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It also means, every now and then, we should give ourselves a break. You are a primate wearing cloth. You were never meant to be here, because you were never meant to be anywhere. You are just as evolved as the sparrows in the trees and the mites on your face, and we are all just here because we're here because we're here.
I find it extremely helpful to remind myself sometimes that I am just a well-dressed ape.
No wonder computer screens have such an appeal—I am just a creature, and these lights are so nice and bright and they can give me feelings from the comfort of my chair.
No wonder it is hard to stay on task sometimes—I am just a creature, and there might be a nice bug under the next piece of bark.
No wonder it is hard to understand how other people think. I am trapped in here and they are trapped in there, and we have developed an incredibly complex means of conveying what's happening in our respective vessels, except that we evolved to do this face-to-face, and now are trying to make it work in this complex thing we developed called writing which does a fair but flawed job of conveying our actual thoughts, and has none of the subtlety, nor the efficiency, of language as we originally evolved it. And the times when it matters, where a great deal is at stake, are all new and crazy and awfully big for a society of well-dressed monkeys.
And because the world is big and we can only reach so far, we even developed different languages, which is all good and well, but then we went and made this thing called an internet where we are all together again, and a huge portion of the people using it aren't doing so in their first/best language, or at least, not all of the time. And that makes even more grounds for misunderstanding.
With all of this complexity, it is no wonder that we misunderstand each other; that we other the unfamiliar, and villainise those whose backgrounds, environments, and microcosms are different from our own, especially in beliefs we hold dear. But I find it brings compassion to keep it in mind, and reminds me to take it easy on myself, and not just others. Because, as a primate, I could also just…choose not to play by the constructions of the society we have created. Sometimes it is rewarding to indulge that feeling, but usually I think, actually, this thing called society that we have made is quite okay really. We are doing our best, and, globally, there has never been a better time to be alive than right now—at least, not for humans (I like to read We're Here to be reminded of this regularly). But we are still just animals, and we deserve a break.
The annoying thing about all that seemingly bullshit hippie nature connection shit is that it's absolutely true
there is no fundamental difference between you, me, a random person in a random country across the world, the fly that just landed on your house, the grass growing down the street, the fish you ate for dinner, and the bird that's sitting on my computer
everything on this planet is connected and everything influences everything else and we are all inheritors of this spherical-ish rock's collective 4.6 billion years of history
we are all the same, fundamentally, just with a few changes here and there over the course of countless millennia, and we all rely on each other. eating is just the flow of nutrients and energy through the biosphere. everything dies because the planet changes and before we figured out how to modify our behavior during our lifetimes genetic mutation was the only way to adapt to that change. everything evolves. everything feels. everything yearns.
there is no "us verus them" for anything - not man versus nature, not man versus man, not man versus deity
its just Us. Us and Us. There are some of us who insist there's a "them", and that's a problem. But ultimately, they are still part of the "Us"
so it sucks, but the minute you start seeing literally anything as "the enemy" instead of "someone who has been horrifyingly mislead, because the vast majority of beings on this planet just want to do what they think is the right thing" you've already lost the plot
there is no enemy
there is no evil
we made up evil to try and make sense of actions we couldn't understand
there is only our planet, and everything on it, and we are all connected, and we all have to work together
I know that goes against your deep primate instincts, because you have to have a little selfishness to survive and that's where that lives, and sometimes that selfishness requires hurting others or protecting yourself from hurt
but the burden of being the first species (probably) aware of all this means we have to try to ignore that monkey inside of our chests and remember that there is no enemy. there is no them.
there is only us.
