#havent used that tag in while

[irrevocablecondition]

last sunday i was feeling very melancholic and had spent the night on call with my nan for hourssss talking about my transition. she stayed up with me for hours, we spoke about everything from my childhood signs, to my discovery, to my exploration and starting hormones etc etc, we spoke about everything.

but really it felt a bit like a funeral, that's how she described it. she said it felt like a eulogy of what it could have been because that entire phone call started with me saying i need to Stop. she got a random message from me asking if she'd be by my side if i detransitioned, so she called me and we spoke about so many things i hadn't told her before - all of the harrassments, the comments, the friendships that ended that i've pretended haven't for years. literally everything from the stabbing attempt last year to the friend that blocked me when i posted about my first day on T.

literally my entire life in this one phone call and she ended it with "just give it one more day". there's a small dent in the wall from my phone now because,,, what an infuriating reply, right? one more day. one more day??? no, i need to make a choice now? i'm so tired of waiting for things to make sense, i did that for years and then it Did and then it all fell to pieces because even One More Day is one more than they want me to have.

and then the next afternoon i set off to go to my seminar, and i'm walking along listening to a voice note i recorded over and over and over. one to be sent to my friends so that i don't have to type it. one that said it will take a while until i look like "myself" again, and i know this makes no sense to them and i'm glad it doesn't, but that they need to stop calling me robyn. a voice note, because it's easier to say my deadname than to see it written down. i don't know, it feels more official in letters. like maybe if i hear it enough it will blend in with every other sound. and i'm listening to this over and over in the hopes that i can build up the courage to send it.

and i step onto the bridge towards class, not looking where i'm going and i walk straightttt into someone and i'm all apologetic and i'm crying from the voice note and i'm a wreck but i walked into someone else who was typing on their phone

and there's a lil trans sticker on the back of it. and i've never seen this person before ever but they adjusted my tote bag on my shoulder because i was still apologising profusely and i said "i'm sorry" and they said "me too"

and i know we were talking about the crash. i know it's not what they meant because that's not what we were talking about but. idk. it's dumb and there's probably something poetic about us stepping onto the bridge at the same time and managing to bump right into each other but all i know is that they had a trans flag sticker on their phone and they smiled and they said "me too" and,,, idk. rambling.

but sometimes it really is just one more day. that's all you need sometimes. and sometimes you have to tell yourself that everyday, and that's okay. because other times you'll literally and physically bump into another trans person and they'll say "me too" for something entirely unrelated, but it makes you feel a little less alone regardless.

anyway, i'm saved in their phone as Robyn now and i think that's pretty cool actually, we're getting lunch together soon

[peskypixel]

i was so scared for him

[indigonite]

Happy Homestuck Day to those who still celebrate it (me)

[ashes-in-a-jar]

The duality of Jonathan Sims artists

[where-does-the-heart-lie]

tw: suicide mention

Stupidest thing? ive ever made?

Maybe~

audio from here

[dreamsy990]

drew some of my fav ody designs! wasnt originally meant to be also replicating the styles but thats sort of just how my brain works. except i didnt copy the lineart styles of anyone here so its DEFINITELY a bit uncanny for a couple of these (LOOKING AT YOU QINNY IM SO SORRY) but whatever

the designs featured here (from left to right) belong to: me, @gigizetz, @neal-illustrator, @irunaki, @bigidiotenergytm, @qinnyanimation, and @foopsie-daisy

[justladders]

Springtrap pec meme would be such enrichment methinks. Also please note Everything you draw pushes me closer to insanity in the best way

I'm assuming that was in reference to shirtless springtrap And then this pec meme

[deerspherestudios]

Hey cheea! Not sure if my question didn't get seen or gotten deleted after day 3 Release so I am gonna to make another one of Praising ya, I love LOVE Mushroom oasis and yours works in General! Love your characters as well but mycheal gotten my heart since I found out your game last year (Besides he being a yandere/be coming one) he's Reliable to me! Mycheal is favorite of mine so far and I love him as a person for that <3

Also u probably remember me by asking the Nickname Firefly for only Mc question from few months ago before day 3 was release Which I love the Reveal the Nickname of Firefly, I was in awe that Moment, It was sweet and tender 🥹

I Love all yours works and hope you doing great!

P.S here is a fanart of Mycheal and my Oc of Keychains like because why not?

Thank you for Reading me if you see this! 💜💜

Ahh thank you for the kind words Bearz!! The keychain designs are so cute; I always clock in your artstyle immediately, it's so unique and recognizable off the bat!

I'm so glad a lot of people loved the nickname explanation, I personally wish I could make the words sound more romantic but coming from Mychael I guess that's the best he can do haha.

[catliker49]

(hoping this gif works this time...)

I don't like it all too much so I will redraw it eventually! The background is by @/partycoffin, I just touched it up so my Sona could sit on the rock rather than Julie : ~ ) Ah I also thought I'd say, because there is a lot of negativity online, please keep drawing no matter what anybody says about your work, or your characters, the way you do line art, how you shade, and so on and so forth - your art is so so amazing and numbers and algorithms don't dictate your arts worth Very out of the blue I know!! But I just wanted to say <: ~ )

Thank you all for supporting me genuinely, even knowing there is at least one person who likes my work makes my day, I'm rambling!! ANYWHO have a nice day!!!

[mmoofykins]

Mmmmnjjee thinking about them so bad

theres something about no color i really like

@tapakah0’s jacob‘s ladder au!!

[bigmammallama5]

Happy 10 years to @carmillaseries! Some things never change (but my energy levels sure do... how did I keep up with fandom back then??). Just a quick color sketch of my favorite vampire and salty gay. <3

[miiversian]

[zombieslab]

thumbs up emoji

[xxplastic-cubexx]

idec anymore. sending this out into the wild

[saoirseuwu]

Sean coming back to tumblr encouraged me to do this redraw again

Some long years of drawing him ey

[bananasofthorns]

for my final in my book arts basics class, we could do pretty much whatever we wanted as long as it used skills we'd learned in class. I decided to make a zine for the World Ender gang, as well as a box to hold them all in. this was a labor of love but I think everything turned out REALLY well--I hope you guys like it!

I made the zine using imagery and text from Lord Huron's The World Ender comic and their music video for "The World Ender." The box was completely handmade with book board and wrapped with lotka handmade paper (that I bought).

AND, if you're going to be at Lord Huron's May 29, May 31, or July 18 concerts, I'm planning to hand out copies of the zine to other fans, so keep an eye out! (my hair is neon green lol)