#christopher. christopher christopher christopher gahhhh

[planet-dusk]

what did i just wake up to.

[mepsii-dead]

CHRISTOPHE AND GREGORY THE GAYS!!!

[captainpikeachu]

Oh look, Christopher Pike is still the damsel in distress

so, earlier this year I made a post about how Christopher Pike is Starfleet’s favorite damsel in distress, and now with season 2 of Discovery over, I would just like to update that

it’s hard to imagine the man’s track record of going outside get worse than it already was, but well, Pike likes to exceed expectations I suppose

now just to be clear, I’m defining “going outside” as anytime he is not actually on his ship

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The Cage/The Menagerie (TOS Pilot and 1x12 and 1x13) — kidnapped by Talosians because he went outside

Star Trek 2009 — taken hostage by Nero and tortured because he went outside

Star Trek Into Darkness — shot and killed by Khan because he went outside

Brother (Disco 2x01) — nearly dies in asteroid field and get decapitated because he went outside

New Eden (Disco 2x02) — nearly dies after jumping on an exploding phaser because he went outside

Point of Light (Disco 2x03) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

An Obol For Charon (Disco 2x04) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

Saints of Imperfection (Disco 2x05) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

The Sound of Thunder (Disco 2x06) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

Light and Shadows (Disco 2x07) — nearly dies in a shuttle sucked into time distortions and attacked by time traveling evil probe of doom because he went outside

If Memory Serves (Disco 2x08) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

Project Daedalus (Disco 2x09) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

The Red Angel (Disco 2x10) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

Perpetual Infinity (Disco 2x11) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

Through the Valley of Shadows (Disco 2x12) — literally gives up his future to save the universe because he went outside

Such Sweet Sorrow Part 1 and 2 (Disco 2x13 and 2x14) — SAFE because he didn’t go outside

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a track record like this, I’m honestly shocked anyone still let’s him go outside!!!???? why no one just bubble wrap him and lock him inside his room on the ship???

clearly anytime he steps even a foot off the ship, he’s either gonna get kidnapped or shot or nearly killed or actually killed or just entirely give up his future, something always happens TO HIM

they honestly need to just keep him on the ship at all times, never let him go outside!!!

I’ve never seen anyone with such worse lucks just going outside!!! 😬😬😬😬😬🤦🏻‍♀️

[prurientpuddlejumper]

Christopher Heyerdahl as Halling in Stargate Atlantis 

[bamfbuddie]

9-1-1 Live Blog: 3x08 Malfunction

Holy shit, that car. 

OMFG, “You have arrived at your destination.” Yeah no shit, he’s literally in the building.

😭Hen and Karen. Poor Denny. :((

Awweh, Maddie, Chimney, and Buck all together. aksfhalksfhas “Something is up with her. With Eddie too.” Aww baby. He noticed his husband being off and he’s worried. 

omg Maddie telling Buck about what happened. He looks so concerned 😭

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Fucking hell Eddie. 😭

Oh fuck! Did he kill him?! Shit.

Oh no, call 9-1-1. Fuck I really want the team to show up but I’m assuming some other station is going to and then they’re gonna end up telling Bobby. Fuuuck. I need Bobby to tell Buck though. UGH IS IT GONNA BE BOSCO’S TEAM?

Oh god, Eddie, you kicked him so hard his nose broke and went down his throat. alkfhafha

WELL AT LEAST YOU WERE SMART ENOUGH TO CALL 9-1-1. LIKE WHAT IF THAT HAPPENED TO YOU? WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO CHRISTOPHER? WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO BUCK? 😭

OH DAMN IT IS BOSCO’S TEAM. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 

Eddie’s face 😭😭

Lena knows it’s Eddie. OMG. 

SERIOUSLY?! I NEED THAT CLOTHES SHARING WITH EDDIE AND BUCK NOT LENA AND EDDIE. GAHHHH. 

Well at least she’s trying to talk to some sense into him. YEAH EDDIE, A HEALTHY OUTLET! NOT AN OBSESSION 😭

God damn Eddie. Just listen to her and TALK TO SOMEONE PLEASEEEE 😭

[trubilee]

7 min freewrite pray

hmm. the memory logging has been unexpectedly v physically tiring.  i’ve been sleeping more than usual, and i guess my body manifests more of my subconscious than i would normally be aware of in years past.  (the body keeps the score, as everyone recs--i’m never going to read that book, i say, but i know now to not say “never” about stuff anymore.)  

it’s true, i did the deep dive, i faced the truth, as much of it as i could find anyway.  a lot of it was freeing.  so demystifying and it tickled me how different it looked in real life compared to in my imagination.

and seeing how time passes, years pass, and now everyone is in these 33s and 34s and whatnot, just overwhelmed me.  and the thing i was writing felt really quite foolish.  why am i revisiting things that are objectively so small and insignificant?  felt so foolish.  so much of my time is me feeling like gahhhh this is such a stupid idea.  etc.  and i was talking to paul about it and he talked about how when he did his map tracing thing just the other day he felt the same way, haha.  but he thinks that it’s not foolish for me to do it, it is good that i do it, he thinks that i should do it because i, he, anyone, just has to keep doing it and practicing doing it without being even if you’re afraid that it’s bad (and also, for me, stupid and insignificant and embarrassing and pointless and all the pathetic things) and you just have to keep getting stuff out and yes this includes the bad stuff, you have to keep getting the bad stuff out, just keep at it.  it’s good to do it.  bc that is how you will get good.  (i think that’s what he said?  he’s on a work call so i can’t ask him to clarify and jog my memory.) 

