#brot3: family comes first

[laurenlansing]

Mourning, Michigan, and More Magic | Self-para

TAGGING: Lauren (Mentions Kara, Zoey, Cristina, and others)

LOCATION: The Lansing home and Disney World (!!!)

TIME FRAME: The three weeks of break

NOTES: Part of Lauren’s time in Michigan and Disney World over the break. (Warning: unnecessary Disney song references that could potentially be annoying but I’m Lauren’s a Disney dork so they had to happen)

Lauren barely made it a week back in Michigan. She thought leaving RIAP would be good for her because it would help her get away from dealing with everything that had happened over the past few months, but it ended up making things worse. Her parents had been so happy to see her, yet the moment she saw them she was filled with guilt and she wasn’t even sure why. Maybe she just hadn’t called them enough when they were stuck on the island. Even when she did, she only told them the bare minimum. 

She couldn’t tell them about everything. How could she? Hey guys. No, I didn’t get shot this time. I completed a bonding circle with some of my friends and we activated the Spirit Child and now we all have more power and capabilities than we know how to deal with. Oh, did I tell you I killed a hunter? Yeah, I did that too. I also helped bring my friend back to life after she died in my arms. Just the usual stuff when it comes to the circle. None of that easily rolled off the tongue.

While she was physically in Michigan, Lauren’s mind was constantly elsewhere. Was Isaac recovering well? Could Nina handle this without her TPL? Was Zach drinking himself into a stupor every night and she couldn’t stop him? Did Kara hate her for being back there? Was Zoey dealing with other people’s issues instead of her own? Whenever she got like this, her parents would shout her name to snap her out of it and Lauren would drop whatever was in her hand or stand up abruptly from her chair, scaring herself as much as them. Any loud or unexpected noise brought her back, as if the hunters were attacking again and she needed to spring into action. It always took her a few moments to recover after that, to remind herself she was in her childhood home with her parents and there were no more hunters. She was perfectly safe.

Ultimately, the fact that she was in Michigan was much less comforting than she thought it would be. She thought being away would help, but her parents didn’t know what they’d all gone through. They didn’t know how to help her. So one night when Lauren woke up from another nightmare, she grabbed her Little Mermaid blanket and wrapped it around her shoulders. She then left her room and decided to walk around, something she’d been doing since the circle dreams had started. It would keep her mind busy. One foot in front of the other. Until she ended up in front of the closed door of a room she hadn’t entered in what felt like forever.

She slowly opened the door to Kara’s old bedroom, which was now occupied by a few boxes and lacked any trace of her big sister. She hadn’t seen it in person yet, and she stood there gripping the door handle tightly for a moment as she looked to the room that had once been her favorite place to go because her favorite person had been there.

She let go and walked as if she were on autopilot to the corner of the room where Kara’s bed had been when they were kids. Lauren could have made it there with her eyes closed. It was the place she went after any nightmare in her childhood. She placed her back against the wall and slid down so she was sitting on the floor. She wrapped the blanket more tightly around her shoulders as she hugged herself and shut her eyes tightly. Maybe if she shut them tight enough, she could go back to the nights when Kara would hug her and tell her everything would be okay. That she would always protect her, even when the nightmares were just giant spiders or scary bugs.

When she woke up the next morning still on the floor of Kara’s old room, she knew she couldn’t stay there any longer. It shocked her how easy it was to come up with a lie to tell her parents so they didn’t question why she was leaving so soon even though she hadn’t been there since January. Especially when she had always been so reluctant to return to RIAP in the past. She didn’t even really understand it, she just knew that the only people that could help her were the people at that school.

“Hold on. I need a minute.”

It felt surreal to be standing there. This place that had been here for so long, but seeing it like this with her own two eyes gave her a feeling that she didn’t think she’d ever forget. She’d finally made it.

Under the Sea: Journey of the Little Mermaid.

“Okay, I need to say this once and no one can judge me,” she said before clearing her throat and stepping into the line for the ride. “I’m finally part of that world.”

She barely caught Kara, Zoey, or Cristina’s reactions as she hurried forward into the line. Disney World was already her favorite place on the planet and they’d barely been there for a day. She looked up at the castle from her favorite movie and was wide-eyed at the interactive line. There were gadgets and gizmos aplenty, and after that summer Lauren didn’t ever think she could feel this excited again. But here she was, in the world of The Little Mermaid, and she really tried to restrain herself from quoting the movie at every turn they took.

It was so much easier to pretend like everything was okay in a place where there were treasures untold. Ariel was right, how many wonders could one cavern hold? The movie that Lauren had found comfort in for years and years had come to life around her and as she and Kara sat down in the moving shell that would take them through the journey, she held her sister’s hand and let everything else fall away.

There were no hunters in Disney. There was no secret circle, no plastic bags with blood-stained clothes from trying to save friends, no newfound sense of panic at even the mere scent of alcohol. No poor unfortunate souls. Just Lauren with three of her favorite people in the happiest place on Earth.

Eventually they would have to go back to classes and school and reality. She didn’t know how she could after experiencing all of this, but she would. And maybe, just maybe, things would be better when they got back. Or maybe not. Either way she now had about 500 pictures on her phone of just The Little Mermaid part of Disney World, so she’d always have part of that world with her no matter what.

[lecliss]

Tsurugi for the character bingo!! Tell me your thoughts about my darling Tsuru-wan :3c

Tsurugi is one of those characters that I started off being on the fence about like. Ehhh I dunno if I like him, he's not really doing it for me. Im just kinda not interested. I don't get the hype. And then boom. Character development. I havent been the same since. I do very much love him but still at the end of the day he's not a fave of mine. Like no thoughts head empty but I WILL defend him to the death. He's never done anything wrong in his life so long as we ignore all the atrocities that weren't even his fault in the first place.

And with the dynamics and ships its like, I love C3 trio. OT3, broT3, anything going on with them. Takuto has three daddies!!!! THREE!!!! Takuto's herd of dads!!!! And I love what was going on between him and Freya!!! I want them to talk again!!!! Please lets goooo!!!! And also his dynamic with Touma. Like, its bad. Fuck Touma. But storywise and like. Just fascination in general. I love it. IT COMPELS ME! Thats a good way to put it. I am compelled by it!!!!! Its like. At the end of the day Touma did save Tsurugi from his original shitty situation and Touma IS family to him and the complexity of it COMPELS ME!!!

And I am driven insane by his dynamic with Mikuni!!! I want them to beat the shit out of each other!!! I am so excited to get back to that in future chapters!!!! Tsurugi throwing the cloth over Mikuni and Might Guy style Dynamic Entry kicking him into a wall!!!! Mikuni lassoing around his neck and yanking him through the hospital window onto the ground!!! The way Tsurugi's existence alone pisses Mikuni off. The fact that Tsurugi rubbed off on Mikuni so now they have things in common. Like gkfnfofnkfnf it drives me insane!!!! Its the hatred and violence about their relationship that I love. I cant stand the ship tho. Theres so much. It's impossible to escape seeing it. I am SO sorry 😔 They very much do have ex-boyfriends who were in a toxic relationship energy tho and that's fucking hilarious to me. Like the idea of them as vitriolic exes is VERY amusing.

Just. He's good. Pupper good. Not fave, but still good. I think it's his relationships with others that I like the most when it comes to him. I want him to be happy but also I want to see him bite and kill and rip and tear :)

[cross-d-a]

WIP TAG GAME

Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and i’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

AAHH!! @bookjoyworm thank you so much for tagging me!!! I was really intrigued by your titles!!! ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪

I.....have a lot of WIPs. So, uh- they’re all under the cut (>//A//<;) I’m discounting all the old ones I know I’ll never get back to! 

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(Fulfilled asks and ao3 published fics are linked!)

DMBJ:

A Ning & Jiang Zisuan & Liu Sang fam

ChuChu kicks Heihua in the ASS (GET IT BOYS!)

Guardian Crossover

HaoHua are Soft Idiots

Hei Xiazi/Chuchu/Xiao Hua/Xiu Xiu

High Jr dmbj rewrite

iron THREESOME adopt Li Cu

iron threesome pt.2 Li Cu the Cockblocker

iron threesome pt.3 Li Cu makes a FRIEND (aka SUPERPOWERED BABY)

iron triangle transmigrators

Jia Kezi & Li Cu

Jia Kezi and Wu Xie

Jia Kezi amnesia Guardian crossover

Jia Kezi timeloop

Jiang Zisuan SNEAKY BB

Li Cu & Bai Haotian

Li Cu in reboot

Li Cu travels back - poly

Li Cu time travel series (Wu Xie is EMBARRASSING)

Liang Wan centric

Liang Wan is BROS with Xiao Ge

Liu Sang fam

Liu Sang IRON PYRAMID 

Liu Sang timeloop

Modern Princess Mute

Pan Zi loves his son Wu Xie

star wars crossover

Wu Xie adopts Xiao Bai and Li Cu

Wu Xie Poly fic

Wu Xie takes Xiao Ge’s place :(

WU XIE timetravels!! to Mystic Nine!

MDZS:

guardian crossover.2 reborn in mdzs

guardian crossover

jiang cheng finds baoshan sanren

jin ling reborn

Jingyao

Lan Jingyi reborn

Lan Yuan reborn

Lotus Pier training

Meng Yao and Mo Xuanyu

meng yao hanahaki

Mo Xuanyu bookstore au

modern!huaisang

Nie Huaisang death death death

Nie Huaisang hanahaki

ouyang zizhen reborn

rogue cultivator jiang cheng raises jin ling

SW Crossover

Yanli timetravels

GUARDIAN:

and i’d die for you (again and again and again)

Feral!Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan’s ass Suffers

Mama Zhao is brought back to life!!!

Shen Wei has friends

that one Sakura fic

the ABO fic

The one where Da Qing and Zhao Yunlan are married

the possessive panties one

unconventional timeloop

utter filth

Ye Zun has amnesia take TWO

Ye Zun has amnesia!

Yunlan is a selkie

Zhao Yunlan Amnesia fic!

Zhao Yunlan makes a deal with the hallows (chronic pain TIMETRAVEL)

STAR WARS: 

(broken into folders haha)

A Brief Snapshot:

Oldman Bruck

Ahsoka:

Twin Blades

All Our Yesterdays series

All Our Yesterdays (hurt more than i can say)

Blind!Xanatos:

Part.One

Part.Two

Feral Lives AU:

these ruined hands of mine (they seek out you, always you)

Jedha:

Chirrut Revisited

Chirrut

Jedi and Their Clones:

Bant’s Battalion

Hurricane Company

Feemor’s Fleet

Garen

Qui-Gon

Xanatos

King Maul:

Part.1

Oneshots:

Agricorps Obi + Clones

Bodhi and Leia become Besties

Bruck survives and gets sent to Clone Wars

DinLukeEzra!Au

Five People Shmi Skywalker Helped and One Person Who Helped Her

Gernal Shmi ver.2

General Shmi

Hairmaster Obi-Wan Kenobi

Hanahaki

Jedi as slaves

Kilindi Matako Lives

Little Gods

Manakin

Maul the Hot Single Dad

Maul&Ahsoka&Rex BROT3

my jedi (he did it to himself)

Never Goes the Way You Planned

O’ Death

Obligatory ABO Fic

Old Loves Not Forgotten

Poebi

rey is shmi

Sense8 au

Temple Guard

The First Apprentice

The Hunt

Unexpected Affection

why am i doing this

Xanatos becomes Obi-Wan’s Master

XanObi

Zuko fucks shits up

S Fics:

Lukin

Obisoka timetravel

sand and stardust:

Part Two.hurricane on the edge of oblivion (with nowhere to go)

Shmi the Marvel Mom:

Ironwalker

Spidey’s a Nerd:

Star Wars is for Nerds (and Luckily Spidey is one of the nerdiest of them all)

Star Trek Crossovers:

Bones

ExplorCorps

Una as a Jedi

Suns’ Worth:

Kaf and Quiet Nights Pt.2

Scarred Lekku Pt.3

Twin Suns:

One of Many

STAR TREK:

Mirror!verse

5 Times Leonard McCoy Allowed Himself to be a Father Despite the Empire (and the one time it made him too damn vulnerable)

How each of the bridge crew found out McCoy was a father 

No Matter How Sweet the Salt:

Beg.

Tony Stark doesn’t know what to do with himself

At least he’s got JARVIS

MARVEL:

Trans!Thor:

Part 2.Tony

Part 3.Stormbreaker

Oneshots:

Agent Winter

Clint

God!Tony

Gwen and Harry come back

Immortal!Tony

immortals!miles

Marvel crossover- Billy lives

Miles gets stuck in the MCU

Nat gets a family

Peter and the bois

Sarah Rogers time travels

that place you were dreaming of

The First Spider-Man

The Fives Moments it Took for Tony and Scott to Admit They Were Best Friends (and the first time they ever did)

The Split

Tony and the Humvee

What if...Aaron answered

STRANGER THINGS:

wolves and shit:

Vagabonds

Oneshots:

Karen Wheeler

Steve & Barb buddy fic

HARRY POTTER:

haru bday fic

NARUTO:

Sakura is Gaara’s Twin Sister

Village Hidden in the Stars

So I....have a lot of fic. As everyone does, haha. I just have too many ideas and a short attention span, unfortunately!!

UUHH I think I’m tagging some ppl who have already been tagged!! So just ignore this if you have! Also, this is no pressure tagging :) You don’t have to continue the chain and you DEF don’t have to send an ask with a title! I just thought you guys might find this fun to do for yourself!ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ

@vishcount @jockvillagersonly @s1utspeare @humanlighthouse @thewindsofsong @undyingsunshine and anyone else who sees this and wants to give it a go~! 

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[littlespoonevan]

listen!!! ian/mickey/mandy was my original brot3 i had to bring her back!!!!! i hope you like it, bud :D <3

*

Mandy never used to believe that Ian and Mickey would last.

To be fair, the day she found out was also the day their relationship reached its first real breaking point. (Though a part of her remembers not feeling shocked at all, all the pieces – Ian seeing someone he refused to name, Ian overly concerned about Mickey’s wedding, Mickey always conveniently showing up whenever she and Ian were hanging out – suddenly falling into place.)

And she’d taken Ian’s side because- well, as far as she could see Mickey was fucking Ian over just so he could stay in the closet. She’d been wrong, obviously, though no one’s ever actually told her that directly. But there were enough context clues for her to more or less figure out what had happened – especially after the night of Yevgeny’s christening.

So she’d found out about them and she’d been around them and she knew, deep down, they loved each other. But to her it had always seemed like a doomed sort of love. In the way that love tends to be if you’re a Milkovich or a Gallagher.

She’d watched for about a year and a half as they’d clung to each other, desperately trying to make it work despite the world throwing every fucking problem it possibly could at them. And then one day it ended and she wasn’t in Chicago anymore and she still wishes she could’ve said she was surprised when she heard the news.

Time passed after that and she didn’t really talk much to either them but she hoped they’d move on. At least, she knew Ian was trying.

