I discovered Wattpad 7-8 months ago and, as a rom-com lover, I got hooked fast. But lately, almost every story I come across feels like a huge letdown. The female leads are constantly weak, overly forgiving, and clueless. Even when they’re written as powerful CEOs, they somehow end up being outsmarted by the male lead, who sometimes hasn’t even finished high school. It’s beyond frustrating. What’s even more concerning is the portrayal of so-called "alpha males" in these stories. I’ve read novels like this before, but realizing that most of these writers—and even the readers—are minors or really young girls is honestly terrifying. Seeing these young girls in the comments, romanticizing feeling inferior to men, is just beyond disturbing. For fuck's sake they’re even fantasizing about things like domestic violence, just because the male lead apologized and "changed" later on.
This isn’t cute. It isn’t romantic. It’s dangerous. PERIOD.
That feeling of unwantedness, that creeping loneliness, no matter how much you try. that feeling of being a burden, that feeling that makes you wish you should have never been born. Everyone would have been happy; your parents, your grandparents, your sibilings, heck! even the relatives who dont even matter.
That feeling of being useless, that feeling of being a failure, that makes you feel like as if everything is your fault. your parents are always worried about you and consumed in that worry they say things that makes you question your existence, that just makes you want to end it all. Do they look at other children and wish i was more like them?
That feeling of being a trouble to your friends. Are they really my friends? or do they just talk to me out of pity? Am i being a burden to them also? do they also want me to leave them alone? to never message them? Do they also want me to vanish from their life?
That feeling of being a failed elder sibiling. Does my brother even like me? Do i annoy him so much that all he wishes is for me to leave and never come back? Does he look at other sibilings and wish he also had someone like them?
No matter how much i try, what i do, am i really worthy of it all? Do i really deserve it?
"Is it my imagination?
Is it something that I'm taking?
All the smiles that I'm faking
Everything is great
Everything is fucking great....."