#been thinking about him ALLLLLLLLLLL week

[scuddmudmuffin]

silly wip :p

[son1c]

Now I really wanna know what Windthrow and Mangey would be like together. I'm aware Windthrow is technically on Boscage!Eggman's side, but I'm dying of cuteness thinking of him and Mangey forming their own little pack because Puppies™.

well, i was thinking that, after watching windthrow thru the leaves for however long, the Treetop Crew(TM) becomes well and truly afraid of his darkened and threatening silhouette. and then mangey ends up falling off one of the canopy platforms somehow. and since he doesn't know that he can use his tails to fly, yeah, it's gonna be long drop.

but luckily, windthrow is there! and he catches him. and even though it's not what he was supposed to bring back, well... he's already got him, so, why not, right? and windthrow ends up taking mangey back to the ""egg base"" where the last of earth's surviving population is set up.

the Treetop Crew(TM), of course, sees mangey get carried away by the Big Scary Monster they've been hyping up for weeks with make-believe, grandiose tales of terror and... well, they Freak Out, to put it lightly. like, oh, he's dead for sure. but then after they calm down a little bit, they all decide they gotta go rescue him. they've already lost one friend, after all, and can't go with losing another.

(prim isn't happy about throwing herself into danger, but... she doesn't want the kid to die either, so she sucks it up.)

obviously, mangey is fine. windthrow didn't and wouldn't hurt him. he is, however, extremely scared and confused because holy hydrangeas, what even is this place? there's weird fleshy creatures walking around and so many new smells he's never smelled before... including... edible smells.

he looks toward the table on the other side of the room and-- oh, geez, that's a lot of food. more food than he's probably ever seen in his entire life.

the only problem is that big fluffy monster is standing in between him and the food. and he's scared. but... and now the gears start to turn in his head... should he be scared? mangey sizes the monster up. really looks at him for the first time.

and while he's doing that, windthrow--who rarely talks--asks him this: "you hungry, little buddy?"

and bro it is alllllllllll over. they are INSTANT friends. and mangey has never been happier to have almost died falling out of a tree LMAO

[disappearinginq]

Marvel Netflix?

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

Toss up, honestly, between Danny, Matt and Foggy and Ward. Mostly because I like the idea of both sets bonding over their love and frustration of their other halves.

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

Foggy. My previous avocado at law. Even though he will always be the kid from Mighty Ducks with the slapshot from hell to me. And I really want to find a fic where someone writes a Mighty Ducks/Daredevil crossover/AU.

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

Ward from Iron Fist. I am here for the character growth between season 1 beginning, season 1 end, and alllllllllll of season 2.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

Ok, neither obscure or only in the background for .2 seconds, but David Lieberman from Punisher (sound tied with Madani from the same series). I'll just say that in this context, "obscure" is "not the headliner"

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

I recognize that this is 100000% because it's David Tennant playing him, and had it been literally anyone else I would've hated the character like we were supposed to: Kilgrave.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

Oooh. Hmm. Is all of them an option? Danny and Matt are probably the front runners though.

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

Trish from Jessica Jones. I have no idea how the series ended, but I do remember spending 90% of watching her on screen wishing she wasn't.

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 07.11.20 lb

LMAO WTF IS THIS TITLE CARD, MAHA PRATIGYA IT SEEMS

oh boy what's the favour??? knowing this dude, it could be some realllllll freaky shit.

oh thank god. normal cheez. “aaj raat mujhe akela mat chodna.”

also dude, he is sooooooooo manipulating her. he's learnt that isko daraake, dhamkaake, PARALYSE karke, kuchhhhh nahi hone waala. the way to get her is to be vulnerable and play on the emotional side of things. and that's what he's doing.

rrahul's eye makeup >>>>>>>>>> all the female characters' eye makeup.

aaaaaaaand he's out like a light. yeah, crying does that to you. best cure for insomnia. the sleep after weeping your guts out just hits different.

lol it's just hilarious to see him lying there all sprawled out on the floor on this..... random platform. itnaaaaaaaaaa bada ghar hai, and this is where he decides to sleep after a long, tiringass day.

“pehli baar tumne mujhse kuch maanga hai vansh, but i'm sorry main usse poora nahi karr paungi. mujhe aaj raat tumhe chod kar jaana hoga; meri jiss galti ne tumhe itna tod diya hai usse sudhaarne jaa rahi hoon.”

i mean, ok i get it, but at least could have gently led him to the room instead of leaving him here lying on the living room floor. harsh af.

i bet he's not really sleeping and is listening to allllllllll of this confession she's doing. that's the kinda shady shit i always did when i had sleepovers with my older cousins and wanted to listen to all the juicy goss. and vansh deffffff gives me scorpio vibes, lol.

ok one tiny sweet moment.

“kyun maine yeh bewakoofi kii, bappa?”

that's what they should name the show. coz literally what else is the plot other than riddhima fucking up 30 different ways per week?

not listening to her and just admiring her skin. very healthy, much glowy. wow. spill the list of products you use, sis.

wait, is being stupid good for the skin???? is that why everyone on tellywood has good skin and the rest of us have blah skin?

lol this fucking dumbass mask. it’s neither an alien mask, nor the ghostface mask, bas one ajeeb off-brand mashup of both.

jor jor se chilla ke sabko apna fuckup bol rahi hai. ouffffffff, kuchhhhhh bhi baat she can't fucking just keep in her brain or what, without verbalizing??

“koi tha kya???” sis, how long you been living in this house???? ofc koi tha.

walks into kabir's house and narrrrrrrrrrowly misses getting brained. looks like kabir has his mom's poor aim.

did he know she was coming, or did he really do this to himself in frustration? in which case, yikes. both the men in this show really don't know how to deal with setbacks well, huh???

“kahan hai ragini, mujhe usko vansh ko wapas dena hai.” lmaooooooooooo sis, she's a wholeasssssss person, not a copy of the da vinci code you borrowed.

“kho gayi mujhse!” lol what the fuck is wrong with you ppl, she's a living human being, not an object, stop talking about her like this!?!?

lmao this set of caps is just making me giggle a lot.

kabir saying someone else kidnapped ragini and took. i don't believe him. dal is looking quiteeeeeeee kaala to me.

mmmmmmmmm kaali dal. could use some rn. *looking up dhaabas nearby*

“aisa lag raha tha jaise main kisi parchaayi se bhid gaya tha!”

aaaaaand riddhima's dimaag ka ghoda is off to the races, thinking about the shadow following her.

my question is how kabir would know about shadow person????? mommy dumbest toh apne aankhon ke saamne waali cheez bhi nahi dekh paati, let alone something like this, and then informing kabir about it.

kabir like, sure. let's go with that theory.

lmaooooooooo riddhima giving passionate argument about vansh's dard aur taqleef and kabir is like:

snort. seriously, she needs to go a lil light on this. aur kuch nahi toh she should at least think that this is her new man she's talking about to her ex she dumped 2 days ago.

lol what badly done photoshop on chacha/chachi. you couldn't just get the whole cast together to take a legit pic????

also why is everyone so weirdlyyyyyyyyyy distant??? this is suchhhh an odd family photo. only dadi and riddhima look normal in it.

riddhima mentally making a list. crossing dadi and siya off it. BIG MISTAKE SIS. IN THIS SHOW, YOU DON'T LEAVE ANYONE OUT.

ishani and angre are also out. coz they're #teamVansh.

chacha and chachi are out coz they fattus, lol.

bache the two mega bitches of this house: aryan aur mummy.

battle of the two stoopids.

but it does make me lol every time aryan asks riddhima what new kaand she's up to now, and if he can join.

both talking about completely different things and ainvayi mein giving tashan to each other. fuckinggggggg idiotsssss.

lmao wtf, why did they randomly leave a shoe behind?????? so dumb.

ghoom phir ke why does she just keeeeep coming back here and looking for random shit??? the one time what she was actually looking for was here (sejal) she didn't find it.

such a randommmm place to come stash your snooping wardrobe.

ugh riddhima did you seriously leave vansh sleeping god-knows-where (where the fuck is he anyway????????) for this bs????/

these two idiots are back here looking for clues. whatcha wanna bet Mrs. Dumbass dropped one of her 30 million pieces of jewelry here on one of her multiple visits.

why the fuck is he telling angre HOW to look for clues, i thought he said angre had an investigation agency of his own???? does he tell YOU how to do your job of......... idk, how to use tally or peachtree or whatever the fuck?

