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casting spike growth during the cadazor fight resulted in a visual that i could write essays about
#the ritual circle only being half visible and what IS visible is soaked in cazador's blood!#a jagged hateful world behind astarion and a clear free path ahead of him!#Cinamatique.#court vs bg3#astarion
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5 Times the JL Learned Batman was Married and the 1 Time They Met the Spouse.
One. Two. Three. Four.
Four.
Clark stood up and positioned himself between the door and his injured teammate before it even opened, though not much before. His own delayed reaction made sense when it opened to show one of Batman’s teammates. While for the longest the League had thought Batman ‘worked alone’, they were now aware of there being a variety of heroes in Gotham, even if they were far from sure how many there might be or who those heroes were.
Nightingale was a notable exception what with his influence on the newest generation of heroes.
The young man flashed Clark a cheery smile and a little two finger wave. The motion almost distracting with the bright blue that marked the fingers.
“Hey Supes, I got notified that B was laid up.”
Clark paused. “You did?”
“Yep, I’m down as B’s emergency contact for Justice League matters. Feel free to confirm it if you want,” Nightingale said and leaned against the door frame with an easy shrug. “That’s exactly the sort of paranoia that B would approve of.”
It really was was, Clark thought. He grabbed the tablet that he had been using and pulled up Batman’s personnel file. It was a sparse file, of course, but clear as day Nightingale listed was next to ‘emergency contact’. Under his name as an alternative was ‘Condor’.
“Who’s Condor?”
“Me,” rumbled the man who stepped up behind Nightingale. He wasn’t as tall as the other hero, but he was broad. His lower face was covered in some sort of sleek gas mask, though Clark’s focus was pulled to the red lenses of the domino mask.
He certainly made for an intimidating figure.
Nightingale rolled his eyes. “Dramatic.”
Condor just shrugged. “I’m here to be the muscle.”
Clark’s brow furrowed. “For… what?”
“Oh, we’re taking B home!” Nightingale, well, chirped and pushed himself off the doorway.
Clark stepped in the way. “Batman needs to stay under medical supervision.”
“We know. We’re taking him to the Batcave. There’s a full medical set up there and we already have Batman’s personal doctor on hand to look him over,” Nightingale said as he smoothly edged his way around Clark. “Not that we don’t think you all have done your best! Just that way we’ll have his status for our files and he can recover at home.”
“Besides, you don’t want you-know-who to get wind that B is laid up like this and come storming the castle,” Condor said and came to take the other end of the medical bed.
Nightingale gave an over-the-top shudder. “Yeah, best to avoid that, he’s not having a good week already.”
“I, no, I don’t know who,” Clark said with a frown, though he did finally step out of their way. He couldn’t really tell them no, they did have control over Batman’s care. Still, he carefully watched them undo the clasps that would let them take off the top of the bed like a stretcher.
Condor lifted his end of the bed. “B’s husband, of course. Guy’s a little protective.”
“A little?” Nightingale asked as he pivoted with his end of the bed so they could start walking. “Calling him ‘a little’ protective is like calling what happened on Monday a ‘little’ multidimensional incident.”
Condor shrugged, the bed shifting a little with the motion, though it barely rocked Batman. “Okay, so maybe he’d rewrite the world for B if it came to it. That’s exactly why we’re getting B back to the Cave where he can be safe and settled before his paramour gets back from dealing with that ‘little’ multidimensional incident.”
“Right,” agreed Nightingale. “Thanks for looking after him, Supes!”
“You’re welcome?” Clark replied as the two heroes left the room, Batman carried between them.
