#WHEN DOES IT GET EASIER

[sieglinde-freud]

vent post! 🩷

im graduating university in like five days (yes yes i know thank you) and i just got finished taking grad pics with my cousins (one of whom is an aspiring photographer. aspiring being the key word but shes p good aside from not being able to pose me very well but thats not what this post is about) and it was like whatever but we took a break to go get lunch and one of them says to me “so your parents wanted me to tell you something” and i could guess what ballpark it was in obviously. take two seconds to guess if you want. anyways after that she said “your parents want grandchildren” ??!?! I HAVENT EVEN GRADUATED YET! IM TWENTY ONE MAN!!! and they didnt even bother to say it to my fucking face??? youre talking through my cousin for what?! FOR WHAT?? because you know thats not what i want right now and that i’d get mad?!?!? im about to be the first person in my family with a college degree ever and you want me to worry about a man (always implied btw) and kids?!?! are you fucking kidding me?!!!?! what the fuck do i need any of that for?! im not lonely enough to try babysitting a man for the rest of my life, and i sure as hell dont need a fucking kid in this economy. and!!! i have an older brother!!!! when are you gonna bother him with kids and a wife?!? WHY IS IT MY FUCKING PROBLEM WHEN IM ONLY TWENTY-ONE?!?!?! i cant tell my parents im aroace or even bi. i cant imagine what kind of backlash thatd get or just how exhausting that would be, but it means that with school being over im running out of excuses to not date and not settle down because “i dont want to” or “im busy” just isnt enough of an answer. and it wouldnt even be that bad if i didnt have to go back and LIVE WITH MY PARENTS and its such a privileged thing to say. my parents dont charge me rent, provide me with food, and keep me stable while i work out my life. but GOD i MENTALLY cannot live like this. im so tired man. and i go to school in liberal wokeism city (i mean this genuinely and not as a bad thing) and its been so great to be able to experience self expression being met with open arms and acceptance rather than weird stares and glares and now i have to go back to my hicktown hometown and relive it all again. im just. grgrggrhehjshrjejjhew!!!!!! isnt it crazy how like one sentence can ruin my day and my mood. crazy. i just dont understand how instead of saying “congratulations we’re so proud of you” they choose “why dont you have a boyfriend” and it just fucking sucks man it sucks badly. i’d love to stay in liberal woketown but unfortunately its just so unaffordable + my parents are getting old and i need to be close by to take care of them so i really dont have a choice. but it sucks! im frustrated and everything sucks!!!!!

[thebackbrain]

Sooo desperate for friendship and connection

And yet

[vampslxsher]

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[slugbaby]

Nonbinary Screaming:

Hey hi hello I guess I'm nonbinary. Still waiting to see if my brain wants to actually tell me I'm trans, but I think I'm just struggling with adjustment and things will... level out in time.

I just want to stop feeling like I want to claw off my skin and get down to my bones where everyone is just bleached white and gross. I've had a lot going on health-wise with my breasts lately, so maybe it's hard for me to love them right now like I typically do. Even before my breast biopsy, I was becoming exhausted with the idea of putting on a bra. PCOS means regular shaving and epilating, but for the last three months, it's been ROUGH trying to find the energy to do it. I don't even know if I prefer the smooth face anymore – I'm just so tired of hearing my mother in my head telling me no one will ever love me if I leave it there.

But today was the first day I clawed at my chest. Cried staring into the mirror. Wished my nails were long so I could gouge trenches through my skin, rip them off of me. Even once I had spouse help me put on my bra, I didn't feel comfortable. Didn't feel right. Didn't look how I wanted. Made them bring me a t-shirt rather than the more feminine tank top I was already holding. Still took me way too long to put on makeup and brush my hair. Once my hair was brushed out, I felt nauseous. Too long, too wavy, too much. Pulled it back up into a ponytail. Made it as masculine as possible. Still felt off.

I don't know what I am. I like the idea of continuing to wear dresses, but today was 100% not a dress day. Wasn't really a makeup day either, but I don't feel comfortable still having the obvious boobs while letting facial hair grow wild. Binder won't arrive for another 4 weeks at best.

Didn't know I would ever have a moment where I didn't want to be called beautiful. Felt like I had bugs crawling on my skin. But hearing the word handsome and seeing the way they looked at me? Still willing to hug and kiss me? That helped. That made me feel right.

I'm so exhausted, and it's only been, what? A couple weeks? Other people have had worse journeys. Harder ones. I just wanna skip to the end. I don't know how anyone makes it through this alone. My gut reaction every moment is to rend my flesh. It feels like the only plausible reaction to find relief.

I know it'll get better. I just gotta try to breathe in the meantime. I want to reach the better.

[freezerbride]

I am the dumbest person alive

[piercingnovember]

im just tired

[mothandpidgeon]

At least once a day I want to scream and throw something. By the end of the evening, my whole body is wound so fucking tight. I’ve been clenching my jaw for a week straight.

[to-touch-the-earth]

me when I was 14: actually Im not v sad just a young girl haha classic

me when I was 15: yeah no its just my age is a difficult phase

me at 17: yeah no I am just experiencing what girls my age do

me when I was 19: yeah its just normal to be so sad and insane at 19

me as a 20: year old yeah I def feel like this bc all 20 year olds do

[fisherrprince]

Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,

[starscream-is-my-wife]

A bit more of the thunderfire story ‘post canon’, I think this should be around mid 2010s?

Jetfire and Thundercracker would be the duel income uncles with only fur babies, Skywarp is the actual breadwinner, Megatron is… there

Since the ex Decepticons no longer have to find energon and are no longer in war, they have so much free time.

