#crying again about this situation

[our-blood-is-our-ink]

My heart genuinely goes out to the people of Palestine who suffer under Hamas rule in Gaza, just as much as my heart goes out to my family and friends in Israel.

We are all human. We are all people. I find more in common with those of Islamic faith than not. Everyone deserves human rights, everyone deserves to be able to peacefully live where they wish to, and practice their religion freely without fear of oppression.

I stand against Hamas. I stand with the people of Palestine. I stand against the Israeli government for the apartheid state it's turned Israel into. I stand with the people of Israel.

Both deserve peace and the opportunity to live and worship how they wish to, to be able to coexist peacefully.

And I choose to believe it's possible.

[starmieknight]

Was thinking about Stan's habit of grabbing his chest when he's scared and then thought about what if he did end up having a heart attack or something after Ford came back. Like, he's been stressed for ages and now he's gotta worry about Ford potentially getting the kids into something dangerous like he did and where he's gonna go after the kids leave and what he's gonna do without the Shack.

Maybe it hits him in the middle of tour or something. Like, he's been feeling off all day and looks kinda ragged so maybe Soos is keeping close and sees him go down. At first, people think it's part of the tour or some typical Stan gag. And then he doesn't laugh or try to play it up for money. So the twins run down to the basement to get Ford.

He's kinda annoyed that his planning time's been interrupted by Stanley's antics, but the twins seem genuinely upset so he goes to check it out. And finds out Soos and Wendy called an ambulance and there really IS a problem. Then he kinda disconnects from the situation. Like, he's panicking internally but this isn't the first major medical situation he's been in. So he calmly gets the kids (Soos and Wendy included) into Stan's car and follows the ambulance to the hospital. He's the one wrangling the kids while they freak out and asking all the questions to the doctors and nurses about Stan's condition. He can't take time to worry about his brother because he's got a bunch of kids to reassure and they're all looking to him because he's the eldest person there. He's an old man with all the answers in the universe. If anyone can tell them Stan's gonna be okay, it's gonna be Mr. 12 PhDs.

Except... he doesn't.

He doesn't know anything about his brother's medical history past the age of seventeen. Dipper's the one to mention Stan's medication and Mabel knows his diet and Soos and Wendy know about his boxing hobby and work schedule. Ford has a hazy memory about Stan chewing his way out of a trunk once.

He starts thinking about how Stan's the only family he has left. Sure, the twins are there, but they don't really know each other. Shermie and his son are just over the state line in California, but they don't know who he is anymore. Stanley's been wearing his face for years and they never seemed to notice. His parents are dead. Fiddleford is 30 years in the wind.

Stanley's the only one who truly knows him. Knows about his deepest insecurities and childhood dreams. Who knows his favorite books and comic book heroes. About his first disastrous date and the kissing bot. About how badly things had gone for him and been at his doorstep only a couple of days after receiving a single postcard after 10 years of silence.

And Ford knows nothing of the man Stanley became. Stanley doesn't know how Ford has changed. How he's trying SO HARD to fix his mistakes.

And suddenly being so angry over some paltry little machine doesn't seem so important. Ford's the one who built a doomsday device.

He's still angry with Stanley taking his identity, but what does it matter if no one noticed? Sure, Stan got him a criminal record, but he made one of his own in the multiverse. Their family has always leaned to the gray side of the law.

And now they may never get the chance to know each other again. 40 years without each other and the pain of potentially losing Stanley cuts Stanford so deep he feels like he's the one dying.

So he sits in that cold hospital waiting room, four hysterical kids surrounding him, and wears a straight face while his world falls apart around him.

If you lose your parents, they call you an orphan.

If you lose your twin, they don't stop calling you a brother.

[eatsurspleen]

everyday i get jealous of those people who write essays analyzing, picking apart, and overall appreciating their favorite character's dynamic with another, the character's personality, or backstory cause im usually left like this when i think about Marcille for too long

[quietstereo]

Khaslana is so beautiful I need him fucked

[the-wizard-synonyms]

nothing will haunt me like evan kelmp getting his arm exploded to death. nothing will haunt me like "there is a very real part of him that struggles under the effort of staying." nothing will haunt me like "if it depends on what was important to him, then obviously it is his friends" and "all of these things are easy for him to haunt" and "there is something in whatever drifting space he is now that wonders what he mattered to, and if it needs to be even".

nothing will haunt me like "it's easy to drift and to move away, but it's hard to close your eyes when it's so bright around" and "the shadow reaches out, and starts to slowly put objects back in the backpack" and "the main thing I'm going to do is take the shoes off my dead body and put them on."

[non-operator]

sobbing and crying and wailing and howling like a crusty dog about the new comic There's So Much to unpack but I can't see or think with my tears. So none of this will be coherent or completed thoughts, just straight up word vomit

I think the biggest thing is the fact that Till only begins really unpacking his trauma and grief once he is older. More specifically, when he realizes he is older than Ivan. I feel like it's such a significant detail (obviously since the comic does kind of center the last half on it) because Till is now an adult and holds more life experience to reflect on the past, which finally gives him the ability to (try to) understand Ivan whereas before he couldn't.

