#bc tbf I'm generally fine at work

[vamprin]

boss just gestured to my cane and asked "so how long have you been........ Suffering? for?" And like y'know what that's certainly a way to put it

[mona-risms]

So I saw this fan art from @zzzzi.exe on tiktok and I just needed to request this!!!

May I PLEASE request a Racer Rumi x Female Reader who is her Race Engineer/Race Strategist (Part of the pit crew and is responsible for communicating with the driver during the race. Gives updates on things like lap times, tire conditions, gaps between drivers, weather, and strategy changes.)

Like, imagine reader just trying to remain professional but her stubborn girlfriend keeps trying to flirt with her through the radio system/earpiece while racing and the reader is just worried that Rumi might crash if she doesn't stop flirting and focus on the damn road instead.

Or if you have another idea for the fic feel free to change or add it! Love your works btw♥

◆ MAIN COURSE: racer!Rumi x race engineer!fem!Reader

◆ TYPE: SFW, romantic

◆ ALLERGEN WARNINGS: The only thing worth warning about is the possible inaccuracy bc idk SHIT about professional racing

◆ NOTES: IN THE NAME OF TATE MCRAE IN THE F1 MOVIE SOUNDTRACK I HAD TO BUT ALSO I'M SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I'M HAPPY YOU ENJOY MY STUFF HAHAHA

First of all Rumi looks SO GOOD in that fit MY FINE SHYYYYYTTTTTTT MY SHAYLAAAA anyway let's say that instead of HUNTR/X being an idol group, they're racers in the HUNTR/X team okay shhh

So radio playback loves you two first of all LMAO. It's common knowledge that you two are gfs, and if anyone were to ever go "ohhh but that's so unprofessional 😒😒😒" either they clearly haven't seen you two work and/or they shut up REAL fast when they do. The two of you are almost always paired up w each other to be the driver and the engineer bc of how fluid your connection is.......even when Rumi doesn't seem like she's completely concentrated on the race (she is but she can multitask w her gf)

For all the awkwardness Rumi has in a relationship bc let's face it she's a cute loser no matter what, she get Real Brave once she's in racer mode—could be the Insane boost in cool factor or the fact that her face is hidden so you can't see the way she's blushing lightly whenever she hears you in her ear, giving her feedback and instructions as she drives, but she can't help but flirt with you through the radio 🤷‍♀️. Not like anyone could ever get mad at her for it though, not when she's completely locked tf in with the race anyway

"Radio check."

"Loud and clear."

"You could be clearer if you were next to me."

A sigh made its way out of you before you can even stop it, the sound coloured with exasperation and a tinge of amused affection, "I'm in your ear right now, and the only person you can hear is me. Is that not enough for you?"

You can practically hear the shrug your girlfriend does, usually paired with a quirk of her lips and smug look on that unfairly pretty face, "You know it's not the same."

"Yes, well, neither are you when you're in the car," you shot back with a chuckle, one that you knew had her bracing in anticipation no matter when and where you used it, "we both know you're hopeless when you're out of it."

"Wh-- hey!"

"Just saying. Keep your focus on the road, yeah? Can't give you what you really want when you're injured."

"Then keep me in line—no one does it better than you."

"Obviously. I'm on radio for a reason."

Like I said, radio playback LOVES you two. Not just bc of your snappy instructions and her millisecond reactions, but also bc of the banter that weaves between the two of you despite the high need for concentration. Where other drivers and engineers are whiteknuckling through it and even sometimes communicating wrong, Rumi is DRIVING like nobody's fucking business as she picks up on every single bit of feedback you give her, even when you're in the middle of speaking

Not just radio feedback though but races and streams in GENERAL. Tbf the girl got a hell of a headstart in her life—Celine most likely in this case would've trained her to be an racer for as long as she's ever really known. Just top it off with her connection with you in more than the professional way and she's weaving through it all without question. Whoever's doubting Rumi just bc she's gfs with her engineer Really does lose whatever words they have when she's speeding past everyone else like it's a fucking joke

Just bc she's extremely adept in the racetrack however doesn't mean you're not constantly worried about her anyway when she splits her attention on you. Is she weaving through the track like she wasn't having much issue at all? Yes. Is she following your every bit of instruction? Absolutely. But as endearing as you find your gf's antics, Keep Your Freaking Attention On The Race Please

"Could we go to the supermarket after this? We ran out of ramyeon and the girls wanted snacks."

The telltale beep doesn't sound out immediately, but when it does, it's followed by your ever-so-exasperated yet professional deadpan tone, "You're planning out a shopping date in the middle of a track."

"..yyyes..?" Despite all the noise and the amount of g-force slammed on her as she maneuvered the car, her voice was still steady amidst the chaos, "You're not in the mood for it?"

"No, I am, just--" a click of your tongue, " you're going to lose time in turn 14."

It doesn't even take a second for her to switch back into focus, "I'm catching dirty air, want me to--"

"--undercut, yes, box, Rumi, box--"

And without further instruction, as if Rumi had already anticipated your words, she quickly swerves into the pit stop and lets the crew do the work.

"Not gonna greet me?"

"I'm at the wall, Rumi—you'll lose an engineer if I left it."

