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sophie-frm-mars · 2 days ago
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Mental health discourse on social media is so deeply broken and it's all that one post that says there's only either Smol Bean disorder or Evil Abuser Disorder.
Like people think that "getting better" means what? Feeling better? Sometimes getting better makes you feel better, sometimes it feels fucking awful. Coming to terms with having hurt people feels like total fucking shit, realizing how much of your life could have been spent on things other than being completely fucking insane sucks shit, realizing that some of the people who hurt you were going through some stuff that you can actually relate to sucks total fucking shit.
I'm particular though, it's the idea that people don't hurt people when they're unwell that I think is poisoning the discourse. It's a reaction to the classic crazy dangerous lunatic stereotype, people are swinging entirely the other way and insisting that everyone who has ever been mentally unwell has been in a state where they couldn't possibly hurt anyone and therefore if anyone hurts someone it's something entirely unrelated to mental illness, this is how we invent and permanently reinvent Smol Bean Disorder and Evil Abuser Disorder.
Yes, statistically in a situation where someone is experiencing a serious mental health episode the person most at risk is the unwell person, but that's a nuanced statement, it isn't the same as "nobody mentally ill ever hurts anyone". But the problem with pointing all this out is that so many (well-intentioned) people just see symptoms as like a license for your behaviour. Why did you miss the thing we were gonna do? I have depression. I feel like she never listens to me! She has ADHD. Why does she get so fucked up by me not texting for a few hours? She has BPD. and so on but like no some of the experience of being unwell is sometimes acting in ways you deeply regret and will have to live with and feel shitty about kinda forever.
The whole thing is nuts because people will describe someone who they currently view as evil in terms that just sound like a super unwell person "he was obsessed with..." "She was all blank like she wasn't even present" and at the same time attribute this to an essential and unchangeable evil about that person instead of some kind of madness. It's a perfect double bind the way that we stigmatise mental illness while attributing it to something else, we're really eating our cake and having it too. My favourite example of this is "pathological liar". This gets used all the time in situations where one side of a conflict just doesn't believe the person they're talking about, I've had it happen to me even, but if it were true isn't that a person who needs psychological intervention? Someone who feels the need to compulsively lie in a way that causes harm to themselves or others or both?
And all of this is fair, also, like when someone has been hurt they need a space to absolutely hate the guts of the person that hurt them, talk utter shit, say the most offensive stuff about them that they wouldn't stand by the next day, because for many people that's a part of the healing, is detesting that person. The trouble is that we have so many ways to facilitate carceral responses to harm because carcerality is so deeply baked into our society that we really view "less harm than literally having someone killed" as abolitionist, and we're all very good at kidding ourselves that doing harm to someone we hate is justified. I get it, I've done it. I've sought punitive justice towards people who've hurt me before. I thought I was in the right. The people around me were reinforcing that idea for me and in some cases even pushing me towards it. So I get it. But I think finding abolitionist alternatives in conflict is the largest, hardest bulk of the work in mad liberation, because whenever I've seen someone very unwell I know wind up completely alone, abandoned and precarious, it has always been through a series of interpersonal conflicts where people choose one by one to leave their life because it's too hard, which in turn makes the burden harder for the next person and the next until they are completely alone.
A response and structure focused in healing after harm happens isn't natural for us raised under patriarchal punitive logic. Because it isn't natural to us it's going to take a lot of work, and it's a multi layered problem. People want to act quickly and punitively. Several pressures converge to make people seek the most extreme punitive action possible. People who have hurt people are assumed to be liars and manipulators, so they can't be believed when they apologize and they can't be listened to or trusted like a normal person. It's never really going to be possible to devise a step by step template for this kind of thing because people and conflicts are so unique and trying to reconcile a shared reality requires some amount of feeling it out.
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Listen hear me out
Eddie and Volt (kinda established relationship?) with a fem!reader who went to medschool during her first few years of moving into the house. And now with a medical degree and while she's still trying to find a job in the medical field she spends her knowledge on educating the dateables and treating any injuries they may have (pretend for a second that's how it works). One main victim of this is Eddie because of his maintenance work. Hands always bruised and rough so reader often comes to treat it despite his protests. And ofc whenever Volt has accidents and injures himself she's right on the case.
(Farya def loves her)
hey!!!! love this request - was wondering when i’d get an eddie and volt one!! they’re two of the most popular characters in this game for sure (and i can def see why ;))
supplying aid to the power supply
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pairing: eddie and volt x female reader (referred to with she/her, no physical features described)
content warnings: injuries (description of bruises and cuts; fic is set after the injuries happen)
word count: 1.4 k
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‘She’s going to fuss over you, you know.’
Eddie groans and turns to face Volt. ‘She’s not going to be worried about shit unless you tell her. I’m fine. My hand’s already healing.’ Grunting, he raises his very much not healed right hand with difficulty, a large red bruise staining the skin near the wrist.
He manages to grab his glass on the third try and, ungracefully, downs it in one gulp. ‘See?’
At this, Volt arches an eyebrow. ‘Very convincing, Eddie. Should I go tell her that you’re feeling peachy, or do you want to let her see for herself?’
Right on cue, you duck into the Breaker Box, wearing your fantastic red shirt and your Dateviators perched on your nose. ‘Hey, guys - how’s it going?’
Volt waves at you. Eddie waves and winces. 
You stop in your tracks and your eyes narrow, spotting Eddie’s hand immediately. ‘Explain.’
Eddie sighs. ‘It’s really no big deal this time, live wire. I fell off the ladder repairing a cable.’
‘One of the rungs hit his hand. I believe it requires attention,’ Volt sings out.
