#genuinely wtf i don't think this is a normal problem

[interpolationz]

all my finals are over, it's 38° out and it's insanely foggy

[fluff-n-cookies]

Thinking about yandad Dabi and his child who's now around 9-11 years old. Your writing has absolutely captivated me <3

Dabi starts getting more possessive, more protective, and certainly more assertive. He's your dad, after all—you HAVE to listen to him, no? It's too dangerous to go outside without him keeping an eye on you, you're still so tiny and fragile. He'll be damned if his kid steps foot out of the apartment without his say so, no ifs or buts.

After a long day of setting people on fire and committing various crimes, Dabi just wants to scoop you up into a bone-crushing hug and plop down onto the couch to snuggle his baby, paying no mind to your complaints.

While he's soft and affectionate towards you, it's a completely different story when it comes to others. Dabi is ruthless and aggressive, destroying anyone and anything that may try to take you away–much less harm you. It doesn't matter how small, Dabi will turn it into ashes without remorse. If you somehow figure out about his actions and try to make a run for it? He'd be crushed, obviously–Dabi can't stand the thought of you fearing him. Rest assured, he'd track you down and bring you back home, suffering you in cuddles while scolding you. He's your dad–you need to listen to him.

(Btw sorry about how long this became didn't realize I was ranting)

omg hi???? thank you for gracing me with this masterpiece??? wtf???? (lovingly)

For those who don't know, this post is related to these

Pt 1, Pt 2

and this is all so fucking true. I plan on making a longer fic on this (sorry to say that I haven't drafted it yet, I'm working on overhaul posts)

but he's so paranoid, so utterly terrified 24/7, he dead bolts all the doors and windows at night and only lets you go outside between 11 AM and 5PM unless it's for school.

speaking of which, he hates them for giving his baby so much homework and taking away from their time together buuttt he genuinely believes you need to get your education, don't skip out on highschool like he did.

and he does this thing, this god awful thing, after dinner, after your daily shower, and after getting you all nice and snuggly for bed and into your cat pajamas. he'll do this thing where he'll hold you tight to his chest while he flicks through the news channel.

now normally this would be fine, perfectly fine, if I weren't for the fact he either goes to true crime channels where they display the horrific acts of villains (himself included) live. he tells you that the world is a horrifying place, that that's how he burned himself, how painful it was, the scorching flames. he doesn't mean to traumatize you, it's just to warn you!

either that, or he'll go to news channels covering endeavor's problems, scandals, recent missions, interviews. please don't ask who that strange man with eyes like yours is. he'll hold you tighter and say in the lightest voice possible. "he's a bad man, don't you dare go near him, he'll hurt you like he hurt me."

don't say anything else after that.

he's just tired, so tired, and you're there, right when he gets home after running "errands". you're his reminder of what he's working towards, this future with no heroes and no pain that he's trying to build. the revenge he longs for and the aftermath where you thrive. really, you're the reason he gets up in the morning these days, the reason he stopped smoking in the house, the reason why there's no more beer in the fridge, only tenderly made lunches that he makes every Sunday to prepare for the week.

you're like this stress ball, this hit of Serotonin and Dopamine and what not. every time you smile he can feel his heart clenching. when he looks at you, he sees the boy he once used to be, happy. you're so happy, so pure.

he refuses to let you go out much, his reasoning being that the world's a terrible place. when you ask what's his job, what he does at "work" every day, he only chuckles.

"Oh baby, I'm trying to makes this world a better place, my job is to try and stop all the bad things from happening. I'm a type of... Freedom fighter, really."

and he so, so, so so so so so so sweet to you. you have never known Dabi, ruthless arsonist and serial killer. you have never known Touya, a boy lost in his own insanity and deprivation of paternal love. both are vicious, people, downright insane. one's a criminal the other's incapable of ever recovering from his own madness and fury.

the only person you know is your Dad, Dad's a nice guy, he plays doll house and dress up with you and watches cartoons with you every morning before school. he lets you wear his jacket when you're cold and left yours at school in your cubby, and he takes you out for donuts or ice cream monthly. sure, he doesn't have money, he can't buy you that many toys and sometimes they turn the light off because he missed too many bills, but he loves you. that's all you need to know.

Dad is a kind person, he's not Dabi or Touya, he's definitely not a hero. he's your dad.

And Dad does the best job of gas-lighting you to hell and back. you want to go outside after 5 or before 11? welp, he's not coming with you, sorry honey, maybe tomorrow. what do you mean you'll go anyway? the boogeyman'll get you! (it's him, he's the boogeyman, he knows you won't last a second out in the real world with your loving father's help and he's going to exploit it the moment you start to show independence.)

but it's very unlikely that Dabi would ever even get the chance to do this when you're 9-11 years old, you know why? because you'll be in Endeavor's custody by then. I refuse to elaborate since then I'll be spoiling the plot of Part 3 and I don't want that.

P.S. you wanna be tagged?

[shiki-jin]

YOUR CELESTIAL MAJESTY • SAGAU

(part 0 here)

was listening to TruE on loop while writing the last part of this, it's genuinely such a good song ugwvdya

also can you spot the contradiction ;D it's plot relevant i promise

not proofread, dont bully me ill write a thesis on why youre a meanie

—

you had long deleted genshin, since you had other things to do. you had wanted to go back to the game for a while now, now that you were less busy, but there was just one little problem.

it was now taking up nearly triple the amount of space that it was when you uninstalled it. around 300 whole gigabytes.

jesus christ, what phone can even handle this???

your phone, apparently. because as you opened the game to see if maybe a miracle would happen and that if maybe they would just, like, remove half of the things in the game, it just… kinda loaded?

no installing new files, no checking for anything, no nothing…. just an immediate pan to the gates of celestia.

you decided to check if it was the right genshin since this was just way too weird, but countering your judgement, every link you found led you to the same game, leading you to believe it not to be a bootleg or an illegal version.

guess i’ll trust it then.

you clicked on the gates which opened smoothly, and your screen turned white. then, the symbols of the seven elements appeared in gray.

