#borderlands vrchat

[boomboombunnyy]

Vrchat shenanigans part 5: something something uhhh borderlands related

[clara05z-blog]

"Claptrap" aboard "Nostromo" to help see a "Xenomorph"

"Claptrap" went on, the "Nostromo" with few friends of his, "Awww but "Claptrap" look so "Cute"!! he looks silly doesn't need hyper Sleep.

[heavydivider]

Newest video is out right now as we're seeing the Best Of March stream compliation with all of it's clips from that month. Hope you guys enjoy.

[fictionkinfessions]

A week ago, I learned it is much easier to front while playing VRChat. It went well. I did, however, learn that I may have social anxiety. This concept is new to me, I'm intrigued. This is not meant to be a venting ask, I should clarify. - Fl4k [Fictive, Borderlands 3] #🚦🐾

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[kyrodo]

As for Red and Choskey goes, I do have a limit for the amount of time I spend in a day doing stuff by myself. Moreso now that I actually can spend time with other people in the first place thanks in large part to vrchat. Red for whatever reason even back then I... don't enjoy spending time with that much usually. Borderlands he just goes off and dies a lot. Sea of thieves he gets us all killed for pvp practice. Apex Legends he gets us killed. Planetside for a good long while was the ONLY game he would play with me regularly. And I don't enjoy planetside pretty much at all. I had little hope for it when I just jumped in back when we lived in fallbrook. Even after getting a bunch of stuff and understanding the game more my impressions did not improve much. That's not good.

And my creativity as far as things to do when we go out is very limited. Red doesn't initiate lewd things and isn't very good at it when we do. Red doesn't allow us to cuddle during the day or when he's going to sleep so the only possible time to do so is in the morning during a day he doesn't go to work or when he's planning to be late. And while it'd be great if we slept at the same times, I do like having some wind down time to myself before I do, and I like staying up late.

So we have a lot of problems. When it's good it's good. We joke around a lot in the shower. It's just not good very often. Red only has at most an hour or two to do anything recreational with me before he's done for the day.

I don't know if anything will change for Choskey once he starts working but uh... I'm a little less in denial that things weren't the greatest for a while between me and Red. Not bad enough to want to get out and not good enough to want to keep things the way they are. I was doing better than those couples that argue a lot or yell/cuss if that's worth anything. But we have different issues. We don't know how to spend time together. Red lives a workaholic life and wants to engage in ambitious and inventive projects on the side but I've never developed a taste for it. So he's also missing a few things I can't really provide.

And my attention span when he talks dwindles after he talks for a solid 20 minutes straight about the same topic, usually work, and I've seen him talk with Marcus. He could go on for a couple of hours. I can't do that. I would be waiting to resume whatever I was playing, and if I completely married myself to Red's sleep schedule, he would tell me it's time to sleep and I would be kinda mad my last few hours I could have spent playing something just got pissed away and I'm being told to sleep. It was bad enough with the several hours we spent at the grocery store, that he forced me along since I am dependent on his driving.

He's less likely to do that now and recognizes doing such things is not enjoyable for me. And I definitely don't like having my sleep schedule determined by someone else. I absolutely need that time to myself before going to sleep, especially to post stuff like this or talk to stalkers and crushes apparently. I don't like having my sleep time fixed or under someone else's thumb generally.

And then there's Choskey which from a gaming standpoint much easier to find time to do things together, much more variety of things to do together, and talking with him isn't nearly as tiring if at all. Like for whatever reason the kinds of topics and the kinds of things Red talks about or the way he talks about it or the low level comedy he has when he's poking fun at things (potty humor, repetitive jokes that are hyper cringe) or the viciously spiteful things he enjoys watching like videos of people shitting on flat earthers or videos of police chases or cars eating shit. I don't enjoy those things even remotely. I don't enjoy getting stressed out because he's stressed out audibly while driving, and I can't spot all the drivers he's paying attention to. I don't have 360 vision like he does.

Kitsunary as mentioned before has her own problems, but at least we can play anything whatsoever.

Vrchat gave me brownie, beastner, Choskey, cattucino, light, there's bitt's groups, there's khnfucats in vrchat and mayu's, there's other people related to Choskey or beastner that we've played with. Choskey spends so much time with me. I am the beating social heart of discordant discourse now. Choskey notices people like brownie and cattucino show up specifically because of me. And in vrc people like mad mittens, denso and busker the cat visit me. And nearly every time I'm around their friends or I'm in any public lobby more people seem to make their way into my friends list because I'm being cute.