She pouts slightly, despite the helmet concealing her expression, "But I miss you."

"Then finish this quick and you'll have me."

With a little grin, your girlfriend peels off back into the track, "Engineering my victory, are we?"

"That was terrible. Push now."

"Yes, ma'am."

No surprise that she wins in the end, with the way your communication is PEAK and she practically outperforming the car LOL. And every time she wins, she will always look for you before making a beeline like a lost puppy, in comparison to how she is inside the car 😭

As you speak to the pit crew about today's race, you're interrupted by a certain someone hugging you from behind and leaning all of her weight on you.

"Babe," you chuckled as you turned to wrap your arms around her, "you're heavy."

"Mmm..." She nuzzled the crook of your neck before pressing a kiss against your skin and then murmuring, "How was that? Did I do good?"

"You got P1, didn't you? I don't think you need me to tell you."

"Yeah, but..."

The pit crew members at the corner of your eye are sharing fond smiles between them as they watch the blatant display of affection before turning away to give the both of you your moment as you moved a hand up to pat her on the head, "Yeah. You did really well today. ..Still up for the shopping date?"

"Mhm. Just.. gimme a moment to remember what standing still feels like."

"You've been doing this for over half a decade now. You don't need an excuse to hold me."

Her cheeks redden slightly, but her hold on you tightens, "No but.. 's less embarrassing."

"What was that? I couldn't hear you."

Rumi drew her head back up to lightheartedly glare at you, "Okay, now you're just being mean."

"Yep," you smiled, popping the 'p' as your hand moved down from her head to tuck a stray strand of purple hair behind your lover's ear, "you make it way too easy."

[hackedmotionsensors]

oh yeah! I watched Deadpool vs Wolverine last night lol

I had the chance to see it with my crew but it meant going down to hollywood and i didn't wanna do that.

But man.....that sure was something.

I enjoyed the yaoi. And I enjoyed Blade (when he showed up I almost cried)

But idk if it was my mom's TV or just how movies are in general but I kept having to turn it up and down and I couldn't figure out the subtitles so I couldn't understand half fo what was going on. There were also great big moments of standing around and talking which is FINE but also....made it REALLY DIFFICULT when I couldn't HEAR anything.

But it was a really sweet tribute to the Pre-MCU movies but also kind of.....sad??? Like.....if you kicked someone out of their house and were like "This is a tribute to the people I kicked out of this house. Bless"

Its not that ....severe but it was a weird feeling. And hopefully I don't get in trouble for saying that since ...where I work lmao but I'm saying that as a fan that has been there SINCE Blade. SINCE that first X-men movie. Since the 90s X-men cartoon AND the 90s FF cartoon which my friend made me watch bc she liked Reed and it was...wow.

So Yeah. A weird experience but I also....understood the sentiment.

Also the really long deadpool fight made me really tired LOL Like I get it and they made fun of it as well but I was so zonked at that point (TBF I was recovering from thanksgiving dinner and my mom was juuuuuuuuuust about to start being a nightmare as she's one to do during the holidays)

TBH some of the fights were very........lackluster to me BUT IN MY DEFENSE I WORK IN ANIMATION AND SOME OF THE STUFF WE CAN DO IS SO BANANAPANTS CRAZY COOL (not me I do drama and silly scenes bc I'm just a silly billy that likes crying)

But the Car Fight. I get it. I get the yaoi of it. That was easily my favorite fight LMAO

Lol i think the other thing might be that I've never really been the biggest Deadpool fan. Like he's fine but I've already experienced enough comic con/anime con deadpools who...tested every last nerve in my body.

But I am always here for Wolvie. I will always be here for Wolvie.

And I hate Tom from Succession so much. LMAO

[rockanroller]

i think one of my biggest concerns about viv's content (which has become heavier since seeing how she and raph have reacted to push-back against viv's mis-matched portrayals of SA overall but particularly both viv & raph's portrayals of SA in episode 4) was that she never actually had "good intentions" for what she's trying to say. or maybe she did at a point, but it got lost/blurred over time.

yes, it *is* a good message to attempt to give support to the "imperfect victim," the assholes who need a little empathy despite their bark and bite, bc they all still suffered horrible things that are unimaginable to some of us, and they deserve the love and healing they were denied just as much as the "perfect victim" does, but...

the risk that message can come with is emboldening assholes and "imperfect victims" who have no intentions of changing, who want to be and act horribly to others and/or themselves without consequence, who continue the cycles of abuse put upon them. tbf, this is generally unavoidable, but handling it poorly can amplify the numbers or confidence of said emboldened assholes.

the impression i always got from her work was "oh so i'm a monster? fine, then i'll act like one, deal with it" while ironically simultaneously being unable to handle being perceived as "a monster."

my concern from the start was that viv may not *be* someone who has genuinely been treated/hated unfairly (for her *entire* existence, she was def treated/hated unfairly for some of it) despite many attempts to change and "be better"--and she instead is someone who refuses to self-reflect outside of "people hate me" and wants to be allowed to be and act shitty w/o consequences "because trauma" w/o having to consider others and in an apparent effort to act fully self-interested. (which yes, all that can be a trauma response but it doesn't excuse you for how you behave/act towards others.)

it's not illegal to be selfish, but to live the kind of life where you continually act only in your own self-interest creates a very isolated and unstable foundation where you're continually burning bridges and generating misery for not only others but also yourself. we've seen this pattern continually with viv.

how i've seen viv act over time, and how she and raph have acted recently throughout the drama with episode 4, with viv seeming to continually adjust her defenses/like tweets to fit whatever argument she's trying to one-up... i'm not confident w/her intentions... and i've given her a *lot* of chances and empathy to attempt to understand where she's coming from, but i find my understandings for her becoming more and more contradicted by her own words & actions.

