#geeky's thoughts

[g33kyr0b0t]

some thoughts of mine that im posting here from discord

(TW: references to S/A, pregnancy, mouthwashing spoilers)

jimmy is an interesting creature cos like... it'd be so easy to make him a villian with no conscience. but its so interesting to me that he has one.

he feels guilt about what he did to everyone, but with anya in particular he's terrified of actually confronting it.

with his guilt around daisuke, swansea and curly he can twist the situation to make himself the victim. a misunderstood martyr who was just trying to save everyone

but he can't justify what he did to anya. he can't justify the pregnancy

so, just like every other uncomfortable truth he's forced to face, he runs away from it.

thats why the horses and pregnancy related stuff are so nightmarish. him getting caught for assaulting anya *terrifies* him. the one way he can rationalize his actions is to portray anya and her unborn baby as inhuman monsters that exist to mock and torment him.

in that one final sequence with the IDs on the walls, anya's ID is actually still there. its just always hidden.

jimmy can't look her in the eye, because that means having to confront that he did that to another human being.

instead of accepting responsibility and facing the consequences, he chooses to ignore it.

the closest thing we have to actually representing anya as a human is literally just a representation of her uterus. thats all he's willing to see her as.

anything further would be too distressing for him, so he just shoves it all aside.

cognitive dissonance is a hell of a drug.

when you firmly believe something, and you are faced with evidence that goes against it- it can honestly drive some people mad.

jimmy firmly believes that he is in the right. at every turn, he is confronted with everything he's done wrong. this causes him immense distress, and he's willing to do whatever mental gymnastics possible to justify his actions to himself.

even if that means ripping reality apart at the seams.

[g33kyr0b0t]

yeah and i feel like it kinda implies that anya wasn't "strong enough" because she didn't retaliate in any visible ways. there are so many silent, everyday ways in which you have to adapt around an abuser.

anya tried to keep up appearances. she went out of her way to talk to her rapist and even cheer him on, despite the fact that we know she's fucking terrified of what he could do to her.

being able to face an abuser every day and pretend your soul isn't on fire is BRAVE. she doesn't need to physically confront jimmy or pull off some other grand display in order to be a badass. lemme tell ya, if i was in her shoes i would not be able to do half the shit she does in game, especially in regards to her actively approaching jimmy and kinda forcing him to confront her (we see from the bizarro sequences that he does NOT wanna acknowledge her existence)

(⚠️Talk of SA/Abuse Victims/Anya Mouthwashing)

⚠️If you need any "credibility" i am also a victim of abuse.

My Thoughts on #GIRLBOSS Anya

TW: S/A , Abuse

Some people need to realize that not all victims of abuse are empowered #girlbosses and are in fact scared to face their abuser bc of power dynamics and such .

Sometimes people just arent able to stand up to them, and thats okay. Its easy for some to say "oh they should fight back" but its really not :( often times their abusers are people in power, or close to them that they wouldnt want to antagonize in fear of disappointing them or for them to do the worst.

Sometimes victims may not even realize they were being abused/manipulated, and sometimes they downplay their own suffering bc its easier than fighting back.

That isnt to say that "victims should just comply to their abuser", its definitely not, and if you are suffering from abuse please seek as mucb help as you can. Im referring to people who always assume that if victims just "tried hard enough" they could defeat their abuser.

This is why often times I feel a little off put by depictions of Anya being this girlboss character who couldve defeated Jimo Because it sorta downplays her fear of him. Yes, we wouldve loved to see her succeed and win, but she was honestly scared. She was doing her best to please him by cheering him on and folding in when he berates her.

Personally I also want her to take that gun/axe and hit him where it hurts, but as a victim of a similar (not SA) type of abuse where people who controlled/manipulated were far above me, I symphatize with her.

Her death and her folding up, her taking drastic and risky measures such as hiding the gun case when she told Jimo about her pregnancy. Her struggling to open up about it bc shes been dismissed already by Curly, who couldnt believe that someone hes close to would do such an act and is trying way too much to balance both sides.

This is all just my opinion. Theres really nothing wrong with making a victim stand up for themselves, in fact yes, it should be celebrated. But also dont dismiss when a victim doesnt do that due to fear/trauma.

TL;DR: sometimes victims can dismiss their own abuse for the sake of safety.

Pls keep in note that im speaking from complete experience and am no way a psych major or anything. This is just my voice and opinion and if you beg to differ, im open to discussion ^^ please be respectful!

[ofrionstage]

Respond to this post with a random sentence you have written in any of your WIPs without any context. Let's see what insane, collectively chaotic story we get in the end

[cowboy-robooty]

im not going to lie i have an illuminati type theory that fanfiction has gotten so fucking bad recently as yet another consequence of the pandemic

[holdmeitssocold]

I need a guy who's like trained in card tricks bc then a panic attack can start and he can use the cards like baby sensory videos and reroute my attention thus panic attack subsided

[ulteri0rm0tives]

HAPPY HOMESTUCK DAY!!!!!!!!

