#ft. musingmixtape

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── meg asked for a list of five randomly generated ships !

KALI CORMIER & LOGAN BRODY : i feel like these two would butt heads in the best way? two trust fund babies with the same bad habits, her with more of a soft heart underneath and him the asshole, i love the sound of this pairing.

AELIN AIZA & SHANE LEDGER : this is probably my favorite off of our generated list!! this is exactly the type of person aelin meshes will with, the pulls-your-pigtails type of guy. she's very laid back and blunt, so someone to liven her up would be so cute, paired with her trying to be his voice of reason.

MAX HASTINGS & ELAINE 'LAINEY' BARDOT : her being a super competitive athlete that thinks feelings are a liability, and then there's max who's just a goofy loverboy, him making heart eyes while she rolls hers... i love this one, too.

NIKO REID & GRAHAM MUNSON : these two are so similar, this would be a mess, but a really good one? both kings of one night stands and noncommittal, both good at screwing things up even with good intentions.

AREYA AIZA & AUDREY FLYNN : the wheel giving us the ideal wlw ship?? ex prom queen vs. a mean girl, heartbreaker vs. a closed off heart, audrey learning how to let go while areya is too closed off to hold on in the first place. this would be a good one...

[tooswcctx]

"No, it's not that -" Mara immediately tried to backtrack, not wanting to upset her in anyway. Joana was one of those people who got along with just about anyone, it was Meredith that was the possible hiccup. But who was she to get in the way if that's what Joana wanted? Yet that horrible feeling in her stomach, the knot that had started to form when she mentioned wanting to get set up with someone else was only growing. Unfortunately, the very idea of playing cupid was right up Mara's alley. She'd been dreaming of being a matchmaker for her friends and even for strangers pretty much all of her life - to varying degrees of success. So it was no surprised, that now she was feeling an insane amount of internal conflict. Play cupid, which she loved, or own up to the fact that she really really didn't want to help set Joana up with anyone. "Well...how about you run your type by me again and see if I can think if anyone." That was safe, right? That could be a helpful question.

If Joana felt completely self-pleased at Mara’s reaction, she didn’t show it. Instead, there was nothing but confusion in the soft furrow of her brows, as if she’d missed some detail that made Meredith unfit for her to date. It wouldn’t have been hard, considering that she’d only seen the other girl once and hadn’t even spoken to her outside of a simple greeting. “You don’t think we’d get along? I get along with almost anyone; I’m charming like that.” Her overconfidence shone through. Then, she shrugged as she accepted the brunette’s analysis without asking for a real explanation. “Is there anyone you think would be more my type, then? I’m very happy to take suggestions if you wanna play cupid.” If the tables were turned, there would be no names for her to present to Mara. She knew some really great people—beautiful, smart, funny—yet they all seemed to pale in comparison to the dancer.

[tooswcctx]

closed: @musingmixtape​ ( dylan bradshaw ) muse: eloise williams ( pastry chef / laura harrier ) inspo: here

“Look, I know I shouldn’t just show up without telling you but we were out at dinner and he...he told me things were over and I didn’t really know where else to go.” The one downside of only feeling safe when she was with Dylan was that he had to deal with all of her relationship woes. Of course, they’d made it work and they were extremely close so El knew he wouldn’t judge her for it but...she had to imagine he’d get tired of her eventually. 

[fillyoursoulxx]

closed starter for @musingmixtape​ ft jennifer

“My lake house, my room” Louis called out, snagging the large duffle from the master room to drag it out into the hallway. He dropped it, a loud thud echoing as it hit a lot harder than he intended to, “The fuck? What’s in here, a body?” It had to be Calvin’s given that the others were already in one of the other three rooms, getting settled. Two full beds per room, his was the only one with a king and he was taking full advantage considering he rarely got a chance to otherwise.

He stood there a second, debating on whether a nap was in order. Drive was a long one and boring as fuck, so it wouldn’t be a unwarranted. Instead he found himself moving down the hall, leaning agains the frame as he spotted Jennifer. “Sun’ll be setting soon. The stars are fucking exquisite out here. I mean-- I couldn’t tell you what any of them are, but I do know a really good spot if you’re into it,”

[tooswcctx]

closed: @musingmixtape ( Adam Carver & Aurora Monroe )

It felt so natural to leave a party with Aurora, walking back together towards his apartment building, making sure his best friend was safe and had somewhere to sleep that wasn't a random couch or floor. Not that there were any ulterior motives, not for Adam, it was just the normal thing to do. Except the last time, well, it hadn't exactly been totally platonic. He wondered if she even wanted to admit it happened...for a second time. Everyone had told them that they would end up together one day, something they'd both laughed off at first but now he couldn't help but wonder. Were they onto something? Maybe it was this thought or the boozey buzz he had going on but he couldn't stop himself when he opened his mouth. "I'm starting to feel a little déjà vu right now," Adam teased, smirking over at her, testing the waters.