[starpaths-writing]

Looking at skgy on twt and there's this up-and-coming skgy author (i call them that bc i see a lot of ppl hype up their writing + they have a low number of skgy fics published to date but they seem to have plans to write more) who got a reply on one of their twts recommending xiajin's gold fever... AND THE AUTHOR SEEMED LIKE THEY HAD NEVER READ THAT FIC BEFORE. WE ARE LOSING THE ANCIENT TEXTS IN THIS SHIP FANDOM OR WHATEVER THAT PHRASE IS

Do people not go through a ship's tag on ao3? Do people only start following from the date they get into a ship and ignore all the history past page 1? Am i weird for spending weeks on months going through the entire skgy ao3 tag when i first got into the ship over a year ago? Do we really have that much skgy content now that ppl feel no need to go digging for more (and when i first got into the ship in late 2023, there was already quite a decent amount)?

I'm probably not giving enough grace bc everyone has that period where they're new to a ship so perhaps they haven't really started digging yet and xiajin hasn't posted in a while, but that really shocked me. But another part of it is that lately i feel like i've seen more and more skgy fans on twt bemoan not having content and i'm like if you (general) haven't read gold fever for instance... what else haven't you read? There's a lot of good stuff in the skgy ao3 tag if you dig (iirc, i think i really enjoyed works from the 2021-early 2023 period), and we can hype those works up in the meantime (although tbf the skgy ao3 tag is p active. I have been in ship fandoms before with FAR less constant activity). Or maybe it's just the minority being vocal and the majority of fans do pore over the tag and older content silently. But idk it just makes me sad to see ppl pretend like we have to keep building from the ground up when ppl in the past have already laid bricks...

(On that note, I feel obligated to give a skgy fic recommendation... i'd like to offer up you know you should —. Story-wise, it's a non-idol AU where nurse dk meets the absent son of one of his patients and hates him immediately, but despite never seeming to see eye to eye, time brings them closer. It was a fic i read early on when i was first getting into this ship and to this day i still consider it the best fic in the skgy tag. I haven't read it in a long while tbh, but from what i remember the story was good, it characterized the two and the messy skgy dynamic very well, the slow burn was enjoyable, and the author writes emotions well (balances humor and serious throughout, the characters' feelings or emotion/vibe of the scene are visceral). Lawd i just skimmed it again so i could better comment on it and it's too good. I remember back then i also appreciated how it included switch gyky/skgy (even if in-story the preference is skgy) bc at the time i was wading through the tag, a lot of fics would either just do skgy or gyky exclusively - which is fine! But skgy switch for sure imo, that is simply just their dynamic.

Anyway... complete topic change but Skgy just feels too hard for me to write these days, i feel like i no longer have a good grasp of their characters. Maybe i need to just FINISH things, actually turn my outlines into finished stories, and it'll come back to me but will it? Maybe i need a break from svt twt fr and try to remember what excited me abt this ship in the very beginning to fire me up again... i do really like some of my wips but i feel like i won't live up to what 2023/early 2024 me was cooking)

[nasoleil]

Project:Freqs State of Affairs Feb 2025

Script: 30k. Aiming for (minimum) 200k but we'll see lol.

Concepting for the title screen and GUI.

Yuri's base sprite done. Some BGs secured.

No programming done lmao. Once I get some more assets finalized I'll psych myself up to booting up Ren'Py officially. (listen I'm one of those people who has to learn by doing okay it's fine)

The boys are coming along. Still futzing around with some elements of their designs, like height and body type.

Dae and Zev got made shorter and I like it. I like Yuri being a beanpole lol. Makes him slightly less of a stereotypical twink, I think. (I didn't really want him to be particularly twinky, but I just can't help making my MCs faithful to my preferred aesthetic, it's a sickness)

I think I'm very close to figuring Ilya out. Bro has given me so much grief. (which is honestly perfectly in character for his sadistic ass)

... poor K. Doesn't even have a proper name yet lmao. (tbf that's his fault, he won't agree to anything I offer him) At least I really like the design for his face and hair. It's not that I don't want to design him, it's more just that Firbolg and Ilya are so close to being done, I wanna come to some kind of accord with them before I move on. I'm not even 100% sure if that's the body type I wanna give him, but I do want him to be more 'average' shaped.

The thought process was:

Yuri; what I'd enjoy drawing the most. Wide shoulders, some muscle, but generally tall and lean.

Dae; lithely muscular but not huge. Agile. His species is lizardlike and he's extremely active so he'd definitely have that bigger upper body, tho I'm debating about what to do with his tummy.

