#contrite

[zero-zoxx-international]

The damn shower game!, ai art 2024 after a prompt from ZZI

[daily-cool-words]

Today's word of the day is...

Contrite

[Adjective]

Definition: Feeling or displaying remorse for one's behaviour.

Example Sentence: Kate was beginning to feel contrite.

[mstudi0s]

A villain is simply a victim whose story hasn't been told - Chris Colfer

[theenglishnook]

CONTRITION

Contrition is deep remorse with a sincere urge to make amends. More than regret, it drives personal growth, redemption, and reconciliation in religion, psychology, and ethics, turning guilt into meaningful change.

Contrition IPA: /kənˈtrɪʃ(ə)n/(Noun) Definitions: Deep Regret for Wrongdoing: A sincere sense of guilt and remorse for one’s actions, often accompanied by a desire for atonement or correction. Example: “His contrition for betraying his friend was evident in his tearful apology.” Religious Repentance: A fundamental concept in many religious traditions, signifying true penitence and sorrow for…

[godswordforyourweek]

GOD LOOKS...

Isaiah 66:2.

 “These are the ones I look on with favor: those who are humble and contrite in spirit, and who tremble at my word.” 

The two go together: “contrite in spirit…tremble at my word”. God’s Word awakens the weight of our guilt. The “contrite in spirit” does not justify, excuse, or shifts blame.

God looks there with favor.

This week, go there.

Pastor Robin.

[femalephilosopher]

Contrite Spirit

A contrite spirit refers to a heart that is truly repentant, remorseful, and humble before God over one’s sins. Psalm 51 goes deeper… In Psalm 51:17, David declares: “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” A Contrite Spirit involves genuine brokenness, sorrow and acknowledgment of one’s sinfulness before a holy God. A Contrite…

[breathenbounce]

THE GRATITUDE CHRONICLES: THE DOOR CRACKED OPEN

Hello there. This morning as I was scrolling through facebook, I found a post that hit me. It was from Megadeth frontman, founder, and legend Dave Mustaine. I read it and it hit me hard. Here it is....

I read this so many times. It made me think of my own trials and tribulations of my own life. Being cut off from my family growing up so many times. Feeling like I didn't belong. When I was younger, I was a very difficult kid, and I started to grow up and mature, and then I lost my mom at age 23. The dominoes fell back down. I was fortunate enough to see her one last time before I got that ill fated call that she collapsed and was in the hospital. She would fight on for about 10 days when she finally died. After that, my family for the most part stopped talking to me. They didn't like that my views were opposite of them. They didn't like that a person who was special to me was helping me to see a different side of the world and felt she was brain washing me. So they would cut me off. Over and over and over again.

I have never gotten over this as it has affected my current situation. I have been impossible to be around because of wounds I have suffered as a child and young adult. I let the wounds of that consume and I caused tremendous pain on someone I love very dearly. Those wounds bled into my current situation and I believe that along with some trauma caused my BPD.

I really felt the pain of Dave and his sister as I read this message. When families fall apart for things like this, its sad. Religion tore the Mustaines apart. Beliefs and thoughts tore my family apart. I think we all need to accept we are different. Different thoughts, different ideas, different ways to live life to the best we possibly can. The things that people forget are one, we don't get another shot at this. Once its over, its over. Two, we should find ways to respect beliefs and not hold judgment. Judgment is an absolute killer.

Sometimes families and spouses hurt each other. Maybe a little bit, maybe very badly. However if we can find ways to open our minds, find some forgiveness, and have fulfilling and honest conversations about things, we could all get closer and feel loved. However, everyone needs to come together. People have to learn how to empathize with their partners, parents, loved ones; they may have been dealing with some internal stuff. The key is no judgment.

It's better to find a way to fix things while alive and not on a death bed. Sure the ultimate gift you can give someone is while you are taking your last breath and freeing them from the pain that has caused, why not try to find a way to heal while alive? Find a way to have those tough conversations to find common ground.

I understand sometimes a situation is so toxic you have to walk away. However, if someone is wanting a chance to do the right thing, don't turn them away. They could be on the cusp of something beautiful and be a source of light and kindness in your life. I think about Dave's joy when his sister finally contacted him after 20 years. I also think about the devastation as the reconciliation would be the final time he saw her.

I know sometimes we have to take care of ourselves, but I also feel we can't rule anything out. We can open the door a little bit at a time. We must also remember sometimes people struggle. Whether it's addiction, mental illness, or just bullshit in general, we have to allow a little space and grace for growth. I'm not saying dive all the way in the pool, but keep the door open a little bit with a light on. Eventually that person will straighten things out and find that crack of light in the hallway.

But let's hope that both sides find each other before it's too late.

Namaste

M

[justana0kguy]

2023 DECEMBER 07 Thursday

"Two things summarize the content of the whole spiritual life: at the spectacle of ourselves we are troubled and contrite for our salvation, while in the contemplation of God we breathe and the joy of the Holy Spirit gives us consolation. On the one hand, fear and humility; On the other hand, hope and charity."

