#given that I'm mostly drawing fandom stuff

[solanj]

sometimes in the fandom you see some art that is SO beautifully made but goes SO against the grain of how you perceive the drawn character(s) like I want to reblog it so much because it's so visually gorgeous and the artist is amazing and deserves to know this but I'll fucking die before letting that particular interpretation of the character(s) anywhere near my blog

[xbraveheartx]

So I know the quality sucks and we don't get any better quality to compare, but I just wanted to point out that, yes. Baby Carlo has freckles. Very few of them. But you can see the ones he had since he was a wee young lad standing out in his painting.

Go ahead and go into the game and stand in front of the portrait. Compare their faces. I'll wait c:

Here's a full/clean version of his portrait if you want to stare at it

So anyways like I was saying before--

[dogtoling]

General life- and blog update , since I assume at least a few people might have been wondering where I've been and what i've been up to recently. I obviously haven't been posting or drawing much this year in general. This will probably be an important post if you care about stuff on this blog, and I already rambled on Sheezy, but that site isn't very populated yet and it's also very good at hiding journals so let's just ramble again...

The summary of this post if you hate reading: I'm heavily considering just stepping away from Splatoon. That decision obviously would affect this blog (mostly, my OCs, which is kinda most of the blog at this point). I don't think the blog itself will go anywhere, and I'll probably use it for something in the future... alternatively i'll cherry pick stuff from here into an archive for people who like the worldbuilding.

Longer post under cut:

So what have I been up to this year? The answer is quite simple: NOTHING. Like, actually absolutely nothing. Aside from Art Fight, this has probably been one of my worst art output years of all time, which is really frustrating. That's between my horrendous mental health and depression chasms this year and a complete lack of both focus and inspiration (which can also get chalked down to the depression to a degree, yeah). So the very real reason to why there hasn't been much activity on this blog this year is because I just haven't Done Anything in general.

Now because I know there will be a few people who think "that's fine! you shouldn't judge yourself based on productivity!" you're right! I also agree. However the issue for me specifically is that most (if not all) the time I spend NOT drawing or creating, I spend sitting around wishing I could start drawing or creating, because that is like the 1 thing that keeps me sane on this freaking earth. Unfortunately coming up with OC scenarios in my head doesn't really result in output I can feel fulfilled by in any form as much as I wish it did, lol.

Now; The Issue. It doesn't take a genius to see that if you spend 9 months trying to finish like a dozen OC pages that you COULD do in a week or 2 if you wanted to, then there's probably more than just the problem of executive dysfunction (even though that's at least 60% of it for sure). Obviously my other major problem is that I live by imaginary rules and structures that make sense, but aren't actually useful at ALL in reality and are more than a hindrance if anything (the mental to do-list in my head that says i can't do X until I've done Y doesn't do very much if task Y takes 10 months and I also don't want to do it, and it also has no structured ending).

How does this tie into stepping away from Splatoon, you may ask. Well, the issue is that I have foreseeably fallen out of love with the series. Which isn't exactly news lol. Currently, I'm not even sure i will get the next game, if and when the time comes. Yes, the loss of interest is also expected, given that Splatoon 3 has ended and every fandom has this kind of downtime and lukewarm in-between-titles period. But the truth is that modern Splatoon (almost 10 years old!!!!) is tangibly different from the way the series was back when I fell in love with it. That was Splatoon 1, and while the series has improved in a lot of aspects and is thriving, it's grown in a direction that I just don't really like. Splatoon 3 had the most freaking horrendous, immersion breaking story mode they could've done, then they followed it up with a DLC story that was pretty cool but also compounded a lot of my fears about the series' future and played into every single thing i do not want Splatoon stories to be - fully character focused, random fucking villain, mundane event that's unrealistically world-threatening just because a kids video game needs a scary climax even though it's immersion breaking AGAIN, the whole thing taking place in cyberspace and thus offering basically no worldbuilding even though there is SO MUCH WORLD. I COULD GO ON.

The gist of it is that nowadays, rather than playing Splatoon and being inspired and excited at what comes next, I mostly find myself dreading what dumbass plot they will do next to throw a wrench in the otherwise good stuff. And when that's like THE main approach I have to what's supposed to be my favorite series, it is HARROWING. I can't even really blame the game for this; the story is NOT its selling point, the developers probably do their best to get the bits to us that they really want to tell, and at the end of the day the game is unfortunately a product. Worldbuilding for Splatoon is fun to a point. It's less fun when in order to actually write or create something coherent, instead of filling in the blanks, the blanks are 90% of the freaking thing. At that point you're just better off making something of your own instead of being anchored onto an IP that gives more problems than answers and occasionally shoots you with like a machine gun. Working in the realm of Splatoon is frustrating because more often than not, the questions I have ARE NOT MINE TO ANSWER, and the likelihood that the specific-ass questions I need answers to will ever be actually addressed is really low.

Tying this back to my OCs. Obviously I love my OCs more than I love myself which admittedly isn't that high of a bar but you get the point. The problem is that I spend a lot of time mulling over worldbuilding that, again, frankly isn't mine to do. Because if I want it to be Splatoon, then it should be mostly accurate to how Splatoon is! But the problem with that is that there's really not THAT MUCH worldbuilding in the series that you can work with, and most of the core game mechanics are just abstract enough that it's actually horrendous to try and come up with workarounds and ways for things to make sense that don't require just constructing a full knockoff version mirror dimension of the game and saying fuck everything that's in place here because Inkopolis Plaza literally has no roads in or out of there and I have no fucking idea how that's allowed when your only option is to jump the fence (or, nowadays, take the train which also isnt connected to a street as far as I remember). Between the face value issue and the lack of REALLY IMPORTANT worldbuilding, like - I will always come back to this - THE INK TANK'S FUNCTION 10 YEARS DOWN THE LINE - there's a goddamn ocean of plot holes and things that end up being obstacles to creativity rather than inspiration. I feel like I'm pretty solidly at the point (and have been for a while) where hanging onto Splatoon is really only contributing to creativity block and frustration with lack of freedom and the ability to actually do things.

So I guess those are my reasonings that I've put together just sitting here for the time being. The TL;DR is that I wish I could just do stuff without Splatoon's canon getting in the way, which is a really stupid problem to have if you're making Splatoon OCs. I feel this frustration extremely strongly every time I have to work with actual bigger aspects of the world; we still don't have an Inkopolis map, we don't know what the world around Inkopolis looks like, we don't know what the wilderness is like aside from Just Normal Forest and Desert and very few snippets as to what modern wildlife MIGHT be, I still don't know how the fuck the Inklings teleport to the goddamn arctic ocean to play a turf war at Shipshape Cargo co. These are all actually really important things if you're trying to establish a setting in any kind of storytelling that's outside of immediate city bounds (and even there, you need to know the layout of the city and its important areas). Also a fucking mutant bear and a baby salmon and a squid not wearing suitable gear went to space and fought on a rocket in space. These are some things that would give me peace of mind to not have to deal with in my own writing, probably.