I feel like you can see it in the dialogue Till gives to Ivan, because it's important to remember that this isn't the real Ivan but a hallucination. Ivan isn't saying anything; Till is the one making him say it, based on what he believes Ivan would say.

I find it so interesting and heartbreaking that in the moment Till begins to understand Ivan's perspective, Ivan's face can't be seen.

These two panels aren't juxtaposed, but they are still in the same pose. And it's Ivan "saying" the lines "can't you say it first? I wish you'd say it first" that triggers Till to reflect on how old Ivan was when he died. And that's what leads to the second panel. Exact same pose, and Ivan's face can't be seen. I think it's this moment that Till realizes that Ivan wanted comfort, and thus that Ivan had been scared.

However, Till can never know for sure because Ivan is dead; he can never confirm or follow-up on this, as reflected by the shadowed face.

Even when Till starts verbalizing his realization that he's outgrown dead Ivan, we still can't see his face:

And Ivan is still in his Round 6 outfit/the form he died in. I feel like this reflects how much Till regrets not understanding Ivan during this time. Not just during Round 6, but when they were this age, when they began the competition-- the time they all really needed support from one another.

I don't think it's a coincidence that even as we see child Ivan's face in the memory, we never really get to see hallucination Ivan's face as this is happening.

AND THEN THE FUCKING HUG WITH BABY IVAN??!??!

Something about how adult perspective on childhood and something about how even though it happened too late, just having an understanding of what Ivan was going through/empathizing with his fear is enough to bring Till some peace because now Ivan isn't a figure to fear but rather someone Till knows cared about him. Like as he's going to hug Ivan, it looks like they'll kiss right??? But the positions are reversed because Till is the one on the left and initiating while Ivan is on the right and looking shocked but Till doesn't kiss Ivan. Ignoring shipping, the hug shows that Till isn't pushing Ivan away anymore, that he's not rejecting him anymore out of not knowing what Ivan's deal was. And the fact that Ivan becomes a child when Till says "I never knew you were so scared" reflects how he's retroactively re-contextualizing their past and understanding why Ivan chose to sacrifice himself and the love that existed, that they were family and I'm crying and going insane and I can't write anything comprehensible anymore

You know how sometimes the healing process is like, you as the adult forgiving your child self or providing for your child self. I feel like it's like that but towards the guilt of dead childhood friends/family. But also something about how you can never fully understand the people close to you, especially loved ones you've lost, but you can always trust that the love was there. Even if you don't understand it completely or if it wasn't compatible with you, past or present, it was there and sometimes that's enough

[ryanthel0ser]

I'm so close to making a video (cause writing it out would not be read and my tone would not be conveyed well) about the DMC netflix anime because a lot of people keep saying that fans are upset only because it doesn't follow continuity which yes some are but for a lot of us it's not that.

And it's okay to like it! You can like the new anime and I am glad it's bringing new people to the series, from what I've heard from people more unfamiliar with DMC it's a decent action anime. It's also childish to say you're stupid for liking it, you're not don't let people make you think you are.

But I want people to understand why fans are disappointed with it outside of just disliking different continuities. I love seeing different takes on existing IP, I adore Trigun Stampede and I think it does an excellent job at doing exactly that, I am literally a fan of the ninja turtles who have different iterations everywhere. For me though, I don't consider the netflix show successful in that and want to explain why that is.

[itspileofgoodthings]

I mean yeah it’s just like. not only is Darcy not the Broody Mysterious Misunderstood-but-also-still-a-jerk Love Interest, he’s also not the Farmer’s Market Hot boyfriend, you know? He’s not just wearing soft sweaters and having kind eyes while loving his mom and also gardening. The letter alone reveals a man with a completely real and completely masculine personality who has, among many things, a sharp wit, a full command of language, a keen sense of justice, and the unflinching ability to be his own lawyer.

[goatpaste]

I know a sorta made a small post along these lines the other day, but something a lil more official of!!

im kinda broke rn, between the recent stuff with losing my car and having to get a new one and work literally scheduling me 13 hrs a week. Im slowly losing money and it got really bad this month after paying my bills and everything and realizing I had just 300 bucks in my bank account.

My current job hasn't been working with me to give me the hours i need to make a living wage and iv been trying to get a new job for months with no success and it's looking like i could really use a lil extra support via online commission work rn until I can land a more solid paying job. I really hate to sound like a desperate wet cardboard box beast but I still need to insure my new car and cant afford it as i stand right now.