and then the game just… opened. no loading time, once again. no getting stuck on the geo symbol, nothing. nada. just a smooth entrance into what you had to assume to be teyvat — but your surroundings didn't really support that claim.

the grass was brown and just looked off, the sky was gray. a darker shade than, say, mond’s walls, but it was like one of those game crashes.

well, except you could still move around.

you moved your current character around (the traveller? since when were they the only one in your team?) and decided to open the map after not figuring out where you could possibly be.

hold on, this is springvale? since when?

eveything looked dead, like it had been rotting for a century. you tried to ignore it though, and teleported to the inside of mondstadt. surely this was just some glitch, right? one that would fix itself if you teleported?

maybe the world loaded incorrectly, maybe the fact that nothing took time to load meant that it couldn't load, maybe this or that, maybe…

maybe this really was how the game looked normally. you hadn't done any quests though, so you wondered if it could be restored.

you took a screenshot of the your surroundings — the stone, worn down and dirty. the houses which looked to be in a horrible state, and… the npcs, all sickly and pale, like they were starving.

you went to reddit (yes, reddit), and posted the screenshot, asking if it was normal.

you closed the game and decided to take a nap, too tired to really deal with this shit any further.

while you slumbered, people replied to your post.

╰┈➤ lol me too anon, me too

╰┈➤ isn't the game closed or wtv? how'd you get this wtf

╰┈➤ they're trolling

╰┈➤ o makes sense oops

╰┈➤ So we’re all still mourning huh

╰┈➤ jokes aside that's a super impressive edit ngl

you remained unaware of the truth, but you'd find out soon enough.

actually, you'd find out now, apparently…

what the fuck?? why is my bed so hard now?

you groaned and forced your eyes open, seeing a dark, nearly black sky.

the only light was a single star, lingering right above you.

“since when was i outside...?"

a voice spoke to you, answering your question.

“you always have been, have you not? but would you like to head inside, my lord?”

... huh? i recognize that voice...

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p.s. place your bets on who it is, i’m thinking of one specific character but if there's a fan fav i'll make it them instead since i haven't written anything beyond this point (⁠・⁠_⁠・⁠;⁠)

p.s.s. don't expect updates to this series too quickly, i wish i could write as quick as i think of ideas but sadly that's not the case orz

[ritsukaaoyagi]

i've been thinking a lot about ritsuka and soubi's relationship again and i don't think there's anything i can say that won't sound repetitive at this point. but it is really lovely how their relationship development is tracked through spell battles BUT THIS GOT KIND OF OUT OF CONTROL. anyway their first two battles with breathless is mostly just set-up and confusion, and then the battle with sleepless isn't necessarily less confusing but ritsuka i guess starts to get a bit of a handle on things with "choosing" on his "own" to provide strength for soubi through a bit of intimacy / licking soubi's bleeding name, and he clings to soubi during battle. he can feel reassured by soubi's strength and his ability to perform, at least/if only in battle

ritsuka is being strategic but is genuinely moved by soubi, but still ritsuka's feelings for soubi aren't influenced by soubi's status as ritsuka's fighter, but soubi's protection of ritsuka and the affection that might be required for soubi's strength for ritsuka. in the fighter/sacrifice mindset the protection/affection together as strength might be kind of a given to work well, but as we've seen with how many pairs operate (beloved seimei/soubi and seimei/nisei, ritsu/soubi, bloodless etc, and of course between loveless ritsuka/soubi!!!!!) "bonds" or the "affection" or feelings behind/driving a bond don't necessarily come from an objectively safe, or "loving" place, but you could argue the root is still "love" in some sense even if one-sided, but i guess more accurately the root is some kind of attachment or devotion, heavily reliant on how the fighter unit functions and feels for their sacrifice. i mean this is clear without me saying it but yeah. in this sense the sacrifice/fighter situation is kind of destined to be dysfunctional, with few exceptions that can barely count as exceptions. again with the Soulmates but Twisted thing....................................... and though ritsuka can strategize a little and rely on soubi's strength in battle, he's still quite separate from the fighter/sacrifice dynamic because this is not a mode he wants to operate in most of the time if ever. he wants a normal bf. </3

i know the way soubi functions as a fighter is seen to be a bit overkill or whatever by other pairs, but i think other characters' problems with soubi has always had more to do with 1. soubi being an exceptionally skilled fighter ("perfect," teacher's pet, comes from resentment/annoyance rather than a "wtf" place imo I COULD BE WRONG/FORGETFUL IDK) and 2. soubi changing sacrifices. I MEAN NO ONE HAS TO LIKE SOUBI BUT I do feel his intensity in his role as a fighter isn't what's considered to be strange about him by the other teams, and youji kinda says as much that soubi is considered a "perfect fighter" though this "perfect fighter" state is not to his or others' tastes necessarily. soubi is annoying and unlikable to other characters in the magic world but this has more to do with his relationship to ritsu, his blasphemies, and his personality than anything else. sort of like how seimei is seen as a criminal or enemy for his senseless murders and crimes against humanity or whatever but soubi isn't considered as on that same level of criminal even though he would've been the figure actually getting his hands dirty and carrying out the acts. soubi's the fighter/a tool, so his thoughts, feelings or intentions don't really matter. so clearly even in the most "sane" of fighter/sacrifice dynamics, or like just generally speaking in the magic world the idea of the fighter as a tool/property of the sacrifice is always reinforced and supported, somehow, even or specially when the sacrifice loves their fighter very much.............. but anyway ya ritsuka wants a normal bf. the devotion and attachment is still desired but if this bond is only possible through what is such a forced structure, then it's not real and whatever... is i guess ritsuka's feelings. it's not love if you were "ordered" and you can't love someone because you were "told to" and ritsuka will choose who he loves and his own fate outside of names and controlled bonds. but then ritsuka himself contradicts these ideas of freedom, notably in his relationship with his mother... like he will love his mother regardless idk it's complicated but his idea of a bond with her hinges on her being his Mother, his family, and ritsuka has to stay with and love her no matter what especially after seimei, even though his close proximity to her is a danger to his life. and then everything w/ ritsuka and seimei. UM *tucks hair behind ears* ANYWAY... their fight with yamato and kouya is significant too but heavier on yamato and kouya's ends. though yeah ritsuka strategizes and contributes to the fight some more and they have their bonds/seimei conversation after it's over

o_O

AND THEN I THINK THE FEARLESS FIGHT COMES NEXT which is my favorite fight in the whole series because soubi actually truly explains what's going on with ritsuka. this might not be the most significant of fights as pertaining to ritsuka/soubi reasons as for what goes on During the fight, but it is kind of significant to me because soubi is truly walking ritsuka through what's going on. continuing to kind of "train" ritsuka and gradually adjust him to the sacrifice/fighter way of being

before the fight, there's this moment between ritsuka/soubi touching on wat i just wrote about ritsuka and his mother

and then there's ritsuka/soubi's interaction which comes directly after the fight, after mimuro confirms seimei is alive