So where do we go from here? Unsure. I haven't really made a decision on this front yet, though right now I'm leaning more towards actually going ahead with trying to do my own thing. That will result in obvious design and setting changes for my OCs whenever I get around to it. This blog probably won't go anywhere (again, unless I impulse delete it during a mood swing like i've almost done on like three separate occasions this year), but it will probably get less use, and I will probably end up making a new blog to post about whatever I end up doing once I get to a point where it feels like it makes sense. There's a chance that I will delete this blog and put all the interesting stuff on an archive blog for the people who are here just for the worldbuilding. My actual true passion for a long time now hasn't even been Splatoon anymore, it's just been cephalopods. I'm kind of done having Splatoon get in the way of the cephalopods, as thankful as I am that it introduced me to them...

If you read this to the end heres a treat for you = 🍪

[some-triangles]

I found a video essay which is about Neil Gaiman but is also a critique of fandom culture from the left. It's fun! My guy dresses up as Death from the Seventh Seal and talks about Roland Barthes in rhyming couplets. It's too long and overly pleased with itself but hey, leftists.

I took a break while watching it to go on a milk run to the bourgeois grocery store (might as well not abbreviate it under the circumstances) and saw this:

Given that the video was just talking about Gaiman being more a brand than an author I took this as a sign to share my two cents.

The cents are these: beyond considerations of fandom, parasocial attachment, Death of the Author and capitalism, which the video covers admirably*, can we posit that the art you find yourself the most attracted to as a teenager might not be stuff you should be buying as an adult?

*(they do quote an Alan Moore article from The Fucking Guardian in which he says he hates the growing trend of treating authors as "part of the costumed entertainment" without pointing out that the man wears a costume at all times, which is part of his branding, just like Gaiman. Also maybe given the company he keeps we should start asking more questions about Lost Girls. But I digress.)

Do you want to live in the moral universe of C.S. Lewis? J.D. Salinger? J.K. Rowling? J.R.R. Tolkien? (Maybe going by one's initials is the problem here, actually.) A grown person who thinks for a living shouldn't be going around saying that Neil Gaiman is one of their heroes. Even if you like his books, you've got to admit that the dude's mostly style and reference, that his actual insights don't go beyond those of a bright teenager. It's commodified rebellion for rebellion fans, sitting on the shelf next to Rowling's commodified conformity for conformity fans. We can still have fun with pop but we have to understand that the people who make it are in the sales business. (Yes, even Kendrick.)

The reason this stuff is constantly sold back to you is that it's really easy to sell things to children. The less like a child you become, the harder it is to market to you, so it's in the interests of money to draw you back to your childhood in a million different ways. So: grow up and get some esoteric, contradictory tastes, just to fuck with them. Cut out the hero worship - don't respect people for their "talent" any more than you would respect them for being rich. This will make you less likely to be starstruck enough to follow around a third-rate tumblr daddy dom who thinks he's a wizard.

(no, not me)

Finally, because I'm also a leftist, here's the overlong and self-satisfied part. I read a lot of Gaiman in high school but I also read a lot of one of Gaiman's heroes, Harlan Ellison. He was my favorite! I liked him because he was stylish, aggressive, arrogant and brutal. Teenagers like power and he had it. The fact that none of his stories had real people in them and that he seemed to have a problem with women in particular was nothing to me in the face of his Muscular Prose. Then I went to college and met some people who were smarter than me.

I ended up dumping Ellison for what was in his work, long before I knew much about all the other stuff. Same thing with Gaiman. So if you're worried about being let down by one of your heroes, I suggest looking at all of them carefully. Particularly at their feet. (Not for horny reasons.) And then maybe stop looking at them at all and go do something else.

[rangerangel]

Given that it's been almost 6 months since I was last on tumblr or in the RA community, I thought it was time to talk about some of the stuff that was going on with Ranger Angel these days.

I haven't painted or drawn a single thing since August of 2024. I haven't regularly drawn for Ranger's Apprentice since November of 2023. In some ways, it feels unbelievable that time has passed that quickly--during my early 20s I woke up and pretty much lived and breathed in this fandom. But as time has gone on, I've felt incredibly creatively stunted. If I learned how to draw by drawing the same 7 characters, how do I draw anything else? Where do I pull creativity from if it's not RA? What do I do when the books no longer spark the same joy?

I've really missed this community too. You guys were the people who encouraged me to learn to draw, and the ones who celebrated every piece I put out--even when they sucked! I met my husband here and I've even travelled internationally to meet several of you. And yet when I sit down to express myself on a canvas, I don't have anything left to give to Ranger's Apprentice or the people that love the series. I've got no more artistic energy, and no more thoughts to share on the series for now.

At the end of the day, I don't want this to be a goodbye. For a lot of you in this fandom who did not ever know me, I'm sure this is a little melodramatic. This is mostly just a thank you to the people who were here while I learned and grew, and a "hope I see you again" to everyone who loves the series the way I once did. <3 I'll be around, and maybe one day I'll come back to this fandom with the energy I think it deserves.

[emo-hermit]

A bunch of HCs and small analyses that I remembered from my Live Feed document on watching AVA. Aren't to be taken too seriously but I think I'll stick with them.

Separated screenshots and some fun writings below:

for the first one, I felt it'd be fun to note how I found the colour gang acting a bit like young teens during AVA S2/AVM S1. The one that differentiated from this was Purple, who I felt had a personality like a 17 year old who felt they had to "be better" than their younger peers, also wanting full control or to be seen highly. They still acted childish, of course, hence 17. As the seasons progress however, especially by the start of AVM S3, the group mature into an age range that sits comfortably between 18 and 19. In comparison, Purple regresses emotionally into more childish manners, which I notice gave him a common "youngest of the lot" hc. This is because of him finding a parental figure in KO and therefore feeling safe to return to childish mannerisms.

unpictured is the fact I also gave purple an autism HC alongside yellow. red's adhd is already pseudo-canon (not stated in media but talked about by Becker) so i like to call the red/yellow dynamic the AuDHD pairing.

The race HCs were brought upon by the matador short, where I thought "for the sake of niceties, i'm assuming Green is just latino now", which I honestly had a lot of fun with. In comparison, I had a lot of fun with the idea of Yellow having albinism and therefore nystagmus (if you saw my previous post on the fandom art styles, Yellow is specifically depicted using the HC). I wrote this on the Live Feed:

Autism + nystagmus (an eye condition) = poor hand-eye coordination, in theory

A thought I had with Blue was from my personal feelings that Becker using Blue for AVAddiction and still keeping the whole netherwart thing felt very "good on paper, a bit hypocritical in retrospect". So, the concept came to mind of netherwart being an analogy of alcohol rather than a substance. Of course, the message still stands, but alcohol to a lot of people is seen more casually in comparison to what the buttons referred to. It also made me think of the common "chronic pain" HC given to Blue following AVM E20, and the idea that the whole buttons thing/netherwart overuse could be a result of Blue trying to avoid chronic pain/numbness.

Either way, I've been doing a lot of thinking since my uni trip (which I had a lot of fun at, but there was no service, so I had to just think of ideas in my sleep and return to them later). I was wondering if there was actually some AVM/AVA fandom discord somewhere, or just places for general community. I want to talk to people rather than fighting for Tumblr notes. In other words, I'm asking to meet people and make friends in places outwith this algorithm. Care to help?

Anywho this isn't much drawing at all, mostly words, but I appreciate your attention. I'll maybe make more stuff soon as the academic year closes up. There's a Green x "Above and Beyond" by RIProducer art piece with my name on it. Have a good one! - EMO

[creatingblackcharacters]

Hi Ice! This one is maybe a little on the outskirts of 'creating Black characters', but it is related to the introspective questions you posted a little while back, so I thought I'd ask for your opinion. I'm sure this isn't an one-easy-answer thing, so I'd love to hear from any other Black people reading this as well!

