#gonewaytodamnearly🐾😭🐕

[mistykj]

It's been a month now and, to say I'm still hurting from your loss is an understatement. I miss you so much. I feel my pain is heightened because you are not here to help me. I am beyond super depressed and don't care about doing anything. All I see is Cocker Spaniels on everything. It kills me. I am such a tenderhearted person the loss is overwhelming me. I really don't think anyone understands in my family how much I need a dog. For my mental health . I just want you back. This is beyond the hardest thing for me. *Praying for someone to just drop a cocker spaniel at my door.* Not to replace my beautiful girl @daiziedukejohnson but to heal. I'm just in so much emotional pain from your loss it's not the same without you here. #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 #CockerDaSpanielGirl #MyBestFriend🐾🌼🌈 #MyDaizieMaizie🐾🌈 #CockerSpaniel #TryingToHeal😭 https://www.instagram.com/p/CIaYRirpxRg/?igshid=o0mdgq73ghfi

[mistykj]

It's almost been a month without you here my sweet girl. I don't know how I'm gonna survive without you. My heart can't move forward. You were such a huge part of my life my companion animal, my best friend, helping me with pain management, sadness, depression and just being there for me . I can't even vacuum up your dogfood you threw out of your dish. Lol! I need my dog and I want you back . I am "NOT" okay! but, hopefully eventually I will be . I miss you so much. @daiziedukejohnson (RIP 10/30/20)💔🐾🌈 #Shewasmycockadaspanielgirl #MyShadow #MyBestFriend🐾🌼🌈 #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 #cockerspaniel https://www.instagram.com/p/CH_NfXFp1_E/?igshid=7azab1635ex0

[mistykj]

My sweet lil lady I miss you so much. I need you in my life. This sucks. I'm angry, bitter and crushed beyond words. You were always around for me and now I don't think I'll ever recover. I feel so alone more so than I have ever felt . I loved you and now you are gone . I am not okay. #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 #CockerDaSpanielGirl @daiziedukejohnson #CockerSpaniel #Crushed https://www.instagram.com/p/CHznuCPpLMq/?igshid=8tulevqin42k

[mistykj]

I keep waking up to find you gone it hurts more and more each time . I feel so alone and, so terribly sad. My heart wishes that I would wake up and find you sleeping like the weirdo you were. Lol! I miss you my Daizie girl so much. I feel like I will never recover from this pain and heartache. I am not okay. I hope that it gets easier though I doubt it will. #Shewasmycockadaspanielgirl #cockerspaniel #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 @daiziedukejohnson https://www.instagram.com/p/CHsN5rHpY-D/?igshid=5v4doaf8cl9c

[mistykj]

I miss you my sweet @daiziedukejohnson I didn't realize how alone I am in my room upstairs without you. I am loosing my mind because I swear I can feel you jump on the bed. This all sucks, my heart is shattered. Will I ever have a day where I'm not a blubbering bawling mess? Who knows as of now I will try to be okay and only cry 8 X's a day... Eventually it will happen. I hope #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 #CockerDaSpanielGirl 🌈💔🐾 # cockerspaniel #🌈💔🐾🐕 https://www.instagram.com/p/CHjlJXspWCx/?igshid=19gtsnovw9xb2

[mistykj]

I miss you my baby girl. I finally took your crate down and cleaned up all your stuff. I just couldn't get rid of your bed and, grooming supplies so I packed them away to deal with them at another time . It's not the same without you here. My instagram feed is full of cocker spaniels which makes me smile and burst into tears. Someone asked me if I would ever get another dog? my answer is only if it could be a #CockerSpaniel (I don't see that happening for me) my husband and kids want their dog but, honestly I think I just need my own dog. not that I wouldn't love a family dog. Who knows if I can ever get over the loss? My heart is slowly mending. I miss my girl #MyDaizieMaizie🐾🌈 #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 #CockerDaSpanielGirl https://www.instagram.com/p/CHfihR9JpeP/?igshid=s85btjb0rt0t

[mistykj]

I miss waking up to your sweet happy face. I am trying to be okay with this all but, it's hard. I loved you so damn much you left paw prints, fur and, dog food all over my heart and, not seeing you here it's shattering every part of my soul. I am not okay, but it will come eventually. I hope and pray you are in a much better place. My days seem clueless without you esp with the kids at school. Here's to kisses and nose rubs (that you hated..)Lol #cockerspaniel #RIP #DaizieDaCockaSpanielGirl #MyBestFriend🐾🌼🌈 #GoneWayToDamnEarly🐾😭🐕 https://www.instagram.com/p/CHF9kZzpHI8/?igshid=1xw15wcykxe67