“hum toh bas clue dhoond rahe the, yahaan toh poora crime scene hi hai!”

lmao cheeeeee who’s writing such shit dialogue???

has anyone who does these computer mockup thingys for tellywood ever used a computer after 2004? like, why do these things look so damn janky?????

lots of faltu ka growling and screaming at angre as if he was the one who corrupted the file. idk why the fuck he puts up with vansh’s shit. i don’t think he’s even paid anymore now that he’s part of the family.

“kuch hi pal ka intezaar hai. uske baad apne maut ki ulti ginti shuru kar dena MR. KIDNAPPER!!!!!!!!”

holy shit the mega bad dialogue and acting. i just cannot.

also hey!!!! it's 2020. THE KIDNAPPER CAN BE A WOMAN, YOU MISOGYNIST FUCK!!!!!!! AND IT IS!!!!!!! stop underestimating your dumbass wife. 

also what happened to i could never kill coz i'm not a criminal/murderer???????!?! kuch bhi, ainvayi. baaton ke ameer, dil ke gareeb, kabhi na jaayein ishwar ke kareeb.

riddhima hamming it up to lure shadow person.

bhaagam bhaag.

lol the wayyyyyyyyyy they got awayyyy. literally just ran under the staircase and the other way.

ok but explain to me how the HELL would there be such geele footprints HERE in the middle, after the person ran like alllllllllll around the house????

heroine running in to save siya......

“thank god siya so rahi hai!” she says, AS IF SHE DIDN'T USE THIS EXACT PILLOW TRICK TO FUCK VANSH OVER 2 NIGHTS AGO. dunggggg for brains, honestly.

yup. finally discovered it.

“chehra dikhao nahi toh chila chila ke sab ko ikkhatta kar doongi!” WHY WOULDN'T YOU DO THAT ANYWAY?????????

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand....

once again, literally no one is surprised. 🙄🙄🙄

[dettiot]

News of the Galaxy 1

The most popular morning show in the galaxy in the years before the Clone Wars was Rotation, hosted from a Coruscant studio by K’Tee Griff, a wine-drinking red-skinned Twi’lek and HD-KTB, an entertainment droid widely seen as missing a few circuits. 

On one particular morning, the show went even more out of the hyperlane than normal. Enjoy this clip to see what happened . . . 

K’Tee Griff: [smiles widely yet falsely as the audience applauds] Good morning, good morning! [takes a large swallow from her wine glass and twitches her lekku]

HD-KTB: Was your evening enjoyable?

K’Tee Griff: It was! I went to the Coruscant Symphony--such a good performance, even though Mon Cal music is not to my taste--and you’ll never guess who I ran into!

HD-KTB: That is correct. I will never guess. 

K’Tee Griff: [rolls her eyes] 

Audience: [laughs]

K’Tee Griff: I ran into this morning’s guest!

HD-KTB: You saw Chef Connie? Did she have her recipe for time-saving meals using your slow-cooker unit?

K’Tee Griff: [tops off her glass] No . . . I saw Duchess Satine Kryze!

Audience: [ooohs and aaahs as a holo-image of a regally-dressed Satine is displayed]

HD-KTB: Satine Kryze of Clan Kryze, Duchess of Mandalore. A pacifist who seeks a new path for Mandalore. Which I do not understand, since changing the orbit of any planet would be very dangerous. 

K’Tee Griff: She is so pretty, isn’t she, everyone? 

Audience: [applauds, with a few hoots of admiration]

HD-KTB: Her face is very symmetrical. Her lips are too thin to make her face be considered beautiful, however.

K’Tee Griff: Well, let me tell you--the young man with the Duchess sure didn’t seem to think her lips were too thin!

Audience: [lets out an oooooooh]

HD-KTB: Does he think they are too thick? That does not seem likely. 

K’Tee Griff: [makes a gesture and the holo-image changes to a candid shot of Satine, dressed in a gown with lilies in her hair, accompanied by a young man with ginger hair and a wiry build] 

HD-KTB: We cannot see the man’s face. We do not know if he likes the Duchess’s face. 

K’Tee Griff: Trust me, our mystery man likes the Duchess. And she likes him. 

HD-KTB: That is good. The Duchess’s duty is to have an heir. 

K’Tee Griff: Now, now, HD, you know times have changed. Women don’t have to have children.

HD-KTB: But . . . women are programmed to have children. How can a woman thwart her programming like that?

K’Tee Griff: Let’s find out what the Duchess has to say about that! We’ll have our conversation with Satine Kryze right after these messages!

Audience: [applauds as the show returns from its commercial break] 

K’Tee Griff: [puts down her wine glass and licks her lips] Let’s bring out our very special guest: Duchess Satine Kryze! 

Audience: [applauds and cheers as Satine steps out, wearing a deep blue dress and an elaborate headdress] 

Satine: [takes her seat next to K’Tee and HD and waves a little to the crowd] Good morning. Thank you for having me. 

HD-KTB: Welcome to Rotation, Duchess. It must be nice to be away from uncivilized Mandalore. 

Satine: Of course I enjoy visiting Coruscant, but Mandalore is far from uncivilized. 

K’Tee Griff: Oh, never mind HD. Tell us alllllllllll about that young man you were with last night!

Audience: [oooohs]

Satine: [blinks] [eyes flick over towards the side of the studio, where the same wiry, ginger-haired man from the holo-image is standing] Oh, that young man? Just a bodyguard. 

HD-KTB: From how he is watching you, he is guarding your body very well.

K’Tee Griff: [smirks] Very well indeed. 

Satine: While Mandalorians are quite civilized, we are also a passionate people with very strong opinions about our traditions and way of life. Unfortunately, some of my people disagree with my opinions, requiring me to have protection. I’m very fortunate to have such fine protectors. 

HD-KTB: Do you intend to have children with him? It is your duty, to reproduce. And your function. 

Satine: [looks at HD-KTB with a frosty look]

K’Tee Griff: Duchess, can you tell me who you were wearing last night? [waves her arm wildly to get the holo-image from before to come back up] 

Satine: [keeps frowning] A Mandalorian designer, Wren. She’s very talented. 

K’Tee Griff: Sooo talented. Now, what brings you to Coruscant? 

Satine: As you know, the Senate is debating a bill to provide aid to Mandalore, and I’m here on Coruscant to follow the bill’s progress. 

K’Tee Griff: But you’re making time for yourself--that’s so smart. [looks out at the audience] Don’t forget, it’s Self-Care Week here at Rotation!

HD-KTB: Does your bodyguard also provide self-care for you, Duchess?

Camera: [cuts to bodyguard, who is nearly as red as his hair]

Audience: [lets out some whoops]

Satine: [through gritted teeth] Then it wouldn’t be self-care, would it?

K’Tee Griff: Duchess, why don’t you bring your bodyguard out to join us? 

Satine: No, that wouldn’t be appropriate--

K’Tee Griff: Oh, c’mon, Duchess!

Audience: [applauds in encouragement] 

Satine: No!  [stands up from her chair and storms off, the camera following her out of the studio, her microphone still active] 

Bodyguard: Satine--

Satine: No, Obi, no! I will not sit there and smile and act like a fool for the sake of viewers of such a superficial, vacuous show!

Bodyguard: Satine, please. 

Camera: [catches how the Duchess goes still, then slowly turns to look at her bodyguard] 

Bodyguard: [voice muffled] You know you can handle those women with one arm tied behind your back.

Satine: Only one’s a woman. And I’m not even sure about the Twi’lek. 

Bodyguard: [lets out a soft laugh]

Camera: [shows a soft smile appear on the Duchess’s face, then she turns and walks back onto the set]

Satine: I apologize. That was very rude of me. It appears I haven’t been taking as much time for self-care as I thought. Please, allow me to share with your audience my advice. 

K’Tee Griff: Thank you, Duchess! [claps over-eagerly] 

HD-KTB: [claps, her hands making a loud metallic noise] I am not a woman!

