#bsd ch 04

[kyouka-supremacy]

Okay but Atsushi must be feeling so vindicated right now

[akutagawa-daily]

Akutagawa daily 1556/★

[enbyboiwonder]

WIP Challenge

Tagged by @kimbapisnotsushi!

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous.

Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs. (You can make your own post or reblog this one!)

Uh, so a couple addenda. I have multiple files that include multiple fics in them, and most of those are prompt lists; I won’t be including the prompt lists, but I will be including the multi-fic files that are series. And, I normally don’t tag as many people as specified anyway, but 1) I won’t even be counting my WIPs because it’s a lot, and 2) I don’t even follow nearly as many people as I have WIPs because it is a lot. I’ve been writing fic for almost 8 years now, so my ADHD self has naturally accumulated a ton of unfinished fics.

As usual, I’m tagging anyone who wants to do this!

Now, under a read more, because I really was not lying about there being a lot. They’re separated by fandom in alphabetical order (there are 41 total), and to make it a bit more navigable (at least in the browser; sorry, app-users), they’ll be numbered in the "##.” format.

01. 2.43 Seiin Koukou Danshi Volley-bu

2.43 royalty au

aochi childhood friends au

aochi ferris wheel

aock

aock fwb

chika - alien

enby kanno

hshr

hshr first kiss

mmyn gym sex

mmoc

mmoc beautiful

mmoc dumb crushes

mmoc ice cream date

mmoc omi

future odaoki

odaoki

odaoki drink

odaoki flowers

odaoki modeling

odaoki not-so-casual

odaoki proposal

odaoki study omake

odaoki yeonga

odaoki 月が綺麗ですね。

odaoki 結婚

u-19 ynck

ynck cute

ynck fake dating to real dating

ynck fruity

ynck kuro no hane

ynck Lemon Squash (ch. 2)

ynck marrying guys

ynck miso

ynck nightmares

ynck no separation

ynck noise

ynck Open Your Eyes

ynck practice dating

ynck pumpkin

ynck red string of fate

ynck rinne

ynck skirt

ynck slow morning

ynck vday

ynck what’s your name au

ynck wrist

02. Arrowverse

atomvibe oral fixation

desperado

harrisco star wars au

soft sleepy harrisco (x2)

ralphloque

steelatom temporary amnesia fic

steelatom vday flowers

03. Battery

takugou

04. Bungou Stray Dogs

BSD Buddycop AU

hoshizora stray dogs

Bungou Stray Starships

fukunatsu

kuniakechi

kuniakechi casefic

kuniango

kuniango first date

kuniango magical realism au

kuniango morning after

Some Kind of Home

恋心

ayakashi au

Dimensionality

kunikidazai

pokego au

soulmates

tickle fight

Waves on the Distant Horizon

虹色の日々

Cloudburst

kunioda family series

kunioda modern au

Conditions of Grace

Soupcock Crack Fic

Yen Press Dazai Crack

05. Chou Shounen Tanteidan NEO

Meitantei to Kaijin

[endoake hs au 1]

[endoake hs au 2]

[endoake hs au 3]

[endoake soulmates au]

06. Chuck

(1) In Need of a Small Holiday Miracle

(2) A Miracle in Wolf’s Clothing

(3) By Some Miracle

c/s intersect bryce au

chuck/shaw

Chuck vs The Turncoat Lullaby

07. Cool Doji Danshi

13 first kiss

13 getting together

13 hs sports au

08. Criminal Minds

reid as blake’s son

09x05

autumn colors

Cherry Stems and Vanilla Lattes

dinner dates

ep where they say the unsub is bisexual because he wears his victims’ dresses

Everything for a Happy Ever After

girls take reid shopping

quarter past midnight

stargazing

wedding blues

you’re not wrong

cop + consultant au

ralvez, “we still have bad guys to catch”

slowburn ralvez series

09. CSI

“cool motive, still murder”

Lab Rats #3

sandrews the net au

08.22

canon-compliant j/r

j/r monk au

j/r, fake wedding date

late-s8 j/r novel

married jesse/ryan

su2 au

the clouds above opened up

DQ: Miami 2.0

11.07

12.18

david’s sister stays over

g/h “you know you love me”

g/h arachnophobia

movie night

Raindrop in the Sand

14.09

cat transformation

cat-sitting

dino museum date

frame by frame

grey-ace henry/genderqueer hodges

h/h drop dead diva au (ish)?

