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I think sometimes you just have to make peace with the fact that your actual hobby is collecting books. And that that's okay.
#i used to devour eight books a week up until I was about 22#i couldn't fathom leaving anything in the house unread#then it's like my brain maxed out#coincided with my cptsd manifesting in crippling depression‚ triggering my bipolar#and hitting that mid-20s adhd wall where all your coping mechanisms fall apart#it's just been getting worse ever since#i can no longer read anything but fanfic#i was able to make a great headway through alexis hall's work but then I fell into a hyperfixation again so#bye bye everything else#i couldn't read comics even when I was back to hyperfixating on comics#i can't absorb things and when I do I can't hold them in my head#i used to be able to pull out entire passages of my favourite books from memory#now I can barely remember what happened in them#sometimes i wonder whether it even mattered that i used to be such a voracious reader#sure it gave me writing skills but i was never able to do much with them because of the complete mental and physical breakdown#and people young enough to be my kids write better than I ever did#i still have the thirst and hunger for knowledge and stories#but no capacity for it at all#books#reading#just adhd things#actually adhd#burnout#book collection#knee of huss
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A little 15 min doodle but first post of the year has to be Bingqiu!
#hoot art#ok its time to get mushy in the tags because I doubt anyone would read them too closely#I’ve had severe art block for YEARS before I got into danmei in 2024#and it wasn’t that my skill was gone it’s just that I thought nothing I did was good enough#I started reading danmei around the summer of last year and I got SO INSPIRED#I dived into the fandom side of things (I haven’t been in a live fandom in years) and was so excited about all the art people were making#and writing! and music! and animatics!#everything was so bright and colorful and beautiful#and everyone had such cool designs for these book characters that I’d grown to love#so I took a chance and doodled a little Luo Binghe and posted him on here#and I was so taken aback by how welcoming and sweet the fandom was#it made me wanna keep taking chances and posting my art— because I think that’s one of the hardest things I’ve come to accept#that even if it’s not good enough for me#someone else may enjoy it#and ain’t it crazy that ive come to enjoy drawing again too#sure the interaction has been fun but it’s been even more fun experimenting with my style and experimenting with colors and rendering#and grayscale and angles#and composition and expressions#ahh!! art is so fun!! I forgot how fun it was!!#I had forgotten how much I loved to draw!!#and the fandom— so many ideas are exchanged and I’ve met some of the loveliest people thru the sv fandom!#tgcf too but they’re a little less chill lmao#anyways#I’ve set up a little spot in the fandom and I plan to keep at it here it’s very nice and cozy and funny and warm#huge thanks to everyone for being so kind and welcoming#and an even bigger thanks to anyone who’s interacted with my art#I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that someone took the time out of their day to like/repost these silly little doodles I post#incredible. ok bye for now :)#svsss#bingqiu
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jack-o-scourge for october's shop relaunch
#wc#available as a sticker preorder AND on sale 20% OFF until october 15th#actually. EVERYTHING is off 20% but the preorders won't be for the full month. so if you wanna snag this one now's the time!#scourge wc#warrior cats#shumm's art#thunderclan#bloodclan#jack o lantern#artists on tumblr#tiny wc#sticker shop#art#digital art#medibang paint pro#medibang#black cat#for the spooky month!!#erin hunter#idk what else to tag this as LOL#this blew up on twit at like 4.3k so uh....this is my most popular wc fanart to date i think#OH also the po3 keychains are $6 each until the sale ends!#ok BYE#autumn#fall#halloween
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"Follow me!"