K’Tee Griff: We’ll have the Duchess’s self-care tips right after this! [chugs her glass of wine]

End.

[frecklesandfanfics]

7x09

Hellooooo darlings, it’s Thursday! Time for thoughts no one asked for but I decided to share anyway! This is our last episode until August 6 so we must glean what joy we can from following our heroines on Bardo. I have a LOT to say this week. 

The time skips during this season are getting kind of old.

Legit fucking crystal giants! But perhaps they’re fake? I just can’t trust anything Anders says or does, but maybe that’s because he’s played by the same actor who played Damien Darkh.

I love Indra. “I’m gone for half a day and you idiots are in a full on war you can’t win?” Also Murphy and Indra are low-key my favorite duo this season. 

I just love Levitt. I know he’s vaguely sketchy and will probably turn out to be the worst because that’s how this show rolls but for now I adore him.

OctaviaKru really out here demolishing their sparring partners. Is anyone surprised?

The box between Anders and Diyoza during the fear simulation looks like the boxes Octavia saw when she was trying to remember her time in the anomaly. One was green, one was red. 

JR Bourne and Adina Porter KILL their scenes together. I could watch the Russheda and Indra show all day.

Hope’s defiance is going to get her ass killed, and I feel that on a deep level because I am a defiant creature. 

There was a lot of hubbub over Echo saying she believes what the Bardoans are teaching and her actions in this episode. However! Echo is a spy, and she’s been a spy longer than Hope’s been alive. She would excel at an exercise in faking loyalty, especially when she’s just aching to get revenge for Bellamy.

Well, this biological weapon certainly will not come into play later...

Alllllllllll aboard the good ship Levtavia! Is this psychological warfare? I love them together if it’s not. If it is, damn y’all, that’s cold as ice. Also, I thought it was interesting that Levitt is Level 11. Does that mean he’s brainwashed and all of his actions towards Octavia are just to further the cause? Because when he slid across the floor and took her in his arms after Bellamy “died” -- that didn’t seem like the actions of a brainwashed man? 

So everyone’s confessing to not being prime! I love this! Russheda’s little grin as he breaks all of their hearts. Excellent.

Murphy says he’s not the hero type but all he does this season is hero bullshit. Saving kids, protecting Madi, making plans to get in and stop the hostage situation, covering Emori’s body with his own. I 100% think he might be a goner this season because his hero arc is nearly complete. 

Hope’s really out here ready to torch the oxygen farm. Did she get that idea from Auntie O’s bedtime stories?

So, Echo could kill Hope, but Hope couldn’t kill Diyoza. Diyoza could kill Hope--her own daughter?! And Octavia--Auntie O--how could you?! You told Bellamy you understood his sacrifices because you loved her so much. I thought about this for a long while, especially Echo’s little smirk at the end, and I wonder if this was actually the plan all along between the three of them--to do whatever it took to convince Anders they were on his team, so they could choose Hope’s punishment, and then send her to Penance where she would be safe. If you remember he had originally said they would die if they didn’t pass the tests. 

So Indra thought that the Sanctum people were going to kill Russheda. Why would she be so naive? This is the darkest commander who ever existed. Of COURSE he would kill them all instead. Of COURSE Wonkru would immediately bow. 

Okay, so, we’re set up for the latter half of the season. I’d better see some main cast deaths, who we are actually fighting the last war against, Bellamy and Clarke, and Russheda wreaking some fucking havoc. 

In short: Echo is suss, Levtavia sets sail, Murphy needs a cape and a Batcave, Indra doesn’t think things through, Hope continues to act like a teenager who got her phone taken away, and Anders serves lewks. Oh, and #BellamyBlakeWatch2020 continues indefinitely.

[artistshadow]

Supergirl 5x11 "Back To The Future - Part 1" My Thoughts and Opinions. *Spoilers on the last episode so of*

Now that I have watched the Supergirl 5x11 episode and have had time to collect my thoughts I'm ready to give my opinions on the "queer-baiting" and the *SPOILER* whole William asking Kara out on a date in the next episode.

Okay so first off I really enjoyed the episode! So happy to see my boy/child Winn!! Jeremy Jordan killed it in this episode playing both Winn and Toyman and David Harewood directed this episode and he did an incredible job!!

Now on to the "queer-baiting" of the show. Now queer-baiting is defined online as "a marketing technique for fiction and entertainment in which creators hint at, but then not actually depict, same-sex romance. They do so to attract ("bait") a queer audience with the suggestion of relationships that appeal to them, while at the same time attempting to avoid alienating other consumers." Now I can see how SuperCorp (the ship name for Lena and Kara) is coming off as queer-baiting. I joined the fandom of Supergirl back in season 3. I was watching all the Arrowverse shows on Netflix and when I tell you Lena became my favorite character after Kara I MEAN IT!!! Now a lot of people want Kara and Lena to get together because come on, they would be the ultimate power couple and I myself would love to see Lex's ugly face when he finds out his sister is dating the cousin of his number one enemy!😂😂 But here's the thing: I think the original plan was for Lena to become Kara's best friend (beside Winn and Alex). There would be rough times where everybody would be against Lena because she's a Luthor but Kara would stand by her and have her back and believe in her. They wanted to portray a strong, incredible, unbreakable friendship/bond between these two powerful, strong, smart, independent, successful, bad-A women. They can rely on each other, be there for one another, lean on each other when needed, but somewhere down the line, it sort of slipped a bit and instead of it coming off as true friendship it's coming off as there is a mutual attraction between them. It doesn't help the situation that the actresses (both VERY talented) have some major on screen chemistry.

Okay so in my opinion, MY OPINION, I don't think they are purposely trying to "queer-bait." I think that the writers of Supergirl are trying to give us a healthy friendship between two women that doesn't involve one doing something bad to the other or have them doing some dumb fight crap over some guy. None of that, just a good friendship. But in defense, when you try to write a good, loving friendship between two females, two males, and/or a female and a male (especially that one) it's going to be hard to write and portray it as "friendly" cause along the way it might start slipping and it's going to come off as romantic and people are going to think that they are attracted to each other. Especially if the friends are a boy and a girl cause God forbid a girl and guy be best friends without one having a crush on the other or one of them have to be gay in order for them to be friends.

Do I condone queer-baiting? No. Absolutely not. I think it's a disgusting, awful, horrible, and manipulative way to reel in LGBT fans in a sense they are going to see themselves represented in the media and get their hopes up just to watch them crash hard on the ground. Do I think Supergirl is queer-baiting? I believe that they're trying not to, but since they're writing for female/female friendship it's coming off that way and we're so far into that it's hard to back up on it because there such a big fandom for it. Cause I know some people are concerned whether of not if they do get together if it's because the writers want them to or if it's just fanservice.

Now onto the William and Kara thing. Guys, calm down. It's literally one date. We haven't even seen the episode yet and already everyone's losing their crap over something we haven't had a chance to watch. For all we know the date might go horribly wrong or they will try it out but realize they're better off as friends. Wait till the episode premieres before we start throwing toxic hate around. Put your pitchforks and torches away and let's find out what happens first. Dang. I guessed that William was maybe probably going to be a love interest for Kara back in the first half of the season. That they would develop feelings for each other over the course of the season. BTW I don't think you need to have chemistry with someone to go out a date with them. The first date is to stroke the fire and see if there's anything there. So let's at least give it a chance. Because at the end of the day, what’s more important: Kara being with Lena or Kara being happy (not saying Kara wouldn't be happy with Lena)? And God knows she needs some happiness with all the hell and high water she's been through over the past couple of seasons. Especially this season so far. Her whole freaking universe was wiped out of existence and there was nothing she could do about it and then had it merged with other earths and now she has to work with the person she hates the most (not to mention he's also considered a hero by the people of the new earth) and lost a close friend (Oliver), plus on top of alllllllllll that her best friend (Lena) hates her for lying to her about being Supergirl and y'all want to make a big deal over a date? That we saw in a promo? For an episode that doesn't air for 2 weeks? Good Lord.