Zev: Huge. 'Vanity' muscles bc he spends a lot of his time working out and is indeed very vain. So, the 6-pack, the hip lines, allathat. (I have very few characters like this lmao so I wanted to experiment with one. Even my other muscular characters tend to have working muscles, not vanity muscles)

Ilya; skinny, small, in direct contrast to how fucking dangerous he is. Very much insect-inspired. Small and brightly colored to tell people to get the fuck away or get stung.

K; more 'normal' or 'average' body type as a direct contrast to the others who are closer to being more 'ideal.' I wanted to do this purposefully bc I didn't want him to be a carbon copy of one of the others, and this body type is so little represented in the type of story I'm telling.

Firbolg: technically my partner's character so the direction I got about his appearance was "6'5", yaoi shaped, three red lines for a face" and I had to run with that lmfao. (He's not actually a robot, he's a [redacted: you'll have to play the game when it comes out] but he looks Like That for a reason)

[melodic-haze]

Hello again, I have an actual ask unlike what I sent this morning. I know a lot about the types of characters you do like such as Robin and Bella, but what about the characters you generally don't like or couldn't care much for? I like hearing peoples opinions, and I wouldn't want to ask for characters you wouldn't enjoy writing for either.

Also, didn't know you haven't reached Penacony yet, so sorry for the Sparkle ask. May you get there soon to see your girl Robin in all of her glory.

-🍎

Oh shit??? This is such an interesting ask acc I haven't thought about what chrs I don't really care to write about

First off though to get it out of the way, DON'T WORRY AB THE SPARKLE ASK!!! I'm perfectly fine with spoilers (just moreso the fact that I don't actively seek content out nowadays cuz I'm busy) and I love the characters in the story and out as their own individual. I usually write character-related stuff in order and in my own time, while other things such as discussions are more immediate cuz I don't have to really think on it, which is why you haven't acc seen me answer it yet HAHAHA

Anyway tbf, for one the obvious has to be men. I don't really care to write for male chrs just bc of my orientation. Sure I like some of them (there's the thought of opening platonic reqs coming to mind from time to time) but idc to write them in a romantic perspective or anything beyond platonic stuff 🤷‍♀️ but really I already said that in my rules page so this was a given HAHA

Otherwise? Idk actually, not bc I'm indecisive but bc I acc have no preference I don't think? Like ofc I'm not gonna write for people I don't know, so Natlan rn is a bit of a question in my mind bc I haven't really been actively keeping up with Genshin anymore. But I'm??? Very open to anything 👍

I write the characters the way I do by not only using canon stuff as reference ofc but also by analysing them and then acting out my assumed personality of them in my head. It's why I keep saying I adore using dialogue in a few of my works, bc I think of them in the way an actor would while they're improvising, if that makes sense. I used to do theatre so I think I was doomed to write stuff by splitting my head with some sort of personality constuct I've crafted in my mind somehow. I admit it's acc a lil weird to do that for smut cuz I'm getting myself off in my head in multiple ways but still

There was ONE character I was initially iffy with though, and that was Jade due to the controversy wrapped around her in regards to her character. In the end I've decided to accept requests for her bc I DO wanna write for her as well, but I don't like the thought of possibly getting mauled online just bc like idk "ohhhh you're writing for a slaver 👹👹👹" or smth 🫠 maybe this is bc I originally came from the dumpster fire that is Twitter but still

I sound nonsensical my bad I'm very scattered all the time HAHAHAHA but tldr I don't actually mind whatever! I'm very flexible when it comes to different chrs and their personalities, whether they be carefree or serious or whatever it is. It's really best to just go through the masterlist and see which characters are on there to know who I'm happy to write for. If they're not there, I've either forgotten/don't know they exist or I don't wanna write for them, be it bc idk them well enough or for some other reason

[prismatoxic]

Any thoughts on S4 of Lower Decks so far? If it’s okay to ask.

I mean Tbf it’s only 3 episodes in so far.

But I’ve been enjoying it.

hi sorry, i have been. getting a bunch of weird asks lately so this one slipped under the radar

i haven't gotten around to watching yet! my partner works for a living and has a limited amount of time to watch shows, and i'm not going to watch it without him. obviously i've been thinking about lwd considering my recent discussion/art of my fics... but i'm thinking about a lot of stuff right now, lol.

we might wait until the whole season is out to binge it, bc that's how we watched the other 3 (we did try to watch 3 as it was airing but got sidetracked after reflections and had to try again later). i adore the team for putting the episodes out one at a time, genuinely, but sometimes binging works better for us both, lmao.

of course waiting that long means i will see spoilers. i haven't seen any major ones yet but i do follow enough trek blogs to be aware of the general ideas (voyager homage, moopsy...), but i'm way less spoiler averse than my partner is so i'll probably be fine.

if anything, i've only heard good things (from sources whose opinions i care about) so i am looking forward to it!

[catboybiologist]

I can be pretty US brained sometimes, sorry, so this is the first time I'm hearing about the Cass review, and my first time hearing about Hillary Cass at all. I'll probs have more to say at some point (which uh OH MY FUCKING GOD 388 PAGES IM A GRAD STUDENT OW MY TIME) but my immediate reaction is a couple of things:

Many, many literature reviews and reports that advise medical already exist to this degree, the most dominant of which are WPATH and UCSF standards of care.