I'll try to keep it short.

I'm seven years and 300k+ words deep in a fanfiction about anthropomorphic animal characters, and your introspective questions made me face the fact that I've been the ignorant fandom racist. I wrote my main character as white. Now, 7 years later, I stumble over a post pointing out ... those are locs

I don't know if the authors intended for this character to be Black (nonblack voice actors, supplementary material also clearly doesn't draw him this way, though that stuff was all over the place re: consistency) and I frankly also am not sure if they Should have, given his role in the narrative, but a) that's not really up to me to speak on and b) he's got locs and mostly black fur and was inspired by Anubis. I've been whitewashing, there's no way around it.

I briefly considered going back and just straight up changing the story to make him Black, but I quickly realized that I have been writing him from a white-centered narrative and just slotting a Black character into that would arguably be Worse. Or at least racist in a brand new way. I can change how he takes care of his hair, but not the themes on which the entire narrative is built upon. I've been writing about a white man and I can't just pretend I haven't.

So my question to you is ... what now? How do I best acknowledge this? Do I just quietly come to terms with the fact that this story is racist and do better next time? I would like to acknowledge it in some way, I have a small but loyal audience and if I could use that platform to start a conversation (or just put out a 'hey, don't be like me') that would ... maybe at least be better than nothing? Possibly?

I know there's not a simple solution here that will Fix It, but I thought I'd ask an actual Black person who's open to educating what might be a good next move. Maybe avoid making another, new White Person Blunder. Here's to hoping.

I really appreciate all you do, your blog rocks and so do you.

Is that Shadow?

Okay, so I had to have a conversation with Hot Chocolate on this one because this one's a doozy! I appreciate that you're willing to stop and reflect though. Most people wouldn't be willing to do so this far in!

Admittedly, the fact that you're seven years into this means this will require a lot of effort. And, tbh, I might be confused bc I cannot tell what that character is 😅 So! After some thought, here's what we came up with:

Take a hiatus. Point blank period. Take a BREAK, do not pass go, do not collect $200! Idk what lore you've written, but you've written a lot of it. Take as long as you need to reread your works, and see if at any point you ever made it clear that this was a white person, or anything other than the Black character you now think they should be. If it feels undefined, where you can turn "hair" into "locs" or add in small details, then that could be your smooth way out. It doesn't have to be massive changes, but it could help. It'll take you time, for sure! But you dug seven years in, it's gone take you time to dig out. Maybe if you skim 15k words a week (or ctrl-F it for hair, for examples), that's... 20 weeks? Go at your own pace, faster or slower.

Unfortunately this happens a lot, where influences for characters will be taken from cultures of colors and improperly represented (the "African" god from Genshin). That's just a fact. So I don't necessarily blame you for the confusion, but... Now you know.

If possible, get a sensitivity reader! Preferably a Black one. Ngl, given the massive amount of work, you're likely going to have to pay them. Maybe give them half and you take half. Idk, but let another pair of eyes look at your work. Or maybe there's a Black reader that you could speak to and see how they feel about the potential change.

Should you choose to keep going, just try to be more purposeful and intentional about that character's Blackness. Definitely tell your readers what you figured out, why it's important to you, and then move forward from there.

Now, RECOGNIZE that many of them will NOT be pleased! That's kind of the thing about opening your eyes when it comes to racism in media! A lot of people will NOT be happy that you decided to be more intentional, especially if they've been imagining their favorite white guy for seven years. You're going to have to weigh your integrity and your will to create against that. People might leave, people that you thought were cool AF until it was time to show true colors. Be ready for that.

But that's just what I would do 🤷🏾‍♀️

[jerich0two]

While I'm at it, here's a belated

Intro Post

because I've been more active on Tumblr than I thought I would be (which is always the way!)

Also, a quick "before you ask" section!

You can repost my work on Bluesky if you want (no other sites, thanks, they feed all images to AI), but please credit me there so people can find my page if they like my work ^^

You can use my fanart for personal stuff! (e.g., profile pics, wallpapers, banners, etc.) Credit is appreciated but not necessary. But please don't try to profit off it or claim you made it yourself.

I have a Lackadaisy-focused sideblog! You can find it here: @jeriandcompany

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(I've given my intro post a bit of a revamp now that I've spent some more time on Tumblr!)

Hey! I'm Jeri. I use any pronouns. I'm happiest when you use whatever you like on me, no caveats, no rules, totally up to you. Mix it up or stick to one. Ah, the marvel of choice!

I'm aroace, and I post content relating to both spectrums now and then. My personal experience is no attraction of any kind in either respect, but I try to read about other experiences too ^^

I mostly post fanart on this blog, with the very occasional, once-in-a-blue-moon fanart-adjacent post. I like to experiment with new brushes and techniques each time I draw, so my art doesn't end up looking all that consistent. The primary fandom I make art for is Hazbin Hotel, but I'm also a big fan of Lackadaisy! Along with a scattering of other things that I'll mention if it ever seems prudent.

I don't do commissions at the moment, but I'm considering mayyybe opening them at some point during the summer, once I figure out how I'll take payment! Fanart requests for the fandoms I'm in are A-OK through asks, but no promises I'll get them done.

That seems about it for things worth knowing!

(If I think of anything else that I ought to put here, I'll edit it in.)

(P.S. I don't consider myself a furry, the fox is just my mascot, and, not at all coincidentally, my favourite animal. AND (while I'm sure the concept is as old as time) I was inspired to make the little intro drawing after seeing the one @/nouverx made! Remove the slash if you'd like to check him out, I don't want to bother anyone by tagging them /lh)

[rococo-sonata]

Kunikida HEADCANONS☆📗

they're sitting in my notes for so long i can't take it anymore

it's mostly silly stuff (*^ー^)ノ♪

- Kunikida doesn't really need glasses (given the amount of time he breaks them and does just fine, when i don't have my glasses i'm walking into walls) they're mainly for rest but he keeps them all the time bcs it makes him look cool

- you know that scene where he's showed as a teacher. it's atsushi imagining him. my hcs is he wasn't actually a highschool teacher but an elementary school part time teacher (or some kind of trainee which explain why he was already teaching at 19-20yo) and he came to give math and science classes. Because there is so many time where we see him being so sweet with kids (aya, that poor girl with the bombs, also in beast that boy he hugs after akutagawa scared him💔). He would be so nice even if he would be strict and would 100% make his students do magic coloring with multiplication and all.

- the fandom often pictures him as some goody two shoes or whatever. he really is not☠️ They mostly think that because he values discipline and excellence, which is only bcs their part of his ideals. He literally hates autority and he'll only follows the rules that goes along with his ideals. You know what that is. Anarchism!!!!

- everyday he waters the agency's plants being unaware they're all fake

- super strict with grammar in texts. he'll send shit like "Dear Atsushi, Can you please take out the trash? Love, Kunikida Doppo."

- during the episode that mention his ideal partner, when atsushi reads the list he seems super weirded out and embarassed, and he mentions a "drawing" Kunikida made, while Kunikida doesn't seem ashamed of it at all. so in my head he probably drew some stick figure with absurdly big boobs or smth. (i know the anime ruined Dazai Entrance Exam but i still like this idea it's funny.)