(right to left ofc...) LIKE UGH... this interaction is significant to them both but coming from different places i guess. they search for the same thing from each other and other people (belief, bonds, devotion, whatever "affection" might mean to them respectively) but to ritsuka, soubi comes from a more unstable, insensible place because the most important form of a bond or devotion to soubi is the fighter/sacrifice bond, and this is hard for ritsuka to stomach because this comes with orders (ordered to love/or being "meant to love" someone just because you are paired with them) and soubi/the fighter as property. there's a falseness to it but ritsuka is still attracted to the same dysfunction which make up those bonds because they promise attachment and unification. AND THEN OBIOUSLY TO SOUBI, THE IDEA OF BELIEVING IN/OR BEING ABLE TO BELIEVE IN RITSUKA IS *EVERYTHING* AND SOOO NECESSARY *BECAUSE* RITSUKA IS HIS SACRIFICE... UGH and then i believe their next fight after this is vs. nisei, which is originally what i wanted to write the most about and now i'm getting tired and lazy but. there is so much to be said about this fight so im just going to focus on my favorite part, ritsuka declaring soubi as his fighter, his one and only..................

ritsuka is strategizing but he feels for soubi and he does want to stay with and "commit to" soubi as his fighter. obviously this feels off and weird to ritsuka (questioning if this is the right thing to do, if he's manipulating soubi, assuming his feelings for soubi are "probably just pity") but he is beginning to truly understand this sort of declaration, and this dynamic, is important for soubi, it's how soubi sees the world and it's how soubi can understand his love for ritsuka. and ritsuka cares about and loves soubi too and he needs to be able to meet him kinda halfway (or like... compromise) on this, whether or not it's "right"... skipping ahead to volume 11

yea i don't know i'm leaving it at that

[cherienymphe]

https://www.tumblr.com/cherienymphe/785079241110880256/im-actually-starting-to-genuinely-believe-my-mom

Why do you feel that way?

A whole list of things that are adding up!

I genuinely don't even know where to start off but for one thing I've always gotten the impression she tries to live through me. When she compliments me it's all nice and dandy but if I do something to my appearance that she doesn't like, it gets so ugly so fast for no reason 😭 she actually gets psycho mad anytime I pluck or shave my brows (because I prefer them thin. I think it elevates my face so much) and she'll talk about ruining my face and how the hair won't grow back and "if I could go back in time and never wax my brows as thin as I did then I would" and I'm like okay understandable but this is my face? Not yours? It's such a non problem "problem" and she has the same attitude about my hair always saying if she had my hair she'd wear it out more and okay that's a somewhat normal sentiment I guess but she gets weirdly obsessed about my hair. Always asking if I've cut it and anytime I say it wouldn't matter if I did, she gets mad and starts ranting about me needing to appreciate what I have. Y'all I've big chopped 3 times in the past and had to hide it from her because she's that attached and I don't have time to deal with a grown woman getting mad about what another grown woman (me) does with her own hair.

I'm literally in the process of locking my hair and I know it's going to be a huge thing when I can't avoid the topic anymore 😭 and I try to be gracious because I know she's sensitive because she's been dealing with hair loss for years but one time I straight up had to tell her in an argument "this is my hair, not yours" because at the end of the day what I do to my face and hair is no concern of hers like wtf

And she's told me before that she's jealous of me but I always took it in a casual playful way because she's my mom you know? Sometimes she'll just be looking at me and will go "you have the whitest eyes I'm so jealous" or will ask me if I'm wearing lashes sometimes and when I say no will go "ugh I hate you" and that sentiment gets expressed all the time whenever I buy something. I wish I was joking when I say almost anytime I buy something I saw online she'll say "why did you buy me one?" Or "you only think about yourself" or "I'm so jealous I want one" and y'all it'll be something like a fucking bookshelf (I did indeed send her the link and she got the exact one) or a bracelet I saw on Poshmark or a bedding I found at Ross like never mind the fact that I'm not about to furnish your room and closet for you but why are you acting like you're incapable of finding and shopping around for stuff you like? I remember verbatim saying one day "you want everything I get" just kind of offhandedly in response bc y'all know I have no filter and she didn't really have a proper response to that. She does it on a very annoying level because I'm thinking to myself damn can I enjoy anything I buy for myself without you telling me you want it too

She'll even randomly come in my room and poke around my shelves or look around and be like "your room is so nice and put together damn I'm jealous" and I know by this point y'all are probably thinking dang girl how many times does she have to say it before it clicks for you but I really never thought anything of it because she's my mom

But lately she'll get genuinely bothered when we're out and other women compliment me. I remember one day we were at the mall and like 6-7 different girls complimented this dress I was wearing (just some basic summer dress from Aeropostale) and after the 7th one she went "if one more person talks about your dress I'm going to scream" and today we went to the meat market together and the girl behind the register went "you look so pretty" and I was like omg thanks you too and my mom made a face and rolled her eyes and that was the moment it really started to sink in for me

She gets bothered if I want to put on a little makeup before we leave the house even if I literally do it in a timely manner so I'm not holding her up. She'll be like "you gotta do all that just to go to the mall" or some variation of that and I've just noticed an uptick in it once I started to feel a lot more comfortable in my skin and she gets bothered by my friendships too! She's made remarks in the past about me and my friends buying stuff for each other or when I'm out and tell her I'm with blank and will say stuff like sorry I can't compare to blank or "I know you like blank more than me it's okay"

