#choosing to do.. considering the changes theyve made..

[eternalartblock]

overanalyzing kyoko's letter because i have nothing better to do

im having a fucking field day out here.

so in case anyone reading this is unaware, campyfire recently dropped these:

there is a LOT to unpack here. i am losing it over the namedrop but i would mainly like to focus on psychoanalyzing kyoko because. i mean this is her letter, plus in context it wasnt really meant to be read by anyone other than herself, so its likely that shes being pretty damn genuine here. which means i get to look at it and read into it and convince myself even further that she is!!! not okay!!!!!!

We hope your adventures haven’t taken you too far.

“we” is likely referring to the rest of her family, so theyre probably alive and present. which is good because i would actually kill someone if she lost her sister and had literally no one else. i really hope they gave her some support at some point because it seems like she really needs it

Since you’ve been on your journey, I've decided to become an adventurer, just like you!

becoming an adventurer is a lot. leaving home and letting go of your old life is a lot. and kyoko did that because it was something her sister liked to do, because it made her look strong and brave and she wanted to be like her. she mustve really, really looked up to her :(((

…I was scared at first, but talking with them made me happy… really happy.

ok hold up. she was scared??? while she does seem scared for them, shes never appeared to be scared of them, so… why? maybe its because they just come off as intimidating to everyone? it could be like how several npcs in the manor thought they looked off. but that was after she first met them, plus they were definitely a doing a lot better back when they only had one sword. i personally think this might be hinting at some kind of attachment and/or vulnerability issues? idk it REALLY seems like shes got some shit going on, especially because of how she lets you vent about your problems but immediately changes the subject once she mentions hers in her manor dialogue. still not normal about that btw.

Things are weighing down on them though, I didn’t want to trouble them…

shes clearly worried about being a burden to player while theyve got so much going on. even though she has literally let them vent to her. while she ALSO had some shit going on. dont get me wrong, i get why she'd think that way, player IS visibly going through it and they dont need more things to worry about. but it would probably be worth it to at least ask if theyd be ok with listening to her talk about everything. theyre her friend, and theyve got quite a few things in common. they would understand.

I shouldn't give up. I know you're out there, so I'm going to be just like you and never stop trying.

aughhhh fuckkkkkk

the thing about having a loved one go missing is that anything could have happened to them. there so many horrible ways for calypso to have gone out, especially since kyoko has ZERO IDEA where she could have gone. and yet, she chooses to believe that shes still out there somewhere, because she knows her sister, and she knows that shes stronger than that. and she wouldnt leave her.

also consider: calypso's an adventurer. it would be normal to not hear from her for a while. so imagine how long it took for her family to even realize something was wrong. calypso has been gone for a very long time.

im glad kyoko's at least coping somehow... still think she should open up a bit, but its better than nothing. i really want her to get the support she needs, because shes clearly going through a lot, despite how cheerful she might appear. also i wanna know more about calypso, it seems like she was super cool.

anyways kyoko is the best and most well written block tales character. thank you for coming to my ted talk

[zurrr]

@nopecontest says no one uses this place to blog anymore, only reblog, so ill post some thoughts here and call it "blogging".

the internet is getting stupider and as i approach my 30s i find myself thinking more frequently about mid 2000s internet and all the dumb things i was interested in. ytmnd. different internet forums dedicated to sonic, ed edd n eddy, and the powerpuff girls. the friends i lost contact with from those forums. avgn when he was in his 20s and just starting out. wanting to make ytps thinking that was my calling at the time. newgrounds. albinoblacksheep. getting banned from deviantart multiple times because i was under 13. none of this is present anymore and will never be present again and thats bleak to think about on a regular basis. kids on the internet today will never experience online memories like this.

im more accepting of working my same retail job forever than i ever was, as the benefits are all i think about and how things could be worse. it used to be a big anxiety of mine, trying to think about how i could break away from retail and never go back to it, but honestly there is nothing else especially when i have no skills or education (if that even matters anymore) but like at the same time i dont care as much anymore. i make enough to get by. i could buy a thing i dont need and still be able to buy things i do need. im in a good position and have things others dont and theres no reason to fret over it anymore.

ive been figuring out my identity lately. i slowly came to the realization that i do not like wearing feminine clothes or presenting solely as female. ive struggled with body dysmorphia since, i wanna say before age 8 idk anymore, and ive always associated this was having an eating disorder, which im not gonna deny that i have. i often calorie restrict, and sometimes i dont realize that im doing this because im occupying myself so much that im not thinking about taking care of myself. this will be an ever-present thing about myself, but im learning that i can combat this by changing my wardrobe. i feel more confident when im not settling for wearing a dress or putting on make up cuz i feel like i "have to", and instead choosing clothes that are actually comfortable and not form fitting. ive been trying to explore this more, still a ways to go maybe, but mentally it's been comforting to consider and ill say here i go by she/they pronouns. it used to be she/her with no hesitation but thats not me anymore.

ive been watching one piece since last year and it's been interesting. this is one of those series that i never thought about watching, mostly because i didnt really grow up watching anime religiously and this is one i knew existed but i didnt think it was something i needed to touch when i just watched western shows. one piece is good. another thing that is good is dragon ball z, another series i didnt think id ever touch. i think both changed me for the better cuz it broadened my horizons and it feels like i made new friends. not in fandoms, i mean characters. im friends with characters. puar dragon ball is my friend.

to those who have been following me forever but only on tumblr specifically, im still drawing the same ocs. theyve gotten more complex, meaning they are much sadder and burdened with insecurities that i know too well. NEVERMIND is the only thing im gonna do forever cuz it's gonna take me a long time to get anywhere with it and i dont have enough time in a day to do it all, but thats ok to have only one creative focus. NVM is therapy and i dont need another project. you can read my webcomic here but it's on hiatus until next year. it is also apart of spiderforest which is a webcomic collective, maybe check out other comics on SF too while youre at it and support webcomic creators.

im gonna be grieving about panda (the cat i used to post about here) forever and thats ok too. she passed away 2 years ago in november and i think about her every day. i dont get as emotional about it anymore though. i maybe could if i focused hard enough on it, but i dont have to do that because i have a another cat now who is named bean. she's 4 and is so fuckin silly (and smelly) and i love her a lot. more rambunctious than im used to, but the memories i and @nopecontest have begun building with her have been well worth it. here she is playing mario sunshine

[foxsarah]

for those who are unaware

the infamous "everyone hates me because i defend an actor nobody likes and therefore am a special little victim despite harassing countless mbav-centric blogs"-blog found her way into me & @/morganweir's discord the other night. this post will serve as information for anybody on discord who happens to be unaware of who she is/uncomfortable with interaction. this will also be a retelling of just??? other strange shit theyve said/done in the server??? so yeah 👍

anything with a * will have proof under the cut for the sake of being concise, alt text not yet provided at the time of posting, server members that are not mods have been scribbled out for the sake of their privacy

this is her discord handle, which used to be completely different when she joined. her first username was "sweetgoldensunflower_67494"*, until she changed it to "bennyweirsgirlfriend_86787". to most of us, this was an immediate red flag/signal that this might've been "the benny anon". to me and mer in particular, we wanted to wait to see if we'd possibly misjudged someone's character before making any attempts to kick or ban. some may consider that too slow of a method for taking action with this person, when really, there are a handful of atticus/benny "defenders" to this day who are more normal about hiding that part of themselves than this person, and it would've looked even worse if we kicked someone for seeming like the benny anon.

and for a minute or so, she too seemed normal, until she made her intro. where she faked her age.