~ Saint Bernard, Diversis, sermon 5

[weirdlookindog]

Fernand Allard l'Olivier (1883–1933) - L'humilité / Contrition hypocrite, 1922

[whateverworkswest]

(Mostly horrifying) Things Jeremy, Cat and Laila learn about Jean since his arrival in LA

First day:

Everything Jean owns fits in a small carry-on (including his two shirts, obv black)

No choice in his own major (business for every Raven)

The Ravens strict diet

No leaving Evermore except for classes and games

No going shopping for clothes or other necessities (every request had to be submitted to the coaches)

The extent of Jean's injuries (according to him, from scrimmages - according to Kevin, from hazing)

16 hour days

Second day:

Jean calling Tetsuji the master

Some weeks later (at the beach):

"I didn't ask."

June 18:

Jean's scars

Jean being absolutely terrified of water

Same week:

Jean liking men and women (at least he doesn't deny it and Jeremy seems to take it as confirmation)

Renee took him from Evermore after he was injured (he wouldn't have left on his own)

English is his third language

July:

Jean has been at Evermore for five years (moved there two years before enrolling)

The defiled notebooks

The truth about Jean's injuries (and Kevin's hand)

Him having a younger sister (only Cat knows that one so far)

"Contrition, coach."

Ugly history with Grayson (Jean doesn't tell them any details, it's unclear how much they figure out on their own)

Things they very much don't know (yet?):

Everything about the Moriyamas

Jean's family background

Elodie's death

Riko routinely torturing him (including the waterboarding, breaking fingers, the whole box incident ...)

What happened with Zane and Grayson (tbf we don't know the whole truth either)

Jean-Yves

... Probably a lot of other things as well but I'm too tired to think of more right now, feel free to add everything else you think of!

[909th]

kind of blows that believing you’re irredeemable will only make you more stupid and evil and difficult to be around

[quaintobsessions]

At Your Mercy

I come here a penitent. I don’t do elegies with quiet panache like you, but each time I catch

a tangential glimpse of our story, inwardly I whimper like the world ending.

You drove in starlit robes sea spray of the sky through tar-darkness;

in my arms in the dawn beside the rush of the surf you were the rosy sun.

The first and last ship I sank, our wreckage choked and chased me. I had to keep moving right off the edge of the earth.

You were the chain, the bitten apple, the glittering river, the single tear.

You were a night train to places we both ached to see, wishes fulfilled by the rain on our skin,

and I’ll never live down causing you pain.

I taste words never spoken and my bones keen for you.

[revoltingbones]

My Rook De Riva can't make shitposts to share with Teia, so I will make them and share them with you.

[floweycidal]

this thought is probably anything but original and has likely crossed the minds of many before me, but my brain insists on making light of it before i can move on with my evening. i've got to give that flower a little ribbing. it's non-negotiable.

insep(a)rable is misspelled here. rather than chalking it up to a simple human error by the devs, i'm choosing to see it as flowey slightly mispronouncing it.

he's read it all, hell, he burned through every book he could find. his vocabulary must be massive on paper, but that's just it. it's all On Paper. he can very well recognize how words look… just not how to say half of them.

sure, he's reset plenty after doing the unforgivable, the unspeakable, and the plain wrong, and yeah, he's also countlessly rewound time with death checking its watch nearby.

but the silliness within me persists, thence i remain convinced his number one trigger for resetting was just absolutely demolishing the pronunciation of words he'd only seen in print.

he'd be there, absolutely glowing with unearned confidence, right before mangling whatever pretentious five-syllable word he'd been dying to show off. that's the kind of embarrassment you need to erase an entire timeline for. i get you so bad flowey

flowey: blah blah blah blah... co-lo-nel

papyrus: MY GOOD FRIEND, DO YOU MEAN KERNEL?

flowey:

flowey:

flowey: Long ago, two races ruled over Earth: MO-

[cruxymox]

worn away, i

a terrible feather pull

drifting to the ground

not windblown but

caught, stuck / wet, weary

i offer to cut & tear apart

such that you can again

wing, span, flutter, soar

[nalyra-dreaming]

Hi Nalyra! I feel stupid but I have a confession... I do not know why or how Louis came to accept his vampirism as a gift like he expressed in the reunion. If Rolin really wanted the scene to be about Louis expressing contrition it seems to me it would've made more sense to have him tell Lestat he felt remorse for believing that Lestat would cross an ocean to kill him and their daughter and the decades of misery for both of them that followed because of this belief.

Louis spent 15 episodes describing horrors that would not have happened had he not been a vampire, only to tell Lestat he wants to thank him for the Dark Gift. I don't get it. It felt like they wanted to get Louis to the point where he's at peace with himself, where he owns the night, and so they had him say "I didn't know it was a gift" to connect to that point. I'm going to do a whole series rewatch soon... if you could let me know what I should be looking for when I rewatch so I can understand I would appreciate it so much! Thank you!