Look for all we know, two things could be happening here: William's secretly evil and is trying to get close to Kara by tricking her or he's just a stand in until Kara and Lena do get together. I could use Shadowhunters as an example. Alec had feelings for Magnus but he agreed to marry Lydia to help his family but then at the wedding he realized that he couldn't hide his deep feelings for Magnus and called it all off, Lydia understood (she even encouraged him to go to Magnus), and then him and Magnus got together. It might not be the exact same thing as what's going on in Supergirl, but something similar like that could be the case. Plus think about it: SuperCorp could happen eventually. It might not be that fast to some of you'd liking, but it could happen. Heck it took them 3 seasons before Brainy finally looked accurate to his comic book character version. Good things come to those who wait and patience is a virtue.

Look, all I'm saying is that I get why you guys might be mad and it's understandable but I just urge you to please wait and see what happens the rest of the season. You might be mad now but you might not be come the end of the season. And it's okay to be upset and to voice your opinions but let's do it in a calm and kind way. There is no need to spread hate. Especially to the cast. They don't write the show so there is no reason on earth that they should be receiving your anger because you're unhappy. Voice your complaints but do it in the right way and to the right people. Otherwise nothing is going to get solved. Make noise but don't make chaos. I heard other people call the Supergirl fandom (as well as the SuperCorp shippers) toxic and I don’t want that to be true.

These are just my opinions. If Kara does end up with William and her and Lena reconnect and go back to being best friends, I won’t be mad. Will I be sad that SuperCorp's not happening? Yes. Will I be angry? No because I'll be happy that Kara's happy. Don't consider Kara and Lena being best friends a loss, consider it a win all its own. I don't want to disrespect anyone else's opinions and if you don't agree with mine, that's okay. Its not going to hurt my feelings. If I'm proven wrong, I won't try to argue over it. I can admit when I'm wrong. If you have any comments on this, your opinions on the whole thing all together or what I had to say about it, please fill free to comment. Just know that I will not be responding to hateful comments and if it comes to the point that people keep coming into my comment sections with noting but hate, I will delete them and/or block the users. Again, just my opinions and I hope you all see where I'm coming from and I have nice day.😀😊

[beavesaintmarie]

i haven’t been feeling very fetch recently :(

hella trigger warnings under the cut. 

i’ve been feeling like im barely keeping my head above water right now. i’m so overwhelmed and tired and i think i’ve cried every day during the past two weeks cause we had assignment after assignment after assignment and keeping on top of my case briefs has been an exercise in doing like 12 things at the same time. and that’s not healthy. college almost killed me the last time (my gran was battling cancer then) and sure i graduated with that 4.0.........and with a whole set of exacerbated issues i already had. 

i’m on anti-anxiety meds again just cause lol if not i’m sure i’d have a HUGE breakdown instead of the tiny breakdowns i’m having every day. 

and i’ve been picking fights with Liam a lot recently and i hate myself for it. but like i feel like i need him now more than ever and if he’s not like completely present i start to feel like he’s....idk.........ignoring me and my feelings?? which isn’t the case but when i get into these head spaces...........whewww.

so i pick fights or like guilt him out for not being there for me enough and i know that’s gonna hurt him or get him angry and then we get into it and im happy cause his attention is on me. even if it’s negative. and that is SO FUCKED UP to admit. and i feel like such a shitty person for even copping to it. but it’s true.

and it’s not fair cause he’s really under a lot of stress with his work too and what he does is EXTREMELY demanding and he works so hard. but we’ve been definitely going through a rough patch. 

and i mean, one of the things i love most about our relationship is how we communicate but idk shit’s not clicking right now. 

he’s not handling his stress great either, mind you and even though i know our friction right now is a passing thing, i still don’t want to fall into this pattern. cause a passing thing that’s repeated becomes a pattern and then a pattern becomes a pathology.and i realize as im typing this i may be going way overboard here but LOL ANN ZY ETTY LIVES IN MY BRAIN RENT FREE AND SHE IS A CONSPIRACY THEORIST. AND SHE IS A CONVINCING BITCH. 

and i haven’t been talking to my parents about this cause i don’t wanna worry them. i want them to be proud of me. like they sacrifice so much for Caleb and i to make it so we can achieve our dreams. and we’re both currently out the house (kinda we both only live like 20 minutes away from them lol) 

 and i don’t want them to think my mental issues are gonna define my entire life. or get in the way of something i’ve wanted for so long. and i know if i tell them it’s gonna be a whole thing. my dad is gonna blame himself for passing on the anxiety and depression gene onto me, my mother is gonna immediately try to go into fix-it mode and whilst i love her for that, there’s certain things that can’t be fixed??? 

and i fear my struggles might be one of those things. 

and finally, i’ve never fully addressed my ED on this blog before. i’ve alluded to it in the past on here but i usually discuss the gory details of my ED on a private twitter acct. so a very small few of you know about this already but i might as well talk about it here too. 

i’ve been bingeing and purging for years. i started back when i was in HS and i stopped for a long time when i first started going into therapy and then i started doing it only when i was going through super stressful times back in college. 

and then after college, i went yeeeeaaars without doing it at all. but about two years ago i started back again. but again, only when i was going through periods of extreme stress. so it was a brief stint each time i went back to doing that.and i used to rationalize it like, ‘well im not cutting anymore’ which.......is fucked up w/n itself. 

but the basis of my ED isn’t body image, it was back in HS cause i ran with this group who were very LOOKS oriented and i wanted to fit into that mold; but now it’s all about control. it’s like.............so hard to explain but when i’m feeling adrift, i need something to like....................idk ground me?? and that process grounds me. in a really weird fucked way. even typing this is making me disgusted with myself. but it’s about having total control over ONE thing. 

in any case i really wanna go back to going to therapy every week but i just don’t have the time for it in my schedule. so the thing i need to help me through this, i can’t devote time to cause i have to be fully immersed in what im doing right now. which is also like.........lol killing me slowly. 

there’s a lot more about not wanting to be a failure, and always needing to be perfect and THE BEST and shit that i should be over after ALLLLLLLLLLLL the things i’ve been through and lol after ALLLLLLLLLLL the therapy i’ve been in over the years. 

but i do know that our issues never truly go away, our ability to cope is what helps us get through and most times i am a fucking boss at coping. i cope so hard and so well i amaze myself sometimes. and those are the times i feel the strongest. but then when i can’t cope as well as i’m accustomed.............i feel 2 inches tall. and then i hate myself for not being stronger. it’s a whole thingggg. 

ANYWAYS LOL I DID NOT MEAN FOR THIS TO GET THIS LONG. BUT I NEEDED SOMEWHERE TO PUT ALL THIS SHIT. 

and i think some of you have picked up on me not being my best right now. so i feel like this is a safe space to share the reasons why. 

i feel exhausted now. im gonna either nap or mindlessly fuck around on here or watch some shit idk. i do know that im not looking at a law text for at least 2 hours. 

[unknowngirl199424-blog]

Pt. 3

Now being the pretty innocent girl i was. I smoked weed very occasionally. Drank every now and then. But that was it really. I smoked cigs. Stupid choice i made at an even more stupid young age. I was 13 when i tried it. 15 when i started smoking every day. (My parents knew, they didn't care) my younger sister had been smoking for years. She partied a lot. Drank a lot. Smoked a lot. Took a lot of pills. Would steal my moms pain pills that she needed from the back surgeries. Mom would run out at the end of the month and would bawl... Literally wail in pain. And it never stopped my sister. I caught her several times. Id get pissed. Ask her wtf she was doing, or why... But she never stopped. I never told... I was drowning in depression. It started when i was 13. After my grandma passed. I changed... She was my world.

My parents partied ALOT!

Used LOTS of drugs...

Ranging from just weed, to coke, to meth...

The first half of my life... From birth till... 14? I think was when they quit all the hard shit for good. They were just... Mom and dad. I mean i loved them, i respected them, but... I didn't have anything to compare it to. It was normal for me to walk in and see light bulbs just randomly on the coffee table.