Then one day she’d gotten a phonecall from Beckman Correctional and Mickey was on the other line. (She’d known he’d escaped prison the first time – the cops had come knocking on her door too.) And it was strange talking to him after so long but nice too. In its own way. She’d nearly dropped the phone when he told her Ian was his cellmate.

(She’d heard about that too – Gay Jesus could still reach her even in Boston.)

After that Mickey started using his weekly phonecall to call her while Ian, with a much longer laundry list of relatives, started calling her once a month. It had been the most she’d spoken to either of them in years but she liked it – it made her feel connected to someone again, like her family hadn’t been totally obliterated.

She hadn’t planned on missing the wedding.

But part of getting her shit together meant not flaking on work responsibilities and she’d been roped into securing some account in Toronto with her boss and couldn’t get out of it. She’d managed to score a long weekend off a few weeks later though and promised she’d come visit then which had seemed to be enough to appease them both.

That’s how she finds herself standing on the steps of the Gallagher house on a Friday in February with an overnight bag on her shoulder.

Ian had insisted there’d be plenty of room for her here but she’ll believe that when she sees it. There’s always more people than there should be in this house. She hesitates for a moment, considering knocking but then feeling weird for even thinking it. No one knocks on the door to the Gallagher house. Testing the handle, she finds it unlocked and gently pushes it open.

The house is a lot quieter than it used to be and it throws her for a loop for a moment before she hears voices in the kitchen.

She steps further into the living room, pausing by the back of the couch when she catches sight of Ian and Mickey through the kitchen door. They’re…doing dishes. She thinks.

More specifically, they’re laughing as Ian replaces the glasses in the cabinet and Mickey idly spins a dishtowel in his hand.

“You’re so full of shit!” Mickey’s saying and the size of his grin momentarily leaves Mandy dumbstruck. She can’t even remember the last time Mickey smiled like that. Looking so…content and at ease and happy in own skin.

“I swear to god!” Ian exclaims, turning away from the cabinets and giving Mandy a clear view of the mischievous expression on his face as he holds in a laugh. “The guy’s dick was fuckin’ purple. Nastiest shit I’ve ever seen.”

Mickey makes a face before dropping the towel on the counter and taking the two steps it takes to put himself in Ian’s path. He cups Ian’s face between his hands and says, very solemnly, “You ever break my dick when we’re having sex and I’ll break your neck.”

Ian barks out a laugh and Mandy has to quickly bite her lip to stop a snort of her own as she watches Ian’s hands fit to her brother’s waist. “Pretty sure I’m the one who needs to worry about that,” he points out, expression light and amused as he quirks an eyebrow at Mickey’s reply.

He says it too quietly for Mandy to hear but whatever it is they’re kissing hardly a second later. She considers clearing her throat to make her presence known then because she knows what happens when Ian and Mickey start kissing when they’ve got the house to themselves but they break apart after a few seconds with matching grins. Ian looks up absentmindedly and his eyes land on her, his grin freezing on his face.

“Mandy!” he says, surprise and excitement colouring his voice. He lets his hands fall from Mickey’s waist just as Mickey turns to look at her.

She only has the briefest moment to share a look with him before Ian’s bounding over and sweeping her into a hug. “Hey,” he breathes, squeezing her tight. “Sorry, we didn’t hear you come in.”

Mandy hugs him back and instantly feels herself calm. Ian’s presence has always been comforting. She still remembers stealing whatever bit of affection she could from him when they were teenagers. When he dutifully let her call him her boyfriend even after it became very clear that was never gonna happen.

“It’s okay,” she says on a laugh. “You two looked busy.”

Ian leans back with a bashful expression, squeezing her shoulders before stepping out of the way so she can say hi to Mickey. There’s a single second where they both flounder as they stare at each other before Mickey’s pulling her into a hug and letting out a soft, “Hey.”

She doesn’t expect it but as she wraps her arms around Mickey’s shoulders she can’t help the feeling of déjà-vu that hits her, thinking back to the day she and Ian went to pick Mickey up from juvie. It’s a similar hug, light and familiar and comfortable, and it makes her smile.

In a lot of ways, they used to be normal siblings. They’d been the closest in age out of all their siblings and as the two youngest they sort of naturally fell into that dynamic of driving each other insane while also being willing to defend each other to the death.

Things got more complicated as they got older. Their words becoming sharper sometimes, their inability to help each other like they used to suddenly paralysing them both and making it difficult to know how to interact.

But this feels like before.

Mickey messes up her hair when she pulls away and, inexplicably, it makes a lump form in her throat. Fuck, it’s been so long since they could just joke with each other. But Mandy hasn’t had bruises on her face for years and Mickey has a wedding ring on his finger that he actually wants so maybe it’s time they can get back to that.

“You kept the blonde, huh?” Mickey says when he steps back and Mandy lifts her chin in a haughty smirk.

“Anything to stop people from saying I look like your ugly mug,” she retorts, slipping back into an old banter that comes to her without even thinking about it.

“Bitch,” Mickey grumbles but he’s smiling like he’s amused.

Ian’s hand lands on Mickey’s shoulder before his other reaches for Mandy. “Mands, drop your bag. We can talk in the kitchen.”

Mandy does as she’s told, letting Ian shepherd them both into the kitchen. She tries not to smirk at the fact Mickey doesn’t shrug Ian off this time, electing instead to wind his own arm around Ian’s waist.

They sit at the kitchen table as Ian goes to the fridge to inspect its contents. “You want a drink?” he asks over his shoulder. “We’ve got beer, milk, orange juice, soda, coffee-“

“Coffee sounds good,” she says. The flight hadn’t been all that long but travelling always wears her out a little.

“Mick?” Ian asks and Mickey considers him for just a second before saying, “Make one for me too.”

Mandy raises an eyebrow at him and he ducks his head, looking embarrassed. “’m tryna stop drinking beer before five o’clock.”

The laugh that comes out of her is a little disbelieving but she’s impressed. It’s rare to see Mickey actively trying to take care of himself.

Ian sets the coffee pot going and there’s a sort of awkward pause where none of them quite know what to say before she finally decides on the safest topic. “So tell me about the wedding.”

Mickey scoffs at the same time Ian laughs and she looks between them until Mickey says, “Long version or short version?”

And is that even a question. “Long,” she says decisively.

As Ian returns to the table with their coffees they regale her with the complicated events leading up to their wedding ceremony – including her dad burning their fucking venue down.

“Have you heard from him since?” she asks, feeling an old anxiety twist around her spine. She can’t say she’s missed Terry Milkovich since she’s been gone.

“Not since he shot up our fuckin’ honeymoon suite,” Mickey mutters and Mandy feels a pang of sympathy for them. It’s about fucking time the two of them just got to be happy with no strings attached.

Before she can say anything though Ian’s hand reaches out to grasp Mickey’s on the table-top and Mickey offers him a small, grateful smile. And it’s these little moments that keep shocking her, really. The causal ways they touch each other or look at each other. The way they keep picking up each other’s sentences as they tell the wedding story.

Everything about their relationship before had felt so life or death, these moments of just being were few and far between.

Eventually the conversation about the wedding winds down and Ian asks her about her job and it’s weird, the three of them having such a grown-up conversation, but every second word out of Mickey’s mouth is still “fuck” and Ian’s still got that puppy-dog grin he used to wear when he was fifteen so maybe things haven’t changed all that much.

Ian gets up when Liam comes home from school, following him up the stairs to help him move whatever he needs out of his bedroom and into Carl’s while Mandy stays over since, “Liam’s room is definitely the cleanest,” and Mandy watches Mickey watch Ian, a soft smile on his lips as he stares after Ian until he’s out of sight.

Mickey’s gaze returns to the table then but the smile is still there. After a second or two of silence Mandy kicks his leg under the table. Mickey’s gaze snaps up to stare at her. “What?”

She feels herself start to smile without actually planning to. “You’re really fucking happy now, huh?”

Mickey’s face goes blank with surprise before that bashful twist to his mouth comes back and he averts his gaze, shrugging once. “I guess.”

“Oh, you guess!” she scoffs, kicking him again. “Jesus Christ, Ian’s dick can’t be that great.”

Mickey smirks then. “Jealous you never got to find out for yourself?”

“Shut up, asshole,” she huffs, laughing in spite of herself. “I’m being serious.”

Mickey makes an incredulous noise and Mandy clears her throat, forcing herself to be sincere. “I mean it, Mick,” she says and his expression smooths out at the earnestness in her voice. “You two really figured shit out.”

Mickey doesn’t say anything for a moment before he breathes out a soft laugh. “I mean it was about fuckin’ time.”

Mandy grins. “No arguments there.”

Mickey looks like he’s about to say more when Ian’s footsteps suddenly sound on the staircase again. “What are you two talking about?” he asks, jogging down the last few steps.

“Just about how Mandy’s still jealous you had sex with me and not her,” Mickey says casually and Mandy lets out a choked noise, reaching over and punching Mickey’s arm as hard as she can.

Ian’s laughing as he comes to stand behind Mickey, hands settling on Mickey’s shoulders like they belong there and Mickey looks from him to Mandy with a shit-eating grin.

“Don’t worry, Mands,” Ian says. “You got to call me your boyfriend first.”

“Ey!” Mickey calls out, affronted, and Ian grins down at him, eyebrows raised in an, Am I wrong? look.

And Mandy’s just- she’s relieved, more than anything. Because they fucking deserve this – all three of them do. They deserve to be able joke about the good shit in their past in the safety of a present that isn’t threatening to take away their future. They deserve some fucking peace of mind.

And as she watches Ian lean down to kiss the top of Mickey’s head before he returns to his seat at the table she thinks it’s probably time to rethink her stance on whether or not Mickey and Ian are going to make it.

*

[innocent-until-proven-geeky]

for the character thing; cody, obi wan, and ur oc pova (is that how you spell it?)

YEAHYEAHYEAH (also that is how you spell it) I see we’re doing the whole family and I LOVE it.

I was in the middle of answering this and then I went to find my favorite episodes and Tumblr ate whatever I was working on sooooo I start over.

Cody

Why I like them: Sass. Fandom’s interpretation as Ultimate Big Brother (behind Alpha-17, of course). Mysterious scar. And he’s pretty.

Why I don’t: Honestly? The fact that the clones are slave soldiers, and the fact that fandom tends to give racially biased interpretations of the clones (I’m guilty of this too). Nothing to do with Cody himself, honestly, which isn’t to say he’s perfect or anything, I find him to be rough around the edges but who wouldn’t be in his shoes?

Favorite episode: s1e16 The Hidden Enemy. This one is probably on my top 5 list even without Cody. But guys. GUYS. “Hey there, Slick. Gun’s empty.” WHAT COULD BE MORE ICONIC?

Favorite film: Okay technically these questions were “episode/scene if a movie” and “season/movie” but because he’s in both I’m gonna have to go with a film for this one. Revenge of the Sith. Listen, I can’t watch ROTS without crying but damn if I don’t love Cody in it anyway. The lightsaber scene will ALWAYS get me. (Season 1 gets an honorable mention.)

Favorite line: Uh. Well. Okay so. “Hey there, Slick. Gun’s empty.” *holds up mag* LISTEN GUYS I LOVE THAT ONE. Although he also gets points for “I’m putting you in charge of this one.” I don’t know if season 1 just has a lot of iconic Cody lines, or if it’s because I’ve been watching that season in Spanish lately.

Favorite outfit: ... his armor? No actually though, I love his Phase II armor. Phase I is cool but Phase II has the cool ventilators. And how can I not make fun of his antenna?

OTP: Codywan. Ideally in a post-war fix-it or semi-fix-it where there isn’t a huge power imbalance, but I’ve been known to read Codywan stuff that takes place during the war, especially before I was as cognizant of the power imbalance as I am now.

BroTP: Cody and Rex. I’m sure y’all saw that one coming. I mean it’s CODY and REX, I’m pretty sure that’s everyone’s BroTP!

Headcanon: So this might be a good time to mention that I headcanon everyone everywhere as autistic. Everyone is autistic. Cody is autistic. Okay actually though, I headcanon that Cody has a great deal of anxiety. He handles it well, and he has a support system, but given his entire life, and the fact that he’s a Marshal Commander, and further more the headcanon we collectively have that Obi-Wan insists on promoting Cody to get out of paperwork because Cody deserves it, he’s probably anxious. And man, same.

Unpopular opinion: Do I have one? Tbh I don’t know how to determine whether an opinion about a character is unpopular. How do we define unpopular? Do we mean just like, not commonly known or shared? Because if so, I once again raise for your consideration: everyone is autistic, therefore Cody is autistic.

A wish: For Disney to retcon Order 66. Barring that, for the Bad Batch show to give him a happy ending involving the removal of his chip and the opportunity to live happily ever after with Obi-Wan on Tatooine. (Is the Bad Batch show going to be live-action like Kenobi? Because PLEASE give me Temuera Morrison playing Cody in both.)

An oh-gosh-please-don’t-ever-happen: Don’t laugh. Order 66. Listen I KNOW it’s canon but that doesn’t mean I have to like it!

5 words to best describe them: Salty. Snarky. Protective. Competent. Thoughtful.

My nickname for them: honestly, just Codes or Kote. Not much to get out of Cody, really.

Obi-Wan:

Why I like them: HE’S PRETTY. And sassy. There’s a pattern here.

Why I don’t: I don’t think there’s ever a time in canon that he acknowledges all the issues with the clones’ existence. He does in fanon, which I can appreciate, but canonically he’s like, “ah yes, we bought 3.2 million humans. We’ll just stick them in this war I guess.” Also frankly he’s a bit oblivious, bordering on daft, especially considering he’s the Negotiator, I mean he KEPT HIS LAST NAME when he went into hiding. I still love him though.

Favorite scene: That deleted “good girl, Boga” scene, which just hits different when you’ve read Master & Apprentice and know how much he loves varactyls. I don’t care that it’s deleted. It’s my favorite. (Plus you’ll probably like this better than my favorite episode, which is the Kadavo episode.)

Favorite film: Attack of the Clones. Listen listen listen, he has a lot of good moments in TCW, but hands down it’s AOTC.

Favorite line: Eheheheheheh. Eheheheheheheh. Eheheheheheheheheheheheheheheh. “Hello there!”

Favorite outfit: Was gonna make a comment about Jedi robes but then I remembered his stolen Mandalorian armor in The Lawless and *swoons* that’s one pretty outfit.

OTP: ... also Codywan. Again, ideally in an AU with less of a power imbalance, I mean it doesn’t matter how much he promotes Cody, canonically he’s still a Jedi and Cody is still a slave and I just don’t love that but I live for Codywan. Domestic Codywan? *chef’s kiss*

BroTP: probably Obi-Wan and Anakin. Maybe Obi and Padmé? Idk I have Thoughts about Anakin, he’s a problem child, but not much can top the agony in “You were my brother, Anakin! I loved you!” (I like whump, okay?) Also just. Can you imagine the Negotiator just being buds with Senator Amidala? Helping each other with domestic disputes and speeches? Working on a Clone Rights Bill? Yeah. Can it be a broT3? What if we just don’t have Anakin and Padmé dating? It’s such an unhealthy relationship. That’s it, broT3 is Anakin, Padmé, and Obi-Wan.