you'll notice that a lot of her messages are edited, and some members brought to my attention that her intro said "20" at first instead of "24". why on earth would a 20something year old have their screen/username as "girlfriend of canonical child"? idk! regardless i hadn't noticed the change in her intro due to being busy irl for the majority of her interactions. speaking of interactions,

i'm never going to fault someone for not knowing how to use discord, newer members to our server most likely haven't been using it as long as older members, but this exchange was in reference to our "rules & roles" channel that is set to "read only" mode for members who aren't mods. i assume the "permission" she was talking about was the ability to write messages in that channel.

bringing discourse into our channels isn't exactly uncommon, as most of us are mature enough to have conversations that don't get into personal absolutes like this, in regards to a member's video essay on radio rebel.

at this point, the language used by her messages were just carbon copies of her anons** as all of them followed the same theme of her "fave" being "hated" or attacked. she would go on to assume the worst** of other members the same way. this was expect of her as anyone who's had the displeasure of the benny anon in their inbox knows how she likes to go on her tangents. what we did not expect was her finding a server member's personal instagram page, going through their following list, and choosing to make unnecessary commentary on it.

this was the last straw for me, as i have no patience for cyberstalking no matter how "small" it may seem. i proceeded to ban & block her.

i suggest that yall reading this do not continue to engage with her, especially those who are members of the mbav server, as i'm pretty sure it would do nothing to protect people from potential harassment, nor would it benefit us as people who just want to partake in enjoying mbav.

that's all 👍

*original username

**personalizing critiques of atticus mitchell as "hate"

[mojaves]

hi i need alex lore :3 ✈️🐶🔺🚫💙🖤🥲

✈️ AIRPLANE — does your oc like traveling, or do they consider themselves a more homey person?

he was not a traveller when he was alive. he never wanted to leave the house. ever. but now he's kind of sort of dead, he's pretty much forced to travel around the whole country multiple times a day just to help people die. he insists he HATES it with all his heart but that's actually just because he is beyond pissed at himself for never having experienced life outside his hometown when he could while he was alive. he WANTS to see the world so bad. but it's a little difficult in his current situation bc he very rarely gets to choose to exist. and when that does happen it's maybe for like 5 minutes before he is forcefully dragged back into the afterlife again. he's having a very horribvle time forever and ever basically.

🐶 DOG FACE — does your oc have any pets?

he never had any while he was alive, which is another one of his huge regrets bc he ALWAYS wanted a dog... just never got the chance. and now he's dead. well. i need to think more about this actually this has given me an idea. don't even worry about it

🔺 RED TRIANGLE POINTED UP — does your oc know how to use any weapons?

he knows how to use guns. and knives. whether or not it's particularly well is up for debate bc the only things he has had practice on are ghosts and people who are already dead. which is also funny actually because he basically has an infinite amount of time to practice things like this. yknow. just in case. [he wants to experience the world again sooooooooo badly. but also he's a little insane. you understand] he IS much better with his fists though!!! but only marginally. he looks like a slight breeze could turn him into dust so thats actually huge for him.

🚫 PROHIBITED — does your oc drink/smoke? do they do it regularly, or is it more on occasion or for special events?

ANY CHANCE HE GETS!!!!!!!!! he's dead it doesnt do much to him anyway and thats like. the one fun thing he has enough time to do when he sneaks away to hang out on earth before he gets caught a few minutes later. he has become VERY good at downing drinks within seconds.

💙 BLUE HEART — does your oc have any cool/special powers and/or abilities? how are they with magic, if it exists in their world?

not much of a cool power or anything but like. he's dead. and also alive. exists in the space between life and death because he died weird and got stuck there. so he helps people pass on from life into death to make it. Not So Scary. but the thing is the others in this space are like, spirits who have been doing this for centuries, theyre something beyond human. they were made specifically for this. theyve mastered the art. alex is just some guy who's technically not supposed to be there but also can't be moved around anywhere else without tearing the fabric of reality in one way or another. not ideal!!!!!

🖤 BLACK HEART — has your oc killed or seriously wounded anyone before? have they broken someone's heart and/or broken someone's trust?

well yes many times but at the start of the story it's like, not in the violent sort of way?? he's just. handing people off from life to death. which kind of Technically counts but not really. later on in the story, when he DOES finally get the chance to exist on earth again. well!!!!!!!! lets just say he got a little too excited. again dont worry about it.

he is an asshole. he has broken trust and hearts many times. on account of being an asshole. he can very easily change this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but he doesnt. on account of. You Understand. [he will change. a little bit. eventually. maybe.]

[s0lar-ch3ri]

incorrect im gay and have foamed at the mouth tryna talk about gay pirates since i have no body whos listening to me about them ill do more rambling about them here (again spoilers because i cant bring up these gay as fuck boys without them)

i truly believe chips behaviors arent just connected to expereinces hes shared with the black rose and gillion, but to gillion himself. he sees gillion as a pretty good idea of a hero so he must take a lot of inspo from him (and arlin). however, because hes lived in shadows for so long (and fromn what ive seen really is connected to emotions), i dont think he knows too well on how to not let it fully take over (like a kid whos basing their entire personality on the main character in the movie they just watched). his idealation is not a very good one to say the least and it just adds so much more considering how each of the magic objects they got (the bandana, spyglass, and one other thing i cant remember rn) fit the characters perfectly, but hit way too hard for chip.

not to mention, chips character is built apon every experience he has. the non-violnce until ollie was harmed, his pain during the nightmares being nightmarishly (best descriptor word) real, all he does and says comes from how hes experienced the world, because chip the bastard is a bastard from the experiences he hadnt recieved yet. while i havent gotten past ep 86, it scares me how much in play the memory chip lost actually is. by losing an experience, chip might lose a part of him (tbh the genius play would be to lose the memories of the ship burning nightmare because while relevant chip has had other nightmares so yeah).

i feel that no matter how you see chip and gill's relationship, they are intertwined. theyve lived such different lives yet they act so similar and different that you cant catagorize their characters into one trait or word because you get rid of the other necessary parts. gillion, a champion and hero to the people, one whos loved and hated by all, one who had/has everything and nothing at once and yet still chooses to smile proudly where others weep and turn to the darkness, letting the learning of the world arround him be embraced into his views and morals. chip, a kid who doesnt have any legal last name, one who probably didnt expect any sort of hope, a child who faced so much against the world yet clinged to the hope he made for himself because the world was unkind and took that shit away normally. but chip and gillion? two boys who refuse to stop seeing light in a world where darkness tries to consume them every waking moment, turning the odds of their childhood into a tool, letting those they hang around change them for what they believe is the better.

i just hope chip finds himself some form of better that doesnt result in such negative type emotions because i want him to know that not everything has to be his (and/or gills) fault and that some mess ups you just cant fucking predict or stop because destiny can be a little bitch.

anyways should i do jay next because omfg i can talk about her and gill but mostly her and how much their crew has changed her for the best (aka tune in next time for more gay pirates!)

thinking about him (spoilers for jrwi)

thinking about how in atleast 2 scenarios chip has blamed himself more then needed, first with ollie ("i took him from his home") then with gillion ("i gave him the card") and each time he tried to put on a confident face but really it ate away at him inside.

thinking about how gillion is constantly taking on responsibility and chip canonically sees gillion as inspiration (humble beginnings, bizly says the inspo from the future is from gillion tidestrider) and its not like he only takes some blame but usually its all the blame because gillion knows how to acknowledge his faults somewhat.

thinking about how chip takes promises ever so seriously (ie, not even doing simple lies after promising gill that he wouldnt) yet hes such an example of "change doesnt happen overnight" and how he acts can be directly or indirectly related to past adventures and/or trauma (probably even how he copes is atleast somewhat connected to the guy he killed under price).

thinking about how chip grew up looking up to arlin and seeing what a great example of pirates the black rose were and trying to be something atleast somewhat great and feeling like he failed when hes the only one on deck with somewhat an idea of what a pirate is.

