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Loop stumbles out of the timeloop tired confused hurt
They look back, expecting to see someone but no one is there. You're back home, why would there be two of you on your timeline?
They look forward. The loop continues, their wish was done, they helped themselves out in a very literal sense- but they still have another wish unfulfilled. Somehow that hurts more.
No Siffrin, no second party- in theory this IS your party but. Is it? Do you fit in it?
You're not siffrin anymore. Not after this.
Loop focuses on the here and now and all they see is a familiar ceiling, somehow they forgot it, upon experiencing so long basking in the sun.
They already miss the sun.
Hopefully they don't have another thousand loops to walk to now, they know the end, they know how it goes.
The house feels cold, stopped in time and vacant of any empathy, even if it knows how many times this version of siffrin has run around it and died on its floors.
#go to the wild#oh my terrible terrible draft#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat loop#in stars and time spoilers#pipporambles#two hats spoilers#i hope im not the only one thinking on loop going back to their party#to their world#to their vaugarde#to their timeline#and going back exactly where they gave up on#still needing to finish it#still needing to get through what they just saw siffrin get through#knowing how it ends#but being so painfully terrified of getting stuck#so terrified of seeing them die again#so terrified of everything#missing the sun the instant they notice they're back#loop cracks and just cries there#again#the universe is so cruel#it dances with loops wishes in ways they could never think of#it leads a painful path#this time loop cant really follow it#not with party members who already feel like they belong to someone else#anyway good bye ive been thinking about this for too long#id draw it but i also am havingn a weird relationship upon being free of my university tests
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art + the weird little wiggle he does
#i fucking love him hes so cute#ill make a 2nd post of this when im done gifing everything#art the clown#terrifier#terrifier 3
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behold: a non-exhaustive list of Date Everything! characters i'll be feverishly romancing next week 😳💖
we have: 🕯️ Scandalabra (the Candelabra) 📺 Telly (the Television) ⚡ Volt (the Breaker Box) 😋 Mitchell Linn (Food) 🪞 Amir (the Mirror) 📖 Lyric (Literature) 💦 Johnny Splash (the Shower) 🎲 Chance (the D20) rate or roast my choices 😂💖
#shut up it's not FUNNY THERE'S SO MANY PRETTY CHARACTERS IN THIS GAMEEEEE;;;;;#and doubtless there will be more freaks in there who might just Get Me. i am terrified. the ultimate selfship objectum dating sim...#Scandalabra is the one who has my heart the most i can't even look at him without getting flustered 🙈💖💖#but adfkldsdf every one of these...!!!!!! lord h e l p m e#of course they're all the ultra-pretty flamboyant some-flavour-of-queer characters. and nerds. as is characteristic#anyway i want to see everyone else's picks ahead of the game coming out next week hahaha#date everything!#date everything#scandalabra#telly#volt#mitchell linn#amir#lyric#johnny splash#chance#scandalabra date everything#telly date everything#volt date everything#mitchell linn date everything#amir date everything#lyric date everything#johnny splash date everything#chance date everything#selfship#starleskatalks
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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my namgyu seowan twins au,,,,
#seowan lives cuz namgyu doesnt give him permission to episode 6 and namgyu doesnt squid game bc seowan convinces him that crypto is bullshit#seowan likes thanos gang but is terrified of thanos BUT THANOS LOVES HIM#AND NAMGYU DESPISES GOYUN AND YEOHWAN WITH EVERYTHING HE IS#obligatory i drew namgyu cute here so i have to repeat that i think hes awful and should be reduced to atoms tag#daily dose of sunshine#kim seo wan#kim seowan#nam gyu#squid game#my art#nam gyu squid game#art tag
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Armand is someone who has been has been trained (in brothels, by Marius, and by 500+ years worth of life experience) to adapt himself to what the people around him want. Throughout seasons 1-2, different people get very different versions of Armand, depending on who they are and who’s retelling the story at the time.
It’s the primary way Armand protects himself, whether he’s a teenage sex slave or the oldest, strongest person in the room. It’s how he controls people. Fundamentally, it’s the only way Armand knows to make people love him (an approximation of love at least). Worse, it’s the only way Armand knows how to love — by twisting and contorting himself into whatever form he thinks his current obsession wants or needs him to be. He even does it to his victims for crying out loud.
And then here’s Daniel, who is constantly seeking authenticity and truth. Who’s bullshit detector is never “off”. Who cannot tolerate any kind of masquerade, manipulation or lie – no matter how kind or well intentioned. Not out of any moral or ethical objection, but because Daniel simply cannot leave things well enough alone once something attracts his attention. He has to know. He has to see where it goes and how it ends.