The Louis you see in the reunion is one who has had time to reflect on what was done to him, after he got the confirmation that his suspicions were true - after he got the actual proof with the trial script.

And it must have kicked off a cascade of feelings.

Because in-universe, Louis was led to believe, that Lestat had been there for revenge, he has been led to believe that Lestat "crossed the ocean to kill their daughter", and his mind had been edited, and meddled with, for decades.

You have to remind yourself that you HAVE been lied to in seasons 1 and 2. Both seasons are a tale, and NOT the truth.

There are instances when the truth shone through though, and I do think that the upcoming seasons will drag those moments up a bit more clearly.

IWTV is a book that was written from mourning. The show, in seasons 1 and 2, is an edited tale, aimed to describe that mourning... that pain of losing a daughter - and also to shift the blame - the anger - of more or less everything to Lestat.

Yes, the show kickstarted Louis onto his acceptance road, which in the books only happens in "Prince Lestat", but Jacob has always been very frank about what IWTV is:

Here is a snippet, from October 2023:

"But when you revisit the original story, it’s clear that Louis is somebody hugely angry with a man he loved deeply and now presents them as a monster…"

The show tried to alleviate some of the blame from (book)Louis for essentially lying about Lestat by introducing the "tinkering" Armand did, as Assad called it. Which is based on book canon mind-meddling.

But it's not all about the mind-meddling, or edited parts.

There is a very poignant moment in the books, where Louis realizes that "he has hated Lestat for all the wrong reasons".

And THAT is the crux of the matter.

And it is no coincidence that this realization has not been shown yet. It is no coincidence that the reunion they chose is the book-canonically contested one.

Louis put a lot of blame on Lestat, for things that Lestat could not change. As Jacob said, Louis hated himself, and he took it out on everybody else...

"I wanted you to suffer. Because I was... suffering."

... and his canon trait of withholding (that the writers picked up for him) as a means of control damaged his relationship with Lestat further - and he knows that.

"I tried to make nights awful for you."

THAT is what his speech there at the reunion is about - realization.

Allowing the good memories as well, the ones that were buried under the anger before. Allowing the love to resurface, and the realization to be glad to be alive.

The "Dark Gift" is just that - it is a dark gift. It is given, and it comes with a cost, for both parties involved, also something Louis only came to realize much later, with Madeleine, which is why he wanted to sever his connection to her immediately after.

"I didn't know it was a gift. I wore it like a curse."

Louis knows he does not need to feel remorse for believing Lestat came to cross the ocean to kill him - because that is what Armand MADE him believe.

That is why the trial script was so important - it was tangible proof.

Louis left Dubai, and we saw him in NOLA right after, but there had to be a certain time frame, a certain "finding your feet" period.

And Louis realized he liked holding his nose into the Louisiana air still.

Louis realized he liked being in NOLA still.

He realized he can even smile about the outrageous lies told about them.

He realized he likes to live still.

For decades, his life had been a shit show. At the beginning, after the first few years of "honeymoon phase" because of bitter realities, and his depression creeping in, coupled and enhanced by an eating disorder, as well as the problems with Claudia (and Lestat) then, of which we'll get a few reveals yet I would bet real money. And he took his pain out on others, including Lestat, as stated by both Jacob and show.

All of which (of course!) led to a myriad of problems with Lestat, which then came around, no doubt. But Lestat also told him that he didn't need to run that business anymore, that it wasn't a matter of money. Lestat knew turning Claudia would bring her a world of pain and lead to problems. Lestat tried to keep them safe, something which Louis even tries to dismiss in 2x02.

But there, in NOLA, seeking Lestat out on his own volition, there he allows these realization, and the good parts to surface.

And you have to realize - Louis LOVES Lestat.

And Lestat loves Louis.

In the end, this is what it boils down to.

Because ...

"[]the suit changes nothing, and again... I'm kissing Lestat on the altar."

The Louis at the NOLA reunion wants that future with Lestat still. He wants to LIVE. He is NOT over him. Nothing has really changed in their feelings, even if there might be some difficulties in the future still.

The show has given us a few rather important reveals during the trial and Daniel's reveal - and there's hints, like the hair, or missing blood on faces, or fingers that had not been taken off before, or mantle pieces which did not break, or radio speeches given twice, or train schedules which do not match the narration, or hotel rooms that could not have been looked into from that angle, or not translated outbursts, or glossed over threats on their doorsteps.

There's clues amass that the tale was not as we were told. :)

When you rewatch, I can only recommend watching for the things that do not match. There's LOTS.

Like, for example, in the very first episode...

"I saw him sitting a length away from me. Radiant."

Actually... No. He did not :)

Louis ... came to the point of contrition, awareness, thankfulness and realization at the end of 2x08 because he had to face some truths. About himself, about his time with Lestat, and about the world he lives in as a vampire, and about the other vampires living in it.

And it made him re-evaluate what he'd thought he'd known - both influenced, and not.

What did Jacob say in that video I linked above?

"My life began when I met you. And I didn't appreciate that until this moment so thank you for that."

And honestly? What better way to put it?