#in case it's not clear#Jason is Condor#things took a different path what with Danny being around#and obv Dick is Nightingale#he got another family bird name to have#dp x dc#5 + 1 fic#spirit halloween ship
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Saying farewell to the fanon names, in my own special way…
#ace attorney#my art#ace attorney investigations#aai collection#aai2#prosecutor's path#prosecutor’s gambit#ace attorney posting#ace attorney shitpost#yumihiko ichiyanagi#sebastian debeste#eustace winner#kay faraday#justine courtney#verity gavelle#raymond shields#eddie fender#athena cykes#apollo justice#this is prolly the last thing I’m posting with the ftl tags but you can reblog w them of course!#I’m just doing this for myself. to make my own life easier.#I’m not trying to make fun of those who prefer the ftl or otl names.#want to make it clear the joke here is that there’s gonna be one hell of a discrepancy for the foreseeable future.#specifically when it comes to new fans and old content. I’m very sorry for the chaos you are going to witness soon.
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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anyone wanna talk about how op overguard is?
#i know i said im gonna replay warframe's main campaign in another account but i never got to doing it#but if i do the path is extremely clear#after rhino and xoris anything else can be considered only after unlocking archimedea#...haha! got you! im just kidding#im not gonna use anything other than excalibur + skana until the sacrifice of course like do you know why i even play this game for?#(said by an operator that haven't used their excalibur umbra for months)#btw not gonna color this im tired i wanna sleep#also why is volt so fucking hard to draw like wtf i struggled so much on his helmet#makes me think of how hard it is to draw kaiser / houndy's helmet#at least i dont simp on volt otherwise im gonna have a bad time#(still like him tho look how cute he is little shiny baby)#warframe#warframe mag#warframe excalibur#warframe volt#warframe rhino#my art
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Jason who everyone believed would be great and Percy who knew that everyone except his mom believed he wouldn't amount to anything unless he proved himself. Percy who chose to make the Great Prophecy be about him so Nico wouldn't have to carry that burden after losing his sister. Jason who chose to confront Caligula alone so Piper would live after the oracle told him he or Piper would die.
Percy who believed he would die at 16. Jason actually dying at 16.
Imagine if Percy and Jason actually had the chance to have a genuine conversation about how being sons of The Big 3 hurt them in different but similar ways bc of what was expected of them and bc of how they were treated by people. Percy and Jason knowing that they can't really show weakness or insecurity or ever say that they were scared bc everyone at their respective camps were counting on their leadership.
Percy and Jason who had their own distinct journeys to be the heroes they became and both journeys were valid and important but did Jason and Percy ever believe for a second that they were important not for their parentage and achievements but because of who they are and actively chose to be
#percy jackson#jason grace#bc im still mad that these two were alone in boo and all we got was#“i wanna die sometimes isnt that crazy haha” “yeah no same”#i feel like they would've empathized a lot with each other if they actually got to talk about everything#“why would they put him through that”#jason and percy who are pitted agaisnt each other meanwhile jason and percy: befriending the outcasts and advocating for those cant#i wanna be friends with ppl that love and understand them both sigh#jercy#this is messy bc im tired and sad but i cant stop thinking about them#Percy only getting claimed because Poseidon needed him to clear his name. The only reason he has ppl's respect is bc of his choices#Jason always knowing who his parent was and feeling like his path was carved out in front of him and decided by other people#so he did everything to make his choices belong to him and actually earn the titles people were so eager to give him#they are both so KIND and GOOD#pjo#pjo hoo toa#heroes of olympus#cin's txt.
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Much has been made of Mr Darcy's "confession" to Elizabeth that he does not converse easily with strangers. It is repeatedly used to support neurodivergent interpretations of his character. And I suppose that when taken at face value, a character confessing that they do not easily converse with strangers and struggle to catch their tone or appear interested in conversation can absolutely scream AUTISM! (I say as an autistic person myself)
But this line is often taken in isolation. When considered in terms of the passage in which it appears in Chapter 31, it appears far less of a smoking gun than may initially be suspected. After some discussion about Elizabeth and Darcy's prior acquaintance in Hertfordshire, Colonel Fitzwilliam asks Elizabeth for information about Darcy's behaviour there. She readily supplies it:
'Pray let me hear what you have to accuse him of,' cried Colonel Fitzwilliam. 'I should like to know how he behaves among strangers.' 'You shall hear then—but prepare yourself for something very dreadful. The first time of my ever seeing him in Hertfordshire, you must know, was at a ball—and at this ball, what do you think he did? He danced only four dances, though gentlemen were scarce; and, to my certain knowledge, more than one young lady was sitting down in want of a partner. Mr Darcy, you cannot deny the fact.' 'I had not at that time the honour of knowing any lady in the assembly beyond my own party.'