Based on the news about this, it seems that she's talking more about doctors being "afraid" to speak up bc bias, while failing to accept that her position is already the status quo. Also, general lol @ what she's saying

The criteria she's using to discredit studies represent a fundamental misinterpretation of observational vs experimental studies. Again, the "impossible standard" here is trying to treat this as an experimental as opposed to an observational situation. It's like trying to create a control group of a planet not going through global warming in an ecology study

If I'm reading right (which tbf I'm just skimming [literally TAing a class rn lol] page 51 literally straight up says that they're excluding any study with "unconcious bias" in their questioning, so uh....

the only studies that would meet their standards of a randomized control would be wildly unethical, and they basically outright state this on page 50? So yes, a literally impossible standard of evidence

Don't have time to go through each paper rn but literally most of these look fine? And they're disregarding a shitton more? The fuck is this lit review? I know lots of studies that are fantastic that directly go against the conclusions here.

Just to clarify my background, I don't have specific expertise here, I have a BS in molecular bio, a MS in bioinformatics (bio+CS), and I'm working on a PhD in molecular bio. And this is my cursory look. So huge disclaimers but yeah ofc this is BS. Disregard it, this is a clear case of the public latching on to the one "expert" that is willing to say what they want in the face of the thousands of others saying something else.

[yeo-rims]

Hello Tams~ How are you? I hope you've had a relaxing weekend. Not sure if you got my previous ask cause I tried the new ask function :P but I hope you did.

In any case :D can you talk about the fav dramas you listed in your form? Like who your fav characters/relationship or just generally what your fav thing is from those shows? :)

I know we already discussed Inspector Koo a but, but the other ones I've personally seen and also love are doom at your service, reply 1988, and misaeng... but I'm also curious about the other ones you've listed.

Anyway I hope you get a good week this upcoming week!! —🧚🏻‍♀️💖

Hello, dear valentine!! I'm doing better, I had a bit of a stressful week, but everything is fine, thank you for asking.

Tbf I don't remember all of the dramas i listed because I have at least 15 dramas that I consider favorites, but I'll try my best:

days: everything about their relationship and myul mang becoming more human, the way dong kyung had a life outside of her romance and work, but also how she was so lonely despite all that. how the two of them found a way to create life (literally!) even if he was doom itself and she was dying. i just think it's a very nice show that made me feel! things more than the usual. (love triangle aside).

reply 88: this was the last drama i fell in love with before things got bad in my life, and oh boy, it resonated a lot with me. every dynamic in the show is precious and well thought, the characters feel like regular folks going through the day and i am easily sold if nostalgia is involved. but i dont think it was so much about the 80s nostalgia, but like they said, longing for their youth days, how things were simpler and the world was as big as one's neighborhood. i think it's a very cozy show, that also talks a lot about changes, growing up (and growing apart), and death.

misaeng: if i still know the name of a character after years of something then it means it has impacted me a lot. jang geu rae was my baby and i was ready to die for him, i feel like r88 this is also a slice of life, but way less cozy in some ways. the team 3 dynamics were everything to me, lee sung min is amazing in here (as he is in everything), and his relationship with siwan... GOD. all the other stories, our main 4 interns, kang sora! being the best, the relationship between the other team leaders, every glimpse we saw about their lives... i finished that ready to d*e for siwan and look where i am now.

now the ones i think i've mentioned: school 2013 is the only one in the series that managed to capture my heart, mostly because the teachers and the students worked together so well, the storyline was cohesive in a way the other ones couldnt do, the bromance of the century "the thing i'm abandoning is you" like wtf, who gave them the right. red sleeve just broke my heart bit by bit and i was ready for that. i love romances that are fcked up, either because it's a tragedy or the people in it are not that great, and i think they delivered so well the good and problematic aspects of their relationship. it was the best portrayal of a power dynamic couple i've seen in dramas, one that didnt gloss over the fact, but also showed us how complicated it is to be in that situation, bc deok im was in love, despite her better judgment. i think ep 12 was the best ep in television last year, the way san was shown as a broken kid because of his grandfather's abuse, how they showed everything. i could talk about it for days. healer is just everything it is fun, it has action, the romance is truly everything i want in life, the stakes are high but the drama is never too boring or let us too nervous. hacker ahjumma? amazing. ex-cons raising a kid? perfection. jcw can kick me in the stomach and i'll be like "but he was in healer...".

i think this is way too long already, but if there's another one you want me to talk about, just ask me! i love remembering all the things that made me love a drama and all the ways they continue to do so.

hope you have a nice week too, valentine!

