#gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾

[mistykj]

***1 yr today! my sweet baby girl not a day ,minute or second that goes by I don't think about you. My Heart is broken without you by my side . I pray you are happy and frolicking with GingerDawn and playing with the other animals beyond the #rainbowbridge🌈 #gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾 #mycockadaspanielgirl🐾😢 @daiziedukejohnson https://www.instagram.com/p/CVqAC4wJVjS/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mistykj]

Missing my sweet @daiziedukejohnson had a rough few days and she isn't around to lay on my legs or lay next to me. I swear my heart will nvr heal. I am so heartbroken and frustrated that I won't be able to ever own another dog again. I look at all my pages of pups and I just ache so bad for her . It's going to be the yr mark on the 29th and I am glad in a way that I'm so sick I sleep and can dream of you You were my best friend and I feel like I failed you ... #gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾 #CockaDaSpanielGirl #Mybestfriend🐶💖🐕🌈 https://www.instagram.com/p/CVPzt9sFc09/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mistykj]

Why is this still so hard for me? Today is the 1yr mark since you passed away suddenly. my heart is still healing and I honestly don't think I ever will. I hope that you are running and playing and in no pain. I Love you my sweet #cockadaspanielgirl🐾 #rainbowbridge🌈 #gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾 https://www.instagram.com/p/CUchgtTr13J/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mistykj]

I have no idea how I get through each day without missing your sweet face. Will I ever be able to breathe without breaking down in tears when I think about you my sweet girl. It's been 7 months and I can't believe you are not here laying by my side helping me push through each pain day. You are my bestie, my emotional support animal always and forever. I love you my sweet @daiziedukejohnson #gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾 #Mybestfriend🐶💖🐕🌈 #Playinandwaitingformeonthatrainbowbridge🦴🐕🌈 #mycockadaspanielgirl🐾😢 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPB88TRJUhk/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mistykj]

My heart is sad I'm broken .💔 You were not there when I woke up when I walked into the bathroom to protect me. Lol! When I ate my food begging until you got your way, you didn't jump on the bed & rotate around 3xs before getting comfortable only to move 5 mins later. You weren't there when the pain started to get so bad that you would lay on my legs & cuddle with me just so we can fall asleep. You weren't there to lay on the back of the couch like a cat, you weren't there to cuddle on my lap, to beg for more, you weren't there to lay in all the warm laundry after it's been taken out. You weren't there to ring the bell to be let outside and bark at all the big dogs. You JUST werent there.! I am so utterly broken by your loss. I need my own companion to help me heal & move on with my life & depression (which scares me so bad that I'm seeing a therapist now.) Everyday is not the same. I need you here my @daiziedukejohnson when no one else is around me to comfort & love me. You loved me unconditionally & didn't judge or leave me alone no matter my moods.🎢 I am NOT OKAY. I am alone, I am hurt. I know you are happy & healthy now. I love you sweet baby girl. 💔RIP🐾🌈 see ya on the #RainbowBridge🐾🌈😭 #CockaDaSpanielGirl🐾 #MyBestFriend🐾🐾💓 #CockerSpaniel🐾 #gonetodamnearly💔🌈🐾 https://www.instagram.com/p/CLQqSbJpE6d/?igshid=1sd7bcdi9rb7j

[mistykj]

My sweet @daiziedukejohnson has been gone now for almost 2 months tommorow and I found this on my floor, it's her Favorite dog food. She was always a messy eater and threw at least a few pieces out to eat later. Now mind you we don't have any dog food anywhere. 😱🤔😏 It's her way of saying she's still around my heart wants to believe that..#MyAngelDaizieDaCockaSpanielGirl🐾🌈🐶 #GoneToDamnEarly💔🌈🐾 #CockerDaSpanielGirl #MyHeartIsNotWhole💔 #CockerSpaniel #SomeoneDropOffaNewCockerSpanielGirlOnMyDoor #LearningToHeal https://www.instagram.com/p/CJXkhSbJ0Fj/?igshid=jr1xl63al0m8

[mistykj]

My blessings! I am so glad we could all be together for the holidays and what a rare occasion to get a picture of them all together.. Missing my @daiziedukejohnson #GoneToDamnEarly💔🌈🐾 #MyCrazyFamdamaly # Blessed # FamiliesRForever #Home4TheHolidays #ProudArmyMom🇺🇸🤗 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJP0iw0Jbvl/?igshid=jwqnrwh1gmh5