“It’s my job, I’m built this way”
“It’s in your nature, Mr Molloy. Couldn’t get out the door without lobbing one more bomb.”
Daniel knew something was off about “Rashid” from the beginning, so he began to pick the situation in Dubai apart until Armand revealed himself. And then he kept going until he completely destroyed the narrative Armand had spent 77 years constructing.
Daniel deliberately and systematically pulled “Armand, Amadeo, Arun” apart and laid him bare with nothing but but a laptop, some free time, a near-suicidal disregard for his own personal safety and a mouth that just wouldn’t quit.
There’s power in being seen, in being known, ugly parts and all. What would it feel like, to be completely exposed like that for the first time in centuries?
So yeah it makes sense to me that Armand, who puts on all these acts and artifices to draw people in, but which only serve to ensure they’re kept at a distance, would turn his big sad orange eyes on the person who blew them all to smithereens and be all “…I wanna do this forever, actually.”
#this is word vomit but follow along on the journey anyway#armand’s bullshit doesn’t work on daniel and after 500+ years it must be terrifying and liberating all at once for armand#like to what extent does armand even know who he is under everything?#how can you be so old and yet have such a fragile sense of self?#and yet here we are#meanwhile daniel ‘dude i know who you are and you’re an ASSHOLE’#it lines up with book!devils minion where daniel sees armand as a predator and a monster and loves him any way#daniel molloy#armand#devil’s minion#armandaniel#amc interview with the vampire#amc iwtv
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I was replaying BOTW for the third time to play the DLC but I got bored halfway and decided to boot up Skyward Sword and play it for the first time…
I didn’t know Link was this expressive 😭
#txt#I really like Zelda but admittedly the only Zelda games I’ve played is wind waker and botw and its sequel#the latter two games were basically my main perception of link#so playing a game where link looks terrified; flustered; shy#excited… everything really surprised me#it’s a little too hand holdy for my liking and I don’t like how small the text is on the text boxes#visually it looks really nice. I love their Zelda design even if my favorite will always be BOTW Zelda#but I think SS link is my favorite. I can’t believe people used to call him ugly!
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Was thinking about Stan's habit of grabbing his chest when he's scared and then thought about what if he did end up having a heart attack or something after Ford came back. Like, he's been stressed for ages and now he's gotta worry about Ford potentially getting the kids into something dangerous like he did and where he's gonna go after the kids leave and what he's gonna do without the Shack.
Maybe it hits him in the middle of tour or something. Like, he's been feeling off all day and looks kinda ragged so maybe Soos is keeping close and sees him go down. At first, people think it's part of the tour or some typical Stan gag. And then he doesn't laugh or try to play it up for money. So the twins run down to the basement to get Ford.
He's kinda annoyed that his planning time's been interrupted by Stanley's antics, but the twins seem genuinely upset so he goes to check it out. And finds out Soos and Wendy called an ambulance and there really IS a problem. Then he kinda disconnects from the situation. Like, he's panicking internally but this isn't the first major medical situation he's been in. So he calmly gets the kids (Soos and Wendy included) into Stan's car and follows the ambulance to the hospital. He's the one wrangling the kids while they freak out and asking all the questions to the doctors and nurses about Stan's condition. He can't take time to worry about his brother because he's got a bunch of kids to reassure and they're all looking to him because he's the eldest person there. He's an old man with all the answers in the universe. If anyone can tell them Stan's gonna be okay, it's gonna be Mr. 12 PhDs.
Except... he doesn't.
He doesn't know anything about his brother's medical history past the age of seventeen. Dipper's the one to mention Stan's medication and Mabel knows his diet and Soos and Wendy know about his boxing hobby and work schedule. Ford has a hazy memory about Stan chewing his way out of a trunk once.
He starts thinking about how Stan's the only family he has left. Sure, the twins are there, but they don't really know each other. Shermie and his son are just over the state line in California, but they don't know who he is anymore. Stanley's been wearing his face for years and they never seemed to notice. His parents are dead. Fiddleford is 30 years in the wind.
Stanley's the only one who truly knows him. Knows about his deepest insecurities and childhood dreams. Who knows his favorite books and comic book heroes. About his first disastrous date and the kissing bot. About how badly things had gone for him and been at his doorstep only a couple of days after receiving a single postcard after 10 years of silence.
