#discord thoughts

[bugs-with-webs]

shadows death fucked sonic up more than he likes to admit. shadow was the first time sonic has personally experienced death. and it was the strangest hedgehog he had ever met. the strangest hedgehog, that no one cared about. he tried to destroy the world, almost succeeded, and few people knew he sacrificed himself to save it in the end. sonic couldnt let that be forgotten. he couldnt let shadow be forgotten. so he made a grave. it was a shitty grave. just a stone with shadows name written on it in sharpie. sonic was the only one who knew where it was, who knew it even existed. but it was something. it was enough. if no one else would remember shadow, then sonic would carry his memory himself if he had to (even though he knew shadow would live on in rouge's memory too). he'd visit the grave. it started everyday, but eventually everyday turned to once a week, to once a month. the pain never left, but he found ways to cope. even though shadow was dead and long gone, sonic talked to the grave. hed tell shadow fun facts about earth, adventures sonic went on, past and present, things he think shadow would like, any thought he had, especially those regarding the black hedgehog, he would tell to the grave. and it was fine.

until shadow came back. but he wasnt shadow. he didnt remember sonic, he didnt remember how they bonded while fighting together in space, he didn't remember. so sonic kept going to the grave. he continued to talk to it while walking in circles around it, wishing he could do and show shadow all these things while trying to desperately ignore the increasing hole in his chest.

but then shadow gets his memory back. but its still not the same. now its too long, too awkward, for sonic to show shadow everything he wanted to and tell shadow everything he wanted to. its too late to d so now. so he keeps visiting the grave. he learns more about shadow. his favorite flower is lavender. sonic starts leaving bouquets of it at the grave. shadow likes astronomy, sonic starts reading nerdy space books to the grave. every time he learns something new about shadow is another thing for the grave. and everything is fine. no one knows about the grave. they cant. and sonic keeps talking to it like its shadow.

until one day. that gets ruined. one day, sonic goes to the grave, a fresh bouquet of lavender in one hand and the newest astronomy book in the other, and he freezes at the sight of shadow. the real shadow. kneeling silently in front of the grave, his back to sonic. sonic thinks about leaving, but shadows voice stops him dead in his tracks. he asks sonic how long the grave has been here for. 'a while'

they dont say anything. shadow takes a deep breath and turns to sonic. if sonic didnt know any better, hed assume shadow just stopped crying. shadows asks him something that makes the world around him freeze. 'did you mean everything you said?' shadow knew. he heard. everything. shadow heard all the things sonic wanted to do with him, wanted to show him, wanted to share with him, and now sonic couldnt run from that anymore.

no ones cared about shadow before. hes the villain, the monster, the evil one. no one cared when he died. or so he thought. he saw sonic running one day, seemingly with a purpose, and shadow followed him. to a small clearing that would've been impossible for anyone to find by themself. and there was a rock. and sonic started talking to it. and shadow wondered what exactly this was, until he spotted the name on the rock. his name on the rock. and he heard sonic say how he wanted to hold shadow in his lap as they watched a meteor shower together, or how sonic wanted to comfort shadow after he had a flashback, or how sonic wanted to show shadow the world and more. and even hours after sonic left, shadow stayed at the grave. he learned sonics routine. the hedgehog would go there once every two weeks. the same time. the same day. a new bouquet of lavender each time. and shadow would follow him. learn how sonic wanted to make him breakfast in the morning, how sonic wanted to learn about astronomy with shadow, how sonic wanted how. shadow got there before sonic did one day. he wasnt sure why. but he stared at the rock for a long time. there was a 2 week old bouquet of lavender next to the sad rock. there was only one thought in shadows head, even as sonic saw him. 'he cared. he wanted to remember me. he cared about me.' and he slowly turns to sonic, and asks him 'did you mean everything you said?'

[veronae-buddie]

I'm having thoughts. Thoughts about how bt bones was foreshadowed using couch theory in masks.

Buck "I'm good with the armchair" falling asleep in his chair while PDM beds down on the couch Buck couldn't get comfy on.

Are people talking about this? I haven't seen people talking about this

[cyberpunk-20xx]

Kerry's situation is a very painful reminder of how fucked up the game's canon society is, even to the rich people. Which is maybe my biggest gripe with the game. A game where I'm not given even the slightlest chance to change shit around me, a game that's just so pessimistic and cruel in how it treats its characters, so hopeless, is not punk. but that's smth else entirely to talk about.

Back to Kerry. He's less suicidal at the end of the game when V reached out and helped some to sooth his trauma about Johnny, even if one could argue it's maybe just, well, putting him back where he started or indulging a toxic fixation. Depends on your interpretation. But his situation hasn't actually changed, he's still held by his label in a death grip, even if at least his current manager's supposedly out of the picture. But even that i don't believe. All we know for sure is that we burned his yatch. Like. Kerry tells us that his MSM Record manager (can't remember his name and be bothered to check) makes him drink on purpose to get him to sign shit, which is blatant abuse and all we get to do is fucking burn a boat? Let me make the dude a corpse, even if you make me have to work for it jfc.

I really love when fanfic writers actually address that issue btw, because it really hurts me to think about him being left in this bullshit. And in so many endings we know his situation is less than ideal even with V.

Kerry's profound unhappiness is visible in many ways: the state of his house, his insinuated addictions, his impulsive, self-destructive behaviors, his tendency to lash out and paranoia to assume people are against him, and overall defensiveness, his fear of the unknown, his clinging to fame, his refusal to see his kids, his mentioned and hinted suicide attempts. He's a guy who, at 89, doesn't seem to me like he knows what he wants, what he needs.