- sleeps with his notebook under his pillow and freaks out when he find it on the ground in the morning.

- reposts ai videos asking "did that really happen...?😰😮"

- he is autistic and his notebook is basically a list of his ocd

- he was bullied by ranpo when he was still a newbie (it's mentionned in Kunikida and katai magnificient day)

- having kids was on his ideal list. he crossed it after rokuzo

- kenji gives him drawings sometimes and he frames them all and keep them on his desk

- he can't tie a tie for shit that's why he sticks with his ribbon

i have some more about him and others characters maybe i'll post them later ^_^

[inkyu]

Do you have any old art or comics you gave up on?

I have been given the power to go on a super yap... :happy: :happy: :happy:

I have a lot of stories I gave up on because I had too many (20 if I recall right), but the ones I've kept/survived from my middle school story purge were Two Over A Kind, and Shadow Killed. However I have other stories that came after those two after I entered high school such as Mandela's Requiem, Backyard Thursday, Never So Norm, Collidests, and Rose Burnt, (yes I have a lot of stories, but they're not lore heavy so they might seem short/fast)

Although the only official rendition of a comic out right now would be Mandela's Requiem but I want to re-draw it in a different format similar to my ask blog @ask-the-druggieverse and what Homestuck uses because it's easier and I can gather all the images I draw and upload it YouTube for people to read

As for old art? oh geez I have a LOT of old art....

I'll put it under a read more and separate them by year U_U

Also blood warning (gore maybe too? not sure what to label it-) and huge and tiny spoilers for Mandela's requiem!!! (I just felt very proud of those drawings and I also can't help myself but show the future plans I have for MR's story!!) (and also characters that will appear in MR's epilogues!)

Part 2 Post

(Also if you see this in a fandom tag I.E Undertale, The Last Dimension.... Dream SMP. (neutral) then that's why (This was back in 2020 and I was still in 7th-8th grade at this time (I'm a senior right now) so don't judge me(I only drew beeduo and Michael so don't worry it's not those creature (IYKYK)))

(And no, I don't plan on drawing any DSMP in the near future, maybe if requested and the person isn't problematic (I.E Ranboo, Tubbo etc etc) however for the problomatic ones they will get heavy re-design/name change so they don't resemble their og character/persona to seperate the two more because I don't like looking at them knowing what they did. (Especially C!Wilbur, I view him looking different/being named something else)) (sorry if I keep yapping about this I know people hate the DSMP so much and I don't want to get attacked again (I've been attacked before in the past for liking it back in 2021-2022 on my old TT account (deactivated, my current TT account is dead and I never want to return to TT again.) so just mentioning DSMP on my main blog scares me a bit I hope you understand!))

2025 (Hey!! this Year!! :D)

some of these you've seen I'm guessing, I haven't drawn a lot of stuff yet but it's still the first month of 2025 ^w^, as for the first image It's still a W.I.P as there's other batches I need to complete! (If you wanna see them feel free to ask) I'm also gonna change it so that Cream is the son of Nicecream guy because when designing Cream I had the intentions of him being an OC and not an AU, Nicecream guy legit had 0 part to play when making him

Same goes for Hamburg, Calliope, and Basil as they're based of existing OC's mainly and not undertale OC's when they were supposed to (crazy)

Image Order:

1st: Fiddletale mini batch No.3

2nd: A Backyard Thursday trio!

3rd: Consent!Sans

4th: An ATDV Panel

5th: Someone needed help drawing beards so I made a ref to help U_U

2024

None of these I bet anyone has seen unless they're in discord servers I'm in

Anywhos, these are mostly oc's and 1 MAU I've talked about before (slice of pie verse)

Image Order

1st: My first drawing of 2024!! it's for my my OC story "Never So Norm" I was trying to find a design for Aliza AKA Ty's mom!, I'm gonna re-deisgn her again later because I don't see her as skinny anymore but a little more chubby U_U

2nd: Mandela's Requiem's epilogue characters! for any creepypasta fans out there yes... MR is like super/heavily inspired off of CRP characters, plus Ben Drowned was free game sense no one owned him (Nintendo technically own's this character legally but hey, fuck it we ball), and as for Casey I think you can guess who she's a walmart version of (Rina is completely original, I only added the "the killer" part cuz I thought it would be silly)

3rd: Backyard Thursday god silhouette list! I haven't fully drawn them out and needed some silhouette's to see how they would all look like!

4th: Mandela's Requiem epilogue Chester character sheet! I haven't touched this specific character sheet in a LONG time and need to come back to it as this story is one of the very few stories that has a small cast of characters to work on!!

5th: Slice Of Pieverse unified!Nightmare hehe ^w^ tiny spoilers: In SOPV fusion is a thing after the calamity happened (it's a split timeline of Underverse where Bill!Sans is a bit more important) although this isn't a "fusion" form, families (either blood related or adopted) don't fuse, they unify (essentially they can use each others abilities/their abilities become stronger)

2023 (oh geez, the in-between era of my old and current style..)

All of these are oc's (that includes the DGRP oc)

Image Order

1st: MY SILLIES FROM TWO OVER A KIND!!! ILY GUYS SMMM The main character isn't there but eh, these were re-designs ish as some of them changed from being half-vampire to full human (Duke & Jackey) and some just needed color palate changes or design changes (David & Luu)

2nd: I think my 3rd or 5th attempt at lineless? I don't know but I remember struggling a lot to do lineless so I just kinda just gave up, but hey! Look at me now! I really love lineless art now!!

3rd: My Danganronpa OC Yaku Unmei (or just Unmei) for a cancelled DGRP roleplay (I do not support the creator of the old roleplay. She intentionally or not has groomed minors into being desensitized to NSFW (I was already desensitized to it from the past but it's still fucked up) and wrote proship stuff.(I don't fucking care if it was for "accuracy" that shit was clearly a fetish. I can't believe your friends made me think for a second you weren't a groomer all because you have autism that's fucking insane.)) On a different note because I'm still not over that whole situation and person. (trauma response sorry) Unmei while being the ultimate unlucky student is one of the survivors of the killing game! If it was still ongoing... now she's just a DGRP OC that I might implement into one of my main stories

4th: More Never So Norm doodles! This time of beta-Terezi and Samy interacting! not too proud of how I drew Samy but hey... this is the inbetween era... :3

5th: Our lord and savior Jake Murdalinn who's also from Never So Norm, I love you Jake Murdalinn, my favorite ghost hunter and SFX crew guy

2022 (oh man the nostalgia is kicking in guys) (this folder and before it are so disorganized I cannot tell you which drawing I did after my first one in order U_U)

Oh geez... t h a t e r a... the era where I would just create create create and procrastinate a lot, I'm thankful for all of the characters that came out of it though

Image Order

1st: my Frist drawing of 2022, aka my OC 0-Riguren or Origuren (twas my mash mash words = name era as well), he's from TOAK (and needs a HEAVY re-design and STAT.)

2nd: Fanart of Phillip from the last dimension on webtoon! Also tiny fun fact! Phillip was the other inspiration for my OC Danny (I haven't drawn him yet but I have an idea) (Although the main inspiration was yet again, Karkat Vantas (Homestuck is one of my special interests so I have a lot of stuff inspired from Homestuck))

3rd: a TOAK height chart line up, and my second time trying to make one! my first time was.... augh... heavy note on making a height chart, there are going to be a lot of characters being similar in height and there's no need to worry about that (I worried about it my first time around...)