[redandfranticfeelings]

'tag things making fun of doug' because your personal enjoyment of an abuser's content should supersede the feelings of the people he abused by making them act out rape jokes? the fact that making fun of an abuser upsets you because you like him warrants some serious self-examination on your part. 'you can't make fun of an abuser around me bc i like his content and you can't criticize me bc mental illness' is some wendycorduroy shit. i'm surprised you'd do this given how critical you are of her.

and yes, people are allowed to not like you for still liking the show. ofc people can have problematic interests if they want, but content that has been directly used by its creators to abuse people is a special kind of bad. you’re allowed to like it, but guilt tripping people or implying they’re not allowed to dislike the fact that you still support it is incredibly callous to the people rob, doug, and mike abused. this is not, nor should it be, about your feelings. this is about the victims.             

you know what. upon further consideration, those asks were not kindly phrased. my intention was to emphasize that because the anniversary movies were vessels for abuse (injuries, rape jokes, etc) it was inappropriate to prioritize one’s own feelings over the feelings of the victims or block out criticism, but i phrased them in a way that was not productive and was attacking you. i’m sorry for my wording and for being a dick          

thank you for your follow up apology. i see where youre coming with this but i think there’s a few things that i can point towards me not giving up on the show altogether.

short answer: while i detest the way the company has been run and is executing public relations, and i am uncomfortable watching any video on their channel and have not done such for weeks, and i really want the harmed ex-producers to receive justice, i still believe there is a shred of hope for the show based on what recent producers have said, and that doug can reform himself by owning up to his deliberate ignorance, neglect, and egotism, though he is not the biggest abuser in this situation. i have a lot of emotional history with NC that means i need time before i’m able to drop the show altogether, if i ever can, and i just want to avoid anything that isn’t constructive and just intended to make anybody feel bad for liking the show/movies before this information was widely known.

long answer:

most of the criticism lauded against doug isnt so much being the direct abuser but being complacent and ignorant of people’s health. if i recall correctly, while it was a pretty unnecessary and terrible joke to make in my opinion, he didn’t pick up that the drill scene in TBF made anybody uncomfortable at the time? and in recent years he seems more concerned about what his cast undergoes, and a lot of them have said that he does ask about jokes that might hurt them and make sure they’re comfortable. i believe he apologized for it and acknowledged his naievity in the movie’s commentary but restating that apology would be beneficial now, yeah.

while complacency and ignorance is bad, i think he has been neglectful, not directly abusive. also, idk if you meant this, but your phrasing makes it kinda sound like his projects were intended as a means to abuse people; the abuse happened because of the movies, yeah, but it was because of doug being egotistical and ignorant, not malicious. the content of the movies reflect’s doug’s massive ego but it doesn’t reflect a desire to abuse anybody. if he did the shit that mike michaud or mike ellis did, that would be inexcusable for me and i would have lost hope for him.

if anybody is definitely abusive, it’s the CEO, who i love watching get bashed because he is indeed a sexist verbally abusive asshole who holds the power in the company and is using it for his stupid selfish needs. it’s also been stated that doug is restricted by his contract with the CEO and could just straight up not be able to make videos if he stepped out of turn, so while i wish he would use his walkout power more, he doesn’t have as much power as some people attribute to him. he’s complicit in abuse but i don’t think that’s the same as being abusive? the producers themselves seem to go back and forth about how they feel about him but a recurring theme is that he’s tragically ignorant of abuse, but not on the same level of abusive as michaud, if they call him abusive at all (most just seem to feel betrayed by him).

additionally, almost all creators who have worked with him in the past couple of years, have stated they had generally positive experiences with the network, even the ones who are now leaving. the only thing that seems to remain an issue is the awful, awful PR (that apology sucked, i criticized it myself) and the lack of communication towards anybody not chicago-based. i feel they need to ditch michaud (which probably won’t be easy, since he’s a shady capitalist fuck), formally apologize and maybe provide compensation for past producers who were abused by the higher-ups, and either improve relations or just restrict everything to NC, because at this point that’s the only show that’s going to be left if they don’t get their shit together anyway. but i do think that if they just take the easy solution of apologizing, even though it’s already way too late and they royally fucked themselves over, things can be a little better.

i’m also not against criticizing doug for not speaking out, because the least he could do is apologize at least privately and i’ve even emailed him imploring him to do at least that (i don’t expect a response though lmao). i just get hurt at people attacking the show and movies as being terrible and something no fan should like. a lot of people really attached to the series before this blew up, and for the most part the content of the show doesn’t reflect the behind-the-scenes issues.

i’m spreading relevant information on twitter regarding abuse and producers’ feelings, but so many people (obviously not the producers, but the fans/haters) involved in this are more concerned with just shitting on doug bc they don’t like him and a lot are trying to make him out as worse than he is. i want to spread what the producers say because i trust them, but i’m wary of fans who seem to just be in it for the drama or bc they never liked NC and they wanna spite people who did (yes, those people exist, they mocked me on kiwifarms).

i know this isn’t about me, but i’ve invested a lot of money and time and emotional energy in the show, it’s introduced me to new friends, and it’s been directly and indirectly responsible for some of my highest and lowest points of the past year and a half. my comfort ship has been very helpful in helping my loneliness. it gave me something to look forward to every day. not to pull the autism card, but it’s difficult for me to drop a special interest very easily and i’m jealous of people who can. i need time to grow entirely out of it if i can.

but even still, i haven’t watched a NC episode in weeks, even the new ones, due to my discomfort and shame towards the show and network (only NC thing i watched lately was the hyper q&a, which is on tamara’s channel, and i used it to fall asleep). i unsubscribed, and i really i only care about a few aspects of the show anyway.

if you want to hate me because i can’t immediately remove NC from my heart then fine, but if so, just unfollow me. i don’t want people to not post NC criticism, and i fully endorse spreading relevant information because i care about the victims and i want them to receive justice. i just want hate tagged so i, personally, do not have to be constantly reminded that a show that is/was close to my heart has so many awful things behind it, even if i’m not sure if i still love it anymore. and while i have been a bit guilt-trippy in the past i’ve been confronted on that already and i’m trying not to come across that way, and i’m sorry for having been manipulative at all. i’m paranoid about being abandoned and hated just for having watched this show but unless you’re like, a super close friend of mine, you can unfollow any time you want.