#in which I attempt to channel the Green brothers#tl;dr#monkey see monkey do#but monkey not good at empathise#especially without see expressions#this is a subliminal kitkat advertisement#this is not related to herpetology#cw: wot#wall of text
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*catboys ur shounen protag*
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#yuji itadori#yuuji#fanart#jjk fanart#boss shes drawing shirtless catboys.............#listen i just bought the mewji plush ive been in a Mood ok#u all can forgive me im sure#i rly liked the original mewji sketch that i did last night but fr some reason when i went to clean it i could not get th expression??#it just looked so off and kind of uncanny and not like yuuji at all#so i scapped it :) hes less scrunchy faced now#also. gomenyasai i am still guilty of doubling up on human/cat ears....#espECIALLY with a haircut like yuujis it is beyond me how to omit them#if anyone can make it work u r a better artist than i#anyway im so happy the trend of like. putting ur ref pic next to the finished piece exists#adds a lil layer of visual interest i think !!!#plus i for one think its neat seeing what other ppl use fr ref#i realized while drawing this tht its been a minute since my last boy without a shirt on#every time i get to draw torso muscles i am like i shld do this more often !!! and then i never do#bc the only thing i like more than rendering muscles is a cute fit GHJFJHFGSHg#anyway itadori mewji ladies and gays enjoy <3#i have ! places 2 b !#'why were u late' . uh .
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I know it's well-understood at this point that Kirk/Spock is much more of a nerd4nerd ship than a nerd/jock thing, but it's just been kind of percolating around my mind that both of them aren't just space nerds but space nerds who were personally bullied.
Like, 18-year-old Kirk was targeted by an older bully who combines "total asshole" with "the most grating man in existence":
MCCOY: Well, yeah, I'm beginning to feel a little bit picked-on, if that's what you mean. KIRK: I know the feeling very well. I had it at the Academy. An upperclassman there. One practical joke after another, and always on me. My own personal devil. A guy by the name of Finnegan. MCCOY: And you being the very serious young— KIRK: Serious? I'll make a confession, Bones. I was absolutely grim, which delighted Finnegan no end.
This was five years after Kirk survived a genocide, btw, and likely well before his stint as an Academy instructor known to be strict and demanding (which is the period the "stack of books with legs" description of him comes from). By the time he's 33, fifteen years after all this, it turns out one of his deepest fantasies is just beating the shit out of his bully, but only if he can do it According To The Rules (the replica of Finnegan sneers, "Always fight fair, don't you? True officer and gentleman, you").
Spock, meanwhile, is viciously targeted by his Vulcan peers for being biracial from at least age 5; he's described as being tormented by other boys by that age, and "at home nowhere except Starfleet." I think he'd have been 18 or 19 when he left for Starfleet and it's... the least bad of his options, but he seems to have spent his entire career among humans and being persistently subjected to raw racism and profound disrespect for his culture at every turn.
Like, their histories of being metaphorically shoved into lockers are not identical or anything, but I think it's interesting that they both have them.
#i feel like kirk and mccoy are generally seen as more temperamentally aligned despite kirk being emotionally closer to spock#spock representing cold logic and kirk and mccoy as the passionate emotional ones#but i feel like a) spock is wildly emotional just repressed. and coolly utilitarian in philosophy. and usually undemonstrative.#b) mccoy is highly intelligent and sometimes VERY much the voice of reason#(not typically cool rationality but certainly reason - he puts together clues that the others don't see on multiple occasions#he's not as easily derailed by obscuring details or over-cerebral analysis paralysis as the other two imo)#c) but mccoy sometimes struggles with the really big emotional shit and spock is more on kirk's emotional wavelength there#(this is especially obvious in conscience of the king and turnabout intruder but not only there - in both mccoy resists seeing#the full horror of the violations of the most basic rights that kirk has endured while spock is much more sensitive to those things)#and d) kirk is emotionally expressive but typically more cautious and measured in judgment than either of the others#more likely to formulate positions in terms of philosophical principles than mccoy's kneejerk sense of decency#(which sometimes is exactly what's needed and sometimes disastrously lacking in rigor and reflection)#or spock's often brutally utilitarian focus on outcomes that runs roughshod over... like. everyone.#that's why kirk is the mediator; he's not at the exact midpoint in every dispute#but broadly his personality and strengths/weaknesses fall pretty evenly between spock and mccoy#(interestingly i think this is especially noticeable with kirk's infamous seductions - which are rarely motivated by simple desire#they combine the focused perception and expressiveness of mccoy and the brutally self-denying calculations of spock#when sylvia exclaims that he seems warm and passionate but his mind is cold it's like... yeah. softly lit femme fatale james t kirk#it's like the unholy side of kirk's overall approach borrowing pretty equally from both mccoy and spock)#ANYWAY the point is that i don't think kirk is actually more similar to mccoy than he is to spock#and in particular his tendency to repress the horrors and focus on useful concrete action are very akin to spock#long post#anghraine babbles#star peace#otp: the premise#c: who do i need to be#c: i object to intellect without discipline#star trek: the original series#anghraine's meta
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(mild spoilers: captain america brave new world)
"you can feed a million people with a phone call. but the question is, who is in the room with you when you're making those decisions? is it the people you're gonna impact? or is it just more people like you?".