It was normal for me to wake my sis up in the morning, helping her get dressed, teeth brushed, food in her belly and out the door waiting on the bus. Every day. We lived in the country about 20 miles from town where our friends were. So all we had was each other. In the summer as soon as the sun started to show, 7:00ish. My parents would rush into our room. One would wake up me while the other would wake my sister. Rush us up and to get dressed and outside. We'd be outside alllllllllll day long in the summer in Oklahoma heat. They'd have friends over and lock the doors. We played. Sometimes the friends would bring their kids and we'd run around and play all day. I was a tom boy. I had scarred bloody knees almost daily from wrecking my bike. Would just walk around the property we lived on. Played with our dogs. Pissed off snakes that liked to live in the barn or chicken coop. I ran a lot. BUT IT WAS NORMAL TO ME. They started to quit when i was 12. Then grandma passed. They started again. Didn't stop for good until mom was hurt and dad was fired for pissing dirty for weed, coke, and meth. He was rehired 6 months later. But shit was rough at the time. So after losing my grandma. I went into myself. She loved me, took care of me. Gave me what i wanted and needed. I basically broke. I was never really an over joyous kid. I was raped and molested by my cousin. And so i always carried pain. But grandma was who made me happy. She passed. And from that point in my life from 13 to 18. I cut a lot. I was emotionless most days. But some days I'd break and cry for hours. For the longest time i thought i was depressed because of grandma. But i realized... Depression is a disease. And once you get a good dose of it, it stays. It twists and folds and wiggles its way into every fibre of your being and clings. And bad things that go on add to it and over time, you are eye level deep terrified you're gonna go under soon and no one will notice. Well over the years shit was added. Once I realised i could.... Not feel the pain and sadness... I latched on. Over time the occasional smoking weed went to every day several times a day. Drinking came up for awhile but i hated feeling like shit the next day so i quit. My ex gave me a pain pill one day.

I realised that not only could i get away from the pain and depression, i could feel fucking amazing while doing so. So it started out ya know. Once a week. Just one. To 2 a week to 4 a week to at least 1 every day. When we went up north. Pills were every where. Drugs in general. And i wanted to experience things. We had fun. Went lots of places. Did lots of things. Parties, festivals, fairs, amusement parks, museums, art museums, craft fairs, art stores, book stores, malls, movie theaters.. Just... it was great. I met her friends. They were like her. We partied a lot. I was soley living in the moment for once instead of striving to please everyone else. It was a stupid choice. But it was my choice. Over the years. The fun with it stopped... it became a nessecity. She got shitty and mean sober and i was just as miserable. I wanted happiness not that. Her dad would give us pain pills every day and muscle relaxers. If we did literally anything for him he'd pay us in pills. My ex was also prescribed pain pills too! We'd go through them so quick and then he'd give them to us so we didn't go through withdrawal. By year 3 (2015) I'm 21. I'm working a few months here a few months there. Living the same daily cycle. My day didn't start until pills were thrown down my throat. The habit got bad. I was to a point i was taking fucking handfulls of pills. Daily. And didn't feel ok until then. The few days i didn't have them, i literally slept all day and all night. I was burying my issues with a dark coping mechanism.

I started falling out of love. I left her once last year and we got back together the next day. I told her she couldn't keep stopping me from leaving because it was making me hate her. She wouldnt let go. We stayed together for 4 months. I broke up with her and moved back to oklahoma the beginning of this year. But she was my comfort. Pills were my comfort. After being here for 4 months i let her come back. It was bad. I got back into pills again and one day i told her i didn't want to be with her anyone. She was here for a month at that point. But she wasn't trying to work. She wouldn't do anything. But look for pills. I told her i was done. She gave me some pills. I didn't know what they were but she told me they were for anxiety. And i was really upset. So i took them. We kept arguing. She kept giving me more. My parents stopped by to drop something off, i guess i was wayyyyy out of it. They leave. The fight blows up. I tell her i want her gone. She kept refusing. Idk what happened. It was like a light switch went off. I went to the kitchen and grabbed a steak knife and sliced my wrist up for the first time ever... I only cut my stomach and thighs as a teen. She came around the corner and saw what i was doing and broke a glass vase i had. She ran over and grabbed the blade. Started yanking it from me. I guess we fought over it pretty hard cuz all i remember was it flying across the room and when i got back 6 days later it was soooo bent up.

She kept going and going and i grabbed a piece of glass and cut, she got it away and i just collapsed to the floor. She tried hugging me. I screamed at her for being toxic for me. To not touch me. To just call my mom. My mom shows up. Its like 11:30 at night at this point and she freaks out. My ex starts shit with her. They argue. I scream at them that they needed to stop and mom took me to the er. I guess by that point i was in and out of consciousness. One thing i do remember was seeing an old teacher that i had from yearrrrs ago when i went to a vocational school to become a certified nurse aid. I really looked up to her at 17. Admired her. She was a Dr there in the er. It was humialting. I cried. I guess i pissed in a cup for em or something. I don't remember. But they told my mom (which i didn't find out till almost a week later) that i was overdosing. That all of what i took hadn't caught up and that's why i was talking really crazy and blacking out. I don't remember. But the next morning i wake up. There was a cop sitting next to my bed. 20 mins later im being handcuffed and put in a cruiser and drove over a hr to a phych place. Guess the dr asked me the night before what would happen if i went home and i said i didn't know. So they legally put me there for 5 days so i couldn't be any harm to myself.

5 good things about being put there.

1. I had no access to pills, alcohol, even cigarettes. So i was very very clear headed. The first time in almost 6 years. Had time to think about where tf my life has landed me.

2. I realized how fucking truly bad our relationship was. And came to the conclusion that if we stayed together. One, if not both of us was gonna end up in a casket. Whether it be from pills or not. It was gonna happen.

3. I realized that i deserved wayyyy better. Relationship wise. Life wise. I deserved someone who could push me in the healthy direction. Make positive choices. I felt like instead of maturing, i was still trapped in an 18 yr olds mentality.

4. I ended it. And that time i meant it. There's nothing she could offer me. That would make me go back. Not a million dollars, not a billion, not even all the stars in the sky. I have nothing for her.

5. I met someone who treats me amazing now. Who pushes me. Keeps me away from the shit. I've been pain pill free for 5 months and its staying that way.

And for once... I'm starting to actually feel happy. Genuinely. I was prescribed anti depressants, anti anxiety, and a sleep disorder med. I stopped taking the anti depressants because they made it worse. But im to the point where the good days finally out weigh the bad. And when the bad come, i roll with it.

For the new year. I have a few goals.

1. Continue all the hard work ive put into myself. Keep eating healthy. Keep exercising. Keep pushing myself forward. No more settling for less what what i truly want.

2. Stay tf away from pain pills. 👍 keep fighting that demon in me who whispers how good I would feel or how one wouldn't hurt...

3. Quit smoking cigs. They're killing me. My lungs hurt all the time.

4. Continue bettering my life. I got away from her for 4 months and i had my own home, vehicle, and a high paying easy job. Brought her back for a month, had a suicidal moment. But she's gone and im in a great relationship. And I'm fucking HAPPY!

5. Quit being so fucking hard on myself. I hate the way i look, i hate my body. But they can be changed. Stress over things that need it but relax more. I'm 24. I still have time.

I STILL HAVE FUCKIN TIME

[winedownwithcoffee]

DWTS Season 27 TRIO WEEK Trashy Thoughts

Whew this season is a cluster and I LOVE IT. Unpredictable my friends. Keeping us on our toes. I am going to make and insert my favorite gifs from each dance too

Opening: Cute little opener. Not much to say about it lol

JP & Cheryl+Melissa Rycroft: He got a ROUGH package, which is very interesting to me…Very interesting. I hate this dance. Everything about it. The music styling, all of it. He can move his hips. That is about it. This is a whole as mess. At least she added a couple of cha cha steps? But this is trash and I hate it. All of it.  A whole ass posing trash mess. I actually agreed with CAI for the first time, I canNOT connect with him. At all. 8-8-8 shoulda had a 7 IMO

Tinashe & Brandon+Amy Purdy: Amy & Tinashe should have had DIFFERENT colors. They straight up SAID the best dancers don’t last AND high scores don’t keep you there. WE ALLLLLLLLLLL should have seen it coming tbh. I honestly didn’t hate this dance, but Amy messed up a few points and also I hate Brandon’s facials something fierce… It was forgettable. Plain and simple.  9-8-9 would have said 8.5. It was fine but like I just don’t really remember it until now that I have rewatched it.