I wont ask for donations, I think im going to be fine, but a lil money to help keep my head above the water would be great so im just gonna promo my commission work. To anyone who can commission me in some way or another would be awesome! I appreciate any support I can get rn even just a reblog

My Commission Info

My Kofi

My Etsy

My Toyhouse

[cervinae-canine]

this community is so spineless when the person is popular, i swear to god

[robyn-goodfellowe]

i think the severe rise of spam bots within the last few months of 2024 singlehandedly killed whatever remained of ask culture on this site. we will not survive the winter

[taraxippos]

Return of the King is my absolute favorite movie to have in the background while drawing. I've seen it probably 100+ times so it doesn't tempt me to distraction but I also love it so I'm not tempted to switch to something else and thus get distracted. I have to watch the arrival/charge of the Rohirrim every fucking time because that's one of the best scenes in any movie ever but other than that I'm locked in

[fisheito]

Super important question. Do you think Yakumo is ticklish?

wait hold on i have to look this up

[sylenth-l]

hello! hunter age anon back once moe with another question!!! (sorry ig yhis gets annoying!!!)

i want to ask about Cayde's dynamic with andal!!! like, how to portray their relationship and maybe cayde's general psyche when it comes to people and forming bonds.

Not at all, I love getting questions about my guys!! (I'm just bad at answering them aksdjhflks OTL)

It's… complicated, I'm never sure how to describe characters' relationships with words. I know it sounds incredibly cheesy, but to me Andal and Cayde are two halves of a whole, one feels incomplete without the other. Even if we're talking about them being just friends, they're the type who always show up everywhere together and if for some reason they aren't, they'll be texting each other non-stop still. "We're two halves of a whole idiot" - that's literally them.

You could say that they knew and understood each other perfectly, but I feel like while it's true in general everyday scenarios, on a grander scale Andal always had an upper hand in that. He knew Cayde like the back of his hand, he trusted him and believed in him far more than Cayde ever thought of himself. Cayde however wasn't exactly that sharp when it came to serious things about which Andal avoided speaking head-on - like, Cayde couldn't understand why Andal takes his Vanguard duty so seriously. It was only after he spent years as the Hunter Vanguard himself that he started to get what Andal must've felt. I don't think it's Cayde's fault or something though - Andal most likely barely ever talked about that, and he himself didn't exactly need people talking about their feelings to understand them.

I think it's safe to say, judging by how everyone speak of him and the leadership positions he seemingly effortlessly always ended up in, that Andal just gets people, he understands them extremely well and can find a common language with just about anyone. He was the one who made "significant progress in faction accords". What kind of person you must be to make faction leaders come to an agreement, at that time especially??? Convincing, sharp and charming sounds like an understatement alksdhfkjaks

So, I think it was that quality that helped Andal almost immediately see right through all of Cayde's clowney facades. And his own kindness and honesty pretty much left Cayde totally disarmed. Andal got to know him - the real him - and loved him, thought of him as his best friend. And made damn sure Cayde was aware of that as well. That's actually so, so incredibly important - because with the way Cayde is, he constantly thinks that deep down people surrounding him either dislike him or are disappointed in him. No matter how much time they spend together, it's not something he himself will just get one day because "well it's OBVIOUS" or something. His relationship with Ikora and Zavala are probably the most striking example of that. Ikora says he was one of her closest friends - Cayde says he's not sure if Ikora even likes him. The City is flooded with Cabal, lightless Guardians scattered all over the system, humanity is in shambles - and Cayde is genuinely surprised Zavala is looking for him and needs him. He leaves messages for both of them in case they kill him, making it sound like he wouldn't be surprised at all if they did. That… really shows the abysmal gap of misunderstanding between them, to put it lightly.

But Andal! Cayde never once doubted Andal and Andal's feelings for him. The good old days he speaks so fondly of is the time when he ran around the Solar system with Andal and their pack. Even if he sometimes laments that Andal is too serious and bad with jokes, that seriousness and honesty is actually just another proof that if Andal says so, then he really does like him and is impressed by whatever Cayde wanted to impress him with this time. 

I think it's probably one of, if not the most important part of what made Andal so incredibly special to Cayde - that freedom of being able to be equally honest with him, be real. Goofing off because he simply wants to goof off - not because he prefers to give people lower standards so that they won't be disappointed in him when he fails. Sharing his muddy concerns and fears that he barely even can put into words, knowing it won't be laughed at or brushed off as unimportant. Absolutely everything got better instantly if they were in it together. The mere presence of one of them in close proximity immediately cheered the other up.

I don't know, I can talk about them for hours and still not say what I wanted to say. I always miss the most important stuff somehow, no matter how many words I pour in. Honestly, I think that to better understand what was happening between them, all you have to do is to (re)read "The Man They Call Cayde" - literally half of it is basically Cayde's love letter to Andal.

[st-peculiar]

Recently rewatched the first two Guardians of the Galaxy movies and I’m so very intrigued by a lot of the worldbuilding, especially with the Ravager cultural practices and the whole funeral at the end of Vol. 2. Even though Yondu (I think that’s how his name is spelled?) broke their code (which seems to be a very significant part of how the Ravagers operate, sacred), a lot of crews showed up for him in the end because he was so respected across the board. I like these movies a lot

[cosmossystem]

one (1) single teacher set me back YEARS of progress on my ability to communicate 🙂 i am so deeply angry to my core