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[sieglinde-freud]

vent post! 🩷

im graduating university in like five days (yes yes i know thank you) and i just got finished taking grad pics with my cousins (one of whom is an aspiring photographer. aspiring being the key word but shes p good aside from not being able to pose me very well but thats not what this post is about) and it was like whatever but we took a break to go get lunch and one of them says to me “so your parents wanted me to tell you something” and i could guess what ballpark it was in obviously. take two seconds to guess if you want. anyways after that she said “your parents want grandchildren” ??!?! I HAVENT EVEN GRADUATED YET! IM TWENTY ONE MAN!!! and they didnt even bother to say it to my fucking face??? youre talking through my cousin for what?! FOR WHAT?? because you know thats not what i want right now and that i’d get mad?!?!? im about to be the first person in my family with a college degree ever and you want me to worry about a man (always implied btw) and kids?!?! are you fucking kidding me?!!!?! what the fuck do i need any of that for?! im not lonely enough to try babysitting a man for the rest of my life, and i sure as hell dont need a fucking kid in this economy. and!!! i have an older brother!!!! when are you gonna bother him with kids and a wife?!? WHY IS IT MY FUCKING PROBLEM WHEN IM ONLY TWENTY-ONE?!?!?! i cant tell my parents im aroace or even bi. i cant imagine what kind of backlash thatd get or just how exhausting that would be, but it means that with school being over im running out of excuses to not date and not settle down because “i dont want to” or “im busy” just isnt enough of an answer. and it wouldnt even be that bad if i didnt have to go back and LIVE WITH MY PARENTS and its such a privileged thing to say. my parents dont charge me rent, provide me with food, and keep me stable while i work out my life. but GOD i MENTALLY cannot live like this. im so tired man. and i go to school in liberal wokeism city (i mean this genuinely and not as a bad thing) and its been so great to be able to experience self expression being met with open arms and acceptance rather than weird stares and glares and now i have to go back to my hicktown hometown and relive it all again. im just. grgrggrhehjshrjejjhew!!!!!! isnt it crazy how like one sentence can ruin my day and my mood. crazy. i just dont understand how instead of saying “congratulations we’re so proud of you” they choose “why dont you have a boyfriend” and it just fucking sucks man it sucks badly. i’d love to stay in liberal woketown but unfortunately its just so unaffordable + my parents are getting old and i need to be close by to take care of them so i really dont have a choice. but it sucks! im frustrated and everything sucks!!!!!