That is phenomenal. I've needed this for so long.I can't overstress enough that I desperately needed something like this. A place to make friends, a place to be social, be cute, hang out with people, play games, plan out things to do. And Choskey is the cornerstone of all of that. Choskey is who allowed me to be comfortable in vrchat, get this avatar, and now one of my lovers. I do enjoy talking to him more than Red. Cause usually it's about school or about fun things and funny videos or much lighter topics overall than Red's. Or about the future.

And Choskey is a natural need. I didn't just fall in love with him because of the cute avatar or because we hanged out a lot, I needed Choskey. My unconscious mind knew I needed Choskey. Especially once I realized we could talk for hours well until the sun comes up which we did many times. I needed Choskey so much and it's been such a long time coming that I got denied from once when Ronnie was still a possibility.

I've needed this. Somebody who would not only spend time with me better and be easier to talk to, but also help keep me and Red together too. He's always trying to get me and Red to spend more time together. And while even for Red for a while it was shameful to admit that we needed someone like Choskey in our life, things have gotten a lot better even for him because of Choskey. And he's growing into it extremely well now. He's loving me more because of him.

And socially it works out because I have the greatest range of interaction when I can express affection as well. I don't do very well when it comes to public speaking. Like if I were to try to pull off the same kind of funny speech dunkey has, or do any kind of impressions, like I can't do that. I can't come up with topics. I can't do the same kinds of things other people do with their regular friends. So if I could be affectionate with whuffy or cat noises like I do with Red, it becomes much easier to have a good time with someone even when I have nothing to say. And that is also partly why I wanted a third person in our relationship. Red and I have antics that we can do that I can't do with anyone else and that cuts off a massive amount of my social interaction when Red isn't there. Unless I were to do something similar with someone else. And that's also why I need Choskey. I've spent so much time with Red and I've been so reliant on him for anything social that I know my way around that type of social dynamic better than a normal one.

Ronnie was a predeveloped poorly thought out interest to solve a problem that we've had for eons. But Choskey fits us much better than he ever would have. And we are old. So it also works out that I am not robbing some younger adult's early years of their adulthood to be part of our relationship. It's a win-win even without you making me an enemy. If I hadn't suffered major damage and grew so mature afterwards I'm not sure if I ever would have been ready for someone like Choskey to enter our lives, so that is the only thing I have to thank you for.

The poise I have now, the easy way I can talk whenever we're talking about anything deep. The way I keep to myself these days on twitter. It's because I was deeply emotionally wounded and healed that I am able to talk so fluently and be so readily accepting. I am not the same angsty dynamite that I used to be. I can be so angry and so furious off stage in the backwaters where Choskey and Red can't see, but you know full well that it is deserved. You were extremely unlucky to meet me before you hurt me. Things would have been very different in the present with me fully learned and fully grown, whether things end well for you or not.

And I know how your shit works. I know the angrier I get the more you validate your hate. There is nothing easier to gratify than a group who's chosen a target. But I stopped caring the moment you broke into my life uninvited. Nothing will ever change the fact that my crimes were forgiveable and yours were not.

I aimed to be more mature because it is the one battlefield you couldn't even set foot on. The one place you can't even reach me.

And yeah I get that my relationship issues are not ideal from a traditional standpoint, whether it's a gay one or not. Most people would just stick with one and leave it at that by standard. And most people wouldn't want to be the one that disturbs that in any way. There are reasons to be cautious around me. But some people are not content to leave it at that. Enemies are enemies, whether the true reasons are trivial or not, the hate can wish for more.

[nostalgiachan]

I'll go ahead and do that little text-version of the list, plus a game or two that I don't have on Steam but do have in general. I don't have a capture card or anything, so console games are out for the moment. If there's anything you don't see here that you'd like to see, feel free to suggest! Hit the Read More to see.