Headcanon: ACE!OBI ACE!OBI ACE!OBI!!!!!! Also,,, autistic!Obi. I know I know, but actually genuinely @fromryloth-tocorellia has some pretty good autistic!Obi-Wan stuff, including Obi-Wan being semi-verbal, low-verbal, and non-verbal. Autistic characters is a hill I will die on, and Obi-Wan is a character I happen to enjoy projecting on (oops). Plus, if I headcanon Cody and Obi-Wan as autistic, then the entire Ibonek family is autistic, and I love that.

Unpopular opinion: The only reason Obi-Wan “left Anakin to die” was because there was nothing he could safely do to help. When I was taking first aid classes, one of the first things they told us was that, unless there is no danger to yourself, you do not help. You wait for actual first responders to show up. If Obi-Wan had tried to help Anakin, either Anakin would have killed him or Obi-Wan would also have been severely burned. And if he had stayed, he may have been caught by Palpatine. Is it sad that he left? Absolutely. Heartbreaking. I don’t think it was a GOOD decision. But he didn’t just leave him to die; there was no other safe option. There were no good decisions here. I have a lot of thoughts about this, I have half-written essays on Discord about it, feel free to ask further questions.

A wish: For Qui-Gon’s dying words to be retconned. I know I wrote that post about how his dying words were full of trust in Obi-Wan and I stand by that, but that doesn’t mean Obi-Wan realized that, or that they were a good choice.

An oh-gosh-please-don’t-ever-happen: For the Kenobi show to be sad. It’s not allowed. Obi-Wan can have one fight, and that’s it, he is happy as a clam on Tatooine because he DESERVES GOODNESS DAMNIT.

5 words to best describe them: Kind. Soft. Warm. Compassionate. Daft.

My nickname for them: Obi

Pova:

What I like about them: They’re my OC and I can do whatever I want with them!

What I don’t: They’re my OC and I’m in charge of them.

(Okay actually though:)

What I like about them: Nonverbal. Pink. Perpetually grumpy.

What I don’t: perpetually grumpy. Seriously how did that happen? Why did I do that? Why is the only time they AREN’T grumpy around Rex or when shopping with Obi-Wan?

Favorite scene: The adoption scene in “Observations on the Nature of Cody Ibonek”.

Favorite work: Probably “Observations”. It’s the first one that’s entirely from Pova’s point of view.

Favorite line: “He was making fun of my stimming. I was already having a bad day. I punched him. It’s whatever.” POVA NO. (Pova yes.)

Favorite outfit: Uh. Haven’t given it much thought yet? Haven’t done many character designs, although fromryloth-tocorellia did one for me and it’s my icon at @ver-writes-things if you want to check that out? Also my Halloween costume is gonna be a super basic cosplay of them and I’ll probably post that.

OTP: None. First of all, the oldest I’ve written them so far is 14. Second, I don’t have any other characters their age yet. Maybe the six kids from the Gathering episode survived? But even then I probably wouldn’t ship it. And I mean, not every character needs a romantic ship.

BroTP: Either Pova and Rex or Pova and Luke. Rex is like big brother/cool uncle, and Luke is like little brother. As of right now, though, definitely Rex, as I haven’t written much of anything with Luke.

Headcanon: I don’t have any because all my headcanons about this character are CANON! Man I love having OCs.

Unpopular opinion: to quote Paige Layle on TikTok: “Stop using the term low functioning autistics when you really mean that they’re just nonverbal. And nonverbal autistics still have a lot to say, they just have a hard time talking.” Basically, I’m certain that as this AU gains traction, Pova’s gonna start getting flak from readers for being nonverbal. It hasn’t happened yet, and maybe I’m just being pessimistic, but just in case someone needs the reminder: No. Stop now. Pova’s autistic. And nonverbal. And not a savant (man I fucking hate that trope). But they are a capable Jedi and, with Cody and Obi, developed a very functional sign language comprised of Jedi hand signals, trade sign language (like from episode 5 of the Mandalorian, that the Tuskens use?), and ARC signals. There will be NO functioning labels on this AU, and Pova has and will continue to have PLENTY to say. If you have a problem you know where the door is.

A wish: For everyone to love my kiddo as much as I do!

An oh-gosh-please-don’t-ever-happen: Listen Pova is gonna have a good and happy life. There is trauma and there is bullying and there is heartache but they are going to live a good life with two AMAZING dads. So there is no “don’t ever happen” because it won’t.

5 words to best describe them: Sneaky. Quiet. Excitable. Compassionate. Snarky.

My nickname for them: Kiddo or my kiddo.

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Final Season Spec Game

I’m out of tag games to speculate on season 7, so here we are! I wanted to keep these questions mostly upbeat (because we all know how this show can be sometimes lol we’re in for angst for sure 😉) and there’s 16 of them, one for each remaining ep! Feel free to play along everybody… Stay safe! 💙

I swiped this from @katersann​ - great questions!

1. Which character are you most excited to learn the endgame of: 

There’s only a handful of characters I truly care about anymore, and there will always be one that rises above the rest -

Obviously next season is going to feature the Anomaly in a big way, and since that whole thing seems deeply connected to Octavia, I think we can safely assume that this will be a big season for her. I hope she makes it out alive, but on some level, I won’t be surprised if she doesn’t. Going out in a blaze of glory was always more her style. I think that’s true even now.

2. Which character are you most excited to learn the backstory of: 

I’m definitely curious about Hope Diyoza. The fact that she and Octavia appeared to know each other in the s6 finale has huge implications. And I’m sure her life has been really fuckin’ interesting - with a mother like Charmaine, how couldn’t it be?

3. One character who deserves a new look: 

Madi!

She’s not a scrappy forest child anymore, nor is she a Baby Warlord. I’d love to see her in anything but leather (or a hospital gown, yikes.) I don’t know how central to the main plot she’ll be, since she no longer has The Flame, but I do hope we get to see something about her trying to become a semi-normal kid.

4. Two locations you want to revisit: 

If I had my druthers, I’d love to see the Dropship again. It was such a central location in the first two seasons, and one of the things that’s been tough for me since the second Praimfaya has been how we lost all those iconic locations. 

I also really loved the look of Shallow Valley aka Eden. A very cute, aesthetically pleasing location, gone too soon.

5. Three brotps you hope get more screentime: 

Octavia and Diyoza!

(Technically a Brot3 but just try and stop me!) Raven, Murphy, and Emori!

Raven and Echo!

6. Who will get the happiest ending: 

Honestly a tough call, because I don’t know if anyone will truly get a “happy” ending. If I had to guess, Raven and Echo are actually pretty high up there. As long as they both survive the season, I think they’ll finally find some peace on the other side.

7. Which minor or new characters you want to see more of: 

Given that Jordan was a series regular last season, we saw a LOT less of him than I expected. I think he’s going to be an unexpected antagonist in the final season, which should be a lot of fun.

8. Who will eventually snap Jordan out of the funk we see him in, at the end of 6x13: 

Agh, I don’t know. He didn’t really get a chance to connect with any of his parents’ old friends, did he? The deepest connection he made was with Delilah, and she’s dead and gone - but I don’t think he believes that, I think he’s fully swallowed the Sanctum juice at this point. I could maybe see Raven snapping him out of it, or Bellamy. If it’s not them, it’ll definitely be some message from Marper somehow. Or, tragically, he won’t make it out of the funk. I’ll be really mad if that happens, given who his namesake was. The Jordan curse.

9. Who will be the first to tell Bellamy he can’t immediately run into the Anomaly after Octavia: 

Oddly enough, my money is on Hope. And I think Bellamy will immediately distrust her and try to go anyway, but Echo will ultimately stop him.

10. To reference Monty’s ‘do better’ mantra: 

I’d like to hear it from Murphy, to be honest, or Emori. I don’t think it was necessarily Clarke’s right to take so much ownership of that one, last season.

11. To say 'go float yourself’: 

I hope I hear it from the mouth of every single (former) Delinquent, lmao. It’d actually be hilarious if someone like Emori or Echo said it, though. Show how it’s left the Ark as slang and entered the general parlance. 

12. Random object or prop you would bring back for Season 7 if you could: 

Lexa’s throne/Clarke’s walking stick. I really fuckin’ loved that little callback, y’all. Clarke leaning on a piece of Lexa to make it through her time in isolation - ugh, murder me. Even if it isn’t a major plot point, I’d like to see it in the background somewhere. I don’t think it made it off Earth, though.

13. Book One storyline/reference you want to see back for Season 7: 

We’ve got 16 episodes, right? Bring back my funny fillers! I know they weren’t common, and weren’t 100% funny, but I’d love to see an episode like “Day Trip” again.

14. Dead character you would like mentioned: 

Lincoln, Anya, and Nyko. Pay respect to the OG grounders. Even if it’s just in passing.

15. How do you think Hope and Octavia know each other (from season 6): 

There’s been a lot of speculation about what this face was meant to imply -

Personally, when I look at Octavia’s face, I see an entire goddamn story. It’s a story I might fully be projecting, but I’m going with my gut until proven otherwise. Octavia helped raise Hope. When she sees her, she looks at her the way one might a kid they haven’t seen in a long time - there’s surprise, tenderness, pride. A moment of almost not recognizing her, then realization that’s she’s the a kid she loves, all-grown-up now, and that’s what makes her emotional.

My other theory is that Octavia didn’t remember Hope at all until she saw her, which is why she looks confused, then surprised, then happy. She’s suddenly remembering a person who is very important to her, who she had forgotten (likely due to the timey-wimey/doorway weirdness of the Anomaly) and all of her memories coming back is what causes this reaction.

I’m reasonably certain that there won’t be any romantic attachment between them. As much as I’d love it, I just don’t see the show making Octavia explicitly sapphic so late in the game. One of the consequences of trying to create a world where sexual orientation doesn’t matter is that the writers tend to beat us over the head with what type of person each character is attracted to - that’s why we see Clarke and Niylah together multiple times, and why Clarke and Cillian got together. The writers want us to remember, always, without subtlety, that Clarke likes both men and women.

We just haven’t seen any real clues that Octavia is attracted to women. As much as I’m pulling for it, it’s clear that the writers intend her relationship with Niylah to be platonic. 

So, given all of that, I just don’t think Hope and Octavia will be a romantic couple.

That only leaves us with so many options - either they were friends or like family. Given the weirdness of Diyoza going into the Anomaly pregnant and her fully grown daughter stepping out of it three days later, my money is on like family. I think Octavia and Diyoza raised Hope together in the Anomaly, somehow, and that’s how they know each other.

16. How do you think it all will end?: 

I think it will have a lot to do with the backdoor pilot, how much that retcons, and how committed they are to giving this show a satisfying ending when they’ve already creatively moved on to a new world.

If I pretend I don’t know about the backdoor pilot, I’m even less sure. I’m hoping for a satisyfing ending. Not a happy one. I don’t think that would be true to the series.

I’m betting either Clarke or Bellamy dies, and my money has been on Bellamy for awhile. Call it a gut feeling. 

I think almost everyone else will survive. We’ve lost a lot of people along the way in this show, and I think they’ll give us one Big Death of the season, so that death has the greatest impact. And since I’m betting on it being Bellamy, well... that means I’m pretty sure everyone else will make it.

There’s been a lot of little background info dropped about how impossible life on Sanctum is without constant maintenance, and most if not all of that maintenance came from the more-or-less free labor of the people serving the Primes. It’s impossible to know how things will go in terms of Emori and Murphy being Primes now, and how long that will last. Because of that, and because of the “doorway” to another world that the Anomaly allegedly is, I’m betting Sanctum is not our final destination. I’m thinking we’ll end up on Earth again, somehow.

I hope it ends with everyone who survives together, and happy, and with a plan for a sustainable society that doesn’t murder each other every two months.

Tagging: @boomheda​ @awesomenell65​ @captainwilldameron​ @blodkru​ @dylanobrienisbatman​ @teeandsnowflakes​ and anyone else who I normally tag, I’m honestly drawing a blank rn. The usual “please steal this” rules apply!

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Tell me ALL your SW faves

Aaaaaa thank you!  This took a while cuz this got long, lol sorry!  Aight, so here’s ALL my SW faves for this ask prompt list!

FAVE MOVIE: Revenge of the Sith.  10000%.  It just has everything!  You get to see the Obikin relationship in all its glory, first and foremost, how much those two loved each other more than anything and knew each other better than anyone, and just how much they genuinely got along and then we got our hearts broken watching them have to fight after Anakin made his Goof Of The Millennium and just oooooof all the feels about my boys!  Seeing Padmé and just loving her so gotdang much for being strong and wanting the best life for everyone, all while she was so scared and had so little support from anyone, and just couldn’t do it in the end.  Seeing the end of the Republic, how after a thousand years, just, *poof*, just like that in like two days (yes, I know Sidious was planning it for over a decade but still), the horrific fascination on how Sidious was able to do that.  Just the brilliance of Sheev’s character, how you despise him, but how brilliantly everything was pulled off.  The angst of Order 66, how especially after TCW you love these characters SO MUCH and then you gotta watch them DIE HORRIBLY BY THOSE THEY TRUSTED, THOSE WHO NEVER HAD A CHOICE EITHER.  Did I mention feeling so freaking bad for Obi Wan and his Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Day???  Because I really do, he’s so good and kind and we see his life fall apart and ugh I love him.  And y’all, watching Anakin Skywalker fall from grace like the brightest angel he was, you hate him for what he did, but you still can’t help but love him and cry for him and his loss because he was so good, and he did not deserve all this to happen to him but he did it to HIMSELF AAAAGGHHHH.  Also, Obes and Ani were at peak prettiness this movie!!  Just asdfkjglkdskajsrlk best movie love so diggity dang much

FAVE PAIRING: Oh, how EVER will I choose– Obikin.  It’s Obikin, all the way, no contest.  I know I’ve yelled about it a million and one times so I’ll save y’all the rant on how much I adore these disasters and their relationship and how I think they’re goddamn soulmates and the most interesting dynamic in the entire Saga.  I ship them romantically and platonically and just everything, they’re so fucking important to one another and that’s why it hurts so much to watch them fall apart, and that’s why I’m so incredibly happy that they get to canONICALLY SPEND THEIR ENTIRE AFTERLIFE TOGETHER BECAUSE FORCE GHOSTS HELL YEAH.  If I had to pick just secondary fave romantic and platonic relationships, hmmmm that’s hard.  BUT, I’m gonna have to go with Kanera for romantic; SWR was what got me back into Star Wars and one of my favorite parts of it was watching Kanan and Hera, how much I loved them separately, but just how much they were a team together and I love them and I was unbelievably upset when Jedi Night happened (and I still have a rant about how animated Star Wars kills off their romantic couples in the exact same manner, pls ask me about how TCW’s The Lawless and Rebels’ Jedi Night had basically all of the same plot points that ended in killing off a romantic lead).  For other fave platonic relationship, gonna have to go with Luke/Han/Leia BROT3 (separate from Hanleia as a romance, which is probs my 3rd fave).  These disasters were the original Golden Trio, they saved the galaxy together all while yelling dramatically and having each other’s backs to the bitter end (or, at least ‘till the end of ROTJ lol) and I just love them as a team so dang much

