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I don’t want to sound foolish. But, just remember, love brought you here. If you trusted love this far, don’t panic now.
James Baldwin, If Beale Street Could Talk
#literature#poetry#english major#writing#james baldwin#words#quotes#love#if beale street could talk#queer#queer lit#queer literature#basically I’m documenting#my book journey#or reading journey
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“An abnormal heat is occurring within the ceasing remnants of my mind”.
#encore au#im using a combination of the two wiki translations here by the way#my art#project sekai#sorry this makes zero sense if you don’t know what this au is about#so basically they’re all dead (joke)#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#emu otori#rui kamishiro#only nene and tsukasa died guys it’s all good#lowkey kind of hate how rui turned out but i’m proud of the others#you can see the improvement tbh#art#my aus#wonderlands x showtime#this is gonna take forever to upload they’re all a billion megabytes big because of the noise layer on the background#anyway i matched lyrics for this whole song to each of them. and like analyzed it. guys#i could give explain this if i wanted…..#maybe not now though……#this is what i did instead of my not even 3 paragraph long lotf essay due tomorrow for eng 👍#i have not even touched my document since third block#it can wait. encore wxs comes first#polysho#i guess#its doomed polysho if you guys like that#um i tried to keep the red from the original mv somewhere in each of them#tsukasas flower & emus dress strap & nenes nails & the weird thing on ruis shoulder all have the same shade color picked from reis hair#yaaay
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Learning to draw hands via Landoscar

Oops my hand slipped

#lando norris#oscar piastri#landoscar#maras art#idk why I’m so embarrassed to post my art but I wanna document my (hopeful) improvement#this is amateur hour#used the most basic reference ever for that second one but whatever lmao
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Every email I sent at work today is sent with the underlying message: please do your jobbbbbbb, I’m sick of working on this and you’re the only person with the answerrrrrs
Except for one email where the underlying message was: I DONT KNNNNNNOW. I DONT KNOW ANYTHING AND I NEVER HAVE
#I sent a doc that I’m basically the in between person on out to multiple people#and said that they left comments#please respond to them and then get the document back and they haven’t responded to any of them
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The Results Are In! (Again)
Welp, we’ll get ‘em next time…
But congratulations Plushie Gang for the victory!
I suppose that goes to show that between fluff and absolute misery, the good times will win out in the end! …But much like most singularities, it was won by the skin of the teeth so to speak.
I watched the poll tie about three times and I was like: “woah, my option needs to square up or it’ll be a tie after I subtract one from the count and I’ll have to consult The People™ for their random numbers.” Thankfully I didn’t have to do that as Plushie Gang had their sweep. So that DOES make my life easier.
Now. As for the other options… God AU (working on the name) Gang, we’re going to have to wait a while before I can bring this out from the slightly formed outline I had into reality. We fought hard, but it just wasn’t our season. Same thing with Doppelgänger Gang. Now, as for the Major Plot Twist Gang… I’m honestly considering canning the idea since the more I thought about it I was like: “Man… how am I going to cram all that into a smaller headcanon format?!” Yeah… I think that one may have to die in the document… I’ll think on it more.
Speaking of thinking… This is my second L in the polls I’ve run. I’m two for two in losses but this time I didn’t have to break the tie myself by subtracting one vote! Maybe I should recalibrate my taste…
Anywho, thank you all for not only voting but the higher voter turnout as well! We obtained 11 more people this time which was probably due to the fact that we have significantly more variety this time around.
But that’s all from me. Have a good day everyone, and I’ll hop right to it with the Plushie HCs.
See you then!
—Redline, over and out!
#fate series#fate grand order#fgo#fate go#fate/go#fgo headcanons#fgo x reader#All About Redline#I’m definitely going to have to revalute all of the ideas in that document#They’re all undercooked thoughtwise.#Because I had a few basic ones like#‘HCs for when you go to a fire works show’#‘HCs for when they watch your kid play a little league game’#‘HCs for Garden of Lost Will if it Was Actually Going For The Jugular’#‘HCs of them going to your idol concert’#‘HCs for when you both get sick’#You know that kind of stuff#but I was like:#I have to bring out the most interesting stuff in this doc or no one’s going to vote out of sheer boredom#Which is how we ended up with the final roster#So that was THE process of me picking out stuff for this
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“ I can just go back to being alive” omg I’m crying this boy is such a mood
#percy jackson#pjo disney+#magnus chase#mcga#I’m basically just documenting my experience with this book now#and I don’t really intend on stopping#purplepom reading magnus chase
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me venting about specific aspect of game designs. Also I choose violence towards a particular part of ‘elitist gamers’.
