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introjecting really badly to the point i am curled up in bed because the thought of existing in this world, in this body, and in this mind is too much to handle right now
#waves.talk#full of missing people#full of missing things#full of wanting something#but never the right reasons#i yearn for something destructive and horrible#not the comfort and joy of friends#i miss the bad things because it gave me purpose#but without them i feel so lost#i hate this body#i hate this disorder#i miss source but at the same time i don't#i miss what was and what isn't#traumagenic system#osddid#system stuff#did system#did osdd#dissociative system#introject#fictive
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Venom 3 spoiler warning but like
"Ride me cowboy", "we've been together for a year?", "Sometimes I think we would've been happier you and I living a life like this", them calling each other Thelma and Louise? Them talking about future plans and the camera directly cutting and staying on literal happy newlyweds?? "BUT I NEED HIM BACK" ???? A montage of their time together???? Hello ??? Symbrock nation can you hear me !!!!
#everyone say thank you mr hardy for the full course meal#yes a very best buddies thing to do is to. checks notes. point to a happy nuclear family and tell your ''friend'' thats the life youd want#'youd make a good father' what if i threw up chat#i miss them already#ughhh i love Cinema TM#venom#venom spoilers#venom the last dance#personal nonsense
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Bruce Wayne had at one point been working on a device to guarantee Gotham would always have a protector. In the event of his death, the machine could grow a clone of him and implant a copy of his memories into them, creating a new Batman to succeed him.
He eventually gave up on the idea before it ever came to full fruition.
But even in its incomplete state, he had created just enough for Clockwork to hijack it.
Phantom’s soul was in a perilous state, unlikely to survive without being attached to a new body. And luckily, the device provided an ideal way to facilitate that. Plus, the Waynes would undoubtedly support his recovery too. Well, at least once they got over the panic at his existence they would.
#yes that device was a real concept mentioned in a comic#i haven’t read the full comic it came from though (i just read one arc which it was mentioned in) so i could be missing some details#oh yeah btw the comic in question is the 2011 Batman thing - I saw it in the Mr Bloom arc#idk if he ever actually built the cloning part but he definitely made the memory part (which the story claimed was the tougher aspect)#so it feels plausible he *might* have#…also idk when Danny’s arrival would fall in bruce’s timeline exactly in relation to his ‘death’/amnesia in that story line#i have no idea how much time there was between his work on the device and that stuff happening#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc x dp#dcxdp#danny phantom x dc#danny phantom x dc crossover#oh also my intention wasn’t for this to be a de aging fic—i’d been figuring the clone would be at least Danny’s age (if not *Bruce’s* age)#though yeah it could be taken that way i guess
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Eddie: *overhears some girls gossiping about how Steve and Nancy got in a fight in an alley and the police got involved*
Eddie: *hears someone else say that Nancy Wheeler was taken to the police station*
Eddie: *sees Steve jumpy as hell with bruises on his face*
Eddie: *notices that Steve doesn’t talk to his friends anymore. notices that Steve and Nancy always seem miserable together. notices that only one of them is trying to please the other*
Eddie: *witnesses the halloween bathroom fight*
Eddie: *sees Steve confused, beat up, bruised to hell, and single the literal next time he sees him*
Eddie: *puts the pieces together and draws a conclusion*
Conclusion: *is wrong*
Eddie, accosting Steve at lunch: Hey, did you know that if a guy is getting hit by somebody that it’s abuse? Even if it’s a girl doing it.
Steve, confused: Oh-kay?
Steve, deciding that Eddie is reaching out to him for a reason and draws the same wrong conclusion about Eddie: I mean, yeah. That’s - yeah? That’s true. And messed up. You should tell someone if that’s, uh…going on.
Eddie: Yes, exactly. You should.