(Rough outline here)

Text in the picture underneath the cut because it’s a bit small + Starscream

Jetfire

- changed his name in 2005 and is the only non neutral in the household

- the one who owns the house (used to be a lab) everyone lives in

- infamous in the science community for dropping a technological revelation every couple of years and then disappearing

- he and Megatron are the ones mostly taking care of the pets

- is the least online in the household, and goes outside the most

- has only gotten more unhinged ever since he was melted

Thundercracker

- likes to create all sorts of art, experiments a lot, currently into sewing, but who knows what’s next? Felting? Glass art?

- well liked with netizens because of his redemption story and loves the internet

- the bigger simp in the relationship, they got human married for fun in 2016 when gay marriage was legalized

- in charge of PR for everyone, including the Autobots sometimes

Skywarp

- Lives in Jetfire and TCs basement and is messy and loud

- twitch streamer, problematic due to him being kind of dumb (gets tricked by chat a lot)

- tricked Megatron into signing marriage papers because he felt left out when TC got married (and then forgot about this)

- used to live in the attic but was so loud during streaming he was forced to swap with Megatron in the basement

- is actually filthy rich, paid the entire mortgage

- the pets least favorite bot :((

Megatron

- misses fighting in the war but living in the attic is… ok

- edits for Thundercracker when he writes

- all of the pets favorite, no one is happy about this (except Megatron)

- is mostly unknown to the public, is under house arrest because of his war crimes for now. Does not feel too guilty about his crimes

- due to him being unemployed he is the household maid

- on the internet the most, cyberbullies Optimus Prime with alt accounts

- doesn’t know he’s legally married

[friendsinsolitude]

lmao rui canonically solders without eye protection or proper ventilation in short sleeves. his face is like directly above the soldering point, you KNOW he’s inhaling those fumes. can’t be sure what kind of solder he’s using so it’s not necessarily something super toxic, but a fair amount of solder has lead and some solder has rosin, and he’s touching that shit barehanded and getting fumes in his face. yum.

[horsemotifs]

Loch took that literally

[starburstminibot]

Transformers ARK! The Twins

Sunstreaker, the self-proclaimed "eldest" of the two is cocky and egotistical. Most bots find him hard to approach so they simply steer clear. He takes great pride in his unstable reputation, and wouldn't be caught dead doing anything to break character. The only bot who seems to be able to put up with him is his twin, Sideswipe. And even though the two are rarely apart, they sometimes seem to barely even like each other. Despite preferring isolation, Sunstreaker has always been secretly jealous of how easily Sideswipe can make friends, and how other bots like his brother over him.

Sideswipe, while just as aggressive at times, can be much more relaxed and playful than his brother. He's funny and friendly, and can quickly gain favor with others. It's unfortunate that most bots are too scared to approach him considering who he's always hanging out with. Sometimes Sideswipe is resentful of the shadow he's constantly living in, and wishes Sunstreaker wasn't setting the standards of what bots grow to expect of him.

It would probably help both of their insecurities if they weren't so codependent, but no one's had the guts to try and tell them that yet.

[hinamie]

he will stop fighting back when i try to draw him if i practice enough (coping)

[longmaxsilvarg]

something about the main menu for life is strange genuinely makes me wanna collapse and sob

[fellthemarvelous]

I think people have this weird notion that Jedi are emotionless because they don't react to things the way normal people do, and it's because they've been trained to view every situation from an outside perspective without bias, and when they become angry, they don't hide from the anger. They find healthy ways to channel their anger.

It's not surprising that even the strongest minds will break when flung into a war orchestrated by their enemy. The Sith existed in silence for a thousand years after their last war against the Jedi. One Sith survived and created a legacy based solely on revenge against the Jedi. The Clone War was brutal.

Darth Sidious, manipulative and extremely patient, was able to lull the Jedi into the trap he'd set for them. None of them wanted to fight in the war, but the Force was clouded. Their path was clouded. They see through the Force and choose the light, but their paths became clouded as the choices they were forced to make became more and more questionable. I imagine it would be like looking at a map in a brightly lit room before getting hit by a storm of darkness with brief flashes of light passing through. Darth Sidious sent the Jedi to their own deaths because he knew the Jedi would stop at nothing to protect the galaxy from the Sith, but the people lost faith in the Jedi. Without the clone troopers, the Jedi would have been fighting that war alone, but the catch that came with using them was that the clones were ticking time bombs set to go off upon the execution of Order 66.

The Jedi trusted the clones. They trusted the clones with their lives. The clones considered the Jedi their best friends, and if you don't believe me, listen again to what Fives says to that cab driver on Coruscant when he's running from Palpatine. He was horrified to learn that they were created to kill the Jedi and he did everything in his power to try and tell the Jedi the truth, but his own brothers were hunting him down on Palpatine's orders. He died at the hands of his own brothers so none of them would find out the truth.

The only other clones he spoke to before he died were Kix and Rex.

We recognize that the clones were victims in this war, but it was Count Dooku who paid for them. The Jedi were also victims in this war. They were not the villains. They were never the villains. They did the best they could without any help at all from the rest of the galaxy. Palpatine put all the pressure directly on the Jedi to fight their way out of this one with an army of three million or so sleeper agents.

The Jedi life isn't for everyone. The galaxy is vast and the Jedi are but a few small blips devoting their lives to others when you look at the big picture. The numbers will show you that the Jedi were indeed overwhelmed because they were the ONLY THING standing between the Republic and the Empire.

What happened when the Jedi were wiped out?