, @daydreamodyssey, @sodaliteskull, @indigowriting, @forthesanityofsome, @aalinaaaaaa and anyone who would like to join!

[thorne-archive]

sorry to be random, but i saw your post about your calenders, and idk if you scrapbook or journal, but you could always cut them out and repurpose them through decoration or collages in that sort of way

ooh maybe yeah! I was thinking of maybe cutting out the calendar by date and maybe reusing them in a monthly bujo spread of that makes any sense haha