#And then 50k words of good intentions and miscommunications#just two guys who don’t know each other trying to be supportive about things that aren’t happening#also Nancy being so confused that Eddie Munson is suddenly really antagonistic to her#I like to think that Eddie is a huge gossip but people don’t like to talk to him so he never gets the full story about anything#and somehow misses both Jonathan and Billy’s involvement#even though I’ve always HCed that neither Steve nor Billy ever actually confirmed that they fought each other#eddie munson#steve harrington
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Strohl and Hulkenberg are so funny to me as a duo. They're the exact same type of people - they NEED to pledge their life to a liege or they'll start ripping up your couch like an understimulated shepherd dog. However they go about it in polar opposite directions. (Early-game story spoilers ahead, mid-game gameplay spoilers) Hulkenberg had her life purpose taken away years back and comes to realize hyperfocusing probably isn't the optimal way to go about it, so she expands her horizons to do her duty better. Strohl had no will to live until joining the assassination plot, and then it fails so bad he resolves to hyperfocus so hard the classes he unlocks can only do one thing, critical slash damage really really well
Hulkenberg is the formal knightly one but she delights in mucking around and would rather fist fight people than think. But then she demolishes you in chess and teaches you tactics while Strohl, the familiar casual guy who's a lot more stategically minded is the one always sharpening a sword and implying if anything happened to you, seppuku may be on the table - Gallica this is so scary play encounter music - my courage has increased
It all clicked when I saw their third tier classes are paladin/dark knight and samurai. Ohhhh you guys are henchmen. You wanna be henchmen so bad. They're the exact same kinda guy but are completely baffled by everything the other guy does. They have everything in common and nothing in common. They both think they're the normal one of the group. They have completely different ideas about how to best do their jobs but they simply must beat the shit out of each other on the deck daily or else they might have to actually go to therapy. I need an early 2000s team up/roadtrip action movie with these two where Will is faking being kidnapped to draw out the bad guys but Gallica didn't tell Strohl and Hulkenberg because their bad acting would immediately give it away and they proceed to absolutely demolish the metaphorical furniture of the house of Euchronia looking for the world's most specialest lil' captain. Do you see my vision 🤌
#metaphor refantazio#character ... meta lmfao#eiselin burchelli meijal hulkenberg#leon strohl#they're so funny can we start a new genre thats like fantasy buddy-retainer movie#a knight and a samurai must find their missing liege... what happens next will delight you#will's just happy to have friends no notes#might've clicked earlier if i had been playing in jpn and noticed the warrior subclasses would've been called bushido#like oh youre not a guy who happens to be into swords#this whole thing is your life's calling#heismay is it ok to give him a katana. just want your input before we do anything insensitive#heismay is also retainer coded but Junah and Eupha are jut full on main characters whos stort happens to intersect with Will's#and thats also inctedibly funny to me#considering their classes#like for Junah and Eupha Will is not the captain he is their sidekick
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started the metaphor refantazio demo and I cannot believe this is my experience (I love it)
#metaphor refantazio#art tag#i was a NERD and i read utopia after endwalker#also i ended up naming protag kun after my WoL ??#so i accidentally cooked a michelin meal for myself#i dont have money to buy the game full price yet#but i hope everyone enjoys it and i hope it COOKS#lmao legit when koyasu-san said I AM MORE#i was like MORE? THOMAS MORE?? OF UTOPIA FAME????#i mean i had come across the king hythlo name in the memoir thing beforehand#so i was like OHHH I AM PICKING UP WHAT YOU'RE PUTTING DOWN#YOU CAN'T BE MESSING WITH A FFXIV LOVER LIKE THIS#anyway as much as i am enjoying the demo#i will probs wait for it to go on sale to buy#i am mega excited though#the gameplay is really neat#also apparently i completely missed it but his cat is called plato. like ??
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doodlin again i guess ??
scraps under the cut

#remedy control#control game#jesse faden#emily pope#uh... i just recently played aw2 twice back to back (final draft) and the whole time i was like#man i miss control so much#(dont misunderstand i LOVED aw2 and the DLCs! really fun! i love saga i love casey) but also. i miss control. i miss jesse and co#ahti's presence (ahti my bff) in aw2 did Not help. i wuv him hes like my strange anomalous uncle whom i'd love to have a beer or two with#wish i had gotten all of this out of my head sooner so it wouldnt be diluted via having played through a different game twice but i digress#im probably misremembering stuff my brain is so full of video games. we finished aw2 twice then immediately hopped into ff4. why? ehhhh#maybe ill do some doodles for aw2 sometime. god knows i have goofy nonsense in my brain about it. a Lot of it too#anyway a lot of this (and the previous) are mostly just drawing manifestations of the silly stuff i was talking about while streaming#namely the mold stuff literally the whole time i kept going GIRL YOU NEED RESPIRATORS YOU NEED PPE IM SO ANXIOUS [SCREAM]#also i hope it is clear that the bottom-most thing is a reference to hausofdecline's ''i think we're gonna have to kill this guy''#i thought it would be infinitely funnier to just not include text because why would there be text#anyway.... my cubes :) :) :) :) i love to throw my cubes :) :)#my brain really is just like YOU NEED TO DRAW JESSE 02983049283 TIMES and im like sir yes sir 🫡#i ljke her... normal amount...........#control game? yeah you sure do
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hey look at them for me ? thanks.