How to explain to game designers and gamers that making fun of people for picking the ‘easy mode’ for a video game, is fucking shitty and elitist as fuck.
Especially how they completely forget any fucking nuance of ‘hey maybe this person is playing a game in a genre that they are unfamiliar with and want to play on a easier difficultly setting for their first playthrough to familiarise themselves with the gameplay and its mechanics.’ Maybe they even want to experience a narrative FIRST, over say a frustrating time with the game, like are you seriously going to point and laugh at someone for wanting to experience something new?
Like dude I cannot stress how these kinds of elitist assholes are the same ones who ACTIVELY MAKE IT INTIMIDATING for people who WANT to get into a specific piece of media that intrigues them, and by extension YOU ARE SCARING AWAY A POTENTIAL FAN WHO COULD LEGITIMATELY VIBE WITH THE GAME AND ITS WIDER COMMUNITY FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS.
Like seriously how dare people want a new experience, so let’s ACTIVELY make fun of them for NOT ‘getting good’!! /sarcasm
#about shin megami tensei 4#Came across a post about it making fun of a h games journalist who made an article documenting their experience#with the game and they found it challenging that they put it on easy mode#and like look I get it SMT is supposed to be challenging HOWEVER. That shouldn’t fucking gatekeep people from giving it a#legitimately try and wanting to experience something different.#and so in that post people make fun of the journalist in the tags and it’s like. YOU ARE THE ASSHOLES WHO SCARE POTENTIAL FANS FUCK YOU#I think what makes this particularly worse is that apparently SMT4 MAKES FUN OF YOU FOR PICKING EASY MODE#wow what a way to turn me off from a game guess I’m uninstalling it and reinstalling DOA Dimensions now /hjks#<- though legitimately that DOES TURN ME OFF#shallow rambles#shallow vents#hi. Have people ever heard of nuance in game design and game experiences??? Apparently not!!! /sarcasm#hm. Thinking about that soulsbourne video critiquing the whole ‘gif gud’ mantra#like at least soulsbourne is hard but doesn’t MAKE FUN OF YOU FOR BEING BAD AT THE GAME. Like it’s as if it WANTS YOU TO GET BETTER AT#THE GAME!!!! That’s NUANCED GAME DESIGN THAT DOESNT COMPROMISE ITSELF!!#idc if the games journalist is bad at games. If you act like this towards casual gamers who WANT to experience something difficult#Then I think you’re NOT FUN AT PARTIES AND I DONT WANT TO EVEN INTERACT WITH YOU#basically why do we have to punish and make fun of people for not being ‘good at video games’ especially those who WANT to try something#different. If anything we should be applauding that fact. NOT PUNCHING DOWN.#there’s also something slightly ableist about it because it implies everyone SHOULD pick up on details immediately but not#everyone’s brains work like that. some people have short term memory issues or have a hard time ‘reading patterns’ etc.#Waking up and choosing violence this morning
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not to sound like a redditor again but holy fuck it’s actually so annoying to be smarter than most people and it creates actual problems in my life. I have to be so careful about anything I say because even if it’s correct, people my level and above me will feel like I am making them look bad or challenging their authority so every fucking thing I say has to be this careful construction of explaining the same thing over and over again until I can finally lead them to the right answer so they don’t feel like I’m smarter than them.
#like I gave some VERY basic background on how APIs work to make my answer of ‘since the SME isn’t here you really need to talk to the#developer’ make sense#and 5 very very frustrating ‘well can they just do this?’ ‘yeah if they can target that endpoint’ ‘well can they target that end point?’#‘I don’t know and it’s not documented so you’ll have to ask [developer]’ ‘oh okay but what about this?’#and then repeat that 5 times but each time the field suggestion is different#but she’s technically my boss so I can’t even say ‘this is why I said you’d need to ask [developer] I do not have the answer you need’ bc#bc the last time I did that I got yelled at.#it’s even worse with my male superiors and like#I don’t know if I’m actually just smarter than everyone or if I’m just like super autistic or something????#it’s such a stupid thing to complain about too and it sounds so arrogant and self centered#but also like. that is my experience…#but also I can’t imagine that I’m actually meaningfully smarter than 3/4 of the people I meet????????#like am I just unlucky?????
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before i started smoking i asked 🪽⚫️ if it were okay for me to start and it just pulled me closer from behind, scooted me closer to him, kissed my neck with a smile, and said “yeah, as long as you don’t over do it like your mum said.” and it just sat and watched me, is still watching me. i’m.