Eddie glares at him, and the white-haired man smirks.
You frown. ‘Why didn’t you tell me about this earlier? I’m going to the fridge to get some ice from Freddy, I’ll be right back.’
And with that, you do an about-face and vanish back out of the electrical cupboard, just as quick as you came. Eddie sighs in frustration, placing his head in his good hand.
Volt hums. ‘Didn’t I tell you that would happen?’
‘Shut up.’
With a clatter, the cupboard door flies open again, and before either of them can register it you’re swooping towards Eddie with the first aid kit and a bag of ice in your hands. 
Eddie blinks. ‘That took shockingly little time.’
‘I’ve been fixing up objects all day with Farya,’ you reply, sitting down next to him and setting the first aid kit on the counter. ‘I figured getting help from a literal med kit couldn’t hurt.’
You turn, and business-like, begin inspecting Eddie’s hand. ‘So. What happened?’
‘Well, like I said, I was trying to fix one of the cables and solder it back together, when I fell and caught my hand in one of the ladder rungs-‘
‘And after that, Eddie couldn’t complete any of the other repairs,’ Volt interrupts him. ‘He wasn’t able to move his hand.’
‘Mm, makes sense. When you hit something that badly, you’re not able to move it for a while - it’s surprising that you’re able to at all right now. Sort of like when the power fizzles in the Breaker Box and everything stops working for a while - the power supply is gone.’ You begin gently prodding the bruise, feeling for a reaction. ‘Anywhere you’re most hurt?’ 
One spot in particular makes Eddie suck in the air between his teeth in a sharp hiss, and you wince sympathetically, ‘Ooh, yeah, that’s closer to the bone, which is why it also has more obvious swelling. You’ll definitely be feeling that one for longer, and it’ll fade slower, too - probably going to get stiff for a few days.’
‘Great,’ Eddie deadpans, and leans back as far as he’s able in the bar seat, tangling his good hand in his hair. ‘How long until I can get things going again?’
You take one of the clean dish rags from behind the bar and wrap the ice in it, pressing it to Eddie’s bruise. When you’re done applying it, you stand back. ‘Well, you don’t need any serious medical treatment - all you need is some ice packs here and there for the first day or two, and then keep it elevated and close to heat so that the blood circulates better. You should be able to get back to work soon if you follow those instructions. Got that?’
Eddie mock salutes with his good hand. ‘Aye-aye, captain.’ He points to the other things you’ve set out on the bar - bandages, antiseptic, and. cotton swabs. ‘What’re those for?’ 
You stare at him incredulously, gesturing to what he might deem as no big deal, but what you estimate are a dozen other little cuts and scrapes littering his forearms, some healed and some raw. ‘Eddie. You can’t be serious.’ 
Volt chuckles. ‘Our Eddie is certainly bad at taking care of himself, isn’t he, live wire?’
You round on him, poking a finger at his chest. ’Don’t laugh at him when you’re no better. When was the last time you actually closed the Breaker Box’s performance section for a day?’
He stares, taken aback. ‘Er-‘
‘Right. You don’t know because you don’t, Volt,’ you scold. ‘I swear, getting sick’ll be the death of you both. If you can even die.’
‘Honestly, it’s fine,’ Eddie deadpans.
And maybe it’s because you’ve tired yourself from helping people all day, but something in you seems to have had enough. 
‘No! No, it’s not fine!’ 
The sudden volume in your words stuns you all into silence, and both the dateables’ eyes go wide, staring at you. You flush, coughing lightly before continuing in a normal tone of voice.
‘Injuries are no small thing. You might take them lightly now, but what happens if they pile up? What if you have another incident where the power blows? Don’t you remember how close you guys came before?
‘And one day…’ Something in your face falls, and you look a million miles away, as if you’re contemplating an impossible reality for them. ‘One day you might get hurt, really hurt, and I might not be around to fix you anymore.’
They look at each other, having an invisible conversation, and Volt reaches out to you apologetically.
‘Live wire-‘
As soon as he says that, it’s as if a mask slips back on and you suddenly seem to loom over them - a towering figure crackling with electricity of your own.  ‘What you need - what you both need - is rest. And whether you choose to take rest or let it take you by force is up to you. Make sense?’
They nod slowly in unison, and you lean back, satisfied, turning back to the bar to clean Eddie’s scrapes. ‘Good.’
There’s a few moments where no one says anything, listening to the gentle sounds of you patting cotton on Eddie’s arms. 
It’s Volt who finally breaks the silence, peering closer at what you’re doing. ‘How do you know all this, anyway?’
You hum. ‘Well, this is basic knowledge in med school, and I’ve had to deal with plenty more tough patients than you. I wanted to work for Valdivian’s Health Division when I got out, but got stuck in customer service instead. At least I’m putting it to use again.’
‘Sounds tough,’ Eddie says as you press another cotton pad soaked in antiseptic into his arm, trying to pretend like it doesn’t affect him. ‘Taking care of so many people, and doing even more of it here.’
‘It really was. And is.’ Even still, a small smile appears on your face. ‘But maybe, if I’m lucky, I’ll be able to get back into it one day.’
With that, you give one generous dab to the bruise, and sit back. ‘These should heal soon enough, I think. Although you need to let that hand heal before you even think about picking up a screwdriver again.’
‘Thank you so much for curing him, darling,’ Volt says, adding teasingly, ‘Shouldn’t you kiss it to make it feel better?’
You roll your eyes, but relent, pressing a quick kiss to the bruise. ‘How’s that, Eddie - does it soothe?’ 
‘It sure does.’ Eddie gives you a grateful smile - one you know is not won easily. ‘Thanks.’