thinking about how chip would lie to protect his friends yes but became a lying machine to protect himself before and hid his intents because while he can absolutely trust his crew his instinct is too not because he got used to being on his own and putting himself first and now hes around people (mostly gill) who put themselves before him to help protect him.

thinking about how easily gillion made friends with people on islands and eventually it rubbed onto chip too (ie: gryffin, felipe, etc) as he unlearned the idea that hes alone in a cruel world that only exists to make him suffer and theres a light in everyones life that makes it even just slightly better, no matter the background (main example is gill again).

thinking about how much gillion is willing to sacrifice for his friends and when felipe wanted to stab him every night, it was chip who tried to talk sense into gill because he cares for gillion and (most likely) was worried that felipe may be lying about healing and may full on kill him.

and all these thoughts (and more) make me feel so much when they found the empty rowboat with nothing but ashes and a fiendish smell and gillion starts blaming himself so chip grabs his shoulders and says "its not your fault, you werent the one who made him grab the card" because somewhere in my heart it feels like maybe chip isnt just talking to gill but to the part of himself that keeps on trying to hold onto every wrong hes done, every sin that keeps him up at night, every lie that is amplified in his skull, that he deserves forgiveness and not everything in the world lays on his shoulders.

and with these thoughts, one more comes to mind: chip and gillion are so similar in backgrounds and morals and thats why theyre the ones that break each others walls and misunderstand each other and fight because they probably dont even fucking see it.

[3416]

Remember that picture of herbots on set back in April? With a fan? It was at the school. So much be seeing Robbe at some point soon. At least if it’s that once. Unless it’s more background stuff :( But I thought we were seeing Yasmina get closer to the broers after her falling out with girls. It all seems hopeless now but I’m not giving up on it.

i mean.. we haven't quite seen the full falling out with the girls yet so :) wait just a couple of hours tbh LKFJDSKL, but like next week school clips, i bet the broerrrs will be there a bit more if actual drama goes down today. normally in the og, she falls out with the girls and makes up with them in the span of a couple days, lol, but wtfock are going to draw it out, i'm sure so... mayhaps.

[aicosu]

Could I ask how Dragon Age Trespasser made you hate Solas? Did you not enjoy the old god twist?

I do not enjoy that Solas bashes you constantly for your traditions, heritage, and way of living as a Dalish after hundreds of years of oppression and evolution, and then because hes a time traveling god, they posture him as correct. I dont care that hes an ancient elvhanan god — I care that Bioware made a shoddy allegory to Indigenous people being called incorrect and bastardizing their own culture when its not their fault they cannot access it anymore. Its their oppressors — and apparently his.

And in Trespasser it becomes apparant that "solas being the real antagonist" was what they wrote first and not the romance. Which theyve admitted, but its egregious in a way that doesnt work in Trespasser. Because the fact that he doesnt speak to you at length is stupid considering the things he says about learning from you that hes wrong to think the present version of dalish arent worth perserving, or even the qunari, because of you and your companions. It doesn't make sense unless the plot demands him continue his plan for sequel reasons.

The fucking ENDING CREDITS says "he knows if he talks to you hell change his mind" lol yeah. Duh. Is that not the point of even having dialogue wheels? Let me agree or disagree with him. Let me change his mind or join him?

His motivations make more sense in their original plan, without romance. But now its messy and weird.

Trespasser to me furthee highlighted how the choices you make in Inquis. Dont matter. Bioware is one of the only choices fantasy rpgs out there and more and more the choices have been tossed out the window. Choosing templars vs mages means nothing. Not for corypheous, not for stort or companions, not even for gameplay — the enemies are virtually the same. Who leads orlais? Doesnt matter to the story, companions, maps, or ending.

Why fucking give me choices then?

Esp in Trespasser where the TELL YOU THE FUTURE about how no matter what the Inquisition will be corrupt. Fuck off, I can see the writers room in between each dialigue just validating their excuse to clean slate for the sequel.

And it reflects in Solas who has a unique character arc based on romance route he throws out the window to be belligerant. Its bad writing, and Solas now just reminds me how tone deaf Bioware can be writing stories thinly based on real world racial dynamics and marginalized peoples.

[demadogs]

There’s this one blog on here that kinda weirds me out because they are so hyper deadest on shipping Foah together. Like whenever they write normal Byler posts, it’s so beautiful! But then, everything else idk. And I know a lot of us joke about Noah wanting to kiss Finn or vice versa but this blog gives off weird vibes because they seem to genuinely want Finn and Noah to date in real life. They also seem to make a lot of assumptions about their feelings for each other just because of their chemistry. And I don’t know how serious this blog is about it but it gives me Larry shipper vibes. Or like the Fack conspiracy all over again, which hurt Finn and Jack’s friendship at the time

oh my god im glad you brought this up i know exactly who youre talking about. every time i make a post telling people not to ship real people it was bc of that blog in particular. i have them blocked so im not afraid to talk about them. we’ve made jokes and memes about noah being the biggest byler shipper and wanting to kiss finn for byler and theyre mostly pretty harmless but this blog is just something else.

youre right, they make so many assumptions. it pisses me off and it does completely give me larry vibes. they talk as if they know finn and noah personally and theyre friends with them and have seen them interact. or like theyre an out couple like natalia and charlie. they usually respond to anons who call them out on it with something like “i dont ship foah, i just observe their interactions and anyone can see that they are crushing on each other”. that bothers me so much. like observe what the 5 minute press interviews?? you dont fucking know them. save your analyses for things that have been intentionally written and mapped out for FICTIONAL media, not two kid actors just being themselves. and then they’ll try to call the anons homophobic by being like “whys it such a big deal for noah to have a little crush on him??”, still fully talking as if its public knowledge and we’re the bad guy like oh my god how are you not understanding the issue here.

ive also noticed that they ignore anybody who tells them that finn has a gf. they just wont answer the anon (i know bc i have sent one) or ignore any replies about it. they live in this weird bubble where they choose to believe these real people are dating. and like ok i cant stop you from thinking theyd be cute together, theres nothing wrong with that, what makes it problematic is trying to read into their interactions and expressions and publicly suspect their relationship and sexualities on the internet. and again, they always try to be like “theres no harm in it im not directly @ ing finn or noah” but this is the internet. anybody can screenshot anything and put it anywhere. there is always a chance that either of them could see their posts and it could be so bad if they did. i dont think theyve ever once considered what it could be like to be finn or noah and see this.

like yes, there is a chance they’d just laugh about how ridiculous it is and move on but what if one of them actually was questioning their sexuality and then they saw some random person on the internet reading into it like this??? that would be so fucking hard. jack came out as bi after people were shipping him and finn so much. i cant imagine how anxiety provoking it would be to see what people were saying about him and finn while being in the closet. it gives ME anxiety on their behalf!! i hope so bad theyre blissfully unaware of this.

one anon told them that theyre using foah as a coping mechanism after byler didnt work out how they wanted in s4 and theyre so right. before vol 2 came out i saw maybe two posts from them in the byler tag about it that kinda weirded me out but after volume two they just turned into a foah blog instead of byler. they literally had byler in their url before and then they changed it to foah for fucks sake. and they still have the nerve to claim they dont ship them and what theyre doing is completely fine and just “observation”.

also i was looking at their blog once and they mentioned that they were 31 years old…. look it is not weird to ship byler at any age. i have personally as a 22 year old been told that its weird for me to ship byler and analyze these fictional characters and i completely disagree with that. theres nothing weird about shipping characters at any age even if the characters are kids (as long as youre not nasty about it) but real people??? god i would have been SO relieved if this person was like 15. i would not have gone as hard on them as i am right now if they were a kid because i would assume they would grow and eventually realize that its weird and invasive. i mean i remember reading stupid fanfics about youtubers when i was 14 but i grew and matured and realized how insane that is and no longer had any interest in reading into real peoples love lives. but i cannot excuse any adult shipping them like this.

god this ended up being so long i just had a lot to say. moral of the story: if actors have great chemistry on screen together it just means theyre good at their job, it doesnt mean theyre dating or crushing on each other in real life.

