#every six months or so im thrown into new social circles and environments. new fps form. things go to hell and they go away. repeat | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

silverwarewolf · 10 months ago

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bpd, also known as "i would enjoy this new activity I signed up for under normal circumstances, however there was no one to fixate on so my brain now classifies this activity as rewarding and safe as cutting myself open in front of a den of lions, let's drop the activity"

the other side of this thought is that sometimes I end up having really mid people as fps. shudders.

fortunately the narc supply can act as an emergency cushion sometimes.

#addendum: all of this is irl #every six months or so im thrown into new social circles and environments. new fps form. things go to hell and they go away. repeat #it makes it somewhat manageable based on prediction though. idk if i could handle a long lasting fp even if the idea seems nice #in a 'i can finally focus on one person for real instead of having to suffer loss every six months' way #when it comes to my online life. well. i may love some people quite dearly. but it doesn't really grow into fp #they dont know me enough i guess #oh to be like one of those people that met their long time partners on tumblr or something #do i want this to be rebloggable...#sure why not (says my need for attention)#actuallynpd #actuallybpd #disclaimer. this post was made in reference to a class i signed up for. aaaaaaaaa.#life would be easier if i were like a lil mouse kept on one of those big mouse houses cage things

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