#event info: subversion (legacy)

[raayllum]

Anyway time to talk about the 6x03 poem:

As many others have speculated judging by the map, Captain Skall made her way to Hook named after her, and then "as east she sailed into waters so deadly and cold" in the Frozen Shards, her ship eventually being stuck and meeting her doom there.

With that out of the way, I want to talk about other pieces of info, why this might be the poem for 6x03 specifically, and where I think Skall may fit timeline wise:

"From the isles without name" makes me think of the Independent Isles in between Evenere and Katolis.

"sailing north, she called herself free" makes me feel feral with Callum (and Rayla) doing the same in hopes of freeing Callum from Aaravos' grasp by destroying the prison

"Through forests and flowers, past the uneven towers" clearly symbolizes Katolis, indicating that Skall lived once most of the human kingdoms had been established, and thereby post-Exile/Exodus.

"Skall hungered for glory, she wanted a story / they’d tell it long after she died". Routinely we see a desire for glory / worthiness / power described as hunger ("Hungry for knowledge and power" / "But that small taste left some humans hungry—starved, even—for a better path. An easier path. And thus Elarion became the birthplace of a new form of magic, a shortcut to primal power: dark magic"). This also comes into seeking a legacy.

"So with winter wind’s blowing / she sailed north, forgoing / a man who’d have made her his bride". This is where we see the poem take a more negative slant in a few ways. The first is winter, wind, and north, setting up a future unfortunate turn of events. This is also the first mention of Skall having something else in her life other than adventure and something she had to subsequently abandon. While the end of the poem is much more on her side of feelings, "forgoing" does mean "renouncing; sacrificing or giving up" something that is more positive.

"Alone in the cold, yet ever so bold" again adds to the more negative feeling the poem is building, as boldness is in the contrast with "alone in the cold" that's overall negative and maintaining a bit more of an upkeep. Likewise, we see the return of the wind with an even more negative connotation in wailing in the following stanza: "And oh, winter wailed / as east she sailed / into waters so deadly and cold". We see the return of cold but also the change into things being 'deadly' (although there were still hints of danger earlier, as 'bold' indicates).

"Then came the ice, and trapped in its vise" The cold finally catches up to her, and we see ice return as a form of entrapment (2x06, 3x08, 3x09, 5x04, 5x06, 5x08). Most interestingly, "vise" is a tool with closable jaws for clamping things. Maybe the ice is magical, or the jaw of a great (the dragon we've seen in the trailer) creature?

"And while she found peace / she wished that, at least / she’d told him she loved him, always". While the poem ends on a somewhat bittersweet end (at death but at peace), we do see that Skall died with a final regret to the man she could've wed but left instead.

Or you could say, a last wish.

Either way, the poem paints a rather grim journey: going North didn't hold the same freedom and achievements that Skall hoped for, and instead led to entrapment, separation, and death.

That said: there's a few Rayllum-y things I think we can glean from this poem, for starters:

1) The episode will likely have a strong focus on Callum and Rayla sailing to and/or through the Frozen Sea on whatever ship they're planning to use to get there. This leaves 6x02 "Love, War, and Mushrooms" more open to either explore other plot lines or another pit stop in their journey (like say, the Silvergrove)

2) The poem itself has pretty clear Rayllum parallels, specifically in TDP's continual gender subversion of the women who puts other things above her romantic relationship, even if it's likewise seen as a sacrifice. Rayla left Callum in order to protect him/the world from Viren, even if that meant damaging their relationship, and Skall puts her desire for glory and adventure over presumably a more settled married life at home. (Excuse me while I scream over "forgoing a man who'd have made her his bride.")

3) The poem likewise has some parallels to Rayla's "Dear Callum" letter specifically. There are wishes expressed of the leaving party, a desire to have made feelings more plain that Callum reiterates in 5x04 when they think they're about to die ("I hope you know—" "I know"), and most notably, a parallel to the always mention:

she wished that, at least she’d told him she loved him, always.

But, if it does—if you feel that soft aching—know that that piece of your heart isn’t missing. It’s not missing at all, Callum: I’m carrying it with me! Always. I love you. I love you so much.