And Ford knows nothing of the man Stanley became. Stanley doesn't know how Ford has changed. How he's trying SO HARD to fix his mistakes.
And suddenly being so angry over some paltry little machine doesn't seem so important. Ford's the one who built a doomsday device.
He's still angry with Stanley taking his identity, but what does it matter if no one noticed? Sure, Stan got him a criminal record, but he made one of his own in the multiverse. Their family has always leaned to the gray side of the law.
And now they may never get the chance to know each other again. 40 years without each other and the pain of potentially losing Stanley cuts Stanford so deep he feels like he's the one dying.
So he sits in that cold hospital waiting room, four hysterical kids surrounding him, and wears a straight face while his world falls apart around him.
If you lose your parents, they call you an orphan.
If you lose your twin, they don't stop calling you a brother.
#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#grunkle ford#grunkle stan#stan pines#ford pines#long post#angst#potential fic idea#a one shot at least#was watching that one golden girls episode again and my brain kicked into high gear#ford just seems like the type to shut down and compartmentalize when things get too stressful#like yeah he gets angry and emotional when he's stressed#but i can also see him being able to hold it together long enough to control the situation as much as he can#especially if someone else needs him#and he cant fall apart with the twins and soos and Wendy around because that'd only upset them and make things worse#so hes gotta suck it up and put on a brave face even though he wants to cry and yell#because hes angry too#at stan for everything and especially for not taking care of himself and risking his health and the universe by working on that damn portal#but also at himself for holding a grudge so long when other things matter more#and hes terrified about how hes gonna take care of the kids#he cant raise babies! (preteens)#and soos is crying and wendy is yelling at the nurses because thats how her family does things#they need stan just as much as the twins do#just thinking
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here's the thing. yes hannibal is gleeful and yes will is brooding, BUT:
hannibal is a meticulous planner, a polyglot, a genius, nigh unstoppable in a fight but always opting for prep time whenever possible, the wealthy owner of a gothic-style ancestral estate; he sees himself as a manifestation of justice, is represented visually by a leathery-black animal/human creature, had a childhood defined by a family loss, maintains a secret basement, and has a flouncy, cheerful, socialite public persona
will is a nobody from nowhere - "always the new boy at school," no family, no close friends, no past where he would be remembered; he is also a genius, but his most dangerous trait as a killer is that he is chaotic, disorganized, vicious, artistic but impulsive, ruining his own carefully-laid plans on a whim; he has successfully seduced an employee of a mental hospital into killing in his name, and he is a jealous little bitch, ruled by his emotions first and foremost
they're dancing to the same tune as batjokes, just in reverse
#hannibal#batman#hannigram#bruce wayne#batjokes#will graham#joker#hannibal lecter#if you stretch this a little abigail would be jason todd#will 'kills' her and when she rises from the grave hannibal slits her throat#but it's a stretch. it's a stretch#dc comics#hannibal nbc#yes will is brooding in the show. but the reason for that is that he is repressing everything that he is#during his most honest and terrifying moments he is Grinning#and i feel like post-fall he would take an absolutely chilling delight in his murders#he's got the inclination. he was just in the closet#matthew brown wanted to be his harley quinn SO bad it made him look stupid#dr hannibal lecter#nbc hannibal#hannibal tv#will having a thing for the stag man is also a bonus. the same way joker is 1000% into batman as an Entity
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hope you feel better soon!
I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!
#ask#non mdzs#My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl#So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume#but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice#and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!
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The Lilo and Stitch remake looks like a fucking crime. How dare they take one of the most wonderfully unique stylized cartoons and turn it into another vapid 3D homunculus of itself.
#ramblies#stitch was So Cute and he had big teeth and rounded limbs and he Fit with everything around him#but if he’s alone he looks terrifying and the side by side comparisons looks like they’ve sucked the soul out of him#jail#jail for Disney#for this and all the monopoly bullshit#also for turning Ice Cream Tourist into a native dude- no#that’s not the fucking point#of lilos whole wall
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just thinking about how binghe had no idea that without-a-cure even had a cure and he spent all his years as a disciple thinking his shizun would at best be disabled for the rest of his life and at worst die a slow and painful death, and it was to save him.