[xamaxenta]

Also please consider that Sabo is not a skinny ropey malnutritioned waning waif of a man with the constitution of a withering victorian child in this au

He’s just as sun blessed and beautiful as Ace, in a different way though, he has his whiteppl tan and a broad shouldered shipshape musculature, he wont ever be as top heavy as Ace is but he looks alive and Marco has to fucking run

Transforms even to utilise the power and speed of his aerodynamic avian body when Ace and Sabo finish taking on Pops ink, bold purple and black across Ace’s back in an unmistakable claim and the dark navy of the anchorlike emblem Marco himself wears splitting dark and possessive down Sabo’s chest in a similar fashion

Holes up in the infirmary because its where he’s been scheduled to be for the day but it also doesnt really work out in his favour because Sabo visits him, linen shirt white and crisp and open to keep it from touching the raw fresh tattoo across his chest

Takes a seat with such elegance that opposes his general person and levels him with a look at is a little too personal that Marco pretends to busy himself with a new file, he doesnt have Sabo or Ace’s records prepared yet after all

“Is it always this itchy?” Sabo speaks up and Marco glances at him, ah the tattoo right

“Yes, its normal though just refrain from touching it.” Marco reassures and Sabo sighs tipping his head back, golden waves brushing back over his shoulders and Marco sees just how far the tattoo extends, up to just beneath his chin it seemed, were they trying to kill him?

He wants. Aches to trace that bold line up the line of Sabos throat so badly he feels his talons manifest, whether its with his tongue or fingers it didn’t matter—

“Great i may have scratched my nipple a few times cuz i was gonna go crazy otherwise, that gonna make it blow out or something?”

Marco almost crushes his quill, Sabo tattooed over his own nipple. No nipples, sabo had the design -

“Get ya head out of the gutter ya dirty old man.” Sabo cuts his thoughts clean in two, beheaded for a brief moment Marco reorients and finds himself momentarily speechless

“I never said anything about my nipples like that.” Sabo grins, toothy, his teeth are marvelously straight, it makes Marco wonder if Sabo’s upbringing had anything to do with it.

Theyre straight and white and undeniably sharp.

Marco also realises he may have let something he shouldn’t’ve slip. The look in Sabo’s eyes in indecipherable but holds the same weight a predator does when stalking and locking in on their chosen meal target of the day.

“Do you want me to prescribe anything for that? We’ve got ointments.” Right remember what he is here for. Marco can do that, hes a doctor, a damn good one too

“What?” Sabo laughs, he’s fucking gorgeous, “you want me to cream my nipples?”

Enough with the nipples! Marco feels a tension headache throbbing between the bridge of his nose and radiating up into the space behind his brows.

“Whos nipples are we creamin?”

Ace chooses that exact moment to saunter on into the infirmary, boots thunking on hardwood leaving behind a tittering gaggle of flustered nurses in his wake.

Marco hates to admit that now with both of them present in his office, feels incredibly outnumbered despite knowing he could take either of these brats on, both even, with one arm shackled to his ankle and the shackles could also be made of seastone and it wouldnt change the outcome

“Mine. Apparently.” Sabo has that brazen fucking sharptooth smile pulling at his mouth again

Ace mirrors it, its like two beasts, coming to finish off the prey theyve tactfully wounded and hounded until the brink of exhaustion

“Oh cool. Is Mr Marco gonna show you how to do it?” Ace shoots Marco a meaningful look at he speaks, steel eyes molten with intent.

Sabo doesnt blush like Marco does at the . Title? Its not the title that leaves him hot beneath the collar is it?

The ace and sabo are pirates and join the WBP au imagine both getting flung overboard by Pops and Marco fishes both out and Sabo’s absolutely stunned like whe

What

He cannot process the concept that someone wanted to save him!!! Ace would! But Ace has a devil fruit, Ace is the one he needs to save every time and hes completely floored like I had that dude

Marco transforms back to his human state (the first time either Ace or Sabo have actually seen the phoenix in action and god its beautiful) and hes like whats wrong? If i didnt fetch you both youd be the worlds cutest anchors by now lol

Sabo working his jaw: you? Think i have a fruit?

Marco wrings out his shirt, Ace got it all wet from his flailing, he forgives him tho it was cute: yeah youve got a paramecia right? The shit you do with your hands, Which one is it?

Its not really dragon claw Sabo never learnt but his insane grip strength is canon to me in ways that Ace has daddy issues and so he still knows how to shatter metal between his fingers and ofc skulls

Sabo raises his eyebrows, dude i dont have a fruit i was gonna fish Ace out n save you the trouble

Marcos turn to be surprised, brows raised, he had been so so sure that Sabo had a devil fruit too, considering Ace being a logia and their closeness it made sense for his effective second to have one too

“You mean to say you’ve been cracking those cannon balls with your fingertips—“

“Raw?” Sabo flexes his fingers grins as Ace coughs up salt water and moans with the aggravated temperament of a man whos lost too many times (not wrong but hes allowed to be mad about it)

“Yeah, our gramps liked to toss that shit our way every chance he could. You learn to deal with it”

Our gramps twists something mean inside Marcos gut, who the fuck would shoot cannonballs at their own damn family? More importantly who even had the budget to afford to waste munitions on a bunch of kids

Our. ?Theyre brothers?

He couldve sworn he saw them kissing under the sail awning the other day, not that that really mattered to Marco the issue at hand was cannonballs and this kid saying right to his face that not only could he catch them barehanded but shatter them too

Ace finally finds his voice and barks out a laugh “metals not the only thing sabos good at shattering”

Marco shouldnt bite but the bait is beautiful shiny and Ace and Sabo shaped

“Oh yeah?” He chomps down on the bait

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okay so, im about to go ham because i truly stand strong in my shoujo fantasy.

In my opinion, im pretty sure (like 89%) lucifer tells us that whenever mammon breaks off a relationship with someone, they go broke completely after. so hes had previous relationships before, as for the rest of the boys, im pretty sure lucifer has, but nothing serious, he wont let anyone in, MC is literally the only person who has pushed past his walls and seen him for more than pride. satan, 100% he has never had a relationship, levi, has had a couple of fwbs and other relationships but they always fizzle out, never lasting. asmo has never had a serious relationship, always just flings. belphie never had a serious relationship and same with beel. i truly believe MC is their first true loves, i know what youre thinking "theyve been alive for so long, theres no way someone couldnt have been special to them" but the thing is, theyre so different with MC; their entire dynamic and relationships changed with MC, MC saw them for more than their sin and got to know them to their very core, while yes the other relationships never lasted, thats not to say the boys didnt love them; but just not in the way they love MC. i believe MC to be a true love, not just a love, the difference for me is all of the boys would gladly give up chasing MC once she finds herself happy with another brother, instead of forcing them to choose yk? the "as long as youre happy, it kills me everytime i look at you smile at him, but i love you too much to let you be miserable with me" and i dont think any of them have experienced. also, with the whole "new relationship" thing, the honey moon phase, while yes every couple has it, i feel like with MC it would just, last. not to say they wouldnt have fights; ofc they would, but its different with MC, everyday the brothers would wake up and chose the option to love and fall in love all over again, speaking further on that, i dont think any of them would truly get over MC. and i mean that; (i dont think MC is going to die, obey me devs have something planned LOL, plus theyre super powerful, like the other anon said i dont think theyd be able to really function without them, even if they do "get over" mcs death at some point.) after MC dies i feel like the family dynamic wouldnt be the same, the brothers would get quieter and would never truly forget about it? and every relationship would fail because theyre not MC (you dont have to agree but i love reverse harems), like i 100% hc that after MC chooses another brother or after they die, mammon would try and try to find new flings, even after its been decades mammon finds someone whos super similar to MC, their look, personality, etc, but one wrong move and theyre out. (say MC doesnt like pickles, but the replacement for MC does, he would immediately start crying and call mc a stupid human who he shouldnt have fallen for.) anyways in conclusion, i truly dont think MC would ever die canonically in the obey me game, the devs are sneaky (love you devs), but even if they would, i really feel like they would never get truly over it. some part of me truly believes that the brothers would go back to being distant, how they were before. they would sit at the table and eat in silence, asmo would begin partying ten times harder (since we already know he uses his ego to cover up his major insecurity of people not liking him and how he feels about himself) and the brothers would become even more indugled in their sin. also, for every relationship they would have, they would just compare them to MC, and yeah but I cannot see MC dying. the other stuff about what the brothers would be like after MC dies could also be applied to when MC chooses her s/o. i think the brothers would be super fucking hurt, that was their first love, their first understanding who walked out and chose someone who wasnt them. anyways thats all, you dont have to reply i just felt like i needed to get this off of my chest, also im gonna be pretty frequent on your blog ( i love ur writing ) so im gonna call myself cake anon! have a great day! - cake anon