What Darcy leaves out here is that it was he himself who chose not to be introduced to anybody. As we learn from the description of his behaviour at the Meryton assembly in Chapter 3:
Mr Darcy danced only once with Mrs Hurst and once with Miss Bingley, declined being introduced to any other lady, and spent the rest of the evening in walking about the room, speaking occasionally to one of his own party.
Anyway, Elizabeth correctly does not buy his excuses. Not only does she respond with a cutting sarcastic remark, but she tries to bring the discussion with an end by speaking to Colonel Fitzwilliam:
'True; and nobody can ever be introduced in a ball-room. Well, Colonel Fitzwilliam, what do I play next? My fingers wait your orders.'
But Darcy does not get the hint and continues conversing with Elizabeth rather than quitting while he's ahead. However, I don't believe him to be missing a social cue here. Rather, this is an exceedingly conceited man who cannot conceive that anyone would not want to speak to such a Superior Being as he and more-so, is determined to defend himself from a perceived slight against his impeccable character.
Then we come to the passage containing the oft-cited line which allegedly contains proof of his neurodivergency:
'Perhaps,' said Darcy, 'I should have judged better, had I sought an introduction; but I am ill-qualified to recommend myself to strangers.' 'Shall we ask your cousin the reason of this?' said Elizabeth, still addressing Colonel Fitzwilliam. 'Shall we ask him why a man of sense and education, and who has lived in the world, is ill-qualified to recommend himself to strangers?' 'I can answer your question,' said Fitzwilliam, 'without applying to him. It is because he will not give himself the trouble.'
Once again, Elizabeth does not buy his excuse for even a single second. She's fully aware of all the advantages a man such as he will have received in society (opportunities not open to women, might I add!) and draws attention to that fact. It's a brilliant, cutting line from her and she really set that one up for Colonel Fitzwilliam to deliver the knockout blow.
Not only do we have the testimony of Mr Darcy's cousin, that 'he will not give himself the trouble,' to appear cordial to strangers, but we have evidence from Wickham too. Although after this statement, Wickham quickly goes onto misrepresent Darcy's kindness to the poor, which contradicts Mrs Reynold's later testimony, I do believe Wickham to be telling the truth (for once!) here, when he tells Elizabeth in Chapter 16:
'Mr Darcy can please where he chooses. He does not want abilities. He can be a conversible companion if he thinks it worth his while.'
Which, again, demonstrates that Darcy is capable when he wants to be. That is the crucial point. Autistic people fundamentally lack the ability to understand social cues, they cannot turn it on and off as they please because they are snobs.
So, now we come to the infamous line about Darcy's supposed social struggles, and I hope that I've provided enough context to the line to make you see that it should not be taken at face value:
'I certainly have not the talent which some people possess,' said Darcy, 'of conversing easily with those I have never seen before. I cannot catch their tone of conversation, or appear interested in their concerns, as I often see done.' 'My fingers,' said Elizabeth, 'do not move over this instrument in the masterly manner which I see so many women’s do. They have not the same force or rapidity, and do not produce the same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my own fault—because I will not take the trouble of practising. It is not that I do not believe my fingers as capable as any other woman’s of superior execution.'
Again, Elizabeth is not buying his excuses for even a single second and tells him if he feels like that, maybe he should put the effort in. She has seen him in numerous social settings and been thoroughly unimpressed with his behaviour which, when you consider his rudeness to her at the Meryton assembly, she has every right to be.