John & Emma+ Joey Fatone: I. LOVE. JOEY. I adore him. I adore her costuming. If her hair hadn’t gotten stuck it would have been amazing at the beginning. I actually REALLY enjoyed this dance. Like a lot. And the music was STUNNING. I didn’t expect to like John as much as I do this season. And I can’t with Joey’s makeup. KILLING me  lmaooooo I skipped through the judges because I am over it lol I liked it and him with the judges kills me. 7-7-7 and I agree

MALE.PRO.BUMPER. IS EVERYTHING MY THOT ASS NEEDED LAST NIGHT. WHEW GOD SHINED DOWN ON US LAST NIGHT LADIES. Though my hoe ass wishes they were shirtless. Also obviously Artem and Val don’t hate hate each other

Evanna & Keo+ Scarlett Brynne: I still don’t understand why these RANDOM ASS PEOPLE are in these fuckin trios man. Why?? I hate it. It’s crap and dumb. She kept up overall. Keo overdanced her again though. I watch him more than her sometimes because he is more dynamic. Scarlett missed steps. Also she kinda looks like Janel LOL. 8-8-8 and I concur. Also I couldn’t find any other giffable moment than this LMAO

Demarcus & Lindsay+ Rashad Jennings: Okay I KNEW this was going to happen with this dance. Okay the package was whew. That broken finger man gahhhhhh and he was so chill about it LOL that football mentality man. Okay as for the dance, I knew this was going to happen. Rashad is too good to go with Demarcus. It highlighted that Demarcus is the weaker dancer of the two. Rashad danced down to Demarcus’s level and Demarcus tried too hard to dance to Rashad’s level and it lost the intensity in my opinion. He doesn’t hit things like Rashad does and this made it apparent. It wasn’t a bad dance AT ALL but it highlighted the WRONG things. 7-7-8 I think that was about right

MLR & Sasha+Nastia Lukin: I am glad ya’ll enjoy her because I just don’t care one way or the other for he. Probably because she’s with Sasha and every time I see him I wanna hit him. The package was good though, she needed that. I think this dance suited MLR more because of alllllll of my issues with her the last three weeks. She still poses so much. There wasn’t as much trio as I would have preferred but that’s the first dance of hers I liked. 9-8-9 I’d have said 8

Milo & Witney+ Riker Lynch: I have been looking forward to this dance all week tbh. Riker should have won that season LOL I really really enjoy Milo. And I am glad to see Witney back to her old self. LMAO Witlash. Milo coming off a little cocky though. She almost fell twice though lol It was what I expected. I did love it. A lot. 10-9-10 and I agree

Joe & Jenna+Jordan Kimbrell: Okay. I have so many thoughts. WHY THE AF DID THEY PUT THIS RANDOM SHIT ON HERE?? Jordan is more charismatic than Joe tbh. Whew okay. Time to start the actual dance. Jenna looks stunning so there is that. I can’t stop laughing though. The minute they ripped the shirts off I lost it lmaooooo omg the “body grind “ was so Bad. Then gleb and Val came in and saved the shit out of it. Omg I can’t with this dance. I can’t quit laughing. And Val and gleb at the end. WHEW that was a fucking hot mess. But I cackled LMAO Jenna’s just like fuck it I give up LOL Bruno is me. This is a unique experience. I said 3 but yeah that sounds about right. And OMG stop I never saw alan and bobby booty popping omgggg

Alexis & Alan+Maddie Ziegler: AGAIN WHY TF IS THIS RANDOM ON MY SCREEN. Though they look like twins. Still don’t care about Alexis tbh. Don’t care at all. This dance wasn’t bad. She overdanced Alexis imo. And they didn’t dance together. Alexis has the same problem as demarcus this week. She is way too soft. But she seemed to enjoy this week the most so that’s good. But meh whatevs 8-8-9 also, see below the most WTF choreographed bit last night

Bobby & Sharna+Lindsey Sterling: I think they kinda got jipped getting cha cha with Lindsey. She’s not the most hip actiony person lol but they cute. Cute package. Really pushing about the dreams he’s living. This is 100% a  lipsync battle lmao he hit those hammer moves though. I just can’t stop smiling through this though. It was a whole ass blast dude. The cha cha was lacking but it was fun! 7-6-7 which I mean okay yeah

OKAY so my thoughts re: that elimination that none of you asked for but if you actually read this shit show then you will get. I am ONLY shocked about her going home last night because of the jeopardy last week. I am not shocked she went home early. She’s entirely forgettable when you have people like Bobby and Joe and Milo and Evy. The people that don’t really vote or don’t watch live or are just basic casual viewers continuously forget her. My flip phone loving, email incapable memaw forgot she was on until she started dancing. Mama asked what dance she did last week because she honestly couldn’t remember. That is Tinashe’s problem. She was a superb dancer but easily forgettable this season. I was only shocked because I thought that jeopardy would carry her another couple of weeks.

[hannahindie]

85 Statements!

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

I was tagged by the absolutely amazing @ultrafandomcat Thank you so much for tagging me love!

Last

1. Drink - Cherry Coke

2. Phone call - The dude from Ink in a Blink.

3. Text message - not a text technically, but @pinknerdpanda! <3

4. Song you listened to - As The Jurassic World Turns (Jurassic World Soundtrack)

5. Time you cried - Umm...sometime earlier this week. I found pictures my grandmother who just passed away took at my wedding last year.

Ever

6. Dated someone twice? - Not dated, but talked to. Dumb.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - Oh, yes. Oh my, yes. And Facebook memories just keep popping up the fallout from it. -eye roll-

8. Been cheated on - ...This is weird to answer. No but yes? It’s a weird story. lol

9. Lost someone special - Yes.

10. Been depressed - Yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - Yeeaaaaa. I used to be able to say no to this, and then I got old and my body decided to remind me.

Favourite colours

12. dark purple

13. bright blue

14. dark gray

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - Yes.

16. Fallen out of love - Nope! Still very much head over heels, thank youuuuu.

17. Laughed until you cried - Yep

18. Found out someone was talking about you - I’m sure people talk about me at work a lot. -shrug- I guess that happens when you get shit done. -flex-

19. Met someone who changed you - Sure have

20. Found out who your friends are - Uhh...I don’t think so?

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - Sure have! -whispers- My husband is my facebook friend.

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - I’d like to say most of them, but I had a pretty significant time frame where I made alllllllllll the online friends.

23. Do you have any pets - My kitty!

24. Do you want to change your name - I changed my last name!

25. What did you do for your last birthday - I honestly can’t remember. I’m sure I went with my parents, we had a dinner with friends, I think my husband might have taken just the two of us out.

26. What time did you wake up today - 8 a.m.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night - Watching Grey’s Anatomy because I hate myself.

28. What is something you cant wait for - APRIL. I get to see my water bear and my twin and the boys and and and everyooooooooone!

30. What are you listening to right now - People talking about....something. I don’t know. Not paying much attention.

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom - One of my first close college friends is named Tom.

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves - Wanting to go home and being trapped here. lol

33. Most visited website - Tumblr, Facebook, BeFunky.

34. Hair colour - dark strawberry blonde I guess. Someone said brown once, but I don’t think that’s accurate.

35. Long or short hair - I miss my long hair.

36. Do you have a crush on someone - Yes. -whispers- It’s my husband. Don’t tell him.

37. What do you like about yourself - I’m pretty hilarious.

38. Want any piercings? - I toyed with the idea of getting my nose pierced.

39. Blood type - I have no idea. I live life on the edge.

40. Nicknames - Han, Hanners

41. Relationship status - Marrrrrrriiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeed

42. Zodiac - Pisces

43. Pronouns - She/her.

44. Favourite TV shows - Supernatural, Walking Dead, Criminal Minds, Psych, The Office, Game of Thrones, Sherlock, Grey’s Anatomy (just recently. it’s my guilty pleasure)

45. Tattoos - One, on my foot. It says Amor motis est.

46. Right or left handed - Right.

47. Ever had surgery - Yup

48. Piercings - Yep: I had three on the bottom, but now I have two on the bottom, and the first hole is gauged, I have a regular cartilage piercing in one ear, and an industrial in the other.