Hello Cake! iluuu! Thanks for this, i really love getting every ones take on these things! And there is defs a lot that i agree with here. 

I agree with the Mammon part. Out of all of the brothers, i feel he is probably the easiest to get emotionally attached in a relationship, so i see him as the one with the most previous relationships. Asmo coming in second, but his being mostly flings or poly/open relationships. I’m sure Mammon has had some serious ones as well as many flings, where Asmo’s have never been overly serious and certainly never long lasting. I’m also sure Luci has had a few, some more serious than others, but he wouldn’t get overly attached emotionally. I’m sure he’d be too busy with Diavolo since arriving, being the workaholic he is. I’m sure not many partners would be willing to deal with that level of non-commitment and emotional unavailability from him.Levi I feel like all his relationships never left that awkward early stage, and his only ‘serious’ relationships would have been strictly online, maybe a couple meetups that made him nope right out of it. Satan, again, has probably just gone on some casual dates but didn’t have much interest in actually dating rather than gaining connections. i feel like Beel is the most likely candidate to have had healthy previous relationships. He is pretty well balanced emotionally and has a good outlook on love and family values. I’m sure he’s had a few serious relationships and has dated his share of people. Belphie gives me vibes of had one or two previous serious relationships that did not end well at all and now he’s a salty sob over it lmao. 

I still don’t feel like MC is necessarily their first true love, but maybe the first different kind of love for them. MC has reached them in ways no one else has, they don’t try to change anything, they fit in well with the whole family, they understand their sins etc. I have loved a few different people in my life, and each one was such a different experience for me. The first guy i loved, i consider to be my first true love. However, it didn’t work. And then i met the man I eventually married, he wasn’t my first true love, but it was a better kind of love, yk? 

And uugghh you ripped my heart out with how the brothers would feel if MC chose a different brother!!!! Because they all would be so heartbroken it’s not them, but they really truly just want mc to be happy and cared for, and they know their brother would keep them safe and provide well. 

A few asks ago, i mentioned that the brothers would move on eventually. I think there is a big difference in moving on and getting over that I maybe didn’t articulate very well. If MC were to die or choose someone else, they would move on eventually, but they might not ever really get over it. My heart hurts just thinking about how they would feel trying to move on. Like you mentioned, the empty, quiet dinner tables, lackluster parties and festivals, it would be like they lost their best friend. (i giggled picturing your mammon scenario with the pickle because that’s exactly how he’d react to something so small lmaooo)

I also agree that i don’t think the devs will kill mc off (again), that just seems like a really crappy way to end the game!! I’m curious to see how they would make different routes go if you can only romance one of them end game, vs you being able to have them all? I wonder if we’d get a choice in the whole becoming immortal thing or not? 

Sorry if this reply was too long and rambly, i absolutely love discussing these kinds of things!! I always welcome these asks!!! 

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i was going to dump this into @time-and-space​‘s inbox, but then it spiraled out of control and became super long. so im making it into a post. heres some thinking abt doctor who/torchwood/class/merlin parallels ! (specifically abt the parallels between tenrose/janto/charlie x matteusz/merthur) (keep in mind that my knowledge on merlin is not so good) (also feel free to correct me if im wrong or add anything on) (also this contains spoilers for ... all the shows. pls watch them, theyre good)

ive been thinking about the whole theme between charlie and matteusz where theyre like ?? scared to lose each other ?? and how it totally parallels to the other things like .... we have one character whos different and immortal and alien (not to mention the trauma they've been through-), but another who is supposedly "normal" and human. so, they work with it right ?

but then theres the ever-present danger of what they have to go through daily, and the fear that its going to leave them alone. i mean, they've already been left alone, but now that they've actually fallen in love, its different. its harder now.

consider the following lines:

"i think of it every day, and the only thing that stops me is you." (class, e6) 

"i take it all back, but not him!"(torchwood, s3e4) (theres probably a better quote but no think, head empty)

"i could save everyone, but lose you." (doctor who, uhhh idk but i swear the doctor said something like it at some point, pls correct me if im wrong)

and yes, theyve felt this before, the pain of their entire race being wiped out, no one left but them, and everyone seems to leave them in the end. but for one second, they stop and actually think they have a chance for a while. someone who might stay.

ALSO it works as like .... the normal person is scared of the other, scared of what they can do and how they are ....

consider the following lines:

"im afraid of who you are, of what you're capable of, of what you will do" (class e6)

"you like to think you're a hero, but you're the biggest monster of all." (s1e4)

"what about you, doctor? what the hell are you changing into?" (doctor who, s1e6)

the person who has been through so much is capable of doing so many things, and sometimes it scares the other one. but they witnessed genocide ! and theyre probably traumatized over it ! theyve probably done some terrible shit as a result of it ! both of them are so valid in being that way.

and another parallel i have just thought of, mentioned a lot already, but the recurring theme of killing off an entire race and how that affected the alien character ....

consider the following situations:

doctor who - the time war, in which the doctor participated, and eventually ended. // when 9 was planning to kill off the last of the daleks in the parting of ways, hesitating for a bit, knowing that it would end up destroying earth in the process, making them no better than what the daleks are

torchwood - jack's planet and how it got invaded, how his parents died as a result and why his brother did everything that happened in exit wounds. // ummm i think maybe how willingly jack was able to give the girl up to the fairies to save the human race, like hes seen what the fairies are capable of, hes seen what disasters mass murder can bring. he doesnt want to see it again. 

class - well, the shadowkin invasion, both on rhodia and when it happens on earth (both times) but also the invasion with the flowers ? // how much he really wants to just kill the shadowkin like ! he even mentioned it once ("i want to murder the shadowkin. every last one ...." e6) and he just wants to do it out of revenge. but “we shouldnt avenge genocide with genocide” (we're not going to talk abt how the only thing stopping him is that he would lose matteusz in the process)

but yeah ! theyve seen first hand what it like, and when prompted to do the same thing themselves, they end up hesitating, eventually choosing the other option instead. (well... except charlie. he does it once at least.) 

and finally, immortality. this ties in a lot w my first point abt losing the other person .....

doctor who - pretty easy to think about, the doctor has had so many companions over the years, and each time they end up leaving them. even after he meets rose, who wished to stay together forever ("how long are you gonna stay with me?" "forever.") but then she ends up leaving, the doctor is left to continue on for so much longer ..

torchwood - pretty same as above, jack never commits himself to a relationship, he knows everyone will leave him anyway. but then he meets ianto jones. and it all changes, he falls in love, which he said he would never do, and thats why he doesnt ever say "i love you," because once he says it then he cant deny it any longer. once he says it than he will have to admit that ianto, someone that he does love, is lost to him.