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I find your response to this very sweet and cute bc you have me with my ✨ flair for the dramatics ✨ screaming into the void and here you come in with a well-articulated analysis of the direction the romantic development has taken lmao

Like sincerely! I find it funny and I'm not talking down to your reply here, but if we're taking that route, then let me quell my hyperbole and exaggeration and follow-up with: I feel like my overall point still stands.

There were many-a-fan of the show who were anticipating, at the very least, a build-up to what has now become Colin and Penelope's romantic relationship. Because that's what it is, a transition from a friendship to what is now a mutual, no holds barred, "we both like each other" relationship. Unlike what was before unspoken feelings on either side. So fans were hoping for a development from A to B, so to speak.

That is not to say that anyone was GENUINELY hoping to see Colin ACTUALLY groveling for Penelope. You're right, that's not healthy and ideally, we wouldn't want Colin to subject himself to that. What we DID want, however, was for Colin to exhibit some sort of semblance of the pining Penelope had to go through for YEARS only to have her hopes shattered at her mother's ball.

This sentiment was widely shared, whether as commupance for fans who were young ladies who had their own experience having to let go of unrequited love (with fantasies of being able to one day reject the advances of the person they got over) OR just as viewers who know how much of a girl-boss pussy queen Penelope is and wanted her to be fawned over for a bit. She pulled Lord Debling for goodness sake. She HAS game and she's WORTH someone's time.

And for all intents and purposes, I feel the season so far has fallen short of that. Whether because (another thing I have a gripe with) their general screentime is just lacking compared to Daphne/Simon and Kate/Anthony seasons or because the pacing was off, it felt rushed.

I can live with Penelope forgiving what Colin had said about her because he genuinely apologized. That's fine. But their first kiss felt rushed and forced (tbf it's forced narratively as well, she literally asks him to do it, it's not a natural first kiss scene) and the romantic feelings Colin developed following that were overshadowed by the relationship Penelope was beginning to develop with Lord Debling.

People I've talked to have said they felt the episodes set it up in such a way that it got harder and harder to even root for Colin when Lord Debling was right there and blatantly, publicly, openly interested in Penelope. Which is difficult to believe as Shonda have done a VERY good job in previous seasons of using a second male/female lead to only make us root for a couple MORE.

The prince to Daphne.

Edwina to Anthony.

Compelling pairings but never overshadowed the main couple in such a way that I found myself and other viewers being like "hey I actually wouldn't mind if they were endgame." Simon was still the lead. Kate was still the lead

Bringing it back to Polin development, I've seen a shared sentiment that the development might have worked out better had the engagement gone forward and had Colin feeling the pressure and fear of potentially losing the best thing he never knew he had. I feel a similar effect might have been achieved if they'd even just let the courting between Penelope and Debling continue a little longer while those doubts and brooding were swirling in the forefront of Colin's mind.

But at the end of the day it just... Fell flat. It felt short.

It might have been an editing issue. It might have been a pacing issue. It might be an issue with the attention bouncing around too much this season that it feels like Polin didn't feel properly developed or even properly focused on. It might be the way we're straying further and further from regency era clothing and norms, and a regency era reason for Lord Debling not to propose to Penelope just didn't feel convincing.

No matter what the reason, it felt rushed and it felt lacking.

I'm glad you seem to like it, though! By no means is the foundation of Colin and Penelope's relationship a healthy and happy one lol. There's still a lot to be said about how he still ruined her engagement. One that would have been advantageous for her. How Eloise and Penelope are still at odds with each other. How she's still Lady Whistledown and she's been not only lying to him but ALSO slandering his and his family's name. (She does so indiscriminately but it's still not a good look.) All this is not gonna play out in a nice, sweet way and I'm excited for the drama. My popcorn is OUT heheh

However, all this to say that I am enjoying myself this season. Bridgerton will always be a fun show. Whether it's a good show is subjective, but I like it.

I hope to see what happens with the Whistledown v Colin drama and how he'll consolidate them being the same person. I'm interested in Cressida Cowper's story, as shocking as that is to say lol. Violet and Franchesca's little side romances are cute. Can't wait for Part II!

No bc this irks me. It's the PRINCIPLE of the thing at this point.

Why all the people who were out here anticipating season 3 of Bridgerton and saying "I hope Penelope makes Colin work for it" and "I wanna see him on his hands and knees begging for her to forgive him" or "I want him to confess his love and for her to initially reject him" suddenly so QUIET now???

Where did y'all GO???

