#crying 🥲

[mistressemmedi]

all i care about is lewis up 11 palces and lando not winning. perfect race for me then no notes. (except yuki 11th but im just pretending that didnt happen)

Imagine if Sir Lewis had a decent car this weekend. Imagine what we could have had.

[earthseed]

Florence and the Machine Everybody Scream The new album This Halloween. x

[windwenn]

Fuck my stupid orufrey life

[syluses]

big girls dont cry QNA

i know you guys have lots of curiosities about this fic lolll so i’ll try to answer some of the questions i received (∗ᵕ̴᷄◡ᵕ̴᷅∗) 💕 if u still have some, just shoot me an ask!! :] also im really bad at explaining so i apologize 🤦🏻‍♀️ i have the plot nailed in my head but its tricky to articulate it in a clear, linear way for yall considering all the little nuances i added lol. i’ll try my best tho hehe :,)

Okay so there’s a whole ‘nother plot that exists in the background of this fic- which was super fun for me to write, but im sure from a reader standpoint it’s also kinda thrilling to try to connect the dots i left lol. thats why theres so many interpretations for this story (which i love!! i loved reading all yall’s theories)! 💕 BUT. that being said, the ‘canon’ goes like this:

SPOILERS BELOW read it first then come back! ( ⸍ɞ̴̶̷ ·̫ ɞ̴̶̷⸌ )

was caleb really dead?

No. Caleb staged his own death and then, similar to the main story homecoming wings, didnt tell mc :,) for his own reasons, for a time, he decides he’ll let her go on believing he’s truly gone…

why did he stage his death?

I dropped little crumbs of it in the fic, but it’s hinted that mc, on top of all her grief, feels a bit bitter over the whole shebang and also blames herself for it. hmm… why would that be? 🤔 well because their final moments together (or so she THOUGHT) were emotionally charged and volatile.

the foundation of their sibling relationship was growing weaker and weaker before the explosion. arguments are forming out of nowhere- things are becoming more tense and mc, for the life of her, can’t understand why her gege is always pulling her into a heated debate about safety, danger, blahblahblah, this that and the third, every time they interact. He’s being wildly unreasonable, which she knows, and protective- a trait that has snowballed as they entered their adulthood- but what she doesn’t know is the why behind it. she tells herself she just has a super protective older brother who views her as a little baby in need of his guidance- which isn’t entirely wrong… but she doesn’t see the full picture. His true feelings. All this tension eventually climbs to its peak. Caleb just gets worse and worse. He needs to do something before the world collapses on them both.

Now, in this au, he works at EVER, a somewhat shady but lucrative company- which dabbles in robotics amongst other things. I imagine they have abundant resources and wealth- and what with his promotions, it’s safe to say caleb is making a LOT. So, the delusional guy he is, he buys a big fancy suite with the idea in mind of two eventually living in it ;) but mc doesn’t want to- she has her own life in linkon!! She wants to spread her wings and separate from the nest anyway. Partly to start her own life; partly to prove to her gege that she can take care of herself. The argument that unfolds over this is the last they have before the big tragic explosion 😭 caleb, putting on a show with his beaten puppy eyes, leaves and then that’s the last time she sees him.

Caleb meticulously plans his ‘death’ out (with some help from his wingman ofc) and then eventually the robot is introduced to mc. It serves as a trojan horse. He’ll finally conquer her heart with it and win full autonomy over her. THIS IS HIS MAIN GOAL WITH THE ROBOT. WHY HE EVEN DOES ANY OF THIS TO BEGIN WITH.

Caleb gets to spy on mc with it and also slowly reshape her to accept his feelings; his ‘death’ has left her in a fragile state of mourning and he knows, after she warms up a bit to not-Caleb, he can more or less get away with anything- bc she will claw for whatever’s left of her family member. He can make her finally reciprocate and understand him— whether that be his feelings or fear or love. He tried to be patient, to be good, but obviously he had to travel a new route. He’s thinking of her 24/7. He’s obsessive, longing, protective, you name it- and all of this just worsens the more she denies him. When push comes to shove… well, caleb will do whatever it takes to win her :] He knows it’s unconventional and he’d be lying if he said it didn’t hurt him too- monitoring his endearingly stubborn, but sweet meimei and the shattered pieces he left of her through his android’s eyes— but it’s all temporary, and he truly believes it’s for the better.

did gideon know?