And it's just all of this stuff is adding up and I lowkey feel like she wants to be in my skin

And maybe it's just me being the only daughter of a single mom but I like to think she's not aware of how this is all coming off or isn't aware she's showing her hand so openly because I know she has her own trauma when it comes to women and has a huge unhealed mother wound and I think she sometimes gets lost in that space between being proud of what she created while simultaneously envying what she's created idk. I just feel like I'm going crazy and making something out of nothing but on the other hand I'm like no you're weird 😭

[oschonseleven]

uhhh weight/body image/sex/gender talk below the cut, it's a lil rough in places so don't feel obliged to look 💖

one thing I've not been feeling great about lately is my weight 😞

normally I can kinda bullshit my way through it and be like 'idc the world can kiss my fat ass' but looking at myself in the salon mirror last week really made me feel so self conscious and wonder wtf is going on with me

like the shape of me is all wrong and I feel like a massive lump that needs to just be shut away from public view, no matter how much I try to dress myself up :( (also the beard, god if I were thin I would probably be letting it grow out and binding and being more visibly trans but instead I just look Weird and discordant in a way I personally do not enjoy!!)

and it's not a 'ohh you're not that fat' situation- I know I am; medically, I know it's a problem. It feels different but the doctors all tell me I'm fine so it must be my fault somehow and I should just take the wegovy and get off their case already. The irony being I actually get a lot more regular exercise than I ever used to, even if it's not enough.

maybe it is just the stress from this year, my sleep is all fucked up bc of the cats and the on-off all the time with my adhd meds is probably screwing with my metabolism, that and I quit smoking so the times I'd go out for a cig to cope with Everything I've probably replaced with food again 😔

also, tmi, but I haven't had sex in like, 10 years :') any interest in romantic advances has completely dwindled and I used to be the horniest little shit even on my own time. In part, it's due to pain. The whole mechanism just hurts half the time or it's blunted now. But I'm also so unattractive to myself I can't fathom anyone else wanting to even touch me in passing. And that sucks. Like it's genuinely kind of fucked up to me how apathetic I am about it bc I never used to be.

idk man, I think I'm just kind of accutely aware that I don't actually have that much time to fix this before I'm gonna have real problems in the next 10+ years and I worry that I'm either gonna be in the same rut I am rn or that I won't be able to take care of mum when she needs me :(

I feel like I've wasted a lot of time and I'm annoyed with myself but also afraid of what I have to do to turn it around. I've done it before, yes, but I'm older and much more worn out

[wileys-russo]

Heyyy completely off topic and i hope i remembered correctly but i think you're a native english speaker (if not i apologize and I'll just crawl back into my hole completely embarrassed lol). I'm currently in Ireland, I really love it and I usually don't have any problems with english, I can speak, write and read fluently without many Problems (Courtesy of being gay&european and the german school system) but one thing I struggle with is how to answer If people are casually asking "hey, how are you" when just walking by and greeting you ot like when in a Restaurant about to order, like wtf, we only have 2 seconds and I have to order, what am i supposed to answer? Just a 'im alright thank you"? Do I ask back?

Randomly asking "how are you" and that kind of smalltalk when just walking by etc just isn't a thing in germany. You walk by, say hello and thats it. Like honestly I'm just confused in germany you basically greet everyone with a short "hallo" when you are in a smaller village or on a hike or sth like that, but when you are somewhere around the british isles ppl dont do that, but they ask you how you are in passing and I never know what to say because I'm just a socially awkward, efficient german xD

I am a native english speaker and i am also an australian, and we as a bunch are known for being very overtly friendly. Like when i go for a walk with my dog I will usually always say hello or smile or say good morning/afternoon to strangers when i pass them, but i know thats not the norm in other countries!

Its also super common here to be asked how you are and i would say that the best way to know how to answer would be understanding the context in which you're asked.

For example; if you're getting a coffee or ordering a meal or buying something at a store and the worker/barista whoever asked how are you. i'd normally reply something along the lines of 'yeah good thanks' and smile but not ask back, because they're doing it to be polite and not because they're genuinely interested or want you to ask how they are.

But if I was walking and someone asked how I am I would usually say "yeah fine/good thanks, and yourself?" and they'll usually reply something short along those lines and go on their way.

The key thing is if the context seems two way conversational, like they actually care how you are and want to talk and have it asked back (which is usually reserved for people you actually know and not someone in customer service). But having worked for many many years in hospitality and retail anytime i'd ask a customer how they are i dont usually care a great deal for their answer, and i also dont really want them to ask me back! its just polite and a good way to build rapport and be friendly

hope that helped nonny!

[hjaopanses]

im not even gonna hide it atp because THIS stupid numb nut ruined everything. i hope it gets pushed down the stairs and it breaks and then i get to set fire to it and watch everything burn.

it has caused a bunch of issues relationship-wise with my parents. every time it had a stupid "error" flashing light thingy, my karen mom would call me and tell me to clean it. usually, this isn't a problem. i just do it, reluctantly. but this night, it was different.

not even kidding. this fatass cunt robot litterbox emptied and wasted HALF A CONTAINER of cat litter. i prefer normal litterboxes for this reason. ts tedious as shit, and if one thing goes wrong, my mom screams and its basically setting off a ticking time bomb. anyways my mom was yelling at me, and this happens very often, so i don't really cry at all. i flinched a couple of times because she looks like an angry anthro pig wearing a wig. (i had to say it.) then it turned into screaming, and she scared one of the cats under the bed.

now this is where things escalate further. i left for a moment because wtf. as soon as i came back, the mattress was flipped and she was STILL screaming about the cat being gone and the fact that it's "all my fault". i still remained deadpan. i helped with the mattress so she would stop obliterating my eardrums, and then she was crying so i actually used that pent up anger and turned it into tears. i was crying and saying sorry and whatever, and then idk, i just watched her slam the door and go to bed.

i ran into my room and hugged stormy and genuinely started ugly crying, realizing the situation i am currently in. (my dad is gonna be furious. and i also remembered the 4 missing assignments i still have yet to do.) i put stormy down and i heard my mom come out again for some reason to use the bathroom and she was like "why the fuck is there a toy plane in your room??? that belongs to your brother!" first of all, my brother doesn't care for them. second of all, that is my queer platonic lover. (i'm obviously not going to come out to my parents because they think stuff other than human relationships is weird.) third of all, its not hurting anybody, stormy's just in my room but whatever.

anyways my point is that the ai cat litterbox causes these situations and i mean it. im serious. im off to make stimboards now. fuck you. (parents)

[bronzeona]

What is very cute in the BBC article is when Lucy says this: "I've got to a point now where people know I don't like hugs, so they don't judge me for not doing it," she adds" when we always see her hugging Ona so it means she's very comfortable around her and really loves her 🥰

It also explains why Lucy is the one initiating the hugs and shows how respectful Ona is of her.