#hhhhi#I like tjem#also I am never attempting to draw guns. again#if you point any errors I WILL steal your doorhinges btw I KNOW#note to self: make them look older 🥰#anywas all that stuff aside#they had a date on the battlefield :)#and then went corpse hunting together!!!#they make out furiously off camera#blood and all#must draw them more to get the hang of their features……#later though.. coleg first#bush art#tf2#team fortress 2#heavy tf2#medic tf2#heavymedic#red oktoberfest#tw blood#cw blood#tw corpse#uhhhh if I should add more tws let me knowww#no backgrounds cause hell fuckin no dude I was already struggling eith everything else-#ok. enough stalling time to go back into my moss hole byeeee#AUGH CLICK FOR BETTER QUALITY IT'S KIND OF ASS NOW THAT I SEE IT ON MY PHONE OK BYE
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disciple
#infuse smp#iamstormz#my art#FILE NAME 'can we kill iamstormz' I MUST KILL HIM NOW#this looks so buns i hope people focus on the cool parts and ignore how ass everything else looks also the bottles scuffed af#i cant be assed to clean this up I dont care i dont fucking care anymore im going to GOOD BYE i have proeject to do
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Inspired by Keep your cards close (and keep me closer) by @nobodys-poet
#aib fanart#chishiya shuntaro#niragi suguru#nirashiya#nishiya#chishiya x niragi#niragi x chishiya#MY ARSIES#once again not in mood to come up with tags#BUT I DONT HAVE TO CAUSE YALL KNOW I ADORE THIS FIC#i will print it on fabric and sew a blanket from it#and then i will blankie burrito in it with all my rats#and then... yeah that's it basically#if you haven't read this... then you are definitely missing out#especially on the games yall#poet had such good games in this one aaaaaaa#also like everything else but i dont wanna spoil it too much so I WILL NOW SHUT UP NOW OK#OK BYE
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hey wait a minute I can draw whatever I want
#utdr therian art incoming#in my opinion the headcanon of therianthropy for any of the humans in deltarune or undertale doesnt really make sense#considering that being a human is almost the center of ALL the humans in undertale#and deltarune#kris doesnt like themselves that much due to thier otherness as a human#when they were younger they would pretend to be a monster to fit in with a red horn headband#this avoidance of accepting their humanity is what drove them to a deep dislike of themselves i believe#and kris character would develop best if they accept thier humanity#thing is . i can also see therianthropy involved in thier character#a lot of therians. including myself. have an animal and human identity held at the same time#so idk it could be cool#and disregarding everything else i said there#i just love projecting onto my favorite characters#so im gonna blast the humans with the therian ray i think#and before anyone comes for my throat over this#no i dont think its canon and i dont really hold it as a HEADCANON either#i just wanna see myself reflected in my faves!! and my other faves supporting them!! i wanna draw sans and paps helping frisk make masks#and them making a mask for papyrus specifically would be so cute ggrrrhh#im rambling about this sorry bye ill see what i can do about this idea#art#deltarune#utdr#undertale#therian#jamie yap
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Loop stumbles out of the timeloop tired confused hurt
They look back, expecting to see someone but no one is there. You're back home, why would there be two of you on your timeline?
They look forward. The loop continues, their wish was done, they helped themselves out in a very literal sense- but they still have another wish unfulfilled. Somehow that hurts more.
No Siffrin, no second party- in theory this IS your party but. Is it? Do you fit in it?
You're not siffrin anymore. Not after this.
Loop focuses on the here and now and all they see is a familiar ceiling, somehow they forgot it, upon experiencing so long basking in the sun.
They already miss the sun.
Hopefully they don't have another thousand loops to walk to now, they know the end, they know how it goes.
The house feels cold, stopped in time and vacant of any empathy, even if it knows how many times this version of siffrin has run around it and died on its floors.
#go to the wild#oh my terrible terrible draft#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat loop#in stars and time spoilers#pipporambles#two hats spoilers#i hope im not the only one thinking on loop going back to their party#to their world#to their vaugarde#to their timeline#and going back exactly where they gave up on#still needing to finish it#still needing to get through what they just saw siffrin get through#knowing how it ends#but being so painfully terrified of getting stuck#so terrified of seeing them die again#so terrified of everything#missing the sun the instant they notice they're back#loop cracks and just cries there#again#the universe is so cruel#it dances with loops wishes in ways they could never think of#it leads a painful path#this time loop cant really follow it#not with party members who already feel like they belong to someone else#anyway good bye ive been thinking about this for too long#id draw it but i also am havingn a weird relationship upon being free of my university tests
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"Lord Beelzebub, I believe flies are your department." "There's only one fly here, and it's familiar.
BEELZEBUB & FLY!GABRIEL | GOOD OMENS
#good omens#good omens spoilers#goodomensedit#ineffable bureaucracy#gabriel x beelzebub#dailytvsource#filmandtv#cinematv#userstream#otpsource#the way they treat their flies like their babies is everything (not included here sadly is the 'bye bye' bit.#the way they treat flybriel though is something else...they weren't even hiding their love there. calling him a good boy and perfect..