4) All this bodes quite well for 6x03 being an episode with a big Rayllum moment in it — perhaps even their Big "You Finally Came Back" Talk — especially since there's not much else to (presumably) happen on a ship if they're just travelling somewhere (and not being pursued this time).

Episode Speculation (a summary / misc thoughts)

Callum and Rayla travelling to the Frozen Sea

Big Talk happens

+ potential love confession / reaffirmation?

They reach the other end of the Frozen Sea

Maybe fight the big dragon from the video game teaser we see with Rayla (like Skall, she has literal hooks = blades) whose guarding or in their way to the Starscraper? Could account for the jaws and maybe the ice

One of them is worried and/or has a moment of thinking the other person is hurt/injured bc of said dragon fight?

Maybe some Aaravos backstory in his lost love (although like I said, I don't think it's Skall exactly — I still think the likeliest names are Elara-adjacent or Kalik)

Episode Title Speculation (in about this order):

The Frozen Sea

By River and Sea

Always (this would be my personal favourite and i would never stop screaming)

[lillytova]

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[lalaluuz]

Alriiiight time for Luz’s Subversion AU Info!

14 year old high schooler

Not a magic student, just a regular Weird Kid™ who likes anime, fantasy books, and fanfiction. (can’t imagine what that’s like….)

Lost her mamá when she was a bit younger, and a family friend, Eda, adopted her.

Switches between calling Eda by her name, and calling her mom.

Not used to having many actual friends, so the friends she has right now are important to her.

Has her eye on this one girl at the top of her class in school. She’s pretty sure the feelings are definitely not mutual, even if she sometimes catches this girl looking back at her.

Generally an average student, but sometimes her Weird Kid™ tendencies get to be too much even for her teachers. She’s not a troublemaker, per se… but she’s faced repercussions for her ideas getting Out Of Hand

(She definitely got detention once for trying to make an accurate replica of a Griffin, including the spider breath.)

Helps out at Lloyd’s forge part-time, and also just really likes hanging out there.

That’s all I’ve got for now, but I’ll make edits as others come up with things with me!

[counterspelling]

rey! (also i think you got the wrong anakin for a previous ask)

Rey!

How I feel about this character: Ooooh boy. Okay. So. I hate the ST. I really do. But Rey and Finn are the ONLY TWO GOOD THINGS, two characters who immediately stole my heart. Even after the trailers and background info came out I was so hoping everything they'd told us was a red herring and that Rey was basically just Jaina, a fully trained jedi knight, undercover on Jakku for a mission... but she wasn't. But that was okay, because she was still so good! An extremely lonely kid, isolated on this terrible planet, with no way out because she hemmed herself in by her own fears and dreams. If she leaves, she loses any chance of reuniting with her family, when she’s spent her whole life taking comfort in dreaming about them as she tries to eke out a bare, lonely existence on this junkyard planet. She wears the same hairstyle for 15 years!!! Because that is her one connection to them!!! And so even when these two people, Han and Finn, sweep into her life and heart for the first time, and she so immediately feels a connection and bond with them, she's so scared of never finding her past that she turns them down!

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Finn!!! The 101 Dalmatains meetcute where they spin around talking about how cool the other one is! These two lonely people meeting each other and feeling connected for the first time. Getting swept into events larger than they are and finding strength in one another! It's good!

My non-romantic OTP for this character: BB-8? Poe or Rose if we'd, y'know, gotten to see them interact and this trilogy wasn't a disaster?

My unpopular opinion about this character: Not unpopular with anyone who knows me but kyle ron/rey is absolute and utter trash. Rey would literally never. She watched him murder his own dad 2 days ago. Rey spent her ENTIRE LIFE longing for a family, for ANY type of connection. You think she's gonna feel romantic toward the guy who kidnapped and violated her mind and sent her closest friend into a coma and killed her mentor who is also HIS OWN DAD??? When she'd never been blessed with any of those connections??? Someone turning their back on their family when dreaming her own own is all that got her through her lonely life??? Literally only Rian nazi sympathizer Johnson would think that. To take the first trilogy NOT about white men, to sideline the women and poc who were taking center stage for the first time in Star Wars and say no, this is ACTUALLY about the explicit, textual villain who has slaughtered millions of people and idolizes the Empire and none of what happened was actually his fault.......... it's bad writing. The Good Place s1 finale is the best example of shocking viewers and yet actually having it make sense. Making Rey “no one,” blaming Luke for Kyle Ron’s fall when he was a grown ass man who decided to slaughter kids on his own and fall to the dark side, all in the name of shocking viewers and saying that everything that TFA set out and Star Wars’ general themes are nothing in the name of SUBVERSION~~~~~ is so fucking stupid

