#c: 22

[themadvigilantist]

@girl-in-the-tardis @gallifreylegacy @egyptroyal @drbabygirl because they are mentioned

"Is that all there is? That's it? And it–"

Vin's face dropped as his bewildered anger cracked into sadness at what was being said. He turned to the Doctor - well, Doctors - as it was RMT's Doctor and The Doctor present with them all.

"Even after all that, after everything and you all would toss it for someone that would rather ab—"

He was dejected, stopping what he was saying almost as if he was giving up. Was this what Poison Ivy felt like when talking to Harley Quinn back then in the cartoons? Was this how Dr. Jones felt?

His eyes casted down and then Vin did something that was usually asked or begged or asked in a way to brush past the casual disgust when he would come back from a 'hunt': he left. He stopped fighting.

His shoulders slumped, relaxed, the look across his distraught face never changing. Oh, the bond was fixed but it was fixed in a way that removed him almost completely. They shut him out. So, his bond shut them out.

Thing about aliens and the bonds they forge: you never know when a bond gains their own sentience. Can't stop it. To stop it is to be aware of it and Vin was not aware of it.

It didn't feel like a hug or someone holding another's hand - it felt like fingertips touching another's fingertips. Barely, like reaching for someone and you almost have their hand if you can just stretch just a little more.

Just a little more.

A little more.

More.

It was felt for all except for him. Not a weight being lifted for the others but just how heavy the bond was truly was from him in addition to the Doctor's.

How Vin held the bond together - it was as if Vin was their M50 protective mask before and now he was essentially a sheer cloth. He couldn't protect them. The truth was too horrible. Sure, they could ignore it or - what was it RMT called it? Glitch? - Glitch themselves into it but the truth?

The truth that they were all dead, that this wasn't how it was at all. That the one they called father by birth was never their father, never her husband because they never existed. He never existed. Never will. They can bleed in here and there through other people by other people but it will never be what they are.

Dead was kinder than never existed based on a whim after watching or reading or listening to a story of the Doctor's autobiography recontexualized as fiction. And Vin was coming to this conclusion in real time.

Was this how Jennifer felt? No, Jennifer embraced it. Embraced not being real. But, Jennifer wasn't here. V's friend wasn't here. His eyes searched and searched. He could feel his left hand scrunch and wring reality like it was the clothes off his back. Feel the soft fabric of reality that should have been asphalt and concrete and metal but was instead a nice velvet.

He clung and then he let go. The air was still the same, the ground the same, as if he didn't feel reality in his hand a minute ago.

And then he turned and his eyes locked onto the Doctor's and saw them. Something that no matter what type of human they were, none could see. He saw every single Doctor in their eyes. Every Doctor that was just another imitation of the original. Every Doctor that will never be The Doctor. The Doctor that will never have their Kira. Well, they had a Kira Arlo from the Kerblam factory but, not their Kira Tyler-Williams. That Doctor will never have V, never have a Vin or his family. Never will. But the imitations of the Doctor? Those gone and those present and those that will be, they will.

And a well known open knowledge that this Doctor, that Doctor, was always just a footnote in Vin's existence. A cane's rubber bottom. Easily replaced with a tennis ball.

Another alien's glitch is another alien princess' happiness. A bond's comfort to its' maker.

"I'm going to go get a massage and mani pedi. Maybe get a sauna treatment." Vin found himself saying, turning back around.

He had dropped the argument. Why argue when everyone around you, including yourself, including the imitation of a time lord that they never will truly be, never existed? That horrible truth. None of it will matter.

Confetti.

[artharakka]

Stupid Manthing I'm Fucking Balling (2024)

[felinefractious]

Lirika’s La Vie En Lilaq of WyldRex

🐱 Devon Rex

📸 Wyld Rex

🎨 Lilac Classic Tabby

[canisalbus]

Machete strikes me as the type of sighthound who will need a /lot/ of sweaters to endure the winter. Think about his piercing prey animal gaze communicating that he's very colde. Turtlenecks needed at /least/.

[chskca]

I AM SO SORRY FOR UNDERESTIMATING YOU CALEB 😭😭😭

[nocternalrandomness]

A C-17 from Altus AFB 58th Airlift Squadron dwarfs an F-22 on the flight line at RAF Fairford

[ca-dmv-bot]

Customer: SEE YOU MY BUDDY DMV: G Verdict: DENIED

[alphamecha-mkii]

Star Wars: Droids - The Adventures of R2-D2 and C-3PO - Two-Seater Version of the R-22 Spearhead ('The Revenge of Kybo Ren')

[asurei-nisshoku]

"at least, be human" and "don't be" are two interesting titles that encapsulate very well asuka's psychological conflict in episode 22.

first, we have the demand to act like a person. how a person acts? the answer may present itself through oppositions. during the episode, asuka negates others and shows behavior associated with what the attachment theory calls evasive attachment. as soon as she opens up with the one on her home that represents more "the other" for her (both in character and thematically), shinji, she snaps at him and runs to her room. she constantly says she hates everyone, especially herself.

later on the episode, we have arael psychological attack. the angel searches on asuka's heart, which it's a violation to her because she doesn't want anyone to look there, and drag to the surface long gone repressed memories and trauma that explains asuka's every day actions. the climax of the attack occurs after arael, in a child asuka form avatar, tells her she is a "big liar" after she declares that she can live on her own. then, a series of flashing images with different words describing asuka's inner feelings go through the screen. between some of them, there's the "don't be".

so, maybe that's it. being human it's be vulnerable. asuka tells herself to stop being dependent, to stop being fragile, to stop relying on others (which it's usually, part of the human experience), to stop wanting company. humans can't help being alone, but they can't always be alone. asuka repudiates this and insists on her absolute independence. she denies herself her human needs. she demands herself to stop being human.

edit: I wonder if the "al least" on the first title is related to asuka not being able to perform well on combat and then only having left her own humanity (which she insists in reject).