#svsss from binghe's pov would be heartbreaking#stagnating qi is described as ''a profoundly terrifying problem'' to cultivators#and yue qingyuan and mu qingfang were devastated and started blaming themselves for it#shen yuan's goofy personality makes it easy to forget that everyone else has no idea about these magical cures and future events#and that theyre seriously worried about him and feel guilt for not being able to stop it#binghe must have felt so much guilt too#especially with the way he was raised#the way its set up is so tragic too#binghe says that that moment was the first time someone has ever believed in him like that#and then immediately sqq gets badly wounded with an incurable poison#it must have fed into dark-binghe'a beliefs that he destroys everything he touches too#argh sad hours#i just love bingqiu angst<3#bingqiu#svsss#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#svsss angst#scum villian’s self saving system#scum villain
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ok everybody block dnp on all socials they have eyes everywhere. they know way too much. those omniscient fuckers are always watching. no one is safe.
like what do you MEAN you know about those stupid “real voice” compilations and people absolutely clowning about jumpcuts and smudged whiskers and what do you MEAN you’re aware of those 2009 phan theories people still debate to this day? what happened to “i don’t check my indirects” “i don’t go on the tags”?? i bet you’re lurking RIGHT NOW reading this very post. all men do is lie. can’t trust anyone 😤😪
#/j#dnp#dan and phil#pinof#phan#gamingmas 2023#yeet my deet#dan howell#daniel howell#amazingphil#phil lester#danisnotonfire#i didn’t participate in the phandom until they came out#i was an older phannie i started watching at age 16#so i knew better#so this feels like i’m being punished for something i didn’t do#and having always been mortified and embarrassed by the shit yall would say back in the day#my only respite was “ok maybe dnp didn’t see this”#no they’ve seen EVERYTHING#you’re past is coming back to haunt you but your past is also coming back to haunt me lmao#to be clear i am part of the problem simply for consuming phan/phandom media at the time and therefore giving those videos views#but i was always terrified of the phandom#like i didn’t even consider myself part of the phandom for my first 4 years as a phannie#i was a closet demon phannie lol#i started participating after they came out and we were all actual adults about it and super respectful#i was like we’re all old and gay now i love this for us#yeet my deenp#bog
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evil eye mythologies are soooo real like what if someone Looked at you and you DIED? THINGS I ASK MYSELF EVERY TIME I GO TO THE GROCERY STORE TBQH!!!!!
#it is a normal human behavior to b scared of getting looked at. i think.#citation: EVERYTHING#this is why im so obsessed w nazars and shit like#yeah. the Evil Looking. we've all been terrified of it#DO NOT PERCEIVE!!!!
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crawls out of a hole
slaps some pieces of paper down
dies
tumblr destroyed my long form comic so here it is cut up aaa
#reusing my tags#bc i had to repost#this is so so so dumb#but i love this meme to death#so i had to do it with the metaphor crew#kool aid man as a human would genuinely be terrifying#also i spent WAY too long on this bc my file was originally cymk on procreate but when i put it on clip studio it reverted to rgb and i jus#didnt have the energy to recolor everything#not that this is color but u know what i mean#i had to redo some of the lineart bc it was so crunchy#also ALSO i love clip studio but for the love of god#FIX THE UI FOR THE IPAD VERSION#ITS SO BAD. THEY LITERALLY JUST IMPORTED THE DESKTOP UI FOR THE IPAD#IT DOESNT WORK#I SHOULDNT REQUIRE A KEYBOARD TO DO BASIC FUNCTIONS#metaphor refantazio#metaphor will#hulkenberg metaphor#leon strohl#junah cygnus#basilio magnus#fidelio magnus#heismay#neuras#digital art#artists on tumblr#comic#long comic#my art
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It’s still incredibly funny how often Curzes novel takes the time to remind us that everyone thinks he’s hot
#The narrator: He was disgusting twisted creature with posture like that of a crone blood and gore coated his body#Also the narrator: Under all that gore he was really hot honestly even with it he could still get it he’s still terrifying but really hot#don’t get me wrong this isn’t a criticism I think taking the time to acknowledge that Curze is ‘perfect’ serves to highlight his fall#and that under different circumstances he could have be so much different and so much better by all definitions#the whole under the gore he was perfect or to generalise if he got a shower he’d be a show stopper thing almost acts as a metaphor#everything he could have been was just under the surface all that needed to be done was to wipe away the proverbial gore#and sure people tried (Fulgrim for example) but that was more like wiping his face clean but not bothering with what people wouldn’t see#(not to say no one put in proper effort I’m sure they did and ultimately Curze was so stuck in his self fulfilling prophecy#that without constant help he was always going to regress but that’s what makes it tragic)#((tbh I agree with the narrator id unfortunately let Curze hit))#wh40k#warhammer 40k#warhammer 30k#wh30k#konrad curze: the night haunter#konrad curze#purple reads
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