4th: Ah yes, Fiddletale... and.... Bartertale. (NOTE: Barter is no longer a sans or an AU, he's just an OC that's in BT along with Fiddle(long story but after Fiddletale ends It's no longer an AU however people can still claim it as an AU IDC bc everyone's gonna get re-designs for BT so essentially they're separate characters in a way)), some changes between Bartertale!Barter and Backyard Thursday!Barter: AU: Cis Man, A Sans, Skeleton, Out!Code BT: Trans Man, Half-Human Half-Skeleton no undertale involved, just a regular citizen trapped in a country in a forever winter Also Fiddle and Barter are husbands in BT <3

5th: The very first drawing I've done for Collideists... Also fun fact: This story would have never been made if I never joined an event in a discord server I'm in where everyone was making these species called "Shadow Creatures" I chipped in and created a "Light Creature" concept and things went on from there

2021 (OH HELL NAW JIGSAW GO BACK GO BAAACK :sob: :pray:)

Do you SEE how different my style was back in 2021!? oh lord... I'm like- super proud of my development... heh...

Image Order

1st: Amari Feng, She's from my given up story called "A Fantasized Beginning", I gave up on this story because I had too many stories and this one just had too much stuff going on (In short: It's basically RWBY and MHA mixed into one, kids go to school to become pro-hero's in outer-space because an evil group known as "the dark entropy" were colonizing/taking over planets and the heros had no idea how they kept doing it, and then BOOM!!! PLOT FUCKING TWIST!!! the number 1 pro-hero was the one conducting the evil groups plans all along and the hero get's stopepd by the MC's, although the colonizing and taking over doesn't stop as more villains pop up and hero's continue being hero's but this time the hero's have a easier time saving everyone) I made this story when I was in middle school along with many others, although after I did my story purge the only two stories that survived were Shadow Killed and Two Over A Kind (TOAK had a massive story overhaul and is not like it's OG plotline) I don't have plans to go back to this story, however I might if I complete all of my stories before I die, which I'm sure I will because I'm shortening a lot of them, and if I do I will DEF shorten AFB by a lot because middle school me planned like 16 something seasons (jesus.) (Also Amari was not the MC but an antagonist that later becomes an MC and was heavily inspired off of Himiko Toga(Can you tell?))

2nd: Heh... My first attempt at lineless art.... This is also back when Blipthyn was blue and was named Blueprint, I do not like TOAK's 5th rendition of a story as I was going through a hard time and heavily trauma dumped the shit out of that specific rendition of TOAK and just scrapped a lot of it, only a few things I liked survived in the current 6th? 7th? version of the story and I plan to keep it that way unless it becomes too long in my eyes

3rd: THE CTT!!! CHAOS TIME TRIO!!! Also my fist art/was around the time I met my friends Keter and Geno in the lunime discord server! we all loved undertale at this time and formed this group, a lot of things changed about each character so these are their old/beta designs, however this piece still has a place in my heart because of how special it is to me :hearts:

4th: I'm gonna be for real with you I have no fucking clue who this was for These aren't my characters nor do I remember the person who created these OC's, I do know I was very proud of this drawing because I made the other person super happy, I just dunno who it was so if by any chance you're the creator of these characters hi!!! :3

5th: Heh... Hello Swap <3 ILY <3

????-2020 (I don't know if all of this art was from 2020, all I know is that I shoved a bunch of art in this folder because I didn't wanna loose it XP) (also this only has 4 because I reached the 30 image limit so I will make a part 2 of my yap session U_U)

HEAVY NOTE: I do not support the problematic creators of the DSMP. I am a firm believer in separating the art from artist(s) to an extent. If both the art and Artist are problematic they can't be separated (I.E TCOAAL(I hate this game and creator.))

I do not support Dream, Wilbur Soot, ETC ETC, Even though I don't talk about the DSMP on this blog often I will refer to the roleplay characters with different names to help further separate the RP characters and person I.E: Wilbur: Wynter(Or Winter)(Sorry but ever sense the Shelby stuff my brain magically imagined a different guy in C!Wilbur's place)(i'm being so fucking fr rn, every time someone mentions C!Wilbur I think of someone different same goes for the others too), Dream: Delusion and Ambition(For DreamXD), George: Cogs ETC ETC (In fact I encourage anyone still in the DSMP fandom to do the same cuz Dream is getting a little too close to his DSMP character rn...)

Image Order

1st: Laim! he's also from another cancelled story called 12-15-22-5, or also known as 12-15-22-5 Project: Life this story was a romance between a resurrected angel heading and a human, the resurrected angel's goal from the company he was revived from was to find a way to break someone's heart/love to the point of dying so that they could kill a god (for some reason?? my middle school self never really specified why) However things backfire as the resurrected Angel falls in love with the love interest (heh... not straight BTW...) and other resurrected angels are sent after him and his friends because it'll "sabotage" their plan, I never planned an ending for this story but I do remember that this story was inspired off of HXH and Four Leaf on webtoon

2nd: I'm gonna be so fr I don't know why I made this character (his name is Phrog)

3rd: Ian and Damien's first ever design <33 And also Shadow Killed's first ever concept art! their designs have been changed by now so yeah :(, in fact this art was made back when I was beginning to feel happy again, although that died out because Middle School was super rough for me.

4th: Ah yes.... DSMP.... Beeduo.... and... MICHEAL!!! (This was back when the DSMP was at it's prime from my knowledge... augh...) I'm gonna so fr with you I never saw Michael (Beeduo's adopted child) as white I'm so sorry, I always viewed Michael as black I don't know why I did I just did XP, no hate to anyone who views Michael as white, I just never saw it myself This isn't ship art btw. You will be blocked if tagged as ship. (Not Threatening/Serious)

Part 2 Soon (Mainly for the comics because I reached the photo limit and I wanna show some old comic panels now :( )

[kustas]

hello! good day!

since witch hat atelier is ending its silver eve arc, i just wanted to ask on your thoughts on witch hat atelier, especially and lotsa stuff has happened since, especially with coustas and dagda..

im just curious, so thank you for taking the time to respond if ever! ^^

My thoughts summed up would be that it's a great little manga, in fact the parts that make it that great accidentally and unfortunately highlight its shortcomings. This is going to be entire subjective as you asked me what *I* think and also because I believe you cannot have objectivity in a review.

I've been reading WHA for what, nearly four years now? And I got to see the series evolve in how it's written, and also got my good old time to evolve my thoughts about it too. When I first read WHA, chapter 40 had barely came out, I read it in a single go and was really mesmerized by the world and how it was constructed and pleasantly endeared to how it worked on presenting real life issues within a fantasy story, something I'm usually allergic to but that this time weirdly enough worked, because the author took it seriously and thought through the issues she presented. Since then, I've followed the chapters as they came out ever month, occasionally rereading full parts (used to do that a whole lot when I was working for the wiki) but mostly sticking to monthly updates and discussing with fandom members. Now let's explore

The stuff that's happened since

Ironically, the WHA I first read cut right at the start of the latest arc and boy, what an arc. Silver Eve WHA feels like a fully different beast at times - the art style changed, the pacing changed, the stakes changed. I will openly admit I do not like the higher stakes and newer art style, won't go as far as to call it moeblob as I've seen a few do, but I do miss the more age accurate looking characters and the attempts at facial diversity of the before era. Pacing is...another beast. Having pondered it for this ask I am honestly not sure if I prefer the before or after pacing - I have a feeling I would react differently to it had the series started off with longer arcs instead of the opposite. It's quite standard for shorter arcs to be introductory. While I am a big fan of short formats for stories and really like how early WHA entertwined what it presented of its world between story beats, the longer arc structure allow more narrative fulfillment and character development.