100% Orange Juice

7 Days to Die

Age of Empires III

Alice: Madness Returns

Arcanum: Of Steamworks and Magick Obscura

Bad Rats

Baldur's Gate 3

Baldur's Gate II: Enhanced Edition

Banished

The Banner Saga

Barony

Bastion

Beat Hazard

The Binding of Isaac

The Binding of Isaac: Rebirth

BIT.TRIP BEAT

BIT.TRIP RUNNER

Blood Omen 2: Legacy of Kain

Borderlands 2

Borderlands GOTY Enhanced

Captain Forever Remix

Castle Crashers

Chantelise

Child of Light

The Chronicles of Riddick: Assault on Dark Athena

Conan Exiles

Cookie Clicker (don't think I wouldn't)

The Count Lucanor

Crypt of the NecroDancer

Darkest Dungeon

Dead Island

Dishonored

Divinity: Dragon Commander

Divinity: Original Sin Enhanced

Divinity: Original Sin 2

Don't Starve Together

Donut County

Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen

Dungeons & Dragons: Daggerdale

Dungeons & Dragons Online

Dungeons of Dredmor

Dwarf Fortress

The Elder Scrolls: Arena

The Elder Scrolls II: Daggerfall

The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind

The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim

The Elder Scrolls Adventures: Redguard

Enter the Gungeon

E.Y.E.: Divine Cybermancy

Fallout

Fallout 2

Fallout 4

Fallout: New Vegas

Final Fantasy X/X-2 HD Remaster

Final Fantasy XIV

The Forest

Fortune Summoners: Secret of the Elemental Stone

FTL: Faster Than Light

Game Dev Tycoon

Garry's Mod

Goat Simulator

Grand Theft Auto IV: The Complete Edition

Grand Theft Auto V

Grandia II HD Remaster

Grounded

Guild Wars

Guild Wars 2

Half-Life

Half-Life 2

Halls of Torment

Hotline Miami

Hotline Miami 2: Wrong Number

how do you Do it?

The Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing

Jade Empire: Special Edition

Jet Set Radio

Killing Floor

Left 4 Dead 2

Legacy of Kain: Defiance

Legacy of Kain: Soul Reaver

Legacy of Kain: Soul Reaver 2

The Lord of the Rings Online

Lumines

Lumines Remastered

Mad Max

Magicka

Majesty Gold HD

Majesty 2

Marlow Briggs

Mount & Blade: Warband

Mount Your Friends

Oddworld: Abe's Oddysee

On the Rain-Slick Precipice of Darkness, Episode One

OneShot

Ori and the Blind Forest: Definitive Edition

Our Darker Purpose

Path of Exile

Phasmophobia

Planet Coaster

Portal

Pregnancy

Prison Architect

Project Zomboid

Pyre

Realm of the Mad God Exalt

Recettear: An Item Shop's Tale

Rez Infinite

Risk of Rain

Risk of Rain 2

Saints Row 2

Saints Row the Third

Saints Row IV

Saints Row: Gat Out of Hell

Sakura Angels

Sakura Spirit

Septerra Core

Shadowrun Returns

Shadowrun: Dragonfall

Shadowrun: Hong Kong

The Ship

Sid Meier's Civilization V

The Sims 3

Sine Mora EX

Slime Rancher

Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed Collection

Sonic Generations

Soulcalibur VI

Space Hulk

Starbound

Stardew Valley

SteamWorld Heist

Stick Fight: the Game

Summer in Mara

Sunless Sea

Symphony

Tabletop Simulator

Tales of Maj'Eyal

Tales of Zestiria

Team Fortress 2

Terraria

This War of Mine

Thumper

Total War: Shogun 2

Transistor

Two Point Hospital

Undertale

V Rising

Valheim

Vampire Survivors

Vampire: the Masquerade - Bloodlines

Viscera Cleanup Detail

VRChat (not that I have a VR setup)

Warhammer 40,000: Dawn of War II (with expansions)

Warhammer 40,000: Space Marine

Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide

Wasteland 1

Wasteland 2

Wasteland 3

Wattam

Streaming Interest Check

After three years, I'm finally returning to daywalker status and will be operating on Normal American Hours. I've also been thinking of maybe starting to stream again (after not having done so since 2015).

Only problem is, I was never much of a game streamer Back in the Day™, and all of my go-to stream options (horrible fanfic, terrible hentai and copyrighted anime) would get me nuked from Twitch. So, I ask you, dear audience: What would you want to see me stream?

Here's a list of all games I currently have on Steam. Let me know if you can't access that and I'll make a Read More post or something.

Anyway, once I'm on my new schedule, I'll start doing some test streams over on https://www.twitch.tv/nostalgiachan. Help a girl out maybe?

[mksvault]

had a vrchat session with my pals and made a borderlands animatic ab it

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jack - @codenameren

rhys - me

timothy - @prepareforetrouble

[bandicoot88]

You got this, Rhys.