So, what do I make of the line?
Well, I think it's abundantly clear that Darcy absolutely can speak to people when he wants to. Perhaps, in his mind, he struggles to make that deeper connection and make friends easily. But making friends is not always easy, it's a process you must invest time and effort into. If you do not do that, it stands to reason that you will struggle. Plus, if you hold others to ridiculous standards (as Darcy does) without recognising and fixing the flaws within yourself, you're not going to have deep, lasting friendships.
While this quote may appear to be a moment of vulnerability where he does confess a fault of his, which is astounding given his pride, personally I do not think it was not a soul-searching exercise. It was to make Elizabeth stop grilling him. It was self-serving. Although, I don't think he's entirely lying. Darcy is veeeery careful with his words and though this statement is not considered and perhaps comes out rather abruptly, it doesn't necessarily follow that it isn't true. I can imagine that it is probably something he's felt for a while, yet it is a rather desperate attempt to defend himself from a woman who sees right through him.
I think perhaps Darcy does realise that he isn't as naturally gifted as other men he knows (such as Wickham, Colonel Fitzwilliam and Mr Bingley) when it comes to forming acquaintances. However, he looks outwards and turns that bitterness against the world rather than looking inwards, reflecting upon himself and improving his manners which would be the correct thing to do. Thankfully, he later does this, but it took him twenty eight years...
In addition, Darcy appeared to have been under the illusion that he could coast by on Pemberley's reputation... which has always worked... until he met Elizabeth. For perhaps the first time, he encounters a woman who is not awestruck by him and his reputation and delivers the rebuke that he always needed.
So, while personally I'm inclined to believe there is some truth to his statement, as Mr Darcy is many things but he isn't a liar, I think it is said in desperation. His feeling stems from him knowing what he should do, but he can't be bothered to enact it... rather than any inherent social deficiency stemming from being neurodivergent.
Although, even if he does struggle socially, it's still no excuse for the rudeness he displayed to Elizabeth! My main issue with neurodivergent readings of Darcy is when they are deployed to defend his behaviour, when they attribute his rudeness to any potential neurodivergency and when they excuse his laziness. That is an awful message! Autistic people who struggle with social cues often do not, nor should they, go around insulting others. They should and often do put plenty of effort into being considerate and polite. In fact, I think, if anything, a love of rules makes us more likely to have good manners, rather than the reverse.
Ultimately, I'm not sure this line makes Mr Darcy the sympathetic-poor-sweet-innocent-shy-boy-autistic-representation that people want him to be. In fact it makes him look even worse, if anything. On matters such as these, he is every inch the conceited proud man he was widely believed to be at the Meryton assembly. Luckily, Elizabeth is an incredibly smart woman, who doesn't fall for it and immediately calls him out on his behaviour in a way that he has never experienced before. As she should!