for me this is the moment that probably led bucky to where he is now. "steve gave people something to believe in, you give people something to aspire to."
#i LOVE this seried by the way#sam wilson is one of the best mcu characters and definetly in my top 5#i think about this speech daily#but after watching the new movie and getting confirmation of what buckys up to it made me think of this scene differently for him#especially his expressions throughout. i used to think politician bucky was an odd chouce#but tbh i could see sam having inspired him. him wanting to be the person in that room making the good difference#just a thought#these two have such a fascinating dynamic#movie was great btw dont listen to the haters#sam wilson remains a brilliant character as always. being a great cap#captain america brave new world#captain america#sam wilson#brave new world spoilers#bucky barnes#james buchanan barnes#ace rambles#sambucky#although you could see this with or without the shipper goggles
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a little strange to get dms from other trans people saying they agree with biden's dumb statemet that he doesnt want minors getting gender-affirming care. if you really think its such an epidemic that 13 year olds are getting their knockers blown off by surgeons every other day, then please point me in the direction of said 13 year olds that are somehow accessing gender-affirming care that literal trans adults can't even access.
like please be fr. we literally have privatized healthcare and insurance where not even people who go through the appropriate avenues can get approved for care they need to stay alive. what makes you think a trans minor is getting phallo or vaginalplasty. feel whatever you want about 13 year olds who want gender-affirming care, but dont parrot transphobic rhetoric that is based on no facts and a moral panic. they second they legitimize barriers to care for trans minors is the second they start finding ways to do the same for trans adults. dont be a buffoon.
#muerto talks#im sorry but you look a little foolish saying all that#especially as a trans person#do i think a 13 year old should get a major surgery? idk! im not said 13 year old! and neither are you!#leave that up for the 13 year olds and their team of doctors and family and friends and therapists and whatever#but limiting access to care#even if they have to wait a few years is still going to get trans kids killed#somehow intersex newborns getting their genitals mutilated to be easily categorized is not too young for such invasive surgeries#but a 13 year old is?#yeah i see whats happening here#an infant cant reject socially imposed ideas of gender much less consent to invasive surgery#but you will white knuckle whatever power you have over a child who dares to express themselves freely#i couldnt even get top surgery in my 20s without two letters of approval and several months of therapy proving that i needed this#u people will believe anything#use ur head please just for once and stop listening to the fears the moral panic spews at ys
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cursed no tattoo machete (I'm sorry for doing this to him)
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#!!!#I mean one person's cursed is the other one's aesthetic I think this is actually a look in itself and you can fight me on that#see this is what I mean when I say the black lids are an important part of his design#they pull a lot of weight in terms of how his face works and how clearly you can see his eyes#without them his expressions are a lot harder to read especially from a distance#he loses a lot of his sharpness#the white eyelashes though the eyelashes have me weak#over the years I've thought numerous times to myself “why don't I give him cute little blonde lashes those are pretty”#only to realize 0.5 seconds later it doesn't really work in his case#you win some you lose some#thank you! I had a good chuckle when I first saw this it was such an unexpected sight#your style is so painterly and soft looking#answered#gift art#alwaysoutofpaper#own characters#Machete#barefaced early morning Machete before the daily goth eyeliner routine