[boomboombunnyy]

Vrchat shenanigans part 2: Electric Boogaloo

[heavydivider]

Here's the stream schedule for this coming week. There won't be a stream on Thursday for I got a few things happening that day. Past that, we'll continue Atomic Heart as well as Borderlands 3 too.

All this will be happening on Twitch at (https://www.twitch.tv/heavydivider) so be sure to come by while it's happening or drop a follow over there so you know when I go live.

[nn4nn4stuff]

A buncha skribbles and comics I haven’t uploaded here yet!

1. I’m still eagerly awaiting a Fun Sized Hex avatar in VRChat. And I know there is one, but I sadly can’t get it. :c 2. Character Prompts from Twitter! With one rogue BFB character among them sdfhjdfs 3. & 4. Incorrect Quotes are my faves. I shall draw more of these in the future. (Found those two specifically saved among my drafts dfshjkfdsjh) 5. Based on a weird dream I had where I was running around as Hex and met a cool Ruv... who then proceeded to smooch me out of nowhere???? 6. Me??? Liking a serotonin machine with a kinda sad backstory??? And me applying aspects of my fave robot from Borderlands?????? It’s more likely than you think.

Characters shown: Whitty belongs to sock.clip Hex belongs to YingYang48 Ruv & Sarvente belong to dokkidoodlez Zardy belongs to SwankyBox Monster & Senpai are from Friday Night Funkin by ninjamuffin Lollipop is from Battle for BFDI by jacknjellify

[rewdori]

Never played borderlands but this avatar from crycry on #vrchat makes me think about it. Insta:@rewdori_

[gigawaya-blog]

PC

Bold = currently playing

Strikethrough = Finished

100% Orange Juice 1bitHeart ABZU ACE Academy Aeon Command AER Memories of Old AirMech Strike AKIBA'S TRIP: Undead & Undressed Alicemare Alien Swarm Alien Swarm: Reactive Drop Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs Amnesia: The Dark Descent ARAYA Armored Evolution Astebreed: Definitive Edition Atlas Reactor Audiosurf 2 AZURA Azure Strike Gunvolt Backyard Basketball Backyard Football Bad Rats Show Batman: Arkham Asylum GOTY Edition Batman: Arkham City GOTY Batman: Arkham Origins Batman: Arkham Knight Battleblock Theater Beat Hazard A Bird Story Black & White Bushido Black Dream

Bladed Fury BlazBlue: Calamity Trigger Blue Whale The Boogie Man Borderlands Borderlands 2 Bot Vice

Brawlhalla Breathing Fear Castle Crashers Choose Wisely Cinderella Escape 2 Revenge Closers Cloudbuilt CODE OF PRINCESS Coffin of Ashes Confess My Love Consummate: Missing World Copy Kitty Corpse Party

Cortex Command Crazy Machines 3 The Crooked Man Crown Champion: Legends of the Arena Cuphead (awaiting DLC) Cyber Utopia D4: Dark Dreams Don't Die Darkness Assault Dead Rising Deadly Premonition: The Director's Cut The Deed The Deed: Dynasty DEEP SPACE WAIFU DEEP SPACE WAIFU: FLAT JUSTICE Depth Doki Doki Literature Club Door Kickers Double Dragon Neon Dr. Langeskov, The Tiger, and The Terribly Cursed Emerald: A Whirlwind Heist Dragon Ball Xenoverse 2 (awaiting DLC) Dragon Knight DreadOut: Keepers of The Dark Dreaming Sarah DubWars Duck Game Dungeon Nightmares 2: The Memory EARTH DEFENSE FORCE 4.1: The Shadow of New Despair EARTH DEFENSE FORCE 4.1: WINGDIVER THE SHOOTER

The Elder Scrolls 5: Skyrim Special Edition Eternal Senia Fable Anniversary Fairy Bloom Freesia Fairy Fencer F Fairy Fencer F Advent Dark Force Fallout: New Vegas Final Fantasy 7 Final Fantasy X/X-2 HD Remaster The Final Station Finding Paradise Firewood The First Tree Flower Design For Honor (may continue playing) Fort Meow Forward to the Sky

Gal*Gun: Double Peace Gang Beasts Garry's Mod Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy Girl X Mushrooms Glass Wing Go Go Electric Samurai Goat Simulator GOCCO OF WAR GOD EATER 2 Rage Burst GOD EATER RESURRECTION Golf With Your Friends Grand Theft Auto 5 Grass Cutter GUN Gun Metal

Gurumin: A Monstrous Adventure Half-Life Half-Life 2 Halo: Spartan Assult Halo: Spartan Strike The Hanged Man

Hello? Hell... o?