FAVE TV SHOW EPISODE: Okay, since there are four TV shows, it’s only fair for me to pick one (or more don’t judge me) from each!  Let’s see, from The Clone Wars, my fave eps have to be the entire Mortis trilogy arc in S3 because Obes/Ani/Snips family dynamic, Force Shenanigans, BEAUTIFUL scene designs, Anakin angst, just so many good things oof, and also Dooku Captured from S1, which I just adore because Obikin snark, annoying Grandpa Dooku, Hondo Fucking Ohnaka making everyone look so bad at their jobs, I just love it agh.  Whoops that was technically four faves, so gotta do four for Rebels too!  Gonna go wiiiiith World Between Worlds from S4 for Badass Ahsoka Tano, Ezra being brave and talented, Sheev being Absolutely Ridiculous, and just the overall Force Shenanigans cuz canon time travel y’all; The Lost Commanders from S2 because Rex is awesome, Kanan angst, and really good Kanan and Ezra bonding and Jedi awesomeness, Fire Across the Galaxy from S1 because of Ghost fam dynamics, Kanan angst, more Kanan and Ezra bonding, and just good stuff, and Twilight of the Apprentice in S2 (lol what about my username?) for being creepy and cool and maKING ME CRY ANAKIN YOU STUPID THRICE COOKED TOILET SEAT LEAVE AHSOKA ALONE.  *cough*  Ok, fine, I’ll stick with only one ep for the other two series.  For Resistance, gonna have to go with the latest ep, actually!  We get to see Kaz being clever and caring about his fam on the Colossus, really cool designs for Aeos and its people, Tam angst, and just everyone shining!  For The Mandalorian, it’s gotta be the finale, Redemption, we get Din name, Armorer kicking everyones asses and me loving it, BABY YODA DOING THE HAND WAVE, Din getting over his issues with droids and connecting with IG only for IG to FUCKING DIE, DIN AND BABY YODA BEING AN OFFICIAL CLAN OF TWO, Taika just knocking this whole episode out of the park with the funny scouttroopers at the beginning who still deserved the ass-whooping they got for fucking murdering Kuiil and hiTTING BABY YODA YOU SLIMY FUCKNUGGETS–

FAVE CHARACTER: Alright, look, I can narrow it down to FIVE and that is IT.  I just love too many Star Wars characters, I can’t go lower than top five!  Ok, so my four favorites are Obi Wan Kenobi, Anakin Skywalker, Leia Organa, Kanan Jarrus, and Finn Skywalker-Dameron-Tico (i SAID what i SAID.)  AIGHT so for starters, a lot of my favorite characters in different franchises fall under various archetypes I have for faves.  Obi Wan fits one of my more popular ones: “Old, reluctant and more than slightly-questionable parental badass with a mysterious past that makes you love them all the more when you realize just how beautiful and tragic and deserving-better they were when that past is revealed”.  I latched onto this dude from the start when I just liked the OT (tho Leia was always my fave lol), and I wanted to know about him, and then when I finally started getting into the PT and TCW, it was just a steady stream of “oh no he’s hOT?” “oh no he’s sAD?” “oh no he’s nICE?!? REALLY FUCKING NICE AND A BIT OF A MESS HELP” and then I just totally latched on because he’s hypercompetent at literally everything and looks damn good doing it and boy do I have a thing for competence, charming as all hell and goes through so much and comes out strong despite the fact that fate hates his fucking guts and tries to destroy his life constantly and guys he tries so hard and he’s kind of messy sometimes and a bit of a dick and I love him all the more for it because he’s trying, none of that do-or-do-not shit, he is doing his damn best and deserves happiness and not Anakin tearing him apart.  SPEAKING OF SAND MAN.  Ugh, so I love Anakin to fucking death and that makes me REALLY MAD ABOUT IT BECAUSE HE MAKES EVERYONE ELSE I LIKE SAD.  So I love Anakin regardless because he’s not your typical protagonist.  He’s fucking brilliant, hot when he fights, is amazing at fighting and flying and building stuff and there’s that competence thing for me again, oh boy!  He’s funny and kind and he cares.  And somehow, this bitch manages to have the two most beautiful, amazing people in the galaxy in love with him and willing to do basically anything for him like the fuck?!?  Jealous much??!?!?!?!  I am!!!!  He’s so fucking bright and it’s impossible to look away.  He’s also a dorky, messy disaster who’s not good with people or feelings or emotions and he panics over stuff and doesn’t know self-control and is kinda really bad at his job a lot and pushes away the people who care about him and screws up literally all the fucking time and he always feels like he’s drowning and alone and I get to watch him crash and burn under the weight of it all.  Basically, minus the anger issues and the child murder and the murder in general, I kinda relate a lot to Anakin.  I feel like a self-hating mess who doesn’t know how to control my ow head and the world hates me a lot too.  I can project my mental issues onto him, enjoy the good parts of him, live vicariously through the things he does that I can’t like be loved by pretty people and be hot and athletic and smart, and then when he crashes I can side-eye and remember that at least someone’s doing worse than me lol.  So yea, I love this messy boi to death and he’s the one I get the best characterization reviews on, so I guess we have an understanding.  Leia I loved since as a kid.  I’d want to be her, brave, talented, smart, strong as hell and snarky to boot.  I realize that Leia fits another fave character archetype of mine: “Powerful young adult raised for greatness, did not ask for all the horrible shit that’s happened to them, highkey wants a break and for the bad guys to just roll over and die, is generally clever, hypercompetent, and 100% done with everyone else’s shit, overdramatic as all hell and enjoys insulting people”.  Her and Han were my first Star Wars ship and she just always made me happy seeing her kick names and take ass.  She’s gone through almost as much hell or maybe more so than Obi Wan, she also keeps getting back up and fighting, she deserved SO MUCH BETTER than what the Sequel Trilogy gave her and you may quote me on that.  She’s also gorgeous and I wanted to wear all of her clothes (bikini not included).  I also love her relationship with Luke and I am so goddam happy it is now canon that Leia Organa did Jedi training and can use a lightsaber!!!  She has a lightsaber!!!!!!!!!!  Ugh oof I love her.  Kanan fills the similar “mentor” archetype as Obi Wan does, but with a smidge of youth because he’s younger when he gets dropped into this role.  He’s more of a punk, more of a mess, and oof.  Basically I’ve said it a zillion times how Rebels resparked my love of Star Wars, but really, it was Kanan on the screen that did it.  It happened when the Rebels season 3 premiere eps ended up on the TV and I saw it and I thought in order 1. holy shit that Maul fucker’s actually alive? and 2. Oh no sad blind Jedi man!  He’s cool and mysterious and I want to know why he’s sad and who made him sad and also want to give him a hug!!!  He was my fave character all throughout Rebels and his training dynamic with Ezra, struggling to help this kid all while flying by the seat of his pants because he had Issues and no clue what he was doing and no support and ugh, he was smart and brave and I’m so sad he’s dead and yea.  Finn!!!!  Last but not least!!!!  He was my favorite character from The Force Awakens.  People have said it before, but he was just so new, a rebel Stormtrooper stolen and brainwashed at birth, finding the good guys and fighting to do the right thing!  Possibly Force Sensitive!  Super duper cute!!!  Funny and kind, dammit, when not many other people in the galaxy were!!!!!!!!  I was so, so sure Finn was gonna be a Jedi along with Rey at some point, that might have been my biggest letdown when I saw TLJ, but ugh I just loved his enthusiasm and his war within himself, ultimately loving his friends and trying to do what was right at the risk to his own safety, even though that was why he ran scared in the first place!!!!!  I shipped him with Rey and with Poe and now I am NOT above the post TROS Jedistormpilot shipping!!!!!  Finn was just always the most interesting part of the Sequel Trilogy for me and I personally feel like they could have done more with his character.

FAVE ACTOR/ACTRESS: Aight, so I try my best not to “stan” anyone famous because literally no one is perfect and everyone’s done something problematic at some point and if I dare say I like a famous figure, someone’s gonna find something about them and come after me all “OMG THIS PERSON DID/SAID/IS X YOU MONSTER GO DIE!!11!!1″.  In terms of performance, I think all the actors in Star Wars did a lovely job and I’m happy with all of them!  If I had to crush on any, it would probs be Ewan McGregor, John Boyega, or Diego Luna cuz, uh, they hot.  If I had to pick one I liked most, it would honestly probs be Carrie Fisher.  Maybe that’s just partially from missing her now that she’s gone, but I really admire her advocacy and transparence for mental health, and she just seemed like such a funny, kind, strong person.

FAVE PLANET: Aight, this is HARD and I refuse to only pick one planet!  Ok, gonna start off with Coruscant because an endless city planet made up of lights is amazingly gorgeous and it has a Jedi Temple stacked on top of a Sith Temple and is just so cool aaaaa.  Also love Felucia just for being so bright and colorful and pretty.  Mortis for being just as weirdly gorgeous and also Weird Force Shit.  Lothal for the beautiful mountains, the wolves, and the fucking lightspeed center of the planet passage what, Dathomir is delightfully creepy to look at, Crait is really cool with the salt and the red and the ice foxes, Kashyyyk because Wookiees and it’s pretty and I love their treehouses.  Basically if it makes me clap my dumb monkey hands and go “oooh pretty!”, I love it.  The more “not like Earth” it is, the more I love it.

FAVE SPECIES: Hmmmmm, this is a tough one…….  There’s just so many cool-looking species that we know so little about, ya know?  I wanna say either Togrutas or Wookiees.  Togrutas just because the character design is incredible and so fun to work with and also I love Ahsoka, and Wookiees because they have such an interesting culture and backstory and also I want to give Chewbacca a hug.

FAVE CONCEPT: Uhhh, not quite sure I get the question; you mean like just story concept in general?  If that’s it, I’m gonna have to go with just the whole concept of the Force and the Jedi in general.  I mean George, George my man, what the fuck?  How the hell did you come up with this?!?  Mystical psychic space wizards with magic abilities to connect with and use the sentient godlike life force that combined the entire galaxy together.  Oh and also they have COLORFUL GLOWING LASER SWORDS?!?!?  It’s honestly one of the most creative things I’ve seen in popular culture, and that makes me sad that Star Wars now seems to be trying to separate itself from what I think is its most interesting quality because “ugh not EVERYTHING should be about the Jedi guys!”, when like, y’all, without the Jedi, the entire SW universe is basically just another military scifi war story……  Just my opinion tho.

FAVE SHIP: Ok, since pairing was already up there, I assume this means actual ship?  Well, uh, gonna have to be square with y’all, I’m a bad Star Wars fan for this part; I’ve never been the one to memorize ship names and designs and know the exact make and model number of some fancy ship, I’m real bad at that lol.  I’ll say my favorite ship is the Ghost.  Hera flies it and the Rebels Fam lives on it and it’s super cool and it makes me happy!

FAVE WEAPON: LIGHTSABER.  LIGHTSABER LIGHTSABER.  LIGHTSABERLIGHTSABERLIGHTSABERLIGHTSABERLIGHTSABER.  Y’all, c’mon, what did you think I was gonna pick? xD  Lizard brain want glowy shiny colorful big stick that goes whoosh!

FAVE BACKGROUND EXTRA: Again, not entirely sure what this means, but do you mean fave background character?  If so, then it’s a tie between Wilrow Hood and his ice cream machine for the memes, that one clone in TCW who yeets a plate of toast at Cad Bane’s face, or that one background soldier who scoots between Han and Leia arguing in ESB and also Hera and Kanan arguing in Rebels (yes I do headcanon it’s the same guy lol)

FAVE MOMENT/SCENE: This one’s actually pretty easy.  Anakin dying in Luke’s arms in ROTJ, and then his ghost showing up to Luke later at the Ewok party.  I just care so ridiculously much about stupid Anakin and his stupid story and mistakes, and even before I was a prequels stan and had only seen the OT (and wasn’t a huge Vader fan, believe it or not), some part of me just felt so solemn, so fragile watching this, watching the giant monstrous machine falling apart as he fades away to reveal a weary, tired old human man, and it always made me wonder, what the hell happened to him to turn him into that thing?  Seeing that young, beautiful man, basically Luke’s age, showing up as a ghost later, just the fascination, the tender look he shared with Old Ben, just how young he was, that made it all the more mysterious and knowing what I do now, it’s just so much better because my poor, horrible Disaster Man finally did the right thing and he finally found peace and it’s just the only ending I could be happy for Anakin with,  And Luke, I always felt so bad for Luke, being so strong, so brave, finally getting his father back for like five damn minutes and then having to lose him again and just hurting for him but also knowing that it was gonna be okay because Luke had more family now, the ghosts, and Han and Leia and Chewie and R2 and 3PO and Lando and everyone.

FAVE KISS: Luke and Leia (HANG ON LET ME SPEAK) forehead kiss in The Last Jedi.  I know (this one) isn’t meant as romantic, and I know the question is probs about a romantic one and I know that it’s not even a real mouth kiss.  But.  That Luke and Leia scene was my favorite part of the entire movie.  Again, I was missing Carrie a lot, and ugh, after all these years, after not getting to interact the entire previous movie and not at all during this movie, the ONE scene with Carrie and Mark and the pure emotion of it all just knocked me out of my fucking seat.  You could see how connected they were as siblings, how much Leia had missed Luke, how much he had missed her and how sorry he was for leaving, sorry for Ben, sorry for having to leave her again now, Leia knowing Luke was about to die, and just, acceptance.  Love and acceptance.  It was just a final, tender kiss on the forehead, and it was perfect and yeah.  If I do have to pick a romantic lip smooch, it’s probably the Hanleia classic “scoundrel” kiss in Empire Strikes Back.  I still remember watching ESB the first time as a KID and being all eeeeeeee are they gonna– YES they kissed they kissed they kissed finally! and that’s enough for me.