[bitesizedpoetry]

Sylvia Plath, aged 29, in a letter to Marvin & Kathy Kane (dated c. Friday, 22 June 1962)

[python-goose-politics]

A series of accounts (X? tumblr?) that need to be made to track things in the us:

A counter for every single time there's a school shooting.

A counter for every single time there's a us aircraft crash, starting after trump fired air craft personnel immediately resulting in the first mid-air crash in goodness knows how long.

A counter until trump's term ends <- has already been made!

A counter for every time trump makes a stupid/harmful executive order <- has already been made!

A counter for every single time trump presses that diet coke button.

A counter for every single time trump says he wants to buy a country that isn't for sale.

[flavorcraftrecipes]

Cottage Cheese Flatbread: Soft, Savory, and Gluten-Free 🍞 Ingredients: 1 cup cottage cheese (blended until smooth) 2 large eggs 1 cup almond flour (or oat flour for a different texture) 1/2 tsp baking powder 1/2 tsp garlic powder (optional) 1/2 tsp salt 1/4 tsp black pepper 1 tbsp olive oil (for brushing) 1 tbsp fresh herbs (optional – parsley, basil, or chives) Instructions: Preheat Oven: Set to 375°F (190°C) and line a baking sheet with parchment paper. Blend Wet Ingredients: In a bowl, mix or blend cottage cheese and eggs until smooth. Add Dry Ingredients: Stir in almond flour, baking powder, garlic powder, salt, and black pepper. Mix until a sticky dough forms. Shape the Flatbread: Spread the mixture onto the prepared baking sheet, forming a thin, even layer. Bake: Place in the oven for 18-22 minutes, or until golden brown and firm to the touch. Brush & Serve: Lightly brush with olive oil and sprinkle with fresh herbs. Serve warm with dips, toppings, or as a sandwich wrap!

GlutenFreeFlatbread #CottageCheeseMagic #HealthyBaking #EasyRecipes

[princepinkart]

I've discovered this two weeks ago and I've been listening to it regularly

It's an absolute BANGER.

However, like any songs that gets stuck in my head, I can't help but try to sing it in French (French is my mother tongue)

And now that means I've been trying to translate this song on and off for the past two weeks And god DAMN it is hard

Do you know how impossibly hard it is to translate lyrics such as:

In hubris, I had wished to be Sole ruler of the galaxy I thought I'd make them bow to me Now I bow to the crown

While maintaining the number of syllables of each verses, having coherent rhyming scheme, and keeping to a maximum degree the same meaning as the original??

Yeah I didn't really realise before I started it

But now I'm invested, and I plan on finishing it

[webonchin]

Thinking about Tv Girl coded Cablepool and the divorce arc

GUESS WHO'S BACK AT IT!!!

When the hyperfixation is hitting the brain hard once again, can't escape them ,never think I will

(pd this is not a end of the year kind of stuff is more of a starting the year kind of stuff ,you get me)

[galaxywarp]

I am so fucking cold.

[p41]

some valentine headcanons

She had a speech impediment when she was young and was made to go to speech therapy to correct it. She made Ender do the exercises along with her because she didn’t want him to develop the same impediment and have one more thing to be bullied for. He credits this with his public speaking skills later in life.

Like her brothers, she has dark hair and eyes and light brown skin.

She likes small dangling earrings with cute shapes

She was raised with a lot of homophobia and xenophobia (and spread some online) but didn’t really internalize it unlike her siblings. It didn’t alarm her when she turned out to be interested in women as well as men. Her siblings' gender/sexuality didn’t bother her either, although they were both internally tortured for a while. She wasn't even surprised because she knew everything before they did.

She likes to braid her hair

Some part of her wishes she could have normal childhood and friendships with other girls her age. But then she remembers that a lot of people annoy her, especially after she spends time around her brothers

She secretly likes horror movies. Obviously she and her siblings were not allowed to watch them growing up. But when she was a child, while her father was watching, she would sneak in and watch them with him - that was her introduction to horror. The movies terrified her, but part of her liked being scared. Afterward she would relate a watered down version of the plots to Ender to give him a gentle scare.

She is a bad dancer.

She prefers paper books to e-books. As a little girl she reads books with a flashlight under the covers.

Her baking gets better over time. She loves to make pastries such as cream puffs. Ender doesn’t really like eating baked goods but he will always eat hers.

Her parents made her take violin lessons as a child because they liked the idea of having a cute little girl violin prodigy. She dropped it after a few years and admires Peter who is much more dedicated to the piano.

She was raised by Catholic parents and although she is not catholic she appreciates the aesthetics of catholicism.

Her tallest height is 160cm (5'3") and she is secretly sad that her brothers ended up taller than her.

She is not very romantic but she likes flirting.

Peter makes up nicknames for her based on her name. It really annoys her but she misses it when she leaves.