h/h movie night

h/h moving in

h/h secret admirer

idiots to lovers

Lab Rats #5

jess/hodges, cooking together

Crack or Jack

cutting tags

drag queen speed au

gay speedle

jeese/speed spring break 1992

Part of Your World (jesse/speed merfolk/su2 au)

sneedle college au

01.15

Crying Ourselves Awake

decaf coffee

Hello, I’m in Delaware (triptych)

high school reunion

post-01.18 h/c

speedko prince/gardener

speedko xmas roadtrip

summer in mara au

the rain saga

amateur photographer

catching crickets

ex-boyfriend

s/w crashing at eric’s

s/w crowded coffee shop

s/w grieving

s/w hogwarts au

s/w photography assignment

s/w science museum

s2 hiatus s/w novel

s3? history repeats itself

speedwolfe ride home

5.08

7.04

greg puts up mistletoe

greg’s bday

poa

02.21

stodges, a promise

post-04.01

d/w 1yr anniversary of speed’s death

d/w 04.08 tag

d/w fantasy au

d/w, listening to city and colour

d/w, wolfe’s brother

i promise i won’t bite (until you get me home)

one fine day, you’ll sing (your inevitable love song)

wolfeko heart attack tag

10. DAYS

indomizu first kiss

morning sbkm

sbkm bus ride

sbkm double strawberry

11. Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency

brotzly - spock

brotzly first kiss

12. Downton Abbey

thommy, no o’brien in s3

13. Dragon Quest

kinai/romia

6terry bladesmith

6terry doldrum

6terry dumbass will/trans terry

6terry Light Through the Leaves of Love

6terry the prince and the frog

cold builderoth

luminerik girls’ mini medal academy

luminerik hot night

luminerik post-sniflheim

Prince of Dundrasil [luminerik]

You and Me [luminerik]

terluc

terluc 1 sentence

terluc cat terry

14. Empire Records

lucas/mark, didn’t know they were dating

lucas/mark, kiss to shut up

15. Fire Emblem

Iridescence

feh supports fredstahl

fredstahl morning fluff

fredstahl piano

Secret Agent AU

Untitled document

winter fredstahl

16. Firefly

simal apollo and icarus

17. Flawless

flawless fic

18. Haikyuu!!

hq library aus

The Prettyboy’s Guide to Falling in Love With Your Destined Rival

The Volleybaka’s Guide to Falling in Love With Your Airheaded Teammate

19. Hawaii 5-0

don’t wait

I’ll Surrender Honestly

not still in love w rachel

20. Isshuukan Friends.

Of Young Love and Karaoke-Filled Evenings

shouyuu canon rewrite

shouyuu fireworks

21. Kuroko no Basuke

100 knb drabbles

aosaku au

hyuudzuki drabble series

idutaka first kiss

halloween kagakuro

a pair of ordinary hearts

midotaka

midotaka enemies to friends to lovers

22. Level E

(YukiBaka - needs title)

23. MacGyver

gal gadot vid

01.04

02.06

2.14 coda

2.20 coda

3.12 coda

a high-five seemed insufficient

And a Happy Yeehaw

brother

cairo day

die hard (ish) au

Fleece Navidad

future fic

has kissing you been an option?!?!

jack returns

king + lionheart au

long-haired mac future fic

macdalton, slow dancing

Midnight (a ghost at the door)

migraine massage

paperclips

perfect stranger

road trip

temporary amnesia

The Edge of All We’ve Ever Known

the macdalton fake-dating-for-xmas fic

Twisted Steel + Sex Appeal

Untitled document

When the Stars go Blue

xmas 2019

24. Monk

08.16 m/s

m/s soulmate au

post-ep: mr monk gets drunk

25. Mystic Messenger

[Han Jumin/Seven]

26. Naka no Hito Genome

iridou

27. NUMB3RS

02.05

bbq at the eppeses

could start by not jumping from 2nd-floor balconies

guilt and gentleness

28. Ookiku Furikabutte

abemiha

hamaizu au

29. Saiki Kusuo no Ψ-nan

kubokai

30. Scrubs

jdox

31. SK8

🍵🌸

32. Special Unit 2

su2 fic

33. Star Trek

01.01 tuckerreed

[Hogwarts AU - Yule Ball]

[Kim/Bashir]

[Kim/Paris]

[kimshir]

jon’lek

post-series tuckerreed

34. Stargate

arachnophobic

City on the Edge of Forever

Close Where You Are

j/d, sugar high

retiring twice is one time too many

things you said under the stars and in the grass

Wayside

Far Beyond the Stars

For the World is Hollow and I Have Touched the Sky

magician’s quest/beauty and the beast au

r/d

r/d arrival au

r/d literal cat burglar

r/d professors au

r/d, lost city of atlantis

r/d, trapped in a corridor

Relics

The Genius’ Guide to Falling in Love With Your Rival in the Soft “Sciences”

Time’s Orphan

[Daniel/Miko, ayakashi au]

[Jonas/Daniel college au]

[Jonas/Daniel five things]

[Sam/Vala, 200]

[J/D bodyswap au]

[J/D fake relationship]

[J/D five things (?)]