FAVE FIGHT: Obi Wan and Anakin on Mustafar in Revenge of the Sith.  WIthout question.  It’s brilliantly and precisely choreographed to show the intricate nuances of the Obikin breakup in alllllll of its painful glory.  It breaks my heart every time I watch it because every time I watch it I still hope it’s gonna end differently.  That Anakin realizes he can’t kill Obi Wan and ditches Sidious and goes back with Obi Wan to save Padmé.  That Obi Wan realizes he can’t let Anakin die and saves him from burning and from Sidious and takes him back too.  That Obi Wan at least puts Anakin out of his misery which would be godawful painful, but would save him from the horrid life as Vader.  That while they’re fighting, a lava monster appears like in the concept art and Vader and Obi Wan have to put aside their differences and fight the thing and remember how much they mean to each other.  But ugh, this fight was beautifully choreographed and was originally supposed to be a MULTI-MINUTE SINGLE SHOT WHAT THE HELL???  Oooof Hayden and Ewan did such an amazing job and the whole thing just rips my heart out every time in the bestworst way possible <3 <3 <3

 FAVE LINE OF DIALOGUE: Now THIS is hard, I’m not the best at picking favorite lines.  Hmmm, this is HARD.  Let me think.  Gahhhh, it’s hard because I have so many lines I like and I can’t even just narrow down a couple!!!  Ultimately, it’s probably gonna be Yoda’s monologue from Empire Strikes Back: “Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter…”  Just that entire line saying how basically all of us are more than the sum of our parts, that everyone is their own sparkling light made of stardust, I loved it as a kid and I love it now. 

FAVE BOOK/COMIC: Answered here

FAVE HERO: Gonna go with Obi Wan!  I already rambled about why I love him, but y’all……. I love him.

FAVE VILLAIN: Anakin Skywalker/Darth McFucking Vader.  I loved him when he was a hero and the silly poor sad boy makes me sad when I see him as a villain all while being an overdramatic asshole and it just makes me wanna hit him with a newspaper for ruining his life and everyone else’s I love him.

FAVE OUTFIT: Answered here

FAVE CREATURE: I love Lothcats/Tookas!  I just heckin’ love cats and now there’s spACE KITTIES WITH SUPER FOOFY TAILS AND BIG EARS OMG Y’ALL I LOVE THEM I JUST REALLY DO AND I REALLY WANT ONE SO I CAN CUDDLE IT ;_;

WHEW.  That was all of the faves, thanks so much for asking me!!!  Sorry this took so long to do, this was kinda a hell week haha!

[dappercritter]

Random She-Ra Season 2/3 Thoughts:

(Okay, let’s get this done so I can move onto Season 4 and continue and my downward spiral into anxiety at the hands of a gay cartoon.)

First things first: Frosta is babey.

Light Hope, you’re scaring the kids.

I don’t mind Swift Wind that much but at the same time I don’t mind when he’s not onscreen either.

Make what you will of that.

Catra, I know it’s hard to get over your first love, especially when you feel like they’ve betrayed you somehow. But for the love of might, you have a BIG. BUFF. FRIENDLY. HALF SCORPION. WOMAN standing right in front of you who is obviously hopelessly in love with you. Wake up and smell the sapphic, lady!

Scorpia, Sea Hawk, and Adora are my BROT3.

People don’t realize it, but Catra still retains her transformation powers from the original series. Only instead being able to transform from a woman into a cat, she transforms from a sympathetic villain into a nigh-unlikable one.

“Roll With It” deserves an Emmy just for the imagine spots.

Seriously, I won’t to make something that looks like Glimmer’s imagine spot one day.

So we all agree Shadow Weaver was a [b-word] before her encounter with the parasite, right?

Heh, kid Micah sounds like Ezra from Star Wars Rebels.

...

WAIT.

It’s nice that they’re treating Emily like a recurring character and an actual member of her and Hordak’s family and not just a joke character.

Robot rights FTW!

I can’t be the only one who thinks Imp set up Entrapta to go meet Hordak in the first place. The little bean’s too smart not to!

Does God love Bow’s two daddies?

Yes.

Yes he does.

Season 3, Episode 2, “Huntara”? More like Season 3, Episode 2, “Entrapdak”, amirite?

Hordak is just Invader Zim but simultaneously edgier and sweeter. There I said it!

(Please don’t hurt me.)

Season 3 is giving us more lizard people representation and even if most of them are just extras, I am living!

I wonder if Huntara offers advice on how to pick up girls AND survive the Crimson Wastes?

“Once Upon a Time in the Waste” is like Thelma and Louise meets Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid but with a more depressing ending than  both of them.

Oh snap, they pulled a Taserface with Tung Lashor!

Gee, Shadow Weaver. How come your mom lets you get a redemption arc first?

Or do you?

(*suspicious glare*)

HEARTBRAKING: Gamer girl and goth boy’s idyllic life of evil science ruined by angry lesbian cat.

Also the world ends.

We got more Madame Razz. My desire to riot has been quelled.

For now...

Heh, King Micha sounds like Daniel Dae Ki- it is him isn’t it?

They’re seriously going to bring back Micah just to have Angella killed off. I do believe that’s a dick move in bird culture.

(Unless Micah brings her back from the space between dimensions...) 

Season 4 is going to fix any of this is it?

This is why I don’t trust catgirls

[rydertm]

𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐫𝐲𝐝𝐞𝐫.

( wolfgang novogratz, cis male ) hey ! have you seen RYDER MONROE around ? HE works as a RENTALS TECHNICIAN at big bear resort, but they must be off their shift by now. well, if you do see them can you let me know ? they’re 22 years old & they’ve been working here for A FEW WEEKS. they tend to be CAREFREE & FUN-LOVING, but can also be IRRESPONSIBLE & EVASIVE. the other employees have labeled them THE PETER PAN. thanks a lot ! ( mismatched socks and old beat up converse, a mischievous dimpled smile, soft guitar strums at 3am, illegible scribbles in a worn out notebook, rowdy cheers heard overtop of loud party music ).

ya, idk man. i have no self-control & this is a long, rambley mess. soooo hERE is aylie’s older twin brother ( by five minutes ), ryder. gimme a like ig, but imma be hitting everyone up to plot anyways cuz i luv u all.

name : ryder austin monroe if u kno, u kno age : twenty-two gender : cis male sexuality : heterosexual hometown : london, england job : rentals technician ( subject to change )

born to a famous retired musician from london and a colorado native, ryder is the older twin of aylie ( by five minutes and he’ll never let her forget it ). they share an older brother, cole, making him the middle child.

middle child syndrome was very much so the case with ryder. between his siblings, he was always the troublemaker and it’s been this way since they were young. he could always be found up to no good ━ anything from hanging off the curtains to trying to ship himself off to egypt in a cardboard box. 

his dad got him into music to teach him how to focus and as a means to keep him busy. ryder took to it like fish to water, and showed some promising talent in writing and playing music. he wrote his first song when he was five and although it was pretty much just nonsense about cheerios, he somehow managed to recycle some of the lyrics into a proper song years later. 

as a kid, ryder was also put into different sports to channel all of his energy somewhere. football ( or soccer for the ‘muricans ) was the sport that he kept up with up until he finished school, and of course, snowboarding. he’s always been ridiculously competitive, especially with his siblings, and likes to tease aylie that he’s the superior snowboarder in the family. 

he had just been accepted to berklee college in the US when his mom got into a car accident and passed away. her death really shook his family to the core, yet ryder had played it off like he was completely unaffected by it, even cracking jokes at the funeral. 

that was just who ryder was. he never took anything seriously, even when he should, and life was just one big party. he always ran away at the first sign of a problem or responsibility, and that was exactly what he did after his mom’s funeral. he packed up what he could and left home that very night, only leaving his family a half-assed note on the back of the funeral program.

he spent the summer traveling on his own, working odd jobs and playing whatever gigs he could get. deferring his acceptance to berklee for a year, later turned into dropping out altogether when he decided to just focus on his music.

the whole music thing worked out for him after he put together a band while in amsterdam. they toured around different cities playing small gigs, and when he wasn’t touring, he was working with upcoming artists or traveling on his own. ryder was never in one place for long and his family never knew when he’d visit. 

it was only a couple years ago that he began visiting big bear again, mostly to visit his sister and to snowboard. though he also picked up the odd job of working at the rentals shack, where he spends most of his shift messing around on his guitar.

ryder’s always been the biggest little shit around. he could be pretty rowdy and immature sometimes, but it’s all in the name of fun. very much an act before you think type and has landed himself in some hot water because of it. with absolutely zero impulse control, he’s a bit of a fighter and a lover ( will fight you, but then buy you a beer after ), but he’s got a good heart and tries to be cool with everyone.

FUN FACTS.

his music is a bit of a cross between rex orange county and lauv. 

really bad with quotes. will quote ghandi even though 9.9/10 times, ghandi did not in fact say it.

obsessed with the fast and furious movies. frequently wishes he was brian o’connor. sometimes thinks he is brian o’connor. will absolutely be the first in line to watch the 24th movie and will also frequently quote the movies.

ironically enough, he’s a bad driver. like, really bad. took him nine tries to get his license. just picture cher horowitz’s driving tbh.

ryder’s instagram is private because of his ~* super famous celeb *~ dad, but he also lets just about anyone follow him so that... kind of defeats the purpose. he posts a lot of artsy ( in his opinion ) pics, but also random stuff like a zoomed in shot of grease on a pizza slice and cUtE candids, complete with quotes ( said by the wrong people ) as captions. #influencer 

always down for a good prank war. famously known for being the guy that broke in and stole the jonas brothers’ wardrobe change right before they had to get back on stage.

loves a good romance or rom-com movie. can probably quote from the classics. he just quotes a lot of shit i guess?? also a big taylor swift stan. he said fuck your gender norms, bro!

WANTED CONNECTIONS. some generic wcs cuz i’m boring IDK. obvy, i’m always open to brainstorming other ideas too!

BROT3  ━ trio of your dreams bish. every bro needs his bros. his partners in crime, ride or dies, BFFLs, bro-mates, whatever you wanna call it. can either encourage or discourage ryder’s ~*~brilliant~*~ ideas, but either way, they’re always along for the ride.  taken by leo takanashi & kieran rhodes

CHILDHOOD ( BEST ) FRIEND  ━ grew up together and they’re basically each other’s number one since day one. probably vacationed together in big bear and that was how they met.

MOM FRIEND  ━ because ryder is a dumb child and needs someone looking out for him, even if he only listens like 10% of the time. just a scary mama bear / boss bitch who he is maybe a lil scared of.  taken by divine burakgazi

CONFIDANT  ━  not saying ryder talks about his ~* feelings *~ often, but the odd chance that he does, it’s probably with y/m. they could just lend an ear, or be someone he turns to for advice too.  taken by callie macdermot

GOOD INFLUENCE  ━ the angel on ryder’s shoulder basically. the voice of reason who will talk him out of getting into dumb shenanigans where he’ll a) hurt himself, b) get into trouble, or c) all of the above.

BAD INFLUENCE  ━ and ofc, the devil on ryder’s shoulder. the person who encourages all of his bad ideas. probably even contributes a fair share of them. taken by callie macdermot

( EX ) FLING / FWB / HOOK-UP ━  someone ( or multiple someones ) ryder often hooked up with whenever he’s in big bear. maybe he genuinely liked her ( and she liked him back? ), but he’s just too emotionally immature and flighty to be a good boyfriend.

EX-GF  ━  dated for a few months before she dumped him because he was a crappy boyfriend. it could have ended on good, bad, awkward, whatever terms.  taken by ingrid kelly

SOFT SPOT  ━  maybe they dated, maybe they almost dated, maybe it was on/off. whatever the case, ryder  just can’t seem to shake y/m. he cares a lot for her ( possibly some strong lovey feelings were involved ) and will always be there for her no matter what. y/m could feel the same way, or just be leading him on. think peter kavinsky & gen sdlkgjdkg don’t come at me.  taken by divine burakgazi

FAVOURITE ANNOYANCE  ━  ryder loves to annoy y/m and get on their nerves just for the hell of it ( maybe he has a tiny crush ). will do just about anything to get a rise out of y/m and to rile them up.

ENEMIES / RIVALS  ━ for whatever reason, they just never clicked and/or rubbed each other the wrong way. every time they’re in the same room together, it’s big yikes and lots of tension.

[hiddengills]

Yukiko And Leon 

Aside from his aunts, there are no other two people as crucial to Remy’s life than Yukiko and Leon; the three of them have been best friends for over 20 years and throughout each of those years their bond only grows closer with the other. With how long they’ve been friends and a part of the other’s life, they truly go beyond friendship to more of a familial bond than anything, but at the end of the day, their friendship is something that hardly anything else can compare to. 

Remy and Yukiko’s Friendship

Remy met Yukiko first when he was 6 years old, roughly a month and a half before his 7th birthday. Yukiko transferred to Remy’s elementary school late in the first half of the school year, just shortly after the first snowfall of the season. Through the her first day, she’d remained quiet, keeping to herself, and during lunch she’d found a patch of ice outside to skate around all by herself. Remy made the conscious and brave decision to approach her and (awkwardly) ask her if he could join her, only for him to step on the ice and immediately fall on his ass in front of her, prompting a very concerned fit of giggles from her as she helped him up. (Note: In the years that follow, Remy’s skating skills have only improved to the point where he does Not fall immediately, but is far from an expert, whereas Yukiko is qualified to actually teach figure skating). During the rest of recess, they played together and when lunch and the rest of their classes came around, they sat together each and every day after that, too. 

While Remy, Yukiko, and Leon are truly a BROT3, there is definitely more of a significant dynamic between Remy and Yukiko, not only due to the fact that they’ve known each other more, but also just due to certain events in both of their lives that the other was there for the other for. Remy was the first person Yukiko came out to, and Remy’s response to her was, “You were seriously nervous about telling Me, who was raised by Two Aunts that I wouldn’t accept you?” Months after this and admist some serious family drama on Yukiko’s side (NOT related to her sexuality), Yukiko is offered the spare room and Remy’s Aunts place to stay for the remainder of her high school years, and for however else longer she needs a roof over her head. It’s during this time that Yukiko truly finds out about (and experiences) the nightmares Remy’s started to have regarding Caiden, along with his PTSD with thunderstorms, and there end up being many late nights of the two of them sitting on the other’s bed with her consoling him about everything that happened that day and just reassuring him that everything’s okay and that he’s safe. Shortly after Yukiko starts to living with Remy and his family, and after Remy’s begun to take up swimming, she starts to take up hockey as a way to channel her frustration with everything that’s gone on with her family. 

With Remy’s powers being water based, and Yukiko’s being ice based, the two of them have come to the conclusion that the reason they support each other so well and are so important in the other’s life is because “ice and water are one in the same.” 

Remy and Leon’s Friendship 

Leon and his family moved next door to Remy’s family the summer after Remy turned 9 and before they were heading into 4th grade. Prior to Leon’s family, there hadn’t been any kids around Remy’s age for him to play with in the neighborhood, so the idea of actually having a potential friend that lived next door to him excited him. A lot. At first glance of Leon’s family, Remy’s slightly taken aback due to how big his family is as Leon’s one of seven kids, with Leon being directly in the middle age-wise. Even though Remy wants to meet him immediately, his Advise him to wait at least a week to allow the family to get settled in. When the day finally comes that Remy decides he’s going to introduce himself to Leon, he notes that Leon’s making some unusual hand signs to whom appears to be his younger sister, Remy uses this moment of curiosity to strike up a conversation with Leon, learning that his younger sister is Deaf and he’s using Sign Language to communicate with her. After a little small talk and introductions to the other (and promises of hanging out soon), Remy dashes back home and asks his Aunts if there’s any way he can learn Sign Language so that he can communicate with Leon’s sister, too. The next day they all run into each other, Remy’s in front of them with his book open, attempting the signs to say “Hi, I’m Remy,” to her, which immediately touched Leon (and the rest of his family)’s heart. (Also, Remy was so excited to sign to her that he wasn’t looking where he was going and slipped and fell in front of them). 