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#WHY ARE YOU HERE IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE IN THERAPY OH MY GOD#SCREAMING AT ME???? you signed up WILLINGLY this is not mandatory!!!!!!!!#you went through the whole intake process filled out all the paperwork and then show up and tell me you dont want to do this??#and when im like oh okay would you like to move back to the waiting list until you are ready?#you start SCREAMING AT ME???? THAT IM GIVING UP ON YOU????#look not to be a hater but therapy doesnt work if im forcing it on you#and like whatever mind games you typically play with people where youre aggressive to try and get them to prove they care#doesnt work in this setting???????????????????????? therapy is about being OPEN and HONEST#and i am taking you at your WORD so if you tell me you dont want to be here why would i call you a liar and make you do it????#like BYE THERE IS THE DOOR youre not gonna come in here and scream at ME for beliving you#this isnt court ordered!!!! your mom isnt making you do it youre in youre thirties!!!!#there are so many people who want in and youre taking up a spot that you dont even want!!!#gonna demand to speak to my supervisor when the whole office heard you screaming be FOR REAL#this is the second time this has happened in my career and im always so taken aback like this is a free service#that you sign up for completely willingly and if you dont want to do it like fine okay thats fine#but then just ghost like everyone else???#anyway im having a great morning as you can see#only other type of client that is more frustrating is the “i dont owe people anything but they owe me everything”#but at least theyre willing to talk and shift their points of view#sometimes i think some people just want validation that their world view is correct#without ever examining why they feel that way (therapy could help with that btw)#mb rants
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Okie this prob sounds insane but in Arcane season 1 I absolutely HATED Silco, but season 2 and your posts are bringing me around to him... he's just a mentally ill old man without his bear and a single father to his bpd daughter
When S1 was out i kind of didnt latch on to anyone in particular (except ambessa lmao) but once i finished S2 it was like ohhhhh i get it now that dusty old man was carrying the entire show thank goodness he wasnt around to watch the full commitment to centrist "slop" 💀 and he's hot as fuck
But yes....traumatized old man who truly loves his bpd daughter among it all... he did in fact do all that shit but his character is so Good genuinely even without the fixation lenses but um then you do get to add distinguished old man hotness and a nice voice and a big nose (and a homoerotic thing going on with his old friend and a daughter he loves.) So.
#the ''he did do all that shit'' is actually part of it especially with his bear#like nobody ever gives vander this much flack even though he did similar but he'd our Good Guy#i say this neutrally btw because i love vander too duh i wanna be spitroasted by him and silco#anyway silco didnt care if his own people were harmed in the pursuit of liberation and vander's deal with the enforcers#meant he didnt care if people were harmed as long as it wasnt his close loved ones#WAIT SORRY RAMBLING NOW. anyway i love his character!#considering how everything else panned out in s2 he really did take all the good writing with him 😭#thank god he wasnt around to have his character assassinated too#anyway i remember when s1 came out i literally only rbd one post#like this is my one allowed arcane post bc i have no one to obsess over in such a fashion. bye#and now. well
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HAPPY (early) NEW YEAR (yuri)......thank you so much for all the support you've given me this year, I will keep making art that I hope you all enjoy, so have a good year ahead!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
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#HEHEEEE SOME GOOD YURI TO ROUND OUT THE YEAR.......#Hope you enjoyed the ginkotenko......they are everything#not much else to say here but i hope you all are great!!!!! thank you again~ ❤️❤️❤️#yippee#sakata gintoki#hijikata toushirou#sakata ginko#hijikata tenko#ginhiji#gintoki x hijikata#hijigin#hijikata x gintoki#gintama#ok bye
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🎧 I have this on repeat 😌
🧶 Now that I’ve finished Dr. Stone (super amazing I seriously loved it. some parts got me like ? but STILL GOOD) I’ve picked up TMGS3 again and this time I’m going to romance Ruka! 🤭 Can I tell you how HARD it is to move on from my baby Kouichi!!? 😭 What we had was SPECIAL!! 😭😤 👇 He showed up at the flower shop I work at and Ruka works there also! So MC is like “oh Ruka isn’t here right now” and he says “I wasn’t here to see him.” …. 😃 STOP PLAYIN WITH ME!! 😀 MY GOD and I’m listening to music as this happens and tell me why PNB Rock “Friends” starts to play in the background!! 😑 😒 Don’t TEMPT me Frodo! I do wanna say that Ruka is a freak. 🧐 Kouichi is so reserved he treats you like a LADY. RUKA?? 🥸 He wants to fuck you. He basically says it. It’s insane and a huge jump from quiet reserved Kouichi LOLLL
🍎 Speaking of wanting to fuck, I am feeling some type of wayyyyy for Caleb IM IN DEEP!!! 🏊 I’m spelunking in the world of CALEB! 🧗♀️🕳️ This man has become apart of my everyday LIFE! This MEANS something to me now like.. 👇 how did I get here. 👩🏫 This game has me stressing trying to collect diamonds for whenever a new Caleb card jumps out! 🔬 A 5 STAR ONE! I need to be threatened again!! I will just forever love those insane types I’m sorry. 🥴 The more my life could be in danger the more I love you. 😶 In FICTION! Weenie hut jr irl ok. I need a warm glass of milk and someone to read me a bedtime story and kiss my forehead in my real life. 👶 Fictional? IM SCUM!!! 🦠 SOON as Caleb jacked me up in that one card like I weighed nothing ?? I KNEW he was the one!! 👰 And his story …. 👁️ MC matches his energy it’s so 👌.