‘Excellent!’ You hop off the bar seat, grabbing your kit. ‘I’d better go - the Hanks have their wing suits on today and it never hurts to be on standby just in case. I’ll see you tonight for the live show.’
‘And we can’t wait for you to come back,’ Volt replies, giving you a kiss of his own to the back of your hand. ‘See you tonight.’
As you exit, he turns to Eddie, looking at the latter’s hand. Perhaps it’s a trick of the light, but already it looks as if it’s faded from an angry red to a sullen purple, softening with your touch.
‘The live wire certainly cares a lot for everyone, doesn’t she?’
‘Yeah. She’s a keeper.’
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a/n: apologies as i’m on mobile so this may not have formatted super well - will fix when i can! also this means they get double the tags whee
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letoilepourpre · 2 days ago
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I saw ya ask to 8ft about Den-Thorn.
As a local Thorn Appreciator. (Taps my badge that says, "Second person to post a fanfic about Thorn on AO3") I am intrugied....
dont even get me STARTED dude
long ass post btw
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it's true that every vessel can have something to do with each other, all of them can be connected to one central theme, but what draws me the most to them is the themes around betrayal and dehumanization, and how many parallels den and thorn have in their chapters. in both of them it takes effort for you to see a better side of them, it takes mutual trust and forgiveness because at some point that is all you will have
thorn is still skittish and petty, den is still present-minded and a bit sadistic at times. but they are both tired of being stuck on that mode, thorn literally tells you that straight up and den pleads for freedom when she realizes that's the only thing she can do. and trusting both of them is extremely fulfilling in their respective cases! thorn can finally put her walls down and den shows herself to be someone who not only helps in times of danger but also regretful for her actions and even loyal when given the reason to be. i dont think they'd get along headfirst, but once they do theyre inseparale, since they find someone else who was also offered a good ending after all the suffering and lost of sense of self
especially what comes to mind when talking abt them is thorn's like "how can we trust something as hollow as words?", bc den is all about action. after you firstly enter her lair you do not speak one single word for the entire route, and neither does she. thorn would rather trust someone who actively shows themself to be trustful than someone with nothing but promises. and den cant really do any, the promise is the act itself yknow
but also now going more into hc territory, i see them both as disabled, thorn having problems w coordination bc of her wounds and den, well, being mute (unless shifty is talking through her, but that hardly counts as her speaking), and i like to imagine that theyd help each other out :) den w more physical stuff while thorn helps with communication. oh dont even get me started on that too i have so much to talk abt regarding den's means for communication and how that could interfere w a lot of her interactions w the vessels and voices BUT THIS ISNT ABT THAT maybe another time
i also rlly like how if you keep up w the unhealthy cycle in both of them they will bring their previous tactics up in a heartbeat, thorn immediately going back to her defensiveness and absolute hatred for you and den losing herself while trying to sate her hunger. i wish more ppl talked abt those aspects of them theyre so interesting to talk abt, thorn just NOT letting you out in any way if you decide to betray her and den indulging herself in the fight almost like a mirror to hunted, how narrator is such a petty asshole in both of them when youre trying to do the right thing
also i wanted to avoid talking abt them being cats and all that but i do wanna mention how that motif is used to show completely different outcomes from their previous chapters, to get to thorn witch has to regret her actions and think more abt that fucked up relationship thats been doing nothing but tiring her up, thus letting her guard down and get less skittish (yknow, like a cat) while den happens when you dehumanize the princess in such a way that it gives her no alternative other than becoming that monster you saw her as, even taking her voice away from her, any visual resemblance of her humanity being completely gone, a huge contrast to thorn. and yet they both had the same trigger to their transformations: betrayal. you gave them no reason to trust you, or no reason to believe that you would listen to their wishes without a price. they would find solace in each other for their loyalty and care that will show itself to be boundless when you give them the chance to show it!
i think that should cover up my general liking for them ehehe... thanks for giving me the chance to ramble
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alaskan-wallflower · 17 hours ago
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i think the fandom needs to learn how to treat serious things sensitively rather than making it some uwu cutesy thing that “i can put my angsty little blorbo man into!”
i see this a lot with the stripper darry stuff specifically—not really a sensitive subject but i think people treat it more like “oh he’s just a silly wittle guy and it’s so goofy that he has to sell his body for food!” like do you see how fucked up that sounds? while yes, technically, it’s just a job and an unfortunate way people make money, it’s not really funny when you look at why he would have to do that. he’s a twenty year old kid who goes between roofing houses (which is already physically taxing) and supposedly, stripping and selling his body just so he can make sure he and his newly orphaned brothers have a warm place to stay and food in their stomachs. it’s really not some cutesy silly thing like people treat it to be, especially when you put it like that. it’s worse when people write borderline trauma porn with him, especially in a fandom that’s mostly made up of minors but that’s a rant for another day (and i guess you can argue tagging it as such but still). i’m pretty sure the stripper darry thing was a joke anyway but whatever.
another one i see this with is the vietnam sodapop headcanon. maybe im biased because i hate that headcanon and his birthday was never called in the draft and the only way he could’ve fought was if he enlisted himself, and i can’t see him dropping his job and his life to stop supporting his family just so he can go and fight, but so few people treat it with dignity. it was a damn war from christs sake. people romanticise it so much with “but there’s so much angst potential!” like veterans both during the war and after it were notoriously treated horribly. they weren’t really seen as heroes by many because america had lost the war. i hate making such a comparison but there were even songs made about it like listen to the born in the usa album by bruce springsteen, there’s plenty about it. it just feels so gross to see people woobifying literal war in order to make extreme angst. dying in war isn’t funny or cute. being in war isn’t funny or cute. it gets to a point where yall are just being insensitive assholes about actual war vets.