First and foremost, anon, this is not a target on you I know you mean no harm. I just know that similar questions will come my way, so I want to make my position very clear. Everyone, keep in mind that I have never met or had a conversation with someone who has autism (or at least, no one has told me they are diagnosed). It’s a sensitive topic, and I know I will probably make mistakes regarding this matter in the future—or even right now—but bear with me. The last thing I want to do is make them. I am willing to listen, learn, and grow.

Second, when this news came out, I know some of you started to think back to certain moments and went, "Oh, that makes sense." “That’s why that happened.”. But as a person, I’ve always tried to treat people with disabilities, mental illnesses, or anyone who differs from the so-called "norm" (wtf that even is) without indifference. I’ve always believed in treating people as individuals first, not as labels. I’ve seen how harmful it can be when someone’s identity is overshadowed by a single characteristic.

For example, I hate how my friend came out to his friends, and suddenly, he wasn’t just him anymore he became the gay friend. Like, before, they talked to him normally, but then it turned into, "Oh, obviously, he likes musicals because he’s gay" (he doesn’t). That kind of labeling doesn’t sit right with me. In the same way, I can’t let this define Lucy in any way to me. She’s "Lucy", not "Lucy with autism". Of course, it’s a big part of her, and I’m glad she embraces it, but I don’t want it to be singled out and discussed like a disability she has. She is not a walking diagnosis, and I will not contribute to an environment where people pick apart her every move under that label.

I also won’t take part in analyzing her past or future behaviors, her relationships, or the way she acts. That just shows we know nothing. . For all we know, Ona might also be neurodivergent, and maybe that’s why she interacts with Lucy in a certain way. But does it matter? What I’m saying is—let’s not guess or try to explain behaviors.

Third, Lucy shared this to help young kids, teens, adults, and footballers like her. (According to research, about 25% of footballers report certain neurodivergent traits—PFA.). Her decision to speak openly was about representation, about making sure others like her feel seen and understood. It was not an invitation for us to scrutinize her every past action through this new lens.

For example, I’m not diagnosed with ADHD, but there’s a good chance I have it. When I bounce my leg non-stop and people point it out, I feel uncomfortable—like I’m being watched, like people are noticing something "off" about me. Imagine that, but on a global scale. Imagine how exhausting it must be to have people constantly dissecting your behavior, not as a person, but as a "case study.". Lucy doesn’t need to be under a magnifying glass. 

Fourth, I know I’ve been part of the problem. I’ve made posts joking about how she doesn’t like physical touch but "can’t resist Ona." Now, I understand that was insensitive, and I genuinely aat the time had no idea.

So basically, it’s an incredible thing that she decided to share this—not to gain more attention but to help others. I won’t take part in discussions about when she acted "autistic." I’ll still treat her the same, and I’ll still make jokes, but I’ll try to be more sensitive and aware of their impact. This is the way I want to approach this at this very moment.

[foreverautumn89]

@miwiromantics Here is the rest of it I'll post others in a sec:

I'd rather those people stayed away-the ones that switch sides so easily and are going to come jump on the Jonathan band wagon after hes gone. Yes it sucks sometimes that there isn't a lot of love for Jonathan or Stonathan and not a lot of people to share it with, but its better than being around these fake fairweather ppl that only would like him because everyone else does. Its already bad enough that Jonathan is one of the most hated characters and we STILL have those people that claim to be fans of Jonathan when they're obviously not.

That's what I like-I like the people who are on Jonathan's side when being on Jonathan's side is NOT popular. Because it shows who truly really is on his side. I want friends like you. I don't want these fake people. I want people that genuinely love and understand him not people that just like him because its popular.

In the words of Jonathan Byers 'I would rather be friends with ZOmbie Boy than a boring nobody.' 'The thing is, nobody normal ever accomplished anything meaningful in this world."

I want to be friends with the 'freaks' that don't fit in with the popular crowd and all just like something because its popular. I want people around who genuinely love what I love without me having to convince them.

I'm glad that Jonathan isn't 'socially attractive' and people don't wear rose colored glasses when it comes to him like other characters. Because now we have a better chance of actually finding people who love Jonathan for who he is as a character and not just because they find him attractive. [Even with some ppl claiming to love Jonathan when they really hate him]. We still got a better chance.

Oh definitely-its defintiely about pretty privilege. Look at Billy. Look at Eddie. Look at Steve especially. Billy did way worse stuff than Jonathan ever did but its dismissed. And again this isn't me bashing Billy its just being like wtf to the fans. And its not about them dismissing it period-my problem with this is you can forgive Billy and see the good that he did, but you can't forgive Jonathan and see the good that he did. Keeping in mind that Jonathan has bene a good guy his whole life who barely has done anything wrong while Billy was the opposite for example.