#wip#snap sketches#you can tell i really like it cause im actually sharing it while its a wip. also its nsft so i cant share the full thing here jVAELKVJEAV#posting this because im mad this is for an nsft comic cause i really like how they look here ..... smh#cant even share it to main once its done.. ik we all know bout the nsft acc but still..#i just like how Menacing mags looks here !!!! i should draw him Evil more#can i learn to lock in for sfw comics too. can i DRAW sfw comics again. thatd be great#i meant to draft this thing this weekend but Got Busy so since i didnt have much going on today. Might As Well#i do have sfw comics prepared at least and i do like the comp in those so...#really i just miss drawing comics i think its been a minute !!!!!! theyre so much fun but also take so much time... worth it me thinks..#anyway im gonna finish this This Weekend and work on Stuff I Can Share On Main throughout the week. hopefully#ok good night everyone !!!!!!!!
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Lights out
#I spedran this in abt 45 mins#I have a massive perfectionism issue with my art where if I start something beyond a WIP I have to full out complete it#If its a WIP I have no problem abandoning it#But otherwise I can't simplify#And it's a massive problem as it leads to burn out as well as frustration and anxiety over my art#So this is the beginning of me trying to let go an learn to leave things messy or simpler#Also I miss them sm#They really are everything to me <33#Tim Drake#Bernard Dowd#Timber#Timbern#I do have an actual piece in the work as well :D#My art
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Tokyo Disneyland's really going out of their way to spread the absolute, objective truth about the one and only Donald Duck.






Donald is the best at what he does, and what he does is the best. Everyone is here celebrating the Duck of the year!






Even though it rained almost the entire day I visited, the adoration for this number one duck would brighten anyone's day.


So thank you, Donald Duck, for 90 years of being you.

#donald duck#tokyo disneyland#disneyland#three caballeros#the three caballeros#jose carioca#panchito pistoles#disney#i am actually still upset that i never made it to the three caballeros pop-up cafe in shinjuku!#it was made for me! and because the rest of my family could never get their act together. we just never went to shinjuku 😔#but less about the things i missed. let's enjoy celebrating my number one boy's big 90th birthday#find the quacky celebration: donald the legend parade on youtube for the full celebration vibes#because woah-oh we love donald duck! oh-woah-ah-oh the one and only donald duck!
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Norm family lore drop!!
so for Avatar fans who don't already know, Kelutral's "Omaticon" online convention (streamed on their Twitch channel) is going on this weekend, and the kickoff panel earlier this evening featured franchise loremaster Josh Izzo.
Some may remember this little panel in the High Ground, featuring Norm with a Na'vi child addressing him as "Daddy":
In the Visual Dictionary, there's also a very brief mention that Tuk has a best friend named Popiti.
...so here's the fun bit:
Izzo confirmed that this "Popiti" is in fact Norm's kid!!
Apparently Popiti also has a sibling, and her mother/Norm's mate is from the Olangi clan (which makes sense given that the Visual Dictionary mentions Norm having a bunch of Olangi trinkets).
ngl I love this lore drop but now I have so many more questions also!! How old is Popiti (I assume close to Tuk's age since they're best friends but there's still some wiggle room there so)? Is her sibling older or younger and what's his/her name? If they're Norm's biological kids, do either of them have avatar features like Kiri and Lo'ak? What's Norm's wife's name, what's their story? Norm didn't get his consciousness permanently transferred like Jake did, so how does him switching between two bodies affect things? PLZ I NEED TO KNOW
@theoptimistictabby thought you'd be interested in this one ;)
btw let it be known that I speculated all these things like two years ago, my mind is still reeling that what I thought was merely wild wishful-thinking speculation at the time turned out to be CANON lol

#avatar#norm spellman#can't rewind while it's still live but once the stream has ended for the day you should be able to rewatch on Kelutral's twitch#if you want to see the full panel#...i have some other things to say about Izzo's panel but i missed a few chunks of it due to technical difficulties on my end#so i'm gonna wait until I've had the chance to properly rewatch it before I make THAT post >_>
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Sometimes I think a lot about Arthur's old journal, the one he had prior to the game's events that got burned in a fire, and how Arthur went a long time without a replacement.