same thing with abuse, like it’s borderline cringy in fanfics to read stuff about the gang being all “baby…talk to me…” or whatever. first off they’re teenage boys, and i don’t think most teenage boys really know what to say/do in emotional situations and secondly, it’s just a fact of life that johnny and steve get treated like shit at home. the gang wouldn’t really do anything about it aside from patch them up and offer food/shelter and in two’s case, tell at johnny’s abuser, but they’re not gonna force them to talk about it. johnny and steve are probably very uncomfortable talking about their abuse and such which is understandable, but the gang isn’t gonna try and force it out of them. maybe they would if it was really really bad but other than that i doubt they really want to push either of them on it. it’s just a fact of life.
the last thing is things like mental health and addiction. i don’t think people realize how tough addiction is, and babying pony’s addiction to painkillers is genuinely horrific. like addiction is extremely serious and not to get personal but it runs in my family, and i’ve seen how people with addictions act sometimes. it’s not cute and it’s certainly not funny. same thing with two bits dependence with alcohol. it’s extremely sad, and it’s more sad when you realize these things weren’t readily dealt with back then. mental health too, like fandom in general tends to make serious things like suicidal ideation and self harm out to be cute little hurt/comfirt, angst time things. i get people use it to vent—i’ve done the same thing. but can we treat it sensitively rather than just be like “oh it’s another silly scenario!”. it’s not funny and i’d never wish it upon my worst enemy.
i’ll admit that i’ve had my screw ups and have treated sensitive things insensitively in the past in favor of angst. i have no problem admitting that, but i’ve stopped doing that. it gets to a point where people water down serious things because “he’s just a silly little guy who i want to torture 🥺” like sure, hardcore angst may not be my cup of tea, but if you like it then whatever. but please don’t treat real things like abuse and mental health and sexual harassment/abuse and selling one’s body and literal war like “cutesy things that are so silly and goofy!” they’re not. i’m not saying you can’t have fun or shouldn’t write about these things, but you should treat it sensitively. stop woobifying serious things in favor of angst.
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sadesluvr · 3 days ago
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anytime, anywhere — mr terrific
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a/n: didn’t know what to name this, but it’s just a quick sick fic (kinda!) with michael! this won’t be the last terriFIC. gender neutral reader. all fluff, no smut
Sunlight streamed in through your curtains, but you were feeling anything but chipper.  
You’d woken up to a stuffy, pounding head that had forced its way into your nostrils, clammy skin, and joints that ached if you dared try to move. You certainly weren’t a doctor, but you knew for a fact that it was the flu. Brilliant.   
There were mostly never a good time to be sick, but today was particularly bad. Your roommate was still out of town, and you were supposed to have a delivery today – one that annoyingly required face to face contact. With walking a couple of steps to switch on a fan proving a challenge, there was no choice but to try a desperate emergency contact. 
Sprawling across the bed to retrieve your phone from the nightstand, you blinked away your blurry eyes to make an oh-so important call. Ringing approximately three times, you squeezed your eyes shut once you heard the man pick up. 
“Speaking?” 
“…Michael?” 
“Yes…” his cool voice droned off. 
“Oh good…” you sighed in relief. “Listen, I know things are a bit weird between us but I really need someone to help me…Jay’s out of town and our new fridge is being delivered today but I’ve got the flu and I can’t get out of bed and I need someone to buzz them up because I’ll literally die if I try to —“ 
“You’re not dying.” The man cut you off, giving you a chance to take a much needed breath.  
“But I could pass out.” 
“You can’t reschedule the delivery?” 
“Please don’t make me go back and forth with you.” 
There was another silence, and you could’ve sworn that you heard Michael shaking his head. “Alright,” he murmured before hanging up the phone, leaving you to flop onto your back in relief.  
Michael wasn’t just any old friend. 
Michael Holt was a genius by day, and a genius superhero by night. Michael Holt (fka Mr Terrific) was also your genius superhero ex-boyfriend. Ex, solely because you decided you were far too pedantic about dating a superhero to have any kind of meaningful relationship – and he because he was still adjusting to balancing it all. In short, it was a classic case off too much, too soon. 
Groaning and clutching your head, you weren’t sure if your turmoil was due to the pathogens ravaging your body, or the fact that part of you was excited to see him.  
You dozed off, and soon enough you were awoken to the sound of the latch being undone, along with the pacing of boots alone the creaky floors. Still drowsy, you turned on your phone, trying to gather the time.  
With bated breath, a gloved finger wrapped around the edge of the door before Terrific poked his head in. He wore a stern expression as usual, and you watched as his eyes scanned the room as if there were some unknown threat. 
“Michael? You saved me…” you slurred, a dopey grin on your face as you did. 
“Mm-hm…” he briefly acknowledged before doing a double take. “What the hell is this?” 
You glanced over at your nightstand. 
“It’s a little remedy…” 
“Liquid Tylenol and Fanta over ice? What, are we into mixology now?” He chided. “That won’t help you. The sugar will only make you feel worse after you crash.” 
“Hey, I just asked you here to help bring my fridge in, not for a high school science class.” 
Terrific rolled his eyes. He leaned over to take the cup away from you, but as he did you were reminded of how pretty his brown eyes were, even when he was ‘mad’ at you. 
“Water will do you for now. Turn off that damn screen and get some rest.” 
You weren’t even using your phone. You’d just wanted to check the time. 
Pursing your lips, you slid the device into the top drawer of your dresser, giving him a pointed look as you did. You were adjusting yourself amongst the covers when you stopped to look up at him, cocking your head as you did. 