Where Yukiko is essentially the “best friend” to Remy, Leon is the “Brother from another mother,” and while the three of them went to school together, Leon had the benefit of living next to Remy so the two of them were able to hang out a lot more even after school and on the weekends.  With how much they spend together when they’re not in school, the two of them become a member of the other’s family within months, with Leon and his family still continuing to teach Remy how to Sign more and more. The two of them also wind up sharing hobbies that nobody else but them seem to enjoy; with Remy always willing to show off his expanding Lego collection to Leon, and Leon teaching him various arts and crafts (varying from different kinds of painting to how to make the perfect flower crown), the two of them never found themselves bored whenever they would hang out at the other’s house.  Where Remy and Yukiko wound up going into Swimming and Hockey respectively, Leon found himself interested in becoming a male cheerleader at their school, as he viewed it as its own form of Art, and it gave him extra reason to be able to cheer for his friends when they were competing (and winning). 

With Leon’s abilities being based around the rainbow, is that just like the colors of a rainbow, a combination of so many different things can truly be something Beautiful always, and he considers him, Remy, and Yukiko his personal rainbow of friendship. 

The trio’s friendship as a whole 

Aside from after school/weekends/when Remy or Yukiko are out on a date (Leon has no interest in dating and has no problem simply being amogst friends and family his whole life), there’s hardly a time where they aren’t spending time together. The three of them are regularly invited to big events in the other’s family lives: Leon and Yukiko’s family were both invited to Remy’s Aunts wedding and were even able to be part of it, both of them attended Remy’s bar mitzvah, etc. The three of them are in constant support of the other, but also aren’t afraid to call one or the other out when they do something stupid. 

[coaxionunlimited]

Blupjeans Fic Recs 1/2: Oneshots

AO3: Fics hosted on AO3. I’m not re-reccing the classics, my personal guideline for this list is under 300 kudos. You should find something you haven’t read.

perennial by untrustworthyglitch - The stolen century and flower motifs. There’s going to be about 382947734753 fics about Barry and Lup falling in love in tsc on this list and I’m not sorry about it. This one also contains some excellent crew as family.

the flip side by Stellonia - Barry and Lup meet . . . Barry and Lup! The Startblaster travels to an alternate version of the crew’s home plane, and the more things change, the more they stay the same. Takes a really fun look at how Barry and Lup changed over the course of their journey. 

Made Before the Voidfish (Broken by a Voidfish) by capitalnineteen, Tangerine_Catnip - Lup and Taako swap story roles and Lup has complicated feelings about the Red Robe. I am all about that amnesiac resonance, hoo boy! Also, pining.

bioluminescence by RunawayCaboose - And now for something completely different! Have a modern au, which might not be as different as it first seems. I can’t say more without spoilers, but I really loved the twist.

4am chats by pandabrite - We’re back on the Starblaster, and Barry and Lup are pining. Short, sweet, and chock full of dumbassery.

muscle memory by owlinaminor - Really, you should read everything by owlinaminor, but this one is a) less well known, and b) stars amnesiac Barry pining for Lup which is my JAM. 

Demolition Woman (Can I Be Your Man?) by troubleinmind - Lup sets things on fire and Barry is #relatable. Which is to say, properly awestruck.

not actually a terrible idea by ignitesthestars - Faaaaaaake marriage! You know you want it. Set in the stolen century, and stars that good mutual pining. 

Treasure of the Sea by hyperInactive - MermaidAU! Need I say more? I’m not saying more.

A Much Better Story by robotguts - Come for the blupjeans, stay for a really good look at Lup’s character and some sick dramatic irony.

something new by ignitesthestars - Stolen century! First kiss! Shipmates and science buddies finally resolving their insane romantic tension! The get-together fic you were looking for.

The Vampire/Hunter Blups series by Grimmseye - All the fics in the series are complete, but the plot is definitely not resolved. But you know you were craving a vampire/hunter au, and boy does Grimmseye deliver. 

turn off the lights when you leave by anonymousAlchemist - the junger. I love dark!Barry, I love explorations of what exactly he meant when he said loving Lup redeemed him, and that’s why I love this fic.

Heat in a Closed System by lividsilk - Honestly the only explicit fic on this list. You know why? Amnesiac resonance baby! I love, love, love their dynamic here, how they just know each other without knowing each other, love each other without loving each other. It’s just *chef’s kiss*

Tumblr: Those fics only found in blue hell. If your fic is on here and it’s not already there, please bring it to AO3, before you change urls and it’s lost forever under a cut. Please.

untitled by chamosie - High school au! Pining! Lup pining, which frankly deserves an award in itself.

untitled by extra-plus-ordinary - Barry vs voidfish amnesia, which is not a battle anyone can win, but Lup’s there and she helps, which makes this fic a little less sad.

9:  We’re hiding from the authorities and it’s very close quarters in here, I can feel your body against mine. by mcgonagollygee - Read the title. Tell me you’re not all about that. Features a good, good almost kiss.

12: We were pretending to be lovers but I’m not pretending anymore and I have to know if you feel the same way. by mcgonagollygee - Okay look, Barry and Lup are covering for the rest of the Starblaster on a Light heist, and they need to make a distraction so Barry proposes. And they’re both pining. 11/10.

7 for blupjeans? by mcgonagollygee - Huurrrrt comfort! Barry gets captured and Lup and Magnus bring him home. Good stuff!

untitled by extra-plus-ordinary - Barry and Lup and a duet in a public place. Will take your breath away.

Lup’s Guide to Romancing a Nerd by questbedhead - Lup, figuring out how to be in love. Hilarious, a little tragic, and a really good take on everyone’s favorite girl.

venom blupjeans au by marywhal - Lactose intolerant symbiote. ‘nuff said.

real smooth, tripping over air by interstellarvagabond - Lup tries to make a move on Barold. Hilarity ensues.

H, Barry bluejeans? by adventuresloane - Barry, drowning. Good Barry study.

MISC: With Barry and Lup comes Taako, and look - I love this ship because I love those characters. These fics aren’t focused on blupjeans, but if you love our dudes, they're worth your times.

On the road to Philanden by flashwitch - So remember that one post about Barry having a crush on Taako in his voidfish amnesiac body? Yep, here’s the fic. 

good morning, good night by inkedinserendipidy - Really well done Taako+Barry+Lup BROT3, which is frankly my favorite dynamic in the whole podcast. Also, bedsharing. Good, good bedsharing.

satellite call by PTomlin - Did someone say bedsharing? Here’s some more bedsharing. Also some really good Barry+Taako and Barry+Twins dynamics.

head of the flock by teacuptaako - Lup character study! Really, really awesome Lup character study. Go and read it!

Very cold water on a very hot day by JoyfullyyoursDav - This fic pretty much expands on Barry and Taako’s year of surf-bonding, which you frankly need in your life. 

better give that heart a listen by tardigradeschool - Okay technically it’s Barry/Magnus but - no, wait, stop running! You want to read this for the fake dating, the crew as family, and Barry Bluejeans’ Anxiety, which should be a character in itself.

[queen-scribbles]

Stars Rewritten-Deadfire Ed.

Finally got the rest of my headcanons for Adi’s Deadfire experience written down, yay. It’s largely Heodi-centric, since her story and choices would be largely the same as canon. So then, here we go

Adi was very nearly not at Caed Nua when Eothas ripped his way out. She wasn’t supposed to be. She was supposed to be in Aedyr.

One of Heodan’s brother(probably Gyran) had written to let him know their parents were sick. Not deathly ill or anything, but whatever it is is proving stubborn, and it was too much for Gyran, Lydia, and Lyam to run the mercantile, take care of Gyran and Lydia’s kids, and take care of their parents. He’s asking if Heodan can help with any of the above, which means going home.

Seeing as it’s been five years since he saw them, Adi’s all for him going home to visit his family and help. She wants to come with him, even. Heodan drags his feet just a little, more wondering how the craft hall and Caed Nua would fare without them than reluctance to see his family because he does miss them.

Adi gets it all figured out; lines up someone to run the craft hall, finds a regent she trusts to handle Caed Nua while she’s gone for a few months. They’re both getting excited about it after that; Heodan may have been a little more homesick than he realized/admitted, and Adi wants to meet his family.

Just a couple days before they’re supposed to leave, something come up that Adi can’t pass off on the regent; she has to handle it herself. So she tells Heodan to go ahead, his family’s expecting him, and she’ll catch up once she’s taken care of this.

He offers to wait for her, they were both looking forward to traveling together(having an adventure that wasn’t dangerous, just fun). But she insists.

You guessed it, a day or two after he leaves, EOTHAS

When Adi wakes up on the Defiant, she very nearly has an immediate breakdown(and would have, if Benweth + the shipwreck hadn’t happened), because thanks to all those holes in her memory with Eothas yanking out part of her soul, the last thing she remembers is Heodan offering to stay with her. Not her response, not watching him leave, it stops at his offer. So since he’s not here, she’s terrified that means he’s one of those 300-odd casualties Berath mentioned.

It’s not until after the shipwreck etc, when she’s verging on a panic attack sitting on the beach, that Edér realizes what she’s worried about and reminds her what happened, that Heodan’s fine, just in Aedyr.

The first thing she does upon reaching Port Maje(before talking to Clario or recruiting Xoti or anything), is get her hands on writing materials and write Heodan an ‘I’m alive, don’t panic’ letter bc she knows he has to be worried sick if he heard about Caed Nua’s destruction. Admits she has no idea where to tell him to write her back, but wants him to know she’s okay(leaves out the memory gaps that she hates and the whole ‘died but sent back as Berath’s Herald’ thing)

Writes him again a few days days later when she gets to Neketaka to tell him the things she’s seen and the fact she found Aloth and Pallegina (:D). Tells him he can write her at the Wild Mare bc she wants to hear from him, too. Dubious as it may be, she trusts the proprietor there more than she does, say, the VTC when it comes to snooping.

Actually winds up writing him a lot; every week or so, bc there’s so much new amazing stuff she’s seeing she has to talk about it somehow and he’s always been a good listener(besides, she misses him).

He writes her every once in a while. His first letter is so relieved to hear she’s alive she can practically feel it vibrating off the page, the others talk about his family and how things are going. It’s pretty clear he misses her, even in the letters where he doesn’t come right out and say it.

Adi hates it every time she stumbles across a memory gap, but the ones about their relationship and her family are the worst. She’ll get this vague sense it was happy and/or comfortable memory but can’t quite grasp the details, like she’s trying to catch minnows.

She can’t remember what his laugh sounds like and wants to give Eothas hell just for that

After she gets back the missing part of her soul, she does tell Heodan what happened(caveat-ed with “it’s fixed now don’t worry”) and proceeds to sappily ramble for three pages about things she remembers now about Them that were missing.

About 3/4 of the way through the game(maybe a tad after the Ashen Maw and Beast of Winter), Heodan writes that his parents are better(finally) so he could join her if she wants.

Part of her does want that, very much bc she misses him like crazy. But things are getting really dangerous at this point, and he’s non-combatant thanks to that stupid semi-crippled arm so she doesn’t want him anywhere near this mess. She tells him to either stay with his family or--if he wants to leave--he could see how bad things are at Caed Nua.

Her letter after Forgotten Sanctum is just. Pages of geeking that SHE! got to meet! TAYN AND LLENGRATH! and everything she learned(And btw Wael’s Body was GROSS and she still smells a little like bile EW but it was fascinating) and all the new books she picked up and just. It’s adorable and makes Heodan grin like so much of an idiot Lyam(and various nieces and nephews) teases him for a week bc his gf’s such a nerd and he loves her so much.

After Ukaizo and everyone going their separate ways, Adi beelines for Aedyr(Rekke and maybe Xoti come with her. Bc I’m not breaking up the brot3 that easily) bc she’s missed him for more than long enough.

BIGGEST REUNION HUG EVER

And she gets to meet his family(who love her, obviously, who wouldn’t?) and spend some time with them before she and Heodan go back to Caed Nua to rebuild and she starts researching ways to fix the whole Wheel thing

Cue relatively happy ending until potential PoE3(?) 

[azoraahai]

in the honor of the endgame trailer, idk if it’s been asked yet, but what your tortured souls series’ characters — that survived — would be up to??

hi bb! i answered that briefly here, but i can go into more detail!

send me an ask

so dom is definitely in shock. since i like giving her pain, she blames herself for not trying hard enough to take down thanos and due to rEaSoNs, she’s trying to strengthen herself and get back on track. thor is gonna be a big support system and they’re gonna be a very cool duo to explore since i don’t have many scenes with them as of yet. and im gonna try very hard to find ways to have carol and dom have a cool duo too bc carol is my wife and i need that team up bADLY.

robin is an absolute mess™️. she’s back on drinking, i may add other narcotics as well bc im a horrible human being. she is lost without sam because he was the one who literally changed her life for the better and now that he’s gone, robin has no idea what to do so she reverted back to her old habits. she shuts herself from everyone and is just wasting away her life tbh. she’s 100% hopeless and at her lowest.

beth is just done. she is doing her best to move on and kinda just start over. with bucky gone, she just wants to be on her own. she wants to explore what’s left of the world and take time for herself to move on.

jeanie is an emotional wreck. not only did she lose some of the most important people in her life, she lost a piece of herself. she’s stuck in her state of grief for who knows how long. and i stg when tony comes back, it’s an emotional and heart wrenching reunion because she thought he was dead and god it just breaks my heart. like jeanie needs her dad so much, he means everything to her. (also i think she’s gonna be building a lot as her coping method.)

andromeda is gonna be confusing rn bc we have no idea what happened with brunnhilde (valkyrie) or the rest of the asgard, so i’m guessing she’s gonna be ruling over the asgardians and nibirians. and hopefully she’ll make her way down to earth bc i would LOVE to have andromeda and carol meet like space baddies is a must.

bonnie is still a angsty and feisty bitch that we know and love. she’s so sad that pq, drax, mantis, and gamora are dead and gone. she’s annoyed to be stuck with nebula at first because she still has a grudge against her and saying how she shouldn’t have gone after thanos pre iw. but i’m expecting a great ass brot3 with her, nebula, and tony so it’s all good. but when she finds out about indris dusting, that’s gonna basically destroy her like that’s her family.

[magicaleggplant]

Hi, I've recently got into FS, so I'm not too familiar with the older, recently retired TJ skaters. I'm trying to learn more about them since they'll be appearing in ice shows, but I haven't been able to find much about Takahiko Kozuka. If it's not too much a bother, could you recommend some of his programmes/ talk about your opinions about him as a skater? Thank you!

i’m glad you asked! taka doesn’t get a lot of attention but he’s one of my favorite skaters ever, and i’m always happy to talk about him.