He wrote that he missed writing and drawing, more than he thought he would.
The journal is a wonderful tool that allows us see through Arthur's eyes and how he deals with things, it's one of his healthiest coping mechanisms, so it makes me wonder what those journal-less months were really like for Arthur.
Whatever and wherever the fire was, the time spent up north in the Grizzlies and travelling down from it, Dutch nearly buying some land but getting spooked by the law, new people joining them, and then the gang spending months in the wilderness before moving to Blackwater - it all sounded like a hectic time. But he never wrote about how he felt, he just wrote about what had happened.
Yet, he said he missed writing and drawing. He missed it. He had the itch to write and draw for ages, but he couldn't.
Maybe he struggled with the chaos of those few months without a journal to empty his frustrations and thoughts into, maybe he saw so many things he wanted to draw and it aggravated him that he couldn't, maybe he was slightly more irritable than usual with everything that had pent up and having no means to release it, and so on.
I just think about it a lot.
Especially if you took the journal out of the main game, you'd be taking out a huge portion of the story and the insights we have into who Arthur is as a person too. It's impossible for Arthur to not write in the journal, even if you never open it. It's a vital tool that helps define him and show us how he moves through the world, how he copes with the world.
So if Arthur had his journal taken away by a fire all those months ago and went a long time without, what would he have been like?
#I wonder what his old journal was like#what he had written about#his journal full of drawings just lost to a fire.. an artists worst nightmare truly#do you think he goes through journals quickly? filling them up after a few months? or do you think he keeps the same ones for ages#maybe he'd had that previous journal for a few years#do you think -in the main story- that he missed it even after so long? how there were things written in it about people who'd died?#I think I think too much#I don't mean to speculate arthur's characters but it just really interests me#I bet he's still journaling even in the afterlife#silly ol' arthur#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick thinks#arthur morgan#red dead redemption community#red dead redemption 2 spoilers#oh arthur
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Hi I hope this isn't a dumb question but I'm a new Stars fan (This is actually my first time watching the hockey season) and I was wondering what the "We're not going home" phase is from and why did some people here got emotional when Khudobin said it during our home game on Tuesday
hi!!! there are no dumb questions!!!! the phrase came out of the 2020 bubble playoffs which, wild as it is to realize, were nearly five years ago 😭 so even if you'd been watching for a couple seasons it's the kind of thing that you might've missed anyway!!!!!
technically (& i didn't even fully remember this!) the stars using 'we're not going home' as a rallying cry in the bubble didn't even originate with dobby!!! joel kiviranta said it first, after the stars beat colorado in game seven of the second round thanks to his overtime game-winning hat-trick goal.
the stars' player of the game token at the time was a chain with a big dallas logo in it; a long-haired roope rightfully handed it over to kivi, the room called for him to give a speech, and in response kivi said, 'fuckin' right. we're not going home!'
it became associated with dobby when he was given the player of the game token after the stars beat vegas in game five of the WCF, and succinctly said, 'WE'RE NOT GOING HOME!' before putting the chain on.
all the love to kivi but dobby just said it with a little more panache!! he'd presumably had more time to think on how he wanted to use the phrase!!! also, as you may or may not know, espn+ had a series called quest for the stanley cup for a couple of seasons (it looks like 2023 was the last, maybe because the amazon documentary series kind of took over last season? who knows) & the title of the fourth episode was 'we're not going home' & featured dobby's use of the phrase as a closer to its coverage of that series, which i think helped cement it as dobby's in general hockey media. sorry kivi. we will always have 'joel fucking kiviranta' though!
anyway. all that to say, it was very nostalgic to hear dobby say it on tuesday!!!!!! it's such a Bubble Playoffs Phrase because it just .......... wouldn't really make sense as a rallying cry any other year. eliminated teams in 2020 left the bubble pretty immediately after getting eliminated so everyone could go home & go back to quarantining and waiting to hear what the league's plan was to return to play for the next season.
obviously most of the time, getting to go home during the playoffs is a good thing!! it's part of why teams want home ice advantage so much!!!