#sorry for publicly talking about stuff that happens between us#i just don’t want to forget these things#so i’m basically posting about them for documentation#ender.txt#🪽💌posting
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apparently i didn’t earn enough money before i turned 26 (when i was diagnosed) and therefore don’t qualify for disability 🙃
#like i worked basically as an unofficial nanny for my nephews but i didn’t have like a salary or anything#and we don’t have any documentation on it so im shit out of luck#i’m fuming rn
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okay guys i didn’t say this but i was the one left in charge of The List. i Listed Things. 😁 my list was very beautiful. also i got to tell people what to do which is always nice
#we were basically cataloguing what the university had and what it didint have in terms of. supplies#in terms of stationary (?)#(<- pens pencils coloured pencils paper cardboard tapes etc)#(+ psych documents and tests + printed dynamics/activities)#we had to organise it since it was everything jumbled together. and then list everything#every group has to have a little box with the stuff they’re going to use for the project. but we had to organise everything first#the issue was we didn’t know what/how to do. what can we throw away what can we archive etc#well anyway. i got to do The List. my very beautiful List.#these tags are a mess. i just woke up i’m not fixing anything sorry
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Anyone wanna play fourth edition dnd with me? It’s kind of my pet dnd edition (5e is where I’m comfortable, 3.5 makes little sense to me; 4e is just kind of quirky and I actually like its system of powers). My own gaming group is pretty much only 5e which is fine but makes it hard to try out other systems (there’s a few who are big into Pathfinder 2e which I also like but have never played, but not enough who are interested in learning it to actually play).
This is only like 25% serious btw…unless?
#dnd#dnd 4e#basically I wanna run dark sun in an edition where I’m not having to use a million optional rules for rest and healing just to make it as#deadly as it’s meant to be ya feel?#now I have figured out the optional rules etc that I would use for dark sun in 5e#I have a whole document of notes for 5e Dark Sun#and I wanna play it too#but yknow the setting is actually properly supported by 4e and I wanna mess around with it
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look, man, I don’t even know if I’m writing. yeah I’m putting words on the paper. no I don’t think they’re a part of the fic. yeah it’s on the document for that fic. no there won’t ever be an opportunity to use all this. no it doesn’t really make sense. yeah you gotta go now. yeah I really love it. I’m having fun. I will never touch any of this again.
#Like I’m here#I’m putting words on the document#I’m not sure they have any place in the fic at all lmao#Writing is writing? Maybe?#Am I ever going to update this fic#I feel like I just updated it because I work on it like daily#But in reality one of the ones I’m working on hasn’t been updated since like last summer#And one was posted like a month ago#Sighhhhh#Today tomorrow and Thursday are basically the only times that I have free time until like. July.#I want to updateeeee
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Totally torn between wallowing in my own misery about not having the time or energy to do a damn thing (let alone what I want to be doing- which is getting over myself and just writing the damn lady terror story) and forcing myself to go outside so I can make myself more miserable. Can’t win
#like I basically trashed my chapter 1 document the other day with edits and it is now almost completely different and I hate it#but I haven’t even worked my way back to the place I’m stuck on and I hate everything I write rn#and ofc this wouldn’t be an issue if I had a writer friend to talk things over with but I don’t#and no one wants to interact with lady terror anyway or my fic ideas bc I’m not pandering to popular pairings#I won’t engage in negative self talk and say that what’s the point bc I know there’s a point#but I’m well within my rights to morb bc god damn it is fucking hard out here sometimes
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i hate data storage
#my 90+ page google doc of baby sitters club notes and analysis somehow got deleted and they can’t recover it bc it’s been over 25 days#so basically i have lost the majority of years’ worth of my recorded thoughts on my number one thing to ever exist#it took me a year and a half to read all those books when i was reading 5 a week every week#there’s no way i’m ever going to be able to recreate all of that information#like. i don’t even know what to fucking do that document was everything#and like yes part of it is on me for not adequately backing it up but why can google store all my personal data in perpetuity forever but#not recover a document that was accidentally deleted 2 months ago#useless fucking company and useless fucking recovery tool if it only goes back 25 days!#anyways i’m literally fucking devastated.
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What was I complaining about I love academic writing :3 <- is transcribing methods in an autistic way
#ra speaks#personal#methodology is fun bc autism brain can explicitly and clearly explain in detail how To Do The Thing it’s very nice#it does help that I wrote a physical methods Bible for myself as I experimented/did field work/etc. so I’m basically just copying that into#my proposal document but in bigger more professional sentences without my shorthand or notes.
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