“I just realised I didn’t let you in…” 
Michael raised a brow, replying in his signature cool tone. 
“I got a key. Don’t worry about it.” 
You couldn’t pinpoint how long you’d slept, but you’d woken up to a new fridge, tucked in the corner of your kitchen. The sun was not yet setting, but from the open window there was a quiet buzz to the city around you which told you that it was sometime in the afternoon. 
Clutching a blanket around your body, you trudged the short distance into the kitchen, eyes adjusting to the light as you made out Terrific shuffling through the contents. His black, red and white jacket was draped over a chair, leaving his arms exposed. Somehow, he looked even more toned than he did when you were dating. 
“You should check this out more often,” he said, sending your arrival. “There’s a week old broccoli rotting in the back.” 
You glanced at the kitchen table. There was indeed a few unsavoury looking items. 
“Ugh, that’s Jay,” you sighed. “They’re always trying to ‘meal prep’- they never listen when I tell them to buy things they actually like. You’d think saving money would be enough a reason.” 
Though it was brief, Michael smirked. 
“You never used to be that disciplined.” 
“Yeah, well that’s what I get for dating you-“ you said with a snort before cutting yourself off. It’d been nine months; yet the wounds felt relatively fresh. Silently, you glanced at the floor before nodding at the new appliance. 
“Thank you…you didn’t have to sort it out, really-“ 
“Food would’ve spoiled,” he said casually. “Who knows how long you could’ve been out for?” 
“Let me help,” you perked up. “I can actually stand upright, so that’s a good sign…” 
“I’m done,” he announced, closing the doors. Lazily, he slung his jacket around his shoulders, and for the first time in forever you seemed to make genuine, palpable eye contact. “You need to eat.” 
“I’ll find something –“ 
“There’s tinned soup in the cupboard.” 
“Are you going to let me use the microwave or am I going to have to be spoon-feed too?” 
“You’re funny,” he replied, sass evident in his tone as he began to walk past you, back towards the front door. “But yeah, I’ll give you that.” 
You made a face, and the man chuckled, crinkles forming at the edge of his mouth as he did. 
“Off to do some superhero shit?”  
“Something like that.” 
You nodded and pursed your lips, briefly glancing to the floor before looking back up at him. Terrific was standing there, as cool as ever, staring back at you, to the point that you felt compelled to fill the silence. Like he was expecting you to say something important. 
Thank you, was all you could muster, and he replied with a small nod of his head a something you’d learnt was his way off accepting gratitude. 
“Don’t worry about it baby,” he said smoothly, fingers fiddling with the latch. “I’ll be back tomorrow.” 
Playfully, you bit your lip. 
“How do you know Jay won’t be back by then?” 
There was a twinkle in his eye as he spoke, and if it wasn’t apparent already; it was painfully obvious to the both of you that you were very much still smitten with each other. 
“It don’t take a genius to know how to read a calendar.” 
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thejellyfishlounge · 4 months ago
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just before our love got lost you said / “I am constant as a northern star” / and I said “constantly in the darkness? Where is that?
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turtleblogatlast · 1 year ago
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“Haven’t You Noticed (I’m a Star)” from Steven Universe works so ridiculously well for Leo
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#rottmnt leo#rise leo#listen it’s morning now and I haven’t slept so bear with me for the sudden unwarranted lyric analysis haha#a lotttt of the lyrics work so well for him#not even just the overall theme the words just work great#first lyric is literally ‘I can’t help it if I make a scene’ which is one to one with ‘Leo’s makin a scene’ from the rottmnt opening like-#‘I’m turning heads and I’m stopping traffic’ -> Leo has not made it a secret that he values his looks a LOT#-not just his looks but also his ability to get people’s attention#‘when I pose they scream when I joke they laugh’ -> I feel like this speaks for itself#-posing and joking for the crowd and himself#‘I’ve got them dazzled like a stage magician’ -> works both with Leo’s canonical love of magicians and his aptitude with tricks in general#‘well everybody needs a friend and I’ve got you and you and you’ -> I just think it’d be cute to imagine his friends here just as his bros#‘I got you and you and you’ = ‘my brainy guy my smashing guy and eats peanut butter with his fingers guy’#‘haven’t you noticed that I’m a star?’ -> Leo loves attention and especially loves when his feats and efforts are acknowledged#+ he loves glam rock and sci-fi and being a champ and - listen he has a LOT of star symbolism with him#‘haven’t you noticed I made it this far’ - Leo is well aware of how dangerous situations get and thinks himself only a part of a whole#-so hey it’s notable that he’s survived this long yeah?#‘now everyone can see me burning’ -> self-sacrificing with his family bearing witness + all his star and flame symbolism in general#+ how attention naturally goes to him - including bad attention where his mistakes are highlighted and burn bright#also even the limo lyric-#obviously this boy has never and will never own a limo but one of his main secondary colors IS pink so even that#okay that one is just a joke but he would#(on that note though I think the other colors the boys gravitate to outside THEIR color are fun to notice)#I don’t actually know too much about Steven universe beyond the songs and some eps but I like the music#and this just came to my tired mind so here you go anyone who’s interested#may draw something with these lyrics dunno yet#it’s a good song in any case even though it’s super short
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toddtakefive · 3 months ago