[tooswcctx]

closed starter: @musingmixtape​ ( colton belmont-windsor / summer austen ) | inspo

"So, uh, I had a great time.” Colton shyly admitted, stopping in his tracks to turn around and face Summer, hand resting on the back of his neck as a soft blush rose on his cheeks. Dating was never an easy thing for him, his nerves always got in the way and the fact very fact that she’d even agreed had been a brand new experience. “We should do this again sometime.”

[jawbrkrs]

she  could  feel  the  HEAT  rushing  to  her  cheeks,  under  his  gaze.  vulnerable  wasn't  even  the  word  to  describe  how  she  felt.  as  if  he  could  read  every  thought  behind  her  eyes,  it  was  only  natural  that  her  gaze  dropped.  instead  she  focused  on  her  date  behind  him.  not  because  she  found  him  interesting,  but  because  if  she  looked  at  her  ex  any  longer,  she'd  give  in.  "  was  —  "  moving  her  leg  just  right,  so  the  slit  in  her  dress  rose  showing  the  perfect  amount  of  skin.  "  that  won't  change.  trust  me.  "  a  quick  look,  before  her  eyes  were  else  where  again.  the  idea  of  leaving  with  him  had  obviously  crossed  her  mind  but  that  meant  venturing  into  a  territory  she  wasn't  sure  she  was  ready  for.  "  you  want  to  know  why  im  here  with  him?  "  disregarding  his  question.  "  because  I  know  he  won't  hurt  me.  can  I  say  the  same  for  you?  "  even  the  best  eventually  had  to  retire  ..

               hook, line and sinker, matthew thought when he seemed to recognize the glimmer of interest in his exgirlfriend’s eyes. yes, he could’ve told her, I’m clearly better than him. but it would make it look like he was pining for her attention like some high-school student with a crush; he would never give her that pleasure. instead, he allowed her to elaborate, fascinated smirk on his mouth even when he didn’t exactly believed she had ever waited for him. he liked to believe it had been the other way around.  “the old lucia was exciting, fun and if I remember correctly, she was hot as hell.” his voice was almost conversational, like he didn’t care if anyone stopped and listened. truth be told, he didn’t. “she was also someone who wouldn’t have thought it twice before ditching that loser for the night and coming home with me.” the offer he’d been thinking about ever since he laid his eyes on her was finally out. “so, what do you say? which lucia are you going to be?”

[jawbrkrs]

suddenly  he  was  embarrassed  under  her  gaze,  trying  to  find  anything  to  look  at  other  than  her  eyes.  "  i  mean  I  haven't  been  thinking  about  it  non-stop  but  ..  "  a  lie.  the  feel  of  her  lips  were  embedded  in  his  brain  at  this  point.  "  that's  it  ?  a  great  time  ..  okay.  cool.  "  his  body  turning,  to  keep  his  facial  expressions  hidden.

               “you’ve been thinking about it for two weeks? that’s sweet.” the blonde’s eyes were shining with amusement. she’d been thinking about it too, the things he had done to her playing over and over again in her mind. it was all tangled limbs, desperate moans and the surprise of discovering something amazing right in front of her. but, it hadn’t been exactly friendly. “I guess I didn’t think there was much to talk about. I had a great time, but it was just two friends helping each other out, right?”

[kiillmeromantically]

“admit what?” asked alicia, unable to believe they were having such a conversation. her body fell backwards as she groaned,” why does this matter so much to you? what difference does it make if you hear me say it graham?” 

               “what do I want? I just want you to admit it.” graham’s mouth was open with indignation, he’d never been one to struggle finding the right words before. “say that you care, that I’m not completely making this up in my mind, that you feel something.”

[tooswcctx]

Mara wasn't entirely sure what was happening here nor was she sure what the feeling in the bottom of her stomach was. The young woman lived in a fantasy almost one hundred percent of the day so when things were happening right in front of her, it was harder for her to process it. This was real life, not some kind of daydream. Clearing her throat, Mara shrugged as noncommittally as possible. "Yeah, it could be fun, I mean...I haven't managed it yet but if anyone can do it, I know you can." That much was true. From what she'd seen of Joana, it wasn't like she wasn't capable of wooing people; she'd seen it, maybe even wished she'd been - nope, no, do not go there, Mara. "You're not talking about Meredith, are you?" Of course, she was. Meredith was gorgeous and everyone knew it. "I get it, she's beautiful but I don't know, I don't think you'd get along."