#mr darcy#pride and prejudice#jane austen#elizabeth bennet#colonel fitzwilliam#mr wickham#my analysis#nd things#let darcy be flawed you cowards#<- but we don't necessarily need to pathologise him lol#now i'll whisper quietly in the tags lest the ableist sections of the austen fandom tear me limb from limb#(not saying EVERYONE who disagrees with nd readings of some of darcy's behaviour is ableist just some ways it's countered are... Not Great)#that i don't actually MIND nd!darcy headcanons when done WITHOUT a view to excusing his behaviour#and being clear that it is NOT what the author intended but. autistic boys get away with murder even today so it isn't hard to imagine that#especially with someone with as much wealth and status as darcy... his worst traits could've gone unchecked for so long#but he main reason i don't inherently have an issue with nd!darcy is because nd people existed back then but we weren't accommodated#i get that if he was nd there is an argument the narrative is just about him learning to mask but... a) the concept of masking didn't exist#and b) if he was a woman he'd have had to do it long before 28 sooooo. let the big boy face consequences for his actions!#i think there's something in darcy interpreting his fathers advice so literally with no room for nuance#that it leads him down that path of conceit when he's not actually a bad man at his core and never has been#bc that's very black and white thinking which makes me wonder... but on the whole i'm not sure#i'm not saying either way and ultimately it doesn't matter but it's fun to consider#within reason ofc... it's comforting to see evidence of autism in classics it's one of my FAVE things#but not sure darcy is the best example of this#if you want autistic characters in p&p mr collins and mary are RIGHT THERE lmao#but perhaps they are even worse representation so maybe not lmao#anyway wanted to make this post for a while and the Words came to me today so yay#also i didn't mention adaptations but they don't help... especially A Certain One but i've moaned enough about it for one week#and not in a fun way
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If I might inquire from the polytheistic community,
What in the ever-loving FUCK is with this seemingly common attitude that the gods view us as nothing more than a speck in the universe, not remotely worth their time or affection? That we are worthless to them unless there is some special reason they should pay us attention? That they don’t have a care for us at all?
I escaped that mindset from a cult I was forced to be in, foolishly thinking I’d be safe from it in polytheism, but instead it seems to just get reinforced, discouraging me from it altogether. That cult taught me that I was worthless to my god; that I was no more than the dirt under his divine feet, and that it was a privilege to be loved by him and seen as worthy by him, even though I was fundamentally worthless and pathetic. I don’t ever want to feel that way with any god ever again.
The lack of certainty when it comes to the gods makes it so hard for me to subscribe to one mindset or another. I can neither confirm nor deny that the gods care about us, that they care about me. So it feels really easy to be swayed from one mindset to another. It’s hard to feel like people saying “the gods care about us—about you!” Isn’t just some kind of self-soothing gesture instead of a fact.
I’ve been away from polytheism for over a year now due to the struggles I have with it + my mental health, but this mindset a decent chunk of people have about it puts me off of coming back to it. Why would you even worship gods who could not give less of a shit about you? More importantly, why do you feel the need to push those views as a fact when nobody can know for certain save for their own experiences?
#i love and miss the gods very much#but it seems pretty clear this path is not one i can follow#polytheism#hellenic polytheism#norse polytheism#norse paganism#hellenic paganism
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something something one of those those "Jango falls for Courtesan/Stripper/NightclubSinger/TrophyWife!Obi-Wan" AUs...
But instead Obi-Wan actually being a sex worker, he's undercover and still a Jedi, and either:
They split ways and run into each other a few months later with Obi-Wan in full Prude Beige Knight mode OR
The situation goes pear-shaped while they're still flirting and Obi-Wan has to break cover to grab a senator and jump out a window and suddenly this half-dressed glittery Person is batting away shots with a lightsaber and there's a bratty twelve-year-old who ALSO has a lightsaber threatening people with I Will Eat Your Liver if they keep staring at his dad's ass just because the sequined sheathe dress tore in a sexy place
#jangobi#jango fett#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#star wars#phoenix talks#undercover au#undercover as sex worker#to be clear: I do enjoy sex worker AUs both as a form of entertainment and in their surprising weight in normalization of sex work#they've done an unprecedented amount of work humanizing the profession#for sheltered young people who might have otherwise needed a lot longer to get over their prejudices#and while in my case I started on that path of Recognizing People As People through reading firsthand accounts by sex workers online#the impact that sex worker AUs have had on that whole situation is not to be dismissed#but also they're just fun to read? they're entertaining in the way any profession-based AU can be#I'm just as eager to read a sex work AU as I am to read a senator AU or racer au or college professor au etc#...anyway I just realized that the original post could theoretically be read as 'sex worker AUs bad' and I don't want anyone to think that
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thoughts on watcher if you've had time to play it?
im so happy you're here we welcome you!- rough wip
rambling in the tags about the dlc!