class - ok, charlie isnt technically immortal from what i know, but i am assuming he probably has a longer lifespan than humans (basing this off this line - "you want to know who would be the last one standing out of the five of us? i would." e6) so ! its mentioned a lot (and is the main theme, as i said earlier) that matteusz and charlie dont want to lose each other. i want to specifically point out the line “every day i think, please dont go where i cant follow.” (e8) because it just so implies that charlie is different. he can go places, live longer than matteusz ever can. 

going to add this onto the end here, but i just thought that actually merlin kinda fits into this too ! 

loss - the loss of his father, of his one childhood friend (will?), the knights of the round table (pretty sure a lot of them die too, correct me if im wrong) and even arthur who leaves in the end. everyone around him just seems to leave or turn bad 

fear - we all know merlin is powerful, right ? i mean i swear it says somewhere hes like ... the greatest sorcerer to ever live or smth. and yes, arthur doesnt technically fear him, but if we think about what would have happened if merlin revealed his magic earlier, when camelot was still under the rule of uther and arthur was still scared of ppl w magic .... idk abt this one ndjnsjd it works in my head okay

trauma - had to get some help from @a-confused-contradictory-mess​ here and she brought up some good points ! when he was younger, because of his magic, he never really fit in. his mother made him hide, because she feared what would happen if he found out. (i ... think?) imagine what that does to someone, having to hide something about yourself for so long.

immortality - after everyone leaves around him, theres kinda no escape. he has to live with it for all the years that his immortal life goes by. this ties in a lot w how jack and the doctor feel, with everyone around them making them left all alone. 

tldr: losing the one person they always thought would stay, one being scared of the other's power, the trauma affecting one of them, immortality and the price that comes w it are all some really good parallels between these ships/shows and genuinely kill me inside

[kylorengarbagedump]

not the same anon referring to the video but you actually do deserve basic respect and someone who is 20 years old should know how to give the basic respect and it’s not your fault that anyone went at her bc they were gonna see it regardless considering a lot of us follow her tiktok and she had made reference to the fic in the recent past however you’re right no one had to be immature and “attack” her but she also should’ve just respected you and not made a whole ass video

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

Don’t feel bad hun. Writing is a creative outlet, and what looks like a passion for you. It doesn’t matter what you choose to write about, everyone deserves respect in any art form. Of course critics are everywhere however it doesn’t change the fact you deserve all the love and respect in the world just like any other artist out there.

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

stop downplaying yourself! seriously! you are human and you deserve respect. she had the right to post that, but her right to do that doesn't mean she wasn't rude and disrespecting to you knowing it upset you. please, you are worth more than you think.

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

you're gonna make me cry 🥺 you are not a big baby for wanting respect or being upset about something that hurt you. your feelings are so fucking valid ily 

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

You take some time! I think ur totally within ur rights to have felt uncomfy, and to not be happy that people went after that person. This is just my thinking, but i feel like if they knew it would make you uncomfy, they shouldn't do it. i saw someone else say this, but bullying is not criticism (didnt watch the video, idk how far it went) but i've heard the things theyve said elsewhere and...yikes. just bc they CAN "criticise" doesnt mean they should if theyre actually bullying.

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

In times of great anxiety and worry, I like to let other people know just how much they are appreciated. So, this is me, letting you know that you are amazing and valued! I hope you're having a fantastic day! 

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Anonymous said to kylorengarbagedump:

I mean yeah you haven’t done much but given tons of people an outlet to project their Kylo fantasies, earned the respect of a community, and continually feed that choice kylo content. These people are dragging because it gets them attention and their 2 milliseconds of fame and age doesn’t excuse that. If she’s getting dragged, it’s sadly her own fault.

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I wanted to answer all of these at once and just say your words are deeply appreciated, though I feel completely undeserving of your kindness and generosity toward my silly emotions, I do feel very humbled by the fact that people, for whatever reason, give a shit about how I feel, haha. I am not owed that, I genuinely believe that--I just enjoy creating work, I know people are not really here for me, so for y’all to extend this thoughtfulness makes me feel small in the best way. Truly, I am very very lucky.

Thanks, y’all. I am working hard at this new chap of LB. I hope to have it posted tomorrow afternoon. <3 

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stuff about my characters and how they fit into the world (world post)

kedzie is a 20 year old male who’s just taken two gap years to fit in with society and get used to living on his own. he lives in whats essentially a mass dorm, where he met his best friend, abernathy (more on her in a bit). hes essentially failed at his goal, which was to fit into society around him and make friends. see, ked has a huge problem. whenever he’s scanned, his seratonin levels are steadily fallen and when the story opens, he’s almost at the point where he will be hospitalized until he’s fixed. in modern days, ked would be diagnosed with major depressive disorder, as he generally finds less enjoyment in things than he did before and is down all the time. he finds this to be overwhelming and doesnt leave his apartment/dorm, where he lives with his companion, often. he mostly just lays in bed and wallows. every friend he has made has left him, except for a girl named abernathy, who lives in his building. hes placed into college and is expected to go after his gap years are over, but personally doesn’t think he’ll be able to handle it, as his symptoms started in high school.

kedzie is mixed race. hes primarily (eatern) asian american, mixed with white and south asian. his family life was fine but as per custom of the world, he’s distanced himself. hes mostly cut off from the world around him, though he goes along with the world just fine. however, he fears hospitalization and is terrified that once hes taken away, he’ll never come back. his fear is a very real one, and he questions what they can do for him there that the medication hasnt done for him at home.

abby (abernathy) is a 19 year old fillipina woman who’s made friends with ked. theyre closer than most people are in the world, and abby makes it her mission to get kedzie out of his funk. so far, it hasn’t worked, but fuck if she isnt determined. she has had a turbulent life, as her mother and father were caught as part of the underground and arrested when she was very young. everything about abby is unconventional, from her tastes to her appearance to her relationships to even her name. when she was a baby, her parents gave her a name that wasn’t on the allowed list (abernathy, though at the time, it wasn’t that big of a deal), and abby still goes by that name, even though shes been encouraged to change it legally to abigal. abby pushes the limits of what’s allowed, as she dyes the tips of her hair pink and wears revealing clothing. she can be characterized as a party girl, as she often attends parties and has many friends, though she’s taken a major and strange interest in kedzie.

one day, she convinces kedzie to attend a party with her after questioning him about his mood. he agrees after abby’s trademark badgering, and goes with her. the party is tame, though kedzie finds it suffocating. he leaves to go outside to find respite. there, he meets one of the runners of the underworld, a man named andre.

andre and nadine are twins, but they’re fraternal. they look alike enough, with their freckles, green eyes, dark skin, and frizzy hair. theyre mixed african-asian and white (french in specific), but took particular interest in their african and french sides, hence the names they chose for themselves. they are essentially the runners of the underworld, but not in the way one might expect.

upon meeting them, they appear less than menacing, and it seems like their roles are reversed. nadine is small due to a defect in growing (ill get to that in a second) and andre stands at over six feet tall, way taller than most men are. andre wears his hair in dreds, something that’s typically not allowed, and wears glasses, although vision problems are typically corrected in modern society (nadine has vision issues, too, but chooses to wear contacts). upon initially meeting them, one might assume that of their team, nadine is the brains while andre is the brawn, when their roles are actually completely reversed. nadine is a ruthless fighter and has never lost a fight, while andre is typically the orchastrator of plans.

they have a complicated history. andre is the only one who remembers their early childhood. nadine only knows what andre tells her. andre and nadine grew up in the world until about the age of six or seven, at which point they were reported by their parents and it was determined that they were mentally ill. nadine was determined to be far worse off, though, and the entire reason they were reported was because their mother had witnessed nadine ruthlessly and cruelly killing an animal while andre did nothing. this was after a long history of nadine being in trouble at school for violence and speaking out against things. andre was more quiet in his mental illness, though he was characterized as having terrible and violent mood swings. their parents tried to control them, but ultimately failed.