49. Sports - I did roller derby for awhile. I am not an athletic person.

50. Vacation - New Zealand, Ireland, pretty much most places, okay, ,thanks.

51. Trainers - My favorite pair are black converse that are super glittery.

More general

52. Eating - I haven’t had lunch...but I had a McGriddle for breakfast.

53. Drinking - Still sipping on cherry coke.

54. I’m about to watch - Nothing. Because I’m trapped.

55. Waiting for - the contractors to be done with my house so I can move in!

56. Want - to go home, and see my parents, and also mooooooove.

57. Get married - I am! It’s pretty great. I thoroughly enjoy it.

58. Career - If I could make money from writing and cross stitching, and be able to survive...that. OR Moving into the ID department. Or an occupational therapist.

Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses - I like both very much.

60. Lips or eyes - Eyes.

61. Shorter or taller - Taller, because I’m already pretty short.

62. Older or younger - Doesn’t really matter...my husband is only like a month older than me. lol

63. Nice arms or stomach - Mmm...arms.

64. Hookup or relationship - Relationship, yo.

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - I can be both.

Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger - Uhhh...I don’t think so? hahah

67. Drank hard liquor - Oh, yes.

68. Lost glasses - Yes

69. Turned someone down - Yes

70. Sex on first date - Nope

71. Broken someones heart - Yeaaaa....but not on purpose.

72. Had your heart broken - Yep. Facebook thought it would be cool to remind me.

73. Been arrested - Nope

74. Cried when someone died - Yes.

75. Fallen for a friend - Yeaaaaaa.

Do you believe in

76. Yourself - Sometimes.

77. Miracles - Sure do.

78. Love at first sight - I knew when I saw my husband walk across the street to meet me for our first date. Hadn’t even spoken to him in person yet.

79. Santa clause - Why wouldn’t I?

80. Kiss on a first date - That depends.

81. Angels - Yup

Other

82. Best friend’s name - This makes me feel like I am going to make someone sad. They know. lol

83. Eye colour - Blue/Grey with a yellow ring around the pupil.

84. Favourite movie - Shaun of the Dead, Hot Fuzz, alllll the Marvel Movies. There’s too many.

85. Favourite actor - Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Simon Pegg, Chris Evans, Sebastian Stan, Chris Pratt, Benedict Cumberbatch, Martin Freeman, Zac Efron, Matthew Gray Gubler...there’s so many.

[jimlingss]

Can u please please make a drabble with for the love and money? Like how is jin becoming a dad, and maybe side story of the other character like jungkook and joonie. I was re-reading it again and still so mesmerized and there still an sting feeling right into my heart❤❤ maybe because it has slice of life genre so it can be relatable and easier to read than the bed of roses. And maybe you should make a masterlist? I'm sorry if this is too much to ask. Love your work!!😚

Oh and i just realized that u already done the masterlist 😂

Aww hahaa. Dude…For Love & Money is like 17 parts…literally it’s 201 pages. ROFL. and you want more?!?!! I understand though, Bed of Roses is a pain to read - it’s no…bed of roses (haha…see what I did there?). Not trying to spoil anything but if you liked for FL&M….this next series that I’m currently writing right now….boy……you gonna die. IT’S LIKE SO GOOD. No more spoilers. 

Anyways, since you did ask…not gonna lie I did think about the aftermath of FL&M and what would happen afterwards…I would never write it though I just felt like I ended off the series perfectly. The series holds a close spot in my heart. I love it a lot too. But I guess it wouldn’t hurt to share what I think would happen….

-It’s your first kid. AND IT’S DAMN HARD. You’re mostly scared and Jin comforts you and stuff and you feel a whole lot better but in the delivyer room, you are cursing his name. screaming. everything. literally punching him in between pushes. but being the FUCKING PERFECT (I wish he was my) HUSBAND that he is, he like holds you and comforts you and tells you that you’re gonna be a great mom and he’s so happy to have a family with you and that you’re going to okay, that everything is going to be okay. So now you’re bursting into tears and crying and still cursing his name, wondering why he loves you so damn much even when you’re a mess but he at that moment doesn’t think you’re a mess. Long story short, you are okay. and you give birth to a beautiful girl.

-Your mother in law busts into the room shortly after, looking as healthy as ever, scolding Jin for not taking better care of you and she is like mama bear, tucking you in tight, asking if you’re hungry, if you’re hurting, if you’re okay. She looks at your child and almost starts crying, holding her tightly and your own mom shows up with your dad and it’s all great.

-Well…but it’s not all rainbows and butterflies. The baby cries - a lot. And though Jin wakes up in the middle of the night taking care of the child, he still has to work. He stays home for a good two weeks first but they need him. He is the CEO. So he’s gone during the day and you are just busting. You just gave damn birth, your uterus is not okay, you are like bleeding with your organs mashed inside of you and your hormones are out of WHACK. but you try to keep it together and you do…for like a good three weeks until the kid doesn’t stop crying and you don’t know what’s wrong and you havent showered in three days and you cant make dinner and the house is a mess. so when he comes home, you’re on the floor crying with the baby. He feels sooooooooo bad and you’re like telling him that you can’t do it and you know he has priorities and work but you can’t do this and you’re terrible and you don’t know what’s wrong and there’s no reason to be but you are so angry at him for not helping out more. 

-He sleeps on the couch with the baby that night and the next day, he hands her off to his mother. and when you find out you. just. go. off. like CRAZYY. Like “WHAT THE HELL? WHERE IS MY BABY? THAT’S MY BABY! YOU THINK YOU JUST GO HAND HER OFF TO SOMEONE?!” Like predatory mama bear freak out and he just kisses you and tells you that he just wants you to feel better, for you to finally spend quality one on one time with him. Everything is okay. and you calm down and you don’t freak out, you mumble a sorry and everything is a lot better. You take a shower. He cleans up. He feeds you. You feel a ton better. 

-Anyways, when things begin to calm down and the baby gets a bit older, the both of you go on vacation for that honeymoon that you never had. It’s great. Just you and him. and your parents + parent-in-laws love your kid to hell and back anyways so they’re happy to take care of her. Anyways…on the trip there’s a lot of one on one time together. I mean…like very much close quality time. (cue weekend music jk jk).  if you still don’t understand - scandalous things.

-k so like your daughter is physically replica pretty much of Jin like SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL. but she has the personality of YOU. So that means she’s as stubborn as alllllllllll hell and not very nice to deal with. The two always clashes and she’s always begging for Jin’s attention. She falls down on the ground? She runs to Jin. She wants a snack? She’ll run to Jin. She wants a story? She runs to Jin. She wants a kiss? She runs to Jin. She wants to be picked up and carried? She runs to Jin. Your relationship with her is  similar to Aeri and Yoongi’s relationship. So you like bond over it with Yoongi, the two of you grabbing beers or something at a bar one night to get away from the kids. Nonetheless, she still loves you a ton, just she likes teasing you so she specifically directs more attention onto Jin, knowing you get a little peeved. 

-Yuju freaking loves your kid. 

-Yoongi is same old Yoongi. He asks if you regret having kids, to which you respond no. When you ask him, he says ‘nope. at least not until they pee their pants in the middle of the night and come bursting into your room when you’re having sex with your wife’. You laugh. 

-You return back to work. Your daughter is sometimes left at a daycare center, usually with your parents and parent-in-law, swapping every day. 

-Jungkook officially takes over the hospital, you take him out for drinks, patting him on the back while still calling him a brat. 

-Namjoon stays over at your house one night since he had a terrible breakup of like a five year relationship and so you learn just how close he and Jin are. 

-You hang out with the three kids - Mingyu, Haru and Junseo but cause this time you have a toddler with you, you’re always watching her and you’re much too exhausted to play. Jin takes over and plays with him. They like him a lot….almost more than you (much to your dismay).

-Sana gets hitched on the weekend spontaneously, you are baffled. She says it was the most romantic thing she’s ever done. 

-Taehyung shows up out of the blue at the hospital. Turns out he got drunk and hit his head on the concrete. He tries to flirt with Sana. He almost gets punched in the face by her husband. Turns out Taehyung knows Jungkook quite well and that they’re kinda friends (only for Jungkook to shake his head).

-You finally move houses. or rather out of your apartment and into a real damn house.

-Hoseok gets married and you are so happy for him. At the wedding, Yuju brings along Dokyeom and reveals that they’re officially together. You playfully warn him. 