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Natori is desirable, has always been desirable, had "the looks and the grades," makes a living off of being beautiful and charming and good at provoking feeling in other people and is at the same time totally uninterested in pursuing any of that interest and seeing if it could develop into something deeper. he rejects the girls at school even more preemptively than he rejects matoba, who suggests he might be useful. he's deeply, profoundly lonely throughout all of this and tbh I think being wanted actually makes it worse in some ways, because the people closest to him who should love him best think he's a curse and that makes casual interest and affection feel cheap, unearned, and ultimately disposable. naturally his two careers are:
attractive man plays pretend
loner weirdo does rituals on outskirts of society
#i diagnose him with cold princess locked in his tower#the only thing getting him down is jam.#matoba like i want you for exactly the thing your family rejected you for.#could have been sooo something#however he fumbled because natori is actually very self assured and expressing casual contempt for someone he admires is not the way to#his heart#or other things#u can actually see his legs slam closed#i think the idea of a transactional relationship especially one where he puts himself in someone else's power is#also pretty off putting to him#but u dare be rude about a nice man who was kind without wanting anything in return#not because natori is cute or smart or special but just for its own sake!#i think this is also a big part of what draws him to natsume#like initially he sees himself in natsume and wants to help#and then natsume rejects him! but is still very kind and thoughtful#and he's kind consistently. not just to natori but to everyone#press says natsume
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object permanence so bad I have to reread old messages for my brain to go ‘oh yeahhhh I care them’
#its WEIRD I think it’s the reason why I have a hard time expressing why I’m not always aware of people in my life#its not because they dont matter enough to make a mark or that I see them as less than real even though im scared it feels that way#it feels like repeating smth so basic like water is wet or the moon orbits the earth because I stopped seeing it in the daytime#actually this already happens when I write a reminder and then forget because it blurs into the background and my brain#stops registering it as something important without conscious effort#oh shit this might also be why I suck at staying in touch with high school friends and coworkers#especially bc I only know my coworkers for as long as I work with them so when the season is over they’re not present in my routine anymore#isnt it scary when the thought of smth becoming physical in your life means it could eventually be misplaced or forgotten#yapping#diary
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she has the coin but fuck me if i don't like the anxious dialogue option better. love that between the two of them, the soldier and the diplomat, she's the one headed to the final battle, but OF COURSE she's terrified. she's not a fighter, she avoided as much of the fighting as she could during inquisition, and she has to go fight a blighted dragon and a darkspawn magister?
and i like this dialogue option more just because like. then both of them are confessing their fears, both of them afraid of whats coming, and both seeking comfort from each other.
and cullen's like... he's the bystander. he's present for all the major events, but rarely has any influence on them, rarely has a role to play. and now when supposedly he would have the power to influence things, as the commander of the inquisition, he has no army. they're still in transit from the arbor wilds, and so once again, he's helpless.
#cullen rutherford#commander cullen#dragon age inquisition#cullen x trevelyan#vultures and dragons#oc: annette trevelyan#ship: took fuck orlesians too literally#world state: gilt and glamour#also i just like that he's afraid. he's portrayed as stoic sometimes#but i like when he's angry and afraid and not suppressing it. makes him more real. given all he's been through.#but also like. the veteran commander. the bloodied soldier. and he's still afraid. still expresses it.#i think fear is up there on things we as a society are not good at letting men express. especially in fictional media.#and i like seeing him doubt and worry and fear and express these things without the narrative shutting him down#not that this game is a paragon of writing. but this cutscene i do like.