🍨 I’ve been working a lot on me. Or trying to. I think sometimes it’s hard to sit down and really take a good look at yourself. Who you are as a person and how you navigate as that person in the world. Amongst the people that you love. I bought this book called The Tao of Inner Peace a while back, and while I am still going through it. I feel as if I’ve read a lot of good things that I could utilize in my everyday life. The problem is that I haven’t been. 🫠 I’ve been thinking a lot about my tone. How the way I respond to some things and the cadence just isn’t as nice as it could be. Then I thought about how I’ve been reading this book and haven’t been practicing any of what I’ve read. 🫥
🧦 I had a situation happen where I got this new hard drive and it just went kaput. 🙃 Kaput with ALL MY IMPORTANT STUFF ON IT!!! Like I was in the process of backing things up TWICE but I hadn’t done it yet. Which meant that this hard drive had my only copy of like..over a decade of photos and art and whatever else. 🙂 I was PISSED I was so upset!! My ONLY comfort was the fact that Goro wasn’t on that drive. I didn’t feel comfortable putting my sims stuff on there (not even sure why I felt that way but thank you past me) so I kept it on the original drive. I think if I lost Goro I would have lost my actual mind. I made him in 2017 and I’ve only gotten more attached to him as the years go by so that woulda felt like an actual DEATH I’m not even kidding. ANYWAY! Long story short I had to get this program that helps retrieve files from corrupted drives and I found that good news: my stuff all managed to get saved 🥳 but bad news: it’s allllll jumbled up. 😁 I had the joy of having all my things returned to me, but I could only focus on the long and arduous process of going through it all, so I stayed upset.
💩 I hate being upset. I hate hate hate keeping myself down in a hole when I KNOW I don’t have to. I’ve come to learn that none of it really serves me. Cause ME staying miserable doesn’t solve anything! I just wasted another day constantly reminding myself how mad I should be! I thought about the Tao of Inner Peace. How I could reframe my mind. How, while this whole situation is frustrating. I still have my things. And that ALONE is something to celebrate. It’s frustrating now, but it’s not forever. I took some deep breaths, and told myself it’ll be okay. Cause it will be. I’ve been doing this a lot lately. Just taking deep breaths if I feel myself sinking and giving myself that pause to recalibrate. It’s been helping. 💆
🐦⬛ I feel good! I feel very good. 🐛 My mood has been the best I feel it’s ever been in like.. months lol not to say I walk around like this DARK CLOUD all the time! But I’ve just been feeling better and thinking better. I keep the book of Tao in the back of my mind. I bought “the courage to be disliked” as well as some other philosophy books and I am so excited to crack them open! 📖🪱Sometimes, you know that life can be different, that YOU can be different, but you’re not sure how. Or what steps to take. For me, books like these help point me in the right direction. 🪴
WOO I rambled! And I coulda rambled more but let me stop right here! TIL next time! 🍀
#you already know that’s Caleb on the iPad in front of me in the first pic LOLLLL#just hunched over wracking my brain on learning fuckin PROTOCORES BYE#I just wanted to fall in love now I gotta learn about the best protocores to use?? hello?? 😐 I HATE IT HERE#I’m just focusing on crit rate sorry I don’t have the mental capacity for shit else#someone teach me#my juicer is my best friend now look at all that GREEN#delicious drinks that I can make at home I’m obsessed YES 🍏#Hop sent me a package with her art and some Baku stuff MY HEART 🥲#I got into Dr Stone cause of her! when I first met her at anime nyc she was dressed as Stanley!! cries#we were supposed to meet 🧩#I’ve just been in such good spirits I have great friends everything has been smooth#Keii and I spending 999hrs at a cafe talking about literally anything and feeling understood I LOVE LIFE#also I love how I say all this and then last fuckin night THEY POST A NEW CALEB MYTH CARD HELLO????#and why is during a busy time huh now I gotta juggle the 99 things I got planned AND his event#but we gonna make it happen#anything for my little Cracker Jack
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fanart for The Great Miyagi Prefectural Cherry Blossom Viewing by @kings-highway (on ao3)
#my art#there will be more to come!! im working on another bunch of drawings but i managed to finish this one really quickly first (i only read the#fic earlier today! i don't know what it is about their writing but it inspires me so much to draw! and makes me want to write as well!!#i really love it <3)#i was gonna post the other stuff first but im impatient with posting when i have a finished drawing so since this is done im#posting this first instead#uh i hope you do not mind the tag#but yeah! i've been reading a lot of their fics recently and they're all just so incredible#okay uh#haikyuu#haikyuu fanart#haikyu!!#haikyu!! fanart#hinata shoyo#hinata shoyo fanart#kageyama tobio#kageyama tobio fanart#kagehina#kagehina fanart#they love each other so much#theyre best friends#theyre everything#cant think of anything else to say uhhhh bye#<3 <3 <3
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day 11 pf posting whatever doodle i have until. uni student.