Yes, Gideon knew all along. He’s Caleb’s best buddy after all. To be matter of fact- Gideon didn’t just know, he quite literally ‘herded’ mc into the lion’s den in a way. Mc knew vaguely of their work at EVER, but not too much; so Gideon was the one who shined that light on their robotics and really introduced her to the concept of not-Caleb. Now, i wouldnt say Gideon is exactly comfortable with his involvement, but he actually really does care for mc and thinks she needs that help- as dubious as the means are. Anyway, it’s almost impossible to shut out all of his buddy’s demands: the brunet is nothing if not insistent on getting what he wants. In his own whacky way, Gideon thinks what he did- playing into Caleb’s plan- was for the better as well. I mean, Mc clearly wasnt doing good before not-Caleb came along,… but with the few visits he managed before the android got a little too stingy and sent him off, Gideon actually managed to catch a smile or two from her! So clearly he did the right thing 👀 not to mention… the real caleb seems very pleased with the progress, too. besides- the whole robot situation is temporary anyway :] She’ll be reuniting with the beloved gege she misses so much sooner rather than later.

how accurate was not-caleb?

His programming is like 100% accurate. Mc, for a mix of both naiveity and delusion, thinks not-Caleb is flawed when he starts to show signs of amorous/romantic feelings for her. Really, though, after she tells him to stay the night with her (innocently; and after years of having not shared the same childhood twin bed), it triggers a part of his ‘brain’ that undoes all real caleb’s self restraint thus far :] If the same exact situation happened with the real caleb, his reaction would’ve more or less been the same. Homeboy can only keep his feelings in check for so long

who programmed not-caleb?

Real Caleb

how is mc pregnant?

Because the robot’s creator wanted to add his own special touch to his work if you know what i mean :) yeah he’s a freak like that. Dont think he WOULDNT install in his robot the ability to indirectly knock his ‘meimei’ up. I will say though, that while caleb wants to get mc pregnant, its not fully bc he wants to start a family- at least not right away- but because he wants to emotionally and legally trap her with him. Besides monitoring her/wearing down her walls while she thought he was ‘dead’, this was actually one of caleb’s biggest goals with sending not-caleb into her home.

is not-caleb self-aware?

Yes

what’s real caleb been doing all this time?

Basically climbing the ranks of EVER from his lil perch somewhere in skyhaven. all the while, of course, spying on mc like a hawk. Biding his time & waiting for the right moment when she’s at her weakest, most codependent state to replace his carbon copy :)

was caleb controlling his robot?

No. But he essentially created its whole program. And there are cameras inside its eyes in which he watches mc from :) and cant help but snap pics with sometimes: she’s just so pretty— and endlessly sexy when he finally, in a vicarious way, gets to lie her back and make love to her <3

what is real caleb’s motive/ultimate goal?

1. to control/protect/‘tame’ mc through the robot; get her to see things from his point of view (which means realizing she belongs with him- where it’s safe and he can protect & love her)

2. to knock her up (hence the. ahem. reproductive abilities of the robot) so that he can trap her with a baby on top of all the other emotional strings he’s hogtied her with.

does gideon want mc too?

the question is not would gideon smash her. the question is would caleb LET him…. 👀

also, below i just attached a screenie from some of the notes i took. theyre ofc a little disjointed but i think it might clarify things too :] im so bad at answering questions esp for a plot this spiraling but i really tried my best guys my brain is tired forgive me :,)

[cametotheshowinsd]

Of all the years that we stood there on the sidelines Wishing for right now

[notonlymice]

Rumple + whatever is going on with his hands (s1–3)

[sam-loml]

Because when it all came down to it, it was always you and me. It's always been you... and me.

Supernatural 15.20 | Carry On

[butchdiaz]

girlfriend just diagnosed weewoo show with this venn diagram. real.

