#blurrybrain

[holding-on-to-josh]

i need to rant about how much i love snap back. this song is an absolute masterpiece in terms of sound, lyrics, harmonies, and meaning. me and my close friend were talking about how amazing this song was yesterday. love you avery

- it has this distinct summer sound that sounds nostalgic to me and it just feels like i’m driving toward the sunset and it gives me a feeling like everything’s gonna be okay, despite the song itself

THIS PART is so deep. it’s like you’re still running from the past, but more so you’re still THINKING about the past which is keeping you from looking into the future and seeing what’s right in front of you. this i feel is something anybody can relate to because we look back a lot on life and try to use it to improve.

This idea of refusing help and possibly pushing away people you love because of how closed off or isolated you may feel. i know for a fact that when i’m going through something or having a rough day i lash out at anyone who tries to talk to me or help, and this lyric is absolutely amazing at describing this feeling of biting the hand that helps you, then giving it stitches.

first of all, the backslide reference! these two songs feel like siblings to me. but about the lyrics, the song is talking about a backslide, a relapse, a return to something. “all of that progress lost today” “it’s a backslide”. feeling like all that work, all that progress is worth nothing because you ended up back at square one. it’s as if you were climbing a slide only to slip back down.

This is not so much about lyrics but more so about structure and sound, BECAUSE THE HARMONIES?? god when i heard those harmonies for the first time on this song i ugly sobbed for a good fifteen minutes because holy crap it sounds amazing. it feels like several different people are telling you it’s all gone, and that’s what anxiety and insecurity feels like to me, like a bunch of tiny voices telling you stuff

don’t get me STARTED on this lyric because if you’re introspective like me and you’re always trying to look into how you feel and why you feel like this, this is insanely relatable. sometimes i’m able to come up with a bunch of reasons that make sense on why i’m feeling a certain way, which can lead to me being able to feel better or deal with it better, but there are also times where i run out of excuses as to why i am this way, why i feel this way. but i just think as humans we won’t always have the answers, and that’s okay

I really like this part because he’s USING THE FALSETTOS TO COMMUNICATE TWO VOICES. he’s talking to the backslide/relapse as if it’s a person (kind of like how nico/blurryface is a person that resembles tyler’s insecurities) and it’s genius. he’s saying “welcome back to the show”, welcome BACK being that this is not a one time occurrence, but something that keeps returning, even if it’s not wanted.

the way i see it, the normal voice is his more rationale than just his insecurities, and this is shown through him saying he better move to a fresher approach, showing that he has a desire to change things up to see if it makes him feel different. and the new adaptation, in my opinion, i see it as him realizing that it may not ever go away fully, but he can adapt because humans adapt.

Let’s not forget this gem. absolute genius at lyrics tyler joseph is, and this line is evil because it cuts so deep. The fact that he’s referring to himself as having elasticity, i see it as him saying he’s changed a lot, or he’s willing to change if it means finding his way back. the feeling of knowing you’ve gotten off track and wanting to get back to where you were before, but not knowing how, so all you can do is pray that you’ll somehow get back there, to how things were before. this further contributes to the backslide theme of the song.

That’s all i have to say for now, just wanted to get that out there because i cannot listen to this song without sobbing my lungs out. 😵‍💫

[kiitchensiink]

ok seeing bloodplay on the list woke up a part of me that had been napping.

but omg Ty(/blurry?) loves knives. the slow red ooze and the sting of the cold blade makes him insane (and don’t get him started on the taste)

yo omg fuck yes good MORNING knifeplay nation I've been thinking the same thang and looking for any excuse to talk about it lol

Tyler has a shitty week, and is much more blurrybrained than usual, which. always leans him more towards. Experimentation. I could see him just messing with a pocket knife or something, flicking it in and out of its case when he nicks himself a little on the blade. he winces at first, but when it sinks in what he just did, it's like time stops for a minute.

he just watches the beads of blood begin to breach the cut.

he doesn't blink as he finds himself opening his palm, and carving a deep cut down the centre; The knife is new and sharp, and the slice stings as his skin parts around it, a streak of red immediately following the blade.

he has to whip his dick out of his pants immediately, placing the blade between his teeth. the blood dripping onto his tongue, still warm though the blade feels ice cold.

Watching the blood coat his hard cock, he can't help but groan; eyelashes fluttering as he feels the sharp blade graze the corners of his lips. Rubbing the thumb he'd cut over his blushing cocktip and watching the blood squeeze out of it, mixing with his precum, is what sends him over the edge.

Just as Josh walks in for band practice

[holding-on-to-josh]

INTRO POST

hey and welcome to my little corner of the internet dedicated to twenty øne piløts (aka the band that both ruined my life and made it better)

“enough about you, let’s talk about me” - blasphemy

⟶ i post mostly tøp content (music, lore theories, maybe edits in the future, chaos, rambling thoughts, etc.)

⟶ joshler lives in my head rent free.

⟶ blurryface era raised me but vessel/rab is my soul

⟶ always down to scream about lyrics, lore, or that one live performance of fall away with dr blum you know the one

some of my other interests:

⟶ waterparks, ben folds five, tfb

⟶ we are the ants

⟶ creepypasta (the backrooms, the boiled one)

⟶ horror movies (the black phone, escape room, blumhouse movies)

⟶ UFOs, space, star trek, ghosts, space, multiverse, galaxies, oh did i mention space

DNI:

⟶ rude or judgy people, pedophiles, zoophiles, homophobes, transphobes, pro-shippers

⟶ (saw this on another intro page and i agree heavily) people who think that knowing a band for longer makes you a bigger fan

tags to look out for:

#tøp thoughts – unhinged and delusional commentary

#lyrics breakdown – gnawing at the bars of my enclosure

#fic recs – fanfic recs

#blurrybrain – lore decoding and headcanons

#joshler nation – self-explanatory

#skeleton clique – love u

other platforms you can find me on:

⟶ airbuds (@holdingontojosh)

⟶ discord (@holdingontojosh)

⟶ ao3 (@thefewtheproudtheemotional)

⟶ pinterest (@holdingontojosh)

⟶ stats.fm (@holdingontojosh)

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