And I'm not talking to the girlies (gn) who read the book. I have a different bone to pick with y'all 🫵🫵🫵 about how you let us get our hopes up

Rn it's about the friends-to-unrequited-love-to-lovers enjoyers who suddenly ✨ DONT HAVE MY FUCKIN BACK ✨ and were won over by one (1) singular scene. It takes only the one (1) risque moment and suddenly you don't want "she fell first, he fell harder" x "what you needed was in front of you the whole time" done CORRECTLY and you've left me to myself SCREAMING

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Ah right there's the rest of the tribe I forgot....I was just thinking about Sokka....but are they going to change the North too?

I actually can see them changing the North and it working (making it bc Katara looks too much like her grandma and the master is all salty flkjasdfla rather than all around sexist).

But if they go that route, then Sokka is free to stay sexist without generalizing a whole group of people.

Tbf I feel like the sexism is tied to that greater narrative. Him overcoming it allows him to take an extra step towards being a great leader.

But that being said....Sokka's not really my fav and I don't have that big of a horse in this race. TT0TT It feels weird, but as long as it turns out well I'm fine. (I need it to turn out well so I can get Korra and they can attempt to fix its issues). I'd rather these changes go towards other things.........but eh. 8U

It does make me wonder what they plan on doing with the Kiyoshi warriors. That's going to be interesting.

The new Atla live action removed the sexism outta Sokka. TT0TT

Noooooo stop. Save the rewrites for when you're fixing Korra. Atla is fine just the way it is. Maybe add more Azula stuff but why would you remove his sexism???? It's a key part of his char that needs correcting wtf is gonna happen now????

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okay im just gonna autism right back atcha

i don't think bobby's death needed to be reversed either but i think it was better to err on the side of caution because they were still tweaking mob difficulty after phil's nightmare which was like. flagrantly unfair and they absolutely 100% needed to revert that.

dapper's death did deserve to be reversed bc it was due to a glitch which means it's unfair for the players. the admins did test and they did determine that bad could have saved him if the game was working properly.

this also indicates that the admins are invested in fair play. to be clear, i do think they're backing themselves into a corner with like. they obviously want the egg plot over with asap because the more languages you add the more unwieldy it becomes but at the same time like they've enabled diamond and the eggs are stacked and these are some very skilled players to try and take down

the other problem is that there is some fudging of mechanics around what eggs are able to do. the most obvious example is that chayanne and tallulah should not have been able to get out of the basement in the first place. only phil and missa have the permissions for any of the doors or trapdoor involved. like if they were playing 100% by rules as written, chayanne and tallulah would never have been in any danger tonight.

now, i do think that's like, fine. like it also enables things like people who aren't phil taking care of tallulah when her time zone doesn't line up wiht his. and if you fudge the rules to get her out of the safehouse it's only fair that might make her unsafe. but like. between that and eggs teleporting to their parents all the time, the general rule of thumb seems to be that eggs can use admin powers as long as no one is looking at them

(im,, not sure that part is actually relevant, but like. i did say i would autism, so)

so like, ramon. ramon teleported away from the battle and hte binary monster stayed behind to attack where there were more eggs.

ramon encounters maxo. ramon tells maxo he wants to go back and fight. maxo convinces ramon to stay in the safe house. he does so sufficiently that ramon gives his crossbow to maxo so maxo can fight in ramon's place

believing that ramon is going to stay in a safe house and that chayanne tallulah and richarlyson are still in danger, maxo leaves ramon with the crossbow to the favela to see what's going on

at this point, we don't know what happens because it happened off stream, but ramon had time to put his bed down at some point (or to forget to pick it up tbf) and then end up dead outside his house

if the admins show that the binary entity had a way inside the house and ramon was forced to flee because fit left the preexisting hole, that's fine. if the admins don't show that, then it means that they need to roll it back

when ramon went down, bad was still double checking that chayanne and tallulah were in bed, foolish was checking on leonarda, and quackity and maxo were still securing the favela and also probably making sure richarlyson was safe. (notably, richarlyson, like ramon, also teleported away from the adults to a safe house and unlike ramon did not end up murdered about it so the adults also had reason to believe that could work again)

also on a meta level, the admins do all talk behind the scenes, but they don't talk with the players. besides, assumptions like, "does the egg exist when i'm not looking at it?" are not necessarily things that it might occur to them to discuss even when the boundaries about that are breaking down (for example bad sending dapper to do errands for him does complicate things)

and like. it is quackity's server, but he can't actually force anyone to play on it (see: spreen not bothering ot log on for a while bc he didn't want to be ramon's dad, tho he has showed up again recently). this might be a situation where people have time to calm down from the intial emotions and realize "okay this felt bad at the time but it's a good story choice and i can work with it" or it might be a situation wehre they're like "yeah no i don't want to play on this server if this is how you're gonna play with me" or it might all just be a nightmare! who knows!

anyway the admins are pretty clearly flying by the seat of their pants at this point wrt the eggs so just because they planned something doesn't mean it was a good idea or that it played out the way they wanted it to or that i won't personally riot if my boy dies

If they reverse Ramon’s death, as sad as I am that he died…… idk

I think every egg death could have something that could be used to reverse it.

The code monster targeted Ramon because he was alone with full intention on killing him permanently. The fact the players were so close to reviving him makes it a tragedy but not unfair.

They shouldn’t have sent Ramon home. The whole time I was terrified the code monster would target him because he was alone and then it did!! That was intentional! I don’t think there are means to appeal on this

This was an intentional kill