Lets go with Eddie for now--They hate Jonathan for smoking weed and act like hes a monster and say hes like a child abuser [Lonnie] because of it but when Eddie does it hes the coolest person around. And Eddie was selling K too which is a really bad drug, but they don't see anything wrong with that. They do think that Jonathan is a monster though that is irredeemable and can't be forgiven for just smoking weed and dealing with his own problems for once instead of catering to everyone elses problems-that is him being selfish taking care of himself. And no I'm not bashing Eddie, its not him I'm irritated with its the fans. They seriously fry my brain while I'm trying to understand their 'logic'. This is just one example of it

About them calling him ugly-I don't think Jonathan is ugly I think he is so adorable and cute. Yes he may not be hot and muscular like Steve is, but Jonathan is still attractive and adorable and small. I don't like his hair in some of the seasons though it really didn't suit him especially last season and maybe thats why ppl see him as unattractive I don't know. And they're talking about like the eye bags and stuff like that-its like Steve has eye bags too and he has stuff on his face too-everybody has stuff like that. It's just being human. It doesn't make you ugly hideous or rat like ext like they say about him. I don't get why it makes you hideous or whatever and why Steve's facial flaws are ignored while Jonathan's are not. Again clarifying that I dont think Steve is unattractive. I'm saying I don't get why Steve has the same stuff going on with his face that they point out about Jonatahns and Jonathan is gross but Steve is hot. I even laugh because when i got back into ST and was watching S2 I couldn't even tell Jonathan and Steve apart-they both looked so similar and I found them both attractive. And also if they're saying Jonathan is ugly because there are times when he doesn't look his best, like how many times has Steve looked that way. I've seen some really silly looking pictures of him mainly because they fcked up his hair and the first few episodes of ST Steve didn't look his best either. But Steve is hot Jonathan isnt? Dont get it. But I'm saying if thats the reason why they keep calling Jonathan ugly then I just don't get it because its the same thing with Steve. There are plenty of moments where he doesn't look attractive either but those are ignored and Jonathan's flaws are hyper focused on.

[trashcanwithsprinkles]

I know you already mentioned Scara wouldnl't exist in the rewritten Teyvat, but what if Makoto and Ei creates him anyway? Out of curiosity on how to have a bigger family with a young child or sth

Say, from Childe's spy network, he hears that the two were working on a project so he lets them be, then after some time, they create Kunikuzushi? Like actual good boy Kuni who gets named by name and brought up as normal as possible even if he's a creation?

So ofc Childe would bluescreen, go error404 and every existential crisis known to man. Then he actually meets Kuni, I think it would be funny if Childe would be like:

first meet: Wtf Wth Where did I go wrong? Get the fuck away from me! Stay 30 feet away!

every time Kuni does something a normal good boy would do: Nononono eww why the heck are you like that disgusting

then if and when Childe actually manages to find a soft spot for Kuni, he goes back to earth and sees Scara: Kuni's such a good boy whoever made you turn out like a disgusting rat deserves a punch so hard they'd meet Asmoday asap

Scara: Wtf-

quite frankly no, i cannot see how makoto and ei would ever have any need to create the puppet. the only reason the puppet was made was in an effort to eventually land in the raiden shogun, and the raiden shogun's purpose was to let ei sequester herself in euthymia to combat erosion. if makoto never dies, ei would never have any incentive to go hide there. given erosion is a weird topic in-game, i never brought it up in the fic, but the idea i always had was that it was imposed onto the people by celestia/the heavenly principles. so with celestia's turnover, there's no forced erosion, there's no war, and there's no dead makoto.

i also really don't think ei or makoto would have any interest in creating a bigger family? i can't speak for makoto since we barely know her, but ei has never struck me the type who is out on the market for found family situations – and if she were to ever end up in one, it wouldn't be in the caretaker role. plus ei and makoto get miko at some point anyway, so it's not like it's just the two of them. i imagine they'd be plenty busy watching over inazuma, and if my take on makoto makes sense, she'd see all of inazuma as her family, so why would she make a puppet?? it just does not make sense in my head. if you don't kill makoto, i genuinely cannot see how you'd justify creating a puppet, let alone a puppet that results in kunikuzushi. like that's another problem entirely. plus the whole family thing is entirely on kunikuzushi. like maybe i'm not adept enough in scara lore for this but i'm pretty sure the only one ascribing a family dynamic to this fiasco is him lmao

[iron-bullogna]

I'm going to vent a bit about it here then. I'm a bit flustered so hopefully it isn't all over the place. Over my life I've experienced a lot of cruelty, primarily at the hands of white cis women and men. I grew up in a town of 1,000 people and my graduating class was 32. I went to the same school my entire life. The area was predominantly white and I mean that in a "I can count on my fingers and toes the amount of POC I encountered in my life before 18" way. I was also born AFAB. It was very clear from a young age I wasn't "normal". I have preschool paperwork highlighting my very obvious autistic traits (playing alone, organization, and at one point I could see from one quarterly report to the other how I taught myself to mask a behavior the aids noted as an issue, etc). My first "best friend" was a boy from the Ukraine who no one wanted to befriend because everyone assumed his English wasn't good. I can't even tell you how his English was because I don't remember that. I just remember he didn't care that I was a little weird and liked "boy" stuff and wore boys clothes when I could cause he liked "girl" stuff.

The boy and girl stuff mentioned here are literally as simple as Pokemon and Britney Spears. We were bullied by our peers, family, and parents for just being children. The only female friend I had growing up that I chose myself was bullied for being indigenous, looking masculine, (I believe Shoshone/Cherokee but I was 9 and I can't recall now apologies) and liking "boy" stuff. She moved only a few years later. I did not have another female friend until my senior year in high school and big shocker that a few years ago she was diagnosed with autism alongside her son. I knew from age 12-14 roughly that I was trans. I thought I was a transman back then. This was pre-internet btw folks. I had NO IDEA wtf a trans person was or that it was even a real thing. I just felt like I wasn't a girl and I couldn't possibly be a girl, all because of how those around me treated me. I'm not saying every transman is just a traumatized cis woman, but I know for a fact for me and my personal situation, being told I looked like a boy, all the stuff I liked was for boys, just literally everything about me = well that is what boys do, not girls. I genuinely think in my case, that it impacted me psychologically in a way so deep it gave me a lot of mental health issues surrounding gender. I would go through phases of hyper performing femininity and hypersexuality to try and fit in. I developed a huge complex around my self worth and being desirable that still persists to this day. This is the part Twitter was angry about and wouldn't let anyone interact with. I'm now 34 and it's manifested in a new way since quarantine since I didn't have interaction with people outside of close friends for that entire time. I find myself with an intense fear of pretty cis women, particularly white women. It's a genuine uncontrollable fear response where my entire body starts trembling because I can't stand the thought of being perceived by them. I feel so lacking. I don't even fucking identify as a woman anymore either but I can't even describe the dread I feel about being near them. It isn't even their fault either. They can be the nicest in the world to me but societal pressure and the treatment of women, cis and trans alike, has caused me so much harm I'm actually actively searching for a new therapist to help with this issue. TERFS out here literally causing the issues they say are "plaguing women from being women". Like HUH? You're literally reinforcing stereotypes babes!!! The same stereotypes you say are misogynistic! You're the problem!!! I actually have surgery on Monday and I told my husband I'm more afraid at being perceived by the beautiful women in the clinic (it has an attached MedSpa, trust me, they're all flawless goddesses in there) than I am being awake for the actual surgery. I don't doubt I would still come out as trans (rn I identify vaguely as non-binary/transmasc) because I just don't really vibe with the concept of gender as a whole. I would have just probably figured out that those feelings weren't necessarily me wanting to be or actually being a man a lot sooner. My heart just hurts for Imane Khelif because I can't imagine if she legit is just a normal ass cis woman with higher testosterone how it must feel right now to be attacked like that. And if she is intersex, how much she probably faced a lot of similar treatment that I did growing up. At this point I'm just rambling, but it has all made me very very sad and just brought up a lot of trauma from my own life.