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despite the fact that spider-neil is heavily based off of the amazing spider-man (2012) peter parker, neil is infinitely more similar to miles morales from the spider-verse movies
#dps#dead poets society#neil perry#spider-neil#mostly because of miles and jeffs relationship compared to neil and thomas’ but also personality wise hashtag in my opinion#although miles and jeffs relationship is infinitely more understanding and obviously holds mutual respect where neil and thomas’… doesn’t#both artists (albeit in different fields) who are being pushed into something ‘greater’ or ‘better’ for their own long-term benfit/success#dorky in an endearing and charming way#very personable and well liked by those around him (visions exempt in miles’ case but he IS the new kid after all)#both sneaking out to do what they Actually love/enjoy (graffiti and acting)#and are both conscious of the fact that their fathers will kill them if they find out they did#both have a mentor mentee relationship (even if its a bit more fatherly and nurturing/less dysfunctional in neil and keatings case)#to be anderperry pilled here for a second: both have an embarrassing crush on a blond(e) with blue eyes#blond(e)s who are closed off and avoidant and have a hard time opening up no less#even if gwen is SO much blonder than todd oh my god he barely even counts lowkey 😭#also DIALOGUE PARALLELS. OH MY GOD SO MANY DIALOGUE PARALLELS.#‘just listen to me!’ / ‘okay champ! you got it! go for it! say whatever you wanna say! what do you got to tell me so bad!’#‘i’ve got to tell you what i feel!’ / ‘what! what! tell me what you feel! what is it?’#‘we all make choices in life miles.’ / ‘well it doesn’t feel like i have a choice!’ / ‘you don’t!’#‘don’t you ever dispute me like in public again.’ / ‘father i wasn’t disputing you-’ / +#+ ‘once you’ve finished medical school and you’renon your own then you can do as you damn well please but until then you do as i tell you.’#‘mom… have you and dad ever thought of moving out of brooklyn?’ / ‘our family doesn’t run from things miles.’#‘isn’t there an easier way?’ / ‘no.’#‘when will i know i’m ready?’ / ‘you won’t. it’s a leap of faith. that all it is miles. a leap of faith.’#‘for the first time in my whole life i know what i wanna do. and for the first time i’m gonna do it! +#+ whether my father wants me to or not! carpe diem!!!!’#miles confidence and belief in himself allowing him to properly use his powers in the first movie happening when +#+ jeff tells him how much HE believes in him and how he knows miles will be great no matter what he does#and the fact that neil could have gone SO FAR if he just had the proper parental support……#i’m literally INSANE about their tether guys ITS SO STRONG
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doctorweebmd · 6 months ago
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ok my OTHER reflection:
on the one hand its really frustrating to see the posts about docs and healthcare in general on here be so narrow-minded. bad experiences with certain providers have lead to a huge spread of misinformation and mistrust with the whole system. which can and HAS lead to people avoiding 'evil' doctors for perfectly treatable illnesses and dying from them (the vaccine bullshit, anyone?)
but on the other hand. it is TERRIFYING how some of these docs practice medicine. at times i think 'are you just burned out and don't give a shit or are you straight up just stupid?' and i work in critical care. where quite literally every case is life or death. even in the academic sector where there is supposedly a standard of excellence, some doctors i would not let touch my loved ones with a ten foot pole.
and that sucks. i know this is the no nuance piss on the poor webbed site but 'the medical system and people that work for it are fallible and aspects of it are morally questionable at best/unethical at worst' AND 'the field of medicine exists to help people first and foremost and mistrusting/avoiding it can be detrimental in the long run' can and DO co-exist
#also. folks i hate to tell you but 'doctors get big pharma kickbacks and they can cure you but just choose not to to get more money'#is a very tempting conspiracy theory. but it is SO UNTRUE.#hey listen. if someone is telling you they can 'cure' your disease magically if you just take x vitamin THEY ARE LYING#even miraculous cures like bone marrow transplants for autoimmune disease and CAR-T therapy#have such severe side-effects that they quite literally kill you#i can't tell you how many times i've taken care of people who#had their cancer 'cured' but the treatment ruined their kidneys/heart/lungs#or fucked their immune system so bad that a common bacteria could completely take them out#anyone selling you miracles is L Y I N G#i understand that a lot of this anger is around disability and chronic illness and psych and i get that. intimately.#its 100% accurate to say that a patient who researched independently about ehlers-danlos or POTS knows more about it than i do.#and its hard to see the profession as 'people who sincerely ARE trying to help' when you actively work with people who fucking suck#and you think like 'you went to school. you went through all this training. you (presumably) passed boards'#we should have at least around the same level of knowledge#but that is often not the case#still#making large scale statements about an entire profession (especially when its supposed to be a civic service) is just... not good#my two cents rec for this is:#if you think you have something rare or unusual try to find a doc that specialized in this i.e. go to an academic center.#trainees are less set in their ways and can think outside the box PLUS if there are new/innovative treatments they would have them#if you need pretty much ANY surgery. private is the way to go#you want surgeons with high volume and experience#surgical techniques do not change on the dime. most havent changed in 50+ years. a lot of other medicine DOES#(this of course does not apply to specialized surgeries like whipple or PTE or schwannoma resection - go to academics for that)#if its REALLY rare whether medical or surgical your GP will not know what to do with you#academic centers are referral centers. they are more likely to have the right tools to diagnose/treat#where was i going with this?#oh yeah i had an odd interaction with an ED doc admitting to me last night that was NOT practicing within current standard of care#and was just so casual and assured i started to doubt MYself. like. am I the crazy one?!?!#like i'm young i dont know everything SURE