they were instantly taken away from their parents and separated.they were chosen for research, since twins were a rare thing, and both of them having a disorder were even rarer. nadine was determined to have a far worse disorder and she acted violently towards anyone who came near her. andre was determined to be well enough for rehabilitation, but fought against it in an attempt to see his sister. nadine was so drugged that it messed with her brain chemistry even more, forcing parts of her brain to completely shut down. her memory was wiped, hence why she remembers nothing, and eventually, enough parts of her brain shut down and became defective due to the extreme amount of drugs she was on, that she completely stopped feeling emotion. she became what the doctors described as a monster, as she was ruthlessly violent towards them for years before they decided enough was enough.

andre, on the other hand, wasnt damaged. or, at least, he wasnt damaged as much. he was still heavily drugged, but not to the extent nadine was. he was also allowed more freedoms and there was a particular doctor that gave him updates on nadine. he was informed early on that nadine did not remember him and because of that, any attempts to escape with her would be met with violence from her. andre believes this for a while, and believes in what he’s told, but as they prepare to release him, he makes plans to escape.

he succeeds and rescues nadine, who cooperates with him. the two run. by this point theyre about 11-12 and they attempt to leave the city while andre attempts to make nadine understand who he is.

nadine and andre are now about 22-23. nadine’s brain is still completely messed up from what the government did to her. while she has a close bond with her brother and inner circle, feeling actual love is difficult and near impossible for her. at the beginning of the story, it’s determined that the only person nadine actually loves is andre and even then, her love for him is a little convoluted. theyre very close, something thats rare in this society, and many of the people that they with are still incredibly confused by their relationship, as close familial relationships are completely unheard of. still, nadine and andre are completely inseparable and they do everything together.

nadine has made progress, but her emotions are still wild and violent. every emotion that she feels is amplified times ten of that of a normal person, and the two emotions that she actually shows are anger and happiness. sadness is a foreign concept to her in the same way love is. those two parts of her brain still aren’t working right, though progress has been made by zephyr (more on her in a bit). nadine has a particular enjoyment of music and she likes learning about the old world. shes still incredibly violent and close to anger and of the two of them, shes the brawn, though she stands at a very short stature due to the growth centers in her brain being damaged. nadine is off of all government drugs, and only takes the things that zephyr gives her.

andre, however, turned out a little differently. he takes old-world medication that was originally intended for bipolar disorder and it makes him functional. he takes a particular interest in  computers and like nadine, the old world. the two of them reconnected with their heritage at one point, and chose new names. andre changed their names in the official system and successfully erased all instances of their old identities. the information loss was huge, as nadine and andre were some of the only twins studied by the government, and one night, all the studies and information was gone without a trace

nadine and andre run an empire. theyre young, but theyre the leaders of the underworld. with the help of zephyr and the rest of their inner circle, theyve engineered a drug thats non-addictive but will allow people to feel the high of real emotion. this is how they get people to join them--by showing them what is possible. this is how they built their empire, and all activity in the underworld is connected to them and their inner circle in some way or another. andre and nadine have bigger plans, though, bigger plans than their wide range of dealers, runners, and informants can handle, and they plan to one day take down the government.

zephyr is the next most important character. she’s around 24, though her real age is unknown. shes almost as short as nadine is, though a little taller, and she’s almost completely asian. zephyr is undeniably autistic, something that isnt allowed in society. she has many typical autistic behaviors. she doesnt recall much of her life before being taken by the government, but she was taken at a young age and held until she was about 13 in the same facility that nadine and andre were. she was considered ‘high functioning’, so she wasn’t immedaitely ‘taken care of’, but she was still heavily mistreated. she escaped during andre and nadine’s escape, though she didnt meet up with them until much later.

by the time zephyr met up with nadine and andre, she was around 16 and living on the streets and could not speak. after refusing to cut it for years, her hair had grown to the point where it dragged on the floor. she did not take care of herself. nadine caught her eye one night and took her in, where the two of them instantly bonded. zephyr began to talk and allowed nadine to cut her hair to her waist. zephyr was nadine’s first real friend.

zephyr took a huge interest in science immediately and read everything she could get her hands on. andre and her bonded over this and became fast friends. nadine taught zephyr how to put her hair up into pigtails, though zephyr still prefers that nadine do it for her. zephyr soon began practicing science and became the group’s scientist. she is closest with the twins and her and nadine share a room and a bed together in the headquarters. zephyr is the one to run tests on nadine and andre knows that zephyr has a bit of a crush on her. zephyr is off of all government drugs and has been since she escaped.

then theres racine. racine is the oldest of the group by far at 44. shes the ‘mother’ of the group and is almost entirely latina. she was actually the original leader of the gang, but before nadine and andre joined, it was small and struggling. raci takes care of all the members of the group, as she lost her only child before she left the city. her child was determined to be mentally ill and transgender and taken away from her by force. nadi was thrown in a rehabilitaion center three times before she gave up and ran away from the city. she has a close bond with all the members of the inner circle and has since stepped down from her position as leader. she doesnt leave the headquarters much, and takes care of the rest of the inner circle from there and makes sure the missions go smoothly.

racine is somewhat of emotional support, but essential to the group. she was an aspiring artist at one point, but it was determined by the government that she wasn’t allowed to pursue that passion and was punished for drawing when she was found out. her husband turned her in multiple times for acting strangely and raci quickly fell out of love with him. her child was the one thing that racine truly loved in the city, and he was taken away from her because he was born female. she never saw him again, and it was revealed to her by andre a few years back that her child had died in the facility.

racine’s true passion is art and taking care of people. since her one biological child was taken away from her. she views the others of the inner circle as her children. she raised nadine and andre from the time they escaped until now, and she also raised zephyr, as well. shes proud of all them and does what she can to help them, and they all have a certain respect for her. andre loves her as if she were his biological mother, and zephyr and nadine show it a little differently, though she doesnt mind. right now, though, noyes is her priority.

noyes is the youngest of the group, and nadine was extremely iffy about taking them in. noyes is a professional informant who worked their way up from runner to the inner circle, where andre and racine took huge interest in them. nadine was swayed by racine into taking them in when racine confessed to her that noyes reminded her so much of her late son. nadine relented and allowed them into her inner circle, though noyes has been slow to adapt.

noyes is undeniably jaded. they are latinx and genderfluid, and that was the reason they were singled out and mistreated by the government so heavily. they escaped the government’s clutches and worked for the underworld, working their way up from a lowly runner to the inner circle. they keep to themself and are extremely quiet. theyre incredibly good at getting information out of people, and thats their strongest suit. andre has made attempts to get close to them, but noyes pushes him away, as well as everyone else. they particularly respect nadine for being cautious and also for leaving them alone for the most part.

noyes is, however, close with racine. racine never gave up on trying to get through to them and eventually succeeded. they remind raci of her son, but she’s careful to make the distinction between them. racine is currently trying to reverse the damage done to noyes on the street and by the governemnt, and is making slow progress.

thats what i have of the characters so far!! sorry that was so long omg

[fromtherightside]

Even dumpster fights for the reign of the darkness , not when you expect it , theyll find you when you try to make peace and get in when theyve done it all , but no there is no peace with those against the system .