[standardquip]

Gungrave live reactions

for the entire series CW: sexism(?), racism(?), vulgar language, I am a 36 year old man who did not censor my thoughts as I was watching it. This took a little over a month and is just a compilation of discord messages I sent

gotta say the opening scene of the first ep is great I wish his name wasn't "Brandon Heat" though I'm sorry but that's a lame name Especially for an anime ok his anime name is "Beyond the Grave" Glad we got that established

I'm about 2/3 through the first ep and this is definitely a 90s anime 😂 (not that there's anything wrong with that)

gungrave ep 2 They named the black kid kenny I will be very surprised if kenny doesn't die this ep

someone died in ep2 It was not kenny I am genuinely shocked here's to ep3

kenny has finally died But so did a lot of other people RIP Kenny

It's going a lot harder (emotionally) than I was expecting, given the first ep I'm just starting ep4 now

so far my biggest problem with gungrave is that brandon seems like a mute character but he talks sometimes But the times he talks make no sense, they're not really that important So the whole decision to not talk a lot seems super awkward instead

yeah edgy teen show is definitely ep 1 and not any ep after that (so far) (I'm only on ep 4)

another thing that bugs me is all the pans are weirdly fast but the mute/not actually thing brandon does bugs me way more than the pans

ep6 I like harry more than brandon didn't anticipate that

oh god the audio delay on this ep is horrible I hope it's just this one ep and not the rest of them

ep11 of gungrave bold strategy, cotton.gif let's see if it pays off it only worked out because of plot armor

ep12 of gungrave Brandon got a hair cut and looks like a real yakuza now

… I hate it

gungrave ep14 normally I don't care about fictitious relationships or how problematic they are but maria has convinced herself she loves her grandfather, who raised her, because brandon broke up with her and orchestrated a perfect moment And now she's pregnant by her grandfather and like this is scummy in so many different ways but mostly I just feel kinda 😩 about what it says about maria's intelligence in fact all the women in this series (actually now that I think about it, there is literally ONLY TWO) are just really fucking dumb

ep14 has some real beautiful compositional symbolism (unsure if that's the accurate term) Harry wears white and brandon wears black harry is in the shadow and brandon isn't harry tries to get brandon to betray the family and of course brandon won't. He goes to shoot harry. But doesn't and starts crying the gun lands precisely in the middle. Implying brandon's thinking about it? Or maybe it's just for symmetry. idk

this scene really slaps you over the head with symbolism. I don't care. I'm a fan

damn this show took a fucking turn

oh good just in time for Harry's break down ep15 is where the grey haired brandon comes in!

Maria is the dumbest bitch ever "I just found out brandon is alive! Oh I didn't see him myself. An aide of mine said they talked to him" Maria: Cries from happiness "Oh just knowing he's alive is enough!" bitch please supernatural stuff isn't known in this canon do you just believe everything you're told? wtf This is some pregnancy psychosis shit

damn you think Harry went crazy with power but he really went crazy with power

damn what's in this suitcase that makes it weigh so much ep18 brandon finally comes out of a coma

ep18 is where ep1 left off

while watching gungrave I had some fever memory recollection of an anime called Heat Guy J So I looked it up It seems to be a combination of robocop and minority report?? Also it has a werewolf apparently

ep22 of gungrave I think I can fit this in before I need to leave this is totally gonna end with mika, who is like 17, dating brandon/grave if it doesn't, I'm gonna be surprised so all three women in this show will get with dramatically older guys and also be stupid idiots

hm ok brandon/grave only has 10 days of life left unless they magically come up with a different way to make him live so there's 2 eps to figure that out and/or have sex we'll seeeeeeeeeee oh, 4 eps actually Whatever anyway I'm out for a few hours to the family function

gonna attempt to finish gungrave I'm starting ep 23 of 26 gonna play them at 1.5x normal speed good mika (16ish) professes her love for grave (40+, died once) and grave is like "I'll be your guardian and protect you but that's all" Good We don't need yet another pedo relationship in this anime

ep24 "promise me you won't die before me" the girl who married a guy 30 years her senior says 🙄 oh I guess this was foreshadowing She got shot and died

grave is literally falling apart like bad pottery ep25

lmao harry, the guy who has no issues murdering literally anybody, swerved to avoid a cat in the road

the crash from the cat was so bad his whole life flashed before his eyes. This ep was a huge flashback oh grave's hair is white instead of grey now I guess because he's almost dead… again ep26 Last one

it's over they killed eachother

[toweringclam]

I have something I've taken to call "itchy brain" where I'll suddenly start interpreting things in a very paranoid, personal way. People are against me. They're arguing with me just to argue. They're deliberately misinterpreting me. They don't care at all or they care too much. It genuinely feels like I have a sort of itch in my consciousness and I can't stop scratching it until it bleeds. I'll freak out and start begging them to tell me what's really going on or I'll start ranting about how what they said came off to me. I'll just start crying as I get in a spiral of trying to explain myself.