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unproduciblesmackdown · 7 months ago
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come get your levitous sidekick / vicious bastard / funny little guys
#don't tell the sheriff. that a couple of outlaws are having uh a halfhearted tussle or really cozy talk if you like#there's like a dozen of us here & i'm standing in another room saying this but a rando crops up like how & why have you just been around??#let's kick off '25 with Not That....meanwhile so totally unrelatedly i'm looking for a sexy singer & you're doing finger stuff; buddy#putting the g in g spot by way of: stands for gator. clench & death roll....but no. he's a crocodile. lotta options for c spots#corned beef#bsol#coconana#messed up like bloodsong is so Fun Sketches to me but even those take me eons. why couldn't i have done twice these in one sitting plus#a winston quant billions going :] plus i dunno whatever else floated my boat. unfortunately b/c then it wouldn't be me doing my things....#only 2/5 of these from canon but as gone on about idk where the Fake Blood was involved in turkey leg. just that it was. so#also didn't think about [sidebar with myself you forgot like angel & backlighting type imagery for Introducing Santa Violetta] like ah#so i did. well whaddaya gonna do...find & reblog the post that's like speaking of likeaprayer striking me like head first prayer second#smthing along the lines of ''muffled by dick in my mouth: lmao faggot'' there's some plausible coconana antics lol. steps; intervals....#can't have it be like ''be tender w/me bro im begging / bro im trying to find your g spot'' wouldn't beg for tenderness (cocodrilo)#or call anyone bro or much similar (either of them) like maybe i've waive the latter to try applying that to the musician/banana but yknow#in the meantime. funny little guys i cannot overemphasize this. bloodsong of love i also cannot overemphasize this#bilesong of hate....don't get me wrong Not a case where i only enjoy certain elements plucked out of canon / not as a whole#did i ever listen to that show straight through w/Ease....but if it Had been nothing but a vessel for lo cocodrilo times. god Damn#lo cocodrilo#bsol banana#also didn't think about how lo cocodrilo doesn't let go of the kazoo even to play it. mostly inadvertent Choice for top pic there#an issue that quickly arises w/like a prayer specifically: these characters don't have names. what's that mean peak literal lens?#i.e. seeing bsol itself as the less than totally literal method of storytelling that it is....idk & it wouldn't super matter#but i sure do think it'd be fun if they're treated as / perhaps actually [no name] on any possible layer of interpretation#[rando who firstnamed themself but besides that it's like eh & Where My Outlaws the less known the okayer]
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mars-ipan · 2 months ago
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there’s a lot of reasons to dislike internet discourse but i think my main reason is that it is genuinely completely ineffective like 99% of the time
#marzi speaks#marzirants#like. ok all communication has a goal#if your goal is vent your frustrations! then yes that post you made is fine#but it’s kinda rude to put others down to make yourself feel better + arguing as a coping strategy feels maladaptive#so you gotta watch out#but! for most discourse posters it seems that changing minds is the goal#a goal which people online seem to have no clue how to achieve#because they aren’t speaking in a way that communicates ‘this is my perspective and i’m really hoping you can understand how i see things’#it instead communicates ‘if you don’t think or feel the way i do about this then you are stupid and need to change or die. or both’#and like! you can feel angry! but immediately putting people on the defensive is actively detrimental if you want them to listen to you#people who feel attacked Will Not Change Their Minds for you#if you want to change someone’s mind. you have to; get this: respect them.#people are MUCH more receptive when you treat a disagreement as an opportunity for both parties to learn more#rather than a shouting contest to see who can hurl the most accusations at their opponent#when you argue properly and politely with mutual respect it’s actually kinda enjoyable to disagree with people! in my opinion anyways#and i know this because i’m able to have proper disagreements and discussions with people irl#i do it best with my parents just bc they’re easier for me to read#but it happens with friends too. literally all you have to do is be respectful#and then both parties walk away with insight into a perspective they hadn’t seen before#like believe it or not. having your perspective challenged is really healthy#it helps to either build defenses for your beliefs or change them if you feel they aren’t as defensible#but bulldozing over other people’s ideas is literally just bullying#and you may be ‘right!’ i may agree wholeheartedly with your point!#but if you post like anyone who doesn’t share your exact view is an enemy and nothing more#i am not going to engage with your post. no matter what guilt trips you put on it#bc that literally gets nothing done!#and in the case of social justice it pushes away people who don’t know much but want to learn. it’s so counterproductive#if you want to win the game of persuasion you have to. actually play it#save your anger for the government. be kind to individuals. please for the love of fuck
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livingdeaddoctor · 5 months ago
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would that knowing the thoughts were irrational would Make Them Go Away!!!!