#ask#anonymous#rain world#survivor#hunter#watcher#monk#alright sooo i have complicated feelings#ive only finished the first ending so far!#my overall opinions are very positive! the places were breathtaking and the new ecosystems and their little secrets were suuuper interestin#albeit feeling every empty sometimes. and unpolished..#which brings me to my biggest issue is the map design really?#the way the decided to split the regions and never allowing them to flow and evolve as you explored them was sooo disappointing#esp because some felt more interesting when they were bigger#like ill be in stormy coast and go in a portal... and be still in stormy coast but.. different OOoOo#and when ur campaign is immitating being lost through time and space thats a bit meh?#along with the map design#it felt very unlike rainworld in some places?#like either limiting or having one path or hell- even feeling like a level not a world#and that was meeh#and thats my biggest issues so far. the world design. i completely do NOT AT ALL understand complains with the story or 'vagueness'#the story was VERY CLEAR#LIKE VERY CLEAR LIKE the watcher was VERY OPEN about its story compared to survi#you are lost with this little kid through time and space and you are helping her move on by being the only constant in their life#and watcher relates to being robbed of a childhood through the death of their family#they feel alone and lost and unfitting#searching for smth#WHICH watcher feels like an awesome mirror to survivor#ill ponder about that as survivors story is about accepting the loss of family and ascending#but watcher seems to put a lot of emphasis on rot and going UP instead. running away from the void sea- IM YET TO SEE MORE THO
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Vergerette rude Rough-stemmed Fleabane
Photographie : JM. SUHUBIETTE
#plante du bord des chemins#plant of paths#clear and blurry#flower#long stem#black and white#contrast
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The storms that you’ll encounter in the future — they shouldn’t exist in this world.
#TREMBLINGG AT THE IMPLICATIONS OF THIS#because WHAT DO YOU MEAN you’re going to clear the path before me of hardships#I’m so so normal over this trailer#lnds caleb#lads caleb#love and deepspace caleb#love and deepspace
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sorry started thinking about dbh after so long. apologies guys. yes Connor is my favourite. He’s a combo of like all my favourite character tropes and I love a good (question mark) story about robots.
something something the end poem and being alive and playing the game. had this bad boy in the wips for so long.
#dbh#dbh rk800#connor dbh#detroit become human#dbh fanart#I have an explanation for each part of this work#most of it really hinges on Connor’s character development#And how that even in a Machine path#there is still a 'ghost in the machine' (as we know)#or like a player of the game#I tried to make it really clear in each piece that Connor is actually intuiting his world or “thinking” in some way#Even if it’s not in the way humans might#There’s still something there#idk man#maybe I’m rambling but I had a couple of thoughts whilst making this piece
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Clear a Path
"Why do guards always look surprised when we bash them?" asked Ruric. "I think they expect a bribe," said Thar.
Artist: Karl Kopinski TCG Player Link Scryfall Link EDHREC Link
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they’re literally her guard dogs, im so obsessed




#wolke watches#wind breaker#tasuku tsubakino#seiryu sakaki#uryu sakaki#the way they’re clearing her path as she walks towards that guy 👌#wolke.txt
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Michael and Sydney: let yourself be


I just had this thought; I hope I can make sense of it. I want to talk about the show"s themes on what allows people to be themselves, pursue their dreams, and defend their identity, particularly amid toxic and abusive elements (family, industry, surroundings).
Long post under the cut, a yappy, unorganized meta. tw discussions of depression and addiction.
If you had to go on personality alone, what character would you say is the opposite of Michael? Michael was an outgoing guy who would command the attention of a room, making sure to read everyone and dial all situations. You may think Carmy is his opposite (we will talk about him later).
But in reality, the character who is shown to struggle with social situations the most throughout the whole show is Sydney.
Sydney has struggled with her leadership skills (commanding a room) and her ability to dial social situations (hiring new staff, dealing with the berzatto antics) for 3 seasons now.