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: TLJ. She's literally a different character. She bears no resemblance to TFA Rey. She has no motivation of her own. Her story ENTIRELY revolves around Kyle Ron. It's disgusting. Rian took away all of her agency, her characterizations, her dreams, just to make her subservient and twist the narrative to be about the evil white man because he is apparently incapable of imagining stories about anyone who doesn't look like him

LMAO thanks you're right, I did, Anakin Solo!!!

How I feel about this character: I actually resented Anakin for a long time??? Because once he started getting older he started pushing Jaina out of being the main Solo kid. She was a mechanics savant, but he was an even better one!!! She was the leader of most of their young stories, but now Anakin is again The Chosen One!!! JJK did a great job with him and struggling with his identity and legacy in having his grandpa's name and the guilt and unsurety over that, and then everything went to hell and I REALLY fell in love with his character when he went after kidnapped Tahiri, and then....... Star by Star........... the only other time I've cried so hard at media is the last 3 episodes of PGSM and Han's death. The first time I finished that book I just sobbed on my bed for at least 30 minutes. To know how torn their family was going to be, that they would never recover to what they were before and they would have to find a new balance, to know Jaina and Jacen watched their youngest sibling die and were helpless to stop it, that Han and Leia suffered the loss of a young child..... it was so hard, and he was so heroic, and it hurt SO MUCH

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Tahiri! They were very cute! But also EXTREMELY YOUNG, and everything that happened later, with Jacen manipulating her into falling because apparently 10 years later she still can't accept the death of her childhood best friend to the point that she will go back in time to watch him and let herself fall to the dark side and murder people.......... it's such bullshit. Tahiri is her own person and can exist outside of her love of Anakin

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Jaina and Jacen!!! Sibling bonds :((((

My unpopular opinion about this character: I do still think it's dumb that he swept in and pushed Jaina aside when she was the oldest and coolest, dammit

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: He should have lived :(((((

[elaristalselin]

Character Development Questions: Hard Mode (Elaris Edition)

So I’ve edited a lot out to keep from spoiling too much, but there’s still plenty of info on this Mystery Boi that everyone is so curious about!

1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

He doesn’t actually have any siblings, and his mother is like….300 years older than him. That’s partially why he’s so jealous/protective of Wilhelm and Memor; he wishes he had someone that close to him in his life when he needed it most. If he had had a sibling, his life would have gone in a VERY different direction

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

HAHAHAHAHA. He hates her right now. A lot happened that already put a huge strain on their relationship, but then there was some serious gaslighting that happened to both of them and that’s what broke them up so badly. Then again, he hasn’t seen her in years so *shrug*

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

His father died when he was about 2-3 years old, so he doesn’t really remember him. However, as a tiny child, he desperately wanted to grow up to be like him. He wanted to be a big strong soldier that would protect his mother and the rest of the village

4.Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

Only one other person knows, but yeah he saw some shit that really messed up his view of his life and of Silshaar. He’s not telling anyone else any time soon.

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

He’s always got an entertainer’s pack, a mouse, and forgery kit in his bag, but he also will often stuff his pockets with stolen goods and he never leaves without the seashell given to him long ago

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

A lot of his dreams are of his childhood and life at *REDACTED*, but there’s often his current friends inserted in his dream worlds, interacting with the environs and changing the course of events. While not nightmares, his dreams often make him feel uncomfortable, as his friends are often seeing him during his most vulnerable times.