When you steal from the dumpster the things that the black guy owns because he keeps order in the dumpster area for the government and his people work as sanitary social workers in the block and people stare at you because you are not a regular about it and then you stare at them and they stop to stare at you more like asking for anything that might come and the black guy profits of the situation to give commands and tell you dont make a mess there and dont take those things you heard me and then you steal water from the bottle of the air conditioner leaking tube to wash your hands from the dirt and from partecipating in such activities you are a danger to the world , nobody ever takes water from their leaking tube of air conditioner ! The dirtiest people were those staring and then staring and trying to stop because they need to be right about something they need a conflict they need to make up something , but the dumpster guy made her the dirtiest of the whole world , its like satan everywhere in the people of the city and the dumpster people . See this is reality . Boy ive seen some things in my life some very very damned things . And theres no way to unsee them , because with what i see ,  people try with all they have to put it out there , i never tried that much , id be schizophrenia,, like trying something good with the same amount of trying hard against whats bad , i simply didnt choose to look away when someone stares at me for no reason and trying to put out something and i could feel they were about to seek issues , imagine trying to do more in this kind of world . Sometimes i really really think im in hell , or like they say they brought them all here , theres too much alteration , all the time about anything , with everybody . And it didnt used to be like this and when it did it was considered bad and it had consequences , but im seeing an unnatural repetition case for many years , nothing unplugs from the machine . Then I keep walking and my legs and body shake because thats my structure , so theres more staring and trying to compose something about it , because no alter pride behaviour now translates as trying to get attention , by acting natural , theres no being natural concept so when their staring evaluates my stamina they feel victorious and throw some words get in the car and drive fast to take victory with them after they suceffully burned the village by exposing physical behaviour intention and worthlessness meanwhile the target was affected  , and then i hear from a bars tv some guy talking about christ and saying exactly these words : Yeah he rejected their Torah and so they crussified him , or he by approving of his wway made known he rejected their torah . So thats when I had it enough , and went home to steal from my own time and life some space for truth and decency where they matter in my , what has remained free , sitting seat , a hour a corner alone not being reached and reaching no hell from nothing and no one , is that place real comparing to what the machine has and keeps growing over me ? I want to believe that place is real and that place is mine , I also want to believe , things will change in time .

[cencoroil]

22 Questions Tag Game !

tagged by @kpopisthereasonihavenolife​ !! thank you lovely i barely post anything myself sjdhfsd so here goes ! 

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Rules: Answer the questions then tag people

1 - Name: Tanya (pronounced TAN-yuh like a suntan, not tawn-yuh but most people mix it up o well)

2 - Nickname: tan, tbow, uhhhh T? not much w my name!

3 - Star Sign: pisces ! (if anyones into astro im a pisces sun, leo moon, libra rising!)

4 - Gender: female but gender is dumb n confusing idk

5 - Sexuality: bi mayhaps? im 21 but still questioning skdfhd

6 - Favorite Colour: maroon! like that plum ish colour?

7 - Time Right Now: 9:46 pm

8 - Average Hours of Sleep: hm between 4-8? avg probs 5 or 6 tho

9 - The Last Thing I Googled: hm the exchange rate between US $ to CAD $, boring

10 - Number of Blankets: 1 on rn but i own Too Many

11 - Favorite Fictional Character: uuuu this is hard i have way too many, but rn i just finished mp100 so mob owns my entire heart

12 -  What are you wearing right now: canada day pj shorts n a black sports bra thats so comfyyyy

13 - Favorite Book: It’s so hard to choose favourites im too emotional like i was a warriors kid but i honestly havent read enough boosk latly to choose? im too indecisive for these questions sdkfhd

14 - Favourite Musician: too many! rn tho monsta x has me by the throat but also the paper kites have had me for so long, and shinee was my first kpop groups so they are always #1 in my heart

15 - Dream Job: not sure? im taking a gap year from school rn cus im undecided? but honestly, i love languages, i would love to just learn languages and be an interpretor or something? or even to teach abroad? like i lived in chile for years n went to an international school it’d be cool to be able to teach english or another language idk theyve always clicked for me

16 - Number of followers: 521! a lot fo bots probs dsdh but idc about the count, im just here to follow people n reblog en masse

17 - When did you create your account: o lord,, i joined tumblr in probs 2010 or so? a loooong time ago

18 - What do you post about: i usuall dont post personally lol but i reblog everything from fandom stuff like anime, kpop, video games, to like just funny n cute stuff idk !

19 - What made you get an account: I was a choild n making all sorts of social media idk why specifically tbh

20 - When did your blog reach its peak: kdhfjsd ive never been on here to gain followers just to have fun so im not exactly pushing it to be anything !

21 - Do you get asks on a daily basis: practically never, i get the occasional like ask game things? but usually ive reblogged it then buried it in other stuff so ill get like a random emoji n not know what its for sjdhs so sorry if anyones every done that n i never answered

22 - Why did you choose your url: i vaguely remember it being other stuff but i chose cencoroil cus of this anime short movie called cencoroll n i basically just took its name n the normal one was taken so i did a capital i which didnt translate into lowercase skfhd i kinda wanna change it sometime

Tagging: ooo im bad at tagging n dont interact w people much bt if you see this n wanna do it then consider yourself tagged :’) <3

[beautysupply101]

All About Plastic Surgery Procedures And Facelift

By Gregory Evans

We are all on the race against time, and it shows. Although it is something that must be taken as natural and a matter of course, a lot of people find it hard to see it as so. In other words, they are on a spree of denial, pushing back the inevitable to many years back. However, theres nothing wrong with it per se, and it even has the advantage of making its patients more confident than ever before. Were talking about Facelift Houston. Also called rhytidectomy, this aesthetic surgical procedure basically aims to actuate a younger facial appearance for those who want to undertake it. Specifically, it aims to do away with the wrinkles, skin folds, and other sagging features on the face, from the cheeks to the jawline, or just about any changing feature on the face that has been brought about by old age. The procedure for facelifts depends on the individual needs of the patient. There are non invasive or non surgical procedures, actually. That is the case with exercise routines. However, it can also be taken as a supplement to the surgery. Anyway, the point is that there are many gradations in a person needs. Anyway, where were talking about the surgery per se, then its all about pulling back the flap of skin, all the while keeping contouring in mind, and then the excess skin is removed, after which the flap is sutured close. There are many practices when it comes to this procedure. That is, theres quite a lot of surgical techniques and also exercise routines. Thats all down on the surgeon or physician. The important thing to keep in mind is that everything must jibe well, not just with the patients specifications and particularities, but also with his or her health state and condition. There are all the reasons under the sun to do facelifts, to each his own. Because of reasons attributed to aging, the skin becomes loose and loose and less elastic. Fat deposits are decreased in certain areas and increase in the others. Therefore, many people with different facial skin conditions stand to benefit from this procedure. When not assessed properly in the pre consultation, and the surgeon and patient push through anyway, then there might develop some postoperative risks and complications. This is an imbroglio, if you ever think of one. And then theres the finger pointing and blaming, and God forbid, litigation, which is, needless to say, bad for practice. It gives the whole surgical enterprise a bad rep as well. Perhaps you have long been considering undergoing this procedure but are scared of the perceived pain. You really need not worry, as all these procedures are done under the duration of general anesthesia, if not a deep twilight sleep. Thats embarrassingly obvious. However, it would be good nonetheless to simply point that out. What you should probably worry about are the complications that could ensue if you dont take good care. Therefore, preparation is crucial here. This stretches from the preliminaries, right from the time of choosing your plastic surgeon. Of course, for comforts sake, only the best can be good enough. Have someone who is thorough in prepping you. At most, you will be asked about your medical history and made to undergo an exam. This should be across the board, taking to account the conditions you had the surgeries youve undergone in the past. He or she will review your medication, do a facial exam, and of course, set straight your expectations. The rest is all down to you. Make sure that you follow all directions and recommendations down pat, especially when theyve been set by your doctor. You will have to discontinue certain supplements and medication, avoid certain diets, and some such. If you have the will to make it through these procedures, then you must go by all the standard ways and means. Its all for your own good and for successfully recreated youthful good looks.

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