And I think that is pretty interesting. These characters were constructed in a certain way, and there may be an extra theme in the background here: the audacity to be real to the world and to yourself.
Michael spent most of his life pretending to be a version of himself that could carry out his role in the family. He was the glue that kept the family feeling like family, making gatherings enjoyable, minimizing Donna's faults, and bringing everyone together. Is it possible that Michael never had a chance to show his real feelings growing up, and that is likely the reason he learned to use drugs to manage his emotions and hide his depression (because living a lie 24/7 has a toll on the heart).
He had a genuine talent with people (the same one Richie has), but he slaved himself into the role of "glue of the family," preserving the toxic systems around him and, more importantly, never recognizing how that dynamic had hurt him so much. He never gave himself a chance to dream his own dreams, maybe because he was afraid of being nothing without the role he had been fulfilling for so long. In that family restaurant, the one his father left behind, the same way he left him behind, the restaurant he desperately wanted to keep his siblings out of. He was protecting them, and he was also hiding.
(pause to cry, I love Michael so much)

Sydney is a person who is always herself; she has her heart on her sleeve and shows who she is and what she cares about constantly despite being brought down over and over again. Despite how much it hurts her, she doesn't want do do things in a way that is contrary to her nature and values. When presented with the toxicity of the kitchen (that Michael used to run and that Carmy made even worse), she battles fire with little drops of water (patience and firmness) that build up to create the ambiance of trust within the staff today.
Sydney wanted to make a difference because she believed everyone has a chance to do better. And Michael thought it was his duty to keep things the same, despite how awful it all was even to himself.
He believed in Carmy's potential to the point of excusing his belief that he could never do better than what he had done.
This is also illustrated by the show of how much the staff felt threatened by Sydney in s1, because they believed (kinda like Michael) that they never could be better of what they had, that there is no better, not for people like them. Better is for geniuses and people without baggage.
They believed change would prove them inadequate, and Sydney showed them the chance is to support you, not destroy you.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT THE WORST PART OF THIS IS?
Neither of them had any choice. Yes, we are all creatures of fault with a chance to change, but 75% of our being is preprogrammed. We are the people that we have built ourselves to be to survive in the world around us.
Sydney had a chance to let herself be and Michael didn't.
Sydney had an incentive (a loving parent) to recognize her own feelings and identity growing up. Michael didn't. Despite how flawed she may feel, at least she knows the basics of who she is; Michael could never look at himself and his wounds because that would be admitting he didn't want to play his usual part anymore in the facade that was the happy Berzatto family.
Both the Berzatto and the Adamus are working class (besides mafia links that may have put them in a financial crisis). Yet, Mr Adamu can encourage her daughter to follow her dreams in an industry as unreliable as fine dining. Meanwhile, Michael was told: "you are gonna do the same shit as your father because that is what you are supposed to do"
My last point is back to the dinner and the party afterwards.


It is not an accident the most confident we have ever seen Sydney is at a table surrounded by mentors and peers. She values her experiences and dreams and is eager to share, be nurtured, and nurture others. That is the basis of connection. You cannot connect if you are hiding.
Carmy was in the same party, hiding in his fear of his abuser, and previously, he had desperately tried to fit in the frat party to the point of pretending to be someone else. Carmy pretends to be Michael, but Michael never allowed himself to meet his true self.
#i hope that made some sense#god i am never gonna be over this show#how did they created so much subtext we are still talking about s1 and s2 years later and after hundreds of metas#sydcarmy#the bear#sydney adamu#the bear fx#carmy berzatto#carmen berzatto#the bear meta#carmy x sydney#carmy the bear#sydney x carmy#michael berzatto#i hope i made clear that it is not like Sydeny is stronger of any bulshit like that#Although she is strong#what happened to Michael (and what happens to carmy) has nothing to do with being strong#is not that michael never had a chance feel better or carve his own path#is that he never saw it#because he had grown to believe there wasn't any path
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