#medic's log#because i value some degree of privacy tumblr will not receive the full context#but i had a friend cancel plans i was really looking forward to#for reasons that are extremely very fair and honestly it's for the best that she Did#since i think going through with them would have put undue stress on her mental health. if not also Mine#but goddamn if it's not making me feel like absolute garbage#there's only so many ways (one. maybe two) that she can say 'i promise it's not personal' before i become the problem. el em ay oh.#and like. i Know this is me. i know this is the horrific confluence of too little sleep#and forgot to take my meds for two days#and the flavor of mental illness that makes any kind of rejection a Stab To The Heart#and the inability to handle plans changing#but also. that does not stop The Catastrophizing#the ability to reschedule these particular plans is. potentially nonexistent and i'm in my feelings about it#i know this literally isn't the case but by god does it feel like i'm being passed up as a second choice for someone more preferable#both friends involved in this have told me Multiple Times they value me in their lives and yet the little voice goes#'ohohoho you fool they are just saying that to be Polite'#never mind that both of them are so well known (in general and by me specifically) for laying down very specific boundaries without shame#so if they didn't want me around they'd fucking tell me#but also i super do not know how to broach with both of them 'hi this is a thing i'd like to do at some point' without sounding#so fucking Needy.#idk. shit sucks.#shit could suck infinitely worse but that doesn't stop the rock in my house Being There Loudly#i think i need to sleep and then SING LOUDSTYLE in the car for a bit#and then text both of them and reestablish a line of communication outside of The Plans#to make my brain go 'hey fuckwad i promise these two people actually like you'#at this point i'm basically normal but i'm trying to parse all the feelings so they don't hit a boiling point. Later.#it's whatever. i'm drinking a ginger beer and scrolling. shit could be worser#godspeed tumblr thank you for listening to my woes.#also probably a good sign that i haven't made one of these types of posts on this blog in. awhile#less good sign that i'm making one now but. you know lmao
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agendratum · 10 months ago
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vay being written by changbin actually explains so much to me idk why i didn't think he wrote it
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perilegs · 1 year ago
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it's funny that now that i don't really have much about my body to be dysphoric about my brain makes up psychological dysphoria and it's so dumb
#''oohh only people who are attracted to men but are slightly scared of what they deem real men (not you) will be attracted to you''#''or those people AND chasers AND ppl who just see you as a curiosity to test out''#like how do i even unpack the bs my brain is throwing at me#yeah maybe some part of me believes that but the logical part of me knows it's not true#i think what's causing this is that i'm still kinda new at being stealth while passing#like yeah ive been going as leevi for the entire duration of uni and living as a man but passing regularly started happening to me after#i started t#now i only get misgendered the same amount as cis men with shoulder length hair#so like. it's happened once after starting t lmao#i think what's causing this (the psychological warfare from my brain) is the combination of stress#and me actually becoming friends with a co worker i'm not out to#listen ive been trying to hint at being trans but he was born a guy and lives as a guy so hes not very tuned out on this stuff#though his partner is nb and ive met them and they think i'm cis too which i think is hilarious bc i feel like#i'm v easy to clock for trans ppl#though idk im fagging it up quite a bit so it makes me pass extra well so#anyways#im a bit conflicted about the situation#im not going to outright tell him i think but i'm not going to hide it if it comes up#which i know i dont have to do but i want to#we'll probably go swimming together this summer so if that doesnt make him realize it hes a lost case and i dont#need to worry about it lmaoo#also i bought shorts that arent sport shorts and they looked normal on me so im literally unstoppable#but yea thank u for listening to me i just needed to ramble#leevi talks
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orcelito · 1 year ago
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i miss akechi goro so much. maybe even enough to finally finish that ladue chapter 3
#speculation nation#ladue shit#listen hes such an asshole and i NEEEEEEED to channel his voice for a bit again#if this urge persists to tomorrow i'll crack open the fic again. for a little reread.#this will satisfy only approximately 53 people (the total subscribers to that fic)#which ok that's actually a good few people when i think about them as actual people#but it's the least amount of subscriptions i have out of most of my multichapters#EVEN STILL. it's a matter of pride and self-satisfaction.#and god fucking damn i have 18k for chapter 3 already written. i literally just need to close the damn scene up#it's been over a YEAR NOWWWWWWWWWW like holy fucking shit. i need this OUT ALREADYYYYYYYYYYY#ladue chapter 3 i will free you into the abyss. i cannot promise more than chapter 3 but i can promise a chapter 3 at least.#i had a whole plan for the fic but idk if i'll ever be able to write it#considering it's taken like. ... years. between chapters.#it took me 2 years to post chapter 2 and it's been a year now since then. ugh.#see the thing is chapter 3 closes the initial arc of them starting to date. and then there's more stuff.#maybe i'll keep it open just in case the urge strikes me to continue it eventually.#and if it never does. i might make a 4th chapter that outlines the eventual plans i had for the fic. so that people know at least.#ive seen that a Few times for discontinued fics.#....but the thing is i dont want to mark any of my fics discontinued!!!! theyre all my darlings!!! i want to go back to them all eventually#i'll just have to see. if a chapter 4 ends up taking several more years. well. maybe it'll be time to call it there. who fucking knows lol#i'll try to get chapter 3 finished sometime soon though. i really want to have it out already.
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zaddyazula · 2 years ago
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something i think some people don’t understand is that everyone has different things that happen to them in their life!!! just because something isn’t emotional to you doesn’t mean you should try and tell people who did find it emotional it’s not!!!! people have lived beyond who you know in person!!!!!
#i saw a barbie post and it reminded me of this#like this is so fucking simple and some people do not get it#i bawled my eyes out at the end of the barbie movie because it took me back when i was younger and i really connected with it#but my friends (who i went to see it with) didn’t cry at it or find it emotional and have since tried to convince me it wasn’t sad#you don’t know why i cried at it!! you don’t get it!#and when i try to tell them “you don’t get it because we’ve had different lives” they say there’s nothing to get because it’s not sad#they don’t get it because they haven’t had my particular experience - the same way i haven’t had theirs#i don’t know how difficult it is to not discredit someone’s emotions but it can’t be that hard#the barbie movie is really important and special to me as someone who struggles with identity#my friends don’t know this so i can’t blame them for that but the point still stands#the age old thing you are taught when you are literally a young child is that you don’t know what people are going through so be respectful#but they and other people don’t seem to understand that despite being well older than a young child#you have no idea why i find it sad. let me find it sad and move on with your life.#particularly two of them seem to try and cement this point that the film and the billie eilish song (which i literally cannot listen to)#aren’t sad#it really does irritate me because any possibility i get to say something’s sadness can be entirely subjective in some cases i am dismissed#these people are girls. they played with barbies. and still i can bet every one of us associates different things to when they played with#barbies. they do not get that.#i can’t really describe my relationship with the barbie movie properly and maybe it’s just me having a fit about it but it is so so persona#to me.#sorry for the rant.#barbie movie#barbie 2023#zad talks
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