Just a lil something to express my appreciation for my fave reddit scouring troll <33

Some old art throughout the years of him and some reminiscing below!!

The fact I didn't use any of these as refs either.. and they still came out with similar features?? Have a vision of this guy and I guess it's consistent still after all these years🙏

2023 (I think?)

2022 (ignore the fact I forgot his horns 💀)

2019

And some others because I couldn't find more earlier works of him unfortunately </3 (kinda sad cuz I was trying to find my first piece of digital art work for him that I made for me n my old friend's solkat ask blog (that never was) <//3)

2016/2017?

Real shit tho, just gonna reminisce here, gonna be a lil earnest and all: Homestuck was my first ever fandom back in 2016. What introduced me to fandom, and helped me really get into art. It's what drove me to WANT to get better at art so I could bring characters I loved to life and have them look as I envisioned them in my mind.

Karkat was my favorite and I really resonated with him, he was the first character I ever felt really, really attached to. I met so many great people, so many friends, a fun community for the most part. It was such an important part of my life, too, during a very bumpy time in my life.

For the first time in my little middle school life I felt a real sense of belonging. It helped me explore self expression, allowed me self expression in healthier ways, in a multitude of ways. It was the first place I could explore my queer identity, especially my transness, and be met with understanding. Where people really understood, ykno? Not even queerness, but just.. met me with understanding with how life can be sometimes.

Have people who were older than me treat me fairly as a kid, who gave great life advice, who didn't mind indulging me when I got hyper over my interests or characters I loved. It's probably ironic in some ass backwards way, but I don't think I'd be as mature as I am either, or, at least, know half the things I know now. I wouldn't be half the queermo I am today if it weren't for these funky little space aliens and the really cool and smart and creative people I met. It opened my eyes in a lot of ways. And I just... I dunno.

I might not be stuck in the house anymore but It's like driving down the road to look at my old childhood home once in a while just to sigh all wistfully a little before returning to the one I live at now :) ty karkat 4 being the guy of all time and sticking with me thru my formative years <3

[tiger-balm]

Two point game for the captain!

[Dec 27th 2023, latvia v canada]

[reverselayupz]

Does anyone know, Bruins offseason edition

[metalbrojack]

Geeks, if you love me, you’ll score tonight

[uwudonoodle]

I just made the best hummus. A trick lets you boil dried chickpeas to nearly mush in 20 minutes, and it's the smoothest hummus ever.

Here's the recipe:

[g33kyr0b0t]

how are people still unsure of whether to support israel or palestine in the year of our lord 2025

maybe its because ive surrounded myself with activists and have been involved in this cause since i was a child but godddddd sometimes i just get hit with the sheer blissful ignorance some people have.

we should not be having the "is being anti-israel antisemitic" discussion at this point. we should not be calling it the "israel-hamas war" when rafah has been decimated, hospitals and schools are being bombed and children are dying of starvation. how do you remain this fucking ignorant?

if you have seen what ive been seeing not just for the last two years, but for a decade of my life and also several decades before me or my parents or my grandparents were born- you would not stand for or have ANY doubt about what israel is doing. the only way you can be an israel supporter right now is because you're either fucking privileged and ignorant, or you just don't care.

god i thought this shit was common knowledge at this point.

..... anyway, please continue to share vetted posts and donate. continue to speak up. its fucking exhausting and it feels hopeless but i promise the palestinians experiencing it firsthand feel that tenfold. @90-ghost has a lot of campaigns on their blog, please check them out.

[madegeeky]

Sometimes I wonder about the pieces of me that I don't even realize are missing but that other people grieve.

Things I used to do that I no longer do. Words I used to say that I no longer say. Jokes I used to make that I no longer make.

Something that got left by the wayside as I grew and changed into who I am today; inconsequential to me, but deeply loved by someone else.

And I think about how beautiful that is. How amazing. How humbling. To be so loved.

[mcnyoom]

No coyle. No brazeau. No freddy. Did we trade poitras? is lauko back? Deal in the works for marchy? Literally the only player I’m certain is still a bruin is pasta

[trashworldblog]

genuine question: why is your pfp guy fieri?

i am guy fieri

[doctahpants]

So, as well as 2 cosplays planned this year, I've also decided to make a Doctor Who quilt.

Having done the first piece, I realised that my concept of how big things are in inches is terrible, and this thing is going to be absolutely massive!

Anyway, I like how the first piece looks, so I'll keep going!

This is my approximate design for the final thing by the way

In case anyone is interested, all patterns are from FandomInStitches and designed by Jeanie Payment. I updated her 10 to make 14. And having one space left, obviously Missy snuck in :)

[husbandograveyard]

I yearn for another anime tatoo