Hero and Daughter+ High School Simulator 2018 House Party how do you Do It? Human: Fall Flat Hyper Universe Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1 Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2 Sisters Generation Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth3 V Generation Hyperdimension Neptunia U: Action Unleashed I am Bread I Am The Hero I Can't Believe It's Not Gambling GOTY Edition The Initial INVERSUS Deluxe ISLANDS: Non-Places Jet Set Radio JetmanGo Just Ignore Them Knight Bewitched Koi-Koi Japan [Hanafuda playing cards] Kritika Online Kung Fu Strike: The Warrior's Rise Kung Fury: Street Rage Lakeview Cabin Collection The Last NightMary - A Lenda do Cabeca de Cuia Learn Japanese To Survive - Hiragana Battle Learn Japanese To Survive! Katakana War Left 4 Dead Left 4 Dead 2 Leisure Suit Larry: Magna Cum Laude Uncut and Uncensored LiEat Life Goes On: Done to Death Lili: Child of Geos Mad Father Magical Battle Fiesta MapleStory Master Reboot Mega Man Legacy Collection Mega Man Legacy Collection 2 Megabyte Punch

MegaTagmension Blanc + Neptune VS Zombies Melody's Escape Midnight at the Red Light: An Investigation

Minecraft: Java Edition Mini Ninjas Mini Thief Misao: Definitive Edition Misturugi Kamui Hikae

Moero Chronicle MONITOR: The Game Monster Monpiece Montaro Moon Hunters Mother Simulator

Mountain Move or Die My Big Sister Neon Chrome Never Alone (Kisima Ingitchuna)

Niche - a genetics survival game NieR: Automata Nippon Marathon (awaiting updates) Notch - The Innocent LunA: Eclipsed SinnerS Office Battle OKAMI HD Orbital Gear Ori and the Blind Forest: Definitive Edition Our Love Will Grow Outland Over The Moonlight Overlord Oxenfree

Pale Moon Crisis Panty Party Phantom Breaker: Battle Grounds Phoning Home

PLAYNE Polygon Attack Pool Nation Portal Portal 2 Power Hover Proxy Blade Zero Psychiatrist Simulator Quantum Conundrum Ragtag Adventurers Rakuen Red Haze Richochet Riff Racer RiME Rise to Ruins Robo Do It Rogue Legacy Root Letter Salty Fish Go! The Sand Man Saviors SAWKOBAN Sayona Umihara Kawase SEGA Mega Drive & Genesis Classics Selenophobia SENRAN KAGURA SHINOVI VERSUS Sentience: The Android's Tale Shadow Tactics: Blades of the Shogun Shelter 1 Shelter 2 ShineG In The Bullethell ShineG In The Zombies Shoujo City Simply Chess The Sims 3 (+plus most expansion packs) Sins Of The Demon RPG Slender: The Arrival SMASHING THE BATTLE Solaria Moon Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed Collection Sonic Adventure 2 Sonic Adventure DX Sonic Forces Sonic Generations SoulCalibur 6 Soul Saber 2 Space Pilgrim Academy: Year 1 Space Pilgrim Episode 1: Alpha Centauri Space Pilgrim Episode 2: Epsilon Indi Space Pilgrim Episode 3: Delta Pavonis Space Pilgrim Episode 4: Sol SpeedRunners Spermination Split Of Knight Stairs Star Wars Battlefront 2 (old version) (non-steam) STAR WARS Knights of the Old Republic STAR WARS Knights of the Old Republic 2: The Sith Lords Starbound Stardew Valley (on a break, will continue later if requested enough) Stardust Galaxy Warriors Stick Fight: The Game Storm of Spears Stray Cat Crossing Strider Strikey Sisters Subnautica Sudoku Universe Surgeon Simulator Sweetest Monster Sword of Asumi Symphony Tales of Berseria Tales of Symphonia Tales of Winds: Tomb of the Sol Empire Tales of Zestria Telophase TERA Terraria There's Poop In My Soup To The Moon Total War: SHOGUN 2 Turmoil Turok: Dinosaur Hunter Turok 2: Seeds of Evil Ultimate Chicken Horse Umihara Kawase Umihara Kawase Shun Steam Edition