There are some early WHA arcs I plain don't like, or only like a few beats of, mostly reliant on their characters - the exam arc is the biggest example given I can't stand Yinny who soured the otherwise really sick premise for me. The Silver Eve suffers from having too much shit going on at once if you ask me, but having the characters who were previously introduced interact in a panic situation was very satisfying. I've heard the chapter that came out yesterday in Japan concludes that arc and I'm excited to see what happens next.

Coustas and Dagda

Oh Coustas my sweet boy. I was so, so vindicated when Dagda openly described him as a "bright and gentle boy". Yes, he is. I would add "hyperactive and riddled with inferiority complexes" to this statement but I say this with love in my heart...

Should be pretty obvious given my blog url and history of how much I care for the two as characters. Used to be only the kid, now I place Dagda as high on my loving tierlist, although I am self aware a lot of how I percieve him is basically OC projection as this point lmfao. I didn't really care on my first read, it's the story in general that enraptured me rather than individual characters, but then came out the chapter where he explains his weird relationship with Dagda and my heart was conquered and I've been drawing the little guy ever since. (pretty sure I told yall already but on my first read I was so not focused that I thought Coustas was a little girl despite us hearing abt him first time ever as "my son". I am not very bright)

I feel Coustas still peakes as a character in that mini arc while he's hospitalized. His story is simple and gutting and it ties well to Coco's own - it's a window into a world we haven't seen, both of the normal ass people in this world and the poor, it's a situation that's easy to understand and with no escape from it.

FROM NOW ON WE ENTER SPOILER TERRITORY! BEWARE.

The author already lost my attention a bit after the bandit attack. While I love tragedy and character death, Coustas' story /already/ was a cruel one where he'd lost everything in life, and this additional hit was to my eyes pointless and almost mean? And since then it's only been getting worst and worst. What I used to think was bad taste has climbed so high in the drama ladder I don't even really care anymore. I still think he's cute and like seeing him in the story but damn, leave the kid alone lmfao, at this point take him out of his misery WHAT did the guy do to you to deserve all this shite

I get the point. But Coustas had already made this point before, just in a more grounded, real life sort of depressing way. I have a feeling a lot of the cool stuff we see related to his character, like the nightmare notion of rewinding a dying loved one, could have been applied to another character later on for another purpose? He's this story's crowned martyr and why it's not really my place to talk about this, the criticism I've seen around the community around how it's happening to the only brown kid we have thus far strikes true.

The big issue (to me)

I like subtle writing. WHA is not subtle. I've made fun of this before, but man, the story loves nothing more than driving its points home with a roided up steamroller, characters monologuing their thought process to the camera in a perfect exposé, and the worlds most verbose woke prepubescent children. I do not like it.

Coustas is an extension of this. I liked him best when he was a nobody. I also remember how the fandom treated him when he was, which is to say: houseplant (if they remembered his existence at all). Now that he's doing the camera monologues, countless users are talking about his story and how they finally get it. Which is the point the author was trying to carry across. Which is way past the point I'd eyerolled so far back I could see my frontal lobe

I said before that WHA felt nice because it brought up real life issues in fantasy. My typical issue with that as a fantasy lover is that real life issues don't exist in a vacuum. Take homophobia for example: it takes a lot of forms depending on culture, but it relies a lot on the sexist notion that the only form of relationship that's valid is an SM breeding pair. If you were to successfully write homophobia in a fictional setting you'd have to come up with an alternate few centuries of history of gender and sex in various cultures. Most people don't do that though, and as a result the "representation" feels like a hollow pastiche of a phenomena that literally kills people to this day. WHA is one of the rare fantasy series I've read that actually does that exploration, and while it does embrace a lot of the "this magical world is magically diverse" stuff, it's not stupid about it.

However, WHA's insistence on in your face happenings and anime drama goes back to cheapen a lot of what it does well. I gotta apologize to bring this one up because I know it's a sensitive topic, but Lulucy is a perfect example to me - taken individually she's an interesting character and the way her backstory is handled is examplary regarding how it showcases sexual assault in a comic book, but everything else about it makes me mad. Said backstory is used as a prop tacked on at the last moment to add some dramatic flair, compensate for the lack of development and force sympathy for her character. While the sensitive topics part is handled well, everything else about the writing isn't. And I feel that's how WHA's been written lately - since the main thread to follow with Iguin has vanished, this is unfortunately all that's left.

I'd not typically dedicate these many words to this stuff. I believe analyzing media based on how "problematic" it is or whatever is a single rather flat angle to criticism. But WHA being so openly progressive makes it difficult to avoid... I could talk about the art, could talk about the characters, the world, etc (and will if prompted, although beware another 27168628932698236 word post lol) but those are secondary given how bad the manga wants you to take on its messages and the less than ideal way they're delivered.

Bonus

We are still doing the bad guys are actually good bc they have a tragic background (not how it works) unless they're ugly in which they're actually bad (define ugly?). I make this statement and go painfully howl at the moon. Can Bel and Dean be evil or something. please. the patient needs complex characters who suck to live

[missholoska]

❄️ about:

heyo, I'm Holoska/Snoey! I'm a SFW artist who likes making cozy illustrations, character designs, cute ship art and silly comics ✨

I mostly draw Undertale fanart, and you'll see a lot of my Underswap take and Undertale post-pacifist future - you can find more info on those in the links below! I also frequently draw Soriel and take part in Soriel Week every year, and occasionally draw Deltarune fanart too.

please note that I'm autistic and a very quiet and anxious person, so I'm not the best at socialising. I do appreciate receiving asks, but if I take a while to respond or don't reply, please don't take it personally! I'm also a pretty slow artist so periods of inactivity will occur from time to time.

thanks for visiting!

❄️ projects

Underswap MH (new overview post coming soon)

Undertale Pacifist Family (new overview post coming soon)

❄️ links:

@holoska - main blog

twitter

bluesky

deviantart

sheezyart

❄️ tags:

#holoskart (all art)

#undertale fanart

#deltarune fanart

#sorielweek

#pixels

#holoskart rambles (text posts)

#holoskart asks

❄️ FAQ:

What do you use for your art?

I use paint tool SAI for all of my art, an old copy of photoshop CS6 for text, graphic design stuff and some effects, easy gif animator for pixel animations, and an XP-pen artist pro tablet (previously a wacom cintiq).

Do you take requests?

nope, I'm busy enough with my own art plans and irl responsibilities.

you're welcome to offer suggestions relevant to the usual things I draw, but I make no guarantees about when or if I choose to do them.

Can I repost your art elsewhere?

if it's a site I'm not on (see my links above for the sites I am on) and as long as you credit me with a link to my blog/original post, sure! I'm aware my art has been reposted to reddit a couple times and have no issues with that.