…in fact, i talked so much about him that this post needs to go under a cut. @ everyone who doesn’t know, get over here and learn about takahiko kozuka.

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you can find a lot of this on wikipedia or elsewhere online, but here’s a biography of his career:

taka comes from a skating family; both of his parents were figure skaters. his father, tsuguhiko kozuka, was a japanese national champion and olympian. his paternal grandfather, mitsuhiko kozuka, was influential in the early development of figure skating in japan in the post-WWII days. (there’s a local competition in aichi prefecture, where the kozuka family resides, named the “kozuka cup” after taka’s grandfather.) taka’s mother was an ice dancer. ever since he was young, taka was coached by his father and his father’s old friend/fellow competitor nobuo sato, one of the most well-known coaches in japan. nobuo sato and his wife, kumiko, also coached skaters like shizuka arakawa, mao asada, and their daughter, yuka sato, who is a coach herself now and has choreographed some programs for taka.

in the 2005-06 season, taka won the JGPF and junior world titles (he was actually the first japanese man to win the JGPF) and then turned senior in the 2006-07 season. he made his senior world debut in 2008. his career started taking off in the 2008-09 season, when he won his first grand prix event and a silver medal at the GPF. in the following seasons he was one of japan’s leading men along with daisuke takahashi and nobunari oda (brot3 for life), with whom he competed in the 2010 vancouver olympics. taka placed 8th in vancouver.

taka’s best season results-wise was in 2010-11, when he medaled at all his GP events and the final, won his first (and only) national title, and capped it off with a silver medal at worlds. patrick chan set 3 new world records at 2011 worlds, but taka actually won the free skate TES and kept that record (98.something, with 1 quad) for quite a while. he made mr. sato fistpump! do you know how rare that is!

unfortunately, the following seasons didn’t go so hot for him - multiple boot issues in 2011-12, as well as struggles with balancing his graduate studies with his training, hip injury in 2012-13. at the 2013 japanese nationals, he placed 3rd but wasn’t chosen for the sochi olympic team since he was inconsistent on the GP, which made sense, but it was still heartbreaking for him and his fans.

especially towards the end of his career, taka started experimenting with different styles of music and skating, which i loved to see, but he was continually plagued with inconsistency and health problems. his 2014 japanese nationals FS is still one of my favorite performances and programs from him, though, and it put him on the nats podium and the world team that season when no one expected him to make it. he made his last worlds appearance in 2015, and his last competition overall was 2015 japanese nationals. he announced his retirement in march 2016.

since retiring, taka has been a bit under the radar compared to dai and nobu, but he’s on TV sometimes as a skating analyst and works with toyota motor company to promote skating with young kids in japan and southeast asian countries where skating isn’t well known. he’s held a few teaching seminars here and there. he did his graduate research thesis on figure skating jumps, and has spent the last 6 years developing a new model of skate blades, which he just recently released, called “kozuka blades”. (more info here.) he still performs in shows as well, though not that many. he is married and he and his wife have one daughter, born in april 2017.

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what i think about his skating:

like i said, taka’s one of my favorite skaters, and i always thought he was kind of underrated while he was competing. he had an understated, introverted style, which might be overlooked compared to skaters who tend to project outward, but i never thought taka skated “small” or lacked musicality. quite the opposite. kurt browning used to call taka a “quiet rock star”, which is a good description. i think he’s one of a few skaters who’s actually good with jazz, not just in a superficial way. (like in his unsquare dance sp - he handles the unusual time signature really well.) not all his programs were good, but his best programs were really stunning. his style might not be for everyone, either, but i think he’s one of those skaters who people can appreciate just for the quality of his skating, and the more you watch skating the more you can see how good of a skater he was.

as for recommendations, i’ve made a list of my favorite taka programs here. you should watch all of them, but if you’re pressed for time, absolutely watch bold as love, free fallin’, exodus, the sound of silence, io ci saro, respeto y orgullo, and epilogue. he usually skated to classical, jazz, or light country-esque music, but he also experimented with dramatic music, upbeat music, tango and flamenco, which actually worked out better than i ever expected. (unfortunately, this was towards the end of his career when his jumps had gone AWOL. such is the fate of the uncles i love…)

taka’s biggest strength were his skating skills; when skating fans mentioned men with good SS, usually patrick chan and taka kozuka were on the list. he moves across the ice so easily you barely even notice he’s moving, and it’s even more noticeable live - i was lucky to have seen him skate live a few times. (i also met him once at a fanmeeting after a show, he’s a sweetheart.) he’s a good spinner as well and just a well-rounded skater in general who should’ve gotten more credit as an artist and performer. taka also has my favorite spreadeagles in the world - they’re his signature move. i love how well he transitions between inside and outside edges. that takes mad edge control! and his positions are perfect, he doesn’t bend at the waist or knees, his edges are crazy deep, and just ugghhh look at these:

basically, when you say takahiko kozuka, the first thing that comes to most people’s minds are his skating skills and his spreadeagles. (if they remember him at all. #poortaka)

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other trivia:

mr. sato always rubs and pats taka’s back before he competes, a well-known ritual for them. mr. sato started doing it because taka’s mother would do it for him when he was little.

taka is good friends with all of the japanese skaters in his generation, especially daisuke takahashi, nobunari oda, mao asada, akiko suzuki, kanako murakami, takahito mura, miki ando, and so on. they’re like a family, and it makes me cry.

taka also taught yuzuru how to tie his tie properly, because yuzuru is a mess. personality-wise, taka is a big ‘ol nerd with a cheesy sense of humor. one time, rusty asked him how he felt about japanese men sweeping the skate america podium, and taka said “sorry.”

taka has an instagram, where he posts a lot of food photos and sometimes pictures of his baby daughter, who looks exactly like him. his brand is writing excessive tags. “i’m not a horse” is a joke stemming from when the japanese media used to call him a “thoroughbred” due to his family’s skating lineage. one time at a skating camp as a kid, he got in trouble for spreading jam on a window screen to catch bugs. he likes baseball and golf. like patrick chan, he also had a love affair with crashing into walls.

taka founded the Ugly Shirt Emporium, but abandoned it in his later seasons when he actually started wearing decent costumes. he has a thing for hats.

despite initial assumptions about his demureness, he is both a sex machine

and a disco freak #saturdaynighttaka

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links:

@poortaka dot tumblr dot com, a very excellent blog, recommended reading

taka interviews on @fstranslations, of which there are unfortunately few because there weren’t many skating fans doing translations back when taka was competing, but also very much recommend you check these out

taka gifs on @eggplantgifs, which is definitely not a shameless plug (actually please don’t reblog the shitty old gifs, i’m just linking for the content)

taka’s instagram

taka’s website and blog

[shtbgs-blog]

hello it’s me tea being a bad admin and not writing the first event. Instead i’m doing this and i’d make a pretty graphic but i hate my big computer right now so a nice graphic might come later bye, this also got insanely long and if you guys actually read it k u d o s

INTRODUCING…. me.

HELLO DREAMS N QUEENS, I feel like I haven’t said that in a while but anyway I’m tea, i’m 23, my pronouns are she/her, and I already forgot what else I’m suppose to write here like i’m in the est timezone but i act like i’m in the pst for some reason????? also I do not personally have any triggers and I have no limits on what i rp like I’m always down for literally any plot even if it’s been done to death it hasn’t been done by my character so lets go.

INTRODUCING…. the muses.

ugh are you ready for the shit show..... im gonna shoot myself in the face i have so many

DON O’CALLAHAN, justin chatwin, ( 30 ) + ALONE by HALSEY feat. BIG SEAN & STEFFLON DON.

IMOGEN WARD, madelaine petsch, ( 22 ) + REPERCUSSIONS by BEA MILLER.

JAMES WILLIAMS, milo ventimiglia, ( 35 ) + iROBOT by JON BELLION.

MILO SHEPARD, nick jonas, ( 24 ) + ALL THE KIDS ARE DEPRESSED by JEREMY ZUCKER.

OPHELIA MONROE, billie lourd, ( 25 ) + THUNDER by IMAGINE DRAGONS.

SHANE FRANCIS, carlson young, ( 22 ) + BETTER DAYS by HEDLEY.

WESLEY LLOYD, aaron taylor johnson, ( 25 ) + I’M NOT FAMOUS by AJR.

NIRVANA BAILEY, meaghan rath, ( 32 ) + TROUBLE by HALSEY.

ETHAN MCDONALD, dylan o’brien, ( 24 ) + I FALL APART by POST MALONE ( cover ).

VANCE MICHAELS, cody christian, ( 20 ) + I MEAN IT by G-EAZY.

BRUCE DENIRO, boyd holbrook, ( 35 ) + SUCKER FOR PAIN by LIL WAYNE, WIZ KHALIFA & IMAGINE DRAGONS W/ TY DOLLA $IGN FT X AMBASSADORS.

COOPER JORDAN, charlie puth, ( 24 ) + ME MYSELF & I by G-EAZY FEAT. BEBE REXHA

MICKEY DONOVAN, tony oller, ( 24 ) + SOBER UP by AJR.

JESSICA MILANO, mila kunis, ( 35 ) + SO WHAT by P!NK.

TANSY MALAI, brenda song, ( 30 ) + DON'T THREATEN ME WITH A GOOD TIME by PANIC! AT THE DISCO.

INTRODUCING…. wanted plots.

Okay I am obsessed with platonic / supporting friends ships like? oh my fucking god? give me a good gang and I will legit die? especially if it’s like a brot3 or something like three solid amazing friends and like the more people connected the better im OBSESSED with name dropping. 

Also I’m a bitch for cheating / toxic relationships. Give me physical fights and sleeping with other people. Give Me Fucking Angst. Let my muse be the cheater or let my muse be the one cheated on listen I’m down for legit all of it but when I do the specific muse posts I’ll sort of narrow this down a lot more but these are my two favorite kinds of ships which can technically go below but fight me.

INTRODUCING…. the favorites.

I will say this until I’m blue in the face, I am disgustingly straight for ( 4 ) men in this world. Okay there are a lot more than just four but I do have a top four because I’m a basic bitch but I love ansel elgort, taron egerton, danny jones & hugh grant. those are my main boys but if I made a legit list it’d probably go on for years. honorable mention who is my solid #5 is definitely keith powers. I am OBSESSED with this mans.

Want to talk about how gay I am? WOULD LOVE TO. I am a complete ( slut ) for vanessa morgan, kehlani, zendaya, zoe kravitz, ashley tisdae, lucy hale, lynn gunn, hayley kiyoko, nicole byer, bae suzy, keke palmer and ulrikke falch bitch MURDER ME.

as for ships like i’m down for anything m/f m/m f/f like I do lean mostly towards m/f and i do often prefer playing the male which is another favorite of mine like this rpg is the most i’ve ever played females and it’s legit so fucking weird to me??? i get so nervous talking about ships and stuff when it comes to my females because it’s so far out of my domain / comfort zone so murder me violently.

I tend to lean more toward platonic / supportive / family ships tho because I feel like I’m not stepping on anyones toES LMFAO OKAY I SHOULD STOP RAMBLING NOW BECAUSE IM EXTRA AS HELL

but also my favorite sweatshirt is the one i’m wearing and it says ‘i’m like 104% tired’ and my favorite pants are black boho pants with white swirls and just big and comfy ok

INTRODUCING…. future plans.

I AM HERE TO BREAK THE FUCK OUT OF MY COMFORTZONE I HATE IT IN HERE LIKE I am so used to playing dom!male characters and like don’t get me wrong, i fucking love my boys, i love them so god damn much but I want to have some girls who get love too like I want to play sub!boys and soft!girls and hard!girls and GIRLS! IN! GENERAL! like i sound so fucking basic but when I tell you guys it’s been about 10 years since I actually dedicated time to fleshing out a female character I mean it’s been about 11.

Also I really want to play out some slowburn relationships, some active marriages, some really fucked up exes and really confusing best friends like those are my favorites but I always get so fucking busy or so spacey that I wind up going missing for long periods of time and like? I’m here to stay? Like I feel comfy as fuck in this rpg and I am here to actively get past one or two threads for my connections / ships I’m here for longlasting relationships / rping okay????

AS FOR THE FUTURE, I do have two muses who are sitting in the submit waiting to be accepted? Like which is wild because while they’ve been sat there I’ve accepted myself twice? I don’t know why I’m holding off I guess I just feel guilty bringing in two girls without any sort of connection or anything???? Like I can not wait to bring Lennon up in here because my lil blue haired queen is going to burn this motherfucker down :’)

INTRODUCING…. why i said fuck it.

I SAID FUCK IT because do we wanna be honest? I had been running a rpg that was just draining the life out of me I felt like I was being a bad admin and not doing enough and I just wanted a group where I didn’t have to do so much y’know like, I wanted to just rp in a place where I could do whatever in the living fuck I wanted?? Like I wanted 50 muses, I want to sometimes just make graphics, I want to sometimes just chitchat ooc in private messages or just lurk the dash or just write starters / reply to them like

some days i’m here as fuck for writing and sometimes i’m not and I felt like no matter what rpg I ran or joined I’d be like put on a specific schedule and people will leave me in the dust???? you know????? but I feel like here we’re all just sort of chillin and tryin to live our best lives and I feel like this is my own personal and selfish safe haven like

i’m selfish as fuck and lazy as fuck and here as fuck for all of you :’)

[lyssala]

Family

Pairing: Terra/Aqua (lots of brot3 again!)

Words: 3483

Rating: K+

Notes: I didn’t think I’d enjoy writing from Ven’s point of view as much as I have haha He’s such a cutie pie. I also like writing him starting to get older and grow into being a teenager (and taking too much after Terra lmao). I love brot3s, and these three are just so cute together. They really are a sweet little family and writing them all happy and together is so satisfying <3

AO3

“We’re gonna make two cakes, okay, Ven?” Aqua wasn’t exactly looking at him when she spoke; her eyes were skimming over the book in front of her on the kitchen counter.

“Okay,” he nodded from his spot sitting up on the counter, fingers tracing over one of the bowls Aqua had pulled out. “Wait, why two?”

She turned to one of the cabinets, pulling out things like sugar, flour, and a few other things Ven didn’t quite recognize. “Because Terra doesn’t like anything too sweet, so we’ll make him one of his own and the other will be for us.”

“But how come he gets one full cake for himself but we have to share ours between three people?” Ven wasn’t actually upset, but, c’mon, the more cake the better.

Aqua looked up from the recipe, an amused look on her face. “Because the three of us will finish the cake, whereas Terra is twice the size of us. He can eat one cake by himself.”

“So can I,” Ven huffed, crossing his arms.

That time Aqua laughed. She reached over to poke him in the side, making him laugh too. “Without getting sick all night.”

He couldn’t really argue with that. “Okay, fair point.”