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ocgrammers reblog and tell me how your characters type
#i think jun would be all lowercase occasional punctuation#and would use emoticons all. the. time. especially kaomojis#tadashi is the why use many word when few word do trick guy. all lowercase but uses proper punctuation#theyre way more expressive in text than in person. uses :) often. cant see them using kaomoji or regular emojis tho. other than heart maybe.#they also use abbreviations and dont care if people understand. usually theyre just making em up too so who knows wtf theyre saying#nobui makes a lot of typos esp when shes excited. no patience to correct them. uses emojis like every other sentence#types in all caps often. doesnt use punctuation other than exclamation and question mark#also uses abbreviations without caring whether people understand or not. borderline incomprehensible#u know that comment thats “at least try 2 b interesteing kind of its y its says midly idiot”. thats nobui typing#yuuhiko is always proper punctuation proper capitalization. actually not normal about it. needs to seem like the smartest person in the room#or he will explode#isnt very expressive in text. will occasionally bust out the 🙂 if hes actually in love with whoever hes talking to#ocposting
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research for 2hcb1 is like 30 percent revisiting canon lore and 70 percent watching therapy videos because *gestures vaguely at Lambda and Asbel* you've got a lot to unpack there, huh 😅
#dolphin noises#2hcb1#wips#shoutout to the YouTube channel Cinema Therapy ive been watching them for years. Therapy thru the lens of media analysis is 👌#I'd recommend them to literally anyone bc its free therapy but especially anyone trying to write a redemption arc#psychologically understanding a villain's motives and what is needed to reconstruct their behavior/worldview is huge#for making it feel believable and earned. There's so much good advice here like#Conflict occurs when views clash and neither side is willing to see that they might be in the wrong#Everyone has reasons for what they believe after all. And many times they apply those reasons to others' lives too#So they aren't truly listening when the other expresses their feelings and instead feel like no one is listening to THEM#Major change will not happen overnight. Self awareness is required to even realize that a change is needed#Often coming in the form of painful consequences. 'The pain of change must be less than the pain of staying the same' as CT says#Thats why change is more likely to happen in the aftermath of strong emotions. Feelings confuse logic and they need to be dealt w first#You can't force anyone to change nor are you responsible for their behavior. It has to be their own active choice#But if you can't/dont want to walk away you can set clear boundaries and try to demonstrate the behavior you want to see#Perspective taking active listening and a healthy break are all good for changing one's worldview too#Anyway those are just a few of the takeways I've gotten from their videos that are all relevant to 2hcb1#I'm attempting to apply these principles without using 'therapy speech' as it were. I HATE that in media 🙄#I don't want characters to talk abt their feelings like they're reading a wikipedia article on depression or abuse :/#But I think I've crafted a pretty good Power of Friendship speech instead 😂 cliched maybe but hopefully by ch 17 it feels earned#Hyperbole feels realer than realism imho. thats why i love cartoons and cliched fantasy jrpgs#...Ok rant over this is too many tags 😅
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The degree of RAGE I feel every time I listen to an interview with and/or about a nonbinary person/character, and the interviewer just is allergic to they/them pronouns. Like. My dude. My good bitch. My brother in Christ. The whole POINT of this conversation is the enby thing. How are you failing THIS badly?!
#this dude bringing up an enby actor to an enby actor and using ONLY she/her pronouns for like two straight minutes#they should not HAVE to say ‘them. them.’ to correct you. you should be SO on that#I mean do better in general but ESPECIALLY in these circumstances#it’s so apparent when people just. refuse to try. and it’s fucking infuriating#also for this man to be talking about a movie that is LARGELY about gender expression and being nonbinary#and just be constantly reducing it to a 'love story'#like. no. it's not that. i mean you can take that out of it if you like (that man was AWFUL so i choose to uh. not.)#but the story was ABOUT gender. and gender presentation. and gender identity and looking a certain way but BEING a different thing inside#and to reduce that to 'a love story' to ensure this story is given half to this man who frankly does not narratively deserve it#is such a dude thing to do. to write and then to see in the finished product. whereas a queer person. an enby person. is gonna be like.#well. LOT more going on there actually. the 'love' is a weird complex backdrop for the actual things going on.#anyway. apparently that's my soapbox for the day#just reminds me of a few famous queer female movies where the story inevitably becomes ABOUT the bland white man who somehow convinces them#to sleep with him/date him/whatever. like. i. hated those movies as a teen and i hate them now. let non-men have their stories without dude#if they must be there do NOT pull the focus from the non-men to make sure the cishet boys aren't left out. this isn't for you. stop it.
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A thing about trying to dress more modestly is now I don't have to worry about my binder being visible because they seemingly don't make men's shirts that don't plunge. But I don't have to stress about that anymore, B"H!!!!!!!!
#jumblr#jewish conversion#jew by choice#personal thoughts tag#i'm wearing a long sleeve undershirt and it's great#and i have a fun button up and i can unbutton the shirt without worry holy shit#i got a men's scrub shirt and the neck literally plunged well into my sternum. and it FITS. what is up with that 🤨#like i'm not sure exactly what the expectations are for men's modesty since apparently i only follow and learn from jewish women#but i've basically just done what makes sense and what's comfortable#because when i go to service i typically don't wear short sleeves (or if i do i wear my undershirt)#anyway i personally like modesty and it's important to me especially as a (trans) man#i have become very protective over my body and find that modesty expresses a desire of protectiveness#in the sense that you have to be deliberate in what you choose to share or not#obviously though i don't see modesty as a display of character. it's a display of personal choice and autonomy
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Deflections (Patreon)
Bonus:
Why not lead with that!