And then it stops.

Suddenly, I become completely aware of just how insane I'm acting. It's like this flood of negative emotions just evaporates. Which is weird because you think I'd still feel it from all the stress hormones. But no, suddenly I'm back to normal, albeit very embarrassed about my behavior over the past few minutes.

Most things I've looked into require you to feel it a lot longer-term, like days at the minimum. But it only lasts a few minutes, and I can go weeks without this problem. Intermittent explosive disorder might fit better, but it's not anger. It's fear and hurt and confusion. It might be a trauma trigger, but what could possibly be triggering it and why, I have no idea. It's not an autistic meltdown, those feel different. More overwhelming, less itchy.

IDK, Tumblr seems to be good at diagnosing brainwrong. If anyone knows wtf is up with me, please let me know, and share this if you don't.

[gayahithwen]

I notice that you immediately moved the goal post after I showed you that your "fact check" was factually incorrect. If you're not willing to ever admit fault, you will continue down a path of sunk cost fallacies that will only drive you towards more hatred and violent extremism.

Calling for recounts in close races is actually perfectly fine and normal. I personally don't know anyone who had a problem with Trump calling for a recount on the states he lost by a small margin. Were we worried about what the outcome would be? Sure. But it was his right, and recounts were done. And Biden still won.

Like, I don't understand how I can explain to you that people who genuinely care about democracy actually want things to be done democratically?

Harris/Walz is a vastly different ticket than Trump/Vance. If you can't see that, then... I don't know how to fix that.

Yes, Harris is not as pro-Palestine as we wish she could be, and peaceful protestors being arrested for "blocking traffic" is ridiculous.

But Harris is at least fighting for a cessation of violence. Trump, on the other hand, has said he'd deport pro-Palestinian protestors, and that he wants Israel to "finish the problem" with Gaza.

Those are some significant differences on the one issue you seem to care about.

Those of us who care about policies beyond Israel are also quite excited at the thought of having politicians in charge who are willing to do things like create programs that allows first time offenders to go to school instead of prison, or ones that make sure school children get free meals (both of those programs are real examples that Harris and Walz have actually done).

The Democrat party is actually acknowledging the wealth inequality in the country and have shown themselves willing to try some common sense approaches like increasing corporate tax rates and allowing the IRS the resources to investigate rich people's tax fraud.

You know, while the GOP thinks 13 year old girls should be forced to give birth to their rapist uncle's child, and that billionaires need yet another tax cut.

Also, wtf are you talking about "entitled" to people's votes? That's not what this post is about at all. This post is a democratic reminder of how fucked up the electoral college is, and reminding people that if just six hundred people in Florida had voted for Gore instead of Nader, the early 2000s would most likely have been significantly different.

Would a Gore presidency have been perfect? No, I don't believe so. But there's a decent chance a more intelligent president would have been able to prevent 9/11. And even if he hadn't, he would probably not have full-on defied the UN Security Council to start an illegal war. The United Nations used to actually have some sway back in the day.

This post is about pointing out the futility of voting third party as long as the US remains a first-past-the-post, winner-takes-all, bipartisan system.

And it's pleading (not demanding, like you seem to think) with people like you, up on your high horse and ignoring mostly everything I'm saying, to make the choice and vote for harm reduction in lieu of your "ideologically pure" candidate who will never get enough votes to get into office.

With Kamala/Walz going up DAILY, I've seen more people talking about voting third party/Jill Stein (EW) and I believe the above screencaps from @three--rings can explain WHY Third Party votes NEVER work NOR is this the election to screw around in.

Everyone....like she says above.....PLEASE LEARN FROM HISTORY!!!

(Because if Trump gets in, he's NEVER LEAVING).

[pinkonthe1nside]

28/01/2025

mb guys i forgot about this for a while but there's more drama so i'm here to talk about it tw: mentions of bullying, lying about people, rumors etc so to finish off from my last entry, the safeguarding lady just said that A and Y were going to have to have a meeting with the pastoral lady for our year group. and they were just going to get lectured for being nasty to people. now moving on, today, i got home from school. and then i get a text from a guy, lets call him R, now i've known R for a few months. we're not close at all, we barely speak, i know *of* him, but i don't *know* him if that makes sense. but yeah, he texted me and he sent this screen shot and said 'explain this' the screenshot was of our chat (between R and i) but it was fake. like the screenshot was of texts of him dirty talking to me and me responding with 'no wtf' and screenshotting it (it was on snapchat so the screenshot and that 'you took a screenshot' notification). and obviously, R was mad, and he said 'we both know this screenshot is fake so what's going on here' and i just said 'idk what's happening, i've never seen that screenshot before' and he was saying that this girl is going around saying that i'm telling people it's him texting me. i just said 'wallah idk what she's on abt'. and i think he believes me, but i don't think i care too much because i have genuinely never even heard about this before. then mid conversation, R says 'wait the girl who told me is texting me' ('told me'= told R that the screenshot was from me) and i said that i think i know who it is and he told me to guess but i said 'no i don't want to guess because it'll make me look weird if i'm wrong since i'm thinking about multiple people right now'. he didn't make me tell him, he understood where i was coming from and he never actually told me who it is. but i think it was A because she's the only person who has a problem with me right now, so it makes sense. and in no way am i blaming her for this, like i have no proof it's her. but just logically thinking and putting the time frames together, i do this it's her and i don't see who else it could be.

but yeah, i'm probably going to go to safeguarding again tomorrow. normally i wouldn't but it's the fact that she's 1) getting other people involved for no reason, 2) making me look like a whore, 3) she's already been asked nicely to leave me alone and she's not backing up. but since i have no proof it's her, i'm just going to say to safeguarding 'i know i don't have proof, and i'm not blaming anyone but i think it's A' since i'm allowed to say what i think. i know my blog has been super negative recently, i'm sorry but i'm mainly here to get things off my chest anyway. i'll try to be more consistent too, but we'll see stay safe, have fun -flora xx