i asked if he had watched and was he talking about the christoph niemann abstract episode that i finally got around to watching on GJ’s blog yesterday.  bc it was like the same exact idea.  and yes he had watched that when it came out, and no he was not talking about it but yes exactly that’s what he did and stuff.

anyway.  i still feel so awful and foolish writing this--i say foolish bc it’s less harsh sounding than stupid, but what i really hear in my head is that it’s stupid and pathetic and just self-indulgent in the most pitiful insignificant way.  what i hear in my head also, esp. after the deep dive that i admit was not the best thing to do probably but i did it anyway since i was on a truth kick, is that i am all these pathetic things etc.  oh my quivering ego.  i thought it had been destroyed in the fire but i guess that sometime after the spring rain and sunshine it sprouted up again and grew since then.  eh.  

i will write it.  i will try to be honest and not serve myself in doing so.  how do i take my ego and defensiveness out of it when i do it though?  again, it all feels so stupid ah.

i also talked to paul about how sort of gaping it feels to once value and ache for a thing so much and then one day, most often after your first baby is born, find yourself not value and ache for the thing anymore.  how disconnected and--like i’m in pieces or something?  but that now that thing had been replaced lately by this other thing now that we are, as i mentioned before, in my 33s and 34s, and only climbing in age.  and i revisited the whole question of what do you think your purpose is, what would you want to be remembered for when you die, and we exchanged our answers of the moment.  it’s still unresolved.

oh, and we talked about how it’s harder as you we get older to really find your identity in God.  like, oh so that’s what the pastors were talking about.  about the “world” and all that stuff.  i dunno.  i wondered why it has been hard for me lately haha.  to just say “yeah.  i am loved by God.  what more is there to say have to present about my worth, my being?”  yeah i dunno.  the past few months i just have not been there.  

i’m also reading a book on grieving.  it’s pretty good so far.  i like it.  called scarred faith.  haven’t visited those questions in a long time.  i guess it sort of touches on my whole “what is life” bent lately.  also i’m always scared of what could happen.  

[everythingwithinme]

Thoughts on Chain of Iron

WARNING: SPOILER!!!!!

- first and foremost. poor jamie! this boy has to suffer so much for the first two books. all the fight he has to go through with gracelet is finally over but he can’t even a chance to tell the truth to his beloved. he’s such a herondale. so loyal, kind, VERY romantic, smart and poetic but I really don’t want him to end up with cordelia... I hope he’ll figure out everything and able to be very happy. pls pls pls tell your parents about the truth like gahhhh I literally don’t understand how he and lucie are keeping their secrets from their parents. dude has the most loving and understanding parents in the world. cry.

- matthew. oh man. idk how he’s gonna go back to london and face everything he’s been running away from. I sincerely hope that he’ll be able to tell his parents about what he did and be freed from it. he’s so gonna be ruined in chain of thorn I don’t even want to think about it. gonna pray so hard that CC won’t ruin this precious parabatai relationship. I adore them so much

- christopher!!!!!!! this precious bun. all of his lines are so full of joy, I find it very entertaining. his innocence/ ignorance is very hilarious. also kinda ship him with grace. they look rather comfortable with each other company. but dang are cc really gonna play that pass-my-former-lover-to-my-friend trope!?

- dad. will. do I even need to say more? (sorry but I cannot hate him for stopping james in the end when he’s about to catch matthew and cordelia in the train. family gotta come first for this. will not accept other opinion)

- grace.... I was laughing so hard reading people hatred toward her before. but now I kinda feel her. so glad that her moral is still in tact. but still, manipulating people is not a very nice thing to do. 

- risa and effie are such big MOOD. 

pls don’t hate me but these are my umm..? after reading this book:

- how can we only get to see very little of wessa in this book!? :( we only got one book left to see them for prob the last time. I do understand that these wild teenagers need their parents out of the picture for them to be able to run around freely with their adventures but still........ (I guess even a little is better than nothing at all)

- cordelia. I’m sorry but I still do not like you and I probably won’t ever change my mind. the reason I don’t like her is bcs of her ambitions. girl, can you just chill? I know your life is hard but like, finding out about the truth before swearing loyalty to someone you’ve met for the first time???? running away bcs you can’t handle confronting your /own/ h-u-s-b-a-n-d about his feeling????? sorry but I don’t think your deserve to be a heroine. 

- jesse/ lucie. bruv. what. the. hell. idk if it’s just me but it feel a bit too rushed??? I’m so confused when lucie jumped from “friend” to suddenly confessing her feeling via her so-called fiction. even worst, leaving it laying around her room where the guy literally hangs out every other night with her???? and I def do not think the “command me” thing is cute... 

- I thought the point of having lucie on the cover is that she’ll have more prominent role in the book but no? 

- there’s too many make out scenes??????? sorry for the millionth time but I just do not particularly care about any of the ships in tlh.... I’m so glad that we’re able to explore the side characters and delve deeper into their perspectives but I just want more merry thieves and anna + lucie gatherings and where is the scene for annual christmas celebration at the institute????  

- killing filomena and elias so early in the book? ummm. not that I’m particularly care much about them but it just kinda feel wrong?

- belial and tatiana. no comment. such dull villains with boring motives. and like can you guys just stop bothering this kids?????? 

overall, I think the book is very enjoyable to read. some scenes are a bit slow in pace. but the lilith plot twist? wow. the ending? I think that it’s great. leaving so many possibilities for the final book. cannot believe that I finished this 704 pgs book in less than 24 hr after waiting for months and now I have to wait for at least another year for the next one...