[beandraws]

Happy Birthday Cass😌🫶🏻

He is so hard to draw idk what it is I’ve drawn him and given up like 3 times

[ripbreslyn]

“you were like, unironically an alcoholic…”

“yeah, and it’s funny, because like, that was supposed to be- the move to austin was like, me turning things around. nothing turned around. the best decision i made wasn’t moving to texas, it was probably getting jambo, who’s just… the fuckin’ best.”

[lofi-and-chill72]

happy mclennon day everybody🥺

[crabsnpersimmons]

Happy Halloween from the "New 'Do, Same You" Boys!

later:

[builtintripping]

never forget...

read again?

no you did not see me repost this, shh

hemlo!! thank ya'll so so much for enjoying this lil comic series!! i know it's been a year since the first part, but most importantly i finished it 💀✨️

every single tags ya'll leave on me posts and past questions i recieve about this au is super appreciated, they make me smile the widest you have no clue!! im just a lil mad at myself that i couldn't expand on this au more so yall could have had more crumbs. irl stuff happened + still getting the hang of drawing and socializing again after years of doing neither of those 😭

but still, im glad i could share this comfort comic i made for myself, and for you guys too. it's a pretty personal one despite the characters not being mine 😅 i hope that you can walk away from this story believing (entirely or not) that someone out there still thinks of you, whether they're from a late/absent loved one who still wants the best for you or a dear friend who will make room in their hearts for you. life will never not be hard, but if you keep them close to your heart, adulting will be bearable 🫂

thank you so much for reading 💕

[syluses]

since not-caleb is self aware and separate from real-caleb, how does he feel about mc’s pregnancy overall? he seems pretty overjoyed but was it his personal intention as well to babytrap her? would having a baby with mc make him want to push back at real-caleb even more? what lengths would not-caleb go to, to protect her from his real copy?

i love big girls don’t cry sooo much! <333 haven’t been able to stop thinking about it TT

im so glad u liked the fic nonnie!! 💖✨ my brain is kinda mushy rn & im pretty bad at answering questions, but :,) i appreciate ur ask so HERE WE GO

I really dont think not-caleb ever had the intention of knocking mc up. Whether or not he was even aware that his program could harbor, ahem, his real counterpart’s babymaking material™️ is a question in and of itself. He definitely knows about the dark truth of his creation, and he is impressively self aware… however, his programmer really pushed the limit when it comes to realism; so i think not-caleb is for sure surprised at her pregnancy. He’s just as pleased as real caleb- albeit for different reasons…

Not-caleb actually takes on a slightly more familial mindset towards it— while his counterpart is just more delighted over the possessive rights it gives him over mc.

As mc slowly unravels the disturbing subtext of the past handful of months she’d spent grieving over her gege’s ‘passing’, not-caleb learns a bit more, as well. That naturally brings on more of a protectiveness- because even the robot can sense the depravity weaved beneath it all LOL. (which he shares, of course, but his base vanilla programming kind of pushes against it- which brings out a more mellow, moral caleb (similar to the one mc knew when growing up 🥲💔))

If not-caleb gets his family with mc- then yes, his own possessive traits would have an uptick. It’s deadass dog vs dog when it comes to the two— because when they fight over her, they’re quite literally fighting over what they perceive as their whole entire world (doubly, considering she’s pregnant with their?/his? veritable child).

Someone on ao3 (shoutout to them if they see this!!🫰) said that not-caleb would find a way to rip out the cameras installed in him- and i stand by this as well. 👀 Anything to track locations, monitor mc, or secretly spy on her through his metal chassis is being removed immediately, or, the attempt is at least made.

…Maybe not-caleb would try to take mc somewhere. Maybe it’d somehow succeed. Maybe it wouldn’t: maybe his manmade technology would prove to be just that— limited— and the elements or something else would thwart his mission.

Then, maybe real-Caleb would win.

[urghblergh]

Let.them.grow.old.together. 👏

Ref

Headcanon that Cardassian skin wrinkles differently/later in life than Human skin, 'cause it's tougher/thicker. Cue: Garak being super captivated by Julian's face and how it changes. So cute. 🤲🥲