#Doodles#SCII#DAX#ZEX#Where would be the fun in that! O>#DAX is allergic to emotional honesty and I love him for that So Much#The fact that DAX is dismissive and secretive to ZEX - up to a point - is so interesting#Like he trusts him and loves him but he's also guarded and cautious!#What parts of his heart can he safely share without going Too Far#Errs on the side of caution - deflects and redirects and lets others fill in their own blanks#That's actually something I've enjoyed writing for him so much hehe#How he's constantly like ''Think whatever you want'' - about everything!#Other people's opinions of him especially#He's so stubbornly self-confident hehe certain that he's misunderstood and fine with it#On so many levels... DAX ;;#Just - it's okay to have wants and needs! But no! He lets ZEX shape his life in roundabout circuitous ways by refusing and accepting in turn#Lets him get away with so much - because he likes it? Because he wants it? Because he craves intimacy but refuses to advocate for it??#DAX plss ahhhh#I had a lot of fun with his tendril expressions here again hehe <3 Surprised! Then totally fine and not flustered or anything#Totally not flattening to his skin and smoothing the blush off his face of course not why would you even think that#Until eventually he actually goes back to being bored and normal and fine - gives as few clues into his inner state as he can manage#Of course ZEX is also having fun here lol - pushing him around a little to see what reactions he can get out of him#DAX is the funnest to play with because if you manage to surprise him it's like a mini win unto itself - even if he disengages you Got him#And then there the added bonus of ZEX getting whatever else he wants on top of it lol <3 He's a brat and I love him terribly as well#They're so excellent hhhh their dynamic is so wonderful ♥ Treat him well ZEX! Treat him gently and kindly!#He tries to - to the best of his perceptive-but-not ability#Gah they're so interesting <3 Socially awkward extrovert/socially intelligent introvert who uses his powers for evil my beloveds <3 <3
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absolutely obsessed with the visual execution of this part like are we all seeing this...
also these two panels:
#i love yoo#most of the chapter actually it's really really well done#really i could add like 8 more panels to this post bc the flashback alone is just stunning#how it goes from black and white to red to blue then back to black and white!!! AUGH!!!!#the way rand's face/expression is hidden from us except for when he glances back at yui#the tear/raindrop running down on his face!!!#yui's hand hovering on kousuke's neck as she leads him away!!#her victorious smirk the direct stare!!!!#KOUSUKE'S EXPRESSION OH MY GOD#and 'time's up' in nessa's note i just. AUGH AUGH AUGH :(((#and yui's wig looking like some sort of husk or skin she puts on#and i'm especially obsessed with the panel with rand in the door#how he confronts her but still doesn't dare enter her den#how he's standing in the light but his expression is shrouded in darkness as he faces her#how we don't see either of their expressions#and the composition!! all that dark empty space between them#the darkness of yui's room on rand the light from rand's door on yui#love it when quim let's the visuals speak for themselves without much text just mwah#x
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#video#music#puppets#opera#handel#puppetry#alcina#ah mio cor#i must confess i really do love puppetry#especially when it's 'weird'#yeah the muppet mouth is odd but you stop noticing it after a few seconds of singing#and seeing the singer behind her emoting while the puppet itself is making these grand gestures is hypnotic#also it takes a lot of skill to be able to sing an aria professionally AND be half of the western equivalent of a bunraku puppet#i mean usually bunraku puppets have three people working them so i wouldn't be surprised if there was somebody hiding behind her#still though#that's gotta take a lot of focus and practice to get right#i also love the touch of solving the problem of having the puppet cry by making her literally hold a mask of her own tears#that way they can have the facial piece on set without having it be distracting or messing with suspension of disbelief#it's just a prop that she's holding and when she makes the change between expressions it's the most natural thing in the world
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