2020 flipped everything on its head though & turned being stuck in a hotel in edmonton for that much longer into a good thing. 'we're not going home' essentially just meant 'we're moving on to the next round' but it sounds so much cooler. dobby saying it on tuesday didn't literally mean 'we're not going home' so much as it meant 'we're moving on,' except that he was a game early so once more: can he please come back on saturday?? for the vibes???
i really wish i could easily put footnotes into a tumblr post but here are some sources:
rmnb put out an article about dobby saying 'we're not going home!' because andrej sekera referred to him as the russian machine, which is ovi's nickname. this was super useful in sourcing the vidoes of kivi & dobby saying the phrase from the stars twitter so shoutout to them.
espn did a recap article about the 'we're not going home' episode of quest for the stanley cup, which is kind of fun as an artifact now because pete was vegas' coach when dallas beat them! which i Knew but had like. kind of forgotten. 'Apparently DeBoer greeted every Stars player with "go win it" after they eliminated Vegas in the Western Conference finals.' pete can you somehow bring this energy back but in the locker room this time & with some extra juice. please pete i'm begging.
#replies#hockey#stars#dallas stars#anton khudobin#joel kiviranta#i hope this explanation helps!!!! i tried to be thorough#doing my full 'put this post in the tags' tagging because as i realized the passage of time has done its thing & 2020 was 5 years ago#so this might all be new info for some stars fans in these playoffs!#also. sorry to cite wikipedia when i first mentioned the bubble playoffs i didn't know where else to get a succinct explanation 😔#long-haired roope got a shoutout because i miss long haired roope#however i had the self restraint to not point out in the body of this that baby black ace delly is in both kivi & dobby's videos!!!
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Scrappiiiees i love kitchen :)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#sorry kind of obsessed about qifrey happy sniffling in kitchen. i draw him sad crying a lot but i think thats the only time we see tears#my head is so busy right now bc im playing edgeworth game and am obsessed with wrightworth atm talking & shyly romancing in my head#with the wish to depict it BUT MY HEADS TOO FULL OF ORUFREY TOO EVERY DAY!!! AND KITCHEN FAMILY LIFE!!!#and DA2 AS WELL bc i was trying to finish the third game before veilguard but i failed bc i miss my da2 man so much#TOO MUCH GAY LOVE IN M YHEAD!!!!#i do think qifrey cries sad tears as well but i think the effort is taken up by crying pain tears during headaches. Haha..#i too am a sniffler. especially about lovely things like witch hat kitchen and orufrey AND when ppl leave nice comments on fics <3 <3
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#bra'ad: nice forearms and nicer staff, what's your name?
#taxi: did you just walk up and say that to me??
#campaign01season01episode01#braaxi i miss u#anyone else still think about these guys#posting smth from campaign 1 szn 1 ep 1 is so weird#like holy shit this was 6 years ago#ive been watching these assholes for 6 years??#anyways#so glad they called back to this in riptide 110#fucking hilarious#jrwi#the fated five#braad vengolor#taxi the tabaxi#guys please just pretend you couldn't see the full screen mode thing#my phone did NOT want to clip this#and for valid reason
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A small update here. Apologies for not getting the second part of chapter 3 out last month. It currently sits at just over 60k (the full chapter is at nearly 170k now), and still has a lot to go. I'm trying to write as quickly as possible, but...full disclosure, I've been struggling.
This chapter continues to be cursed, and I'm at a really low place with my writing. Nothing feels good, and while I know I need to write first and worry about quality later, it's hard to get the motivation to power through when it all feels so...lackluster.
Still. I'm doing my best to work through the block and to keep plugging away at part 2. My fiance assures me that what I've written isn't as bad as I feel like it is, so that's something.
Sorry that this is a bit of a bummer update. I feel like I say this a lot, but I'm really hoping to have wrapped up the chapter by end of month. I hope everyone is doing well, and thank you all for your patience <3
Here's a little preview I shared with the discord folks but haven't put up here yet. It's a choice I'm fleshing out tonight that I'm having quite a bit of fun with.
#author post#updates#kind of#previews#full game is almost at 400k#which is great#i think i'm just like...very sick of this chapter lol#it does so much mechanically for the story#but is slower and fluffier than i'm used to#not even in a romance-y way#but just in like...levity and getting to know characters#meeting important side characters#that sort of thing#fun stuff#important stuff#but i miss the blood and monsters and horrors#sigh#anyway thank you all so much for sticking with me <3#hopefully update in the next few weeks#*sees yasmin tilt her head twice*#*explodes*#sigh. ill fix that tomorrow
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