it was funnier in my head. it really was.
#mcsr#hackingnoises#7rowl#but like#cats.#djkghsk i love these two i should probably draw someone else#HAX!!!! AND 7ROWL!!!!!!#kdjlkgs#huh i just forgot everything i wanted to say#probably ok#dopido#ok bye <3
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Guess who it is?
If you had to pick one character from Naruto to completly rewrite and/or redesign: who would it be? Can be a major/minor character.
By this I mean: change their lore, their design, their character relations, their outcome in Boruto, their village affliation, their death, siblings, etc.
Ok this question has been plaguing me for days cause I just couldn't decide,,,
But over all probably Kaguya. There's so much potential for a great backstory there *cough* toxic yuri *cough* but it was wasted bc Kishimoto randomly decided he wanted to write about aliens but couldn't be bothered to make a new story. Like whaaat bsfr rn
Shes pretty but :/ I could make her prettier. Kishi shoulda called me up fr
Honourable mentions that I kept thinking of but I'm OK enough with them that I wouldn't rewrite their whole story:
Konohamaru: I feel like he does virtually nothing for the story, also he's ugly asf. So I would change like,,, most of him.
Naruto: his hair makes me so fucking angry the MAIN CHARACTER should not be so difficult to draw I'm gonna beat someone up
Sakura: I just really want to give her that axe. Also what if we swapped that superstrength for genjutsu. What then. Genjutsu is SO underutilised it makes me insane. It could do so much in the medical field too. Also I just like drawing uneven hair so that's like. All I would change design wise. She's actually got a very solid design. W for Kishi and his team.
Mikoto: I just want her to have a more main role in Sasukes story :( I hc that Sasuke was a direct descendent of Madara so that could have been a really interesting thing for Mikoto. Like what if she could beat up Fugaku. What then. Also she's so pretty for no reason. Like Kishimoto really just made the prettiest gal ever and made her irrelevant. Also I'd give her a better outfit, I'd spoil her with the most gorgeous gowns in the Land of fire.
Neji: what if he and Sasuke held hands. What if they had an arc together where they bonded over their destiny's. Bonded over having the need to prove one's existence. What if they kissed. Kishimoto would never because he's too scared of the potential of them.
Zetsu: i have genuinely no problem with him being a physical being of Kaguyas will. But like. Theres no way out of every person ever no one's had as much will as she. Like. Bsffr rn there should be like. At least a few more come on man :(
Indra: Istg I will bite you Indra not being made head of the clan was such bullshit. And also!!! One person to lead an entire clan is a little!!! Flawed!!! Asura and Indra should have ruled together like 😒
random guy who threw the mask at Naruto: Kill him. Castrate him. Burn him on the stake.
#Man this just ended up with me yapping about how I hate certain things abt the characters#I'm annoying though so idk if these things matter at all#Personally i think Sasuke should have held hands with chōji too#If Sasuke is attracted to Sakuras strength then its only fair he's attracted to chōjis too#I'll fight you over this#SasuNeji#Yayyy!!!! Yippee yay#It makes me happy to tag SasuNeji it's like my favourite ship#SasuNeji Tobiizu and SasuSaku are my otps for life I LOVE them bro u got no idea#The brainrot is strong with this one#I love a lot of Sasuke ships but this may just be spite bc I don't like Sns and my brain is over compensating and liking everything else#OK fuck tag like a normal person you loser#Moldy-flowers#Moldy-asks#kaguya otsutsuki#naruto uzumaki#Sakura haruno#mikoto uchiha#naruto#naruto shippuden#neji hyuga#konohamaru sarutobi#black zetsu#Uhh that's me done bye
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