Personally, it both hurts me and makes me really like him, because I find him relatable in how he reacts to despair. In that aspect, I find him very well-written, even if a lot of shitty tropes and pop star stereotypes are used. Yes, pop stars one.

(One other thing that's devastating about Kerry is that he's a rocker, but he doesn't act like one, according to his own definition (which seems to really just be Johnny's shitty macho definition altho it's a whole label that precedes both of them in the TTRPG lore). Which wouldn't be a problem to me if he also didn't find the genre inferior to rock.)

But what fucks me up the most is that he's dealing with despair at all, when out of the four LIs, he's the one that has the safest, most stable life. Hell, he could even easily leave Night City and never look back, and still create, he's got the money for it, it might sound terribly materialistic of me but the man has enough money to just no longer be dealing with all this shit. But he's stuck there because even at nearly fucking nine decades of life, he's not yet felt seen, heard, or acknowledged. He's still scrambling for his roots and something to look forward at once.

Kerry is 89 and has the self-esteem of a 23 years old still.

If I just listen to my basest instincts, I blame Johnny for a lot of that, but that's the easy way, actually. If I actually think about it, Kerry's responsible of his own life too, and Johnny got nothing to do with how he feels out of touch with his Filipino roots, or him being a burnt out rockstar, Johnny is not that powerful at all, and mostly I blame Arasaka and the corps, and i blame the music industry in the game especially actually, i blame the media and the fans for how Kerry bit by bit stops feeling human in the spotlight, but the thing is, it's harder to be angry at those, even in game. Because we're not actually given meaningful ways to do something about inequality in game, and when you're unable to fight something, your brain becomes apathetic to it. It's just a survival thing. my brain does that a lot. i prize my anger a lot because of that (probably why i am so attached to Johnny tbh).

I think Kerry craves to be seen as the man he is, but his ways to try and fix that is to feed the demigod image his career upholds. I'm mad we can't do something about it, nor see the change he deserves happen. I'm mad a game with "punk" in its name is so hopeless and cynical.

[thenocturnenarrator]

I want the utmv trio: the killer sanses

I want the real utmv trio: the star sanses

I said the real utmv trio: Error Ink and Nightmare

THINK ABOUT IT!! They are by far the oldest of everyone out there in the multiverse, Ink is basically inmortal, Error probably has been destroying universes for centuries and Nightmare escaped Dreamtale like 700 years ago or smth. They probably met first and all… I bet they’re besties and go shopping on weekends 5iytfytfy

This is based on a conversation I had over on discord with a friend

A recreation of the event xDDDDD

Anyway, all of this was to provide context for this

They are besties your honor

Btw thanks to @just-let-me-call-myself-arson for creating this with me xDDDDD

[pokemon-legends-and-legacies]

Thoughts on Cardea's job and exactly how weird Mt. Coronet probably is from the fankid chat!

[uchiwife]

I can't believe I uninstalled Discord. I need to refocus on my fics. I think it was distracting me and I was starting to feel out of place.🥲 It'll do me good to get away and write a bit on my own. I hope my muse will be there.♡

[rovermcfly]

I think a lot of people are forgetting that on tumblr fandom used to be practiced very differently. now everyone fucks off to their discords or tumblr groups to discuss everything with a select few, making tags be nearly only used for posting some finished fanworks or not at all

a decade ago people didn't have tumblr groups. people didn't even have dms. if you wanted to talk to anyone about anything you had to make a post, or send an ask (which more often than not would get published and thereby become a post in the end too)

so next time you think "I have a fandom thought but I have to find a small group of hyperspecifically like-minded people to share it with in private" remember all the freaks you could be missing out on meeting by keeping the tags dead. use tags, make friends. fuck discord.

[vesperosy]

selkie au counts for mermay.... riiiiight......

[technikki]

if there's anything i've learned from the current state of social media it's that this is one of the worst possible notifications you can receive upon opening an app

[zei-dragon-den]

for so long ive been like "eh im just kinda a furry" but now that I made myself sockpaws im just like, damn, yeah im a furry

wearing these things legit gives me zoomies

[umblrspectrum]

3 years of this godforsaken show

[museaway]

✍️ more fic writer asks!

reblog & your followers can send asks with the questions they’d like you to answer!

the last sentence you wrote

a character whose POV you’re currently exploring

how you feel about your current WIP

a story idea you haven’t written yet

first sentence of the fifth paragraph of an unpublished WIP

the word that appears the most in your current draft (wordcounter.net can tell you)

your preferred writing fonts

if you had to write a sequel to a fic, you’d write one for…

start to finish, how long did it take you to write the last fic you posted?

what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

a WIP you’d like to finish someday

a trope you’re really into right now

a fandom you’re thinking about writing for

where do you get your inspiration?

favorite weather for writing

favorite place to write

talk about your writing and editing process

if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic

in what year did you publish your first fic?

when did you publish your most recent fic?

do you ever worry about public reaction to what you’re writing? how do you get past that?

pick three keywords that describe your writing

how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative?

besides writing, what are your other hobbies?

are you able to write with other people around?

your favorite part of the writing process

your least favorite part of the writing process

how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

share a fic you’re especially proud of

[badkarma1998]

heard we were drawing localized Mikus, so here's Colorado Miku

CSU version and More Mile High Miku

(meme version under the cut)

Disclaimer: I was born in Casa Bonita so I'm allowed to make fun of myself (I am currently high and hoping this is funny)

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I think I made some of you guys a little sad with my last post, so you can have some happy aftermath twins before part 2, as a treat ❤️