[J/D Love, Simon AU]

[J/D never-a-Stargate au]

[J/D post-Descension]

[J/D, 06x19 The Changeling]

[R/D soulmate au]

[R/D wrong number au]

[R/D, no-consent-issues alien ritual sex]

A Matter of Heart

35. Tennis no Oujisama

シャッターチャンスは一度だけ

君と一緒に

sryk - nobody knows what lies beyond

sryk depression

sryk detective au

sryk iphis and ianthe

sryk Nothing to Fear Even as Our World Comes to an End

sryk Song For You

This Crazy Yet Beautiful Love

(ShiraYuki Immortals AU)

nobody knows what lies beyond

[ShiraYuki]

Another ShiraYuki College AU

Ghost/Reincarnation AU

I’ll See You on the Other Side (Over There’s a Different World)

omnia vincit amor

Royalty AU

ShiraYuki College AU

テニプリの白雪王子様

氷帝の眠れるの森の美少年

36. The Glades

the glades - jim/daniel

37. The Rookie

the rookie - bradford moves on

38. Uramichi Oniisan

ikeura, dog

39. Wedding Wars

wedding wars: the sequel

40. Yotsuba&!

jumboh - camping

soft jumboh

41. Yowamushi Pedal

imaono, first kiss

toudou/maki

[athina39]

chuuya dates bsd cast [ch4]

♣ home is where the heart is ♠ this is that fic where chuuya doesn’t realize he’s already lowkey married to dazai, as he dates around to try to find tru luv™

♥ read @ AO3

♦ ch 04: akutagawa hijacks his sister’s date w/chuuya + dazai confesses his feelings. somehow.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Since Higuchi confessed her love to Akutagawa, what do you think their relationship will be like in the future? Armand being distasteful or confused for being loved?

I'm sorry if this results disappointing, but I don't think it's going to be any different from how it was pre doa arc, because I doubt the confession is going to stick? I don't think Akutagawa will maintain memories of when he was a vampire - after all, he wasn't in possess of his faculties -, so my guess would be that he isn't going to remember that Higuchi confessed to him. I feel so bad for Higuchi, pouring her heart out at him like that, being bitten and everything, and he doesn't even remember 😭😭

But if we want to talk about what I believe their relationship to be like right now...

(Fist off, they've barely interacted ever since chapter 14, so most of this is going to be on the headcanon realm with only very loose references to canon.)

Right now, I have a soft spot for their relationship, honestly. Maybe because fixing his relationship with Higuchi is very explicitly, in the text, the first step Akutagawa takes towards his redemption arc. Akutagawa is a better man right now, right? Slowly, and the bar was underground, but he's trying to do better, and I think that would reflect a lot in how his relationship with Higuchi has changed (basically, we saw him apologize to her, and I'm running with it).

I've got a soft spot for their relationship because they come from a place of a very toxic dynamic, and yet they both grew out of it, which is sweet to see. Coming from a place of Akutagawa being plain abusive towards Higuchi and Higuchi (even though it doesn't compare) being overbearing and overwhelming, I think they used to hurt each other a lot, moreso with Higuchi being in love with him and him not sharing her affections. But now that Akutagawa has learned to calm down a bit, to take a deep breath, to apologize, now that he's learned that really there's no reason to lash out at minor annoyances; and now that Higuchi has seen that Akutagawa makes mistakes that he has to apologize for, too, now that she sees him more like a flawed human being rather than someone to idolize; I think they can be okay work partners, who don't get on each other's nerves, nor make the other feel miserable and worthless.

And of course this is based off nothing, but their latest interactions have been at least remarkably non-hostile if compared to how we saw them pre chapter 14: just on top of my mind, we see them side by side in chapter 47;

in chapter 49, Akutagawa arguably intervenes to save Higuchi from Kyouka;

and later in the same chapter, which I find the most meaningful: when Higuchi hurries Akutagawa to go and take cover, which I can imagine in the past would have been met with rage over being considered weak / someone to be taken care of and addressed with a “shut up Higuchi”, is otherwise met with a significantly non-hostile “very well”; and doesn't that show how Akutagawa has warmed up to her at least a bit?