-Drunk off of the wedding champagne, the festivities and the love in the air you and Jin finally have that son that he’s been talking about. LOL. (flash to the future, he’s like you but has Jin’s personality so much more gentle but still childish. Your son is always a victim to his sister’s bullying. rofl.)

-Jin is a great father to your children, so much so that they love him more than you (just a little bit, much to your dismay) and occasionally you bother him or whine to him for attention since he dotes so much on your kids. He still loves you just as much. Though like any relationship, it’s not always rainbows and butterflies; you argue over petty things and act childish sometimes - you have sincerely never been happier. 

-Life goes on. 

[aurimeanswind]

Weak at the Knees—Sunday Chats (9/24/17)

What a week it has been.

It’s more personal life/work related, which I notably don’t talk about here on the inter webs, but it’s been a good, hard working week in my life!

I’m just gonna go right into the games, forgo the editorial, and focus on the questions, since there are some good ones this week. Back-to-back late postings of the Sunday Chats though, just been some late Sunday nights is all!

Alright. On to it!

What’s on Tap

Metroid Samus Returns

I mentioned it a bit last week but Samus Returns continues to be absolutely excellent.

It’s the full Zero Mission treatment for Metroid 2, and it’s an amazing reimagining of the classic Metroid formula from that game.

It keeps everything that made that game super rad, and is just exactly what I wanted the 3DS 2D Metroid game to be: an amazing 2D Metroid with 3D graphics!

I love it. Yay!

Destiny 2

Still chipping away at Destiny 2, trying to make it into that upper echelon of “above power level 280″ and finally being one of the cool kids.

After the demoralizing failure of not finishing the Leviathan raid this past week, there was definitely some time off necessary.

I walked away, but now I’m back up to the plate and ready to knock it out of the park.

What I’ve Been Working On

It’s been an interesting few weeks of working on things. I am still cranking those words out everyday, and I can feel something coming. I wanted to release something this week, what with it being a full year since the release of the first episode of Alex Talks Season 3, but we’ll have to wait a bit more. Stuff is coming. I do promise. I have so much written, and I wanna wait for the right time to record some footage and do some new things with video content, but I am also extremely lazy.

So, with those to things going at each other, we’ll see how it turns out.

I’ll say this week I’ve been writing almost exclusively about Destiny and Metroid, and it feels real good to write about those two things again!

Questions

Remember to look for my tweet from my @ALFighter27 twitter account on Sunday afternoons soliciting Sunday Chats questions, respond, and you’ll be in here! Having fun! Yay!

Hrm. I mean I could take this a bunch of different ways.

I think there are definitely a few things that I’ll list off. Like, I could always be a better person. I honestly, truly believe that, and I think that mentality is partly what leads people to believe I am one at all, is because I strive to be better, to be more inclusive, to be more empathetic and understanding.

Like one thing I hate about myself is how lazy I am, ya know? Like I procrastinate a lot. Whether it’s little things like doing the dishes or cleaning my bathroom, or big things like writing projects, articles, editing writers’ work, responding to important emails, or otherwise. I wanna focus on that and be better.

I also generally want to be healthier. Like, both my parents were, for a time, overweight, and had gastric bypasses done and now they’re healthy and skinny, but I don’t wanna lean on that as an option, and I know the odds are stacked against me. I wanna be happy with my body, but also I have so many medical things wrong with me that I’d like to prolong the feeling of being able to get up, and run, and play, and just be active as long as I can, because ya know, you don’t appreciate that kind of thing when you have it.

So yeah, I hope that answers your question.

But also I am not a very good writer and could be so much better but I’m trying. Putting in the work and time, so to speak.

It’s only been...

*checks calendar*

928 days today! That’s not that long at alllllllllll....

*dies*

I have talked about this before, but my Growing up with a Generation piece is definitely up there. My Twilight Princess piece is too. And I actually legitimately love my Breath of the Wild review. Super proud of that.

I think there are some reviews that could have been better, especially the ones on episodic games. But I’ve kind of stopped reviewing them now because it’s hard to encapsulate those feelings. Especially if you’re going to try and do so without spoilers. 

But nothing sticks out to me that I am particularly not proud of because I just haven’t published those things. I wrote a thing about JRPGs versus WRPGs that I ended up just not liking at all, and scrapped. But that’s really the biggest one.

Haha I think I’d want Christopher Nolan to direct it, just because he is my favorite director, but no. That won’t do. 

Ugh, Logan this would be such a terrible movie oh my god.

Okay, either the Russo Brothers, or, preferably, Phil Lord and Chris Miller, directors of 21 & 22 Jump Street.

Actors?

Uhh, for me I’d want like, Miles Teller for myself, because we kind of have a similar “look”. In a PERFECT WORLD a young French Stuart would play Scott, oh my fucking god that’d be so perfect. You have no idea. But like, a young one. I could totally see a Josh Gad playing Evan Wall. Joseph Fait is tough, he’d maybe be like an Andrew Garfield type. Tony Horvath would be really tough. I’d love just like, a Justin McElroy for him, honestly. 

Nabeshin is a tricky one. Like, maybe a Michael B Jordan, but I’d think a Chadwick Boseman could do great too.

Danny Juarez would be played by either Michael Peña or Rob Schneider. One of the two.

Haha I mean, I think I already covered Tony, I really think the J-man could do a great job, but I’m sure there is a better pick out there.

Jurge Cruze Alvarez? Joseph Gordon Levitt. 

Jarrett Green? Don Cheadle. 

Logan Wilkinson? Grant Gustin. Who would also probably play Jacob Bryant. He’d play both of you.

I have to think about this more you put me on the spot haha.

Ahhh, the classic question. Actually the dogs I grew up with!

The Saint Bernard.

Although I love huskies too. Here is the only picture of a couple of them I found on my Facebook. 

They are siblings so that’s why they look so similar haha.

I fucking love Saint Bernards, and big dogs, and dogs you can hug. But I love all kinds of dogs.

So HAH Joey! I bet you thought I’d say corgi! And I got you!

Definitely had to google this.

No.

NEXT QUESTION!

Goddamn Wrestlers I swear.

So i have never seen Face/Off, and I KNOW. I WANT TO. So by default it’s The Rock, and The Rock is a fucking amazing movie, so I ain’t even mad.

Not to late at all!

The BEST snack food... Hrm...

I mean I love potato chips, personally, but I try not to eat them. Not anymore, at least, because I can feel my arteries slowly closing as I put every chip in my mouth...

I’d honestly say, if accessible, the french fry. The french fry is the perfect snack-um. My brother actually just made home-made french fries, like cut the potatoes himself, last week, and they were fucking amazing.

Yeah.

Yeah I would.

I mean, I’d like to know the chance, ahead of time, personally, but I could get more than just burritos at Chipotle. Now, if my burrito BOWL exploding in my face randomly that’d just be kind of funny.

METROID.

Shit, they already did that one.

This is tricky, because there are a ton of really cool one offs that would be fun to bring back. But my totally bullshit answer is just gonna be a REAL Paper Mario RPG again. Even a Super Paper Mario 2 would be fucking amazing, but a sequel to Thousand Year Door, in conjunction with a TYD remaster on Switch, would be incredible.

Listen, I’m sorry I deleted you off my friends list in such glorious fashion Max. I’M SORRY!

But apparently Danny Juarez is gunning for my position, so in short, he’s dead to me.

Will keep you posted.

So here is a big thing I’ve realized, and there are still occasionally games I’ll like to stream, but I tend to listen to podcasts when I play games. When I stream, I can’t do that, and I end up falling really behind on my podcasts. But I’ve been streaming Destiny a lot lately, and will try and continue to do so.

Not having a schedule makes it super hard for me, and if I could figure out something consistent and fun to stream, I’d definitely give it a shot. But right now, I just don’t know. I got a new capture card, and that definitely helps, even though I mostly got it for video, but it ebbs and flows. Maybe there will be more on the horizon!

I got nothing else left in me this week, I am tired, and tuckered, and ready to just play some games and chill for the rest of my night.

Thank you all so much, for reading, supporting, asking, listening, everything you do.

Next week I’ll be asking YOU ALL a question for Sunday Chats again, so keep on the lookout, and until then...

keep it real.