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

His nightmares often revolve around being found out, be it the party learning of his past or of his past demons finding his present self. He’s hiding too much, and that’s been weighing down on his psyche. He hasn’t stayed with anyone long enough for his life story to come up prior to this adventure, so he’s been dreading having to explain himself or risk putting the first friends he’s had in years in danger.

8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

Guns don’t exist in this world, do they? If so, he’d probably have gone foxing at some points, but I don’t know if he’d actually participate. 

9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

Yes. His childhood faced an extreme shift from dire poverty to luxury. Now, he shows traits of growing up under both statuses: He hoards food and has sticky fingers, but also has a very strong love of fine clothes, jewelry, and galas.

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

Elaris’ comfort has less to do with how conservative or skimpy the outfit is, and more to do with how it makes him look and feel. His common clothes are generally full-length pants and light overshirts, but if he sees an outfit that shows more skin that it covers, he’s just as likely to want it. The fabrics, quality, and situation are the biggest draws for any particular garment for him. A silk kimono cardigan paired with a strappy tank and lace-trimmed shorts is his current desert outfit, so I think that says enough about his modesty.

11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

*REDACTED*

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

An old, old friend of his used to help calm him down after some of his harder days. She would cast thaumaturgy multiple times to emulate the soundscape of the ocean whilst he would prestidigitate the gentle sea breeze and the scent of salt in the air. They would close their eyes,  and in those few moments, they could escape their troubles.

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Blood is not typically in the job description of a bard, but he’s come into contact with the sick and wounded enough that he’s not particularly phased by it. Unless it’s large amounts of his own blood, in which case he begins to panic a bit. Being stabbed would alarm most people, though.

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Faces, probably. He doesn’t often deal in names anymore. Most of the people he interacts with are nameless but with big pockets in his mind. You come to remember whose face to avoid when aliases can be so easily utilized.

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

Definitely. His background gave him a very strong connection of money equating to survival. It doesn’t matter too much to him how he gets it, but he can never feel quite comfortable unless his coin purse can sustain him for at least a month

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

He was taught that success should always trump personal happiness. He definitely values happiness, but to him, true happiness is meant to be a byproduct of success.

17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

Continuing with wanting to be like his father, he had a small wooden sword and shield that he adored. As a tiny child, he’d storm around his mother’s cottage, wildly swinging at sacks of food, trees, even the plants in his mother’s garden. After they moved to the capital, he played with other children his age, playing “guards and marauders.” He insisted on being the handsome, smart captain of the guard.  

18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

I’d say wisdom. His closest friend was calm, introspective, and wise. He sees wisdom as a counterbalance to his lack of it. He’s smart and ambitious, but wisdom and good judgement evade him. Having someone to keep him on the right track and supplement his conscience-- the way Memor does for Wilhelm, for instance, is something he misses.

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

He can be incredibly manipulative. It’s just so deeply ingrained in him that it’s not even something he can turn off. After so many years of training, charming people into doing his bidding is his default mode of operation. As such, the longer people keep him around, the less they trust him and the more they see him as the conniving little rat he is. He knows this and usually keeps from staying anywhere long enough for it to come up, but he realizes that it’s going to cause some major problems later on in the party.

20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

He knows he’s a bad person and is terrified of others knowing how bad he is. This is why he works so hard to put up a facade. He's very self-critical to the point that he overanalyzes how the party members would react to finding out what happened in his past, which only spurs him to reinforce his facade further.

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

He typically blames himself, because usually he is the one that caused the issue. Be it being caught with his hand in someone’s safe or the rare instance where he mixes up his lies, his fall is usually caused by his own folly.

22. What does your character like in other people?

Money. Next question

In actuality, he loves people who are open-minded and can think critically and question any situation. Intelligence and a dark sense of humor are nice as well.

23. What does your character dislike in other people?

He doesn’t like people who look down on others just because of their backgrounds/class/race, and is usually put off by blind faith.

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

Not very. He hasn’t shared very much with the group intentionally. He usually can tell quickly if he’ll like someone, but trust must be earned.

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

Elaris can read a situation and the actions of others really well, so he can often tell when something’s up. It’s been a long time since he was close to anyone, so we’ll see if his party dynamics affect this.