I also don't mind my art being reposted on twitter or bluesky as a means of showing someone my projects, but quoting my original tweets/posts is preferred when possible.

Can I use your art?

for casual uses like profile pictures/banners or video edits, those are totally fine if credit is given! I don't mind minimal edits such as flipping or adding colourful filters, but I do not want my art to be heavily modified, copied or traced. for a different purpose, please ask me first!

do not use or edit my art or sprites for your own projects.

Can I dub your art/comics?

yes and please let me know if you do, I'd like to see it!

side note, I do not want my works in video compilations that also include Frans. I'm not comfortable with my art/name being associated with that ship.

What UTDR ships do you like?

I'm sure you can tell Soriel is my Big Favourite, but I also love Alphyne, Suselle and Asgorudy!

there are one or two other ships out there I don't actively ship for one reason or another but think are cute, but everything else I prefer as a platonic friendship ✨

What UTDR ships do you dislike?

I despise every adult x child and incest ship the fandom has come up with, and will block people who ship them for my own boundaries.

those aside, I strongly dislike Asgoriel, Sansby, every variation of Sanscest, and Krusie. these aren't ships I'll block people for, but I really don't enjoy seeing them.

Have you played [insert Undertale fangame here]?

nope. nothing but respect for the amount of work that goes making them, but playing fangames just isn't an interest of mine or how I engage with fandom, like how there are people who never read fanfics even for a series they love.

I have watched a few playthroughs of Undertale Yellow but had no lasting attachment to the story or its characters (though I do love some of its music; Guns Blazing my beloved), and I know little to nothing about any other fangame.

Will you help me with an Undertale fangame/project?

I'm really flattered to have been asked this multiple times, but I don't have the time available to contribute to other people's projects, sorry! I also wouldn't be an ideal team member due to being a hermit who struggles with regular communication ahah

How do you pronounce Holoska?

I pronounce it 'hol-oss-ka', but you can say it however you like; Holoska is the name of the icy continent in Sonic Unleashed, and as far as I know the name's never been spoken aloud in the series, so there's no official pronunciation.

if you're curious why I use it as my name, 'Miss Holoska' was a nickname I was given due to its similarity to my previous username and my love for winter and Sonic Unleashed. I may not be in the Sonic fandom anymore but this name still makes me happy ❄️

(last updated: 2nd may 2025)

[kaiserouo]

Wow i actually have enough rendered pieces to make an art summary this year. Just barely tho

Ramble below, also template ref

Oh god where do i even start. This is the part where i reflect on myself and do nothing about it afterwards.

In thems of topics, it's mostly just apex d2 and wf. I've never made my own world and characters because most ideas that i have the motivation to make into art comes from me playing the game. Maybe that's why I don't really treat a lot of my original character as "original characters", because they're still bound to a game instead of, you know, born out of the blue i guess.

I barely did render this year... I mean, not just this year of course. I think I slightly got the hang of it these two months? At least I kinda have a pipeline that I can follow and could tolerate / fix some of my mistakes in the later stages (e.g., picking wrong colors for flat color and wanna fix it during rendering etc.). It's... kinda like OOP? Decoupling code? I think it just comes down to opening a million layers and not feeling bad about it. Anyway I think one of my improvements comes from here.

Another improvement would be the speed of doing sketches and the complexity of the lineart I can handle (idk how to say that). I need to draw comics and there would be a lot of people in there, so even if I don't practice specifically I still need to draw some human figures. The complexity part is due to me getting into warframe just because of how fucking complicated they all are. Maybe instead of lineart complexity I should say I'm comfortable drawing somewhat complex characters now without my brain overloading and immediately giving up. Still haven't drawn BT though.

That's probably all the obvious improvements I can think of. I didn't read as many books as last year, but the two main books I read last year are for perspective and anatomy, which I do find very very useful. I still often go back to check some anatomy stuff this year, and with me spam drawing comics I think I can draw human figures better than before... if I only consider proportion that is. I think I have to redo anatomy all over again especially for the muscle part. Also probably should do more real human reference practice... Well, you can probably guess why I said that at the start.

I do think the reason why I do so little rendering is because I mostly do comics. Most of my ideas have a plot and my idea list is waaaaay too long to actually color the comics. And as I feel more comfortable drawing comics I fear more when I wanna do rendering because of the skill gap I have between the two subjects. Also most of you come for silly comics so why do I do full rendered pieces anyways... Yeah, after typing that sentence I do feel wrong thinking like that. But oh well, I guess I can't escape the curse of liking to see numbers go up.

Speaking of numbers, here's some of them. Good thing I don't have to deal with Tumblr API myself.

That's... quite a lot of followers, for me. I mean I don't stay in only one fandom so I have no idea why most of you followed me. Also sorry to ultrakill fans I just don't draw a lot for that game but I see some of you liking a ton of ultrakill post and immediately follows me. Kinda felt that I baited you folks for following me tbh...

Also 3 of my top 5 posts (2234 > 1726 > 1641 > 1531 > 1321) are ultrakill and I only have 27 ultrakill art posts (a lot fewer than other games) so... um, maaaaybe you should consider unfollowing me to clean up your timeline...?

Aaand here are the note stats per month because I've already typed this much so why not just include literally everything in one post

The only thing I can analyze is that the note and post number started to lose correlation due to how much ramble shitpost I have these months.

Okay that's it. I intended to make another art summary for the lineart / unrendered art pieces, but there's just too many to choose from and I don't think you can infer more from these given that the rendered pieces already has lineart in them. Mostly.

[dreamtalebiggestfan]

why am I so obsessed with dreamtale after so many years... like 7-8 years I don't understand someone please help

I love Swad sm look at him and his big wings (he's one of the main reason why I love birds so much)

I have tried distracting myself from Dreamtale by finding new interests. (I did that cuz the fandom's getting smaller and smaller and there are less dreamtale contents)

I wish I could erase my memories, rediscover Dreamtale lore all over again.

My obsession with Dreamtale is totally not unhealthy at all ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Also where can I find Swad's full body design? I wanna draw himmm

also take this random ass picture

sWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD SWAD

***OVERSHARING WARNING***

(and cringe too lol)

I love Dream and Nightmare

I love Swad and Swan

I love shattered and passive nm,

I love reset dreamtale

I love media dream

I love OSD dream (so much so much)

I love GSD

My memory is absolute shit. worse than ink's for sure.

I love dreamswap

AGHAGHAGHAGHAGH

Aghaghaghagh I'm so sane rn trust

The fuck am I ranting abt

Fuck.

I'm mentally stable

Yay.

ok thanks for reading bye

Not really, I had a lot more to share but I already forgot about 60% of it, I just can't remember shit properly

dream is a very complex character I love him.

Idk stuff about nightmare as much as I know abt dream. can someone share nightmare's details personality and why he acts that way?

Also I'm a vocaloid fan, I mostly listen to teto and flower's

I like uh, dream, not in that kind of way though, more like, uh, a proud parent?? Idk I was gonna say it but then I forgot, mb. Ohhh right its more of an admirable way. Dream is the character I want to be. I love him so much, maybe if I were him I'd love myself a little more. Not really I just want to feel something new. Dream is the best, he has flaws, everything, better than me in every way imaginable. Big thanks to joku for making Dreamtale, this is the only solid reason I have to live for lol.