Undercity Undertale The Vagrant Valkyria Chronicles Vanguard Princess Vanquish VRCHAT Way of the Samurai 3 Way of the Samurai 4 The Way We ALL GO We Were Here What is love? What's under your blanket !? What's under your blanket 2 !? The Witch’s House MV Wolf & Rabbit X-Blades Yomawari: Night Alone Yume Nikki

[kyrodo]

Sometimes I wonder wyd now. Still treating people like ass, or somehow turning a new leaf. 4 months running btw. Me and Choskey with Red. I know Red does a lot for me, I just wish he had time to do anything other than work that I actually enjoyed. His style of gameplay when it comes to pvp games is head into danger and die also. Borderlands go off and die. Sea of thieves spend 2 hours burning the boat when I've been ready to hop off for the last 10 minutes. For a while all the scat jokes which were kinda gross. Constantly spamming planetside which feels like face planting into a train constantly.

It used to be that I would be nothing without the whuffitude, without the antics we've built up, but they relied entirely on each other to function. My affectionate interactions were not appropriate elsewhere ever and that was a good 80% of it along with Red being able to follow up on it but no one else would be able to. So I couldn't really use it socially until I got the cat avatar. And developed new interactions based on being cute even without Red being there.

I've been extremely dependent on Red. He spoils me hard, and does things or gets stuff for me on top of that and there's little I could do to equal it. But despite that it's hard to do stuff together. He's a workaholic. He's not much of a gamer. And when he does play I used to have trouble making time to use the bathroom or saying I want to do something else. Vrchat built up my confidence quite a bit. I'm not afraid to grab a soda or hop to the bathroom midgame if I have to. I am able to communicate my needs quite easily now. And I am able to socialize easily as well. At least more easily than I used to by a lot.

Red in all of that hardly ever joined us and even when he was in vr he was usually doing something who knows what. Somewhere along the way Red's capacity for social interaction greatly diminished, to the point it is almost non-existent. He still had more interaction than I did back then, minus my twitter problems. And that also played a huge role in me engaging in it in the first place. When I was frustrated about how socially absent my life was, I expressed it on Twitter one way or another.

I have no such needs now. Ever since vrchat my mood improved dramatically. My social life improved dramatically. And now my love life too. People outside my life might not understand or give a rat's ass what my problems are or what I was lacking, but I understand it quite deeply now. With time and with enough time to really think about it, plus the experiences that improved what I needed the most for a good long while now, *I* understand.

And I am no longer a tough act to follow either. I know how to express my thoughts and feelings without "weaving an illusion" or not saying what I mean. Because such a tool never served me well. All it ever did was get me hurt.

One important thing to consider is I took such retweets and subtexts seriously. There was always that few things telling me what I should be doing and I held myself to that standard thinking you were serious about it. Though perhaps in reality you didn't care nearly as much as I did about such things. Failure on such volatile information that could change at any moment to suit whatever serves you at the time is not surprising and I should've dropped you like a fucking glass the moment it started.

I learned how to protect myself from people like you. To the point I would be able to completely end any such interaction the moment the first flags appear, but it seems like I won't be needing it. I have the toughest shell made of steel and it won't get so much as a scratch. And yet the fact that I ever needed it in the first place always has me putting on more and more armor to the point I'm a living fortress. That is how trauma works in a nutshell. You develop all these protections obsessively to what once gave you a fight or flight response even when the trigger for it is long gone.

And yet it is through the development of these protections that I am able to stand so proudly now. Looking at my posts overall, even the angry ones and seeing how much sense they make now is oddly satisfying. And evident of the progress I made on myself. I know how whiny, self destructive, emotional and dramatic I was back in 2020, but every year I walk away from that I grow, and I have grown incredibly strong. I do enjoy my happy endings and even when it was seemingly made impossible for me by people that hated me so much they were doing the digital equivalent of breaking into my house, I still found mine anyway.

This art, and my vrc avatar, makes me realize how important it is to have a new look when getting over such moments. It makes me feel how far I've come. I am a being heavily susceptible to spite. But I can still turn it into something beautiful and meaningful.

[redfinn27]

Welp here we go again some more borderlands 2 and maybe vrchat can't tell tho. We live at twitch.tv/redfinn27 or use the link in my bio. #gaming #twitch #epicgamermoment #anime Bop - Scoop. https://www.instagram.com/p/CA0_FNlFziH/?igshid=ahqkjaf07bsr