26. How does your character behave around children?

While not directly hostile towards them, he’s….not very kind. In the few instances where he has to interact with children, he often will try to scare them by making up extravagant lies, such as how during the full moon, kobolds will snatch up bad little kids and eat them.

27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

He tries to be diplomatic if the confrontation absolutely has to happen. See when he tried to get Wilhelm to stop skipping out on fights. If it’s not necessary, he’ll avoid it like a pair of crocs.

28. How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

He’s not above it by any means. Stealth and subversion are more his forte, but if push comes to shove, he isn’t afraid to strike first.

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

He wanted to follow in his father's footsteps and join the city guard within the Spade’s domain. Elaris wanted soooo badly to continue his father’s legacy and uphold this childish vision of duty and harmony created by countless bedtime stories of his father and of heroes that came before him. Of course, having to steal your food to survive and then being trained to be someone completely different changes how you feel about your childhood dreams.

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

He’s most strongly repulsed by slavery and other egregious crimes against human rights, but onions and runny noses gross him out a lot as well.

31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

Drunk and/or too high to really care about his problems, preferably on the lap of someone hot and surrounded by wealth.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

Being placed in a situation that forces him to confront his past traumas, such as by being tied up, seeing people being abused, or by people specifically saying they love him.

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

He knows he’s not perfect, so depending on how comfortable he is with the person (Say Wil or Rosario) He’d be pretty self-deprecating but also willing to improve. Otherwise, He’d pretend to be that way, but hold a slight grudge against whatever stranger said that to him and passive-aggressively work to do whatever it was they criticized more and more.

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

He’d try a few times, simply assuming that whatever went wrong was on his end. If it’s something involving danger, such as pickpocketing, he’d definitely try something/someone different rather than risk getting caught.

35. How does your character behave around people they like?

He’s less afraid to let his snark out and is generally more excited to be around them. He’ll actively look for ways they can have fun together and things that will make them like him more. This is partially intentional, trying to make them like and trust him enough to keep them on his side.

36. How does your character behave around people they dislike?

Unless he REALLY dislikes them the way he does Ocha and Ifa, he’ll disguise any inkling of disgust around them and play the coy, submissive elf facade up to keep their guards down.

37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

Honor? He’s never been honorable. Status can be manipulated and changed, but honor is like a public manifestation of his alignment, which is much harder to get people to like.

38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Can he take on that threat? If it’s something that he sees within his power to remove, Elaris would rather get rid of the nuisance covertly than see it persist. If it’s beyond his control, you better believe Elaris is as far from the problem as possible.

39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

Elaris was probably bitten by Basil a few times after initially taking him in. Basil was scared and hungry, so it was inevitable that he’d snap a few times. Elaris saw a lot of himself in the terrified little mouse, so after saving him he did his best to give him enough space to make him feel safe and let Basil come to once he felt comfortable enough.

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?

Despite his air of pompous regality, he’s suprisingly respectful to people in service jobs. He’s been there and lower, so trying not to make their lives as hard as his was is the least he can do.

41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

Elaris thinks he deserves any material goods he can get his little hands on, but at least with emotional matters he feels like he needs to earn it. He works so hard to get the others to like him because he thinks that right now, he doesn’t deserve them. It’ll take a lot more changing on his part before he feels like he’s atoned enough to deserve genuine affection.

42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Yes! It was a horrific figure to have as a parental figure, but *REDACTED* assumed a semi-parental role at times. He manipulated Elaris into believing that *REDACTED*, so Elaris latched onto him. 

43.Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

Not really, no. The closest thing he’s ever had to a dependant is Basil. He’s not the most parental figure...

44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

Hoo boy. It’d be somewhat impossible for him to say it at this point. Too much trauma associated with him saying that. He can say it insincerely and has done that far more times than he is comfortable saying, but he’s got too much baggage to say it in full honesty. Even if he truly did love them, it’s just not something he’d be able to say outright. He’d find other ways to show his affection to them.

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

He thinks that he’d go to the Priesthood of Silshaar’s equivalent of hell, but he’s too afraid to think of what he’d face there, so he just tries to rationalize the possibility that death is the absolute end and nothing else with happen afterwards.