Being Dream isn't going to be easy though, I don't know why I want to be him, it's not like things will get better, it's just that I'll experience something new. Those fucking scenarios in my head at night are only the things that keep me motivated. Get home. Get in bed. Scenarios. Sleep. Repeat.

Dream is my comfort character. He is nothing like me, I am nothing like him, I don't know why, don't humans love themselves the most? Don't they love people who are similar to them? Dream is the opposite of me yet I love him, sometimes I wanna know what it feels like for everybody to look up at you, admire you. Even if it's just all fake from his aura he can't control, I dunno, Swad is a really cool concept too. I'd be dead without Undertale and the AUs lol, Dreamtale is my safe space(?) I don't know but just me seeing stuff that are Dreamtale related makes me jump mentally, almost physically. I just love the lore, the characters, the personalities.

Dream, is the best comfort character I've had. At first it was my imaginary friend, then Dream, then nikolai(bsd), then dream. Fuck you mean dream dream dream dream dream??

If I really were Dream though I'd probably given up a long time ago. I'll never make a story as good as him. That's what I like about Dream, he's beyond my expectations, who I wanna be, not some weird depressed person. Anyways I just like Dream a lot, he's the best.

He's the best, the absolute best. If I had to pick, Dreamtale disappears or I die, I'd rather die. Dream is my lil precious boi :3

[creating-by-starlight]

Hi, I'm Starlight, and welcome to my blog!

I'm a university student majoring in mathematics who comes here for fun in her off time. I am also a pro-life conservative-leaning Christian who stands by most of the Church's traditional sexual ethics, and that informs pretty much everything I do here. I try to refrain from politic posting, but the most liberal I get is my egalitarianism and feminism (the one place where people would probably not consider me traditional), and those stem from my faith as well.

I'm a low-church Protestant, but Catholics and the rare Eastern Orthodox are very much my siblings in Christ and are absolutely welcome here. If I ever feed into the Protestant/Catholic feuds smack me. Jews are also welcome here- anti-Semitism results in an instant block from me. Others are totally welcome and free to browse too, but again, I have very specific opinions that most people on this site are not fond of, and while I'm open to goodwill discussion, I refuse to engage with harassment and will block freely.

My main fandoms online are Fringe and Trigun, with side dishes of Lockwood and Co., Star Wars, and Fullmetal Alchemist and Stargate and Legend of Zelda for dessert. You'll find that stuff tagged with #Fringe, #Trigun, #Lockwood and Co or #Lockwood & Co (keep forgetting which one I use), #Star Wars, #fmab, #sg1 and #sga, and #loz or #The Legend of Zelda (see lw&co). (I went through and got all my original work stuff linked, but I'm not going to fight with it for fandom stuff. The search function does mostly work on my blog I think.) I'm also a Sanderfan and am obsessed with K.M. Shea's work, but I don't really want to engage with the former online and the latter doesn't have a huge fandom on here. I'm occasionally bitten by the Zutara bug, which I have under #Starlight's Reblogging Zutara.

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On the subject of my writing, I have a small number of fics up on Ao3 (both are for Fringe) that you can get to under #Starlight Writes: Fanfic Edition. However, my main focus is my long-time original work in progress The Last Elementals, which you can find here under #Starlight's The Last Elementals and #Starlight Writes: Original Fiction Edition. Characters specifically end up under #Starlight's OCs. Please send me asks about them, I want to talk about them.

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[mochidoodle]

First, I want to say that I love love love arisa ❤️‍🔥 I rarely care about other people's OCs because they are basically strangers to me (lol) except for a few I think are good. And you are one of them. Arisa is so pretty and I definitely can see her with hibari together.

Second, I kinda want to ask your advice/opinion (?) but it's pretty weird, so sorry in advance 😭 How would you feel if khr were to suddenly announce a spin-off and in there hibari has a s/o? Very unlikely tho because tsuna himself still needs to sort out his love problem, but let's imagine it for the sake of my question.

I have an OC that I crafted well in my imagination (I can't draw nor write haha) to pair with a male character from another show which has ended. But because I ship them so hard, I start getting irrational fear that if the show had a spin-off focusing on the said male character, he would be given an official girlfriend by the author (since one of his characteristics is tightly related to romantic stuff). It's really weird, like why would I want to gatekeep a character from his own author 😭?

It's just that I've never been interested to create a canon x oc or canon x y/n with characters who are officially in relationship in the story. I know I don't make sense but I just can't fully be immersed in the romantic scenarios while knowing the canon characters are taken... Wait why did I make it sound like I'm cheating 👁👄👁

So uh, do you have any advice so I can enjoy my own OC's lores without minding about the canon material? I guess you might be able to help me since you have a well-made OC 🥹

Omg first off, thank you for enjoying Arisa! I've only posted a little bit about her but to receive so much love... I'm honestly shocked (in a good way) and so appreciative!! 💙💐

Honestly, I've thought about the same question you're asking, and I also have mixed feelings. I'm very passionate about adhering to the worldbuilding that the author has created, out of respect for the work and to keep my creative interpretations "realistic" to that world. But at the same time, I feel you -- what if the author creates something that derails my personal idea completely?

For that, I can think of a few different routes. (Putting it under a read-more because it got a bit lengthy lol) ⬇️👁️👄👁️

#1

I stay delulu 🤪 I think it's so important to be able to curate your own experience in every environment. In fandom, if you don't like someone else's idea, simply wash it out of your brain and overwrite it with your own. In canon, if a character dies -- we pretend they didn't. I think the same can apply to OCs. If the character got married in canon... no they didn't. :) Your enjoyment comes first, even if no one else is on board. You're the captain of the ship!

#2

I overwrite ✏️ Sometimes I take what the author has already given me and I overlay my idea. Character got married? Sure! Now I take my character, paste it over whomever they're married, and voila. I often think about one of my childhood crushes, the rich snobby chara Tora from Maid-sama. He gets an arranged fiancee in the post-series chapter, but I just... pretended it's my OC from when I was 11. Same scenario, very little else changed, but I just put my vision on top of the author's.

#3

I fabricate reasons 🤔 Let's say the character did something that suggests romantic relations. In that case, I try to justify it while staying in-character for them. For example, TYL Hibari holds Chrome in an oddly intimate way while she is sick. I like to imagine a) he's mostly just obsessed with using her to get to Mukuro, and thus needs her alive as a tool, or b) idk, maybe Ari is fond of Chrome and would be sad to see her die. Whatever reason I can think of to redirect the meaning of a scene helps me feel less like I'm changing or twisting canon to fit my needs. I'm just working around it.

#4

I choose (fictional) violence 😈 In your most desperate hour, you have the power to simply get rid of them. Either they never existed, or they died in this timeline, and your ship is canon now. That being said, it's never nice to slander a character for the sake of your own preferred ship, or disrespect someone's past love (real or fictional), so option 4 is my least taken route. But it's still possible!

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Not sure if any of this helped, but I hope I was able to express how I enjoy fandom OCs! I used to feel really shy and guilty about my canon/OC ships because of reasons very related to what you mentioned, but we are all just here to have fun! It's like playing dolls...and kids playing dolls have the most freedom in the world. I aspire to be like them and enjoy my little made up people in my made up world because we all need reprieve from the real world (girl, the tariffs!!)

;v; Thanks for reading all the way!