And finally (just for the sake of exhaustivity), in the volume 15 omake, we can see them work fine together (?).

I don't know, for how I see it, they are on good terms now, and on their way of becoming okay colleagues who respect each other.

I am fully persuaded Akutagawa has genuinely not the slightest clue that Higuchi loves him- a very unfortunate combination of him being oblivious, straightforward, and too gay to actually consider a woman holding romantic feelings for him. I think Higuchi needs, for her development, and for her own good, to get over her crush. I think that it's fine for her to admire and love Akutagawa, but I don't really see him liking her romantically. I think that even if the last time it didn't go well, she needs to confess her feelings to Akutagawa again, face rejection, cry for a week, eat a lot of ice-cream, watch Legally Blonde, dye her hair, and move on. Thank goodness the world doesn't end at Akutagawa lmao. I think that's another step they need in order to take their relationship to the “co-workers in good terms” level.

I like Higuchi and Akutagawa's relationship. I think it parallels the Akutagawa / Dazai relationship in a very artificial way: because Akutagawa is very different from Dazai, and Higuchi is very different from Akutagawa, but since that's what Akutagawa has always known regarding mentor / mantee relationships, that's what he's trying to emulate in his relationship with Higuchi. Yet, I think Akutagawa has always cared about Higuchi. I can't really explain why, but if you look back at chapter 4, he's always been protective of her. In my headcanon, it was Akutagawa who took her in, and it was because he must have seen something in her since the beginning, something worth nurturing. I think it was something that reminded him a little of himself, too. Maybe he met her as she was desperate to find a way to provide for her sister, maybe she did something in front of him particularly reckless and uncaring of her self worth that caught his attention, and he decided to take her in the mafia under him.

At the same time, I believe seeing himself in Higuchi was, too, the reason why pre chapter 14 Akutagawa was always so angry and unnecessarily annoyed at her: that is, for the way she was endlessly devoted to her mentor to the point of humiliation and making herself pathetic, just like he was. Of course that's not something Akutagawa liked seeing, because that must have felt like such a big callout. See, that's exactly how you look to others, to him. And also: at this point of the story Akutagawa is at the very bottom of self-loathing that he will reach in his whole life; someone telling him that he is amazing and admirable, when he knows so certainly that he is not, must only sound like mockery and annoying buzzing to his ears.

But them being not Akutagawa and Dazai is precisely why there's space for them to fix their relationship (which is otherwise something I don't believe Akutagawa and Dazai can do). I don't think Akutagawa ever could, or wants, to be as gratuitously cruel to Higuchi as Dazai was - and still is - to him. I don't think he cares a lot about Higuchi respecting him or being a subordinate he can control, because to me Akutagawa speaks like someone for whom hierarchies don't really mean much. Higuchi only needs to see him a little more realistically, a little more humanly; and they will be fine.

It's made me a little uncomfortable to write this down in the way I feel the need to put the dislaimer that this can only work so long as bsd is a work of fiction, and a shonen-esque manga at that. So sometimes people in it beat each other up to death and then work it out and can still be amicable after. It's shonen logic. But it definitely doesn't apply to real life; and whereas I don't usually feel the need to put any disclaimer when talking about ss/kk, because youn know, there's not that many cases I know of of men tearing each other's limbs and sending each other into comas and then entering romantic relationships, I am deeply familiar with women stuck in abusive relationships, so really: shonen logic doesn't apply in real life. Remember that regardless of your gender, you should never trust again someone who's ever been violent with you; it's not your job to give them a second chance, and it mustn't be, because your safety comes first.

[kyouka-supremacy]

This is a very cute Dazai panel but I think we're overlooking the fact that Kunikida canonly vacuums the Agency's floor

[kyouka-supremacy]

Me when siblings share the same habits and mannerisms

[kyouka-supremacy]

Hey, don't cry. The place in Akutagawa's heart previously filled by Dazai has now been replaced by Atsushi

[kyouka-supremacy]

Something that gets me as much if not even more emotional than Atsushi sacrificing himself is... The fact that Akutagawa cares. He cares so much about Atsushi. And it's silly of mine to even be surprised, we already knew that he cared: he died for him! But all the same, Akutagawa is someone who feels so inherently evil, so deeply cursed, so fundamentally unfit for love, the fact that he's capable of loving someone in a way that is so deep, so spontaneous, so raw– it's so profoundly moving.

[akutagawa-daily]

Akutagawa daily 1738/★

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