“I know, I told you it was nothing,” Joana reminded stubbornly. A note of happiness spread on her gaze as her roommate mentioned the date not being that great, but she was quick to hide it. The girl understood she could be coming off as demanding and high-maintenance because Mara was right; they’d continue to live together. But she was far too selfish to really care that much about the image she presented. She walked, following the other girl and leaning against the kitchen counter as she elaborated on her dating plan. “Maybe, I mean, it could be fun, don’t you think?” She didn’t know why she was doing it, except for the fact that, as petty as it could be, she’d really love for Mara to feel half the jealousy she’d been experiencing. “Meeting a nice girl, sweeping her off her feet, making her feel good.” She let out a longing sigh, a blatant display of unnecessary dramatism. “Anyone you’d like to introduce me? There was a really hot blonde at your dance practice last week,” Joana added, a teasing smile in her face.

[tooswcctx]

Mara's brow furrowed at her words, not quite believing them but she didn't think Joana had a reason to lie to her. If said she was being silly, then maybe that's all it was. "What? Come on, it wasn't even that good of a date - and if it was, that doesn't mean I'm going to never hang out with you again. We do live together, after all." Walking into the kitchen, she moved to grab a glass of water, freezing up just a little when she mentioned starting to see someone. "Oh - I uh, if that's something you wanted to do...I don't see what not? Do you want to start seeing someone?"

Mara had all the right in the world to call her out. Talking things through was the smart, adult way to face any challenge. So, naturally, Joana went for the denial route. “It’s nothing; I’m just being silly.” a white lie, a half-truth. “I guess thinking about you going on that date made me feel lonely, y’know? You’re probably gonna keep going out with them, and I’ll have all this fucking free time and…” She was stalling, really. Finding a way out—anything that didn’t sound like she’d been forced to confront the fact that her feelings about her friend weren’t as platonic as she liked to believe. “You think I should start seeing someone too?”  

[jawbrkrs]

an  amused  hum  crossed  scarlet  painted  lips.  "  could've  fooled  me.  "  honey  eyes,  wandered  across  the  room  to  her  date.  poor  man,  had  no  idea  what  he  was  in  for.  far  from  her  type,  but  maybe  a  change  of  pace  was  what  she  needed.  or  at  least  that's  the  lie  she  told  herself.  "  so  little  faith  in  me.  "  she'd  give  it  a  week  and  a  half  at  max.  "  maybe  I  like  boring.  maybe  boring  is  the  new  me.  "  raising  her  hand  to  wipe  a  piece  of  lint  from  his  face,  never  missing  a  beat  in  their  conversation.  "  besides  —  if  he  doesn't  occupy  my  time  then  who  will?  "

               “don’t flatter yourself, I don’t give a fuck about what’s-his-name.” matt’s smile was sharp and almost mocking, because one look had been enough to know there was no way a boy like leo could handle a woman like lucia. she was a goddamn firecracker; not that he would ever do something as stupid as throwing a compliment at his ex. “I was just saying, I don’t really give it more than two weeks. you may fool others, but I know you, someone like that would bore you to death.”

[tooswcctx]

"Did we?" Adam asked, truthfully a little unsure if that was something they both had agreed on without saying anything because to him it felt like they should have said something after the first time, even the second time...maybe even the third time. Now it felt weird to even think about bringing it up. Only in his buzzed state would he have been able to say anything at all. "What? No, now, come on. I'm just making sure you have somewhere safe to sleep, alright? No ulterior motives here. Unless you really wanted to sleep on that crummy couch? 'Cause we can turn around right now and you can stay there, if you want." Adam teasingly offered, stopping at the walkway that led up to his apartment. Not that he wanted that. Hell, no. Maybe he had been thinking about possibly fooling around a little bit but he never knew with Aurora. It wasn't like it always happened....it was happening a lot more frequently now which he had no complaints about.

               aurora’s mind had been dancing around nice little thoughts. the pleasant warmth on her chest she could only attribute to the tequila, the lyrics to that 70s rock ‘n’ roll song she couldn’t quite remember, the pancakes she’d insist on preparing the next morning in retribution to adam for letting her stay over. so, no, she hadn’t seen his comment coming. “yes, well– we do this a lot.” the grin on her face suggested she knew what he was referring to, even when her words settled for referencing their party habits. they’d been tiptoeing around it for what felt like ages. the way a friendly hug had become a messy kiss and a kiss had led to blurry lines, the way she’d been calling her best friend’s name between breathy whimpers. she had no idea about anything except for the fact that she’d loved it. “I thought we had this unspoken rule of not bringing it up, but if you insist… I knew you were trying to get in my pants.” after all, she’d never said she’d be mature about it.