Ven peered over as Aqua started organizing the ingredients in front of her. Most he assumed would be the same for both cakes save for flavoring but he honestly didn’t know. He had been sitting outside waiting for Terra to finish training for the day so they could do something, but when Aqua came up and asked Ven if he wanted to help her bake something he couldn’t say no; usually that meant he’d get to lick the bowls. Plus, he liked spending time with Aqua.

“What kinda cakes are we making then?”

“Well, Terra likes dark chocolate since it’s a little bitter so I usually make him a dark chocolate cake.”

Ven wrinkled his nose. “Who would want a bitter cake?”

“Ask him, I just bake what I know he’ll eat.” Aqua started measuring out some of the flour.

“What about us then?”

A grin crossed her lips. “We’re gonna make the sweetest vanilla cake you could possibly dream of.”

Ven pumped his hands in the air. “That’s more like it!”

She hummed her agreement as she went back to measuring.

“Does that mean it’s gonna have frosting?”  

Aqua turned to the fridge, pulling out one small tub of vanilla frosting and one of chocolate. “Your pick.”

Oh, that was hard. Ven liked both on vanilla cake but if they were going for sweet then he wanted sweet. “Vanilla.”

“Good choice,” she said with a smile, going back to what she was pouring the bowl. From where he was sitting it looked like more dry ingredients.

“Sprinkles too?”

She placed one hand on her hip as she looked at him. “Who do you think I am?”

“Yes,” Ven sighed, leaning back some on the counter. “Baking with you is the best.”

Aqua chuckled but she didn’t respond. She just started on mixing the wet ingredients in a separate bowl.

Part of it was Ven really did love sweets, especially the ones she made but it was also because it was one the first things he remembered doing with Aqua when he came here. He liked her and Terra very quickly but he still felt unsure in himself to go out of his way to be around people a lot. When Aqua asked him to help the first time, even though he couldn’t help much, it made him feel useful, more at home. Now he just liked to spend time with her (and lick the bowl).

She was a good teacher; she usually explained what she was doing so Ven could understand (though he had a hard time remembering which ingredient was what and how much went where). She was always patient with him and always kind. He also sometimes liked it when he didn’t have to share her with Terra. Not that Ven didn’t like being with all three of them, he loved it but it was nice to have it just be them too. Plus, Master might not let them all bake together again after Terra kinda started a food fight in an effort to get back at Aqua for teasing him.

“Here you go, Ven,” Aqua said, handing him the bowl with a wooden mixing spoon. “I’ll start on Terra’s cake.”

“Okay,” Ven said, holding the bowl firmly in his lap as he carefully started to mix the liquid ingredients in with the dry ones.  

True to her word she started pouring out ingredients again, barely even looking at the book. She was really quick when it came to baking, and could probably bake all night if she was allowed to. As far as he knew, she was the only one who really knew how to bake in the castle.

“Hey, Aqua?”

“Yes?” she said, pouring some chocolate chips into the mix.

Ven resisted reaching his hand out to grab some in case he lost his hold on the bowl. “Who taught you to bake? Did you used to do it with your mom?”

Aqua was quiet for a moment and Ven quickly realized his mistake. He knew he had no memory past when he came here, but Aqua and Terra probably did but they chose to never talk about it. Ven probably just asked a rather invasive question.

He felt heat rise to his cheeks. “Ah, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have…” But to his surprise she turned to face him with a smile.

“It’s okay,” she said. “I didn’t, well, not like how I know now. I taught that myself. I was only six when came to live here so I wasn’t even allowed to touch a stove.” Aqua reached for an ingredient but paused. “I do remember baking with my mother, but it’s faint. I don’t remember very much from when I was a small child.”

“Like me?” Ven asked, trying to give an apologetic look.

Aqua sighed pleasantly as she looked at him. “Like you.” She reached up to pinch his cheek though he laughed and tried to swat her hand away.

He knew he probably should just let it be, but he’d admit self-control wasn’t his strongest point. “Does Terra remember?”

She paused again, this time probably wondering the right way to answer a question for someone who wasn’t there. “Yes, I believe he does.” The words “but he doesn’t talk about it” didn’t need to be said. “It’s okay though,” Aqua said, reaching for another bowl to drop eggs in. “We have our family now.”

It was a warm feeling. Ven only lived here for a little while but they already included him in everything, in their family. He grinned as he tried to mix the batter better.

It did make him think something though. Aqua wouldn’t be a teenager forever, she’d grow up too. She’d have another family one day. “Do you think you’ll bake with your kids?”

He must’ve caught her completely off guard because her hand slipped as she went to crack the egg and missed the bowl.

“Oh, Ven,” she said as she went to grab a towel to clean up the fallen egg, carefully avoiding looking at him. “I don’t know if I’d have kids or not. That’s a long way away.” Aqua tossed the towel into the sink and went to grab another.

Ven knew he wasn’t as good at reading Aqua as Terra was but even then Ven saw the way she reached up to tuck her hair behind her ears, the hesitant hitch in her breath while she cracked the egg in the bowl, but most importantly the look in her eyes she tried to hide. He was pretty sure she had her own dreams she didn’t tell anyone about, not even Terra.

“I think it’d be a shame,” Ven said.

“What would?”

“If you didn’t ever have kids, you’d be a great mom.”

Aqua looked at him this time, though instead of surprise she gave him a sweet sort of smile. He wondered for a moment if she was gonna admit to it, but instead she reached over to wipe some of the chocolate batter she got on her fingers on his cheek. “You’re just trying to get me to leave you more in the bowls.”

It was personal, and probably something he wasn’t quite privy too, but he at least hoped she knew he meant it. “Busted.”

“Yeah,” she chuckled, but it was a little softer this time. She held up the bowl that had the chocolate cake mix in it. “Trade?”

Ven tried Aqua’s room first but it was empty so he took the few steps across the hall to carefully open Terra’s door. It was still early enough that he wouldn’t be awake, but it was very difficult to get up before Aqua, even though Ven purposefully tried this time.

It was a little dark in the room as the sun was only just rising and even then it was easy to pick out the two figures still in bed. He was also glad they weren’t awake otherwise one of them would probably kill him for the smug smile he found on his lips. To be fair as far as he was aware it was just cause they found they did sleep better when the other was nearby and that was all.

Ven didn’t bother shutting the door behind him as he walked in.

It was working in the least. They were getting more sleep, eating more and in turn had more energy and were in better spirits most all the time.

He crouched down at the side of the bed where Aqua was still sound asleep. Terra wasn’t too far away, his arm over her waist, and forehead pressed into her shoulder blade as he slept. Ven nearly rolled his eyes. He wasn’t entirely sure how two people could still be in such denial but he supposed it wasn’t any of his business. Mostly.

“Hey, Aqua.” He reached out to shake her shoulder knowing full well it wouldn’t wake Terra; no one slept like the dead like he did. “Aqua.”

Her eyes fluttered open but it wasn’t until she realized it was Ven waking her up that she practically shot up. “Ven?” she murmured, still half asleep. “What is it? W-” She had to pause for a yawn. “What’s the matter?”

That was still habit for both her and Terra; to assume first that something was wrong, especially when it came to him. Did they even realize how much of parents they could be? Probably not.

“Nothing’s wrong,” Ven said, making sure to give her a smile to put her at ease. “I just wanted you to come make breakfast with me.”

Terra had rolled over when she moved, still sleeping like Ven suspected. Terra would probably only wake up when he smelt food cooking.

“Of course,” she said, trying to smile but only a yawn came out.

Ven jumped up to his feet and started back for the door, hearing the bed shift as Aqua followed him. She closed Terra’s door behind them and started down the hall to the kitchen. She didn’t say too much but that was probably because she was still trying to wake up; he’d be sure to make some coffee for her when they got down there.

“What were you thinking for breakfast?” Aqua asked, her voice sounding a little more like normal.

“Something big,” he said with a grin.

“Big? What’s the occasion?”

Ven shrugged as he pushed open the kitchen door. “None, just wanna do something.”

“Well, okay, let’s see what we have,” she said with a smile, walking in while Ven held the door for her. Aqua went straight to the cabinets, pulling out whatever it is she wanted to make. Ven on the other hand went to make her some coffee in thanks.

She was probably the most morning person of them all, followed by himself, and then Terra last but they all made it work. Ven didn’t even know what made him get up this morning and want to do something like this. He was just, well, happy. Every day was a better day than the one before. They had a lot to be thankful for and he just wanted to celebrate that, even if it was just breakfast.

He poured Aqua a cup of coffee as she finished pulling food out of the fridge. She took the hot mug from him with a sigh and a smile before she leaned back against the sink, looking over everything on the counter.

“We can do pancakes or waffles, we have plenty of mix for that. We also have fruit and whipped cream for toppings.”

“Syrup?” Ven asked, turning his back and pressing his hands up against the top of the counter so he could sit up on it. While he was reassured none of them would suddenly start aging at an accelerated rate, sometimes he noticed it. Like how he used to really have to jump to get up here and now it was barely anything, like how much closer his feet were to the ground when he was sitting.

“Of course, syrup,” she nodded sipping at her drink. If Aqua noticed the change she never said anything though she had to of. He was coming up higher on even her than he used to. He doubted he’d ever be as tall as Terra was, but Ven wondered how Aqua would feel if she ended up being the shortest of all three of them.

“Then we also have the usual eggs, bacon, vegetables and cheese for omelets.”

“Omelets, bacon, and waffles sound perfect,” Ven said, stomach already growling. “I’ll get the eggs and bacon going.”

Aqua was just putting her mug down but turned to place her hand on her hip, one finger pointing at him. “Excuse me, I can make eggs just fine.”

“Aqua, please.” Ven put the palms of his hands together. “Please believe me when I say I love you, but I’ve never seen someone burn bacon before like you.”

“I’m just gonna keep sleeping the next time you wake me up to cook.” She was pulling out a mixing bowl and the waffle cooker from one of the cabinets.

Don’t do it, Ventus, he tried to warn himself. Keep your mouth shut or she’ll throw that waffle maker at you.

He couldn’t resist. “Yeah, you sure looked comfortable in the least.”

Aqua turned around to place the stuff in her hands on the counter. She didn’t actually look mad, though she was making an effort to hide her smile. “How many times have I told you to stop hanging out with Terra.”

“He’s the only other one who lives here,” Ven said as he jumped off the counter.

“My point exactly.” She laughed, pushing at his shoulder, to nudge him over towards stove. “Take these eggs and put that smart mouth of yours to work over there.”

“Yeah, yeah, okay,” he snorted. Ven reached up to grab a pan off the hanger over the stove and set to make the best damn omelets he could. Admittedly Terra was probably the best cook out of them all but Ven tried to pay attention so that he could help when needed.

“Bacon,” he called out and Aqua turned to toss him the package. Ven pulled down another pan, all of which were much easier to reach these days, and started to heat that up as well. He turned around to grab a cutting board and knife Aqua left out for him near where she was mixing the waffle batter. He set it down next to the stove before starting on cracking all the eggs to mix them together in a smaller bowl.

Ven really did love mornings like these. He knew they were almost done with all the touch ups and soon it wouldn’t just be the three of them anymore. Maybe that’s why he wanted to have everyone eat together this morning.

“Onion,” he said, holding his hands open when Aqua grabbed it off the counter. “Green pepper!” That time he held his hand behind his back but completely missed causing the pepper to fall limply to the ground.

Aqua couldn’t stop laughing, making him grab it and walk over to take the cheese off the counter himself.

“I tried okay,” Ven said, holding up the still technically intact pepper.

“Mhhhm, course you did, sweetheart.” She was pouring some the batter on the sizzling waffle maker but there was still a big smile on her face.

Ven shook his head and went to cut up the vegetables, but not before he got the bacon sizzling on the pan. “And start the countdown till when Terra wakes up.”

“I give it five minutes.”

“Oh man, you’re generous. Between the waffles, eggs and bacon? More like two minutes he’ll be rolling out of bed.”

Aqua chuckled; it looked like she was getting more of the batter ready. Clearly she knew how much food Ven and Terra could consume in one sitting.

Ven got the vegetables and cheese cut up in no time thanks to actually watching how Terra cut their food before he cooked it, and had the first omelet on the pan by the time the brunette in question came walking into the kitchen.

“Morning,” he yawned, stretching his arms over his head.

“What was that, Aqua?” Ven squinted at the clock on the stove. “Three minutes?”

“Fine, you win,” she said, flipping the waffle maker so it cooked on the other side too.

Terra arched an eyebrow. “Did you guys really bet on how long it would take me to get up?”

“Yep and I won.” Ven scooped the first round of bacon off the pan and placed it on a towel he set out to absorb the grease.

Terra rolled his eyes as he made his way past Aqua to the fridge. She hummed as she took out the waffles, prepping the machine to make more. Ven half expected to look over to see Terra kiss her on the cheek or something. All they were missing were some bathrobes, a dog, a newspaper on the table and they’d really look like typical family.

He instead reached into the fridge to grab the carton of milk and pop it open, taking a drink straight from it.

“Terra, seriously,” Aqua said, turning to face him. “There’s cups right there.”

Ven could see the conventions of an early morning with the family so easily it made him laugh. “Yeah, don’t be a bad example, Dad.”

Terra choked on the milk, practically spitting it out in the fridge. “Gods, Ventus,” he coughed. “I am nowhere near old enough to be your dad.”

Aqua seemed to think it was funny because she had her hand over her mouth trying not to laugh. Terra put the milk away, obviously having enough for the time being.

“I don’t wanna hear it from you,” he said, reaching over to grab at her sides, making her squeak in surprise, batting his hands away. Terra didn’t seem to mind, already making the short way over to where Ven was.

Before he even had the chance to get away, Terra had Ven in a headlock, rubbing the top of his head. “Hey!” Ven exclaimed, though he couldn’t quite stop laughing either. “Let go, I’m cooking!”

Terra looked over at the pans; the omelet cooking and the next batch of bacon making the kitchen smell amazing. “Yeah, it looks okay.”

“Just okay?” Ven reached over to hit Terra in the stomach, but he twisted catching Ven’s arm instead.

“Boys, if you could not wrestle near the boiling oil so I don’t have to perform magic to heal burns on your bodies that would be great,” Aqua said, putting another stack of waffles on a plate.

Terra rubbed down on Ven’s head again before letting him go. “Watch the omelets, buddy, they’re looking good. I’ll watch the bacon.”

“No, you’ll eat the bacon,” Ven snorted.

As if to prove his point, Terra reached around to grab a piece off the towel, taking a bite out of it.

Ven laughed but he went to flip the omelet while Aqua was making another set of waffles. Terra tried to eat more of the bacon (which Ven expertly protected) but Terra also kept cooking new pieces too.

Eventually it wouldn’t be just them making breakfast in the kitchen, but for now it still was. Ven very well knew Terra and Aqua weren’t his parents, but at the same time aside from Master Eraqus, they were the only parents he ever had. They were unconventional sure, but they were his family. He could never ask for a better one.